#my fellow good omens ppl pls read this

[ineffablebros]

so i just finished Angels Before Man by rafael nicolás recently and it was such a beautiful read. If you love good omens, i mean i cant help but recommend this book if you want to read more queer retellings of the biblical stories. Now, i’m an avid mitski listener. I related Abbey to Lucifer and it’s driving me crazy.

guys there’s some spoilers in this so pls don’t read if you plan to read this book. and ik this is being posted on my good omens blog idk deal with it.

the lyrics really speak to his first thoughts and emotions when first becoming conscious.

i am hungry.

i have been hungry. i was born hungry. what do i need?

In the first chapters, he feels lost. and wants and craves God’s attention and guidance through this existence he was forced into.

I am something.

I have been something. I was born something. What could I be?

As lucifer meets God, he finds purpose as being the angel of worship. With Micheal, he finds purpose within love and himself.

There is a light that I can see

But only, it seems, when there's darkness in me

as we get deeper into the book, Lucifer is finding identity. he comes to love himself. but god has made him for another purpose. whether Lucifer could have avoided the darker energy within him or hidden his emotions of Michael is inevitable and impossible to know. because god did not allow question. whether this is destiny for lucifer or choice enforced by god, will not save him from what god put in him.

There is a dream that I sometimes see

That only appears in the dark of sleep

his thoughts towards sleep changes throughout the book. which correlates to his fall and his becoming of lucifer. his nightmares as he changes and resigns to his anger and hatred towards God.

I am waiting

I have been waiting

I was born waiting

I was born waiting

i related this more how lucifer seems to question his full potential. who can he be? what are the limits? does he have limits? and can he push them?

For that something

Just to want something

Can he have what he wants? will the powers around him allow him to have micheal? running off with him. he didn’t know that this was what he was made for and it was. he was made to love. deeply. obsessively. hungrily.

I was born something

I was born

There is a light, I feel it in me

But only, it seems, when the dark surrounds me

i related this part of the song with several parts of the book. maybe the belief in himself that micheal has allowed him to feel for himself. he feels himself change. the angels clearly see lucifer change and remain wary. the loss of his former identity that would so easily bow his head and demean himself has morphed. and he is being punished for having such feelings. surrounded by light but he sees darkness.

There is a dream and it sleeps in me

To awake in the night, crying, "Set me free"

And I awake every night, crying, "Set me free"

it really speaks to the heartbreaking part of Lucifer’s metamorphosis as the beast consumes him. he sees the beast within his dreams like an impending doom and he fears sleep like those who fear sleep as example of their death. the inevitable and ominous destiny.

dear @nicosraf

your book was beautifully written and it left me in shambles! keep up the good work <3 but fr im very excited for the next book i’ll buy it the moment it comes out and i hope you didn’t mind my ranting. hopefully it makes some sense because i just wrote this in a frenzy 💀