#mulder must die for his cause and krycek must be this suffering evil thing with a bleeding heart

[pennyserenade]

this relationship is so curious to me. it’s not at all tender or kind or trusting, nothing like what mulder shares with dana. mulder hates krycek from the very beginning, and he only builds up more hatred for him as time goes on. krycek kills his father for his own pathetic cause. he’s a traitor and a rat and he’s sent to destroy mulder because dana scully couldn’t. mulder spits out vitriol every time he’s in the same room with alex, and beats his ass a million times. he leaves him to die in russia, cuffs him to balconies, lets black goop devour him in a locked room. he knows alex killed his father but never just kills alex and alex is a trained killer, yet he is often overpowered by fox, who is notoriously good at getting his ass beat. mulder and krycek are the polar opposite of mulder and scully, but they share one important thing: a passionate mulder. mulder loves and hates wholly, never a man for halves of anything, and those who are at the tail end of both of those emotions are forever bonded to him. i wouldn’t call it love that they share, not at all, but i imagine fox feels for krycek what the angels felt for lucifer: he is one of mine but destroyed, beautiful but ruined. krycek is this ugly betrayal, but pretty as a girl and essential, and fox mulder can’t ever kill him.