#my ghost can't stop me from shitposting

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last night/this morning i had a dream that just went, "eris morn deserves to be fat(positive)." honestly? right again, dreams

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It's been announced that Elon is reflecting on making X membership exclusive, ie where you pay to have an X membership.

With the upcoming death of X, I find myself having meta thoughts about my fandoms, the art community, and where they intersect; and, how much those things radically-and-completely changed after the death of Tumblr -- and still haven't recovered.

(this does relate to Cross!Sans' recent win I prommy just give me a minute)

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To start off with an example:

Some folks still remember the mass death of Tumblr.

It's hard to describe it to people who didn't see it.

There were actual casualties. Y'all remember that, too? The deaths?

Most of them were because for many people, their ~5-10 years of portfolio disappeared overnight with no recovery. Even for folks who had backups, the little things that mattered most, like reblog-chains, had been compromised. I remember reading a vent post that stuck w/ me of a college applicant sobbing because their blog was going to be their portfolio to apply, and the needed morning, it was gone. They lived through an abusive home and lost their out. They stopped posting after that.

There are keystone works that now only exist in our minds.

Cornerstones of both fandom and people's real lives were erased by a mega corp afraid of organic Human sensuality, the artist's familiar muse. A kiss, a shirtless photo, a man lounging in the sun, didn't matter. Gone with no explanatory messages. Everything was very unstable about the rules for a disturbingly long time with ghost-edits to the sitewide rules, and vague lettering. If you posted a single dangly bit, you're out. If you posted male or female nypples at any point, you're out. The rules now aren't the rules that were for a little while, long enough to carve up careers and sink fandoms.

As a case study:

Try to understand that if you're a new arrival into an old fandom from the Before Times, like say Undertale,

... you arrived into a fandom carved into quarters.

Everything we cared about and definitive blogs & art pieces vanished. I was temporarily surprised that Cross!Sans won the AU contest instead of the longtime fandom favorites like G!Sans.

For years, he was our fandom mascot.

I had a harrowing realization and began doomscrolling to confirm that nobody can find 👌the showstopping sensuality 👌😩 of G!Sans. It's gone.

G-o-n-e gone, can't find it anywhere, like that mfker into his smoke.

Our fandom values and cultural pillars that we built ourselves were deleted off-site by some Suits.

Everything the young people inherited was bleached-out and fucking sanitized by a corporation. We had no choice but to tolerate that, even as self aware as we were about it.

...this cultural-drift was not because of natural evolution, but because we weren't sterile enough to "make the cut;" and now, it's definitive with a clear before/after gap.

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I'm of the opinion that the online art community has never really recovered from these repeat events.

It's never been the same:

I see a lot less WIPs unless it's teasing a piece.

I see less reckless abbandon in artwork. There's less scribbles.

There's less breath on the canvas.

People tightened their shit up into hyper polished presentation-pieces.

There's less shitposting in general. People used to post doodles and silly faces and polished pieces were in between.

I think this new media relationship comes from a place of collective hurt. I think many of us realized all society gives a fuck about is money money money money for something that for many of us is a necessary biproduct of being alive. The people who couldn't handle that never came back. They Told Us So when they left, and coincidentally, never came back -- or came back different.

❕ (brief cw cp)

As necessary aside, I'm not lumping in the CP -- it's that every platform has CP, and addressing CP head-on on a platform like Tumblr also meant having regulations that corporate with legal, consensual sensuality, and that's not feasible without endorsing that exists... AND, is deeply influential to many artists. Tumblr wasn't willing to do that.

Tumblr wasn't willing to accept ads from orgs that are okay with that, either.

❕ (cw over)

I feel like this keeps happening... Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter/X... because it comes from a cultural climate of fear towards the veritable Human qualities, some raw, beastial, or even vestigial, of which is the Creative's foundational wellspring. What inspires is often transgressive, and there's no room for such things on a corporate level due to the sterile inhumanity of present day economics. If it's not palettable enough that it can be sold to stockholders with polished floors and dry-cleaned suits, we're a weed between the concrete.

Get too tall and we're seen as a disordered presentation of society instead of just... just, Human. Raw, beastial, vestigially Human.

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At the end of the day,

our inherently-self-expressive Human potential keeps getting butchered alive by fear of sex & sensuality and love, and the bitter taste of culturally dominant hatespeech; to really spit on the situation, the biggest driver behind both of those is economic. There's a desire knit into the social fabric to squeeeeeeze every fkn penny possible out of an inherently involuntary part of the Creative's experience.

For many, creating freely is a necessary part of a Creative's self-regulation, regardless of whether it's just a hobby or a career path. Creatives create things. We have to or we wilt. It is counter-intuitive to the nature of Wall Street, as it stands, and so it will never favor us -- let alone begin to understand that, without overhaul.

For me, painting is like breathing, I have to do it or I become ill.

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...It's like... they bottled our air.

Dammed our wellsprings and sell our own work back to us in plastic jugs. Elusive, ominous "they," vague because it's a lottery for whoever plays "them" next; executioner with hanging-rope in hand to strange the creative experience.

There's nothing sacred left when it's all about making money.

...so, where's next?

(: Might as well grit our teeth about it and stay organized. Mastodon, I think? Dreamwidth also? Misskey? Where have you heard? Where do I go, now?

I miss the reblog-artfights and having Tumblr friends before it was deleted by a suit, and I don't want to lose that.

[unsettlingcreature]

Get to know your mutuals - tagged by @copia

what's the origin of your username? I honestly don't even remember, I think it was a reference to a tumblr shitpost. I just wanted something shorter than my old url of notoriousbastardlover

OTP(s) + shipname: I'm a multishipper and I don't really have an otp except for maybe Thorin and Bilbo/bagginshield from the Hobbit or Andrew and Neil/andreil from aftg

favourite colour: black OR orange

song stuck in my head: it's 100% Satanised by Ghost. anyone who knows me knows this was inevitable.

weirdest habit/trait: I CANNOT have my foods touching. it just can't happen. how did nobody pick up on me having autism from this alone.

hobbies: writing, reading, digital art and tabletop RPGs! I also used to larp but I've had to take a break on account of my body not working right

if you work, what's your profession? not applicable (again, on account of my body not working right)

if you could have any job you wish what would you have? at this point in my life, it would probably be working in game development as either a writer or an artist

something you're good at: singing

something you hate: half-assed accessibility, if you're going to add captions at LEAST make sure they're correct, if you're going to ban aesthetic fonts in discord, you can't ALSO use them for the names of your server's channels.

something you collect: the only thing I semi-actively collect at the moment is Ghost and pompurin merch but I've also collected dice in the past

something you forget: to eat/drink at regular intervals

your love language: quality time

favourite movies/shows: Puella Magi Madoka Magica, I've watched it so many times and I'm so excited for the game coming out this month

favourite food: currently the elusive croffle. it's so good. I have not stopped thinking of it since I had it.

favourite animal: cats

what were you like as a child? very nervous all of the time but rather friendly when not scared

favourite subject in school: english language

least favourite subject: biology

what's your best character trait? I'm not sure. maybe my ability to listen and empathise with others?

what's your worst character trait? I hold grudges for a long time

if you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I would just love my body to work and not hurt.

if you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? I don't have any good answers to this gdfgkdjfgfg

tagging: @catt-crossing @strawberriandromeda @subterra-rose @interstitiallacunae and also anyone else who wants to do it

[overcookedsushi]

Captain Collateral The one that almost got away... 8 fucking times.

I have talked about this character before, if you scroll down in this very blog you will see where I talk about killing your darlings... To bad I can't take my own advice~

This character design has been a fucking brainworm of my for three years now... It always eluded me, but I could never forget it. I tried so hard to make it work, spawning and branching off into something else whenever I felt I couldn't do it, but the pull always brought me back like some sickly disease. This time though... its different.

Yes this is a shitpost, but it is still the root of the inspiration. When I saw this, it gave me some ideas for something else entirely. But when my partner suggested how dumb it would be as a head, the idea formed and there was no stopping it.

There were a couple drafts, most uninteresting failures. This was the last one before I scrapped it all and made major changes, cutting the strings holding me back.

Biggest changes: 1. Instead of a lowrider knock off Ghost rider, it was switched out for a dirtbike. A bit easier to draw, plus it was so much easier to find poses for a bike people typically stunt with. 2. The head was reconnected to the body. There was no need to have both a Nuckelavee and a Dullahan in the same design anymore with Weed wacker taking the latter. 3. The removal of his chararcteristics and personally being "reckless on purpose". For a while the design was supposed to be an adrenaline junky, but when it was changed to "reckless as a byproduct", other elements started to stick a bit better.

He turned from a hapless accident sideshow to the very definition of survivor's guilt. The body was roughed up to try and show that he was not in the best state of being. It was starting to come together fairly well~

Last major changes were trying to remove to many points of focus, getting rid of the fire, some unnecessary details, changing the goo from green to yellowish orange (since apparently Plutonium glows orange), also my best attempt at weld lines to try and show damage. In hinesight I probably could have done this better, but oh well.

And believe it or not... "Oh well" is kind of important. The freakshow was first created to give me a challenge, to push me to get better while also giving me cool OCs to draw. Part of getting better is recognizing when you need to stop. Recognizing that until you learn some foundational work, nothing is going to change. To get the captain collateral that is truly in my head, I need to keep improving. I need to do some studies. Mecha studies, vehicle studies, non-organic studies. He will continue to be my white whale, but now I have a tracker on him. Eventually I will conquer him fully, but until then I am happy with out it turned out, and that I can finally close this book. And that I won't have to look back for a few years~

#character design#original character#artists on tumblr#clown art#freakshow#wendigo#king in yellow#Retcon King

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hunter almond biscuits, titan cherry muffins, warlock chocolate bars. i CANNOT explain why my brain came up with these but i bet sed is making them all right now

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I had a dream about a destiny spinoff game. The concept was "you are a lightbearer but for whatever reason you can't do live combat, so you work at the tower and get into whatever nonsense happens there". Highlights included picking up sidequests from random guardians, cleaning the hangar(frequently), and collecting records of which guardians you'd seen as though they were trading cards(every guardian had a rated rarity and power level, lmao). honestly id play it

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hey if anyone likes my art uh. id be open to doing a commission

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so in the dream i was just having sed really did say "if someone misgenders me and i cause a diplomatic incident in response that's really not on me" and they're so right

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it's just today occurred to me that once sed has figured out how to put the thing in their brain in reverse, and bring Ghosts back to life, there's for SURE gonna be a cult about it

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had a dream in which i was transported to an alternate version of the destiny universe. there was a LOT going on but the most notable bit is that, crow and uldren weren't different people same body anymore, they were twin brothers. and also rather than guardians being chosen after they died, they were pre-selected at or soon after birth, which led to most people that were destined to become guardians being sent to essentially monasteries to spend their first lives training for combat so that when they had to ACTUALLY do it they'd be ready.

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so the dream i was having earlier decided to insist that sed is very good with a strap

i dont know what my dreams based this on but ive decided its canon.

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do you think an exo could build a toaster oven into their torso

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i wish i was good enough at dungeons to do them solo because the lfg is. not a great place for me

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One of these days I need to actually draw Asil in his "armour". It definitely includes rocket skates and knee pads lol

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Wonder how hard itd be to find someone to do spire with me sometime this week...

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FAILSAFE MY FUCKING BELOVED