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You know, it’s actually really sad right now with Paloma.

Like, she doesn’t have anyone she can really trust right now. Not a single person that is really on her side and that makes me so sad for her.

Her friends are all obviously shit, her supposed best friend is horrible. Javi keeps pushing her away and being horrible to her and just fucked the supposedly best friend so why the hell would she trust him?

She has nobody and I just wanna give her a hug. I honestly hate that Javi just had to do that with Sloane… you say the fluff is near but I would have such trouble forgiving him for that. Yes, he’s single and he can do whatever he wants. But what does it say about him as a person that the one girl he goes for is Palomas best friend? Idk, that just feels too deliberate. Bc come on, he definitely knew Sloane wouldn’t keep quiet about it and Paloma would somehow find out! Also, when Sloane mentions Paloma and he basically just ignored it and kept going, even though that was the biggest red flag.

Idk, he definitely needs to do something bc just saying sorry isn’t gonna cut it lol

she's literally gone through so much in the past... however long that she's been dealing with this shit!! so yes, i'm also in the same boat. group hug?

but also that's kinda august's goal here... to detach her from all those around her to the point where she feels like she has to go back to him and fulfill this quote unquote prophecy that he keeps feeding her (which btw do y'all think it's real or is it just a giant manipulation thing that's been going on for decades?!) which is why he sent sloane to deal with javi. to further drive that wedge between them. but it seems to be doing the opposite...

and as much as javi wants to be a 'better' person... it's a lot more complicated to navigate than he thought ?! yeah sure he hasn't put much effort in and it feels like everything he does contradicts his goal but nobody's perfect and it takes a lot of trials and errors until some breakthrough is made... right? isn't that what they say in therapy? 🤔 (i ask as if i don't have a whole degree in psychology)

granted it was a huge oversight for him not to expect sloane to yap to her bestie…. he's an idiot, i fear. a self aware fool who knew even as he was doing it that fucking her was a mistake but he still went through with it... what's that meme that's like 'them red flags look green when i'm horny' bc that's him to a T and as stated in chapter 5

Always thinking with the wrong head. It’s his achilles heel.

then in chapter 10

[...] his bad habit of losing himself in women 

so the flaw is there and he KNOWS it, it's just the overcoming it that's kicking his ass

paloma, my beloved, is a small town girl that’s never experienced ‘love’ or anything remotley like this. add those conflicting emotions on top of all the lore about her mom… and well, she’s clinging to anything that she can. she’s way too forgiving which is her character flaw (how quickly she forgave mr. thorton for jumping at her. how easily she forgave javi the first time he ghosted her) i do plan on talking about that more next chapter(s) :)

sooo yes you're right, why WOULD she trust him when all he's done is hurt her and a simple sorry won't fix it but we're gonna see this thing through together OKAY?! tysm for stopping by and leaving this lil spiel in my inbox; it's always a pleasure reading comments from readers <3 ALSO I HOPE I DIDN'T PISS YOU OFF TOO BAD OKAY STAY WITH ME