#ms ma who did not want to get married but now she is anyway bc mr gong really wanted to

[lupe-jess]

Thank you to everyone who came up with amazing theories, you made this show better than the writers ever could!

[planetcatherine]

drunk high and bored

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

The first time i watched Perks of Being a Wallflower i was with my sister and mom in florida and they didn’t understand the depth of it. they thought it was weird and didn’t appreciate the art. The first time i ever watched inglorious basterds i was with rob. we watched it in my room near the end of first semester. it was such a great movie and a fun time

2: Talk about your first kiss.

My first kiss was when i was 15. he was 18 and a senior and the captain of the soccer team. i was concussed at the time. it was after midnight so technically it was christmas. he kissed me after i showed him perks of being a wallflower and he gave me my christmas present: two books i wanted and a cd labeled “cat’s mixtape”. he also made out w me it wasn’t gentle or sweet at all. it was good though. i don’t really need gentle and sweet.

3: Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.

The person i had the most intense romantic feelings for had the same for me, but we were a terrible match and nearly fuckinf killed eachother. it was a terrible relationship and a beautiful relationship and i don’t miss it one bit but am thankful and grateful for the time we had. too bad things had to go the way they did, but everything was too much. we were going to ruin eachother. we already had.

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

I regret nothing

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had.

I don’t like birthdays but i suppose this past one was cool

6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had.

my 16th was probably the worst. pretty sure that was the night i was suicidal and cried when my friends picked me up.

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

i think my biggest insecurity is the idea of not being good enough. i’m just never enough and i’m scared or rejection and weird vibes.

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

I am good at drawing people because people interest me a lot

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

my tattoo is my baby. my random freckles on my body are cool. i like my dimples and my blue eyes.

10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.

one time my brother and i played chess and i won and he got pissed and just started beating me up and was jumping up and down on my stomach and then my dad told us we couldn’t talk to eachother anymore so i didn’t talk to my brother for like years

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

klem’s with derek. i liked him at the time and i had such a normal dream but it seemed perfect to me

12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.

on christmas eve once i had a dream that my family was kidnapped by cartoon characters and they hypnotized us and my brother and i escaped. also i had a dream last semester that i slept walked during, i had a dream i ate a bunch of xanax and died and i guess i was sleepwalking and kept picking up my pill bottles and putting them doen

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

the first time i had sex was so innocent and awful. he tattered me lol. i was so sad afterwards because i liked him so much and didn’t want to say no because i wanted to hug i wasn’t ready to that very day after he broke up with his gf. i wasn’t in a place to do that. and it hurt a lot.

14: Talk about a vacation.

i went to california with a girl i knew for two weeks prior to the trip. it was lit. another time i went to hawaii with my ex and everyone thought we were just married. also lit.

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

content? haven’t heard that name in a while. anyway i guess i’m like very content rn but also i was prob more content when i had my ex in my life. but i don’t love him anymore

16: Talk about the best party you've ever been to.

there have been many but the best nights are when i just get belligerently drunk and wander and end up random places like building forts or spinning around or some weird shit

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

i want to be friends with this guy who’s in both my english class and my psych class. he seems cool

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

once in elementary school i fell off the top of the playground tower thing and i thought i was going to die so i just laid there while everyone went inside and they forgot me out there

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

in middle school i was class president and i ran a few years in a row and people like drew on my posters it was really mean

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

in high school i became so meta and self aware it was insane. i spent all my time trying so hard. then one day i started smoking weed more and i was like nah idgaf anymore lol hate me for who i am

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

my friend this morning was hinting she wanted to come out here but i just wanted to hang out with rob

22: Talk about your worst fear.

needles. shit is freaky

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.

i used to like a boy named derek and he liked me too but one day randomly he ghosted me for no reason. he still hits me up tho and he’s engaged which is weird shot

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

my first love daniel said to me once “you’re beautiful. i don’t care what anyone else has to say, and i know it might seem odd coming from me, but you need to know that.” and it stole my heart because i used to get made fun of and i knew i wasn’t the prettiest one ever

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

my first her best friend is still my friend, but she went too crazy for me to handle. she would yell at me for not eating her food bc she was anorexic and wanted me to help her kill herself and hide things from her mom and she just ended up being botchy and would scream at me for eating donuts and tell me no one cared so i peaced out real quick

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.

when i’m sick i just lay in bed and convince myself in dying

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.

my ex jake had a “hole” in his chest. it was fun to play with.

28: Talk about your fetishes.

nah

29: Talk about what turns you on.

accidental touching and being messy with people and lightly touching. also hard touching and crazy stuff

30: Talk about what turns you off.

when people chew loudly and ickily

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

darkness and nothingness. oblivion.

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

scituate, ma. i used to stay at the usaf base place with my family a lot. it was beautiful and solitary.

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

punch myself. cry. think i’m dying. hold my heart. look in the mirror. punch other things. shake. hyperventilate. sometimes i seize or pass out

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.

idk but one time when rob came to visit me at home, i just like died and fell on ice in my driveway. my arm was fuckeddd

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

i need to not be dependent on nicotine. also, i need to eat healthier and stop being lazy.

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.

country music :)

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

my ex cody. i thought i was in love with him, but i think i was just captivated instead. it was not love. you don’t treat someone you love like that.

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

i’ll list a few

• marry me - thomas rhett (ms)

• dancing in the moonlight - king harvest (nm)

•run - snow patrol (dp)

•say you won’t let go - james arthur (cr)

•love -kendrick (rf)

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

i wish i knew that it was okay to be myself. and i wish i recognized human things ealier. like the fact that we’re all just people.

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

the end of my juul was Last night. justin fuckinf dropped it and it’s gone now so