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punkscowardschampions · 3 years ago

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Sekhmet & Lulu pt.1

Sekhmet: You’re never going to guess

Lulu: You’re going to make me?

Lulu: okay… I’ve had time… and if it’s not your politically leaning older brother I’m going to be truly shook

Sekhmet: Now I’m just 🤔 if this is a better plot twist

Sekhmet: I think so, on the surface, less taboo, but it has more layers, actually

Lulu: It does need to be, to warrant being the first thing you’ve said to me in forever

Sekhmet: That’s how it is now, only come to you with the best news?

Sekhmet: 👌🏽

Lulu: While I wait for an apology

Sekhmet: Oh please, you’re not still in a mood 🙄

Lulu: you think now you’re not ignoring me it’s absolutely fine that you did

Sekhmet: I wasn’t ignoring you, you told me not to speak to you and I didn’t

Sekhmet: You should’ve said something before this point if you were still going to be pissy about it now 💁🏽‍♀️

Lulu: No, you should be sorry and love me again because it’s been horrid

Sekhmet: Stop being such a baby for five seconds, you’ve totally derailed this reveal

Lulu: …You have to the count of 5 to actually reveal something

Sekhmet: I know you can’t resist, bitch 😏

Sekhmet: Who would it give you the most pleasure to fuck with rn?

Lulu: you know my hit list, I haven’t been mad enough to add your name, yet, or in the mood to take anyone else off

Sekhmet: Well time to borrow Mattie’s red pen

Lulu: if it’s one of her exes, she really must start spilling secrets

Sekhmet: Warmer

Sekhmet: but no 😆

Lulu: OH MY GOD

Lulu: you’re not serious

Lulu: it can’t be!

Sekhmet: If you’re on the right sister now

Sekhmet: there’s only one person it can be

Lulu: Well duh, we’ve gone beyond the reach of prison penpals

Lulu: but no way, he doesn’t have it in him 🤯🤯

Sekhmet: I’m sure it’s totally un-lesbian to pretend to be a man, even when you’re the one strapping

Sekhmet: anyway, yes way, why would I lie!

Sekhmet: He really does though 😻

Lulu: I’m not calling you a liar, I’m calling him 🥛

Lulu: there’s a reason he didn’t click when you said [fake name] was a new yorker and it’s the whole dungeon fantasy being wildly hypothetical and Jonah a HUGE bore

Lulu: if he’s such a dark horse I’m furious I couldn’t tell

Sekhmet: Babe, he literally fucked me NUMEROUS times, not letting me know he knew exactly who I was AND that I knew him

Sekhmet: then he didn’t tell me until we were alone in a foreign country and he’d already JUST fucked me again

Sekhmet: he’s so not what you had him pegged as, at all

Lulu: Stop, that’s too hot for me to stay livid

Sekhmet: Then don’t be, that’s boring

Sekhmet: is this not exactly what you were hoping for but never thought you’d actually get

Lulu: Of course it is!

Lulu: tell me everything

Sekhmet: Jesus, don’t even worry about what remembering will do to me

Lulu: How did he do it?

Sekhmet: He just… did it

Sekhmet: like he knew I wasn’t going to freak

Sekhmet: or he didn’t care, it was the former, definitely but still, it was so fucking hot

Lulu: He hates her too, wow, this is better than every Christmas or birthday…

Sekhmet: I think he’ll leave her

Lulu: I’m going to marry him, he’s CLEARLY my soulmate

Lulu: fuck, this is incredible, forget school, I don’t even care if I fail, nothing could possibly ever touch this level of validation, I’m right about her and about you, and he knows it

Sekhmet: The fuck you are

Sekhmet: you’ll have to get in line

Lulu: Sorry? I can’t hear you over the sound of the church bells or my 💓

Sekhmet: Too bad you already have a ring no takebacks

Lulu: so does he, he’s not letting it ruin his fun

Sekhmet: If you hate me like he hates Jay you aren’t invited so

Lulu: I love you, you made this happen

Sekhmet: Yeah I did

Lulu: I love you so fucking much, for this, for everything

Sekhmet: Good

Sekhmet: because that’s what he wants to see

Sekhmet: how much you’d do for me

Lulu: Does he know I know?

Lulu: my acting has SOME limits, I’m not sure I could pretend otherwise for v long if that’s also what he wants, not when I’m feeling like this

Sekhmet: Yeah, he wouldn’t meet you otherwise

Sekhmet: he has to protect himself, right

Lulu: He knows who I am too, but not enough to say with certainty I’d think blackmail is the least entertaining way this could play out

Sekhmet: He has enough on you that blackmail isn’t a possibility

Lulu: if I cared about any of it getting out, sure, he doesn’t realise yet either I don’t, but he’ll find out

Sekhmet: I mean

Sekhmet: it’s more than you think

Sekhmet: I had to tell him some stuff or he wouldn’t even entertain it

Lulu: He isn’t as stupid as Jay makes him look, that’s a given

Sekhmet: Exactly

Sekhmet: so it’s all of us are fucked or none of us

Lulu: how perfect

Sekhmet: It can be

Sekhmet: as long as you understand that

Lulu: What’s not to understand? Telling her ends the game with the quickest and most tedious choice of move, it’s the last thing I’d do

Sekhmet: You can’t just throw the board if you decide you don’t wanna play no more

Sekhmet: It won’t end well

Lulu: I want to play

Sekhmet: Good

Lulu: I got jealous when it looked like a nobody with a trust fund bought apartment was taking you away from me, he’s somebody

Lulu: this opportunity is special

Sekhmet: What am I, stupid?

Sekhmet: it’s once in a lifetime level

Sekhmet: I can’t believe he even saw the ad

Lulu: He saw you at the engagement party, he was waiting for his once in a lifetime chance too

Sekhmet: 🥰

Lulu: I should’ve known then after I clocked his 👀

Sekhmet: Everyone stares at me

Sekhmet: most don’t do anything

Lulu: True, you didn’t expect me to

Lulu: but I still feel like an idiot for missing something that’s now so glaringly obvious

Sekhmet: If I hadn’t started a conversation, you wouldn’t have

Sekhmet: You’d still be a straight–A student wondering how to talk to guys in your class

Lulu: You’re underestimating me and how bored she, that version, would have been at the pre-hen

Lulu: Also, EW, what boys? And what supposed mystery are they holding onto which I apparently can’t fathom?

Sekhmet: You TOTALLY asked me for advice on boys at school, I haven’t forgotten, you wish 😅

Lulu: You were playing the big sister role, I was giving you what you wanted

Sekhmet: Yeah, okay bitch 😏

Sekhmet: anyway, Jay was playing the big sister role, that’s her thing, not mine

Lulu: she swapped you in because she can’t handle playing any role against me, and boys are your thing, asking for advice was an easy first move

Sekhmet: She’s as good at it as she is the girlfriend role but you know

Sekhmet: Pop off like the expert in both, I guess 🥴

Lulu: It’s no wonder he fucked you how he did every time, she’s lights off, sober, if it’s not scheduled around clients it’s not happening

Sekhmet: Well, maybe I’ll tell you what he’s told me about her

Sekhmet: if you earn it 🙃

Lulu: You HAVE to

Sekhmet: You’ll DIE

Lulu: kill me, I’m begging you, I need it

Sekhmet: Say you’re sorry for being mad at me still

Sekhmet: even though I did nothing wrong

Lulu: I’m BEYOND sorry, it was all my fault, I went crazy

Sekhmet: All this time, I’m trying so hard to sort it so you can stay with me

Lulu: I know, I should’ve trusted you and listened to you

Sekhmet: and not think I was falling for a nobody with a trust fund

Lulu: you wouldn’t leave me, you’re not like everybody, or anybody else

Sekhmet: Don’t forget it

Lulu: If you decide to forgive me I won’t remember anything but, I promise, and I’ll do nothing but behave accordingly

Lulu: perfectly

Sekhmet: Okay then

Sekhmet: [tell her what he said about a threesome and anything else that was inevitably said]

Lulu: 💀

Lulu: I have 0 words

Lulu: maybe I should apologise again for doubting you

Sekhmet: You don’t have to apologise to Jay for calling her vanilla

Sekhmet: it’s still true now

Lulu: I told Mattie she was a cold bitch while you were away, she should apologise to me for telling me off for it

Sekhmet: 😂

Sekhmet: you didn’t lie, she’s a total bitch

Lulu: Who do you think the other girl was?

Sekhmet: They either got wasted and it was a friend that she then ditched immediately because shame

Sekhmet: or they got some poor hooker in one of the various countries they’ve been to, no chance of that tidbit following you home 🙄😏

Lulu: He would’ve created an app for her, for it, if she was capable of accepting a romantic gesture

Sekhmet: she’s such a level 3, not even a good one

Sekhmet: either way, it must’ve been bad because it wasn’t made a regular thing

Lulu: if she’d gone to boarding school like mummy wanted she wouldn’t be such a huge drama queen, and turn off, about it

Sekhmet: I’m glad she is

Sekhmet: or I wouldn’t get him

Lulu: Yes you would, she still wouldn’t be able to compete

Sekhmet: Okay, true

Sekhmet: but I wouldn’t know I wanted him if he wasn’t looking

Lulu: fumbling her way through a girl on girl scenario more than once without being fully bambi in the headlights wouldn’t mean she’s satisfying him, she wasn’t yonks before, if ever, he’d be looking

Sekhmet: She’s never given him what he wants, she isn’t prepared to

Sekhmet: but she wants to keep him prisoner, it’s so fucked up

Lulu: Exactly

Lulu: bad luck putting a ring on it doesn’t fix anything, she’d try a baby next if she wasn’t scared to

Sekhmet: It’s too late now, she just won’t see it

Lulu: How does she not feel it?

Lulu: I’d be embarrassed for her if she wasn’t her

Sekhmet: She’s clueless, willingly or otherwise

Sekhmet: she’d have to face her own shit to see this and she ain’t gonna do that any time soon

Lulu: 😬 but I’m Mattie’s cause du jour re needing therapy, meaning even she thinks she’s a lost one

Sekhmet: Or she buys it

Lulu: If she thought they were the fairytale ending she’d be treating this upcoming wedding as if it is

Sekhmet: Maybe

Sekhmet: who actually likes weddings that aren’t their own though

Lulu: she doesn’t like him, I can tell

Sekhmet: Unsurprising, she actually is boring

Lulu: Does your father like him?

Sekhmet: You know what she’s like

Sekhmet: she hasn’t let anyone meet him properly and she’d be SO offended if he actually did what dads were meant to do and gave him the once over

Lulu: A real no and a fake yes then

Sekhmet: He wouldn’t like him now but that’s not relevant

Lulu: it is to you

Sekhmet: Not yet

Lulu: You’re super welcome for the 💭 though

Lulu: see, I’m truly sorry and really love and miss you

Sekhmet: Okay, I missed you too

Sekhmet: He might actually kill him

Sekhmet: except I won’t want him to so he won’t be able to

Lulu: It’s the biggest pity my other mummy’s board throwing tactics mean she’d have to be an ultimate last resort, or I could’ve given him that ménage à trois

Sekhmet: Meh, it’d just give her more to feel like she was right about

Lulu: Like she won’t already be unbearable when he leaves her at the altar

Sekhmet: She can’t fake she saw it coming

Sekhmet: she asked him, we know she thought it would work this time

Lulu: When does he want me? What did he say?

Sekhmet: [this should be before they’ve gone to Ireland so I can drop that in/make you wait some more, so like, give that however many days makes sense]

Lulu: that’s SO mean

Lulu: I love him even more

Sekhmet: that’s the spirit 😘

Lulu: Am I going to see you too?

Sekhmet: You will then

Sekhmet: but we’ve kinda tacked these days on to the business trip so she thinks he’s still in Budapest

Lulu: Not that she honestly cares

Sekhmet: Sadly she’s not that tuned out

Sekhmet: but yeah, it’s not going to be as if I can never see him, she’s all about independence, yeah 🙄

Lulu: Being a boss babe of fitness

Sekhmet: ice 👸 with no 🤴🏼

Lulu: all the things she could be using her muscles for and she’s only trying to run away

Sekhmet: She’s not going to get this back

Sekhmet: what a waste, a guy that’s loved you for a decade

Lulu: It’s disgusting, she’s throwing away a degree of loyalty I would literally kill for

Sekhmet: He’s so…

Sekhmet: loyal doesn’t even cover it, not remotely

Lulu: 😭

Lulu: something else she doesn’t deserve and takes utterly for granted

Sekhmet: I know he’s never fucked her like me

Sekhmet: even before she ruined it

Lulu: She’d never let him, I’ve never met someone who uses their influence as wrong as she does

Sekhmet: *right as me

Lulu: That too, except yours is genuine power, not tiny amounts of persuasion coming from exploiting other people’s emotions

Sekhmet: She’d need to share a mum to even be able to come close to knowing all the things I know how to do

Lulu: Don’t kill me harder than the wait already is

Sekhmet: My parents are perfect, I’m sorry

Lulu: yeah, you should be 🥺

Sekhmet: Poor baby

Lulu: Your life is perfect rn and I’m stuck here at school all alone, it’s the saddest

Sekhmet: You’ll feel better soon

Sekhmet: if you didn’t miss me how would you know it’s real

Lulu: Promise you’ll miss me, even though you have him

Sekhmet: Duh

Sekhmet: it’s different

Lulu: and don’t be mad at me anymore

Sekhmet: I’m not

Sekhmet: I just can’t stop thinking about him right now

Lulu: Okay

Sekhmet: You know it’s different

Lulu: I know how it works, I wouldn’t be able to stop thinking about him if I was with him either, that’s why it’s more than a job

Lulu: more than 💷💳💎🎁

Lulu: I understand, it’s the reason I hate being left out, a reason anyway

Sekhmet: Sorry I’m bad at sharing

Sekhmet: but it’s going to happen

Lulu: Me too, you’re falling for him without me and you doing anything without me makes me unhappy, that’s all

Sekhmet: We can’t both have him, not if that’s not what he wants

Sekhmet: I’m good but I’m not tell people what their kinks are good, it doesn’t work

Lulu: Again, I know, this arrangement is all him and his wants, it’s okay, I meant it up there, I agreed to it because it made the most sense for you pre his identity reveal and it still does

Sekhmet: It doesn’t change anything between us

Lulu: how often we can spend time together, or talk, or how much you think about me has changed

Lulu: I don’t want any promises you can’t keep, they’re too close to a lie

Sekhmet: It’s not a lie, that’s just now

Sekhmet: he has her and a seriously important job, it’s not like he can be around as much as all that

Lulu: Until he leaves her, like you said

Sekhmet: he said yes, to marrying her

Sekhmet: they’ve got this far

Lulu: Oh please, you don’t believe that

Lulu: you want him, you’ve got him, it’s the easiest thing ever

Sekhmet: it’s not that easy

Sekhmet: or you wouldn’t be interested

Lulu: Yes it is, you’re you and he’s a man pushing 30 who hadn’t been fucked properly before

Sekhmet: That hasn’t stopped him knowing how to fuck though

Lulu: I never said I didn’t want him to fuck me in every possible way that either of us can think of, I very much do

Sekhmet: Naturally

Sekhmet: I’ll tell him

Sekhmet: not the pushing 30 bit, I’m not that blatant

Lulu: I get the feeling he’d like it and I’m not going to be there to play nice, seeing as we’re united by mutual hatred

Sekhmet: Good cop bad cop

Lulu: mhmm

Sekhmet: We’ll see

Sekhmet: maybe I know what he has planned, maybe I don’t

Lulu: Maybe I want it to be a surprise, maybe he’ll change what he had planned because it’s not for yonks and yonks

Sekhmet: he could bring it forward, or push it back

Lulu: whatever he wants, I’ll be there whenever it is, as ready as I’ve been since you first told me who he is

Sekhmet: Right answer

Lulu: This class hasn’t been a complete disaster, in that case

Sekhmet: What class are you in?

Lulu: It makes no difference for what you’re about to ask me to do, regardless I’ll do it anyway

Sekhmet: Sorry to disappoint, I just wanted to know what you were failing at

Lulu: nothing yet, equally sorry if that disappoints

Sekhmet: Guess I’ll live

Sekhmet: you couldn’t have been that distraught though

Lulu: How distraught would you like me to be?

Lulu: I haven’t slept since you left, it’s given me 🤏🏻 study time

Sekhmet: Just be honest

Lulu: I was and am, I told you it’s been rotten

Sekhmet: So don’t ask what I’d like, I’m just trying to talk to you, not play stupid games

Lulu: It isn’t a game, I walked out of model UN because I thought I was going to suffocate if I stayed for another second and now the years I did don’t count for anything and I have to delete it from all my uni applications and Mattie’s been all over me in the least hot way possible assuring me I’m not going to get into any of them, A*s being SO far beyond my current capabilities

Lulu: but it isn’t all 💔…

Lulu: [transfer her the money you made because you couldn’t cry but one of the dudes obvs wanted you to cos that’s his thing so you got into a little bidding war type moment where he was trying to make you by sheer amounts of funds]

Lulu: from [whatever his name is so she’ll know the tea] with love 😘

Sekhmet: Don’t with model UN, I’m trying to be sympathetic here 😂 you don’t wanna be the next prime minister, or one of their various grunt workers, so the model UN is irrelevant to anything but a uni application in your life

Sekhmet: how could you care about that or Mattie being a bitter cow when you’re getting that kind of reward not to think about it 😍

Lulu: 😅 You wanted honesty, the truth is, everyone’s the worst and I need you back, expecting me to be sorry when I only am we’re not together

Lulu: this school acting as though I’ve been blacklisted from the real countries my most cringe haters are representing is never going to force me to wrongly prioritise

Sekhmet: It’s too late now, if you haven’t passed by this point you’re fucked, aren’t you

Sekhmet: they should let it go

Lulu: Seriously! There are a lot more fun hills to die on

Sekhmet: Will you be having a graduation party

Lulu: Of course

Sekhmet: That’ll be… fun

Sekhmet: you and Dolly being sent off to your new schools never to be seen again

Lulu: it could be if you’re there, and I save my gap year news for max impact

Sekhmet: Would your parents disown you

Lulu: How can they? Mummy had Jay instead of any exam results and Daddy bought his way into [whatever school he went to]

Lulu: besides which, they’re been there, done that, if they don’t have me they don’t have any bragging rights left at all

Sekhmet: You know it’s one rule for them and another for everyone else

Sekhmet: especially if you aren’t being braggable

Lulu: It’s almost effortless to spin into a positive, I’m doing charity work or working on myself to an even more insta caption approved level, they can take their pick 😇✨

Sekhmet: Hmm, good luck faking you’re building schools in Africa, babe

Lulu: I don’t have to, it’s their photoshopping headache if they care how I look to their fake friends, the wild ones’ll be all too aware I’m really 😈

Sekhmet: True

Lulu: You don’t need to worry, they can throw a huge tantrum if they like, however long I take off from uni I can fund for myself

Sekhmet: I’m not worried

Lulu: 😊

Lulu: Will you make me an outfit for my graduation party? Pretty please

Sekhmet: I might be super busy setting up my business now… 🥰

Sekhmet: but I can try to find the time

Lulu: I’ll be your walking billboard for it, the thousands of photos can be genuinely useful rather than a total bore

Sekhmet: You’ve got a point

Lulu: Duh, and you can have complete creative control, as long as it showcases I’m not wearing my locket, because she blatantly won’t notice before then, I’ll wear anything

Sekhmet: You got it

Lulu: you’ll have me, in front of everyone my parents think are important, dressed exactly how you want

Sekhmet: 😏

Lulu: It’s heartbreaking Jay won’t attend, but there are some other silver linings

Sekhmet: Not even if you said how much you wanted her there

Sekhmet: she’d kind of have to

Lulu: if you help me, we can both lay it on super thick

Sekhmet: Dolly might want her there too

Lulu: Ew, the accuracy…

Lulu: I’ll make Mattie ask her too

Sekhmet: There you go

Lulu: If she continues to refuse it’s proof she hates me, which is a different kind of win

Sekhmet: She won’t wanna look like a bad sister

Lulu: You’ll have to find time to be there

Sekhmet: Of course

Sekhmet: Even though that would be perfect time for me to be with him, as she’ll be busy

Lulu: No no, be nice, he should definitely come as well, he’s family too❣️🥰

Sekhmet: Ha, there’s no way 😅

Sekhmet: guarantee she’ll be out of the country and send you a guilt gift on their behalf, that’s how she actually rolls

Lulu: Boo! 👎🏻 I’m ignoring you if you’re gonna ruin the fantasy

Sekhmet: Uhuh, believe that when I see it

Lulu: unlike you, it’s all I have atm

Sekhmet: Aww boo

Lulu: ☹️

Sekhmet: You’ll survive

Lulu: if survival mode is the best you can offer, I for real am ignoring you

Sekhmet: I’m enjoying being spoilt myself rn, I don’t have the energy to switch roles 🤷🏽‍♀️

Lulu: Thank god I don’t have to rely on you to be treated like a 👑

Sekhmet: Thank God

Lulu: bye then, I guess

Sekhmet: Can’t you let me have anything, OMG

Lulu: No, I’m THAT twin, don’t pretend you don’t know

Sekhmet: Well it’s not cute and I’m not going to cut my good time short to deal with pouting from you

Lulu: nobody’s asking you to, I literally just did farewells, it’s the opposite

Sekhmet: Yeah, bye Lulu 🙄

Lulu: This kind of verbal tough love isn’t cute either, FYI

Sekhmet: I’m not being cute with you, you don’t deserve it, FYI

Lulu: I don’t deserve your half baked attempts at sympathy over something neither of us care about

Lulu: especially when the lack of juicy details about what you’re doing is v telling

Sekhmet: Telling how?

Lulu: You don’t want me to have anything, so don’t put it on me like I’m the one who can’t share

Sekhmet: It isn’t about sharing, I told you I don’t want to

Sekhmet: this is my thing and you want to take it

Lulu: If I wanted to take it I’d take it

Sekhmet: 😂

Lulu: yeah, it’s completely hilarious how quick it went from our thing to yours

Sekhmet: It is my thing, period

Sekhmet: it was never yours, I need the place to stay, I want to stop seeing other guys

Sekhmet: I put in all this work, meanwhile you were seeing all the clients you could, so no, it’s not ours

Lulu: Then why lie?

Sekhmet: I didn’t lie

Sekhmet: You can come see me still, that’s what we wanted, that’s what he’s okaying

Lulu: You sold it to me one way and him another

Sekhmet: No, you want in harder because it’s him

Lulu: No, earlier in this very convo you were acting as if all the work you were putting in was for my benefit, so we could be together when he’s doing whatever he does instead of fucking his fiancee

Lulu: telling me it’s different because that’s what I wanted to hear

Sekhmet: How is that not exactly what I just said, again

Sekhmet: You can come ‘round and stay… what are you not getting?

Sekhmet: If he likes you, you can play sometimes, none of that makes me a liar but it doesn’t make it yours either

Lulu: Because it isn’t about him

Lulu: you’re not getting that you can’t just put a line down the middle of things marking what’s yours and what’s mine

Lulu: everything is supposed to be ours, there isn’t supposed to be a line

Sekhmet: How can I help it if that’s not what he wants

Lulu: Again, it isn’t fucking about him!

Lulu: you aren’t meant to enjoy keeping things from me

Sekhmet: I’m not going to not enjoy this, to make you feel better, that is ridiculous

Lulu: It’s cruel

Lulu: how is it days ago that you loved me so hard you almost told everyone my real name and I gave you my locket? We were breathing in sync and now I couldn’t pay you to go back to when we first met and it hurt to miss me so badly you wouldn’t

Sekhmet: It’s not like that

Sekhmet: you don’t enjoy what you do, huh

Sekhmet: why am I not allowed?

Lulu: You know I do because I’m not keeping it to myself

Sekhmet: If I was keeping it to myself, I wouldn’t have told you who he was, wouldn’t have offered to let you join at all

Sekhmet: seriously

Lulu: Wow, you think you get credit for doing what he wanted and told you to do?

Lulu: there isn’t a single secret I have from you or would want to

Sekhmet: He wouldn’t even know about you if it wasn’t for me, so yeah

Lulu: And you clearly regret it now so it doesn’t make up for anything,

Sekhmet: I wonder why I’m regretting it, a real mystery, that

Lulu: I’m sorry you didn’t meet him first, okay? Bad luck

Sekhmet: Shut up

Sekhmet: you’re being insane

Lulu: There’s less mystery there, I love you and you’re pulling away from me in record time

Sekhmet: I’m not, you are overreacting and you need to stop or you’ll make it worse

Lulu: The honest to god reason you haven’t met either of my grandparents yet is because they’d portray me as having been dramatic and desperate from childhood, but what they don’t understand, which I thought you did, is that I’ve never felt like this before

Lulu: ever

Sekhmet: You say that

Sekhmet: but how can I trust you

Lulu: You should feel it, I am going insane, that’s what love does

Lulu: you should be going insane too

Sekhmet: I’ve seen you act like this over Mattie, and I’ve heard about it over Dolly

Sekhmet: don’t tell me I’m special when I’m not

Lulu: but you are, they didn’t love me back

Sekhmet: If that’s it

Lulu: Reality matters more than fantasy

Sekhmet: Does it, honestly?

Sekhmet: to you

Lulu: It didn’t used to, when I had nothing else

Lulu: but because of you, I don’t need to delude myself anymore

Sekhmet: I want to believe you

Lulu: Test me, I’ll pass

Sekhmet: This is what this is now

Sekhmet: like you kept saying, it’s not about him

Lulu: I know you need him, but our arrangement predates his

Lulu: I saw you first and I loved you first, I know you believe that

Sekhmet: Yeah, I believe that

Lulu: and you wanted to keep me before you wanted him to keep you

Sekhmet: That’s what I’m doing, you’re mine, not his

Lulu: I’ll never be anyone else’s

Sekhmet: Okay

Lulu: you’re the first and only person I’ve ever belonged to

Sekhmet: It’s a lot of responsibility

Sekhmet: but I’m going to look after you, you just have to trust me and my decisions

Lulu: It’s all I want

Sekhmet: You’ve made it this far, it’s just a few more days, okay baby

Lulu: Okay, I’m sorry, I’ll be good

Sekhmet: It’s okay, it’ll all be worth it, I promise

Lulu: It’s him, I haven’t stopped reeling, go ahead and believe that too, truly

Sekhmet: It’s understandable

Sekhmet: maybe I am too… it’s so insane that it’s him

Lulu: wild, I have to cut you some slack, maybe…

Sekhmet: a bit 🤏🏽

Sekhmet: I can’t decide if I knew it was him before I knew, you know

Lulu: You weren’t looking deep because the unknown was hot

Sekhmet: Exactly

Sekhmet: it would’ve been insane to say I knew before I met him

Sekhmet: and it’s not like I could remember his voice exactly…

Sekhmet: but it’s probably no more insane than acting as if I had NO suspicions

Lulu: He wasn’t bringing the conversation, just the 👀

Sekhmet: His eyes are SO intense

Lulu: and he denied you the eye contact for yonks and yonks, I love how evil he is

Sekhmet: 🥺

Sekhmet: don’t gang up on me

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