#my little brain dumps are getting longer💀

[rev-velvet]

Turning this blog into a place to talk about my beloved Vtubers. Nothing but good shit here

Be warned that I may potential talk about certain Vtubers' past lives either because I got too nosey, its not even a secret on who they are/were or because in one way or another they were apart of my childhood growing up. Mainly NijiEn and maybe HolostarsEn as well.

Don't worry tho, those post will be put under the read more line so people don't get fucking jump scared in the tags and a warning will be put at the beginning. I know many people would rather not know if their fav was a content creator in the past, however I ain't one of them I love being a nosey little shit. Doesn't ruin them for me either since I always look at what they are now then who they were.

I refuse to use Twitter to express my love so Tumblr's my best bet

[lustlovehart]

Dang over 700, that’s impressive congrats!

If you still have requests open, maybe we can see/hear more about Sebek? I love the idea of him as a swamp monster tsundere dumping flowers on MH! Reader and find him fun~

Summary: Humans are pests. They’re the reason Malleus has fallen from grace, and why Lilia is no longer in his prime. He hates you, and everything your job stands for. He hates the way you’re not like them. He hates how you’re too kind. He wants to hate you, yet he can’t at all.

Warnings: Tiny bit of Tsundere Sebek, He thinks about 💀 you (he changes his mind dw guys!!), Mentions of his monster crimes, Little tiny hint of obsession, Implied human eating, Sebek sketch at end!

Your feet are dipped into the water, ripples cascading off where the limbs land, tranquil and cold, the shadows of the trees just further enriching the experience.

The one thing that isn’t relaxing about the water however, may as well be the guardian of the swamp, who’s practically breathing down your neck.

“Well human? Have you had your fill of this sacred marsh? I will not have you linger here longer than necessary! I only allowed you in to show the true essence of beings like us.”

Despite what leaves his mouth, you have a striking feeling that he won’t throw you out.

Because, that’s the fourth time he’s said that, and he’s yet to drag you out.

Through the close proximity, you place your palm on his face, softly pushing him away in your annoyance, yet like a magnet, he attracts himself right back to you, finding his place in the area to be right by your side.

“I’ve drowned many of your kind, don’t push me away so carelessly…!”

“Have you drowned me yet?” He stutters for a moment, racking his brain to find a suitable excuse as to why that is. He stops when you lean back on the grass, looking up at the sky as you lay down.

But to your dismay, he finds one.

“My liege wants you alive, so we must do what he wants.”

“You want the best for him right? What if the best for him is getting rid of me?” You’ve once again stopped any retort on his tongue, your eyes fluttering shut. Your feet continues to dangle in his waters, breath steadying as you let the sound of dew drops falling into the marsh invade your ears.

In your slumber, you don’t notice the way Sebeks scaley face is centimeters away from yours, trembling inhales. You’re right. Getting rid of humans is the best for his liege, for… all monsters really.

His clawed hand reaches up towards your throat, his nails scratching a line in your skin. Webbed fingers tremble, he could, he really could…

He could help everyone.

…

His hand falls, his forehead falling onto yours. His skin is rough, but he takes care in placing his head softly on yours to not wake you up. His palm follows in suit, laying itself on your throat, cold blood feeling the warmth of your mortal body.

And your heart. He remembers reading about human hearts, how they’re important to they’re bodily functions. Without it, you’d die. It’d be easier than killing you himself. He doesn't know which is better, for himself. He could take pride knowing he rid the world of one more wretched monster hunter, or he could rest in comfort knowing you passed in peace.

Sebek doesn’t notice the way the plants have emerged from the water, taking hold of your legs. There’s a particular branch that caresses your face in a certain manner, one completely inappropriate for a human. His mouth hangs up, immediately ripping the wood from your flesh. He throws the twig away, his head turning when your visibly stir at the motion.

He’s not well versed in human care. He's read about it, but obviously he’s never acted upon it! His hands fumble, if he’s correct, one of the quickest ways to knock a human out is to hit them really hard…! But… He doesn’t wanna do that—

Ah, you’re asleep again.

Sebek carefully lifts himself from your body, water dripping onto the grass from his hair. He slowly backs himself into the water, the only part visible being his head, before entirely disappearing into the murky water.

He realizes something in the comfort of his pond.

He… He wouldn’t need to kill you if you just… never left. Neither would you ever disturb the peace of any other beasts.

Under that water, he ties a knot, petals floating above the marsh at his bouquet. As well as a hand, that drops deep down. A coworker of yours. He’s unsure why you’re the only one he’s not too keen on consuming, yet he can so easily do it to those you know.

It doesn’t matter. They’re the same. Taste the same too.

…

You awake to a lonely sight, Sebek gone from the scene. Though, your chest feels heavier than usual. You look down, and an array of different plants and greenery fill your vision. It’s wrapped in flimsy wood bark, moss tying the piece together.

There’s a note hastily inscribed.

Human, leave soon.

Even without reading the message you know it’s Sebek. You assume it’s from his human hatred he writes such mean words.

In truth, that’s part of it. You’ll never know the other is him not wanting to see the corpses at the bottom of his home. Or maybe you will. Especially when you notice a shiny pendant gifted inside the flowers. Assuming it to be a sweet gesture from Sebek you smile at it. Such a happiness slowly fades when you feel a certain familiarity with the necklace.

… You feel like you’ve seen this before.

[for-d2b48c]

This will be a loooong message and will try to be as raw as possible 😭 and I’m typing this right now kasi baka mamaya I’m eepy na and magsasabi nanaman ako ng words na I really didn’t mean so here I am. I have 2 things to talk about and I turned it to only 2 words para may context so you can stop reading na from here if ayaw mo basahin or too much too handle ngayon. It’s about sleep, insecurities. Let’s start with sleep since mas heavy yung isang topic. I meant it when I said na baka I’m disrupting your peace every time we talk lalo na tuwing ungodly hours. we’ve been talking naman na ever since pero may times talaga na naiisip ko na what if before tayo magkausap lagi non ang peaceful ng nights mo like wala kang dumb and annoying person na kinakausap. I know I’ve said this a lot of times pero if you need time and space and gravity talaga, just say a word and I’ll give it. So I’m sorry if minsan I keep saying sorry dahil I’m keeping you up kasi even though na normal lang sayo to sleep late there’s still a chance na pwede kang matulog ng maaga if I’m not talking. Also, don’t worry about me. I know it’s so simp or stupid of me to sleep so late dahil lang gusto kitang kausap pero it’s the only way na I can talk to you so please let me sleep late 😔. you don’t need to feel sorry about that because gusto ko rin naman in the first place. Kung sino man ang need to feel sorry sakin is myself kasi I have no self control.

Here’s a picture of bert and ernie for commercial break 😔.

Second word, insecurities 💀. Dear lord, sana kung ano man maspill ko here is you will guide me after no matter what 😭. First of all I need to say sorry. This is what happened last night in my sleepy ass brain. When you said you have a dump account ang una ko talagang naisip is yung inside joke namin ni kuya na para kayong may deadline every month, it’s nothing serious naman kasi we just laugh about it especially sa last or first days ng month, halos lahat ng nasa feed niya is ganon 😭. But honestly, there’s really nothing bad about that, I even envy people who can easily share stuff that made them happy for that month. That’s why I said na maybe I’m just projecting my insecurities kasi I can’t do that. I have a longer explanation about that pero let’s continue with my train of thoughts at that time. When I knew what consists your dump, biglang kong naisip na “I wish I could see that” BUT at the same time it’s okay that I can’t see it? Baka bipolar talaga ako. Kasi half of me saying na i want to know the little things about you at the same time I don’t want you to share things with me na hindi ko rin naman need malaman. So at that moment, I’m feeling too many things tapos sleepy pa ko kaya siguro I came off rude or mean or annoying so I’m sorry.

Another commercial break. Just stop right here if all of this nonsense shits is getting too much na and look at my baby djungle ❤️‍🩹.

This is a continuation of the last thing I have yapped about. Actually pwede mo na talaga tong hindi basahin kasi I’ll just explain lang naman yung relationship ko sa social media since you have mentioned you have dump acc and it opened up another thought in my brain 😭. I swear to god if pwede lang magpalit ng utak ginawa ko na dati pa. I wish I could do dump posts pero I really do have anxiety about what I post online unless it’s a meme or song kasi it’s a subtle way to express what i feel unlike sa pictures na literally exposing a glimpse of my what I’ve been doing. BUT, at the same time, I want to do it because there are really some pictures na sitting on my gallery na nothing bad will happen naman if I post them. Plus, I am fond of curating pictures din. BUT AGAIN, I’m so scared of what other people will say even though at the back of my mind I know no one literally cares BUT AGAIN, babalik nanaman ako sa first point ko hanggang sa I choose not to share things online na lang. So if nagpost ako it means na I defeated my inner demon that time 😭. So maybe my outburst last night is really just my insecurities talking. And I’d be lying if I say I haven’t feeling a little bit more insecure about everything lately. I should really think 4 times before I say something. I’m sorry, I’m really trying to get a grip 😔.

I let my raw emotions get out of its cage nanaman pero I think this is my way to sort things out but if you find it uncomfortable, I’ll try my best to lessen it because at the end of the day, I just don’t want to hurt you. But I feel like I’m taking so much of your time and energy so I think I’ll just constantly feel sorry that you’re talking to me.