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quatregats · 11 months ago

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No actually in all honesty I feel like last time I went to India at 12 I had a tiny bit of impostor syndrome but was mostly very comfortable there, whereas in the ensuing 10+ years, I've somehow gotten really bad impostor syndrome about being Indian at all and have managed to gaslight myself into thinking that I have no knowledge of anything to do with being Malayalee, which is....truly fascinating, to say the least. Anyways needless to say that the second I got off the plane is Trivandrum I was immediately cured of that notion :')

#like yeah okay i am not malayalee in the way that so-and-so is or i'm not indian like so-and-so else but that's irrelevant #my mom is american i am also american but that doesn't preclude me from also being malayalee #doesn't mean that i need to feel like a stranger in kerala and in fact i did not feel like a stranger at all #before this trip i was reading darius the great is not okay (which i just sort of picked up at the library by chance)#but i was reading it and was like hmm this is a good pre-going-to-parent's-home-country-mixed-race-kid-experience read #but also i wanted to bop him on the head and be like you fool you belong #and lo and behold what should happen in kerala was me getting bopped on the head and told you fool you belong #perce rambles #i'll post some pictures and stuff here and on my main once i get my life together a bit more

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