#my life will return to normal next week so excuse this very brief interlude

[laineystein]

No guilt, just gratitude. No guilt, just gratitude. No guilt…

We lost 21 chayalim today in Khan Younis, the area of Gaza I spent the past few weeks in…the same place I left Monday morning. I’m gutted. There are no words. I don’t know how much more we can take. עד מתי???

My husband and I drove up north to get away for a bit. We haven’t had much alone time since this fucking war started and he wanted to treat me so here we are. After everything this morning, I wasn’t going to share this but I spoke with my bubbe earlier and she assured me that I am doing the world a disservice by diminishing my joy right now. She asked me what we were all fighting for if not for our fellow Israelis to be able to live normal, happy, peaceful lives. My bubbe escaped Nazi Germany, fled to a war torn France, and then finally made her way back to Israel at 15 — so I think she knows what she’s talking about. She reminded me that life does not end when war starts and that it shouldn’t pause either. She reminded me that in this week’s parashah, when the Jews were caught between an army and the sea, they put their trust in Hashem and he guided them through. So I’m going to continue leaning into Hashem for guidance - no guilt, just gratitude.