#my flute professor would Get me for this honestly. it’s definitely from holding tension while i was playing earlier | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

dykebluejay · 4 months ago

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shoulder feels like it’s in the wrong place and needs to make a mighty crunch but i keep trying and it just makes weak little clicks and feeling more and more tight and hurting. help! i have joints 👎

#bluejay.txt #my flute professor would Get me for this honestly. it’s definitely from holding tension while i was playing earlier #she’s always all over me for playing with tension and pushing through pain #she’s right but i’m afraid she also doesn’t get that me and my stupid demon collagen are gonna have pain no matter how perfect my posture #but i should fix it as much as i can and i just have so much trouble with that.#at least i don’t play with Visibly bad posture anymore. my elbows are down my neck is up spine is straight knees not locked etc.#used to do all that & looked like the hunchback of notre dame.#now i just hold too much tension bc i’m afraid my shoulders will evacuate the premises (sockets) while i’m playing 💀#which has happened before and is very unpleasant though it doesn’t hurt.#music school moment #i guess #i should have an EDS tag but it would probably just make me sad lmao #man i just want my joints to work right. i would sacrifice the scary shoulder party tricks for less pain and instability fr #been a while since i used this site as a diary like this. hope you all are enjoying it i guess :)

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