#my fav of all my silvergiftings

[transmairon]

Oh I love you Sauron's deep jealousy of Galadriel's beauty and the way Celebrimbor looks at her instead of you so you make Annatar into the male version of her image, you will always be famous.

[junk-whunk-punk]

Haiiii, love your art! I always look forward to the next post... it's my guilty pleasure, really 😳

Can I ask for 🐻 and 🎼 for artist ask?

lovas mwah

Uhmmm???????😳😳🥺🥺🥺

my honest reaction ↑↑↑

FUCKKKKK ITS AN UNBELIEVABLE ACHIEVEMENT FOR ME TO REALIZE MY ART IS SOMEONE'S GUILTY PLEASURE WTFFFFFFF IT MADE MY DAY COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HOW U R SO NICE AHEM???????¿!?¡????!?!?#?'?#(_($)'?MVM

(i cry it all out in chat one day cuz i dunno how to express all my scream rn sooooorrryyyyy🥹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹)

OKAY THE ASKS

🐻 Your go-to things to draw when you need comfort?

Ow I NOTICED i need comfort often nowadays but, as i have a little soothing stuff irl lmao, i comfort myself with comforting pics😌 Usually I draw soft ships to soothe myself and then i cry why they are so sweet (im weird👹)

I KNOW I NEVER DRAW RUSSINGON. BUT THIS SHIP IS SOOOO COMFY FOR ME IN ANY WAY. I LOVE THEM and i hope i'll draw some sunny pics with them CUZ THEMMMMMM🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💗💗💗

(ama permanent silvergifter so i draw Sawwuron and Celebrimbor in a healthy ship cuz i want my fav guys be happy with each other. If not me, someone must be happy here. Yeah. That😌)

SO THE CONCLUSION: to comfort myself, my go-to things to draw are healthy and happy ships. Or a character lying in the meadow grass. Or bottlings guts blood and fire when i need my anarchism burst.

🎼 Your favorite music to draw to right now?

Aaaa exact songs?? OH YEAS CATCH MY LATEST PLAYLIST FOR PICS I'LL NEVER FINISH

Ever Fallen in Love – Pete Yorn (to draw snotty happy sunny ships)

Shoot Him Down! – Alice Francis (to draw Langon×Thuringwethil or sexual-tension-silvergifting SORRY I DUNNO)

Forevermore – Lord of the Lost (TO DRAW DARK!CELEBRIMBOR WOOF WOOF BARK BARK)

Live Like an Animal – SOFT PLAY (to draw my punkzz)

Back to Paradise – Reckless Love (to draw ship stuff)

Fallschirmjägerglück – Bundeswave (to draw Langon i dunno again)

Puhe – Ruoska (to draw Melkrrrrr)

I can continue endlessly but I just love different genres but german and finnish growling voices strike right into my heart🫦 (Ruoska my love sorry)

THANK YOU SOOOO SO SO so SO So SSO sO MUCH MA BAE💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

[sauronpilled]

Do you like angbang and silvergifting? What do u think of them?

oh I LOVE both of them !!! these two ships got me losing my mind. there's just so many angst and interesting dynamic to think of- i seriously can't stop thinking how tragic these two are. i'm a little bias though, because silvergifting is my main ship.

angbang : melkor first interaction when he met mairon.... mairon reaction to the capture of melkor and his repent... melkor returning to his headquarter as he seek for mairon.. and then mairon reaction to the capture of melkor 2.0... etc etc. IT'S JUST AUGH.

silvergifting : THE SINS OF OUR FATHER. the cycle that celebrimbor continue as he repeat what feanor did. the fear. the impending doom. annatar infatuation toward the rings AND celebrimbor skill. the doubt- the BETRAYAL. LITERALLY ALL MY FAV DYNAMIC.

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[arofili]

for the character ask meme: sauron?? >:3c

How I feel about this character: evil twink. terrible. i love him. for real tho i think fandom has woobified sauron to angband and back, and while i get people who are frustrated by us forgetting he’s a villain....like....he’s just so FUN, you know? he’s done so many things, he’s so complicated, why wouldn’t you want to play with what’s going on in his head? i know i do! there are days i want to just sit down and rewrite the entire legendarium from sauron’s POV, because he was there for all of it, causing trouble the whole time. my version of sauron is Evil And Loving It almost the whole way through - but he did it out of love, for melkor at first and then for himself, and while that’s no excuse for evil it’s a fascinating motivation.

All the people I ship romantically with this character: i mean, melkor, obvs. angbang’s probably the second biggest ship in the fandom after russingon, and it’s a GOOD ship. my particular flavor of angbang isn’t the abusive/controlling melkor kind, i like it when it’s reciprocated and sincere - though there’s still absolutely room for evil and possessiveness. idk, healthy(ish) angbang is just more interesting to me? like there’s gonna be a power dynamic there, but i’m so much more interested in mairon having almost equal footing in his relationship than him being some pawn of melkor - i think that makes the times where he has the harsh realization that he’s not equal, just almost equal, even more impactful. like, he can tell melkor “no” and melkor will listen - except when he doesnt. idk, i like that more than him being afraid of saying no at all. (though i certainly do enjoy other versions of angbang! this is just my favorite) Like, i think Sauron carries his love for Melkor through everything he does after the first age. At first he’s doing it all for Melkor, thinking about when he breaks his master out of the void, and then slowly starts to realize that wait, that might not happen. but he keeps going anyway, with melkor as his grounding for what he’s doing, as he becomes more invested in his own future.

THAT BEING SAID i also love silvergifting because im PREDICTABLE. again, my flavor of sauron is one that’s in love with melkor first and foremost and always intentionally planning to fuck celebrimbor over, but the trope of sauron being like “i’ll seduce Tyelpe into evil, it worked when Melkor did it to me” “didn’t Melkor fall in love with you though?” “SHUT UP” becomes Annatar in a way that he almost forgets who he used to be, which is also interesting, but i’m the kinda person who wants Sauron always consciously aware of every thing he does to Tyelpe-  I want him feeling guilty about it by the end, but, importantly, doing it anyway.

[cw rape] Sauron/Maedhros is also really fascinating to me, especially since it’s (almost) always nonconsensual... it’s a good reminder that sauron is at the end of everything evil and practically irredeemable. and i’m more interested in mae’s feelings on this ship than i am sauron’s, considering sauron is abusing him because melkor wants him to (and he probably wants to toy with maedhros too) and isn’t particularly apologetic about it. ALTHOUGH. sauron maybe fucking with Maedhros to the extent of actually pretending he cares, that he’s genuinely here for Mae - that is also some really fucked up interesting shit especially as foreshadowing for Silvergifting.... [that being said! i linked a fic up there that has consensual sauron/maedhros and oohhh boy is it good! heed the warnings, and it’s a modern AU ft. abusive!melkor, but definitely check it out if you’re interested in these two!]

I can get down on other Sauron ships (like him and the Nazgul, him and Ar-Pharazon) but most of those are Sauron playing a game of chess - but, critically, not making the same mistakes he made with Tyelpe. he keeps himself detached and distant, not actually falling in love.

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Eonwe!! I looooove headcanons about him and Eonwe having been bros in the past! makes everything at the end of the war of wrath so much more tragic :)

Sauron and Aule are also great, I think Aule was fatherly toward him and heartbroken to lose him. Which leads me to: Sauron and Curumo/Saruman, considering they were both disciples of Aule - and perhaps Curumo tried to replace Mairon after everything went down, but never quite could... Them having been friends puts their collaboration in LOTR into a different perspective, too. it’s sooo juicy to think of Saruman coming to Middle-earth determined to be Better than Sauron was, to prove to Aule that he’s the superior Maia, maybe even hoping that he can convince Sauron to repent...and then falling into the same trap of evil, being outsmarted by the friend he always wanted to impress, being cast aside and defeated. 

AND i’ll also throw in that he and Thuringwethil were definitely best buds in Angband, sorry I don’t make the rules. she’s an exasperated lesbian vampire who has to put up with his disaster gay stunts all the time, less of his lieutenant and more of the friend who tries to keep him out of trouble!

My unpopular opinion about this character: idk, he’s evil? like unrepentantly evil. we woobify him, and i’ve done a lot of that in this post already, but it’s worth really making it clear that he IS very evil. [cw rape] and i definitely think he raped maedhros, and probably tyelpe and a lot of other people too. which is just awful awful awful no matter what way you slice it. so like yeah, i feel for the dude, and it’s hard for me to wrestle with how fun and sexy i think sauron is but at the same time be a huge maedhros stan. it’s strange how we as fandom can excuse murder and war crimes and torture and shit but we draw the line at sexual abuse (which!!!! is bad and shouldn't be excused!!!). like all of the other things are horrifying and terrible and aren’t condoned irl, but in fiction i guess it’s like “meh, violence is fine, i stan a villain” but then this other violent thing is Not Remotely Ok because it’s also sexual. (again!!! not saying that we should be ok with sexual violence!!!!! more like...questioning why we’re ok with other kinds of violence, why sexual things in any form is more taboo. tho im saying this as a person who enjoys a good gory fic, so. yeah. im ramlbling at this point)

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: frankly i dont KNOW, he did SO MUCH in canon already?? i want a more fleshed out, detailed version of everything he did (remember when i said i daydream about rewriting the legendarium from his POV??) but i think events wise he’s done EVERYTHING he could do lmao.

[raisingcain-onceagain]

Tagged by @gaolcrowofmandos (. . .several days ago) - thank you!! 

What’s your total word count on AO3?

Wow. Wow. 207,398. When did that happen?

How often do you write?

. . . it depends. During the semester? Not enough, because of grad school workload. During the summer - eyyyyy, this will be my first “lighter” summer in a while, so I’m excited to see!  

Do you have a routine for writing?

. . . forcing myself to sit down and log off tumblr really helps, but I don’t usually have much of a routine beyond the sitting down part. That being said! There are days when I can tell I’ll get a lot of writing done if I can make it to the sitting down part, and days where n o t h i n g happens no matter what I do.

What are your favorite kinks/tropes/pairings?

Oh gods. Hmmm. “all of them” isn’t quite accurate but it is pretty damn close, so - “almost all of them”? With particular favs being: 

Kinks: communication in relationships, dear god. . . and lord/vassal dynamics is good, and beyond that i’ll read almost anything once

Tropes: enemies to friends to lovers, friends to lovers, fake/pretend relationship, pining 

Pairings: Findrahil, Silvergifting, Angbang, Russingon, Beleg/Turin, Glorfindel/Erestor, Gil-Galad/Elrond/Celebrian, Tuor/Idril/Voronwe, Finrod/Beor, Legolas/Gimli, Crowley/Aziraphale, Arthur/Eames, Matt/Foggy, Charles/Erik, and I’m sure I’ll remember more as soon as I post this. . . 

Do you have a favorite fic of yours?

Ermehgerd. . . I’m still really proud of “Of the King of the Alders.” Umm, and, it indirectly led to amazing things IRL too so it will probably always be my favorite now. Otherwise, “Istan Quete” helped me get through a really tough time, and when I get back to it, I have also enjoyed writing “save all his ashes for me.” 

Your fic with the most kudos?

. . . wow, it’s “Istan Quete”. 

Anything you don’t like about your writing?

Most if not all of my fics tend to be characterized by POV, and sometimes I think that the writing gets too internalized. On that note, I’m not sure I’ve ever written a completely third-person-omniscient fic. 

Now something you do like?

. . . umm, I guess I like how I’m able to show that there are details to the story or the world that the POV character doesn’t realize the full importance of.  

Not sure who’s done one of these recently, so if you want to play, please consider yourself tagged!

[junk-whunk-punk]

How did celebrimbor feel when he learned of annatar's betrayal?

Hewoow💋 Ohh asks about my fav stupidos why–

There's too many ways of courses of events. We can speak about canon and about lots of AUs where also silvergifting energy can be various.

In the canon, Celebrimbor probably felt not only the personal pain and betrayal of a "close friend" (recall that Annatar was firmly entrenched in his heart), but also guilt and shame in front of the whole world. After all, he allowed evil in a wonderful shell to pass into the very heart of the "forge of good" and destroy himself with its own forces. He certainly felt that it was his fault that Sauron had become stronger and more capable, and therefore the last thing he could do to save Middle-earth was not to reveal the secret at any cost. And he did it.

AUs are different, won't even speak about them.

(Lower will be a long text about my day dreams about stupidos)

But! Personally, I came up with a completely new plot in my head, which completely breaks the canon and will most likely make Tolkien roll in his grave and make tolkienists foam at the mouth in an attack of epilepsy eheehehslfks🤭

I LOVE!!! DARK!TYELPE AU!!! WHERE!!! THEY ARE BOTH!!! ALIVE!!! AND LIVING TOGETHER!!! IN MORDOR!!¡!¡!!¡¡! I mean, all the events before the capture of Celebrimbor were there, but... He stayed alive, or Namo just kicked him out of Mandos like 'Have thought about your behavior? Wanna leave? That's it, get away from here. And don't ever come back, please'. I tend to believe that two persons cannot be "just friends and colleagues" for a long time when one of them has a direct goal to gain the trust of the other at any cost, including seduction (I believe this was the basis of Sauron's technique).

But something went wrong, and the seduction just grew into something more. Both were forced to admit it. But the truth had to come out, since Sauron still had a purpose. In this case, Celebrimbor felt not only pain and guilt, but also felt as if he had been cheated on, that he had not just been betrayed, but simply pulverized and blown off the windowsill. He was just devastated. He also felt anger and resentment, emotions were boiling in him, but he was not sure that it was safe to show these emotions. After all, after such an event, he is unlikely to be able to trust anyone for a long time.

And the remaining love for Sauron poured salt on his wound. So, just to get over it, he switched sides. But he was not going to lose his honor and dignity (FEANOR's BLOOD FLOWS IN HIM!!!!) On top of that, Sauron also couldn't live in peace after everything his goal had forced him to do, so the option of a reunion was the greatest joy for him.

The second option (much nonsense): all the events, including the murder of Celebrimbor, took place. After the events of the Lord of the Rings and the fall of Mordor, Sauron in a near-ghostly shell remained wandering the world for unpromising purposes. After a while, he still accumulated strength for the corporeal shell, which facilitated his attempts to return to life. He began to join the societies of different kingdoms in a new guise, and no one knew about anything. (here it should be told about his depraved adventures and the continuation of the seduction of various rulers, but we all know how this happens). Just at this time, Celebrimbor was kicked out of Mandos and he finally returns to his scampish lover, they both pretend like two losers that everything has always been fine.

I love my nonsense help c:

[arofili]

all of the silm asks.

river we can’t keep doing this,

1. Have you ever called out a friend or a relative in front of a bunch of people? What happened?lmao no??? what kind of question is this??

2. What are your three most valued possessions?uhh idk, ever since i got robbed last year i feel like i realized that the things i valued most aren’t...tangible? like everything is replaceable, basically. i mean i like having stuff, dont get me wrong, and getting robbed sucked, but. i guess my phone and my laptop and my notebook? i use those things to connect with people and my notebook is full of stuff i haven’t backed up anywhere else yet. but once i get it in The Cloud, all i really need is my google account tbh

3. Do you have any enemies?uhhh not to my knowledge hjhfjhfd

4. Fëanor, Fingolfin or Finarfin - who are you most like in real life?lmao finarfin probably. i try not to be a Big Idiot and i follow rules and i’m not the most adventurous. tho i probably have some nolofinwean traits too, if i say i’m gonna do something i will stick to my word

5. Best canon ship in the Silm?do turin and beleg count? no? okay, in that case probably aegnor and andreth. (i’m a slut for doomed interspecies relationships, dont judge)

6. Best m/f ship?uhh, this one was harder than i thought it would be! since i already said aegnor/andreth... i know i really like the canon peredhel ships so elwing/earendil and elrond/celebrian are very good! and i think caranthir/haleth is really interesting too, but i don’t see them as romantic

7. Best f/f ship?hmnnn... i mean ALL the f/f ships are so good! i guess- nienor/finduilas is some Good Shit right there, and i’ve always liked anaire/earwen!

8. Best m/m ship?answered here!

9. Best canon friendship?uhh, all of them?? ok but: luthien and huan,, my HEART! (also aredhel and celegorm and curufin!!)

10. What made you read the Silmarillion in the first place?the fandom, tbh! when i got into the tolkien fandom thru the hobbit movies i devoured all the content i could but i never thought i would be a silm person, but then all the posts seemed so interesting and i was starting to enjoy the silm by proxy and fanon so i decided to read the silm and never looked back :’)

11. Ainulindalë and Valaquenta - yay or nay?i mean they are definitely the least interesting parts of the silm, so nay? i’m not really sure what this is asking? i don’t think they’re pointless or anything, but i cam here for the ELVES

12. If you had to describe yourself with a character from Tolkien’s works, who would it be?answered here!

13. Where in Middle-Earth would you most like to live?answered here!

14. Who is your dream partner from Tolkien’s works?they are all such DISASTERS...i’d be lying if i said it wasn’t gimli and/or fili though, lol (in an aro way, ofc)

15. Which two characters would you want as friends to defeat Voldemort with?luthien and ... finrod! both very powerful and good people!

16. Your opinion of Eru Ilúvatar?i don’t think he can be judged by human standards, because he’s so inhuman. like, elves are kind of Super Special Magic Humans but Eru and the Valar are so far removed from that... I don’t think Eru is evil or anything like that. i think the valar can’t really understand the Children and their conflicts come from that - idk about Eru, though, we don’t see a lot of him. he seems very powerful and absent, i guess? he only really intervenes when the situation is Truly Dire and then he shows more of a force of unimaginable power than like, divine mercy or anything

17. Favourite AU setting?i really like the two-steps-to-the-left-of-canon AU settings where everything is juuuusst slightly more magical than it is in canon and things like wraiths and revivification are more commonplace. that may be cheating though so i got to say that i’m always here for scifi/space AUs! (normally i’d go right to modern AU but i feel like because of lifespans, modern AUs fall apart with the silm unless you’re going very small-scale with them)

18. Favourite crack pairing/concept/headcanon?“crack” is weird in the silm because of the dubious canonosity of Literally Everything... my fav ~crack~ pairing is probably turgon/finrod but that has evolved from “crack” to “rarepair hell” for me lmao. i also really love @princess-faelivrin‘s fin-galad headcanon! and i am currently daydreaming about some way that nienor is connected to goldberry - oh and tar-miriel as the witch-king is always a good one. really, anything that keeps the ladies alive for longer!

19. First, Second or Third Age?i mean they all have their good parts, but like... first age, probably. third age has gigolas and all the characters from the hobbit, which is tempting, but there’s just so MUCH to work with in the first age! second age is neat too but i’m not really a numenor person so...

20. Funniest moment in the Silm?tie between turin throwing the cup at saeros and “GET THEE GONE FROM MY GATE, THOU JAIL-CROW OF MANDOS”

(if turin and feanor ever met, arda would collapse)

21. Saddest moment?i mean, turin killing beleg always fucking gets me, but also maedhros’s suicide and also the nirnaeth arnoediad and also just the whole fucking book!!!

22. Do you read/understand/speak any of the languages or alphabets?lmao no!! with resources i can put together names for folks and i can recognize certain elements of words, but that’s about it.

23. Who is Gil-galad’s father?i’m throwing my hat in the ring for Orodreth, but that’s only when i don’t want to make it like, a Thing. i really love explorations of this uncertainty (@elvntari‘s gil-galad fic springs to mind, as does @thishazeleyeddemon‘s lalwen theory, maybe with cirdan as the dad, and fin-galad is again a blessed concept) and i’m also very fond of the idea that his parentage is “no one in particular” and that he just stepped forward to claim the throne when no one else wanted it. really i’m open to every interpretation! except fingon. i don’t think it’s fingon. i mean, it could very well be that fingon is his dad as in he’s the one who raised him and claimed him, but if we’re going biologically i don’t think fingon contributed any genetic material to gil-galad

24. Angbang, Russingon or Silvergifting?i mean this is a no-brainer. of course it’s russingon! i do enjoy angbang and silvergifting, but like cmon.one of these days i’d love to write a really long angbang fic detailing everything btwn them, probably mostly from mairon’s pov, from ainulindale to the fourth age but that would be an undertaking. i do have a lot of tiny ideas for them that would be fun to weave together. as for silvergifting, just...poor tyelpe. poor dude. but i am suuuuch a slut for russingon lmao.

25. What would you most like to see in a tv series or film based on the Silmarillion?i would LOVE to see a book-accurate version but like. that’s VERY unlikely. a COH adaptation would be neat but probably too dark to make it to audiences without being seriously watered down. Beren and Luthien might be able to do it, if they could condense the supporting lore around the story. that’s really the problem with the silm - it’s like a greek myth in it’s epic sprawl. there’s so much story that you can’t really take just one aspect of it to the screen without taking all of it. if you don’t know about the silmarils you can’t do B&L, if you don’t know about the nirnaeth and the histories of nargothrond and doriath you can’t do COH, if you don’t know about the sundering and the exiles you can’t do literally anything tbh.BUT i would love a COH adaptation, if it’s done right. or a very ~experimental~ take on B&L. i have a lot of ideas of how to incorporate all the different versions of that story into one cohesive canon... ok i admit it i just want to see telvido on screen!!! and also werewolves are neat!!

also i’ve said it before but a 3-act play set in numenor....HMM that would be some good hsit. really, i think the mariner’s wife would make an excellent drama, but again there’s so much CONTEXT around numenor!the 3 acts would be 1. elros’s transformation into tar-minyatur (there’s so many possibilities to explore! it’s basically uncharted waters once you get to the details!) 2. the mariner’s wife (a pretty faithful adaptation, also tar-meneldur’s monologue when he passes the scepter on to aldarion is just. WRITTEN to be performed on stage imo) and 3. akallabeth (again, lots of ways this could go. i also think it would be really neat to double cast elros and pharazon. and sauron should be double cast too, though idk who as.)

anyway, wow this got long, oops. i have a LOT of silm opinions!!