#mummy nat 😵‍💫💕

[atinyniki]

i don’t rlly know who the anon in my inbox is rn but please stop sending me so much hate :( there’s really no reason for that bc i told her happy bday at midnight anyways :(

[atinyniki]

please don’t overwork yourself :((( i know how it feels darling, im sure a lot will pick up again after summer ends. it’s just very busy and hectic right now, and we understand. no matter what, no matter how often you post, we’ll all be here for you 🫶

Sooo I tried to avoid this for a bit, buut I'll start my summer job tomorrow and I'll be busy all August, which means I won't be around much. On top of that I'm currently in a bit of a mental struggle and this will sound awfully lazy - I have a lot of fics finished but I don't find the time/brain atm to prepare the posts the way you are used to/I like them to be. So I'm really sorry if I'm currently posting slow (not three times a week). I just need a little time to get my shit together and I'll try and stick to 1-2 per week depending on my work schedules🖤🖤 Stay safe, loves, my dms are always open, I might just need a little longer to respond than usually🖤

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[atinyniki]

NAT GAVE AZZY A KISS AND NOT ME :(

[atinyniki]

soft thoughts on Nat? (that valentine's gifft makes ne wonder)

authors note: this is literally the cutest ask ever omfg… also ive never done soft thoughts on anyone before…?! heheh im excited (also this might be super inaccurate bc im kinda projecting but… wtv) anyways this one is probably going to be long-ish, but it can be read as gender neutral. (i got help from zehina and kylei too btw :P) also normalize men being soft in relationships please!!! they don’t always have to be the tough guy :3 i hope most of it is right @writingforstraykids hehe :3

nat has to love cuddles. it’s the same thing over and over again. you’re sad? “come cuddle 🥺” you’re tired? “come cuddle 🥺”. she’d give the best cuddles too, which leads me into the specifics… nat would hold you close to her and fondle your hair while cuddling. if you’ve read her fics, that’s one of the things she talks about most. just laying down with her while she massages your scalp and rakes her fingers through your hair like agh 🥺💕 she’s so cutie

another thing, nat really hates when someone is in pain. if an anon mentions that they’re upset, she always asks what’s wrong. and she’d do the same to you, so so so incredibly caring. she’d always ask about your day, and you could talk for hours on end, but she’d pay attention the whole time. and if you asked her to recite everything you just said, she’d parrot it right back 💕

when you have a tummyache, nat would kiss and rub your cute lil tummy till you’re content. she hates seeing her baby in pain, and does anything she can to make you feel better. just imagine small little pecks across the soft skin, her nose nuzzling into your plush with every kiss 🥺

nat gives compliments. a lot of them, to just about everyone she knows. but what if you were to turn the tables? she’d get so blushy, trying her best to stay composed. if you were to shower her with compliments, she’d get so red. especially when in public. just small gestures to show your affection and some praises thrown around here and there is enough to get her all warm and fuzzy 🥺💕

nat cares deeply about every one of her friends, so what’s to say she wouldn’t care for her lover the same? of course, she shows everyone so much love, but once you’re the one being treated this way, everything changes. everything she does and says comes directly from her heart, and she’s never afraid to show you how genuine her words are.

nat is godly at aftercare. there’s nothing she loves more than taking care of her love. she always makes sure you go to the bathroom after and runs you a bath. even after a soft scene, she will always reassure you and make sure you know how much she loves you. her heart just about bursts whenever she hearts your heavy breathing and soft snoring as you fall asleep in her arms 🥹

when it’s gloomy out and you want to go outside, the two of you will drive around for hours. nothing is better than spending time with your lover, and long drives with the light pitter-patter of the rain in the background also gives you some more time to talk to eachother. when she’s driving you, she likes to intertwine your fingers with hers and place her hand onto the gear stick, just to feel you close to her. and since you’re traveling so much, you normally try a new place to eat! kind of like a special occasion ☺️

kissing nat is so sweet too. with the small pecks here and there, as well as the steamier moments you have with her, you will always be able to feel how much she loves you. kissing is never exclusive to just the lips either, and i’m sure she’d kiss all over your face if she had the chance 💕

it’s basically impossible to hide your feelings from nat, considering how attentive she is. if you talk or text a specific way, she can tell exactly how you’re feeling just based off of that. this ties back to the point about comforting. she’s constantly checking up on you, providing as much comfort as she possibly can. she never wants her baby feeling upset 🥺💕

nat is an amazing artist. if you’ve ever seen her art, you’d know. imagine going on a nice picnic date, feeding eachother fresh fruits and doing silly poses while sketching eachother. bonus points if it’s springtime, picking flowers and braiding them into her hair 🥺 you could be there for hours with her and never get bored, not when you’re in your lovers arms with the light breeze brushing against your cheeks >//<

kisses were already mentioned, but lazy/sleepy kisses deserve their own section. you both work hard, as one does, and sometimes it’s hard to talk to eachother when you’re drained of all energy, and so is she. so what do you do? you hop into bed with her and curl into her, planting lazy kisses to her face while half-asleep. there’s something about these kisses that are so intimate, recharging you after such a long day. the two of you end up getting so comfortable that you just fall asleep in eachothers arms, lips still brushing against each others 🥺

pda with nat sounds soooo sweet. just holding hands while in public or linking arms? kisses to the cheek while walking and talking? hugs while you’re at small gatherings and watching the smile grow on her face? she’d get soooo giggly and so so happy. we all know how cuddly she is, so chances are she’d do it right back to you :3

being with nat will always feel like a dream. at some points, you may even think she’s too good to you, because that’s just how amazing she is. she loves with her entire heart, and she’s damn good at it too. you will never feel neglected or unwanted with her, not with the amount of attention and love she gives you. with all the constant reassurance, the compliments, and the sweet gestures, there’s no doubt that she loves you hehe <3

[atinyniki]

Idk why you like Nat so much. You won't get any comfort whenever you're upset

fuck off anon. it’s the complete opposite, actually. nat comforts me just about every time something happens, it’s just difficult sometimes due to our different time zones. plus she always notices how im truly feeling despite trying to hide it. so don’t you dare say she doesn’t comfort me. you don’t know shit abt what goes on behind the scenes. if you don’t like her, you don’t like her, but leave me the fuck out of it.

[atinyniki]

Was Dear Exlover about Nat?

sigh. ah yes. dear ex lover was about nat (who i’ve never dated) dear ex lover was about nat (who is entirely too straight for me) dear ex lover was about nat (who i text everyday) dear ex lover was about nat (who i buy gifts and am preparing a package for) dear ex lover was about nat (i tell her i love her everyday. PLATONICALLY since you idiots can’t get it in your head)

no, it’s not about nat 😭 no one has hurt me like that, so please don’t assume 😭

[atinyniki]

You’re ruining Nat and Kailee’s relationship. Is it that hard to just leave?

no actually, i think you are ruining our relationship together. you and all the other stupid anons talking about this shit. if anything, you guys will probably be the ones that tear us apart. and then what’s next? no motivation to write? no funny convos here? no entertainment for you? so i suggest you keep your stupid little thoughts to yourself so you don’t ruin anything for us or yourself. as i said before, we love eachother equally. do me a favor and leave this fucking community 🥱

[atinyniki]

Why would I leave? I’m just telling you to leave Kailee and Nat alone. Not the entirety of Tumblr… It’s not your place to be part of their relationship anyways

lmfao, if you don’t want me to leave then stop this bullshit. it’s just making me want to delete this app and stop writing ffs… it’s not your place to dictate who i talk to either. i’m not going to leave nat or kylei alone because i love them, and they love me. so leave us be please, i don’t know why you’re so invested in this 😭🙏

[atinyniki]

TUMBLR THINKING MICHELLE IS NAT SHE ACTUALLY BROKE MY TUMBLR

[atinyniki]

hiii my beautiful sunshine🥺

and what if we kissed rn :3

[atinyniki]

Okay, so, since your beloved anon apparently knows so much about our relationship but doesn't give enough fucks to check my blog I'll send you an ask instead. Niki and I talk daily, sometimes more sometimes less as surprise we both have our own lives to deal with and tbh mine has been a mess lately so if anyone's to blame for the lack of “pda” it's me😐 I love interacting with my mooties on here but I'll stop if all it does is making some of you gossip and go wild like we're some celebrities dating, chill tf out pls.

And about Kylei…I promised myself to keep my mouth shut bc I don't want to drag someone through shit on here so I'll be as vague as possible. It's okay if you miss her but don't blame any of us for her leaving. I haven't heard from her in three months after addressing my issue with sudden disappearances and ignoring to which I was promised it wouldn't happen again combined with all sorts of endearing terms only like two weeks prior. Repeatedly. I won't go into detail about Zehina or Niki because I'm not that type of an asshole but damn.

Things didn't end well between all of us and the fact that we were all hurt but stayed and only one person didn't, should make you think. Yes, you were right before, there are fics about what happened on my blog bc I tried to work through some old shit that came up with it again, which she knew about btw and still went on and did the same in lesser forms.

Nevertheless, if you know me and what I need so well you should start thinking about who really hurt me and who's still by my side, making me smile every damn day when I don't feel like it.

Sincerely, get a life and stop messing with ours we'd love to catch a break some time :)))

this. again, you do not know abt anything that happens behind the scenes. go ask kylei what happened instead of berating us.

[atinyniki]

i’m gonna explode

okay so i know its been a fat fucking minute since ive been here but im ovulating deal with me for a sec…bangchan breeding you while lino sucks on your clit….OH MY GOD

"ah- ah fuck, is that good, baby? daddy's cock nice 'n big?" chan coos, and you nod eagerly. his curly hair is mussed with sweat, dangling over his forehead, and his lips are so pink and kiss bitten it makes you want to cry. minho's hands push your legs back further, pushing you into a mating press, and you wail at the way chan's cock goes just that much deeper.

"oh, oh! oh, daddy, can- will you breed me? breed baby's pussy, please, please?" you're babbling, head rolling on the pillow, and minho scoffs out a laugh. you pout, legs thrashing, and minho catches your ankle.

"am i being mean to you, kitty?" minho asks, and chan's thrusts pick up a bit, as if he'd forgotten his bandmate was there. you nod, eyes glassy, and even chan laughs at the look on your face. each long, languid thrust has you whining, pussy squelching with it, and your clit throbs. "i think you need to cum before your daddy breeds you, don't you?"

"i- i-"

"min, suck her clit," chan instructs, and he leans back to allow access. minho shuffles on his knees towards you, cock bobbing, and then his plushy lips are sucking the untouched bud into his mouth. you keen, hands moving to grip minho's hair, but chan's quick to pin them above your head. "s-stay still. stay still and take it, and- and you'll get daddy's cum, baby, i promise."

[atinyniki]

(sorry if this makes no sense but there was an anon asking who’s the best duo out of me kylei and nat pretty disrespectfully trying to disclude nat but i accidentally deleted it)

to the people who ask, “who’s the best duo in your trio?”, fuck off. it’s a TRIO for a reason. yes there are three duos in a trio, but none of them are gonna be the best duo in a healthy trio, bc everyone needs the proper amount of attention and affection. so please, leave me alone if you have a problem with the people im friends with :/ leave kylei and nat alone as well, trios are three

[atinyniki]

Hope you have the best day my pretty sunny. Take care and stay safe. I love you my dear lix🖤

crying what did i do to deserve you… i love you so much darling <3 hope you have a good morning too :3 (isn’t it like 11:30 rn)

[atinyniki]

pov me watching you do the bare minimum🥺🖤

STOP ACCEPTIJG THE BARE MINIMUM LIKE I JUST GAVE YOU MY KIDNEY 😡

but i love you cutie pie 🥺💕

[atinyniki]

hahahahaha i will shoot you !!!

Hidden flaws

word count: ~2.4k

warnings: angst, hurt/comfort, arguments

summary: Nobody is perfect, and emotions help highlight those flaws.

a/n: I know this isn't the best I had written and most probably not what any of you expected, but I wanted to show that Bae has his flaws too, that he isn't all those wonderful things he shows to everyone. I hope you guys will still enjoy reading this drabble nonetheless.

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Please let me know if I left a warning or anything out, I will add it in! Reblogs, likes and feedback are greatly appreciated!

!I don't condone anyone stealing my work and posting it anywhere without my permission, or feeding it to AI!

!This is just fiction, my interpretation of Stray Kids. By no means is this how they are and how they behave in real life!

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A heavy sigh left his chest, his shoulders sagging in temporary relief as the hefty bag was gently thrown into the corner. The door let out a soft click as it closed shut behind his exhausted form, something that only hunched over more as he’d noticed how a certain few pairs of shoes were chaotically thrown in the way. He knew which pair belonged to who, of course he did, and that only heightened his frustrations as he had already asked them several times to not do this.

But no matter. He was way too tired to deal with this right now.

The place was fairly quiet, save for some gentle murmurs of far-away conversations and the occasional shouts of Felix and Jeongin, who were most probably playing some kind of video game against each other -if the cursing was anything to go by, that is-.

And so Bae simply stood there for the next few minutes, drinking in the quite rare moment of silence after a particularly hectic day of work, even though every muscle and tendon inside his body screamed for rest, to just lay down and not move for the next 12 hours. He listened to the passing vehicles down below, the gentle tip-tapping of the water droplets as they hit the windows, of the continuous shuffling of fabric from everyone’s rooms down the hallway.

With each familiar sound his shoulders relaxed, that deeply-etched line between his eyebrows becoming faded and less visible.

But of course, peace could never last long in that dorm, in the one the nine of them shared.

As Bae moved towards his room to rest, his arm dragging his bag behind on the floor, his shoulder was pushed away so violently he nearly tripped backwards, were it not for the wall to catch his stumbling form.

“Jesus christ, watch where you’re going. I nearly fell because of you.” - one of the youngest spat out, anger and frustration dripping from each word.

The tired idol could only watch Seungmin’s leaving form, all his attention stolen from the lack of honorifics and the form of someone else passing by as he immediately closed his eyes so tightly it looked painful. His lung filled to the brim with another intake of air, this one much more urgent than the last, trapped inside until his veins screamed for release and comfort.

It was fine.

He was fine.

After hauling his bag into his room, his eyes momentarily got caught on the clean, folded clothes he had asked someone to put away. But before he could even fully process that information he had heard shouting from the way he had just come from, the two participants of the heated argument painfully obvious. It wouldn’t have been hard to guess anyway, with the mood Seungmin had just been in.

Sure enough, it only took Bae a few steps to witness that exact member and Changbin looking ready to tear each others’ heads off, a sight rarer than ever.

While Seungmin had always been one to stay calm and jokingly teasing, it was even rarer to see Changbin so ready to fight another member. The gym enthusiast always had a heart of gold, exercising his frustrations out instead of throwing it at any of them.

Both of them were only growing more heated with each passing second, veins visibly jumping underneath their skin with fiery anger. Changbin’s fists were both clenched to the point Bae was sure the skin would break, while Seungmin was biting his lip to the point of drawing blood between each violent word he’d stabbed the shorter male with.

Naturally, this drew the attention of every else in the dorm, each pair of eyes wide in disbelief at what was happening. The sight caused them to freeze, unable to believe that out of everyone, these two were having an actual argument and not just a playful banter they always had instead.

But Bae had been there before them by a few minutes, having already witnessed it all, and thus he was able to force his body to move, to act, his hands pushing at the arguing duo’s chests firmly. Two pairs of vicious eyes zeroed in on his form, yet only one’s owner spoke up.

“And what the fuck do you think you’re doing?! You can barely stand, for fuck’s sake! You come back late, you don’t know anything that happened, and yet you dare get between us? You always do this, playing the peacemaker in this group, as if you’re some kind of goody-two-shoes. You’re such a faker!”

It was silent after Seungmin’s words, the entire atmosphere turning chilly and dangerous. Changbin immediately backed down as if he was scorched, Bae’s hand now uselessly lifted in the air and staying completely still, until it returned to his side and clenched into a fist. Still, it was unable to fully conceal the swirling emotions residing deep within his chest, everything that had happened that day, that week, now desperately trying to spill to the top and consume him alive, injuring not only him in the process, but others as well.

A droplet of blood slithered down the cracks of his skin while nobody dared to move, the uttered words hanging in the air, letting their owner realise their meaning as they dug deeply into everyone’s skin like a vicious parasite.

“Seungmin-” “No, Chan. It’s okay. He’s right. In his eyes, I am what he just called me as.” “No, Bae-”

It all happened in an instant.

In one moment, Bae was standing between Seungmin and Changbin, Chan just far enough to not be able to prevent what was to come. Because in the next moment, Seungmin laid on the floor, dishevelled and panicked as Bae loomed above him, an unconcealed rage filling his once kind eyes. Bae’s chest burned with each intake, veins on the verge of bursting from the sudden added pressure and he was sure he would be chipping a tooth if he continued clenching his jaw as hard as he had been doing so far.

But he couldn’t stop himself anymore. It was all too much. All reason was thrown out the window after that comment, something that dug deeper than Seungmin would have ever thought it would.

He’d stepped on a lion’s tail, and now he had to face the consequences.

Bae’s chest heaved violently, his heart hidden inside thumping so fast it was a wonder how it had remained in its rightful place. That vicious, disgustingly familiar feeling gripped at his throat, nearly choking him to death if he didn’t let it out.

In a blink his arm moved to grip the younger’s hoodie better, shouting breaking out around him. The boy in his grip, locked underneath him, looked like a deer caught in headlights, his entire being shaken down to its core.

Bae hated that look. Hated whenever someone looked at him that way, those wide, fearful eyes haunting him in his nightmares relentlessly. He hated how Seungmin visibly shrank in on himself when one of his hands moved, a breath caught in his throat from the sheer fear, even though it wasn���t a movement fueled by violence. Bae hated how those eyes glistened, hated how that revolting feeling inside him writhed in delight at the sight, but out of everything, he hated the most how Seungmin thought he would actually hurt him.

He hated how even that wasn’t enough to cool himself off, the need to move around and destroy still resided inside besides that deep hurt, begging to take control.

So, with a silent exhale, he stood up and wordlessly went to the door, not answering anyone’s questions as only a silent click could be heard behind him.

He’d heard Chan explaining to the others what had happened as he was leaving, the older aussie being the person who had helped Bae keep his anger issues in check easier. Because as calm and collected as he could look, Bae was only a human with countless flaws. And this one, this one had to be his least favourite. He’d gotten better at controlling it over the years of being an idol, but he couldn’t get rid of it. At one point, this bubbling anger would always break onto the surface, burning everyone around him.

And he never failed to dread that moment.

That was how he always found himself in the gym, the punching bag taking all his frustrations and anger away slowly with each punch, his head feeling calmer and emptier. It was how he had gotten into regularly exercising, actually, the act being his much needed anchor.

Because even after all those words, all the days’ frustrations as he filmed countless scenes and practised certain moves over and over again, he would rather die than hurt one of the members, people who had become his family.

“Hey.”

Changbin’s soft voice was a sudden change, something that Bae wasn’t expecting and so his next punch missed, the bag hitting his body instead and causing him to nearly fall to the ground.

“Hey, hey, I gotcha. Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you like that.” - the younger male said, helping Bae gather his balance once more. “No, it’s okay.”

It was a bit awkward after that, none of them uttering a single word, merely shuffling in place or fixing their clothes. Bae of course knew why his dongsaeng was there, it couldn’t have been more obvious. Changbin’s eyes looked everywhere but at him, no matter how hard Bae had tried.

A heavy sigh left the younger’s lips, eyes finally meeting Bae’s with a heavy gaze, yet no words accompanied them.

A droplet of sweat glided down the taller’s skin as he closed his eyes, a silent sigh leaving his form.

“It’s okay. I heard Chan hyung explaining things after I left, and the younger ones had to know about it sooner or later.” - Bae said, his voice softer than he had hoped for. “But-” “No buts, Bin, it’s okay. And it wasn’t your fault either. I just… didn’t have the best day. I apologise, truly.” “You aren’t completely right, Hyung. Comeback season is on our necks and this time around, you have the most work put onto your shoulders. Every day you come back past midnight, looking like a zombie, and yet you keep doing chores around the dorm as well. You shouldn’t need to come back to such a scene on top of that, where two of us are fighting, especially when I know how you can be.”

Bae could merely blink down at his younger friend, not having expected that at all.

“Oh come on, say something, don’t just blink at me with those pretty eyes of yours!”

A faint red dusted Bae’s ears at those words, smacking Changbin’s shoulder in return.

“But what was that about anyway?” “You mean the argument? Oh, well… We just haven't really seen eye-to-eye with each others’ performances lately. I… I kept criticising every line he sang, and in return, he kept doing the same with my rap. It all bursted out when I mentioned how he should redo a few lines tomorrow.”

Bae didn’t need to say anything, he could see how Changbin had already reflected over his actions. Regret was clearly written on his face, a slight frown always sitting on his pouty lips. And those deep, dark eyes of his told entire tales of the same thing, and thus, Bae just stood beside him silently.

“Don’t look at me like that, Hyung! I know I fucked up, okay? I shouldn’t be this harsh on him, but I just. I just want him to do his very best, y’know? Because I know he can. He’s our main vocalist, and this track suits him so well.” - Changbin’s voice turned so tender near the end that it almost broke Bae’s heart, because he understood it all.

He also wanted the others to do their very best, to encourage them and help them become that new, best version of themselves. Everyone wanted that from the other, and sometimes that want turned into something hurtful, as regretful as it was.

“Anyway, come on, let’s go so we can both apologise to him, yeah? I would hate for him to go to sleep like this, to actually believe the stupid things I accidentally threw at him.”

With Bae’s silent nod the two were off, the short journey back to their dorms passing in silence. Both males were stressing over their apologies, which words to say that would earn them forgiveness. But deep down Bae feared that he wouldn’t ever be forgiven, his actions harsh and unlike him when his anger took the reins. He knew that all too well. After all, that was the reason why he always went to hide away at the gym at such times.

His stomach churned and rolled around with each step, and much too soon, they were at the door already. Neither of them reached for the handle, as they just stood there, hesitant.

Much too suddenly the door swung open, the person they had least expected standing on the other side, having expected them.

“Come in.” - he said, the two obediently following him into the living room.

It was clear Seungmin had been crying, the skin underneath his eyes scrubbed red and raw. Bae’s heart clenched at the sight, that deep-rooted self hatred only burying itself deeper into his chest. There was a lump growing inside his throat, and he knew that if he were to just stand there, he would be unable to say anything later.

“I’m sorry, Seungmin.” - he whispered out, his voice nearly breaking from hidden emotion.

He turned away to leave, that familiar burning appearing behind his eyes, but something held him back. A quick glance told him that it was Seungmin himself, his small hand peeking out from his sweater paws. A habit he only practised when he was feeling upset.

“No, Hyung, stay. Please.” - the boy whispered out, tugging at his sleeve once more with such desperation that Bae couldn’t deny, even as a stray tear rolled down his skin.

And so the three stayed in the living room over warm cups of tea and ramyeon, talking everything out. Although the damage had been done, scars could heal if looked after properly; and none of them were planning to leave.