#my first reaction to this in my inbox: 'OMG YAY!'

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PART 5!!! WAS!!!! EVERYTHING!!!!!

Reader really was going through it in the beginning, poor girlie 😭😭ALSO I'm starting the "A New Love For Myrtle 1944" petition. Sing to make this woman happy again. We didn't spend much time with her, but hers is a sad story in need of a happy ending. Every signature counts.

I love that she's knitting now and I love that she's sending it all to Bucky ❤️❤️ You just know that those are his most prized possessions ❤️

And eeeew, where was my Miller trigger warning?? 😭 She's so mean 😭 Like, I get she's a product of her time and I'm judging her with a modern mindset, but YEAH I'M JUDGING HER!! People are dying! Let them be happy! Chase your own bliss, girl! Leave them youngsters alone!

OMG, Bucky's POV is all I ever wanted. Loved being inside that man's head. He is a mess lmfao. But I can only imagine what he was like the first few days since he can't remember himself. Buck was blessed with an endless amount of patience because we all know Bucky talked about that 1-minute at most phone call the entire time.

AND HIS REACTION TO GETTING THAT FIRST LETTER AND THE PARCEL WAS SO CUTE, LIKE MY HEART!!!

Their letters? 10/10. Soooo perfect, it felt like I was prying into other people's private conversations. And I love the little details she adds just for him, like the Yankees winning the whatever it's called (sorry, baseball confuses me severely).

And honestly, the TEASING the boys must be putting Bucky through between letters 😂😂 And he's on cloud nine, he doesn't even care. And I bet Buck is thrilled for him too ❤️ I love them besties, your honor.

AND YAY TO BABY EGAN ON BOARD!!! Coming soon to a hospital far, far, far away from Bucky 😔✊

Despite the little joke I sent in another ask, I get her reasoning for not telling him, but man's not stupid. He's gonna figure out pretty fast he's about to become a father if he hasn't already. What's left for us to find out is if he's going to write to her, saying like "the jig is up. Can we name them after my plane? Not the one that went down, that wasn't even mine" or if he's going to wait for her to bring it up.

At any rate, pretty sure he'll miss the birth since, as he said in the last episode, he's been in the stalag for like eight months already. Hopefully he will learn how to astral project by then 🙏🏻

History question to wrap this up: could POWs send things out of the camp to the people they were corresponding with? Can't imagine they'd want to part with anything, but I wouldn't put it past him to send her something for the baby as a way of saying "I know" instead of having any of them writing about it.

Beatriz you have blessed my inbox yet again

Firstly - I adore how you connected with Myrtle. She’s a complicated, wounded woman who thought she did what was right. I don’t think she anticipated the reader’s poor reaction to it all, honestly…but there’s no shortage of eligible men if she can allow her heart to take another chance.

The knitting! Yes! Inspired by the weird little hat that Bucky was wearing at the start of episode 7, I was thinking it would be a lovely connection and per Red Cross rules very much allowed! You bet he takes very good care of his winter accessories.

But Captain Miller - a woman with very different priorities from the reader and very rigid morals. Interfering and scheming, she is always looking for the next promotion so it is utterly bewildering to her that the reader resented one and then proceeded to ruin her well-laid plans. Good riddance to her.

I honestly hemmed and hawed about including a Bucky POV here but it was demanded by my brain and therefore we got several into his rapidly fracturing psyche. Bless Buck and his patience for the delirious ramblings of head wound Bucky 😬

Beneath any teasing from the boys, there is surely a lot of jealousy - the reader’s letters come faster, and she seems to send more? And the knitting…But they’re also glad because it’s dulling the edges of Bucky’s caged-animal behaviour…or it was 🤦‍♀️

Baby Egan 🥹

Baby Egan to be born stateside and definitely not named after Bucky’s planes because they were - Just A Snappin’, Mugwump, and Mlle Zig Zig. Don’t seem to roll off the tongue 🤣🤣🤣

His reaction is going to be very interesting, wish me luck as I do my very best to bring this all to a close in just one more part 😬😬😬

History answer - as far as I can tell POWs we’re only entitled to send letters, but I will do more digging!!

[lawchan89]

"Fuck it - do you wanna get married?" for your tiny little Janna and Jackie canoe.

romantic/fluff sentence starters!

“Fuck it - do you wanna get married?”

“Pfft yeah, okay,” Jackie snorted, her head in her girlfriend’s lap with her eyes closed as Janna rubbed her temples. A major skate competition just happened to fall on the same weekend before final exams, and Jackie was nursing an awful sinus headache from being up all night studying. She sighed – only one more week and her college career was officially over. “Think it’s time for another round with the flash cards.”

“Let’s see,” Janna muttered, grabbing the pile of index cards with history names and dates. “Ah, Queen Victoria and Prince Albert?”

“Did that one.”

“Marcus Antonius and Cleopatra VII?”

“I know the ancients like the back of my hand, Jan.”

“Alexander and Eliza Hamilton?”

“I’m sensing a pattern here,” Jackie said suspiciously as she sat up, draping her arms around Janna’s neck which forced the young raven-haired woman to look at her. “Oh my God…”

“What?”

“You’re serious, aren’t you? You really wanna get married?”

“Uh, ya!” Janna’s voice rose to meet hers in annoyance. “You thought I wasn’t?”

“I thought you were just – ya know – being you,” Jackie stammered, her turquoise eyes having gone wider than Janna had ever seen them. “’Let’s get married’, ‘let’s jump off that roof’, ‘let break into Marco’s apartment and steal his credit cards’–”

“I can’t believe you didn’t wanna do that one,” Janna grumbled disappointedly, folding her arms over her chest.

“Janna…” The blonde girl looked at her almost helplessly, those amber eyes reflecting back making her weak in the knees like always. And her best friend, roommate and girlfriend, all rolled into one, shifted on the couch almost shyly.

“I’m serious, Jacqueline.” She slid her arms around her waist, pulling her deeper into her lap – and that’s when tears sprang into Jackie’s eyes.

“B-but what about money, and being financially secure? We’re just two broke college girls!”

“Dude, we can wait,” Janna said as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. “I just…think I really wanna be in this with you for the long haul. Don’t you?”

“Yeah…” Jackie pressed her forehead to hers, feeling gentle fingers wipe away the tears rolling over her freckles. “I really, really do.”

“So that’s a yes?” Strong tanned athletic arms encircled Janna’s lithe frame, the slightest of whispers passing from Jackie’s lips before they covered hers and didn’t relinquish them for a very long time.

“That’s a yes, Janna Ordonia…”

[phati-sari]

Shyam trying to get Arnav to settle down is so funny to me, if only he knew...him randomly doing slimy things in the BG is so in character lol Also omg Aman! Being a straight up savage hahah I love whenever they interact in your stories. TL;DR thank you for sharing this wonderfully gut wrenching story and giving me my dose of feels for the day. Hope you're having a wonderful day (YAY WEEKEND) 💜💜💜💜💜💜 (2/2)

Hello! I just read the newest Tere Bin and wanted to yell into your inbox about it! I loved the chapter so so much. The way you write angst always makes a pit open up in my stomach and it hurts but it hurts so good!! My favourite thing about your writing is that my reaction to it is pretty much the exact same as when I watch the show, aka me wanting to yell at the screen and also take their heads and shove them together while making kissy noises ( Vladimir from Tangled dot gif) 

Hey @puranijeans!!

Tumblr hated your first ask, thanks for sending it again!! 

No0o0o0o it shouldn’t hurt omg, I feel terrible haha. You’ve reminded me of a line from Yeh Jaadu Hai Jinn Ka. I was interested in watching it and then I saw a clip of Roshni saying something like “woh pyaar hi kya jisme dard na ho?” and I noped out the idea of watching the serial so hard you have no idea.

I’m going to need a lie down to recover from your compliment -- it makes you feel like the real and actual show did?! With its amazing writers and brilliant actors and that clever, clever cinematography??!! Thank you very much ❤️❤️

You know, this is actually how I write. Secretly, all my stories are just me trying to make them kiss hahaha.

It’s going to backfire so badly on Shyam when Arnav’s like ‘Okay, I’ll get married, and I already have a nice, Lucknowi girl picked out for myself, kthanksbye.” 

Aman says what we’re all thinking (or, I guess, what I’m thinking as I write haha). 

Thank you very much for reading! And for sending two0o0o amaze-sauce messages (sorry tumblr ate that first one TWICE). I aim to deliver the feelz but maybe not so many of the crying ones!! Yay weekend indeed, I hope yours goes excellently! Sending you dher saara pyaar! 💜💜

[yourereallyhere]

6x04 reaction post

HI I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE EPISODE and im SO EXCITED to see everyones posts because I've being avoiding social media since 8 pm EST,, that was the best episode of the season by far and im FREAKING OUT so enjoy all the thoughts I had while watching since I was able to do this when I didn't watch live as I usually do and also come scream in my inbox (under the cut bc its pretty long)

⁃ Diyoza is a #sav

⁃ This convo bt Russell and Simone hmmm we know where this is going 

⁃ MADI AND JORDAN ARE SO CUTE

⁃ Raven in a mechanic shop? This is an au fic

⁃ Everyone is so happy

⁃ “It will be like it never happened”..so if Clarke does it Josephine wouldn’t have her memories

⁃ But then Delilah wouldn’t remember Jordan 

⁃ Poor Madi

⁃ Bellamy and echo where did you come from 👀

⁃ Bellamy’s smirk at Jordan

⁃ Oof Clarke is really warming up to sanctum 

⁃ Bellamy follows Clarke what a good little night and e.cho is pissed

⁃ They’re all still in murder gear 

⁃ HUNGER GAMES AHAHAHA DLCIWJFKXI

⁃ Simone is 😡😡 angry

⁃ Repent renew rejoice rebirth

⁃ THE B.ECHO SHOT AND THEN THE CLARKE SHOT AS SHES TURNING AWAY FROM LOOKING AT THEM

⁃ Russell is so cute yay for men showing emotions!

⁃ Oh clarke you’ve hurt people but we love you anyways

⁃ OHHH THE PRINCESS MECHANIC FIGHT I WAS RIGHT I love when that happens

⁃ HONEY don’t apologize for Shaw you didn’t do shit and you were the only one who even tried to save him pls spare me this bs jroth

⁃ Don’t make Clarke feel bad for having impossible choices that’s so fucked up everyone puts responsibility on her and as she’s said MULTIPLE TIMES she. Didn’t. Ask. For. This.

⁃ WHOOP there it is: bringing Bellamy into the convo 

⁃ THAT IS NOT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CLARKE AND OCTAVIA ANS CLARKE DOESNT PRETEND

⁃ Awe Octavia is protecting Clarke that’s so nice

⁃ Errand boy is hot hot hotttt he should get with Octavia

⁃ Rose and Octavia is a duo I stand by

⁃ Xavier left that knife there on purpose

⁃ THE LANTERNS

⁃ Omg clarkes said “Leaving Bellamy in Polis” that’s her darkness of the past I’m not crying you are

⁃ And now they’re talking 

⁃ AND SHE CONFIRMED IT

⁃ Clarke stop was literally the cutest thing to come out of that boys mouth ever

⁃ The Talk™️ but not really because The Real Talk™️ will have to be alone

⁃ WE BEEN KNEW THE IM SO SORRY BELLAMY WAS FROM A DIFFERENT CLIP

⁃ you’re,. my. FAMILy TOO ANJCICIWKJDJS. AAAHHHHHHG

⁃ YOURE TOO IMPORTANT TO ME

⁃ this is going down as one of the most iconic scenes ever

⁃ I have to pause every two seconds to type I’m too excited and don’t want to miss anything

⁃ HES SO HAPPY

⁃ THE HUG

⁃ THE HUG

⁃ THE HUG

⁃ Bellamy stop beating yourself up

⁃ They’re standing SO CLOSE

⁃ Xavier’s smirk I knew he left it on purpose

⁃ Awe raven found her lil hub maybe she’ll find a way to take the giant stick out of her ass

⁃ OOO a boy maybe he’ll replace that stick for his

⁃ I’m so sorry about that idk what came over me

⁃ But yea they’re gonna bang 

⁃ He’s the prime from the pic raven was looking at

⁃ What’s their ship name ?? They both start with R .. Raver?

⁃ CLARKES A RAVER

⁃ AND SHES HERSELF

⁃ AT THE RAVE

⁃ oooo Bellamy’s gonna get jealous

⁃ that’s the wrong man clarkey 

⁃ We need a reaction shot

⁃ CLARKES SMILING SO MUCH

⁃ omg Bellamy’s watching clarke and doctor man

⁃ E.chos watching him watching clarke ANGST

⁃ Don’t lie bell we know why you’re upset

⁃ B.echo fight gimme

⁃ Also bell that wasn’t the last time you were at a party the last time was in Arkadia at the end of the world with your blue solo cup and the girl who looked suspiciously like your wife

⁃ Omg BELL CALLING E.CHO OUT FOR BEING A ROBOT

⁃ how would the e.cho you knew on the ring do that if no one was in trouble or dying ?? Unless bell was dying of sadness

⁃ Also weird thing to say right after clarke apologized to him showing that she does in fact care when people are in trouble or dying

⁃ FINALLY TALKING ABOUT MONTY AND HARPER (HARPER HARPER DONT FORGET HER)

⁃ Wow Bellamy that was a lot of sass

⁃ I kind of feel bad for e.cho

⁃ Octavia is SO GOOD in this episode

⁃ FEAR IS A MOTHERFUCKING DEMON love that callback

⁃ Oh good grab the stick

⁃ YAS DIYOZA

⁃ NICE STICK THATS WHAT I SAID AHHAH

⁃ omg I knew rose was gonna die now clarkes gonna become the host but I’m sad bc she was so cute and smol 

⁃ Octavia we know you’re gonna end up having sex with him

⁃ Diyoza is a cockblock

⁃ The ponytail is back YAS with braids this time

⁃ OOO I KNEW IT RYKERS A PRIME

⁃ I love being right

⁃ YES CLARKE ITS BEEN 132 YEARS GET THAT DICCCCCC

⁃ Clarke is so hot

⁃ And *invisible ink* horny

⁃ Delilah doesn’t want to forget that’s #sweet

⁃ Oo good job clarke he’s got abs

⁃ Banned by the primes hmm is this guy a spy 

⁃ HE IS THE SPY

⁃ POOR CLARKE THE FIRST GUY SHE HOOKS UP WITH WANTS HER DEAD

⁃ Clarke couldn’t release her sin of leaving Bellamy

⁃ Poor Jordan

⁃ OH YAY CLARKE IS BEING SAVED FOR ONCE even if it’s by randos 

⁃ That tear. Kill me.

⁃ I miss Bellamy come back to my screen bby

⁃ Also murphy Emori Abby Miller Jackson were just kinda kicked out of the episode lol

⁃ They’re gonna turn Clarke into Josephine at the end of this episode and the next or next few will be everyone else having to save her for once I think so it’s good that she and Bellamy talked a little bit before

⁃ I am all for e.cho showing emotion

⁃ I don’t like that everyone is drinking their problems away though

⁃ Oo they obva haven’t been together that long or e.cho would have told Bellamy the truth about her parents before this right

⁃ Ok the b.echo scene was cute but their physical interactions just look so awkward and I wasn’t a big fan of Tastas acting although it was better than usual

⁃ RUSSELL NO they’re not even giving her a choice

⁃ They bad bad

⁃ NO CLARKE

⁃ the flaaaaame destroy that stupid piece of shit already

⁃ How can Eliza Taylor show SO MUCH EMOTION while paralyzed

⁃ Queen of acting

⁃ They’re calling Clarke a vessel like she’s not a human being

⁃ OMG this is so good like bad for Clarke but plot wise SO good (even though we saw it coming) and when she was screaming I thought it was her getting clarkes pain but I guess it was just being reincarnated 

⁃ THE HAIR TWIRLING 

⁃ Yes you can work with that it’s Clarke motherfucking Griffin

⁃ that was the best episode of the season. scream with me in my inbox.

[goddessofroyalty]

Hey, my dear!

I am invading your inbox again and I am sorry but the last chapter of Oiw just blow me aways so so so much. God! I LOVED IT SO MUCH!!! EVERYTHING ON IT and right into the feels. Really, RIGHT INTO IT. I know I needed a bit of time to write this review but with work and all that, I just could not order my thoughts and I wanted to read it a second time before I wrote you some feedback.

If you’re invading my inbox it is a welcome one. And no bother about the time - I’m patient (and I mean you’ve been patient in how long it has taken me to get the chapter out).

Also I’m cutting this because between the two of us it got long.

You got me with Ben’s panic attack. I really, really loved it. Ben and hurt/comfort gives me life. I just loved it so much. I love how Han realized how on the verge of panic Ben was and that it was not the best idea to take Ben into this bar with him. I LOVED that Finn was the one who brought him outside and then Finn’s hands on Ben’s shoulders and just OMG my Finn/Ben platonic friendship heart beats faster. I really like that you show how Ben was used to this kind of settings in the past but now after spending years in the white rooms, he just feels so overwhelmed. It shows how much the room affected Ben and that he is not the same person anymore. He cannot be. And Rey’s “Did you see someone..?” ohhh ;3. Nice.

I’m glad I got the panic attack right. They’re not the most easy things to writer.

Yeah Han is kind of beating himself up about it because he hadn’t even thought that maybe taking Ben into a crowded bar might be overwhelming for him.

Finn’s TBH probably a step above having a panic attack himself - if you watch him closely in the movie you can see he is not comfortable at the bar at all. He’s kind of using Ben as an out - he cares about Ben and is worried about him as well of course, but he’s also kind of using Ben’s panic as a way to do things to decrease his own.

Ben’s panic attack here is VERY MUCH a sensory overload one. Because yeah, years in a rather quiet rather boring room makes the really loud, really busy bar a bit too much for him. Plus there isn’t really an immediate threat for him to focus on and so he’s noticing the other stuff more.

And Rey probably hasn’t dealt with sensory overload before (at least not in this context) - so to her the only reason for the kind of reaction Ben gave is a threat.

I also liked the Maz appearance, how she took Ben’s hands into hers and said that she was glad that he was well. ;) OHHH! Also Han and Finn framing Ben as they got inside the bar again and Ben burying himself into his father’s jacket is sooo cute but also such a nice image. I told you before – I really loved that part. Also Finn seemed not that fond of the bar as well.

Glad you liked the Max stuff and the framing and jacket (yay symbolism).

Again on the Finn thing, watch him closely in the movie - he does not want to be there and I’d imagine he’d only be worse with the extra that’s on his mind in this fic.

OHH and the meal scene – how Finn and Rey enjoyed the fruit and were so happy about how good they tasted and ate so much of them and seemed so full of joy – that made me so happy ;3. I also liked that Ben made the first step with taking some food and then he wondered how those two can eat so much, when he was struggling already to finish his own fruit. Also Rey remembering that food and all the feels for Ben bc another thing which reminded him of Rey Skywalker. Right into the feels. Right into it.

I have to say I’m rather fond of the meal scene myself. IDK it’s just a nice small moment where the characters get to interact without any immediate plot acting upon them (although obviously with some implications of plot). So I’m glad you like it as well.

I know at some point I should probably deal with how Rey’s stomach is probably messed up from the years of really unreliable food (because I mean I will be dealing with Rey’s food issues in this fic) but for now she gets to be a bit of a glutton with Finn.

And as much as I think it’s probably a bit heavy handed I couldn’t cut Rey remembered the fruit of her childhood. She doesn’t actually remember it because it was the first fruit she ate (because that’s dumb - nobody remembers that unless told) but rather because it was around because it was Luke’s favorite. For Ben just the strongest memory of her + it was when she first had it.

Also with the part of Hux not allowing Ben not to die – you hit me right into the feels again. RIGHT into it. OH man, and Ben wanting to die so badly, to prevent to be used to bring darkness over the galaxy. And Hux removing all sharp objects and Ben’s medication being monitored and that damn nutrition drip as he refused to eat/not eat enough for Hux’s tastes. ;/ Hux is just such a bastard. Ben must have been so scared and desperate and hate those things so much – Hux controlling every aspect of his life.

This chapter had a few dark parts to it. That fact is actually a bit of an implication of one of the differences between the old Jedi and Luke’s. Also it shows just how controlling Hux was over Ben and how much his wants + goals were more important than Ben’s to him (although because it was still the early days Snoke had a heavier hand in it as well).

Also Maz seeing right through Finn and omg Finn’s leaving broke my heart although I know he will not get far. And Finn wanting to take Ben along and Rey! OHHH! But still. Right into the feels AGAIN. Oh man this CHAPTER! THIS CHAPTER! I LOVED IT SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!

Most of that is just stuff lifted right from the movie but it’s such an important part of Finn’s characterization that it’s important to come across.

And my favourite sentence of this chapter was Ben’s - “He didn’t want to be a Stormtrooper anymore. I thought he wanted to be a Rebel.” I LOVED THAT SO SO MUCH!

The prose as always was very pretty, the characterizations splendid – THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING AND SHARING THIS CHAPTER! I LOVE IT SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!

I’m glad you liked the sentence. As well as everything else. Just I’m so glad you like my fic so much. I hope you enjoy the rest to come.

[calamiitywrites]

Jared Leto x Reader ; Music Awards

Author’s Note; Sorry it seems like this took forever, I couldn’t find it in my inbox until now so yay! Thank you so much for the compliment omg! I have a section for reviews so please feel free to leave some feedback and some opinions. I need some !! Seriously I had a dream just like this request so this should be extremely interesting. I tried to make it a little bit shorter than the rest because I know I can get carried away so I hope this is ok! Thanks for the request. 

A gentle hand slid over the outside of your dress as you patted down the delicate places that deserved the most attention. It never really took you too long to get ready for anything, but this in particular was a big deal for you. In dating the infamous Jared Leto for more than 6 months you felt the need to always look your best when leaving the house to do simple errands such as going to the store, going on small dates with him, and just going out with your friends in general. However, this particular event required a bit more preparation, an award show designed to recognize actors, actresses, and amazing talents of the entertainment world, was the most important thing you’d ever really gone to. 

Previously, Jared went to these things alone or with some form of eye candy that he could strut around for photos and appearances, but no such event happened in your time together yet until now. This would be the first time you two actually attended a public appearance this big together, and you couldn’t stop the nerves from ripping through your entire body. Your hands were shaking, your palms were sweating, and you continued to fiddled with pieces of your dress that were already perfect. 

Delicate thoughts of judgement clouded the forefront of your mind as you truly wondered if you were good enough to really stand at his side on the red carpet tonight. Perhaps you should change your mind, there was still time. You could easily just watch him tonight on the tv, waltz the carpet alone like he usually did, but you knew deep down that if you backed out now he would be hurt. Although he usually did have a good time at these events, he often dreaded the boredom behind most of them especially when his friends were not around. 

A gentle knock pulled you from your thoughts and a small jump rippled through you as you turned towards the door. A glance down to your watch revealed that it was indeed time for you two to make your departure, but were you ready? 

“Come in....” you trailed off, turning towards the door frame and slipping your hands behind the dress to watch the ends of it flare around the back of your knee caps. It was spring, and the gentle breeze of tonight’s air would make it absolutely perfect, at least, that’s what the designer told you.  

his smile was contagious and spread across his face like the plague and you couldn’t stop the blush that took over your features at his reaction. He hadn’t actually seen the dress that you had picked out for the event, and the overall construction of it surprised even you. You had never really been a dress person, blue jeans or tights with a nice shirt was always your go to unless you were working and it was slacks and a decorative blouse, but dresses were completely foreign to you. The original gown you had picked out was the very definition of plain jane which was the direct opposite of what you were going for. You were never the type to value the attention of other people, in fact, you did everything in your power to avoid it; too many eyes on you usually made you uncomfortable. Even now, you felt yourself coming a part at the seams with just his crystal blue orbs scanning you over, but the devastatingly enamored smile he flashed in your direction destroyed every thought you had in that moment.  With the help of the store’s designer you had truly picked out a dress that was unforgettable. 

the delicate ombre of the dress was slightly overshadowed by silver glittered texture that formed small patterns around the flared bottom and slimmed bosom decorating your chest. It was absolutely perfect. Short enough to give awareness to your slightly long but beautiful legs, flared at the bottom like you like, and no long train for you to accidently fall over. It was the impeccable combination of elegant, flirty and fun. 

“Are you just going to stand there, gawking?” You questioned shifting your weight slightly in discomfort. His lips pressed together as he looked off to the side in an expression that mocked deep thought. A slight nod rippled through his frame and he smiled. 

“Yeah.” he answered simply before slipping one of his hands into his pocket and leaning against the wall comfortably. 

“Are you sure I shouldn’t just.....stay here?” you question slipping your hands up to your ears in an attempt to remove your earrings. Turning to face the mirror you could see his reflection in the background. It radiated unease and disappointment and that was the last thing you wanted to do to him. 

“I mean, if you don’t really wanna go....” he trailed off and the poorly hidden disappointment in his voice sent a sharp pain through the left side of your breast. He was hurt. 

“I just....I don’t want to ruin it for you......” you started before holding your earring in your hand and glancing down at the floor. He was aware of your low levels of confidence, and he respected you enough not to force you to do things you didn’t want to do. You were stubborn in that regard, but he shrugged.

“It’s just another award show, there will be more.......I just....would hate to let all this pretty go to waste.” the shuffling sound of his feet growing closer to you made you smile, and before you were aware of it, his fingers were on your skin. 

“You really think it looks good enough?” you question finally looking up at him and his eyebrow quirked. Blue orbs slid from your eyes down to your shoes before returning back to your face, and you had half a mind to check if you were still clothed because it felt as if he had just visually undressed you. 

“Good enough?” he was genuinely confused. You didn’t want to explain, you felt as if it were a petty insecurity that he wouldn’t understand, but you couldn’t hide from those eyes. 

“Somebody like me ....” his hand raised and landed on your lips before you could continue and he sighed. 

“Stop.” he said simply before slowly letting his hand run down the delicate confines of your lips to your hands. 

“Where you come from, and who you are, are two completely different things. You’re just as good if not better than half those people that will be out there tonight. You’re important to me, and I want you there. You are the most interesting thing about tonight.” he admitted, and the confidence behind his words fueled you. his face grew closer to yours and you prepared yourself for his kiss only to feel the absence of his lips. 

There was a gentle air against your face as his frame moved away from yours, and his fingers were around the small clutch in your hands.

“I mean, but if you don’t wanna go I mean...” he went on walking away and turning his back to you playfully. You chased after him slightly, wrapping your hands around the back of his shoulders and resting them on his chest.

“I’m going, I’m going!” you laughed before watching him turn to you.

“Good, because you’re beautiful and people deserve to see you.” 

“You just say that because you want my goods.” You joked wrapping your arms around the back of his neck and pulling him closer.

“What? Did you hear that line I just laid on you? Oh I’m gettin’ your goods. I could have em’ now if I wanted them.” he urged.

“Oh you think so?” You questioned. 

“Mhm.” He nodded planting a small kiss on your lips before pulling you closer. His eyes flickered towards his watch before slipping his hand in yours. You followed along excitedly while practicing deep breathing in an effort to calm you raging anxiety.  

The ride was nearly excruciating as you stared out of the window in awe of the illuminating buildings that took up most of the night life. The distant sound of Jared having side conversations with the driver and a few of his band mates in the backseat went unnoticed to you. You had originally joined in on the conversation previously, but the realization of you growing closer and closer to the red carpet sent a tingle of discomfort through your spine. Were you sure this was a good idea. The tabloids hinted at Jared having a significant other, but you had done a good job of concealing yourself from them, but tonight was the night that you exposed the rumors for what they were and you didn’t know if you were ready. Would you be what they expected? 

The distant feeling of Jared’s fingers colliding against yours sent your eyes in his direction and he smiled. He was always a master at sensing your moods even when you didn’t let on what you were actually feeling, and the sensation of his concern forced you to smile. 

“You look hot by the way.” Shannon’s voice slid through the forefront of your mind, but you couldn’t help the laugh that fell through your lips at his eyes on your skin. The playful look on his face made it hard for you to take him seriously.

“Says the guy with the impossibly perfectly tied bow tie.” you spoke. 

“Hey....I didn’t say you looked as good as me, but close.” He joked pulling at the bow tie attached to his dress shirt before everyone broke out in laughter. 

You two were on the red carpet before you knew it and the cascade of blinding flashes from the camera’s of the reporters nearly gave you a seizers. You stood there frozen as they threw questions in your direction. 

“Jared this way! Over here Jared! Flash a smile here Jared! Jared! Jared! Who’s your date!?” The questions fell from so many directions that you didn’t really know where to look and the tightening grip of Jared’s hand on yours wasn’t helping. In fact, it just made you more nervous. His voice was low in your ear as he directed you to smile at the camera’s on your left and to simply not stop smiling. He didn’t brief you on the expectations in the car, but it became simple after a while. Just don’t stop smiling. If they catch a picture of you without it, you’ll be misconstrued as the stuck up date with a bad attitude, or the weird mousey girl next to him that he probably didn’t even know. Your lips were on fire, and your cheeks felt as though they would fall from your face at any moment. 

“Maybe they’ll think i’m some sick person from the make a wish foundation and this is a one time thing.” you joked and his laugh radiated in your ear before he leaned down to whisper. 

“You don’t fuck like a sick person.” he teased. Your eyes flashed toward him with a look of pure shock and the smirk plastered on his lips nearly sent your lower half into a pooling mess of arousal. You imagined that the picture associated with the current reaction would be legendary. Your wildfire of a blush spread across your face, while his devilish smirk nearly overtook his features. You could see it now.

“JARED LETO WHISPERS SWEET NOTHINGS TO HIS RED CARPET DATE ;; WHAT DID HE SAY?” 

Your laugh turned into a small giggle as you tried to hide your reaction and suddenly his hand was gone from yours. An interviewer caught his attentions and began her questions with him, but instead of interrupting you attempting to continue smiling in the background. You assumed that with his absence you wouldn’t be the center of anyone’s attention anymore, but the camera’s continued to flash in your direction without warning. 

You could feel the growing anxiety in your abdomen reach its peak and the sudden panic attack you wanted to avoid began rippling through your spine. Your smile started to fade and you swallowed hard, only to find Shannon at your side. His frame stood in front of yours as his hand rested on your hip. His voice was low in your ear as he questioned you.

“You alright?” He was concerned and you had never heard his voice like that before. 

“I....I think so I just....I need a second?” You spoke and he smiled.

“Totally normal. I don’t think we could’ve warned ya about this enough.” He admitted. 

“Just breathe....” he trailed before his eyes connected with yours. It was easy and once you gained your breath, you smiled. 

“Just like that.” He instructed before moving aside and posed for some pictures with you. Jared’s eyes connected with yours as you were photographed and he stopped mid sentence. There was a look on his face that you couldn’t quite decipher; it mirrored awe and slight arousal. He had lost his train of thought and you were sure that the interviewer was probably confused. 

His hand slid against yours and before you knew it you were at his side with his arm around the back of your waist. 

“I can’t leave her alone too long.” He joked into the microphone as the interviewer laughed whole heartedly amused. You couldn’t help the smile that slid over your features as he continued to speak with her. 

“Have you looked into her eyes, I mean it’s insane. They’re like little gifts from the Gods.” He answered looking into your eyes and making her blush worse. 

“This man, knows how to speak to ladies.” You admitted before looking back towards the interviewer. Her blush nearly out weighed yours as you directed his attention back to her. 

He was finally attentive to her as she questioned him about tonight’s festivities as well as previous projects he’s worked on. As she finished up he leaned closer to you 

“You ok?” he questioned. 

“Perfect.....” you responded. 

[lesbianreginageorge]

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