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fuckbrained · 2 years

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I might be developing an ed tbh. I passed 26 BMI and now the thought of food is making me nauseous bc I’m worried I’ll end up like my dad (BMI 44, borderline immobile just bc he didn’t have the motivation to get up and move to maintain muscle mass during covid.)

I don’t want to be underweight though, I deadass just want to lose 30 pounds or so so I can be in the “normal” range. It’s not about wanting to be thin it’s about wanting to avoid genetics.

#tw ed #tw eating disorder #I’m a fatty who still eats plenty everyday I don’t need to be hugboxed about this #I’m just worried if I try to diet it’ll just make my metabolism worse #(I’ve eaten 1000 calories today but that’s not dangerous afaik so it’s not an ed yet)#but I can see myself getting to that point just thinking about my dad #my calorie budget was supposed to be 1600 but I overindulged over the weekend and gained 2 pounds.#anyway yesterday I ate like 800 calories and I posted on yikyak to bitch about my hunger pains and they told me I have an ed #I disagree though

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