#my brain is like lmaooooo die mongrel idc abt u or your life anymore kys byeeee

[bunnihearted]

i thiiiink my problem is that i want toxic things buuuut in a healthy way.... like yes i want to be clinginess but both respecting when we get overwhelmed. i want lowkey stalking eo and having eo's locations and i want collars and marks and blood vials, but also respect and understanding when it gets too much for the moment and u need a little space. and i want co-dependency and doing almost everything together all the time and for eachother, but also respect when and if we need to just be alone for a moment. i want all of that but not in an abusive way, and all of that is sadly very closely intertwined with abuse.... so.. sad lyfe :(