#my friend whom doesnt really listen to wings

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real talk. if youre not listening to must do something about it by wings, then what are you doing

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

there is a huge thing in germany right now since a video from wealthy people island sylt went viral where young rich germans were singing „foreigners get out - germany for the germans“ to the tune of gigi d‘agostinos l‘amour toujours and even doing hitler gestures, now many videos like this have surfaced and it makes me realise once again the bubble im in! my family, my friends, everyone is shocked and appalled by this. i mean its really good to see though that there is pushback. of course the media reporting is clearly biased if you compare how they talk about pro palestine protests in comparison, for example, but its good to see that many people are against this. i hope this will finally make people realise that we have nazis in the middle of our society and not just at the fringes as many like to think, which doesnt make sense in the first place when you look at right wing politicians many of whom are professors and shit. like i dont even think most germans are nazis i just think germans love to be in denial and look away and minimise and trivialise racism, like we had so many cops being exposed for connections to nazi groups and even center left people like my grandparents see it as bad apples and not a systemic issue. it also sucks because i love l‘amour toujours and now i cant listen to it without having the sadly very catchy racist lyrics these assholes made up playing in my head

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Answer all of those aesthetic questions. If you don't have that determination answer your favorite ones!

Thanks bestie I need this right niow, just like you did flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? Now, listening to This is Gospel rnfairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? Oh God....Who am I destined to be with... daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? Um...I’m 22 my greatest accomplishment is getting out of bed for work.1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? I need to really think...No. I wouldn’t because whatever reason I’m going to die was since I had no knowledge. If i start acting all crazy and rebellious I could die sooner.black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? It’s not real but I can come up with three. One: Travel to a different country. Two: Learn to love myself Three: Make a difference.pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail. I’m not rreally a close person but if I were to choose anyone it would be my best friend. She and I have been friends for oh so long and I go to her for everything. She likes to dye her hair but its naturally a beautiful chestnut brown that flows off her shoulders by an inch. Her eyes are not even a normal color either. They are yellow like a cat with a tint of auburn to add soft tones of a sunset sky. In the middle bottom of her squishable face are some plump creamy pink lips. Sorta jealous since mine are so thin ughmoodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? HAHAHAHAHA what is that? Because I had to question my own sanity when I went over friends houses and seeing the difference between brothers and sisters and asking myself what happens between my sister and I isn’t normal? This doesnt happen to others?stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? Today...In a restaurant... I AM NOT A CRY BABYplants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. Yeah my best friend @stranded-ali3nconverse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? This i struggle with man because I need counseling and yet I don’t wanna go to a stranger and open up to them. So... NO!lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? Probably Andrew seeing as he’s my only friend up that late xD but its always a great conversation. Thanks brother!!!handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? WHY SO DEEP? “Thank you mom, thank you for everything and I love you and my brother with all my heart and forever will be with you” cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? Did you read the description of my best friends eyes? I believe my boyfriend has brown eyes. So they cute.sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. “This isn’t even my final form” I heard it from a friend and discovered it was from Dragon  Ball Z but I fell in  love with it. I am me but I’m still changing I’m still growing. You haven’t even seen what I can fully do yet. All such empowering thoughts.oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? “Sad Stoned and Stupid.overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? Buy my mother, brother and I the ranch we have our eyes on.combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? Yes I can be very forgiving in situations however in rare cases I may not forgive ever, No I don’t like it because obviously people walk all over me for it.winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. Right now on this? Ugh no thanks. 12 year old me stay away from brad, joe, and miranda i dont give a fuck it’s your sister just do it! Stand up for yourself. Put your foot down and keep saying No. pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? Pastel with dash of punktattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. Well I love them and have one sooooooo, I do because it is a form of art. That you can show off like in museums except they are on your body. piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? Depends on the day but mostly I wear makeup to feel prettier to myself. I hide my dark circles and my pimples as if no one else deals with them. bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. All music has effected me. Mostly in a positive way. If I had to choose one it would be Evanescence, As an alternative kid I would listen to them because I related to the deepness from her lyrics and loved the classical sound with inspiring lyrics. Helped me feel less alone in this huge world full of mirrors.messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. “Just be nice and considerate and NEW ENGLAND USE YOUR GOD DAMN BLINKERS”cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel. Alan Jackson as a child it was my first one and it was great. I went with my dad and thats all I really remember except for they had 5oclock somewhere buttons i wanted. I went to Shinedown with my step dad and I wasnt supposed to go it was my mom that was but she gave her ticket up for me. Thanks mom that really was an amazing acoustic concert filled with personal and raw emotions.  grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?A letter? No one does that anymore. But if I wanted to recieve one it would be from Chris and that he changed his ways has a steady job and is taking care of his child. No more gang shit and actually making hs life better and all cause I stopped talking to him did it slap him in the face. So he wanted to thank me for that.space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? I have an area for work yes and usually it’s not organized because of other so I organize it because I can’t stand a mess at work. white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? Get high and then sleep.old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? I don’t want my dad to know I like girls... I don’t wanna see his reaction. My mom.. probably who I had sex with.beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? Ouff! I want black hair!!!! But I know it kills it! I do enjoy my curls but I’d defrizz them and probably go to a deep dark maroon color.eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? I’m too high and drunk for this question NEXT11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them. I feel like the letter one is a wish sooo two. I wish my mom happiness she deserves it. Three I had natural beauty.painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up. I mean I put together a decent Alice in Wonderland costume seeing as I won best costume for it. lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? I really don’t do anything too bad. I guess peeing in my garbage so I wouldn’t need to leave my bedroom?thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? Kill someonestorms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? One song. Freaky Friday by Lil Dicky.. It always make me smile because it’s so funny! Also I need people more than music as odd as it is to admit. I can’t choose one person. love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love. Yes I have and I don’t wanna go there because he don’t love me back and that is all I wanna talk about.clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? I don’t go often but I love that dragonfruit tea they had/have?? And anyone it’s a pretty simple order if you can’t get it right then you are really stupid.marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? My mom and brother.fin.

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I would like to see answers for all. :3

For you? Always.flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? “Please dont throw your looooove away–please dont throw your loooooove away”

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? If she would ever chose to be with me.

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? I dont have one. I dont even know what that is.

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?My best friend and I talking about our fears in meeting each other finally. They turned out to be the same for her and after all this time i was surprised she still felt the same way. It may not happen but it felt good that she still considered the idea.(that context though)

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Yes.

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? Make a popular selling video game. Turn said videogame into an on-going multi seasoned series/anime. Own an Owl.

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail. She calls herself a panda,she loves books and chocolate. Dawson’s creek and gilmore girls are her go to shows. She can get tunnel vision when she gets angry. She hates her middle name with a passion. Shes a pyromaniac. Opal is one of her all time favorite stones. She cant dance. Can hold her liquor for a while. She has been an author, violinist, jeweler, carpenter, mechanic, pharmacy tech, and now a dispatcher. She’s tired. 

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? I sorta didnt.

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? Thanksgiving

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.My best friend, ironically she lives in an area where the sky could be seen without the city lights interfering. I mean…its stargazing, you’d want someone you love to be with you to watch them right? we’d look at the stars and talk about them and their meanings..or rather what we thought would be their meanings with me mostly making terrible jokes.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?Yes

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? Um. *waits* its 3a.m. now so ..you. You are a kind friend to me. I am grateful.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? Thats easy, i say it to myself daily when i think about this question. To my best friend: I love you for until always.

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? Underrated and beautiful. FUCK.

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. “That doesnt go there” -story of my life.

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? HA.. “That doesnt go there”

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? Thats a long one, first id go see my best friend..give her family money, pay mine and my mother’s bills, buy a place for my mom and sis, then buy a place for me, get a transplant for my kidney and pancreas, buy some waffles, pay for my sister’s college.

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? I am not.

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self Save your money. Find her.Go to the doctor as much as possible. find her. listen and remember what grandaddy is teaching you. show him that you arent a waste of his knowledge. find her. say yes when the time comes. dont let friendship ruin your chance to finish. find her dammit. fucking find her. keep up with all of your games, dont trust anyone where you leave them. tell uncle joe you love him. tell tiffany that you like her too. but find her. watch the tribe more and find her. dont let them get to you. you arent trying to be white. you are being yourself because thats how you were raised. find her please.

.pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? Pastel probably.

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain i love tattoos and would lke to get some of my own but i dont heal well anymore. i think they express a lot about yourself and what you love.

.piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? Nah…i mean..should i??? my lashes are all natural honey :o

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. I dont have a song that has affected my life.

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. Chaos is inevitable, all men must die. 

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.Never been to one QQ

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?Irina, a friend of mine who disappeared some years ago. She promised me that she wouldnt do so and…i havent gotten over that so the letter would be telling me where she is and if she is okay. I miss her.

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? I have a fold out table where my laptop sits. Not organized.

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? I dont have a set routine for anything in my life. I never seem to maintain a schedule. so it varies.

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? That i used to watch their porn that they stashed away terribly.

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? my hair is short so a dark blue, i like blue but green is my favorite.

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? five people? huff i have to know five people. *waves the thought* we’d go to the beach!!! my best friend hasnt been to one since she was a kid so definitely her, my only guy friend and his girl..thats three…uh…oh my guy friends girl’s friend…and uh…this is hard since none of who i am talking about actually lives anywhere near me or within a 1000 miles.

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them. goodness. um. to be healthy–no more health issues, my body functions normally and everything works. thats probably two wishes. so the last one would be..i wish that i was successful.

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.I once went as a disco guy. yuh, my best costume ever.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? texted my best friend over some issues we were having…again. *cough*

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? Kill innocent people

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?my best friend. because i love her more than anything and anyone. I would rather see her for the remainder of my life than what the world has to offer.

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.I have, I am. the feeling is like knowing that you are getting something you really want and its coming to you, that anticipation of it getting there and you having it, but the anticipation is a constant. it wells withing stomach and rises into your chest but never out of your mouth or body, it just stays there.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? I keep black, gun metal grey and warm grey nail polish at all times.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? caramel macchiato and im rather trusting of anyone really.

 marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? my best friend.

[resilientreader]

all the aesthetic asks if u haven’t been asked already?? ✨

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flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? uhhh prob today i guess, i was humming along to a song during class

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? who is a true friend?

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? writing actual full stories

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise? going to disney w my family when i was young and having the time of my life

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? yes. i’d leave all online communities and only stick around to like, discord or just give some online friends my number so we can message each other, and i’d like. try to get closer to my family

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? sort of not really, but i do hope to write a book and visit a couple major cities and a couple other countries in my life, i guess

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail. gonna do in a doc or somethin

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? eh

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? like, 2 years ago

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? no, wouldnt wanna put that weight on someone n i gotta click with someone first

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? alex, friend. this was like the other day actually

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? gorgeous

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. will do in a doc so this post doesnt get too long

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? fifty shades of what NOT to do in life

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? save some of it, donate some of it, use some it to take trips to friends’ places, stuff like that

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? i guess so, yeah, and no not really. it takes me a long time to actually get upset w ppl bc of this so i like??? nasty ppl????? get in my life?? n it just takes me a while to kick them out again

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ill do this in a doc

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? i like both but uhhh,,,,,,,pastel,,,,,i guess???

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. good nice, let the people do what they want to their bodies without judgment

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? no it makes me uncomfy and tbh i feel like if i resort to wearing makeup casually it would make me feel like i need makeup to look “good” so i avoid it

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. will ALSO do in doc so this wont get too long

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. being right shouldn’t be a priority and compassion is the only thing you truly need.

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel. i,,havent been to a concert yet actually lmao, just never had the chance

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? not rlly, i do a lot of my work in bed and my bed def isnt organized

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? stay up and work on ideas/projects and/or talk to friends until im teetering on the edge of collapsing from exhaustion

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? hi im gay

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? dye it extra my hair color xdd but uhhh i’d get it p short and i guess???? dye it with whatever?????? idrk honestly

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? alex, u, my sister, sar, and uhhhhhhhhhh an irl friend. we could go on a Road Trip across america or somethin

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them. will do in a doc. all of these questions are asking for LONG answers and im bein ruSHEd outta the house so i gotta do these in a SEC

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up. i havent MADE a costume before but i remember one time when i was rlly young i BEGGED my parents to let me get a scooby doo costume but lmAO i only was able to get it the next yr

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? kill a friend lmao

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? one person for the rest of my life. didnt say jackshit abt not MESSAGING other people in my life. and uhhhhh i guess i would choose???? my sister or you????????? since yall are the least problematic and most lovable ppl i kno ok

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love. a slow realization that, when it happens, leaves ur head spinning for days as u try to figure out what the FUCK feelings are anyways

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? im totally down, yeah

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? hot chocolate and my sister

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? my friends

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flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? i feel like it was teenage rebel - chameleon circuit hahaha

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? well, i often do tarot spreads for this. but i guess i would ask - you know. i’m not sure

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? literally just surviving it all

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise? maybe a few work ones, or the time not long ago i was put in a group assignment for uni. we all decided to meet up after our group presentation for drinks and hang out and i had a really fun time making new friends and hanging out with people

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? oh man i would have WAY less anxiety about everything. knowing that nothing i do will matter in a year would be so freeing and liberating. i’d probably get a new job and actually get my motorbike license and go for rides 

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? i don’t have a bucket list but i’ll try to think of 3 things i’d like to do before i die -

this has been in my drafts for days and i honestly can’t think of a thing. 

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? nope

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? honestly i can’t remember. oh! i think maybe 6 months ago i got high and started over thinking and got sad and started crying. my roommate walked past because i forgot i had the door open and hugged me and then left after a bit

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. ideally, it’d be a close friend. but i dont have those. so maybe if i could go back in time and stargaze with an old friend. otherwise, my current friend hj is cool! actually, i’d love to get high and stargaze with him.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? i have before. but no, i wouldn’t now. i’m not like that anymore

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? it was 4 months ago, with my old best friend’s ex-boyfriend (i think they broke up? i dont talk to either of them anymore). i used to be close to him anyway, like we were also best friends. and we used to be roommates.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? i’d love to look my mother in the eyes and say “i’ll never forgive you” but. it doesn’t feel right as much as i mean it. i guess i’d like to say it to both my parents. but i have to pick one person. .... i guess i would get my old best friend who i havent spoken to in 6 years and say “i’m sorry. i missed you for years. i’ll always love you” or something equally dramatic

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? i have them and i love them. they’re so beautiful

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. i’m picking a few because fuck the police “being human is a condition that requires a little anaesthesia” was from the bohrap movie. relatable mood. reminds me of my mother which makes me uncomfortable “fall down 7 times, stand up 8. higher, further, faster” from captain marvel. i’ve been through soooo much fucking shit in my life. and i feel like it just keeps coming (well. the shit keeps coming and it don’t stop coming and it dont stop coming and it dont stop coming and it dont stop coming) and sometimes i wonder what the point of it all is. like what’s the point of trying to be happy when i’m just going to be let down again. and so it’s encouraging to change perspective from that to, we get up higher, further, faster

“my skin has gone from porcelain, to ivory, to steel” - sansa stark  it ties in with the captain marvel one. in that shit just keeps happening. and i feel the same way. i used to be so free and naive and i’m not that person anymore. i guess it makes me feel less alone. 

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? “

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? buy a house for myself, buy a few investment properties so that i know i’m always secure financially. put a couple million in the bank. buy houses for my friends and family, donate the rest

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? yes and yes. i feel like i’m really understanding, and so i forgive people when it’s understandable. but once it’s past a certain point, i’m not at all forgiving. i hold grudges too. i like being this way

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. “hey kid. happy birthday! well, this is where things start to get really hard. you’re going to go through a lot even though you think you won’t. people are going to leave you and treat you despicably and betray you. almost everyone you love will completely screw you over. you will have no one to count on except yourself. i’m not saying this to scare you. but i want you to know that even when you feel like it’s too much to handle, you’re so much stronger than you’ll even realise. you have so much turmoil ahead of you, but i love you so much. you’ll come out the other end with anxiety and so scarred. but you’ll survive it. all of it. you’ll survive. there’s no lesson or greater purpose. i’m not going to tell you that it all happens for a reason, because it doesn’t. just trust that you have what’s in you to face anything. once day this will all feel like a bad dream and you’ll start to feel like yourself again. best of luck. ps there is no god”

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? punk

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. love them both. they’re hot and cool

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? nah, i only wear make up to work. and that’s because i work in sales. part of getting people to like you is being attractive. make up makes you more attractive. when people like you, you have more influence over them and you make more sales

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. runaway by pink. that song just. what a mood. and family portrait. i relate to both of those songs so much. even when i was going through shit, i had that song that i could sing and even though things were never okay, they made it bearable

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. be kind to each other?

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel. 1st was a pink concert i went to when i was 15! we were super poor so this was a major deal. i waited in line for ages and my back started hurting real bad. but as soon as she got on stage everything went away. it was electrifying and she performed my favourite song. and i had eyeliner on which i cried off because she was my idol and it was amazing. her dancers were also super hot and i re-affirmed my bisexuality because i was like. wow. yes 2nd was lana & borns. my sister made me go with her to see lana del rey who i dont really give a shit about. she’s cool but im not like a major fan. borns however, i adore with every fibre of my being. borns was the opening act which was cute. i was one of the only ones in the crowd who knew him and everyone behind me was like gasping and talking about how cute he is. which also re-affirmed my sexuality. up until that point i thought that maybe i was a lesbian because i didn’t tend to find men too attractive. but borns? nope, i knew i was bi. then lana came on. it was okay. i knew a fair amount of the songs and apparently pissed everyone off by singing? i just thought that’s what you did at concerts dsjgdslkr but i had fun.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say? i would love to get a letter from an old best friend of mine saying sorry & that we should catch up. i feel like i havent had a friendship as full of connection as the one we’ve had. it’s been years and i still dont have anyone that could possibly replace her. but i worry that if we ever did try to re-kindle things it just wouldnt work out. which would lead me to ask myself if there was ever going to be anyone else who i’ll have that connection with. but it’d be nice at least

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? i don’t have a desk! i had one for about 3 months and it was organised. i was always too poor to afford a desk and it just wasnt a priority when i used my bed

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? go upstairs, lay in bed, read .... words, stay up until my eyes are closing for me. sleep

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? my parents opinion literally means nothing to me. i wouldn’t care what they do/don’t know. i guess id prefer if they didnt know about the drugs because my mum did them a lot and it led to her being abusive. so they’d be suuuper judgy and probably take them off me and shit. but once im moved out, i dont really care. they wont be able to do much about it

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? i’d love to have a shaved thing. my hair’s already short. but my dad’s homophobic and doesnt want me to get it short. i dont give enough of a shit about it to argue with him so i leave it. but if i could, having a cool shaved thing would be nice

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? i dont think i even have 5 friends, and if i do, we certainly don’t have fun together. i’d just go by myself. i’m lots of fun to be around when it’s just me

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them. i wish for a job that has stable income, consistent hours, a kind staff, and is something that i’m not constantly fucking up. - i wish for this because i feel like getting up every day to do something that doesn’t give me panic attacks (that i might even be able to enjoy) is such a dream. and if it gives a stable amount of money and hours, i’d be able to plan things and have a life instead of worrying about them calling me at literally any given moment and asking me to work. which means i’d either have to work or stammer out an excuse on the spot & have the managers be mad at me i wish for a living space that i can afford & is either by myself or with people who aren’t terrible. or with people who can’t fuck me over if they get mad at me. this would step 2 of being happy for me. having a job that doesn’t make me anxious = job that could make me happy. living space that is secure and mine and that no one can take away = reduction of anxiety and security = potentially being happy.  i guess i’d use the 3rd wish on having a car or motorbike. being able to get around without relying on anyone or public transport would be nice. i can go to places whenever it suits me and i’d be independent. i can just decide to go to an art gallery without it having to be a major planning thing or something that would take 2 hours to get to and from. it’d be very liberating 

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up. omg! last halloween. i borrowed an old friend’s witch costume. it was this cute corseted dress with a mini skirt & suspenders that attach to stockings. i bought a matching wand and witches hat. i looked super cute

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? i havent done terrible things under the influence hey. i mostly just have fun and keep to myself.

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? i dunno man. one million dollars is a lot of money. surely any of my usual morals would fly out the window. murder would become questionable. like it’s $1 million. i guess maybe not murder because if i went to jail then i wouldnt be able to spend the $1m. mass murder of like children and innocent people i probably wouldnt do. even if i got away with it

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? 1 song would be maybe americans - janelle monae. it’s a tune and you can listen to it for any mood really 1 person? i’ve purposefully gotten rid of any person i would want to only see for the rest of my life. not in a murder way, i just cut ties with them

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love. many a time. it’s a really nice thing! not just romantically. but for me, i just suddenly can’t stop thinking about them. like every spare second i have i’m wondering what they’re doing, thinking about our inside jokes, planning what i’ll say next, wondering what to wear to impress them next, planning how i’m going to work this funny story i want to tell them, etc. and i won’t be able to stop smiling whenever they’re around. the worst giveaway for me is when i can feel myself excessively talking to other people about them. and i can’t stop.  it gives me something to think about that makes me happy. something that makes me happy to distract from usually the shitter things.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? i am a girl and i have really really short hair. i rock it. i also rock black nail polish

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? i hate coffee. so i usually order a white hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows. i’d trust anyone to order it for me. as long as they didn’t screw up and get me the white chocolate mocha, which has happened a few times 

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? alcohol. music! probbaly music before alcohol. i love music. cigarettes. and my phone

[sirencecelius]

Aesthetic themed ask list response

Flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? Like 10 minutes ago when i was brushing my hair. Fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? Anything ‘biggest unsolved mysteries ever’ related, Zodiac Killer? Tell me, The Dan Cooper plane jacking? Please enlighten me. Daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? Im getting my panic attacks under control. 1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise? I broke my leg, so my friend helped cheer me up by letting me teach him to play the ukelele. Matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Yeah, id probably kill myself, trying to live normally would just be post-poning the inevitable. Black nail polish: do you have a bucket lost? If so, what are the top 3 things? 1.Scuba dive/ look for sunken U boats. 2. Get a picture in front of the Jesus statue in Brazil. 3. Find love. Pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail. My great grandma was the greatest, kind, gentle and all around amazing, yes she was grey and old but arent all of the good ones? Moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? Yes and no. My mom was abusive, my dad left, but my grandparents tried to make up that with happy memories. Stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? Since age 14 i was able to hold it in, so i guess i havent cried in front of another living soul since then. Plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. I’d probably choose by close friend Makayla, she understands me more than anyone who sees me from the outside, shes the only person to see past the outer shell. Converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? Yeah probably, i mean my system is to bottle shit up until it explodes, i never tell anyone in my life about my emotions so that’d probably be a refreshing change of pace. Lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? It was about 6 months ago and she was my best friend, but like everyone else in my life she decided she didnt want to be a part of it. Handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? I would say “thank for everything” to my friend Makayla. Cactus: whats your opinion on brown eyes? I love them, Makayla has them. Sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. “Not all stories have happy endings; but that doesnt mean theyre not worth the read” to me it reminds me of my life: nothing goes right but its tragically interesting. Oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? 'Dear everyone, im sorry’ Overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? Probably donate half of it to St. Judes, and use the other half in case i get seriously hurt and have a large medical bill. Combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? Do you like being this way? Im too forgiving for my taste, i wish i could just push the people away but when they ask for my forgiveness i get weak. Winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. (I will do that seperately later). Pastel:would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? A little of both, a black loose flowing leather skirt, a pastel blue t shirt and a black leather jacket are all i need. Tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? Explain. I love tattoos and piercings, i have several tattoos and my septum is pierced. Do you wear a lot of make up? Why/why not? I wear a little bit of make up, like eye shadow and eyeliner because foundation clogs my pours. Bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. I know this sounds cliché but i think Tweny One Pilots have influenced my life a lot, they have relatable lyrics, and they deal with the same emotional troubles most of us have. Messy bun: the world is listening. Pick one sentence you would tell them. Live and love, dont hate. Cry baby: list the concerts youve been to and talk about how they make you feel. Melanie Martinez, Twenty One Pilots, Panic At Thr Disco, My Chemical Romance, Theory of a Deadman, and Five Finger Death Punch. (They mean too much to explain in one post). Grunge: who in the world would you like to receive a letter from and what wod you want it to say? I would want to get a letter from my new ex best friend Noelle, and id want it to say “i still care”. Space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? No i dont, i have a lap desk. White bed sheets: what is your nightime routine? Eat, take off make up, flop onto bed, roll around for 20 minutes trying to get confortable, sleep . Old books: whats the one thing you dont want your parents to know? That im severly depressed. Beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? I would dye it purple or pink, purple to match the night sky a pink to match the sunset. Eyes: SKIPPING IT 11:11 : name three wishes and why you wish for them. 1. For my life to be better. 2.no cancer, period. 3. A college degree in any practice so i could get a job. Painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? If none, make one up. I am torn between 3 costumes. When i was 16 i was Sub Zero from Mortal Kombat (im a girl), when i was 17 i was Laura Croft, and when i was 18 i was X Mens Quicksilver. Lightning: whats the worst thing youve ever done while drunk or high? Fell down 2 flights of stairs. Thunder: whats one thing you would never do for one million dollars? A three way. Storms: you can only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life, which and why? I would probably listen to Shinning Bright by Echosmith, because it talks about stars and i love stars. Love: have you ever fallen in love? Describe what it feels like to realise youre in love. Its like getting hit in the face with a fucking truck, it hurts like hell. Clouds: would you ever rock really short hair? I have and i would do it again. Coffee: whats your starbucks order, and who would you trust to for you, if anyone? I dont drink starbucks. Marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? The stars, theyre the one constant thing in my life sadly, but theyre beautiful so i dont mind 😏.

[wearethejerkoffs]

all aesthetic asks

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? who knowsfairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?will i ever be actually happy? lmao. daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?i guess not killing myself yet 1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?going to glenlord with four lights in my life. matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?i would probably move to a different country and just leave everything behind. black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?see a moose irl (zoo doesnt count) visit Niagara Falls Visit London. pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.he never looks bad. seeing him smile will automatically cheer me up. he has the best laugh, and tells the goofiest jokes. i like hearing him talk and he smiles whenever his name is mentioned. i wish we were closer. moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?yeah i suppose. stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?uhhhh from sadness i cant remember. i cried from laughing in front of becca and ash i think. plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.Trey and Jake. i like them a lot. converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?yeah i guess. im pretty open. lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?chad last night, hes just a boy i want to hug forever. handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?i would probably remind becca she will be okay. cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?i like them, i have them sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally."losing the feeling of feeling unique" its just a lyric i love and relate too. oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?"don't read, you're not gonna be interested."overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?buy a green Camry, move to canada, get a cute place to live. help my mom. combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?i can be, unless im really angry. winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.ill write a 15 word letter: stop being in the abusive relationship you're in now. stay away from men like him. pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?punk. tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.i like them. i like that way of expressing yourself. i want more. piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?yes because im ugly as fuck without it. bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.i exist i exist i exist x flatsound. anyone who knows me knows that. messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.kill trump and pence. cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.way too many to list. amity affliction will forever stick with me. cried a lot with my best friend. grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?obama telling me he loves me. space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?nopewhite bed sheets: what is your night time routine?smoke weed and watch the officeold books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?i had sex with jake from goodwillbeaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?red hair, black bangs eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?becca, jake, trey, ky cam, gabe. we would go to st joe and stay there for hours 11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.for becca and i to be financially stable, to be in a beautiful town, and for trump and pence to die. painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.hallowqueen bitchlightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?suck a weird boys dickthunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?analstorms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?youngbloods x amitylove: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.platonic love with becca. it feels like i cant stop smiling clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?helll nocoffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?it switches, i like pumpkin spice, and salted caramel mocha on ice. idc who orders for me marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?becca!