#my cover is blown on the new blog so even if we’re not mutuals. come on over

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okay hiii hi hello i dont think i’m actually gonna come back to this blog…… im annoyingly active on my new blog though so if anyone wants the url just dm me through this blog :^) okay BYEEEE!!

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Finally Meet You

Hello lovely people. I’m back for my second week of Writer Wednesday If you don’t know what that is and it sounds fun to you then check out @autumnleaves1991-blog​ for all the info :)

This is my first ever time writing anything in the Oscar fandom that’s not Poe so if it’s not very good then sorry, I’ll try and improve more :)

I wrote this at work so if theres any mistakes blame the fact I was being sneaky because we were quiet ;)

Pairing - Santiago Garcia x Reader

A phone booth. To most people, it was something you walked past in the street and didn’t give a second thought, some people used it to shelter from the rain. Very rarely was it ever used for calls anymore. To you it was a life line, it was the only contact you had with the love of your life. Anyone who heard your story would probably laugh at it. You were in love with a man you had never even met. Technically he was your boss. You were both working undercover to bring down a large gang in London. All you knew about him was he had an American accent, and his name was Santiago Garcia. You’d never seen him, the people in charge of the mission said it was for the best. You were working for the gang and gathering all the information you could, you’d been on the inside for almost 10 months. You went to the phone booth at 9.45pm each night to report back to Santi with anything you heard. The information you’d gathered had already put a stop to handovers of massive amounts of drugs. The gang were starting to get suspicious, they knew someone was working against them but so far they hadn’t worked out it was you. You’d had to sleep with the leader of the gang to keep yourself away from suspicion and keep yourself safe. It had made you feel cheap and disgusting but Santi had assured you, that it was the right thing to do.  

 You’d just slipped into the phone booth when it rang. 

“Hello?” 

“Are you okay?” Santi’s calming voice asked 

“For now” you replied “They’re getting really suspicious. He killed one of the gang members today because he thought it was him leaking the information. The second in command is really suspicious of me. He doesn’t want me leaving the house. I’m going to be kept under watch all of the time as of tomorrow. He said if I have nothing to hide then there won’t be an issue, but it’s going to be pretty obvious when nothing else happens to them that it’s been me. I’ve probably only got a week left Santi” 

“I can’t let that happen” he replied “We have to move now” 

“But they haven’t given a date yet for the weapons handover”  

“It doesn’t matter sweetheart, I have to get you out of there. Like you said, if nothing else happens in the next week your covers blown and they’ll kill you. And I’m not going to let that happen” 

“What are you going to do?” you asked 

“Don’t you worry about that, just know that I’ll have you out of there in a few days. Just hang in there until then” 

“You promise?” 

“I promise” he replied “I can’t wait to finally meet you” 

 The next few days were rough, the second in command in the gang was watching you like a hawk. The weapons handover had set a date, it was what you’d been working for the entire time, you had to stop it, but now you had no way of getting the information to Santi. Another man had joined the gang, he had kind eyes and seemed shy. He kept his distance but you saw him watching you whenever you were all in the company of the gang leaders. On the day of the handover, the shy gang member volunteered to stay back with you whilst everyone else headed out.  

“Y/N” 

“How do you know my name?” you asked 

“My names Frankie, I’m a friend of Santiago’s. He sent me in to keep an eye on you plus feed him information” 

“So he’s going to have his team there today?” you asked 

“Yeah, and we’re getting you out today” Frankie replied “I don’t know if it’ll be him or our friend Will, but someone’s coming for you in the next few hours. Just sit tight for now” 

 The next few hours felt like days. You just wanted out, and as far away from the house as possible. Frankie seemed completely calm, he trusted his friends to get everything done and get both of you out safely. It wasn’t that you didn’t trust Santi, you just didn’t know him or his team the way that Frankie did, so there was always that thought in the back of your mind. You heard a car pulling up outside. Frankie looked out the window and turned to you. 

“They’re here! Let’s go!” 

You followed Frankie downstairs and out of the house. He opened the back door of the car for you before jumping in the front. The car sped off as soon as you were inside. You glanced to your side to see the most handsome man in the entire world looking at you. He smiled. 

“It’s nice to finally meet you” 

“Santi?” 

“In the flesh” he chuckled “We’re going to get you somewhere safe” 

“This is Will” Frankie said, turning your attention to the driver 

“Hi” you replied “Thank you, for getting me out of there” 

 They took you to a hotel next to the River Thames, Will and Frankie left but Santiago stayed with you. He booked you in and followed you up to the room. You had a river view and the room was massive. You headed straight for the window, being able to see the outside world after days cooped up in the gang home made you feel instantly calm. 

“You’re going to stay here for a few days” Santi explained “Just until we know for sure that we got them all, then we can all head back to Florida” 

The company you and Santi worked for was based in Florida. You hoped you’d be on desk duty for a while. The mission had been stressful and mentally exhausting, but the thought of it finally being over after a long 10 months made you want to cry with happiness.  

“Thank you” you said, turning to face him “For sending Frankie, for getting me out” 

“I wanted to make sure you were safe, plus planting Frankie meant we could still find out what was going on. A new face with a very good CV was never going to have any suspicion on him, plus he was there if they tried to hurt you. I was never going to leave you sweetheart” Santi replied “I don’t know about you, but I’ve grown quite attached to you these last 10 months” 

You smiled “The feelings mutual. That stupid phone booth felt like a life line to me. All I wanted was to hear your voice” 

“I was always so glad to hear yours” he replied “And now seeing you in the flesh I’m even more interested” 

“Feelings mutual” you repeated, watching as Santi took a few steps closer to you. 

“Can I kiss you?” he asked 

“Yes please”. When his lips met yours, you were sure there were fireworks going off somewhere. He was everything you’d ever dreamed he would be and so much more. You hoped that the dirty old phone booth was the start of something beautiful. 

[staringatthetwinsuns]

So, I'm new to Tumblr. And I've been away from fandom for a long time. And it's come to my attention that I might have not gotten off on the best foot for either. So this is an attempt at a bit of explanation and apology.

Dear Tumblr, I am socially awkward. I don't have a nice diagnosis to go with that, although there probably is one in there somewhere if I only pay for ENOUGH counseling? But I have never had an easy time making friends. So if you've interacted with me in the past week or so since I set up this account? THANK YOU.  I really do LIKE making friends and talking about mutual hobbies. But it sometimes takes me awhile to really get off on the right foot with people.

If you're one of the many people whose posts I've liked or maybe responded to... I'm sorry. I don't know how to say to you that I think you're cool and that it would be really nice to interact with you.  It would be.  Some of you know me, from LJ or from FFN years ago.  I don't know how to say "Hey, you're that person who beta read a chapter for me or got my prompt in a fic exchange and I still remember that and am grateful." But I do remember, and I am grateful, and I think *everyone's* a bigger deal than me so it's really, really hard to do much more than click the little heart. I'm sorry I disappeared from the fandom.

I'm sorry that I don't really KNOW how to fandom? I'm older than some of you and younger than some of you, but my first "fandoms" were back when there was no such thing (at least if you lived in the middle of nowhere and AOL wasn't even popular yet), and it was just me and my sister and my friends being silly. So my fanon isn't always FANDOM'S fanon. And I'm not that great at dealing with it sometimes.

For what it's worth, I actually love having fandom friends who don't agree with me and like different things about the fandom, as long as they're willing to discuss it maturely. One of my best friends back in the day was an Anidala shipper.... I don't get them as a couple at all and mostly wrote OT stuff, but I LOVED discussing the fandom from different perspectives. We had some really interesting conversations, so... while I personally might like Porgs and think Rian Johnson's script writing abilities mostly suck, if you feel the opposite... that's cool. Let's talk about it. You might be able to open my eyes to something I didn't see before.

Moving on, I don't fully understand tags... here or on AO3. I don't know what kind of things other people search for.  I think it's a balance... like, I should maybe tag for major themes and characters? But if I tag "X-Wing" for example, and there's an X-wing barely mentioned in one chapter of a 20-chapter fic... that's misleading, right? I think it is, but I'm really not sure. So if I undertag or overtag, that's USUALLY because I just really, really don't understand. If you read my fic and think "Hey, this is okay, but why did you not tag that X-wing?" (or whatever), I'd actually really appreciate concrit in things like that because I'm really, really bad at picking up on social clues and unspoken rules.

I take my writing seriously. I created this blog so I could enjoy writing in a space WITHOUT the emotional baggage of my original fiction. But I am interested in developing my writing as a professional skill.  That includes things like building up suspense, where the reader doesn't know if a character will life or die, or if a couple will end up together.  I MARK THIS. In my fics that are "No Archive Warnings Apply".... NO ARCHIVE WARNINGS APPLY.  In the others, maybe they do and maybe they don't. I didn't want the reader to know one way or the other. AND I SAY THAT UPFRONT, so you can decide if you want to read it without a guarantee or not. That's your choice, and I respect you either way.

That is NOT because I want to hurt you or trigger you.  That is because I remember being a preteen and being blown away by the ending of The Empire Strikes Back, or of the incredibly bittersweet end of Lord of the Rings.  I loved Bridge to Terebithia. Even though eye trauma literally gives me nightmares, I'm glad no one told me NOT to read Dragonquest because of it because OMG I love and hate that scene so much, and FOR ME that emotional high is what I read for, and what I write for.

I write for teenage me.  Because I want to make some other kid under the covers FEEL. If you WANT to read my fics and would like to send me a message and ASK if they have your personal trigger or squick in them, by all means do so. If you tell me up front that you want to be spoiled because you can't deal with XXX right now, I will tell you whatever you need to know.

My goal is not to hurt anyone. My goal is to help MYSELF through my writing... because just as readers read for comfort, writers write for comfort, and also to give other readers the things that *I* got from my favorite stories once upon a time. I'm trying to pay it forward. I might have failed.

I think every single one of us who is in a fandom, or who is creating, be it fanworks, original works, or both... we're here to get some comfort out of it. We're here to form connections.

So I would like to apologize to anyone I've interacted inappropriately with... I try to interact with others the way I'd like people to interact with me, but I realize that I may have been wrong to assume that other people enjoyed the same kinds of interactions as I do, and I apologize.

I'm not at all sure whether I'm going to stick around here, or keep my fics up, etc... but I'm sorry, if I liked your posts too many times or replied or reblogged when I shouldn't have.  I'm not sorry for writing my stories in my way, but if I've ever gone against the rules of whatever archive they're on, please let me know and I will correct that immediately. Thank you.