#my ovaries have been activated for evil again

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Never forget when he SERVED 🫦

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been seeing a lot of discourse lately and something about people using "women and afab" to caregorize gender like. idk man. afab/amab just kinda rubs me the wrong way.

what exactly are you trying to address when you are talking about these groups of people? what is the unifying factor here?

if it has to do with anatomy, then why can't we put the focus on that and move away from gender? it's easy to say "people with a uterus" or "people with a vulva" or "people with a penis" or "people who menstruate" "menstrual health" etc. organs don't necessarily = gender!

if it's about the (presumed) lived experience, you can say "people socialized as a woman" or "people socialized as a man" if you're talking about xyz factor of gender roles or societal expectations.

again i want to stress that these phrases are for when there is a relevant point you are trying to make by referring to a specific subset of people based on the trait in question. otherwise, why does gender even matter?

are you trying to exclude men from a space? ok, but why? because "men are biologically evil"? sounds terfy to me! yikes!

also! nonbinary people!!! why do you feel the need to....reduce them to their gender assigned at birth??? the amount of times i see posts talking about "women and afab nonbinary" or something like okay. so you acknowledge i am nonbinary but still lump me in with women because i happened to be born with a vag/ovaries/uterus? so you.....still just see me as a woman? cool cool cool.

and that's not to mention intersex people and those whose genitalia doesn't fit your "typical male/female" dichotomy, who are so often excluded from the conversation, even though they make up over 1% of the population.

and people who have had surgeries, either for aesthetic or medical or affirming or any reason they need?? like....it's actually none of your business??? unless you're actively having sex with the person why does it fucking matter what genitals they have??? why are you so hellbent on policing other people's bodies???

i don't exactly know where i was going with this and i know it's chaotic and disorganized but these thoughts have been swirling in my head and i needed to get them out. i'm just so tired of gender discourse honestly.

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I need to vent: I’ve wanted and needed a hysterectomy since I was 11 years old, but all I ever hear is “But you might want children someday!”

I'm 27 years old, a lesbian, asexual, and perpetually celibate for religious reasons (It's complicated, but nothing to do with viewing sex as sinful or evil. I don't believe in slut shaming. It's simply a choice I made because it felt right for me). I also have Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder, severe psychiatric disorders including suicidality, PTSD, severe panic disorder, anxiety disorder, anorexia, severe executive dysfunction, and an entire laundry list of other crippling disorders that have rendered me bedridden for almost 24 hours a day. The only time I leave my house is to see doctors, and the only way I can stand to do that is by heavily medicating myself with a battery of different (legal) drugs.

One of the problems that I've had ever since I started menstruating at age 11 is near-constant spotting and bleeding regardless of the current state of my menstrual cycle. I have been on almost every form of hormonal birth control available, including having received an excruciatingly-painful IUD that I still experience extremely upsetting flashbacks from to this day. There has never, ever been any form of hormone therapy that has stopped my spotting and bleeding, and I've already gone through laparoscopic surgery to rule out endometriosis and PCOS as potential causes. 

When I'm not on some kind of hormonal birth control, my periods are so heavy and painful only opioids can control the agony, and since the United States has begun treating the opioid crisis by denying them to virtually anyone that isn't dying or suffering from a "real disease", I no longer have access to adequate pain treatment. I currently take birth control pills year-round without stopping to menstruate because it's so painful I will self-harm or even attempt suicide to escape the pain. I wind up menstruating anyway, but at least with the BC in my system, the cramping is more tolerable.

The only viable remaining option I have left is a hysterectomy or full-on oophorectomy (where they remove everything, from ovaries to cervix). I have been asking and asking doctor after doctor to please, please, please approve the surgery as a necessary procedure for the sake of my quality of life so my insurance will cover the costs, but I am constantly disregarded, blown off, or fed watery excuses about how it's "too drastic" a step to take. The #1 excuse I always receive is "But you may want to have children someday!"

I am stridently childfree and have been my entire life. If you want to be a parent, that's cool; it's your body and your choice, so more power to you, but I absolutely hate children and refuse to be anywhere near my child relatives, and I am so riddled with disabilities and dysfunction that I could never, ever be a mother. Even still, I am constantly told that I'm too young for a hysterectomy and may someday change my mind about parenthood. Doctors simply will not take me seriously when I tell them that a major detrimental factor to my extremely poor mental and physical health is centered around my reproductive organs. When I start to PMS, I become dangerously suicidal and even less functional than I already am. "But you still might change your mind!" 

I've already been hospitalized on suicide watch once before, but hey, I still might change my mind, right? Because children always thrive when they witness their mother attempt suicide.

I am already regularly seeing a psychiatrist about my mental health, and I genuinely like my PCP. I already hang out around various support groups. I am being actively treated for every one of the dangerous symptoms that I have listed, but I continue to spiral because no one will agree with me that a hysterectomy would be a huge benefit to my quality of life. My PCP has been the only one to ever give me a different excuse besides the possibility of me changing my mind, and her reason for refusing to sanction the procedure thus far is because of a case that happened in my state where a woman agreed to getting a hysterectomy, and then sued her doctors when she later discovered that the surgery made her incapable of having children. There are times where I feel so frustrated and angry that I wish I knew who she was so I could throttle her with my bare hands for kneecapping my chances at ever getting approved for the surgery as a necessary treatment. 

The only chance I have at ever getting these awful, disgusting organs out of me is to try to find a surgeon that will perform an elective hysterectomy, which would cost me $30,000+ out of pocket. 

I say again, I am disabled. I don't have an income. I'm so disabled that I can't even make it into the welfare office to apply for disability benefits. Elective surgery is not an option for me.

I am so sick and tired of living with this, but I can't find help in any quarter. All I ever receive are more and more prescriptions for psychiatric medications, and they never work. I have been around the block with medication so many times that my psychiatrist is just astonished and increasingly at a loss for how to provide me with effective care other than, you know, confirming that this surgery really is the only thing that can provide me with a modicum of relief.

I'm just so tired. I'm tired of the stains. I'm tired of the smell. I'm tired of the pain. I'm tired of the bloating. I'm just so tired, I sometimes wish I would hurry up and hemorrhage out so I don't have to be stuck in this broken body anymore. I don't have any kind of gender dysphoria (I 100% support trans rights and absolutely respect them, no questions asked other than "What are your preferred pronouns?") - I fully identify as female, but being born female has felt like nothing but a punishment and a slow, slow death sentence. 

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I was tagged by @starsinursa. Thank you!

Rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

1. last drink: Coffee

2: last phone call: My husband

3. last text message: My tumblr two step activation code. Cause my laptop crashed and burned and I had to reinstall and re-sign into everything.

4. last song you listened to: Whatever was last at the superbowl halftime show.

5. last time you cried: I don’t remember, probably some sappy commercial.

6. dated someone twice: Kinda? He refused to call it dating until well after we were reunited, so I don’t know if the breakup was ever technically a breakup? Relationships are weird. Rest under the cut.

7. kissed someone and regretted it?: Not kissing specifically, no...

8. been cheated on?: Nope.

9. lost someone special?: Unfortunately.

10. been depressed?: Yes. I technically scored as mildly depressed about a year ago, but it wasn’t severe enough for medication. 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up?: Ugh, yes. Tequila is evil.

fave colors

12. Blue

13. Teal

14. Purple

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends?: Not really. I have within the last two years though.

16: fallen out of love?: Not in the least.

17. laughed until you cried?: Yep. We have had a few game nights that ended up at this point.

18. found out someone was talking about you?: Considering I applied for a different position in my company, I know for a fact they were talking about me. If you mean in a backstabbing way, then no.

19. met someone who changed you?: Nope.

20. found out who your friends are?: I already knew. ;)

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list?: Well. Yeah. My husband. This list was definitely made for teens, wasn’t it?

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl?: All but three, and I’m pretty damn close with them, too.

23. do you have any pets?: Two kitties.

24. do you want to change your name?: I used to want to really bad. Got over it at some point.

25. what did you do for your last birthday?: Played games and chilled with my hubby. My next birthday is about three weeks away and I plan on playing more Artemis. So much fun.

26. What time did you wake up today? Uhhhh.... Noon. I work from home, and with a downed laptop, I just didn’t care.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?: Reading in bed. Probably on my phone, articles and stuff, before switching to my Kindle.

28. what is something you can’t wait for?: Seeing my sister again. She moved across the country last year and I miss her.

29. What are you listening to right now?: Grey’s Anatomy is on in the background.

30. have you ever talked to a person named tom?: Yessss? What a weird question. My BF’s friend’s dad is named Tom. Actually, I know a lot of Toms from that generation.

31. something that’s getting on your nerves?: STUPID LAPTOPS THAT COST A FORTUNE AND ARE SHIT

32. most visited website: *sigh* The honest answer to this is riptidepublishing.com. It’s the company I work for.

33. hair color: That nebulous shade that no one can decide if it’s dark blonde or light brown, with red undertones.

34. long or short hair: Medium. Shoulder length right now, then I let it grow to my boobs before I cut it again.

35. do you have a crush on someone?: Only if my husband or actors count.

36. what do you like about yourself?: My brain. My mbti test tells me I’m good at dreaming up ideas and equally good at having the logic, organization, and critical thinking to see those ideas through. This is incredibly true.

37. want any piercings?: No. My ears are enough.

38. blood type: I have no idea. XD

39. nicknames: Kel.

40. relationship status: Married. 

41. zodiac: Pisces, first zodiac. Meaning I have a hint of Aquarius to me. (And I do.)

42. pronouns: She/ her

43. fave tv shows: Out of the current lineup? Supernatural, Game of Thrones, Grey’s Anatomy, Lucifer, Archer. I also watch a ton of ice figure skating.

44. tattoos: No.

45. right or left handed: Right.

46. ever had surgery?: Yeah, I had a cyst on my right ovary the size of a small watermelon. That was fun.

47. piercings?: Just ears.

48. sport: As I said, I watch a ton of figure skating. As for playing something, I’ll pass.

49. vacation: My dream vacation is Paris. But I love everywhere we go. The beach, the mountains, Vegas, other cities... I like a little bit of it all.

50. trainers: …I assume you mean sneakers/tennis shoes and are British, but I’m still confused why anyone would find that interesting. Asics, currently. New Balance usually.

more general:

51. eating: We’re having burrito bowls for dinner?

52. drinking: Water right now. Coke Vanilla zero with dinner.

53. i’m about to watch: Currently watching Grey’s Anatomy. We’ll probably watch Supernatural or X-Files with dinner.

54. waiting for: My laptop to get its head out of its ass.

55. want: More cats. All the cats. And all the money. And this job with my work.

56. get married: Already am, and I love it. Helps that I love him to bits.

57. career: I work for an LGBTQ publisher and it is truly, in nearly every way possible, the perfect job for me.

which is better:

58. hugs or kisses: Hugs, cause they are easier and more socially acceptable to share.

59. lips or eyes: Eyes.

60. shorter or taller: Taller. Says the 5′ 0″ chick.

61. older or younger: Older? Hubby is four years older than me anyway.

62. nice arms or stomach: Legs.

63. hookup or relationship: Relationship. I would be horrible at hookups.

64. troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant. My mom never worried an ounce about me when I was a teen.

have you ever:

65. kissed a stranger: No.

66. drank hard liquor: Yep. Crown Apple is the bomb.

67. lost glasses: I “lost” a pair in the sense that I left them in a drawer of a nightstand in Vegas. Ugh, so mad about that.

68. turned someone down: Yeah, actually. Don’t know how that ever happened.

69. sex on first date: Lol. I’ve only ever been with my husband (life just worked out that way) and he didn’t want to do it until we were married. He cracked a two years. (Though given that he wouldn’t say we were dating, that might still count? lol)

70. broken someones heart: No.

71. had your heart broken: Oh yeah.

72. been arrested: Nope. See statement about being so “good” that my mom never worried about me.

73. cried when someone died: Ridiculous amounts. Every time.

74. fallen for a friend: Not really.

do you believe in:

75. yourself: Some days.

76. miracles: Yeah.

77. love at first sight: I believe it happens, yes. It’s just rare.

78. santa clause: I believe in the magic of Santa.

79. kiss on a first date: Yeah, why not? As long as both want it.

80. angels: Not really, I’m a fairly strong atheist-agnostic.

80.5. Ghosts: Yes. I’ve heard too many stories to doubt that. One came from my mom and the hospital she works at, and she is not prone to fancy or fantasy.

other:

81. best friend’s name: Tammy. Wow, I guess some things never change. I’ve known her since I was 5.

82. eye color: Blue.

83. favorite movie: The Princess Bride.

84. fave actor: Misha Collins. Obvs.

This legit did not have 85 questions, so I added one under the “believe” section. You’re welcome.

And I legit can not think of people to tag right now, other than the one or two I always tag. (You know who you are...) So feel free to say I tagged you if you want.

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From poison to lifeline – how my views on chemotherapy changed as a cancer patient

Cancer survivor Brooke Grant tells us about her experiences with chemotherapy.

In 2017, I started off being a normal, very active, fit young woman. I was also newly married with lots of goals and plans for the future. All of that quickly changed when I was rushed to the emergency room with extreme hip and abdominal pain. Fast forward a couple of weeks and I was being wheeled into an operating room.

Fears of what I could potentially wake up to were flooding my mind. I was only 32 with a large mass on my ovary, but I instinctively knew that I would wake up to a cancer diagnosis.

I never thought I would face a serious illness since I had always been healthy. Yet here I was, very aware that my life was about to change forever. I was dreading that chemotherapy would likely be in my near future. I was indeed, diagnosed with a rare and aggressive form of ovarian cancer, clear cell, and I was prescribed six rounds of an intense chemo regimen.

“Initially, I couldn’t even say the word chemo. I informed friends and family to refer to it as my ‘treatment”

Initially, I couldn’t even say the word chemo. I immediately informed friends and family to refer to it as my “treatment”. That word didn’t seem quite as scary – it didn’t have the same negative connotation. I definitely viewed it as a necessary evil. It was causing me to put my life on hold. It was robbing me of my passions, future plans, and everything that made me an independent, outgoing woman. I loved working out, having long, flowing hair, and being able to do what I wanted when I wanted without a care in the world. I was looking forward to one day having children with my husband and us growing old together.

According to me, chemo was going to take all of that away. I would become too weak to exercise, be completely bald, and I had to be careful where I went so I wouldn’t get sick. Not only that, but I lost my fertility and had no idea if I would ever have the opportunity to spend a long life with my husband. Rather than solely blaming cancer for these changes, I blamed a majority of it on chemotherapy.

As I went into the chemo room for the first time, I had a total breakdown. It was intimidating to see the machines and chairs lined up. I saw all of these tubes that would flush toxins into my body, and I burst out crying. I felt like I was trapped in a nightmare. I thought if cancer didn’t kill me then these drugs surely would. I had acquaintances, who thought they were helping me, constantly reminding me that I was “harming” my body with my treatment choice. I was certain that I would never have a positive opinion of the drugs being used to treat my condition.

However, my experience began to change how I viewed it all. My oncologist, nurses and other patients were so kind and supportive. I expected it to be a gloomy, depressing room, but instead there were jokes, laughter and love with total strangers. It became a safe place that was initially making me feel ill, but eventually would be what gave me my health and life back. I began to view my chemotherapy drugs as my lifeline and not as poison. I eventually learned to dance in the rain – at least, the best I could. I saw that I was losing my physical strength, but I was building inner strength. Yes, I still had fears. I was insecure and disliked all of the changes I was going through, but altering my perspective on my treatment helped me to get through an extraordinarily difficult time in my life.

When chemo was over, it was overwhelming to try and pick up the pieces. I often felt defeated. I thought while everyone else my age was living life during the past seven months, my life had been put on hold. I had to work on the physical and emotional recovery as well as to create new future plans. Cancer wreaked havoc on my life, and I felt I was starting over again. I had no idea how to even begin, but at least at this point I knew it was cancer to blame.

What helped me get through this tough time was focusing on how blessed I was that these brutal drugs had given me the chance to put myself back together. Ultimately they saved my life, thus I was able become a more empathetic, understanding, and loving woman who stresses less and is happier than ever. Yes, I temporarily lost who I was, but I gained it all back in spades.

This experience transformed me more than I can express, which initially scared me. I liked who I was, but I ended up loving who I’ve become. I wish I had never gone through this, but I am grateful for the new perspective on cancer treatments. I will forever be appreciative to the doctors, nurses, and medicines that gave me back my health. Thanks to everyone who helped me and the chemotherapy drugs given, I can now proudly describe myself as an ovarian cancer survivor and advocate.

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[fkmarrycill]

I would be a gangster moll (or UK equivalent) so fast... 🫦💦

[fkmarrycill]

Um... If he had done a movie looking like this? I would've died in my seat..🫦💦🔥