#my only long term goal was to travel internationally and. well. frankly. it is likely not safe for me to do so anymore. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

cerbreus · 1 month ago

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last year my worries were 'am i ever going to find love again'

this year my worries are 'how many days until i can no longer safely leave my own state? city? will i even make it to 40? is there any hope of a future for myself and the people i love?'

definitely great for the psyche

#sorryyy #adding into the chorus of people struggling to even conceive of a future for themselves anymore #personal stuff #my only long term goal was to travel internationally and. well. frankly. it is likely not safe for me to do so anymore.#not if i want to keep my only internationally recognized ID... is it worth the risk?#my other long term goal was to go back to school #haha oh wait they're... dismantling the education department.... we'll likely lose any and all international accreditation too...#so that feels like it just shriveled up.#best i got is maybe. seeing some friends while i still can. going to some parks while they're still there.#after that i don't know. i don't know what any year holds and every day that nothing happens. nothing gets done. nobody intervenes.#every lingering speck of hope just gets blown away

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