#motor skill issues be damned

[juliamccartney]

i've just taken some lovely photos of the moon using my phone, in some of them you can even make out the smaller craters, like in 3D!

this one is probably my favourite, i only cropped and sharpened it a bit:

[grif-hawaiian-rolls]

What if i talked about silly chorus ocs and their dynamics with canon characters huh

And by canon character i do mean just the lieutenants. For now

Pavoz and Bitters have mutual beef, in that they both hate each other and will gladly pick a fight for no other reason than “he was being annoying” but there is also a mutual respect to it- bitters will admit pavoz is a damn good gunman, pavoz would trust bitters behind the wheel over just about anyone in the federal army any day of the week. Sorta makes you wonder if they knew each other before picking their sides

Palomo and Micce have a very very one sided rivalry, in that Palomo keeps trying to start shit and Micce responds with ‘lmao and then what’— this is mostly bc Micce simply does Not have any fucks to give, and Palomo has taken that as a Personal Insult. At least the other Feds have the decency to insult him back and give him a reason to be bitchy about having to work with them!!

Micce genuinely is so laid back. He’s a lying asshole, but he’s so mellow that half the time no one expects him to be the problem. Bitters is conflicted about this. On one hand- seems like a chill dude, the kinda guy Bitters might be able to vibe with…if you ignore the fed thing which hey, they’re supposed to be working together now. On the other- he hangs out with Pavoz. Willingly. Fuck that.

Palomo is a little intimidated by Pavoz which he would never admit to, except maybe if Agent Washington asked. Or Captain Tucker. Or Andersmith. Or Bitters. He’s never admit it to Jensen, at least. Supposedly. It doesn’t matter that Pavoz is a full four inches shorter than Palomo, okay, the fed can carry a fucking chain gun! He’s got the heavy artillery certification and the fancy red stripes armor to go with it! That is intimidating!

Pavoz doesn’t entirely know who Palomo is. The rebel that screeches insults at any fed in his line of sight? Do you have any idea how little that narrows it down

Andersmith is… flustered. By Micce. Which, is baffling to everyone involved except Andersmith and Micce, but thats because Micce will completely deadpan mention he wants to climb Andersmith like a tree and honestly no one is sure if he means it as a joke or not. It’s… really hard to tell with Micce. Andersmith himself isn’t entirely sure if it’d be better as a joke or not

That said, Andersmith does have a fair respect for Pavoz as a fellow soldier! Especially because Pavoz is willing to discuss and debate matters calmly (that is, as long as Bitters isnt present) and it’s kinda nice to have a chance to actually honestly discuss grievances on both sides. At least Pavoz is brave enough to admit that the Federal Army weren’t handling the civil war well. Andersmith thinks it takes courage to admit you were following the wrong orders. Even if it is in hindsight. Still, would’ve been nice for them to realize it sooner

Pavoz and Micce both respectfully keep their distance from Jensen, especially in the motor pool. They really really don’t want to see how their bizarre luck plays with her driving skills. I don’t think anyone can blame them

That said, Pavoz did email her the federal army’s categorizing and requisition request form system. From the other side of Armonia, but still. If she’s gonna help Captain Simmons in the armory, or Lopez in the garage and the armory, then she should know how the system works at least. Its only polite after all

Ivia Soares has the least amount of issues with anyone. Maybe because she’s a medic and picking a fight with a (competent) medic is just a bad idea even to these idiots. Maybe because a lot of people think she’s Dr Grey at a glance because of the matching federal army armor with purple trim. Never mind that Soares is clearly in an indigo trim, not the orchid trim that Dr Grey wears. Because Soares is a field medic, not a Doctor, and the distinction in color is very important. That’s why the federal army is color coordinated for fucks sake!

Soares is also like, two inches taller. The armor doesn’t add that much bulk, surely.

Soares is roommates with a rebel medic named Suzuki (or Suzy for short) while both armies are in Armonia. They actually get along really well, once they get past the initial Fed vs New tension. Girl talk helps. Specifically, talking about hot girls. Like Volleyball and the rest of Red/Maroon team. Soares asks if Kimball is hot, Suzy has a minor crisis bc does she really want to go down that rabbit hole?

The agreement is yes, Kimball is hot. Please don’t let the conversation leave their shared room. Dr Grey is also hot, and Ivia informs Suzy she’s welcome to share that information because it means more people will come in for checkups to get a chance at seeing Dr Grey without her helmet. Dr Grey never takes off her helmet, but Suzy can respect the psychological games the fed medics play to get people to actually go to their checkups.

Soares hangs out with Bitters and Andersmith almost as much as she will hang out with Pavoz and Micce. This does not help the rumors that Bitters and Pavoz knew each other before becoming soldiers because if you know Soares and Pavoz you know they were friends as kids growing up on Chorus. Soares herself will not confirm or deny Pavoz and Bitters knowing each other, and asking either of them just starts a fight.

Out of armor, Pavoz and Micce frequently get mistaken for Rebels. Pavoz’s piercings and Micce’s frankly ridiculous hair are so non-regulation that assumptions get made by both armies. Pavoz won’t point it out but will quietly excuse himself from situations when it comes up. Micce leans into it a little too much. Soares doesn’t run into the problem often herself, but she will be the one to drag Micce away from causing problems for either or both armies

Micce likes Matthews. Well. He likes bothering Matthews. It’s like he made it his personal mission to see how many times he can make Matthews squeak like a dog toy

Matthews is doing his Very Best to maintain a working relationship with the feds, as he’s supposed to. Don’t want to let the captains down!! Or worse- the generals!!! Micce is… friendly? He’s awfully good at sneaking up on Matthews and Matthews really really wishes Micce wouldn’t do that, but it’s not really hurting anyone so… for the sake of getting along, Matthews doesn’t say anything! Definitely the only reason, not because Micce has a nice laugh, or because it’s nice to be noticed regularly even if it is for pranks.

Micce can fit into vents. Somehow. Bitters wants to recruit him for Orange team kitchen raids. He hasn’t because he doesn’t entirely trust Micce to not rat them out. Bitters doesn’t realize Micce uses his vent crawling skills for thievery anyways. Just not from the kitchens (why do the officer showers get to hoard all the good shampoo and conditioner anyways? If they didn’t want it to get stolen, they would simply share it in the first place)

Pavoz technically qualifies to be a lieutenant but because he’s not been officially assigned to any commanding officer in a while, he can’t get the promotion. Locus didn’t count, because he never officially joined the federal army and thus wasn’t technically an officer. Same for the reds. The federal army’s bureaucratic nature bites its own soldiers in the ass sometimes.

Micce is good at mimic voices. He charges $10 or a decent snack to make joke recordings for pranks. $20 and a good snack will net you a recording of someone higher ranking saying something stupid or in same cases, giving praise. Matthews has sacrificed so many snacks to get a handful of recordings of Micce mimicking Captain Grif. Micce has one rule— the recordings never get shared. Ever. He knows the power he wields, and knows if he gets caught, he’s screwed.

McCallister and Ghanoush are his second most popular clients for Micce’s voice acting after Matthews. Turns out they have a lot of use for clear audio recordings of things otherwise lost in background noise! Like Palomo practicing telling Jensen he likes more than just her butt. Technically, since they’re only asking him to make a clear version of audio that already exists, Micce lets them get away with not following the rule. So long as they take the blame for anyone who gets mad about the audio being “edited”

Epsilon is onto Micce’s bullshit, all of it. The vents, the pranks, the fucking voices. But he respects the hussle

And the 30% cut Micce gives him when Epsilon takes the time to call him out. What does an AI need with the money? The snack stash? Nothing, but Epsilon is a little bastard who can and will take advantage of a situation and having his cut set aside is actually useful for bribing the reds and blues into doing uh, anything. Its economics, man, trust him

[tg-headcanons]

do you think ghouls can regenerate neurons? Kaneki gets stabbed through the head and survives, he doesn't even have a dent in his head after

GHOUL NEURONS ARE SO INTERESTING TO ME

So we know that ghouls have an insane healing ability, they can recover from damn near any injury so long as they can survive the shock of it, and that includes nerves. Why are they able to regenerate these when any other animal can’t, especially so fast and accurately? That’s due to their RC cells.

Since RC cells act as a natural stem cell to speed up tissue regeneration, they have a unique ability to regrow damaged nerves. RC cells can become neurons as easily as they can become bones or muscle or skin, allowing them full use of whatever part of their body they regrow. This is necessary for how their bodies work. In order for them to have any control of regrown limbs, they need signals sent to them

The biggest issue when it comes to nerve regeneration isn’t creating the nerves, but rather connecting them. What usually happens is that as a part of he body regrows, the nerves grow with it, and it slowly regains control and feeling. It’s normal for it to take hours, days, or even weeks in the case of more extreme injuries for the new neurons to start communicating with the old ones correctly.

An extremely common issue in ghouls is RNDS, or Regenerated Nerve Disconnect Syndrome, in which the new nerves have a massive delay or failure to connect with the old tissue and feeling and motor control returns extremely slowly, or not at all. For those with more extreme RNDS who’s new nerves aren’t connecting, the only way to fix it is to find the area where the old nerves meet the new ones and damage it all over again to restart the process

When it comes to brain injuries, it’s almost always lethal. The shock alone kills nearly every ghoul who takes a strike or bullet to the head, but for those who survive they have an unusually high rate of recovery. The brain isn’t well understood. Even human brains and what they can survive are still being figured out, so there isn’t much information on it, and what they can and can’t heal from when it comes to this is mired in conflicting reports

Ghouls who survive initial brain damage, anything from a mild concussion to a metal spike, are likely to heal from it. Depending on what area was damaged the recovery is different, but regardless of what was hit it’s usually a rough healing process. The occipital lobe or frontal lobe are usually the least likely injuries to kill them, but there have been accounts of survivors with even more dire injuries

Healing from brain injuries is particularly tough because not only is this an area where any part that heals wrong can have serious and inoperable effects, but when the neurons are replaced, reconnecting takes a long time and a lot can go wrong. It’s common for ghouls healing from brain injuries to have weeks, months, and sometimes years of missing functionality in the damaged parts as the neurons attempt to connect and relearn how to make the connections it used to make.

The casualties from brain damage survivors often isn’t even from the injury itself, but rather the lack of neurological function. Maybe an occipital lobe that’s taking too long to heal has left them blind and unable to function. Maybe the frontal lobe that should be controlling their impulses isn’t able to stop them from attacking other ghouls or doves unprepared. Maybe Their motor skills haven’t improved enough for them to hunt. The major deciding factor in who lives and who dies is whether or not they have a community to take care of them while they heal

The one thing that can’t be healed from, no matter what, is damage to memory centers. Damage to the hippocampus or anywhere else storing long term memory is a bad loss. Even when fully regenerated and functioning again, the way memory shapes the brain is not genetic, so it will not be recovered. Maybe some memory remains, some stored in surviving parts or that was baked into impulse, but unfortunately this can’t be undone

What happened to kaneki was a good example of brain damage in a ghoul. A long period of altered behavior, motor control, and ability to function which would eventually return, as well as lost memory which would not. But as bad as the loss is, and as difficult as healing is, it’s amazing that they can heal at all

[lamarckianenterprises]

On Alledgely Intelligent Machines

All of this reminds me of like, two to three years ago when AI Dungeon 2 was this hot young thing and 'respectable' gaming news sites were posting opinion pieces about the wild unrestricted adventures they were having on it and how it would change the way they roleplayed forever, even though it was this bumbling, lawless thing that could barely find the plot to lose most of the time.

And then fast forward a year or so and we find out that the algorithm isn't magic, and that prompting it with 'the end' specifically outputs a 'thanks for reading, please donate to my patreon' message lifted from all of the thousands upon thousands of poor schumcks who had the misfortune of deciding to share their work online for other people to freely read.

All of this 'AI is progressing too rapidly and will one day very soon develop into real AGI that will change the world' malarkey is just jingling keys. I think it's called Longtermism, they want us to fret and fuss about how this will affect the lives of our great great great grandchildren commutting to Mars 200 years from now, and not about how this is affecting real people today.

"Think about how neat it would be to have an AI that can answer all of the questions left in the universe for us" Sam says, as his company hurriedly cuts ties with the underpaid Kenyan workers manually sorting and tagging the database his LLMs are based on.

"Look at how well it rhymes now, this will definitely distrupt the Poetry Industry which definitely is a thing that exists in real life I am a real scientist I know these things," his employees say, in a research paper hyping up their own product while they improve its ability to deepfake images that gradually erodes any trust we still have in our society.

All the while touting the most mediocre, average examples of just about any creative field as proof of its rapid, inevitable and perpetually explosive growth as if it was the figurative Antichrist heralding the coming of the Son of God and the Kingdom of Heaven.

I miss when we just let these things run rampant without a single care for consistent style and realism because we enjoyed witnessing what utter insanity it came up with, I miss when it was just a 'neat tool' that could maybe provide a freaky background or add trippy dogfaces to your clouds, I miss when we were wondering about what all of this weirdness said about what understanding language and having pattern recognition means when it's divorced entirely from reality instead of wondering how quickly we can refine and normalize its output well enough to mechanize all forms of artistry.

And above all else I miss not hearing about it, because honestly it still isn't that good. The slightly uncanny photos, mass art style plagiarism module and extremely resource intensive shorts are neat and all but, when it comes to prose, and DMing?

Well let's just say that AI Dungeon 2 crawled so that ChatGPT can sorta aimlessly waddle around in those babywalker things that seem neat and helpful, but are actually deathtraps that can cause long term health and developmental issues by actively preventing your child from spending the time they need to crawl around and develop the motoric skills and musculature needed to stand and fail repeatedly at walking. (Which is why they have been banned in Canada since 2004.)

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Maria D.R./Lamarck is an Indonesian writer whose boomer mother has talked about how great AI is to me and everyone in her social circle every damned day since ChatGPT was released.

[heepthecheep]

your tags on that post are making me insaaaaane. i have had similar experiences. people will not stop telling me i'm autistic (and occasionally adhd) to the point that even when i try to say what's actually wrong with me they tell me i'm wrong lol.

Literally!!

And I have tried to explain it to friends before, but it's so complicated and social media has only made it worse.

I wanted to add this to the tags but I didn't. I have Sensory Processing Disorder. When I was a child, this was a disorder that affected how you moved, your fine motor skills, your vision, your hearing, your sense of touch, etc. I was in physical and occupational therapy for years! And it had a huge impact on my life. I wasn't able to tie my shoes, ride a bike, and complete simple tasks like opening a bottle of shampoo. These therapies helped me overcome those struggles, but there are still issues. Because my brain can't reliably tell where my limbs are at any given moment, I'm clumsy. I still struggle to read across a straight line, trying to read something like a graph is damn near impossible in some cases depending on the font and stuff.

How do I explain to people that what I have was an entirely separate diagnosis from ASD back then. (Even if it was often a common co-diagnosis?) How do I explain that it's not the watered down version that many people are diagnosed with today? (Ie. This fabric makes me uncomfortable, or I can't think when the room gets too loud) and then how do I deal with the ridiculousness that are accusations of "internalized Abelism"???

And then my mental illness, I can't even talk about that one because it's been so demonized that people's initial reaction is disgust, lol

[blurryfce300]

long ass blurryface characterization post thing

okay so this isnt gonna be very organized uhhh yea very ramble-y and a bit headcanon-y too

blurry’s weird. let’s just get that out of the way, he’s such a strange entity. despite having years, maybe decades, to learn and understand how to operate a human body, he still acts like its a cømpletely new experience, and maybe it is. he walks strangely, almost robotically, like he isn’t used to having legs. he makes a lot of weird hand motions, shakes his limbs around too. he’ll mess with his/tyler’s voice to make sure you know its him. lately, he’s started to lean more into just not moving much. he stays still, maybe thats just because of the limited space up on that platform. but he makes it clear when he’s in control. he wants you to know he’s there.

he operates on fear and threats. he likes to threaten people, but never goes through with them. the typing in all caps ties into this, the caps letters and strange spacing is a conscious decision to appear more threatening. it wørked, but lost the effect over time i imagine as people got used to it, and in turn became less afraid of blurry, therefore making him weaker. of cøurse we still freak the fuck out whenever hes active but not scared. more excitement than fear.

what i find very interesting is the evidence there is that supports the idea that blurry is capable of physically manifesting himself SEPARATELY from tyler for what i imagine to be a very brief period øf time. there were multiple photos from his twitter account that displayed this, two with just tyler and one with both tyler and josh. this is especially interesting because this is not within dema or trench, this is in our world and our reality. he has this ability HERE. the limitations øf this ability are unknown, but i can imagine they aren’t that strong, otherwise he’d prøbably use it more and not just to take photos when nobody’s looking and write his name on an index card and leave it there for a minute. he cøuld also just be able to possess objects, like he seemingly døes with the beanie.

back to more personality stuff, blurry is very unpredictable. he canonically goes øn twitter rants and then rage-deletes them. he’s very angry all the time, he’s rarely calm and constantly wanting to be known, and to be feared. he wants peøple tø knøw whø he is and that he cares what yøu think. he’s insecure, which is fitting før the personification øf insecurities. if that’s true, then damn this entity has sø many issues. my god get this thing some therapy, although he wøuld prøbably be vehemently against it and argue nonstop until yøu just gave up.

he’s also absølutely a complete and total løser. like the møst cringefail pathetic løser ever. wettest cat youve ever seen. like hes all edgy and shit and for what? its all a mask. he hides behind anger sø peøple will be scared øf him and not try to delve deeper intø what makes blurry blurryface (clearly it didnt wørk cause this fucker controls my every thought). hes also just an absolute moron sometimes. like he cant drive (see hds mv), writes the ø backwards, i bet this løser tries so hard to write well then just passes out because its so much energy to do that, and like he has god awful hand-eye coordination and fine motor skills.

i mean cmon blurry, buddy, this isn’t legible in the slightest. this is literally scribbles. i know you can do better.

tldr; blurry is extremely aggressive, erratic, unpredictable, and an absolute loser who cant write and doesnt know how gravity works (see fairly local mv)

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okay now for just pure personal headcanons because its my post i can do what i want

blurry is extremely competitive and stubborn, like to the point where he will stand by sømething even if it ends up hurting him. like he sees the phrase “i will die on this hill” and takes it literally.

he’s terrible at following directions and gets lost easily, like blurrys the type of entity to get lost in a straight hallway.

blurry is scared to death of the clique and of being known, but feels an innate need/desire TO be known. he’s just really scared of people. he also just doesn’t like people.

hes a weak little bitch physically speaking.

blurry has issues with object permanence

he’s not entirely evil he just acts like it to keep peøple away and to keep up the whole “ooooo im big and scary” facade

blurry gets really frustrated if he can’t do sømething right the first time and instead øf asking før help he is far møre likely tø either get angry abøut it ør give up ør both

i keep løøking through discord messages to find stuff and half of it is just “blurry’s kinda stupid and døesn’t understand how a lot of things work” and yknow what yeah

[vanillaxoshi]

With the amount of brain damage issues that cahaya has as a result to him.. well almost dying

Has there ever been a situation where cahaya is just struggling concentrating or memorizing when on a mission?

Is that why tanah is so againts cahaya being on missions?

Picture sad scene:

It has been a few days after successful mission, one of which he got to be involved in even! Although there was some setbacks because of his lack of focus; he is still embarrassed that he almost fell into a ditch just because he was curious on a new species of alien butterfly.

They're now in tapops cafeteria eating together to get ready for another mission. He's excited for this mission specifically because of how little info of its habitats and wildlife in general. Its one of the missions hes been looking foward to.

Though apparently his body is in one of those moods now, his fingers are shaking and it takes a bit more focus just to grab a stupid FORK of all things. His motor skills are not great today

'No.. not now... not today of all days." Cahaya thought hoping no one is noticing his struggle.

Unfortunately, since luck was never on his side (it never is) someone was noticing. It was his quietest brother. Ais.

Ais asked if he was ok, and OBVIOUSLY he was. This is.. this is just a minor setback, he does not need help to grab a fork so stop offering Ais

But it seems his own body is againts him, he is stuggling on gripping this dang fork (he succeeded in grabbing it tho so score!). He is using all his energy and concentration on just puting this sliced meat in his mouth

But he can't even do that. Due to his tremors he lost his grip and fork falls

A loud clang echos around the table

...

..

.

Its silent

Everyone is staring, he doesn't even need to look up.. he just.. he just knows it

He stares at his shaking hands (he didn't expect to experience tremors and motor control issues today)

But just to make sure, he looks up with just that little bit of hope in his eyes, his eyes shine with plead as he saw petir and tanah. They lock eyes.

Hope shriveled in his soul, he feels his heart crack a bit. He looks down; vision already blurring

It seems he won't be exploring that planet after all.

When the mission happens, the brothers felt like theres something missing. Someone isn't monitoring them.

Cahaya never get to see what was in that planet.

I essentially wanted to make a little animated version of this but never got to, and now this is just rested in my inbox, best if i just answer it

Poor Cahaya, the brothers decision is understandable but Damn, guess even when he was left behind he didnt monitor them, either the tremors became worse/other problems arose or he certainly didnt feel like monitoring at all

Also, of course he'd have moments where he's struggling essentially

[jaymonoto]

JayMonoto Touhou Adventure III: Phantasmagoria of Succ. Run

Check under the readmore for my long writeup about my thoughts.

Succ is short for Successful, by the way.

It took a long time. A lot longer time than it took for Touhou 4. I ended up having to cut my pride and boost the lives up to 6, just so I could keep making progress and getting better at the later fights. I'm not too upset, in the end, though, since as you can see in the video, I still had four lives left over by the end... which means I never needed to turn the life counter up at all.

I spoke about this before, but for the sake of anyone I refer to this post who doesn't know, I will speak about it again.

I hesitate to call myself handicapped openly, but I'm not exactly all there in terms of my physical abilities. Ever since childhood I've suffered from serious dexterity and motor skill issues, on top of my several other disabilitiesーmy reaction time in particular is particularly terrible. I was in special ed in elementary school specifically for my motor skills--to no avail, ultimately. Fighting through this game was hard. Yuki and Mai walled me out more consistently than Yumeko and Shinki. Dealing with the RNG of both of them, at once? Fuck, dude. The amount of ways bad RNG fucked over so many of my runs was just... horrible. It felt like I was never going to complete this game. But even so, I held fast and kept trying. No matter how many times I lost runs to complete failures of execution, no matter how many times I died painfully avoidable deaths, no matter how many bombs were wasted (A LOT OF THEM), I did it.

I did this to prove to myself that I can be good at something--something I was not inherently skilled at. I did this to prove that if I put in the effort, I can get better. And nobody, not even my own damn self, can take that away from me.

My goal was to complete the PC98 touhou games before the end of the year. It is currently Friday, December 29th, 2023, and I have done it.

I will be starting Touhou 6 in January. I haven't set any goals in particular, but it would be nice to complete at least two of the Windows Eras in next year.... Though, a year is a long time. I might be able to do them all. We'll see.

[retrocausalities]

wanted connections...

feat. just some guy, the artistic director, the super loser, the silent snarker. more tba!

𝓏𝒶𝓃𝓃 𝓆. 𝓅𝓊𝒷𝓁𝒾𝒸.

general relativity. [5/?]

zann's power inadvertently affects your muse's power when they are out and about. based on the distance to his power's area of effect, there are distortions and even "deactivation" of powers (aka disintegration of the matter/energy), which baffle your muse. your muse is investigating the cause of this issue, and how they react is utp.

— filled by @fatalled ( loveshot , roulette ), @loftycries ( savant ), @iridescences ( granite ), @mincedoaths ( havoc ), @fiiregaze ( hades ). / unlimited spots open.

active galactic nuclei. [0/?]

unlike zann himself, your muse knows he has a power, and a damn useful one for your muse's own goals. zann's currently in-between jobs, and as long as the gig isn't too dirty and/or dramatic, he could be easily persuaded to lend a helping hand in exchange for cash.

— looking for connections! / unlimited spots open.

cygnus x-1. [1/1]

during his nde, zann had a violent quarrel with a squatter at his old apartment building. unfortunately, during that conflict, zann's power activated in self-defense, and the guy was never seen again. your muse has a relationship with the missing man (platonic, romantic, familial, etc., but must be friendly) and wants to know the answers behind his disappearance.

— filled by @viillaincoded ( hive )! / closed.

accreditation disk. [3/?]

zann stays away from the complexities of organized crime, but he's not exactly squeaky clean himself. in alleyways, street corners, and on dance floors, he deals weed and party pills for whoever's buying. he's very discreet and doesn't discriminate on who buys his wares. perfect if your muse has a reputation to uphold or doesn't want to be psychoanalyzed by their dealer.

— filled by @godenvy ( jester ), @ofpantheons ( glitch ), @forunholy ( zeus ) / unlimited spots open.

𝓇𝑒𝓎𝒽𝒶𝓃 𝓂𝒶𝓍𝒾𝓂𝒾𝓁𝒾𝒶𝓃𝑜 𝒸𝒾𝓈𝓃𝑒𝓇𝑜𝓈.

the manias. [3/5]

[tw: stalking, obsessive behavior, mention of bodily harm, injury.]

reyhan is unconcerned with petty criminality. they are wealthy, successful, and have everything they need. but what they don't have, they want. and they crave the attention of their top 5 cerberus agents with whom they have an obsessive fixation. these agents have hurt reyhan irreparably and left a mark on their body. in turn, reyhan has left their mark as well, controlling important body parts of these agents as a result of their encounters. because the body and movement are what reyhan is interested in, they do not find interest in agents with powers that aren't activated or involve motor skills. reyhan will stop at nothing to fully control these individuals' bodies as an homage to the control these agents have on their psyche. fluctuating from friend to foe, reyhan will follow the agents to the bitter end, fixated on the movement of their bodies and how their powers will manifest as directed by puppeteer's manipulations.

1. the head. the one who started reyhan's obsession with select members of cerberus corp. the first agent to encounter reyhan during their torture spree and injured reyhan across the face. the agent left an unsightly gash, leading to reyhan's distinct scar across their cheeks and nose. by breaking reyhan free from the self-shackles of beautiful perfection, the agent kickstarted reyhan's newfound artistic principle and mania with the beauty of imperfection. reyhan carries this agent's merchandise (trading card being their favorite), follows them on social media, and will try to show up wherever the agent is, such as in fan meetings. they will even shadow when the agent is on duty. they claim to love the agent, and will express that by controlling this agent's limbs in somewhat romantic overtures. the agent is reyhan's #1 bias, and reyhan swears to make the agent fully theirs, one way or another. ( whirlpool. aka "honey/cariño." )

2. the heart. the one who reyhan burned emotionally, and they took their revenge on reyhan, the civilian... but, unfortunately, their vindictive actions do not align with cerb corp's policy. reyhan holds that incident over the agent for blackmailing, more than happy to bring up the agent's less-than-heroic past to the corporation. the thing is, reyhan says they are fond of the agent and could be convinced to drop it if the agent will give them full bodily control. but this agent knows that reyhan's favorite is the head, if not reyhan themself. so could it be a lie? whether or not this agent still has affection for reyhan is utp. this agent is the only one at this time in cerb corp who knows of puppeteer's real identity, but due to reyhan's social capital and cover as puppeteer, the agent finds it hard to prove that reyhan is the anti-hero.

3. the hand. the one who has the misfortune of being constantly at odds with puppeteer. it does not help that the agent's powers are disadvantageous against the anti-hero, and in conclusion, most of their limbs are controlled by reyhan. reyhan uses it to their advantage, finding ways to keep an eye on the agent and control their limbs to cause chaos at random. the agent, however, has one perk the other obsessions do not. by being "tied-up" and forced to listen to reyhan's wild, meandering monologues, they have slowly pieced together what makes puppeteer tick and could figure out how to manipulate the manipulator.

4. the hips. the one who actually doesn't mind puppeteer. the agent pretends they dislike the anti-hero, and reyhan also acts as if they loathe the agent, when they both know they wouldn't truly hurt the other. also, puppeteer has helped this agent out in their encounters if an interloper intrudes on their private time. both are more than fine in letting the other go after playing their strange little charade. what's that saying again? it takes two to tango? this agent is courted by reyhan at lengths to leave cerberus and join them independently in hunting down the other obsessions. reyhan has promised if they do that, they would release control of all of the agent's limbs... and isn't it more fun to be two against the world? ( ashina. aka "goddess/diosa." )

5. the heel. the one who is reyhan's worst nightmare. this agent's ability is advantageous against reyhan's own, and reyhan loathes it. this agent is the first to have countered puppeteer's power, shocking reyhan to their core. even under reyhan's control, the agent fought against it long enough to leave a bite mark on reyhan's right hand, almost severing the joint of their thumb had reyhan not forced the agent's jaw to open in time. after the humbling (for half a second, reyhan does not do humble) defeat, they have deemed this agent their nemesis. the agent is reyhan's most destructive target; instead of coyly playing with them as per the other obsessions, reyhan is violently dead-set on utterly dominating and owning this agent's body to celebrate their conquest. ( phoenix. aka "kitten/gatito." )

[/end tw.]

— filled by @godenvy ( whirlpool ), @mincedoaths ( phoenix), @trajedyas ( ashina ). / 2 spots open for cerberus agents. ( the injuries/limb control will be discussed via plotting! )

the vigors. [1/6]

while famous for their craft, reyhan has also become a bit of a celebutante, synonymous with the coolest artsy scene of new york city. however, they're not alone. other young, fashionable, and trendy celebrities who are up-and-coming for their lavish parties, glitzy lifestyle, and luxe aura are now dubbed the new club kids after being seen together hanging out in popular nightspots. these muses are not part of reyhan's regular social circle and not part of their entourage, however, these muses all endeavor as a group to host the best parties nyc's nightlife has ever seen. their feelings towards one another are utp, but reyhan will position themselves in leadership roles when the new club kids get together to host events.

— filled by @iridescences ( lucidity ). / 5 spots open for muses with (in)famous professions related to arts, fashion, & celebrity culture.

the tremors. [1/6]

a soloist in a dance company must be surrounded by the corps to stand out, do they not? these muses are reyhan's """friends,""" but the people around them can see them for what they are. reyhan's entourage, those who are savvy in knowing reyhan's a great connection for climbing up that social ladder, especially in reputation-obsessed new york city. however, goals can blur when ""friendships"" become a toxic game of chicken and keeping up appearances becomes more and more of a mind game. how members of this group feel about each other is utp, but all of them defer to the "queen bee," reyhan (for now).competition, cattiness, gaslighting, gatekeeping, manipulating, straight-up lying, nothing is off-limits if it means crawling up to the top. reyhan isn't immune either, even if they have fashioned themselves as the head of their crew. betrayal can only come from your ""friends,"" after all.

— filled by @herbrokenmelodies ( songstress ). / 5 spots open for muses aged 30-35 looking to break into celebrity status.

the humors. [2/4]

reyhan has always seen themselves as the top billing, and somehow, they've managed to make actual friends in the process. yes, hold the presses; this isn't fake news. whether it's someone in the know of the ~celebrity experience~, or a passion for artistic enterprise, reyhan sees themselves reflected in your muse, making reyhan stick around. surprisingly, your muse has, too. however, reyhan is unabashedly selfish. even if there's a real connection, it doesn't always mean the bonds can't become severed...but maybe some bonds can be forged stronger.oh wait no it's reyhan lmao your muse has to have the patience of a saint

— filled by @loftycries ( savant ), @vrusk ( bespoke ) / 4 spots open for muses who are celebrities, (in)famous artists/performers, and/or stinkin' rich, or are real good pretenders.

𝓀𝑒𝑒𝑔𝒶𝓃 𝓀𝒾-𝓉𝒶𝑒𝓀 𝒿𝑒𝑜𝓃𝑔.

division by zero. [2/?]

aka the loser's club. after being looked down on by their fellow higher-level agents and the public, these level 3 cerberus agents have come together to create a "support" group (honestly, it's more like a hangout group) to encourage each other. their collective goals are to rise in the company's ranks, look out for one another, and celebrate the lesser-known heroics of everyday life.they also hang out at least once every two weeks for movie nights, karaoke, and general fun. keegan is the "unofficial" organizer, but there is no leader within the group.

— filled by @justfreefalling ( amontons ), @firefightertj ( thor ). / unlimited spots open for level 3 cerberus agents with a low reputation in the company or who have a power considered "useless" to the public.

batello. [1/1]

the single level 1 agent who keegan has sworn to change their mind. although he normally doesn't let others' perception of him affect his mood, this level 1 agent is the outlier. he wants to prove himself to this individual and show that he is their equal. the level 1 agent thinks keegan is a travesty and has their own reasons as to why they do not wish keegan to rank up within the company.

— filled by @donewithflare ( flare )! / closed.

euclidean division. [0/1]

a level 1 or level 2 agent who personally saved keegan's life during one of his first missions back in 2018. keegan may or may not be crushing on them. (he's so crushing on them.) he is unable to speak in their presence and often becomes a klutz around this agent. it is utp if the agent is aware of keegan's crush, and if they're flattered, amused, disgusted, etc.! keegan will not hit on or make a move on the agent, as his shyness overtakes him in their interactions. this crush hinges on keegan putting the agent on a pedestal and may evolve into a different dynamic once both parties get to know each other personally.

— looking for connections! / 1 spot open for level 1-2 cerberus agents aged 36-43, employed in cerberus corp before 2018. no longer looking! thank you!

dimidiation. [1/1]

a primary mission partner of keegan's. their powers mesh well, and they have high success rates when teamed up. off the field, they also get along and spend lots of time together, spurring rumors that they're a couple. funnily enough, both keegan and this agent like each other but are completely oblivious that their feelings are mutual. will they, won't they? all of cerb corp is watching and placing their bets.

— filled by @mincedoaths ( phoenix )! / closed.

fraction. [1/1]

[cw: addiction]

while keegan's power is helpful to agents to mitigate painful side effects, an eo may develop a reliance on splitter's pain suppression/transferal powers to deal with the burden of their ability's drawbacks. as a nurse practitioner, keegan feels obliged to help those who are hurting, but he feels conflicted that he might be enabling an unhealthy dependence for this person.

— filled by @vrusk ( bespoke )! / closed.

[/end cw.]

— looking for connections! / 1 spot open.

dividends. [2/?]

agent splitter is not a name on the lips of the level 1 cerberus agents, or even remembered by many. in fact, if reminded about the level 3 guy on rollerblades with a helmet and big shades, most level 1s would call keegan a clown, a fool. a parody, not a real hero. these muses may have teamed up with splitter in the past, but one thing's for sure: there's no respect before, during, and after. and why would there be for a guy who literally can't hurt anyone by himself?

— filled by @fatalled ( loveshot ) , @donewithflare ( flare ). / unlimited spots open.

𝒶𝓂𝓅𝒶𝓇𝑜 "𝒶𝓎𝓁𝒾𝓃" 𝒸𝒶𝓇𝒹𝑜𝓃𝒶.

👋 [0/?]

ampi has been a vigilante since arriving in the big apple at 20, making friends who share her vision of using powers for good. however, throughout the years, there may have been falling outs. this muse used to work together with amparo but left her vigilante coalition due to differing opinions on justice. whether or not there is bad blood is utp.

— looking for connections! / unlimited spots open.

🫵 [1/3]

amparo has her sights set on these troublemakers who cause pain and chaos to the community. she'll do what she can to defeat them and bring them to justice. one could call these muses her "arch-nemeses."

— filled by @trajedyas ( daydream ) / 2 spots open for anti-heroes, villains, or any muse who has villainous aspirations.

🤝 [2/5]

amparo's current vigilante team centered on taking down megacorps that capitalize on eo's, such as cerberus, and now, andersen labs. they patrol their neighborhoods separately, but are aligned in their mission to expose the truth behind the "superhero industry." they protect civilians and must keep their identities a secret.

— filled by @mincedoaths ( dead ringer ), @somehazydaze ( haze ). / 3 spots open for vigilantes.

note: always open for general platonic, romantic interests, antagonistic connections unlisted in this post! please contact me via dm on discord. ✌️

last updated: 2023/12/04.

[canonickero]

I'd like to add my own part to this; I have mobility issues every now and then. I walk funny. I breathe wrong. I get random, terrible pain that lasts whole days. My hands shake no matter the circumstances. I drop my pencils because sometimes my fingers can no longer curl. Sometimes I tense up and my muscles hurt, or I feel like I'm going to end up on the floor.

But do I use AI to do my artwork? No. I still draw. Standing with whiteboards, sitting with chalk on the pavement. I hunch over and draw in my notebook like the rest of us. I sit on the floor with my canvas on the table and I paint. My twitching hands work well enough on a touchscreen - my phone or my computer. I can hold a stylus well enough.

If I can exist, I can create art. Do I almost pass out when I stand up too quick to show my mother my latest drawing? Yes. But that doesn't stop me from making my OWN, CREATIVE, NOT STOLEN ARTWORK.

AI "art" is a detriment to society. It steals from actual artists and spits out slop.

I still write. I still create art. Drawing on a track pad is hard enough, but my issues can make it worse. Does that mean I give up and run to an AI that steals the hard work of real artists?

No. There's no life, no creativity, no expression in AI "art." Telling an AI to draw my favorite character doesn't do the same thing to my brain as drawing them in my notebook or on my phone. Sometimes I have no motivation to move, but I can turn myself over in my bed to draw something, because it's what makes me happy. It's what gets me out of bed when my notebook and pencil are on my dresser across the room. It helps me work on my motor skills, too. AI "art" does nothing but hurt. Maybe I'm not as disabled as the people listed above. But damn, is it hard. And we're all doing our best. AI "artists" are doing nothing but their worst.

"ai is making it so everyone can make art" Everyone can make art dipshit it came free with your fucking humanity

[the-firebird69]

Trump’s hush money trial was set to begin Monday. Here’s what’s happening instead | CNN Politics

If he postpones us our son and daughter say there are higher odds that the actual location of Stormy Daniels will be named if he goes right in there the question who she is the lady and say it doesn't match so where is she and it will begin as serious of events at the time that they cannot expose but in a few weeks or a month or two they can mix they can probably reach that point so the guys making big mistakes possibly we know it's a huge error it's gigantic and it's going to go down this world's biggest mistake if he doesn't gain power back he's doomed it doesn't look like it's going to later in the game he's going to Titan and honestly he's not coming off and he's not the only character out there and his character is rather one-dimensional you know son says it too the guy from Avatar is not him and he dies in the second movie not the first one and people are terrible he dies and they let him rot in the machine this is up on Titan and that's what happens a lot there just think of this guy saying that he's everyone and they're tired of saying it too

Thor Freya

Olympus we do check to make sure they're not getting away and similar

Terrific that's much better when a nightmare the guys are just not talking about it but he just keeps talking and talking and really it's not a great skill of your , you're more locks and suck at it. I have to tell you something you're very annoying all damn day long you're not the Max and stuff what you doing is supporting them

Hera

You do have news that the factories are up and running we were at 870%. This afternoon or early evening now it's at 910%, we're almost at the first watermark and we want to keep rising a lot of his ideas are coming to fruition he put it out there that these guys are doing some sort of new bike and it's to try and get sales and the bike would be fast but with two small engines and it would be economical it would be light and with a new frame a stitch frame possibly it would be very easy to build and possibly good for RTA the only thing that's big is the engine but it's really quite compact you can ship it in a box 3 ft by 4 ft usually they're way bigger and hard to handle the sun could lift the whole thing out right now weighs less than 200 lb it's carried into the house and put it together and wheel it inside now and it's gas though and it would smell you have to get some sort of shack out back and yeah you put it there and the guys will try and get beat up right now they do it all the time everyday and get beat up your boy nothing would be great. We do have a frame it's a recycled motors frame I'm going to try putting those in there and he called and asked himself to do it with her and put it in the recycled motors frame it's the right type of frame and he put it on some other doodads and it says it's got a lot of horsepower and it's a 250 engine it's made from a famous manufacturer it is Chinese but they do ship stuff and he's got about 55 horsepower and 65 foot pounds of torque roughly and he's played with the gears and he lined the motors up it's not too hard and you got it going and he says it's one of the simple things he's ever done. By the time he has to be pretty good but still if one more relaxing and picks it up a little it's a weird power band but it's very powerful and steady the way the bike rides is a little lower than sport bikes and it looks real cool I like the Chinese very small bike that he thought it was bigger and they tried to make it and they couldn't do it now they did it's over there now this frame can be special he put it in hours anything she can make that one to a stitch frame and the RTA and it'll be really inexpensive probably about $1,700 and it would be very powerful and if you get about 60 miles to the gallon in the city in about 80 and it's liquid cold and 0 to 60 in like 2 seconds quarter mile and a 4.1 seconds top speed about 270 and you can go off road on road up hills toe stuff and you can do a touring or cross country it will 800 miles before you have to cool it off any associate he's testing it she was very happy to help make it and they want to make the frame together and he has his notes and he's going to try and do it he remembers the arguments and boy and if we can't get it going we'll drive around until we get it going and he says that he will go out and drag race people and she will probably win and they play for titles and nobody will beat him within reason well super bikes won't and he's saying okay I won your bike but I want you to race them for cash cuz I need cash if you win you get the bike and I need the 50 Grand and he'll snow away how much does a bike cost you to make and you say like 20,000 so he goes that's a deal and someone saying it right now and it's it's fully legal you have the title and it's actually a custom from the DMV so you get the 50 Grand and you're like Las Vegas or something and you take the van out so you take a plane and so the guy would say that's pretty cool right there and they'd have to buy it and that is the way to do it and he wants to do it and he wants to do it in Vegas and we know what it is and as if you can't and we usually can't

Thor Freya

Olympus

[niconiconwo]

If you were leading the legions of the damned what flavor would they be? Undead pirates? Flaming skeleton knights? Zombie horde?

Skeletons are out because I can't find qt women to fall in love with in the heat of battle. The reanimated might be fine but I feel there may be some issues with fine motor skills which limits their utility. This is a tough one.

Probably undead or reanimated. Maybe some mix of ghostly types? Idk, it's tough finding good labor in the legions of the damned.

[anonym-potato]

The Entire Main Cast of Stranger Things are Autistic have some headcanons

El:

• Echolalia Echolalia Echolalia. Also a lot of verbal stimming in general.

• On the other hand, she tends to go nonverbal when she’s really stressed.

• Eggos taste the same all the time and that taste is pure deliciousness, most foods are either gross or change how they taste every time, therefore Eggos are the best food ever.

• Never makes the ‘right’ amount of eye contact - she either stares into your soul or can’t look at your face.

• Fluorescent lights are bad, both because of Hawkins Lab trauma (they used nothing but fluorescents) but also because they’re so damn loud.

• Shopping with Max was nice because a lot of clothes give her sensory problems and Max Got It so they found stuff that was pretty and comfy pretty easy.

• Plays white noise in the background a lot even if she’s not going into the void because it gives her ears something to do without being too loud so she can focus.

Mike:

• No, I don’t think it’s weird I dip my chicken nuggets in ice cream, why would it be? It tastes good.

• Routine good. Random interruptions bad. This has been a Mike Wheeler PSA.

• Constantly reads and re-reads his D&D books to fuel the special interest train.

• Always wore the same eight striped shirts and nothing else for like three years. Yes Mom I know I have more shirts these are just the GOOD ONES-

• What is sarcasm and how do you notice it. Hell if he knows.

• He also goes nonverbal when things are A Lot, he and El bonded over it.

• handflaphandflaphandflap

Will:

• I don’t care if my haircut is dumb looking Mike I’ve always had it it’s my haircut why would I change it-

• Special Interest in art, infodumps over family dinner, every desk he’s ever sat at has been covered in pencil doodles.

• Related to that, paint has a Good Texture, nice and squishy, finger painted all the time when he was a kid.

• Lonnie was predictably asshole-ish about it, Will doesn’t have a lot of obvious stims because he got used to hiding them, and it took him ages to feel comfortable stimming around the party even when the rest of them were.

• Has So Many Feelings about Everything and doesn’t know how to process them.

• Used to really like cold temperatures because sweat makes his skin sticky and gross. Not so much anymore, for obvious reasons.

• Doesn’t eat school lunches even when they don’t have food in the house for him to bring to school because it’s like playing roulette with his mouth.

Dustin:

• He can tell you what radio station played three Cindy Lauper songs in a row last week, the technical name for every part of an elephant’s body, and how to fix a completely smashed walkie talkie with duct tape and a prayer. He cannot tell you what he had for breakfast today.

• Lets Mews/Tews lay on his chest and purr, the fur and rumbles are a nice sensation.

• Waves his arms around whenever he talks because the point will be clearer if he gesticulates.

• Is the best of the original 4 party members at masking, which is why they declared him the Bard. He keeps trying to push it for way too long and getting exhausted, they’re working on it.

• Guess who hyperfixates on a different special interest every three months and has no control over it YOU DO YOU DO.

• Hyperfocus as well, sometimes doesn’t sleep because he just…forgets. He was busy re-reading The Hobbit for the seventeen billionth time, okay?

• The purring is a stim, do not question it.

Lucas:

• Subtlety is overrated, being as direct as possible is way more efficient.

• Doesn’t have as many issues as some of the others with lights and sound but he’s super sensitive to smells, he has to stand upwind from Steve at all times because his cologne is gross.

• Great gross motor skills, horrible fine motor skills. He‘s got amazing aim with the Wrist Rocket, but his handwriting looks like Norse runes and Jackson Polluck paintings had a baby.

• He doesn’t always realize when he’s done a Social Whoops and his attempts to fix it have a 50% chance of making things worse (see: him and Max with the canteen in 3x01).

• Please don’t touch my stuff Erica I have a dedicated mental map of where it all is and if you move it I will not find it for a week WHAT ARE YOU DOING-

• Also forgets to sleep, he and Dustin pass the time having long conversations over walkie talkie about really boring stuff in the hopes it’ll get one of them to pass out.

• Has three facial expressions: Excited/Happy, Upset, and Scared. If he wants to make any more he’s gotta try.

Max:

• Skateboards back and forth on the sidewalk outside for hours at a time because pacing helps her think.

• Real sensitive to sudden/unexpected touch, she likes it alright but you have to give her a two minute notice first.

• Possibly comorbid with ADHD, but I don’t know enough about ADHD to elaborate.

• California was not exactly a paradise, but people at school were less mean about her stimming, Indiana takes some getting used to.

• Meltdowns more than shutdowns, which drives her parents up the wall (why can’t you be a good polite quiet girl Maxine) but the party’s understanding and gives her space when she needs to discharge.

• The color green bothers her and she could not tell you why, it just does.

• Constant pen clicking. Constant.

To be continued because this is getting long

Update: Part 2 Here and Part 3 Here

[jaymonoto]

JayMonoto Touhou Adventure II: Story of Random Numberland

I'll go ahead and put this under a readmore. For those of you who don't care to hear me discuss why being JayMonoto is suffering.

TLDR: I have Yumeko down, Shinki I still need to practice, but now most of my runs are decided by how lucky or unlucky (usually the latter) i get against Yuki and Mai.

Hoo boy god damn what the fuck. It's been ten thousand years.

I'm sitting here typing this at 5:42 AM after having slammed myself against my practice save states for about an hour and a half now, and I feel I can confidently say that I have Yumeko down. My biggest issue with Touhou 5 really and truly seems to be Yuki and Mai. My strategy going into them is always to KO Yuki first, as Mai is just generally way fuckin' easier, and I can actually complete her final attack, unlike Yuki. This has been working out, but even with this, I feel it's important to document my experiences.

I want to first preface this by talking a bit about something I wanted to talk about later, once I had actually completed TH5. I'm... not exactly all there, physically. It's not quite right to call me handicapped, but in terms of physical dexterity, motor skills, hand eye coordination, I have always been... especially lacking. To put it in a word, I was in special ed as a kid just to improve my motor skills, ultimately to no avail. I had to turn in typed papers in high school, because my handwriting is so poor. I can't catch, I can't throw, and my reaction time is atrocious.

This is all to say that doing this--playing these games, has been a struggle. Numerous times I have gotten into a boss, known exactly what to do, and when attempting to carry it out, completely fail on the execution because my hands just can't seem to do what I want them to. The learning process for bosses for me is painfully slow because several deaths happen because of complete failure of execution, and not even because of mistakes. And lord knows, even when I *do* make a mistake, when I get cornered, when I panic, my reaction time is so poor that when I try to bomb, I often times just don't. It's rough. But even so, I'm fuckin' doing it. I'm making it happen. I am doing this to prove to myself that I am capable of getting better, and that even if it takes one thousand times the effort for me to reach basic competence than someone else, that means it is still possible.

So what does this have to do with Yuki and Mai?

Call it johns, call me the 'glass bones and paper skin' guy all you want, but man, I'm just not lucky enough for this. I'm an extremely unlucky guy. It seems like everything that can possibly go wrong with them does. The past hour and a half I spent on practicing Yuki and Mai, and then Yumeko, only 15 minutes was spent on Yumeko before I had her down with 1b0m. The entire rest of the time was just throwing myself at Yuki and Mai, trying desperately to get a run where something didn't go Terribly Wrong. And yeah, most of the time it's something you can bomb out of, right? But now I'm sure you're starting to see where I'm coming from. That reaction time, that hand-eye coordination, combined with my still amateur STG skills, suddenly a lot of those Bad-RNG-enhanced Bros. Moves become a lot less feasible to deal with, or even to bomb.

I setup my PC98 emulator to have save states specifically so I could practice Yumeko and Shinki--because it feels like Yuki and Mai are such an aggressively huge spike for me that I can barely actually reach Yumeko or Shinki sometimes, much less have the chance to learn and improve at them.

At the point I'm at now, I feel relatively confident in my ability to clear the game soon. My goal was to complete the PC98 games by the end of this year, and I have three days left. I don't know if I can do it, but you're not about to see me give up.

[menasors]

Text Version:

Motormaster:

Who gives a damn. King of the road.

Terrible anger issues, potential autism and/or ADHD, refusal to learn things unrelated to battle.

Likes: ME

Driving, roads? Come on, kid.

Relationships:

Menasor - I don't know

Breakdown - paranoid dumbaft

Dead End - left blank

Drag Strip - won't listen

Wildrider - too nousy

Data inaccurate. Clear care for brothers.

Dead End:

COME BACK ASAP. YOU NEED THE PHOTO TO COMPLETE THIS.

I'm still not seeing the point of this.

Autism, depression, suspected anxiety.

Likes: I enjoy reading as a pastime, and occasionally find myself enjoying the odd musical theatre play.

Relationships:

Menasor - sweet, though loud.

Motormaster - Can be a bit much, though he's been kind to us as of late.

Breakdown - Quite quiet compared to the others. I occasionally offer him help, though it does not always work as intended.

Drag Strip - I'd prefer we not share a bond, but here we are.

Wildrider - As said with Menasor; Sweet, but quite loud.

Breakdown:

A bunch of scribbles in blue pen covered with sticky notes.

Autism, psychosis - thinks he's under constant judgement, skilled technician, intense paranoia. *Collected by peers.

Likes: Computer hardware, art - namely drawing and painting, preparing for the worst. *Collected by peers.

Inconsistent data collected for relationships.

Drag Strip:

Coolest Stunticon, Coolest Decepticon.

NPD or something similar, potential ADHD, anger issues when he doesn't get his way.

Likes: me, winning, racing (winning), games (winning)

Relationships:

Menasor - cool right arm. He gives me answers in our games (don't tell the others)

Motors - asshole always tellin us what to do

Dead End - Booooring...

Breakdown: he needs to chill out cuz he keeps putting his anxiety on me in the bond!

Wildrider - best racing buddy! Best duo since Rumble n Not Rumble.

Be nice to your brothers.

Wildrider:

:)

Schizophrenia, ADHD (needs constant noise for both), either fine motor skill issues or boredom with doing as he's told.

Likes: drawing, brothers, frogs, demolition derbys.

Relationships:

Menasor - Very fun!! Love you Menasor. Sweet.

Motors - very angry but nice to us sometimes

Dead End - don't see him much but nice

Drag Strip - fun to play games with :)

Breakdown - understands me :)

Menasor:

Considered to be youngest brother, ADHD, Autism(?), anger issues, highly sensitive.

Likes: doodling, building & destroying things, his brothers, watching cars, unsurprisingly.

Relationships:

Breakdown - protecive over him

Motors - closest by bond, looks up to him

Dead End - says he's too boring

Drag Strip & Wildrider - the "funnest" brothers to him

Hook made them do those elementary school “Get to Know Me” pages that double as a medical record. Did not go to plan.

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To all the [redacted] going on about bike helmets not being necessary on safer roads:

When I was 12 I was pretty skilled on a bike. Could ride moguls, speed around on gravel tracks without issue, pull wheelies. All sorts.

I fell off my bike riding down a hill on a quiet country road and hit my head on a rock. Road rash all up my left side, but my head was fine because I was wearing a fucking helmet.

I get the kneejerk reaction to people saying a cultural norm is perhaps not the smartest position, I do. But you know what? Maybe it's time for them to shut up and listen.

Bike helmets help prevent injury from accidents, regardless of if that accident is caused by motorized vehicles. You are not immune from losing your balance and falling off your bike, no matter how skilled you are. Choosing to wear a helmet means you're less likely to end up in hospital, and at a time when hospitals are under strain due to the pandemic, it's a great time to start actually listening and change the culture around helmet use.

(Also please to anyone who's had a knock replace your damn helmet!)

Yeah!!!

And like, if it was just kind of like "oh well we don't wear helmets here", honestly, whatever. I don't care. I haven't biked in years but I didn't wear a helmet then and I probably won't if I started again, I make that choice for myself knowing it's a risk.

But man some of them decided to go past "we don't do that here" to "we don't need to do that here" and "Well helmets don't really help/hurt more than they help, actually" and "well actually, if the US had better infrastructure you wouldn't need to wear helmets" and other such ice-cold takes, and THAT SHIT? That shit is no good and I'm not down with that.

Because like... if those shitty-ass takes go uncontested, there's the (unlikely but possible) chance that some teenager who doesn't really know much about the situation sees it, goes "oh okay that's good to know!" and just unthinkingly folds it into their worldview, which puts THEM at risk. And puts anyone they convince at risk.

Choose to risk your head for whatever reason you want. I do. But don't fucking say that risk isn't real, ffs.

(and yes, if you've gotten a knock or if you've had your helmet for more than 5 years, and you're taking the proper safety precautions that you really should, replace that helmet ASAP!)