#mun fanfic babbles //

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As in: instead of focusing on 100% original content Or schrodingers /rp/ dynamics being left open— oc insert 'excerpts' of/with my blorbos to show off xyz aspects themes and dynamics indirectly/subtextually

Ie, see: the "blood on her hands" Sa drabble with fgo master au... but actually (depending) involving canon characters Explicitly. Think Mara's career in SOLDIER involving lots of canon main players (and her dynamics w Everything wrt work), gnshn Mara @/zl or the other yakshas, fz au rea scheming w Waver and begrudgingly help mentor his students, dgm Sa's enabling for full oshimaplot exploration, etc

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Hahaha nvm nvm I forgot half of it was all somehow fanfiction 😍😍😍

My old art journals are calling to me like sirens to redraw my old goobers,,,,,

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Tag muns you want to know better; repost - don’t reblog.

What inspired you to try / create this muse/s: Originally, creating Dabi’s blog was mostly a ‘whim’ - I had gotten really into The Theory(tm), and wanted to be able to explore the implications of that. His potential dynamics with other characters was really interesting to me, and I’d been looking into which villains I thought I could ‘do justice’ anyways.

Other than just really liking the concept / character? I had seen quite a few different portrayals, mostly within fanfics rather than in the RPC, that I didn’t.. agree with?? A lot of it was really one-dimensional; that was my main irritation with it, I think. So, long story short, I wanted to flesh out my own version of things. (And I’ve had a fucking blast doing so, honestly.)

From there, Kerri encouraged the idea, and well, the rest is history.

What is inspiration for your muse/s: Other than the source material, and various theory posts that I’ve stumbled across? It’s mostly a matter of taking what I already know from those, what I know about psychology, how I’ve written villainous people previously, and a lot of creative liberties.

I use music for inspiration, a lot, with all of my muses; that said, I have a Spotify playlist for nearly all of them. Reading other peoples’ portrayals (typically from quality fics or a friend’s writing, not my duplicates, to be clear there) has always been helpful, too. Outside of that stuff..? I’m really not sure; most of my inspiration just comes from thinking about my muses way too much, listening to music that reminds me of them, and babbling to people about it all.

Thread / AU that makes you really happy: Yeah so, I could babble about quite a few things for this, but I’m gonna stick with the first two that came to mind. First of all? Kerri and I’s ship with Dabi and Asuka ( @sensoryquirk ). I fucking live for Hero x Villain type dynamics, honestly, and I could talk about how much I adore that ship for hours.

But! That’s tied baaasically equally with my interactions with Kam ( @icey-burn ). I fucking LOVE writing with Kam, and our interactions between Dabi & Shouto have been some of the funnest threads to write on this blog. Whether we’re yelling about how much they love each other, or ripping each other’s hearts out with angst replies, it’s always a damned blast. 

Something really special on your wishlist: I don’t really have a wishlist, honestly. There are plenty of things that I would like to eventually have happen, sure, but nothing that actually stands out?? At least, not that I can think of. My only big thing was having a Shouto to interact with, and being I’ve got a couple of those now, that’s already accomplished lol.

Share something related to your muse!:

LOOK AT THIS COMIC, PEOPLE.

It’s one of my absolute favorite pieces of fanart I’ve seen for the theory. You wanna talk about art that’s inspired me? THAT.

What do you think about your character’s design / how did you come up with this: This is one of those designs that people either love or hate, and personally? I adore it. There’s something ‘gritty’ about the designs of the villains in BN/HA, that I haven’t seen most other places, and I really appreciate that.

What has your muse taught you: It’s kind of ironic, saying that Dabi of all characters has taught me / helped me with anything, but to be entirely honest? There’s a few things, and they’re all.. actually pretty important?

1) Your scars tell parts of your story, but they do not define you. Your story matters, but the scars themselves? Those don’t matter anymore than you let them matter. They don’t lessen you, they don’t define anything, and they don’t have to change how you view yourself. They only succeed in doing any of that, if you let them, and you don’t have to let them. The story matters; the scars don’t.

2) You are allowed to leave the past, in the past. No matter the circumstances, and no matter your decisions from that point onward, you are not obligated to live in the past - you shouldn’t, for that matter. Read it like an old paperback novel, learn what you can from it, enjoy the good parts where you can. But once you’ve done that, once you’ve learned what you can from it? Set that damned book on fire, if that’s what you need to do in order to move forward. You can’t change your past, but you can start right here, right now, and change the ending of your story. Burn the bridges that you need to; nobody needs to understand your reasons for that except for you. If the past kicks you down 100 times, you get back up 101 — shake the dust off, and focus on your present, on a brighter future.

3) Nobody can force you to continue being the person you were yesterday. You are not obligated to respond to a name that does not belong to you anymore. You are not obligated to be the person that those around you, used to know. You are allowed to change, at any time, and leave the ‘old you’ in the past. Nobody can force you to live in the past, and absolutely no one can force you to continue being the scared kid you were before — you’re not him anymore.

( I could likely continue, but I’m going to leave it at those - they’re the main things. )

What is roleplay for you: Roleplaying is quite a few things for me, but to sum it up? It’s a hobby, and a more ‘relaxed’ way to keep myself writing when I don’t have the time & energy to be working on more “professional” writing. That aside, it’s a way to cope - a place to put emotions that I’m not sure how to otherwise deal with, and vent those in a creative way. So on, and so forth.

Just say something nice about other muns!: I haven’t been in an ‘active’ fandom in quite a while, and I wasn’t certain about joining this one at first. But honestly? I have not been this excited to log on every day, in ages. Everyone here has been incredibly welcoming, and while I could babble about specific people, there isn’t a need to - because every single person I’ve spoken with, interacted with? Has been a fucking sweetheart. You’re all wonderful, and I’m so glad that I decided to be a part of this RPC. Thank you all for having me, really.

Tagged by: @steelhardpecs

Tagging: I’m really late answering this, and idk who all did it already, so... If you haven’t, consider yourself tagged?

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//if i could explain my thoughts on my blorbos and relationship To them is that a favorite plot i started was one where a bastard warlock intentionally sabotaged sa's rep / worsened it behind her back to lock her in as their Party MemberTM/pawn/etc... all the while, ofc, playing her genuine ally/sponsor

(the clincher ofc being that all the while sa was Obliviously teaching him/morals compassion to the point of him choosing her over world domination. sure he got her killed but he also revived her so like, its fine, or something)

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//i tried to watch bridge.r.ton. and... i cant do it lmfao. i barely finished the first episode and nothing intrigued me besides that one side character. TIL i only really like 'social dramas' in tv if theyre relatively easy to digest and/or a 'side dish' to a different main plot or premise

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//lays on the floor thinking abt ferdiereabert. thinking about how rea represents the worst of their failures/mistakes. thinking about how they represent the cause rea -gestures vaguely- for. thinking about how their respective pursuits (hubert and ferdie aiming to murder for and nurture for the sake of protecting rea, respectively; rea aiming to... essentially be left alone to self destruct and be forgotten bc its easier) are mutually exclusive even though their wants are the same (being together)

also thinks about the raw crack / humor angles of edelgard checking in on how the rea-mance is doing to ever exasperated, deadpan, and/or teacup breaking responses

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// ferdiereabert is so funny to me bc like. yeah sure joke ship that grew hands but also like. 'i do what i must for the future' except reas doing it for their future bc she sees herself as a walking ghost and thus having none and they need to keep trying fucking pincer tactics to get her to sit down and accept tlc nevermind get anywhere NEAR the topic of 'stop fucking isolating and self sacrificing wtf'?????????

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//Mara's the definition of 'hypercompetent to the point being in mega wash out shitfire show mode still leaves her a degree of hypercompetent across all her fields' and there's really so much to be said about it because of how intrinsically it's tied to her career in SOLDIER & her relationship to said career especially after defecting

But also

But also,

I'm just thinking of sb jokingly/teasingly calling out 'General' and Mara immediately responding, giving herself whiplash, and just. You. Stop that— >:(

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//Funny scenario I love that I’d like to share w/ y’all before i eep (context being naruto + kunoichi + sannin bestie au rea who uses ice releases water bending -> literal blood bending):

Rea: gets a new teammate shes never worked w before. they love poisons.

Rea: yoinks enemies blood to replenish her stores

They: do not communicate abt this at all

Mission: success !

Rea: eats dirt 0.5 seconds after from yoinking poisoned blood into her system

They:

They:

They: UHM ? I DIDNT DO IT--

(Narrator vc: they, in fact, technically did!)

(Meanwhile, the Sannin, ‘rea being stupid/reckless’ senses tingling in sync: )

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//if i had a nickel for every time i had rea haunt a loved one’s narrative i would have. so many nickels dsghsdghhdsg (even wrt the specific subsection of ‘dies permanently/indefinitely but still gets better!’)

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//shakes self like worlds best/worst soda rocket and pops off my own lid

how we feelin-- :'3