#my only decent housemates moved out together before i did (because they were girlfriends so they could get their own place together)

[valtsv]

my old roommates were actually so hellish tbh i literally told them i suffered from psychotic symptoms because none of my appeals to them asking them nicely and to just ask me and clean up after if they needed to borrow my kitchen equipment or use my toiletries or food because they'd run out and it was too late to go to the store (or ask me to run to the store for them and get it!) worked. and they were like "oh man that sounds really scary :( sorry i had no idea" and then they STILL kept using my kitchen equipment without asking and leaving it dirty in the sink and stealing my food and soap and toothpaste until i was forced to start keeping a journal where i wrote down everything i did and at what time i did it like i was some kind of secret agent spying on my own life to confirm to myself that i wasn't just making shit up in my head and fucking defend myself, because before i started doing that one of them left her antidepressant meds out where MY cat could have gotten them and poisoned himself then blamed ME for it even though i didn't take the same prescription as her and wasn't even on antidepressants at the time, and when i said as much claimed that there was no way to trust i was telling the truth because i was psychotic. and everyone agreed with her because they were all guilty of using my stuff and refused to admit it, and left me to deal with the guilt and fear of being an animal abuser because i was too mentally ill to care for him! absolutely fucking insane. i should have moved out sooner.

[amara-scott]

Broken Dream.

part four

Movie: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

Characters: Draco Malfoy x Reader.

I actually sat at the Slytherin table for breakfast. I still couldn't believe it. Especially the stares that were sent my way when I walked with Draco. He shut up his friends by simply giving them a look and they treated me- decently, to be fair. Wouldn't have asked for more.

Blaise was especially nice, and even Pansy seemed to warm up to me. I don't know if it was genuine, but in that moment I just wanted to show Maya how well I could live without her. Without her drama and her accusations. She was so open when we became roommates and soon to be best friends.

She was a true Ravenclaw.

We shared the weirdest moments. I just remember seeing her lying on the carpet in our bedroom, very first day of Hogwarts, trying to figure out if she could play cards upside down without magic and how gravity affected her blood flow. And I played along.

But now she is someone else. I don't blame her for changing, we all do. A few months ago I wouldn't have believed anyone who would have told me that Draco and I would be- close.

"So you're coming to Hogsmeade with us later?" I look up at Blaise and he smiles over. I nod, taking another bite of my English muffin.

"Awesome, now we have six people in our double-"

"-Blaise, how is your mom doing?" I glance at Draco, his eyes trained on Blaise, who looks a little taken aback.

"Uh- great! She's fine, why?" Draco shrugs, eating his eggs and I furrow my eyes but smile at him. He is indeed odd.

On our way down the cold path, we all hug our jackets and scarfs tighter. Some Slytherin couples were also coming along. In fact, only couples. Even Pansy had a guy she is clinging to- but not without giving Draco a glance ever so often. But he ignores her, walking beside me and talking to me softly, his blue eyes sparkling when we exchange words.

But there was something- a hesitant feeling between us. Not a tension, but it seems like something is crushing down on him, slowly. And I wonder why he wouldn't tell me.

"How long have you been a couple now?" I glance to my right, making sure the red haired girl is indeed talking to me. I take a double glance and her icy blue orbs bore into me.

"Me- and Draco?" I ask and her boyfriend and the girl are chuckling, holding hands now.

"Yes." She confirms and dips her chin low while doing so. I sigh, only catching Draco's side eye briefly before shaking my head.

"We're not dating." I say and try to laugh my inner awkward self off, but she just raises an eyebrow and nods slowly.

"Right." She says and smirks towards her boyfriend. I hold back any comments, turning forward again. Well, that's not weird at all. And Draco didn't even say-

"-she wishes though, I'll let her date me if she transfers to Slytherin. Maybe." He then speaks up and I grin at him. The red haired girl laughs and the rest of the group does too. I shake my head at him and he winks, placing an arm around my shoulders now.

It still wasn't gone. That feeling about him.

Luckily The Three Broomsticks was close to the train station so we didn't have to spend too much time in the cold, freezing our toes off.

Inside we sit at a large table in the corner. All couples together, and I get the feeling that I am set up with Draco on purpose. I actually already had that feeling as soon as everyone joined us at the train station.

"He's staring." Draco mumbles under his breath, only me hearing him. I glance up at him and follow his intense glare. That could usually only mean one thing.

Harry Potter. And there he sits with his friends. Ron and Hermione. Harry is looking at me but casts his eyes down as soon as I catch him. I frown, he must be like the others, wondering what I am doing with Slytherins, especially Draco. I fold my hands on the table, pulling and twisting my fingers. But not popping them- I hate when people do that.

"Let him, he's not harming anyone." I reply and wait for him to meet my eyes. After a few seconds he sighs, looking back at me. And there it is again, that look in his eyes. I can't describe it.

"Everything okay?" I whisper, not in the mood to draw any more attention to me. He nods hesitantly, looking down at my hands and taking one into his, holding my fingers, playing with the ring on my pointy finger. The ring.

"What's this one for? You never told me." He asks, rolling it around my finger, trying to take a better look at it. I don't know how I could forget about it.

"Cedric gave it to me." I whisper and see his hand stop in its movements before he continues. He probably saw that coming. I carefully take my hand from his and put them in my lap. I twist off the ring as Draco sits up straight, his hands in his own lap. He clenches his jaw and doesn't look at me. Even after I say his name softly.

I place the ring into my pocket, reaching out and grasping his hand in mine again. And he focuses on my fingers, the ring now gone.

He looks up at me, frowning and I sigh, giving him a small smile. He returns it and I finally can connect to some of the Slytherins. They aren't nearly as bad as everyone makes them out to be. Just really witty and quite funny.

But you could definitely tell they belong into Slytherin.

Draco's attention never really left Harry and only twenty minutes into arriving and having good conversations, he stands up in a swift motion, making his way around the table and walking straight to the trio. I jump up and follow him. Just like the eyes of his housemates.

"What is your problem, Potter." He spits his name like its made of venom, folding his arms across his chest. Harry seems startled but stands up, just a tad shorter than Draco.

Hermione glares at Draco along with Ron. I step forward and place a hand on his shoulder but he doesn't take his eyes off Harry.

"What do you mean, Malfoy." Harry tries to sound just as hateful as Draco but to be honest, he was too good to sound cruel.

"You know exactly what I mean." He says through gritted teeth, hand over his pocket, ready to pull out his wand but I hold his arm, his eyes finally glancing at me, if only briefly.

"Leave them alone, Draco. Please." I say, hoping to sound convincing.

"Listen to your new girlfriend, Malfoy." Ron suddenly speaks up with a snarl and I am nearly too slow, Draco's wand points at Ron, ready to cast a spell.

"Stop!" I pull at his wrist, taking his wand but glare at Ron. I never did anything to them.

"Why do we have to fight?" I ask, trying to figure out the reason. But Hermione beats me to it.

"Because- because your death eater friend is fighting for the wrong side." She whispers hastily and jumps up and storms off, Ron and Harry quick to follow. Hermoine nearly seemed to regret what she said after the words spilled out of her mouth. Her wide eyes going back to me a few times before she is out.

I am frozen to the spot, scared to make a wrong move. Was she serious? How would she now? A Death Eater? Cedric was most likely killed by one of them- I speculated for a long time after his death. And Harry was the only one in the maze with him when it happened. He saw the Dark Lord. I believed him. I still do.

I don't look over, even after hearing him whisper my name multiple times. Before I can even say anything, I turn away and run out quickly, running until there is no more air in my lungs. And I happen to see Hermione's curly hair. I take a big breath and jog towards them.

"Hey- Hermione, Harry! Wait!" They stop and turn around, confused but curious.

"What do you want?" Ron steps forward and glares, I frown, holding my arm and playing with the fabric of my jacket.

"I- I didn't-"

"-Ron! Stop it!" Hermione hits him over the head, he winces and glares at her but she looks at me. Like she wants to apologize.

"How do you know?" I ask before she can say anything and they all look at each other. My eyes drifting from Hermione to Ron to Harry and back.

"(Y/N), I'm sorry. It's just obvious, isn't it?" Harry speaks up, tilting his head to the side slightly. I feel overwhelmed, my heart beating fast and I suddenly am warm.

"Why- how would it be obvious? And why do you hate me so much?" I look directly at Ron at the end, but he focuses his eyes on my shoes.

"Don't mind him, he's a bloody idiot." Hermione says and Ron rolls his eyes, finally looking up at me.

"Are you one of them too? A- death eater?" He whispers the last words and leans forward a few inches, glancing around to make sure nobody heard.

"Why would I? You know what happened to Cedric. How could I ever support-" I drift off, shaking my head at his question. I lose focus and realize my blurry vision. The first warm tear rolls down my cheek, I look up. But it doesn't help.

"Can you think before you talk? Just for once?" Hermione scolds him and steps forward, placing a hand on my shoulder.

"(Y/N)!" We all turn to the voice behind me, Draco runs up, catching his breaths as he slows down. He tries not to look at them. I can see it. And I am glad he didn't make a rude remark. Yet.

"What?" I ask, crossing my arms and sucking my lower lip between my teeth. The tears roll nonetheless.

"Are you coming back? I need to talk to you." He sounds weak, his voice deeper and I glance back at the three for a second. They're all looking, Harry seems even more confused than me.

"I don't know. I think I should go home-"

"-please, (Y/N)-" He turns his head to the side for a second, licking his upper lip and mumbling words before turning back to face me. "-Just talk to me, okay?" He blinks a few times and now I see the redness in them, he digs his hands into his pockets.

"Okay." I whisper back and cross my arms, holding my elbows in my hands. I look back at them one last time, waving. "Get home safe." I say and they all nod, Hermoine pulling Ron and Harry gives me one last glance. I nod at him and he sighs, walking off.

"Do you believe them?" I turn back towards him. Brows pushed together tightly as I try to think. I squeeze my eyes shut, more tears falling down. I feel his hands on my upper arms and open my eyes. I look up at him.

"I don't know." I get out before sobbing, my whole view on him shifting back and forth. How could I be so blind? It would make sense. Of course it does. But I can't handle the pressure of choosing, not again. I already lost my friends and people who I loved.

He wants to take me into his arms. Hugging is rare with him and I hate that I am denying him. But I take a step back. "I'm sorry, Draco." I can't say more before turning around and walking quickly. I would walk all the way home back to Hogwarts if I'd have to.

And this time, he doesn't call my name.

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part one | part two | part three | part four | part five | part six *coming soon*

[bardanameeks]

The Masquerade Ball

Who: @doveportdanam​ and @doveportcharles​

When: 29th February

Notes: Charlie and Dana spend time at the ball to then go home with each other in the hopes of sex, ends up with them cuddling until they fall asleep. 

dana

Dana was glad she was spending time at the masquerade ball working behind the bar, she was just gutted she couldn't drink the drinks but she also accepted it because there was not much she could do. She was glad her dress covered her baby bump, because she still wasn't sure what to do. She stood there as she looked over at the bar before noticing Charlie at the bar and she let out a slight smile before she looked over at him for  a moment, "Well Hi, don't you look handsome." She smiled slightly looking at him.

charlie

Charlie was already a few drinks in. He didn’t really know what to expect when he game to this thing but it seemed like everyone was having a good time and Charlie liked when people had a good time, it made him happy seeing people with smiles on their faces. He’s taking a sip of his whiskey on the rocks when Dana approaches him. He gives her a sincere smile and he can feel himself blush slightly at her comment. “Hey...I just kinda threw this on, no biggie.” He shrugged with a small laugh. “You look beautiful, you shouldn’t be behind the bar working, you should be out there dancing, having fun before you can’t anymore.” Charlie mentions.

dana

Dana stood there as she looked at him and laughed at his response, she knew he was still trying to get to grips with what was about to happen to his life. “Of course that’s how you’d play it out! Don’t lie you wanted to look hot!” She laughed a little before smiling a little, “Thank you. I mean I can still dance, I just can’t drink. No matter what baby bump I have I will still be able to rock some kind of moves and still look hot.” She smiled over at the guy, “I just volunteered to work behind bar to help everyone out and make the night more bare able because I can’t be drunk. So will you get drunk for me?”

charlie

Charlie circled the bar to come up behind it, next to Dana. “You never know who’s watching. Of course I wanted to look good.” He chuckles with a wink. He brought his hands up to her shoulders and massaged her skin gently. He always got sort of handsy when he had been drinking. “You should take a break, go dance or sit for a sec. I can watch over the bar if you’d like.” He tells her sincerely

dana

Dana smiled as he looked over at him as he walked behind it, this was probably the first time they had been this close in a while. She smiled and laughed, "Of course you did, And I don't blame you, but you know you don't need to look good to catch a girls attention." She laughed a little before she felt his hands on her shoulders, she knew she should probably stop him but she didn't care to at that moment. "But are you sure? Like I offered to do this but you didn't." She asked looking over at him for a moment.March 9, 2020

charlie

Charles didn’t say anything to that. He felt like his attention catching days were gonna be over soon anyway. Soon he’d have a kid and who knows how much things will change. He squeezed her shoulders once more before dropping his hands. “I’m sure, go, have fun, gets some food. I’ll watch over things here.” He told her as he started to clean some things up. “Talk me up to the ladies and fellas.” He winks

dana

Dana looked over at him as he stopped touching her shoulders and she felt like she had hurt him in some way. She smiled softly as she nodded, “well if you’re sure I will go. I will try my best.” She smiled as she left the table and danced a little before she hugged a friend and then walked back to the table, “How was I?” She laughed a little.

charlie

Charles served a few drinks, flirted with some guys and girls as he watched the pregnant girl dance. He was glad to give her a break so she could have fun, after all she was basically making a human being in her body. That seemed exhausting.  As she comes up to the bar he pours her a cup of cold water. “Here, you need to stay hydrated.” He says with a soft smile. “You were great. Really.” He wiped down the bar and looked over at her again.

dana

Dana looked at him as she took the cup of water and took a sip of it. She smiled, “Thanks for that. I needed it.” She smiled as she placed her hand on her bump. “Well I am very glad you think I was great. So how was the bar?”

charlie

“You don’t want to take a seat? You’ve been on your feet for hours.” He tells her. “Bar was fine. Nothing special.” Charlie grabs another cup with ice and pours himself some more whiskey. The alcohol is making him sweat so he pulls on his bow tie, loosening it up and unbuttoning some of his shirt underneath.

dana

Dana sighed, “But I am meant to be serving, and I promised I wouldn’t let this get me down or stop me from doing something.” She smiled before looking over at him for a moment, “Are you okay?”

charlie

“Dana, you’re pregnant. That doesn’t make you weak for wanting to take care of yourself and stay healthy. You can’t over work yourself, it’s not good for you or the baby. I’m sure there are other staff that can take over.” He says as he takes another sip of his drink. He wasn’t mad or anything, maybe a just a bit agitated that Dana maybe wasn’t taking care of herself. And he didn’t want to tell her what to do but he didn’t want anything as to happen. He was getting more used to the idea that soon he’d have something that was his to care for and if anything happened to his child he didn’t know what he’d do. “I’m fine. Just hot.”

dana

Dana sighed and looked down for a moment, “I guess you’re right I’m just not used to slowing down.” She sighed a little looking over at him for a moment, she was glad that he was finally seeing the fact that he cared. “Well did you wanna go outside for fresh air, I’ll come with?”

charlie

Charlie bites his lip and sighs. He can feel his anxiety bubbling up again and he hated it. His anxiety was the reason he had showed up at Peyton’s last time and found out about his feelings for her. He figured it would go away and he was just feeling lonely because he was drunk, but the feelings continued to linger. He didn’t know what would happen if he went outside with Dana. He tends to do stupid shit when he’s drunk and lonely, like sleep with Dana in the first place.  But shut happens, right? Maybe he wants to like Dana in the way he loves likes Peyton. It definitely would be easier if they dated since they were having a child together. But what if he couldn’t commit? What if he ends up cheating on her like he did with his first serious girlfriend? God, his mind was racing. Maybe he did need fresh air. He nods. “Okay.” He whispers at Dana.

dana

Dana stood there, she looked around for a moment as she ran a hand through her hair. Her life was changing and she had to accept it. She could sense something was wrong and she didn’t know what but she shrugged and walked towards the door, “So what’s going Charlie? Seriously are you okay? I know the last time we properly spoke well over text it wasn’t great and I’m sorry about that.”

charlie

Charlie walks with her and composes himself once again. He was fine, it was just the alcohol talking. As soon as they’re outside he takes a deep breath and the chilly air helps ground him. “Yeah, I’m good, I’m fine.” He tells her. He can’t break down now. He can’t be weak for Dana. He needs to be strong, be her rock. Not the other way around. “Like I said, it was just hot in there.”(edited)

dana

Dana stood there, she ran a hand through her hair for a moment, as she let the cold hit her for a moment and she smiled, “if you say so but I don’t think it’s because you’re hot but I’m not going to push you.”

charlie

Charlie purses his lips and nods. “Good.” He tells her and he can feel himself reverting back into the closed up asshole he didn’t mean to be. He just hated talking about his feelings with others. He really only trusted Peyton with that. He finishes his drink and sets the cup down on a ledge before turning to Dana. She did look extra glowy and pretty. “Do you think it would be a bad idea if we slept together again?” He asks her.

dana

Dana stood there as she ran a hand through her hair for a moment and shrugged for a moment. Was there a part of her who wished they could communicate like people who were together could? Yes but she knew it wouldn’t happen with them. She laughed a little, “well I couldn’t get more pregnant so, I wouldn’t say no.”

charlie

Charles knew this wasn’t the best idea but with all the alcohol clouding his judgement he didn’t really care. “Wanna come back to my place?”

dana

Dana looked at him, she had to question it, she was meant to be working bar, but she had craved sex for a longtime especially since being pregnant so when he offered she wouldn’t say no.”Well sure I would love to.”

charlie

Charlie grinned as he headed back inside and slipped a staff member a couple large bills so he could watch over the bar before calling an Uber for him and Dana. “You have all your stuff with you?”(edited)

dana

Dana hadnt come with much, just her leather jacket she had on her. She smiled looking over at the guy beside her, “I have everything.Dont you worry.”

charlie

Charlie nods and walks them out to their car and he opens the door for Dana, getting in after her. The drive back to Charlie’s place wasn’t long. He lived near by in a nice area of town, next to the beach. His house was a very decent size and well kept. On arrival he once again helped out Dana and walked her to his place. And as the alcohol was wearing out he was becoming tired. He honestly wasn’t even in the mood for sex, he just wanted someone around. His house was too big for just him.

dana

Dana was unsure as to why she agreed, it’s not like she was drunk. At this point it was possible that she just wanted company since her housemate probably had Avery over after the party. As she walked to his place, she walked in and looked over at him for a moment. “This might be the first time sober in your house.”

charlie

Charlie let out a small laugh. “Well, I certainly am not sober.” He says as he takes off his coat and sets in on a chair he has in the entrance. He then leads her up the stairs to his bedroom. His bedroom is the the entire upper level of the house and includes it’s own walk in closet and huge bathroom. “Do you mind if I get more comfortable? Do you want to get out of that dress? Take off your shoes. You can’t be comfortable in those heels.” He says as he’s shrugging off his shirt.

dana

Dana looked over at him for a moment and laughed before she followed him up the stairs. She made it up but felt worn out by walking up the stairs. She nodded, “Go for it. I mean the heels ain’t comfortable so you know I was planning on taking them off.” She laughed a little as she took her shoes off, as she tried to undo her dress herself.

charlie

After Charlie takes off his shirt he goes into his closet, taking his pants off and slipping on a pair of joggers and grabbing a Graphic tee. He ends up grabbing a two maybe Dana wanted one. When’s he coming back he sees the woman struggling to undo her dress and Charles comes up behind her. “Hey, here, let me help.” His fingers follow down to the zipper and he slowly undoes the dress.

dana

Dana was happy to just be around someone tonight, it was comfort. As Charles helped her with her dress, she couldn’t help but be happy, “Thank you, that really is helpful.” She smiled looking over at him now that the dress was undone but part of her felt uncomfortable getting out of the dress completely in front of him for some reason.

charlie

He nods and takes a step back to let her undress, after a moment he remembered that he had brought her a shirt. “Oh, here. I brought you this so you could be more comfy.” He hands her the shirt but doesn’t bother putting his on. He was still running hot. Her turns around to grab the remote off his bedside and turns on the tv, just to make it less awkward, then he lays in his bed, surfing the channels. “What do you wanna watch?”

dana

She smiled as she looked at him, “Thank you.” She smiled looking over at him for a moment, she heard the TV and she ran a hand through her hair as she slid the dress on and then put the shirt he gave her. She looked at him, “Sounds cheesy and cringe kind of but maybe Madagascar?”

charlie

He raises a brow. “Huh, so you got a thing for Alex the lion I see.” He chuckles and nods. “I do guess Ben Stiller could be sexy.” He smiles and he searches for the movie on Netflix. He also makes a space on the bed for her to join. “Are you gonna lay with me or what?”

dana

Dana laughed a little, “Well his voice is pretty great and I love lions.” She laughed a little as she soon noticed him make space for her and she nodded as she joined him on the bed before glancing at him for a moment.

charlie

“Are you ogling me?” He asks with a smile. “I know I’m pretty but don’t objectify me please.” He says jokingly to her. In all honesty Charlie loved the attention. He knew he was good looking and he loved getting compliments.

dana

Dana laughed a little as she ran a hand through her hair shaking her head for a moment,  “Can’t help it. Sorry.” She laughed as she shrugged for a moment.

charlie

Charlie grinned as he turned to face her. “Okay, I guess I can make an exception for you but only you.” He reaches out to push her hair back from her face and sighs. “You’re really pretty. This baby is gonna be really pretty.” He looks down between them to her belly. Her bump was already noticeable but it didn’t freak Charlie out. Inside Charlie felt excited almost. Maybe he really did want this but he was just afraid of not being good enough. “Do you think I’m gonna be a good dad?”

dana

Dana smoked and laughed a little, “I am glad that you will make an exception for me.” She smiled as she watched over at him and smiled for a moment, “Thank you. I hope the baby is pretty. They will have my prettiness and you’re good looks.” She smiled fir a moment before nodding, “ I really do think you will be a great dad, you just need to believe in yourself more.”

charlie

Charlie nods with a soft smile, his arm wrapping around her waist, pulling her closer to him. “It’s gonna be gorgeous, people will be jealous.” He chuckled softly. “You’re gonna be such a good mom. I know it.” He tells her quietly as his hand rubs her lower back.

dana

Dana smiled softly, as time went be she was getting excited to be a mom it all scared her but it was excitement fear now. She smiled, “Well you’re sweet to say that. I hope I will be a good mom.”

charlie

Charlie leans forward and kisses her forehead. “You will be.” He nods. He shifts his body slightly so that he can lay on her chest, his arms wrapped around her as he gets comfortable.

dana

Feeling his kiss on the forehead made her smile for a short moment before she saw him move. Her natural response was to stoke his hair as laid on her chest.

charlie

Charlie leans into her touch feeling better than he had in a long time. He felt comfortable and safe and he loved her fingers combing through his hair. It relaxed him and he could feel a wave a sleepiness hit him. He let out and a soft enjoyable groan.  “ ‘m sorry we didn’t have sex tonight.” He mumbles softly.

dana

Dana sat there as she continued to stroke through his hair for a moment as she looked at him as he spoke, “You don’t have to be sorry.” She smiled as she felt relaxed for once.

charlie

“Okay.” He says quietly, his eyes starting to flutter closed. He was exhausted. “You’re gonna stay the night, right?” He asked  hopefully.

dana

She laid there for a moment, “if you’ll let me stay then yes I will stay the night.” She said through a quiet yawn.

charlie

Charlie nods as a response and his grip loosens a bit as he begins to drift off to sleep. It had been quite a night but he felt like things were finally falling into place.

dana

Dana felt comfortable and relaxed and as she noticed he had fallen asleep, she slowly drifted off too.