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Okay, so, ask game: 4, 6, 15, 21, 22, 28, 30, 45, 55, 56, 61, 62, 69, 88.
yippee!! (beware of the many not knowing how to answer lol)
4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?
They usually described me as quiet but usually a good student
6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?
I mean, if I had to choose one, probably grunge
15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?
The Giver. I don't know why but I just enjoyed this book so much and was so happy when I was reorganizing my bookshelf and found out i had it in the stack of books handed down from my mom's boss' kids to me.
21. obsession from childhood?
considering I am still a minor, I'm just gonna choose from elementary school
i think the biggest is definitely cats
i somehow keep finding more cat related things in the depths of my room
22. role model?
i.. dont know?
this question has always been so hard to answer to the point i just avoid answering it when i can (now imagine how much this question has been asked to me in school >:[)
28. five songs to describe you?
Hmm..
Does it make sense to say I don't feel i know myself well enough to be able to choose??
30. places that you find sacred?
Not really?
45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?
Fantasy.
I've never really been into superhero stuff (though of course there are a few exceptions) and i find sci-fi really confusing a lot of the time (IM DUMB, ALRIGHT??)
55. favorite fairy tale?
I think my favorite might be the little mermaid for many reasons..
56. favorite tradition?
posadas
i really like holding candles and just watch them melt. the atole we recieve at the end is good too
61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?
"What goes up must come down, Yet my feet don't touch the ground" from Sonic Heroes. Not quite sure why but I just really like this line
another one is "what? no, I'm the devil" from the shadow the hedgehog snapcube dub. I love it so much
62. seven characters you relate to?
Barry the Quokka (sth), Luca Paguro (Luca 2021), Luigi (Super Mario), Franky Fetti and Felix (tffs), Varian (tangled) and Libby Stein-Torres (tgamm)
69. a fun fact that you donât know how you learned?
I dont have a fun fact but i somehow learned how to shuffle. I know for a fact I didn't know how cause i struggled whenever i tried but then suddenly i knew how??
88. your greatest wish?
i want to leave this fucking household please
she keeps threatening to put me up for adoption saying that no one is going to be as "patient" as her but i know for a fact id do much better if she actually did
that, or therapy
yeah, thearpy's good too
#hashtag ask shadowâ˘#insert shadow noisesâ˘#thatwordybirb#finally that damn fourth chaos emeraldâ˘#sorry for the mini rant toward the end D:#mother's been pretty annoying recently#this took so long to answer lol đ#friend ask :]
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stuck a reference sketch on my wall yesterday and noe i am overcome with how much i want to have my wals plastered eith art and things i like and how much i chaffed with my mothers hatred for things on the walls for years and how ive forgotten at this point and i dont have any posters or anything but id like to out up pictures of my friends, and i wouldve like to print out some of the friends i dont really tlak to anymore as well and
and i cant because i still live here and those arent my walls and i cant decide what to do with them because the only thing allowed is nothing
#at leatd they are a blue green#i may have never been allowed to decorate my walls in any way but ive alwyas picked the colour they are#when i was tiny my room was pink. like im not saying i cant customise my room at all#it just has to adhere to some pretty strick guidelines and every decission i make is a battle to this day#i keep my lile beautysih products in my wardrobe becaus rit has a slidding mirror and a shelf on a good height#its the best place for it and it has been a 7 year long on and off battle about it with my mother#she doesnt use that space#she has nothing to do with it i put my own clothes back and frankly#i would rather do my own laundry any day but i dont because half of the black laundry is my clothes#and when i try and just deal with my own clothes for a few weeks she starts complaining that she doesnt have underwear#anyway#i personally would much rather she never touch my clothes with a 15 ft pole#because id rather keep some of them unwashed for months untill i get to handwash them#then have her put them in the high heat fucking asshole cycle she uses and thne the fucking dryer#we recently got the dryer like 2- 3 years back#and she loves it and i absolutely despise that thing#and its just#id rather my clothes stay usable for a few mroe yers then save myself the trouble of drying it on the rack#which its super annoying u get that i dislike doing it as well#but for someone that complained for years that i apparently take shit care of my clothes#im actually the person who keeps their clothes together for longer
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gojo satoru x reader | fake marriage au [18+]
in holy matriphony ch7. if u wanna get groceries
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á° pairing. fake marriage au - neighbor&realtor!gojo x nurse!reader (ft. choso x reader & suguru x reader)
á° summary. gojo satoru is your extremely annoying next-door-neighbor who you're pretty sure is the most insufferable man you've ever met. given the fact that you exclusively work the night shift at a chaotic emergency dept, just got broken up with your boyfriend of seven years, and have been taking care of your sick mother ever since her multitude of diagnoses, yet somehow your neighbor is the main source of stress in your life should speak volumes. but when your mother's medical bills start to skyrocket to more than you can manage, and you learn that said neighbor of yours has the best private health insurance plan in the country, you ask him to enter a matrimonial agreement with you for the spousal benefits all in the name of saving a few hundred thousand dollars. but you'll have to see if suffering cohabitation w him is worth any amount of money.
á° genre/tags. fluff, smut, angst, enemies to lovers (sort of), annoyances to lovers (that's more like it), small town romance, fake marriage, next door neighbors, lots of bickering, suburban shenanigans, slow burn, mutual pining, gojo likes to play house but you don't, hatred for the american healthcare system, gojo always forgets to mow the lawn, jealousy, an insane amount of profanity, mentions of cigarettes, depression/anxiety; btw gojo in this fic is in his mid 30s n reader is in her late 20s
á° warnings. reader in this fic has a sick mother w alzheimer's & cancer so there is secondary medical angst!!
á° chapter. 7/x
á° words. 10.3k
a/n. hiii my ihm darlings!! i don't have much to say in this beginning author's note haha but i have some author's notes at the end if you want to read them. but anywho hope you enjoy this chapterrr :)
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Ovulation is a very scary thing.
You can imagine many great women have had their lives greatly affected by this phenomenon.Â
This biological release of an egg into the fallopian tubes, simply desiring to be fertilized.
Women who have had their hearts set on their dreams, aspirations, full speed ahead towards the finish line on the other end,
Only to be dragged back byâ
You shudder to even mention.
Attraction to a man.Â
So horrible.
So insane.
So humiliating.
And yet soâ...
So natural.
Unfortunately.
Youâre pretty sure Sabrina Carpenter has a song about it.
This is what you think of as you lean over the kitchen island, perched up on your elbows as you eat a peach, staring straight ahead at a certain fake husband who is seated on the couch.Â
Heâs looking at the TV, watching some SNL skit he didnât get to finish last weekend, tilting his head side to side with his grey sweatpant clad legs stretched out onto the coffee table in front of him, crossed at the ankles. Heâs got a can of Celsius heâs swirling around with a loose grip, his elbow up on the cushion for a more lax resting state (which unfortunately also flexes his bicep very sexily from the positioning), and he doesnât really seem particularly amused by what he was watching. And for some reason, it was hot.
You tilt your head to the right, watching him like a predator from across the hall, chewing down on a particularly juicy piece of peach that bursts its juice in your mouth, and you curse the fact that all you can think about right now is sex.
Sex.
When was the last time you had sex?
You postulated a little over a month ago when you and Choso were still together.
Granted, youâve been too busy and overwhelmed and overstimulated with all the recent happenings of late to provide your own self with any sort of relief.
And God, it was showing.
Showing in the way that, no matter what, you canât seem to shake the idea of wanting to sit in Gojoâs lap and be the second reason he never gets to finish watching that SNL skit.Â
Maybe it will help.
Maybe sitting in a manâs lap right now would heal you.
You set the now naked seed of peach down on the counter before straightening yourself up and walking around the kitchen island towards the living room. Gojoâs eyes donât flicker to you until youâre well in his periphery, and when he looks up at you, he straightens himself up on the couch with curious wide eyes and drags his feet off the coffee table to plant his feet on the rug.
You pull your grandma nightgown up to your knees so that you can sit in his lap, surprise evident on his face as he watches your every movement before youâre comfortably seated on him with your hands on his shoulders.
âFuck me,â you tell him.
âWhââ he stutters, âIâm sorry, I couldâve sworn you just told me to fuck you.â
âThatâs exactly what I said.â The heels of your hands press into his chest further to the point where it has to hurt.Â
âIs this a prank,â he asks as his hands fall to hold your hips on reflex.
You sigh, shifting around on his thighs. âCan you just do it already before I change my mind?â
âWow. Thatâs the most romantic thing anyoneâs ever said to me.â
You roll your eyes. âAlright. Iâve changed my mind.â
You push off of his shoulders and stand up on one leg, ready to get up and away from him to find some other way to satisfy your desperate desire for a penis, but he reaches out to grab your wrist.
âHeyyy wait wait wait,â he says, pulling you back into a seat on his lap. âWhy do you want to have sex all of a sudden?â
You exhale slowly, twiddling with your thumbs as you look at him. âYou said it yourself the other day,â you say, âgood way to relieve stress.â
âAnd youâre not gonna kill me afterwards?â
âUmm no promises?â
âLook, as much as Iâd like to take you up on the offer, a part of me thinks youâre making aâŚrash decision here.â
âOh my fucking god who cares if I am?? Maybe I just wanna fuck for the sake of fucking?? Whatâs the big fucking deal??â
âThe big deal is that, knowing you, youâre not going to speak to me or look me in the eye for three weeks if I let you go through with something youâre not a hundred percent on.â
Your shoulders sulk a little. You thought this would be an easy yes, where he tears your nightgown off and then ravishes you whole on this couch with every primal caveman instinct thatâs encoded in his XY chromosome DNA. This was supposed to be spontaneous and sexyâŚnot a candid conversation.
The thought flashes through your head that maybe he thinks that youâre just trying to use him.
âI want to have sex with you,â you clarify. And then a pause. âI think.â You pause for a moment again. âIâm, like, pretty sure.â
He slides you back to where youâre sitting closer to his knees than to his groin, and then fully leans back onto the couch before tucking his hands behind his head like he was physically putting himself in cuffs to prevent himself from touching you any further. âTell you what. Letâs circle back in an hour, and if you still want to, then sure.â
âI cannot believe how diplomatic youâre being about this.â
âWell isnât this whole thing between us a diplomatic agreement? Thatâs what you said to me when we got fake engaged.â
âThatââ you blink at him, not expecting those words to eventually be used against you, â...whatever.â
âAlso, what happened to the no sex rule?â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
He grins and leans forward, both of his elbows settling onto the top of the cushion behind him, and youâre proud of yourself for only staring at his biceps for 0.000034 seconds before meeting his line of sight again.Â
âAre those rules just suggestions?â he asks with a stupidly teasing look on his face.Â
You purse your lips together, skin feeling warm suddenly as you try to push him away by a palm to his sternum. But then you realized something. A fundamental rule of biology. The woman never chases.Â
You smile at him, cheeky in a deceptive way thatâs meant to scare him, and it does seem to alarm him when you push him back onto the couch rather forcefully. His hands fall to hold your hips again as he looks at you with round eyes, and you scoot forward on his lap, to where youâre almost sitting right above his groin.Â
âHeyââ he says, like a warning.Â
Like some awful romantic comedy, youâre drawing the tip of your nail down the front of his chest seductively, leaning forward so he catches the faint scent of the perfume you spritzed onto your skin in the morning, and you can tell itâs working from the way he tips his chin up in interest. You innocently âshiftâ in his lap to get comfortable, and see his throat bob when he swallows hard from the feeling. The finger thatâs been running down the soft linen of his shirt trails up until it runs through the hair at the back of his neck, and heâs pulling you closer to him now by a rough grip on your hips. His breathing picks up, eyes somehow wild yet calm as he looks at you with a set jaw, and you try your best to maintain a sultry expression as you tilt your head down at him while strongly fisting at the longer strands of his hair that fall short at the nape of his neck. He shifts underneath you, sinking further into the couch, his breathing fast enough to where you can see the rise and fall of his chest, his gaze finally dropping to your lips as he parts his own, and he briefly runs his tongue over his bottom lip beforeâ
Before the doorbell rings.Â
You both blink at each other.
You donât even realize how close you two were to making out until you realize you canât even see the tip of his nose anymore.Â
âMy, uh,â he starts, voice sounding gruff so he has to clear his throat, âmy wood just came.â
âYââ you glance down at his lap, âyour wood just what?!â
He leans away from you, sinking his back into the cushion and pointing over his shoulder with a thumb towards the door. âThe cedar planks I ordered to finish my woodworking project. Pretty sure they just got dropped off.â
You blink at him, releasing the grip you still had on the hair at the back of his head, your arms moving to weakly rest on his shoulders instead. âOh.â
âIâve gotta go sign the delivery.
âOkay.â
âSometime today, preferably.â
âAlright.â
âCanâŚcan I head to the door? Is that allowed?â
â...I suppose.â
His fingers that were still resting under your butt in a strong grip push up gently on the flesh to prod you off of him, and you (reluctantly) swing your legs off of his lap then slump down onto the couch indignantly beside him, twiddling with your thumbs as you watch him get up off the cushions with a small grunt from the push of his palms on his knees. And then he heads to the door.
Continuing to assess your cuticles with the tuck of your chin towards your collarbone, you hear Gojo talk to whoever was at the door. Another masculine voice. Sounds younger, probably younger than you. Delivery boy. Gojo makes easy conversation with him, some buddy-buddy diction thatâs entirely lost on you, and you hear the other man laugh. And the fact that you feel equally as possessed to want to fuck the delivery man makes you realize you need to put yourself in a cage the next time you feel like this.
You hear the door close along with the metallic click of the lock, and you peak your head up over the top of the couch to look at Gojo, who is leaning a giant cardboard box that looks really heavy against the wall. He then exhales, dusting his hands off and heâs stretching his neck from side to side again.
He glances over his shoulder to find you still looking at him.
âYou woodwork?â you ask him.
âYes.â
âWait. Is that the noisy thing you do at six in the morning while Iâm trying to sleep after a night shift?!?!â
âItâs not that noisy,â he says, leaning back onto the wall and crossing his arms. Then he grins. âWant to see what Iâm working on?â
âNo.â
âOh come on.â He jerks his head towards the kitchen leading out to the screen door of the backyard. And then heâs shuffling his feet off into that direction. âHumor me for once.â
You slide off the couch onto the floor, grumbling something to yourself before you stand up onto your feet and shuffle your feet across the hardwood floor to follow him, the hem of your nightgown sliding across the surface.
Gojo pulls the screen door back and you step out into the pleasant afternoon. Itâs sunny, with crisp air that settles on your senses, the casted shadows of clouds that slowly pass over the grass reminding you of your childhood, or perhaps of simpler times.
You step into the flip flops you see near the shoe mat, and they are nearly twice the size of your feet. Gojo opts for the dustier pair located behind the grill and then he walks across the grass of his backyard towards the shed tucked away near the side of the house. Youâve always been able to briefly see this shed from one of the windows in your house, but you could never see what went on inside.Â
He unclasps the metal lock on the wooden door of the shed and pulls it open with a creak. You peer inside, the smell of wood shavings and some other rather comforting chemicals hitting you almost instantly. You also sneeze. And then sneeze again.
âBless you,â he says, and when you glance at him, heâs smiling at you before he takes a step inside. You cross your arms and rub your elbows, feeling feeble in your ditsy nightgown as you step into a space that looks far too industrial for you.Â
âSee?â Gojo says once youâre fully inside the shed with him, drawing your gaze from the dusty ceilings towards the covered structure in the center of the workspace. He pulls the blue tarp back, revealing something square-looking. âItâs a coffee table.â
Your eyes widen slightly as you tilt your head to assess it. âOh. Itâsâ...itâs actually quite nice.â
âYeah.â He knocks on the surface with his knuckles. âItâs pretty sturdy. Iâve been looking to replace what Iâve got in the house for a while now. Andââ he straightens himself up again, pushing his hands into the pockets of his sweatpants. âThat wood I just got delivered is black walnut. Stunning stuff. Iâm going to use it to finish the corners and the cabinets.â
âAhhh,â you say, expressing interest. I mean, you were intrigued by his many strange hobbies. How can you explain thisâŚyou suppose after many years of working, sleeping, eating, and taking care of your mom, it's somewhat pleasantly disorienting to find yourself in the middle of a normal personâs life. Someone who has time to woodwork in his free time. Endearing. It was kind of endearing.Â
âIâve gotta flip it over though,â he says with a sigh, âI fucked up and forgot to build the base first.â
You lean back on one of the cabinets behind you that was level with your hip, and you watch Gojo for a moment as he bends down to assess all angles of the table before he grips the underside of it with his hands, the strength of his grip evident in the strain of the veins running up his arms and disappearing into the short sleeve cotton of his shirt.Â
But he glances up at you before moving it. âCan you stand over there?â
âHuh?â You blink at him.
âDonât want you getting hurt.â
âOh,â you say, and realize you were standing in quite literally the exact zone of potential danger. You make a mental note to work on your survival instincts.Â
You lean off of the cabinet and step off to the side.Â
You watch as he begins to lift up on the table, his biceps flexing with the movement, oh and that grunt that leaves his lips once heâs got it at the angle he wants hits you somewhere you wish it didnât. The sight of him leaning over, letting out a slow exhale as he slowly sets the table down on its side over the cushioning mat had you in a trance.Â
Once heâs satisfied with wherever itâs at, he steps away from it and dusts his hands off. âAlright.â He pulls his phone out of his pocket. âGot an hour to work on this.â
You nod at him.
He glances over at you.Â
You stare at him.
He stares at you.
âDidâ...did you wanna watch?â
âNope,â you say, shuffling your slippers to the other side of the door. Because you fear that catching the sight of him all sweaty and disheveled from woodworking would get you into serious trouble today. At least you know when to call it quits.
In the hour that Gojo spends doing god knows what sort of manly sorcery in that shed, you get dressed into something that wasnât a cozy nightgown much to your dismay, and head over to your house next door. You figure you could use this time to clean up the place a little so that you can take pictures for the house on Zillow.Â
When you step inside the house, the nauseating smell of medication hits you. Itâs a smell that you can only know if youâve lived with it for years. Something artificial, something that smellsâ...well, sick. Itâs a scent you associate with sickness. It hits you randomly sometimes with the patients that you treat at the hospital. Patients that smell just like your mom does. Something akin to a pill closet. Youâve always cursed the human tendency to assort semantics to certain senses, because then it only takes away all the healing you thought you had gotten through.
You walk down the hall towards your motherâs bedroom. You figured youâd start here first, since it would be the most difficult to clean for you. Her bed is set up neatly, exactly as you left it before she left for hospice three weeks ago.Â
Her well-worn rocking chair sits near the window with the old knit blanket she made over twenty years ago draped over it. It faces the window instead of the inside of the house, which was a habit she always had throughout her life. Maybe as an art teacher, she always felt that whatever was outside was more intriguing than within.Â
You run a hand by the sturdy wooden dresser covered in dust and scattered medications, along with all of your motherâs draped headscarves. She liked to change them every day, the pattern of each of them aggressively absurd and somewhat hypnotizing, but it fits for her ageâthat sort of clothing. Your mother used to have beautiful hair. It was something all her friends had always been jealous of. She made the decision to shave it all off rather than watch as it slowly detangled from her hair from chemo, and she claims to have stashed it away somewhere, but you know that she likely donated it instead.
When you make it to her desk, you see paint splattered over it with a rusted easel holding up a blank canvas. But there were swipes of paint across the palette, as though she were trying to find the perfect blend of colors, but failed before she could put brush to canvas. Beside her little art setup, you see a little sticky note with scribblings on it.
Morning tea
Medications- Gabapentin 600 300
Today is Thursday. Oct 16th
800 432 5555 call Dr JohnsonÂ
Turn off the stove
At the very bottom:
- daughter. Nurse. She loves you
You suck a deep breath in, releasing it slowly.
This was an impossible task.
To stuff all of this away into boxes.Â
All of this life.
You slowly peel the sticky note off the desk, folding it neatly before placing it into your pocket. Then you start with the canvas, the easel, the paint. Exactly as is, without cleaning anything at all, you stache them away into boxes. You wanted to preserve what you could, even if it was all for show.
By the time you finish cleaning out her desk, you feel winded from emotions. You decide to take a break and try to clean whatever was upstairs instead. Before you leave the room, you see another sticky note written behind the door.
remember ! wear your sweater, itâs cold today
And thatâs when you start crying.Â
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âHey,â you say as you walk back into Gojoâs house in the early afternoon, holding up a digital camera that you found in the attic in your hand. âThe upstairs of my house is cleaned out now, and Iâm almost done with the downstairs partâŚjust waiting on finishing one room. Can we start taking photos to put the listing up online?â
Gojo glances up at you from where heâs stood in the kitchen, tugging at his sleeves, and you just now notice heâs dressed up in a dark navy suit with a white shirt underneath. No tie. âUhh yeah I can help you with it, Iâve just gotta go run a few errands and then we can do it when I get back?â He ruffles his hair a bit and you see that itâs slightly damp like he just took a shower.
âWhat errands?â
âGas, amazon return, Costco. Maybe get a donut if Iâm feeling like being a bad boy.â
âEw. Also, why donât you get gas at Costco?â
âItâs a little cheaper at Samâs Club.â
You gasp. âYou have a Samâs Club membership??â
âYes.â
âYouâre a traitor.â
He rolls his eyes as he pushes his shoulders back to get better settled into his suit jacket. âI have a Costco membership too.âÂ
âCan I come?â
âWhat? Forâ...for the errands?â
âYes.â
He blinks at you from the other side of the island, brow furrowing slightly. âUh. Sure?â
You know it sounds silly to say, but not having to take care of someone twenty-four-seven has left you with little to no sense of purpose, and an even more intense feeling of loneliness. And as much as Gojo gets on your nerves from time to time, youâve noticed that youâve beenâŚcraving his presence lately. Or maybe a presence might be more accurate than any one specific person, but you can comfortably admit it to yourself that youâre a somewhat codependent person that enjoys being largely implemented into someoneâs life. Youâve even started borderline nesting in his home. You bought two new fluffy throw blankets for his couch, set up a bowl of fruits at the center of the kitchen island, and stocked up on laundry detergent, even though he already had two backup boxes. It was driving you crazy. This feeling of having too much free time and personal space than what you knew what to do with.
And it had been a while since you went to Costco. The holy land for all adults.Â
âCan I get this? Ohhhh what about this? Can we get this too? Wait. Wait. Brown sugar boba mochi?!â You hold the packet up into the air as if it were baby Simba in the Lion King, and then you turn to Gojo, clutching the bag to your chest. âPlease?â
He exhales, leaning over the handle of the shopping cart and levels his gaze with you. â...no.â
You sulk your shoulders and sigh as you put it back.
He begins to push the cart down the aisle again. âYou do realize that you have disposable income too, right?â
You trail after him. âNo. I donât. Iâm in six figures of debt.â
He nods. âFair.â And then he grabs a stray bag of brown sugar boba abandoned on top of the instant rice boxes then places it into the cart.Â
You watch as Gojo makes his rounds around Costco, very diligently aligning all the items in his shopping cart and assessing the quality of each thing he crosses off his list before deeming it worthy of purchase. Much different than your usual Costco run, which involves a lot of chaos and sweat. And he feels very husband material like this. Breaking no sweat to put the garden fertilizer in the cart shelf meanwhile you wouldâve pulled your back out trying to do the same if you were on your own.
As you two make your way through the store, you get stopped by the post-office man, and then the local judge, and then the elderly couple that runs the church's weekly Bingo nights. All greeting you politely with a quick exchange of words and usually a sweet regard for your motherâs health before passing on by. You keep having to introduce Gojo as your husband, and many of them already know who he is, despite the fact that heâs only lived here for a year, which royally pisses you off to great extents, but heâs a social whore so it makes sense. And then all of them coo sweet things like wow, what a beautiful couple and youâre so lucky to have each other and my oh my heâs very handsome and at this point you would pay someone twenty bucks to say something like well sheâs a looker! good for you! to Gojo because youâre sick of him always getting the ego boosts. When asked where you guys went for your honeymoon, you both say âGreeceââ âMaldivesââ at the same time in typical unrehearsed fashion. One of the town locals even asks when the two of you are going to have a baby, and you almost snort your free sample of San Pellegrino out your nose.
Perhaps the only thing that keeps a little pep in your step is the fact that everyone greets you first before they catch the familiar sight of Gojo too. Itâs a small thing to celebrate, but when youâve lived in the same town your whole life, it becomes somewhat of a prideful and wholesome thing when the town librarian, local mechanic, and farmerâs market lady all stop you in your lovely little Costco stroll. It was all in a dayâs work.
âJeez, youâre hella famous, y/n,â Gojo says as he continues to push the cart down the aisle after you just got done catching up with the volunteer Fire Chief.
You toss your hair over your shoulder at him. âYes. I am somewhat of a princess in this town.â
âDoes that make me your prince?â
âNo. Youâre my filthy peasant.â
âAlrightâŚI like where this is goingâŚâ
âGet your nasty degradation kink away from me, you perv. This is Costco. Itâs the holy house of God.â
Once you two make it to the wine section, you stare at bottles of dessert wines and hear Gojo talking on the phone off to the side.
âHey, Sana. Iâm at Costco right now. Do you guys need anything? I already got Junoâs muffins,â he says into his phone as he places two containers of blueberry muffins into the cart. You eye the raspberry cream cheese strudels. âHuh? Cornstarch?....If I tried to look for cornstarch at Costco, Iâd be here for three hours.â
âSatoru,â you say to him once he gets off the call, tugging at his sleeve, âcould we get those Haagen Daz ice cream bars? Theyâre so good.â
âNo,â he says, pushing the cart down the chip aisle before he grabs a bag of tortilla chips. âWe canât get anything that needs to be frozen or refrigerated. Iâve gotta go prep a house thatâs in the area since weâre out this far. Iâve got an evening showing.â
âWhat?!â you exasperate, âI thought we were just going home after this!â
âI never said that.â
âI canât believe this. I had been dreaming of grabbing those ice cream bars since you mentioned the word Costco back at home. You couldâve brought your little cooler thing that you keep in the garage.â
âWell, I didnât know that you wanted to come with me,â he says. âMy original grocery list had seven non-perishable items on it.â You both glance at the cart, which was almost entirely full of things that you put in there. Things that nobody ever needs. Like a bladeless desk fan and an electric wine opener.
âAh,â you say.
He smiles, leaning over the cart handle again and pushing it forward again away from the chilly air of the cooler section. âRetail therapy?â
You pout a little. âI havenât had the chance in years.â You glance at the cart as he pushes it. âI should probably take it all out now.â
âItâs fine,â he says, âIâll get you your bladeless fan. And whatever the fuck those other things are.â
You stop walking, blinking blankly at his back as he continues to wordlessly push the cart forward. Thereâs about a five second delay before you finally start trailing after him.
By the time Gojo finishes loading everything into the trunk of his car as you merely stand by for emotional support, and then he comes back from the long trek of returning the cart, youâre absolutely winded. Youâre not sure why, because again, you havenât really done much all day. But God damn, you forgot how exhausting it is to be a regular functioning member of society that contributes to the economy on the weekends (you didnât pay for anything).
Gojo wordlessly takes off from the Costco parking lot and just when you think heâs going to get back onto the freeway to get to this house of his that he needs to prep, he jumps into the parking lot of a small shopping area before he parks his car in front of a smaller grocery store.Â
You give him a puzzled look.
âHold on,â he says before clicking his seatbelt off, âgotta go get that cornstarch.â
âWaitââ you say, reaching out to grab him by the sleeve of his suit jacket as the most intense sensation of FOMO youâve ever felt in your life overtakes all of your senses. âIâll come with.â
He quirks a brow at you. Youâre not surprised at his confusion. After all, youâve been acting like some drug addict in withdrawal of social proximity to him all day long. But youâre at least glad he doesnât express any further bewilderment and allows you to follow him inside the store like a duckling.
As Gojo veers off in the direction of likely corn starchiness, in a confident manner that would suggest heâs been to this store many times before, you meander about the aisles at your leisure. You get lost in the bustling colors of produce stacked neatly on top of one another, such that they could rival the great pyramids of Egypt. Not to mention, processed foods lining the wall right next to it. This was what suburban life is all about. Matter of fact, this is what dreams are made of.Â
ây/n?â
Oh, fuck. That voice is definitely not what dreams are made of.
The opposite, actually.
Nightmares.
You hear that voice in your nightmares.
You turn on your heel to find none other than your ex boyfriend, he who shall not be named (Choso Kamo), standing right behind you as he holds a grapefruit in his hand, blinking at you dumbly with surprise apparent on his face.Â
âWhââ you briefly stutter before the automatic scowl settles onto your face. âWhat the fuck are you doing here?â
âIâm buying fruit.â
âFor what?â
âWhat do you mean, for what? To eat, obviously.â
âI donât know. Iâm not convinced you wouldnât try to fuck that grapefruit. Given you have low standards for what you stick your dick inside of.â
âUh?âŚIâve stuck my dick inside of you plenty of tââ
âShut it!!!â you yell at him, then turn away with a wince on your face. âI didnât think it through before I said it.â
âAs usual?â
âYouâre being a jerk. You know who I meant when I said that.â
âOkay. So, you donât think things through before you say them. And I continue to deflect said things. Let me know when anythingâs changed between us, y/n.â
You cross your arms at him menacingly and unwaveringly glare at him as a meek mother pushes her young son by the shoulders away from the two simmering adults having their savory conversation within the produce aisle. Youâre about the snark out another comment but then the automatic water sprayers interrupt your flow. And also a scrawny employee drops a giant box of eggplant onto the ground before placing them onto the produce shelf.
âWhat are you doing on this side of town? Youâre never out here,â Choso says as he sets the grapefruit back onto the stack.
âI donât know. What are you doing here?â
âThis is my new go-to grocery store.â
âWhy not go to the Trader Joeâs that we always used to go to? Itâs way closer to you.â
His shoulders sulk slightly at that.
Oh.
Oh.
So, heâs been driving an extra thirty minutes each weekend to go grocery shopping on the other end of town,
Just so he doesnât have to run into you anymore.
âLookâŚy/n,â he starts, âitâs not that I donât want to see youââ
âChosoââ
âItâs just that you accuse me of fucking inanimate objects everytime I do see you.â
âI literally do not care if you do or donât want to see me.â
He narrows his eyes at you, his gaze flitting downwards to your crossed arms, something catching his eye.
You glance down at yourself, and you catch the glimmer of diamond underneath bright fluorescent light.
âOh come on,â Choso grumbles, âdonât tell me you actually wear that thing twenty-four-seven.â
âIâm a married woman, Choso. Itâs what married women do.â
He clenches his jaw at that, tense enough to cause a vein strain in his neck, his brows narrowing into contempt, but just before he can say anything else, an arm wraps around your waist and youâre being pulled back into a broad chest.
âSheâs pretty, huh?â you hear Gojo say and you blink up at him with your chin tilted towards the ceiling, and you yelp as he possessively pulls you in closer to him as he establishes jarring eye contact with Choso with that same old easy grin on his face. âThank god Iâm the one married to her.â
Choso almost blows a fuse at that. âI know sheâs pretty,â he says through gritted teeth, âfor six years, I was the one that got to fââ
âAhh!!! Sale on tomatoes!!!â you interrupt the crass and ridiculously toxic masculine energy in the air as you wiggle out of Gojoâs grip then run over to the pristinely stacked romano tomatoes, picking some of them up and holding them like precious commodities. âMaybe we can make some tomato soup with grilled cheese tonight, honey???â you say with a forced smile towards Gojo as you now hold fifteen tomatoes in your arms, a couple of them falling to the floor with a bounce as they roll away.
âHEY!! LADY!!â the scrawny eggplant stacking employee from earlier yells out at you. Some late teens kid with acne speckled across his face and shaggy brown hair scattered over his forehead, somewhat slick with either gel or grease. âI just set those up!!! YOU SQUASH âEM, YOU BUY âEM.â
âSorry,â you squeak out, putting the tomatoes back onto the display somewhat haphazardly before grabbing Gojoâs arm and tugging him towards the exit. âLetâs get out of here, please.â
âHuh? Iâve still gotta pay for the cornstarch though,â Gojo says, hardly budging despite your best efforts to womanhandle him.
âNo time for that, we leave now. They donât have cameras here, anyway. I already checked.â You continue to tug on his arm, your body leaning at an almost forty-five degree angle towards the exit as you struggle to get some drag to his feet, but again, he doesnât budge.
You donât know exactly why you so adamantly want to restrict Gojo from interacting with Choso, but maybe a part of it was embarrassment. You didnât want Gojo to find out what Choso did to you and what an absolute fool he had made out of you. It would hurt your pride.
âIsnât this guy a cop?â Gojo asks as he points his thumb towards Choso. âAnd youâre telling me to shoplift in front of him?â
âCan you just be on my fucking side for one second?â you grit at him, yanking on his sleeve so hard you almost tear the cuffs out of the holes, and he finally sighs before relenting into a gait towards your general direction.
As you hug Gojoâs arm tightly to keep his momentum towards you, you walk backwards and send Choso a nasty glare. His eyes are wide, studying you and Gojo together as you get further and further away from him. And for a brief, brief, brief, ever-so-slight fleeting moment of love and familiarity and the sight of his dark hair curling at the nape of his neck and the memory of warmth when he used to hold you in his arms in bed on cold winter mornings, you find that you miss him a little. But only a little. You swear that itâs only a little.
Gojo still makes a pit stop at the register much to your pleading dismay, but as always he has zero regard or interest for your melodramatic outbursts, but at least he shoves the extra change from the purchase into his pocket in a somewhat timely fashion so that you two can head out the door in your artificial haste.
In the car, you quickly click your seatbelt on and then have to watch Gojo as he takes his time clicking his back into place and enter some address into his car. You see the ETA on the GPS, and how it shows that this address is roughly thirty-four minutes away.
Once he gets onto the freeway, your mind begins to wander back to seeing Choso at the grocery store and how the sight of him rattled you. You twiddle with your thumbs in your lap nervously, shift around in your seat, chew at the edge of your nail, and Gojo seems to notice this.
âYou know, having lived in this town your whole life, I would think youâd be used to the discomfort of running into people you donât want to see,â he says.
You sigh. âYes. In theory. But with Choso, itâsââŚitâs different.â You hesitate. âItâs just thatââ you try again before worrying your bottom lip between your teeth, âitâs just that, sometimes I donât get him.â
Gojo is silent for a few seconds as he stares straight towards the road before he responds with, âWhat do you mean?â
âLike, he avoids me like the plague, and then begs me to go back to him, and then he pretends like Iâm just a nuisance to him, and then when he sees me with you, he acts allââŚI donât knowâŚallââ
âJealous?â
You sink into your seat. âSomething like that.â
âHm. Yeah, to be honest, I donât know. But youâre not wrong to find it strange.â
Feeling strangely validated in your feelings, you sit there twiddling with your thumbs and then glance out the window. Thereâs a silence that lasts maybe ten seconds before you say,
âThanks for interrupting back there. Although, you donât have to try to deliberately make him jealous anymore. Even though I know I literally asked you to do that. Which makes me a woman of severe psychiatric ailment. Of which I am slightly embarrassed about at the moment.â
âNah,â he says as he turns the right onto the freeway entrance. When you look over at him, he has a smile on his face. âI like it. Itâs never boring with you.â
Unsure if thatâs a compliment or some shade of insult, you say, âand thatâs a good thing?â
He shrugs, releasing one hand from the wheel and curling the other in a tight knuckled grip at the top of it as the car drives steady down the freeway. He rests his right elbow on the storage console. âWell, itâs different from what Iâm used to.â
What are you used to? You so badly want to ask him.
But a flashback to his childhood bedroom at his parentâs house comes back to you.
Yearbook signatures, trophies, and photos abandoned underneath a bed.
You almost donât even want to acknowledge that he has lived a life before you.
Was that self centered? Or perhaps childish? Or perhaps all in human nature?
You decide not to respond, instead directing your attention to the world outside the car window. The blades of grass dance across the shoulder of the road, all greenery following suit in the same swift motion. You watch as the land slowly turns from developed to more and more remote, yet still cozy and charming. Fields of green, vineyard arrangements, a wooden sign for a winery, a picturesque red barn house, a small cattle farm, an old town church with a bronze bell, hills of empty acres that are just begging to be touched by some great idea or civilization.
Youâre privy to change in texture underneath the wheels as Gojo makes a turn onto gravel road about two miles after getting off the freeway. He drives up a hill, maybe a forty-five degree angle, with the crunch of rocks rubbing against the tread of the tires and you see a more distinct, purposeful arrangement of short decorative trees that line the properties of this narrow gravel road. They were large houses, sitting on slightly slanted hills that were all a part of a bumpy landscape that extends for miles. Some had formal fences, some had chain links, but all had expansive yards with no clear distinction of boundary, where the backyard could be the front yard too if only you had the imagination for it.
One house in particular catches your eye. Itâs a pretty two story house with a detached garage or perhaps shed, painted in a dusky auburn with dark wooden paneling and structure. It sat near the top of this hill, the front yard being a steep upwards slope of grassy terrain that stretched for the full length of the property, about a hundred yards. The backyard dips behind the back of the hill, downwards into some territory you cannot set eyes on. But itâs stunning. It was gorgeous. Serene. With views of lush green surrounding its every corner. Intimately located, yet open enough to fresh air in which you almost feel one with the world. And in the early evening light, it looked like heaven.
You let out a slow exhale as you take in the sight that looks like a painting to you. There was something so romantic about a home. For as long as time, humans have enjoyed personifying objects, such as boats or planes or cars or trains. But what could feel more of a living thing than a home?
You hear Gojo click his seatbelt off beside you and you glance over at him. You click off your own seat belt and open your door, stepping out onto the gravel road.
Gojo comes around the car and approaches you, holding a folder in his hand with papers you can only assume have information on the property listing. You also hear the jingle of keys in his pocket as he pushes his hand into it.Â
âGot about,â he glances at his watch, âtwenty minutes to prep. Oh, and if my clients ask, Iâll just introduce you as my assistant. And weâll pretend that we have some sort of inappropriate workplace relationship. Just to intrigue them. Itâll make the house more memorable. Sound like a plan?â
You roll your eyes. âWhatever gets food on your table.â
You watch as he pushes a copper key into the rusted lock that was clipped onto the chains holding the fence together, guarding the property. He yanks it down once heâs unlocked it and then pulls the fence apart, opening the way to head up the house. It borders on a feeling of trespassing, but you trail closely behind Gojo as he makes his way up the grassy hill, reminding yourself that he has the clearance as a realtor.
You glance around the property a bit more. Thereâs a small pond in the dip of one of the smaller hills, fuzzy with moss and some small fish you can see snapping at the surface of the water. Off to the right of it, there are similarly moss covered stone benches, small and antique. Perfect to sit there and watch the sun set behind the house. And towards the left, a small gondola with arranged stained glass stepping stones.Â
âCharming, huh?â Gojo says over his shoulder at you, and you realize heâs caught you staring at everything in awe.
Gojo makes it to the veranda after lengthy strides across the broad concrete steps that lead to the most stunning hardwood door youâve ever seen in your life. He turns around to glance at you when he realizes youâre still stuck at the bottom of the steps, digging your heels into the ground underneath you.
âItâsââ you start, looking across the landscape while melancholy washes over you, â...I just canât believe that someone gets to live here someday.â
He pushes his hands inside of his pant pockets, silent for a few moments. âIs everything alright?â
You look up at him, the question threatening to make the rawness in your throat burn even more. âYes, I justââ you scoff at yourself a little before turning back to face the little pond, now further in the distance, âI just realized that Iâll probably never be able to afford a house in my life, so Iâll never really know what itâs like to have a realtor show me around a home I could potentially one day call my own. Itâs something that sounds so surreal to me.â
Thereâs a silence that lasts for three seconds, and when you look up at him, his gaze is soft.
âAlright,â he says, jerking his head towards the direction of the door with his hands still lax in his pockets, âletâs take you on a tour of this one, then.â
You blink up at him, heart beating a little faster. âO-...Okay.â And you hop up the stairs to meet him at the top. The fragrance of wild roses and lavender brush past your senses as the leaves sway with the breeze.Â
The moment you enter inside, youâre greeted by a faint trace of vanilla lingering in the air. The foyer is warm, inviting, with soft oak floors that creak ever so slightly with each step you two take forward into it, proving the life that itâs lived. To your left, thereâs a spacious living room that glows with the golden light of the early evening sun that has started to gently make its descent from high up in the sky. Filtering through sheer curtains, touching your skin from afar, you glance down at your arm and the glow of heaven thatâs been imprinted on it.Â
Gojo walks further into the living room, pulling the curtains back a bit and then opens one of the windows by pushing up on it. A small draft reaches you as you walk towards him. Off to the right in a corner is a fireplace, the mantle adorned with wilting candles and creased old books.
âIs it wood-burning?â you ask Gojo.
He nods his head. âCan easily convert it to gas if thatâs something youâd like better.â
Thereâs a sense of joy in your chest at the way he continues to play along, pretending as if your opinion truly mattersâas if, just for now, you were a serious contender to make this place your home.Â
âNo,â you say, tracing a finger over the dark wood of the mantle, collecting withered dust. âI like it better like this.â
As he leads you into the kitchen, set your eyes on the marble countertops that meet soft sage cabinetry, the window behind the sink overlooking the rolling landscape of the backyard. You stand on your tiptoes to get a better view of whatâs down the hill, and you see a small trickling creek that flows down the valley. Your gaze diverts towards the countertops and you see an elegant collection of mismatched china.
Spinning on your heel, you find Gojo leaning against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest as he watches you inspect every inch. âWhen were these appliances last updated?â you ask, running your hand across the oven handle.
âAbout fourteen years ago.â
âAh, theyâre a little old.â
He smiles at you. âSo the tolerance for vintage charm ends with kitchen appliances?â
âCharm is cute,â you say, a little cheekily as you move on without him towards the staircase, âbut not when the house burns down because of an oven gas leak.â
He hums from behind you as he follows you, and you can hear the smile on his face through the sound alone. âYouâre looking out for the right things.â
The staircase, with its dark wood railing and white balusters, curves gently upwards into the second floor. Just like your own home, the third and first steps creak beneath your feet. You always loved the sound, although you know most people attempt to fix such things in a house. For you, it felt like each step had a story, and some were very vocal about never being forgotten.Â
The upstairs hallway is lined with more windows, filling the space with the same golden glow that now dances across the soft, tapering wallpaper that has begun to peel around the edges slightly. Your feet wander on their own with a sense of grace that seems to have taken hold of you.Â
The first bedroom you stumble across is small, but still enchanting. The bay window has a small reading nook with cushions piled up on the surface, inviting the image of lazy afternoons spent lost in books as the world beyond the glass panes flutters in the wind. The queen-sized bed in the center of the room is minimally dressed and faces an oak dresser that was leaning slightly away from the wall in a crooked fashion.Â
The room across from the first bedroom appears to be a study. Floor-to-ceiling bookshelves are bolted to the walls and a vintage writing desk sits by another window where the changing light of day turns the room into a living painting. Your mother crosses your mind. And how much she wouldâve loved this window. You could picture her setting up her easel and canvas here, painting away with strokes that could threaten even the beauty of the view outside the window. You think about how much joy that wouldâve brought to her.Â
In that same trance, you walk down the hall to the end with Gojo following behind you. You push through the set of double doors that lead into the master bedroom. It was spacious, yet intimate, with vaulted ceilings and a four-poster bed draped in airy linen curtains. Sitting across from it is another fireplace surrounded by two picturesque little chairs. One with a square backrest colored a dark burgundy, and the other with an oval backrest colored a pinkish opal. Between the two was a small table that had a stack of a few books.Â
The attached en-suite bathroom appears timeless, with a clawfoot tub resting beneath a wide, arched window that offers the view of the rolling hills in their entire glory. The marble vanity has vintage brass fixtures that reflect the soft glow of the chandelier that hangs from the ceiling, one that takes the shape of the roof of the house.Â
You hear tapping on the window to your right, and when you glance over there, you see a tree branch bothering the surface due to the wind.Â
Your eyes also catch the faint bordering corner of wood beyond the frame of the window.
With wide eyes, you turn to Gojo and point in that general direction. âIs thatâŚ?â
âThe balcony,â he says, then nods, âitâs connected to this room.â
He leads you out onto the wooden platform, the floorboards warm under your feet from the early evening sun. It stretches out about ten feet and wraps around the entire back end of the house, with easily the most breathtaking vantage point youâve seen thus far. An entire view of the creek that disappears into the valley, the image of dancing wildflowers on distant rolling hills, the sun that continues to glow in the distance, and a gentle breeze with the faintest hint of salt, as though from a distant ocean. It felt like its own quiet little world. A place where time slows, and you can just be as you are. It was difficult to put into words, but you had never felt more at peace in your entire life.
Gojo leans over the sturdy yet worn railing as he glances down at the grass near the foundation of the house. You come up beside him, loosely curling your hands into a grip around the rusted metal.
You see him turn his face to you in your periphery, but you continue to stay staring ahead.
âSoâŚwhat do you think? Can you picture yourself living here?â he asks you as a soft brush of breeze passes by.Â
âWellââ you start, but then a sobering thought flashes through you, âwait, Satoru, what happened to your clients?â
âOh, yeah,â he pulls his phone out of his pocket to glance at it, âthey texted me about ten minutes ago that they werenât going to make it.â
âYou shouldâve told me. We couldâve left.â
âWell, you seemed like you were in some sort of trance while you were looking around. I was scared to interrupt it.â
You breathe in deep and then let out a slow sigh, your shoulders dropping slightly. âMhm. The house is beautiful. And, yes, I could picture myself living here.âÂ
More than just that. It was like a dream house. The one that a person would see in fleeting memories right before they pass, as it holds all of their most beloved ones. That ethereal, it was.Â
He hums softly. You look over at him and find him blinking slowly. The wind brushes through his hair, ruffling it up gently, to where you could see the blueness in his eyes a little more clearly. That, too, was ethereal.Â
âSatoru,â you say.
âHm?â
âCan I ask you something?â
He continues to stare at the horizon. âSure.â
âWhere did you live before you moved here?â
âNew york city,â he easily tells you.
But the answer surprises you. âR-Really?â
âYeah.â
âFor how long?â
âReally long.â
âMm. You donât seem like it.â
âLike what? An asshole from the city?â
âMhm. Just a regular asshole.â
He laughs. You feel the rumble of it from the way your shoulder was pressed up against his arm.Â
âDo you ever miss it?â you ask him. But the question was not one that you had thought to say. Rather, it felt as though it was placed on your tongue by someone else.
You feel his shoulders rise slightly with the deep breath he draws in as he leans over the railing a bit more. âI donât know. Itâs hard to say. I still own a place there in downtown Manhattan,â he says, âbut I donât really plan on moving back there ever. So I was thinking of selling it and getting something out here instead.â
âOh?â you say, âlike what? Where?â
âThis,â he says, pointing to the wooden panels you two were standing on, âthis house.â
You blink, caught between surprise and something deeper. âThis house?â you echo, your voice quiet.Â
He nods, his fingers tapping lightly against the railing. âYeah. Although, I still show it to people if theyâre interested. Itâs been on the market for over three years though.â
You let your gaze drift over the balcony, the way the light softens against the weathered wood, and suddenly, the house doesnât feel the same. Like it carries more weight somehow. Like it feels more real, more alive. And maybe thatâs what makes a house a homeâthe intent to belong in it.Â
"You see that greenery over there?" he asks, his arm stretching out as he highlights an area in the distance with his hand, "aaaaall the way down there?" Now pointing at the creak.
"Mm," you squint, "uh-huh!"
"Believe it or not, those are all avocado trees."
Your eyes widen and then you look at him. "No way."
He smiles. "Yeahhh. Three-point-four acres of 'em. And they're all a part of this lot."
Your smile matches his equally as nerdy one. "Wow I bet you loooove that.
"I do," he grins, and then gratuitously sights, "all I can eat guacamole 'til the day I die."
You snort.
"Yeah, anyways, that's why no one wants to buy this house," he says, "guess how much it costs to water them per month.â
"Mm, per month?" you look up to the golden sky, "a few thousand?"
"Try a hundred-and-fifty thousand."
"Whatâ...I beg your finest fucking PARDON?!?!"
He laughs. "Yeah that's usually the reaction I get when I end a tour of this house on that note."
âThatâs so insaneâŚwhatâs the point of buying the house, then?â
"Avocados are hard to grow, they can be finicky, but all the land on this lot is extremely fertile," he says, "and if you can import the produce, it actually ends up being pretty lucrative." He points across to the dip in the hill behind the creak. "You could turn that place over there into some kind of ranch, too. Or a wedding venue, and rent it out. I don't know. The property has a lot of investment value. But the house itself is a bit dated. Would need some work."
"Like a fixer-upper on HGTV,â you offer for the conversation.
"Yeahhh. Something like that."
"Mm," you hum.
"Yâknow, I was on HGTV once."
"What?! There's no way."
"Yup. House hunters."
"Bullshit. I would've known. I have seen every single episode since I graduated college."
"Oh, well, this was back when they still had Design Star on. I was like twenty-four or something. Fresh new realtor."
"Oh right. I was still in college then. I forgot that you're ancient."
He gives you an irritated side eye.
"So...will you be fixing up this house?" you ask him. His hobby of woodworking starts to make a little bit more sense.
"Maybe. I don't know if I'm too young to be thinking about retirement yet...but that's kind of what I was thinking of turning it into. A dream retirement home."
"You're definitely not young. Don't worry about that."
He gives you another irritated side eye.
"What happens to your other house, then?" you say. "The one next door."
âHmm," he muses, "I'll probably stay there another year or so and then rent it out eventually."
"You don't want to settle down there? Raise your kids there?" you blurt out. You immediately wince a little at the forward question, but wasn't that something people thought about when thinking of a house? Do they not imagine filling it with their own hopes and dreams? Do they not picture their spouse sitting on the porch outside, swinging with the wind? Do they not picture their children's laughter down the hallway?Â
A shiver runs down your spine. You glance over at Gojo, who continues to stare forward towards the horizon, His brow furrowed ever so slightly as he's deep in thought staring out into the landscape as the golden sun begins to turn purple in the sky, casting a dimming glow on his face.
And you wonder. You briefly wonder what a home must mean to him, after having to witness his parents perish in the flames of the one that housed his childhood.Â
"It's a nice house," he finally responds to you, "but a part of me wants to live faaaaar away from everyone and everything someday." A small smile tugs at the corner of his mouth, like he can already tell how contradictory you find that sentiment to be. Mr Grew Up In New York City wants to live in a quaint little cape-cod-esque agriculture farmland property miles away from major civilization? what was it about the city that changed him so much? âJust be at peace, you know. Plant a million more avocado trees out here in the middle of nowhere, and not have to worry about their devilish spawns dropping all over my cute neighbor's herb garden.â
You flutter your eyelids, the comment catching you off guard, before your entire posture softens. "Satoru...it's ok. I'll move my herb garden."
"Oh, you thought I meant you? I was talking about seventy-four year old Barbara to my right."
You sulk your shoulders and roll your eyes, turning away from him to face forward towards the landscape again.
He laughs. "I'm just teasing."
You glance over at him again, and there's that same distant stare he casts over the greenery in the distance.Â
"I can't believe your dream in life is to become a farmer," you say.
"Ehhh. It's honest work." he exhales slowly. The sun is now sitting on the hilltop. "It's just a dream, anyways. Just a dream. I'm still allowed to have those, right?" It was asked with genuine curiosity.Â
"Why are you asking me for permission?"
His eyes hood ever so slightly, a dip in his expression you can't quite discern. but it's evident in the way his gaze off across the horizon dampens. "Hm. I don't know."
You shiver a little as the evening wind brushes past, and Gojo catches sight of the movement. you mentally curse yourself, because you know that you've just cut this moment short.
"It's cold," he says, "let's get inside."
You try to think of ways to stay here. Ways to lengthen this moment. Ask him for his jacket and make some teasing comment about how he's not a gentleman. Or lie and say that you're not cold at all, that you run warm when you know all your life you've always had cold hands and feet. Or just tell him that you don't want this moment to end. Tell him you want to see the sun through its sunset. Tell him how you never want to step foot off of this house ever again.
"Okay," you whisper.Â
And he leads you back inside, down the stairs, and as you stand out on the veranda, at the grassy hills towards his car, you implant this memory in your head, this feeling of standing on this home and dreaming as if it were yours. Before all it becomes is exactly that,Â
Only a dream.Â
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[end of ch.7, âif u wanna get groceriesâ]
songs of the chapter: groceries by mallrat margaret by lana del rey
a/n. thanks so much for reading! this was a fun chapter to write, especially the house sequence. i think itâs mentioned in the chapter somewhere, but yeahâŚi just think thereâs something so romantic and melancholic about a home :ââ) i guess thatâs a recurring theme in ihm, with readerâs childhood home holding the memories that her mother has lost of her, and then ihm gojo losing his parents to a destructive house fire, and also him being a realtor, and also reader planning to sell her house, and then the dream house in this chapter. itâs been fun breathing a bit of life into these different settings themselves. ah i also decided i want to include little âsong(s) of the chapterâ to the end of these! just as something kinda fun to do. iâd say these are songs that inspired me to write certain scenes within the chapter, or songs that i listened to a lot while writing the chapter, or songs i could picture playing during the ending credits if this were a tv show xd. but yeahhh!! also just a way to share music bc i love music lol. big thank you to my beta readers mirl, leni, and ayelin for helping me out w parts of this chapter n giving me motivation to write it <33 i appreciate you guys sososo much!! i really attribute a lot of my writing motivation towards them, as iâve been really busy but been able to write these lengthy chapters bc of their support. i did kinda rush parts of this chapter just because i wanted to get it out on the weekend, so i apologize if there are errors or mistakes of if anythingâs a little confusing or sudden. tbh i did want to spend a tiny bit more time on it but, thatâs ok. fuck it we ball also! i just wanted to say a quick thank you to all of my readers and those that have stuck around for so long with me or maybe newer readers who have interacted or become invested w my works recently⌠i know that i am so slow w updates and sometimes inconsistent w it as well, life just gets so crazy for me and itâs a struggle to find proper time to sit down and write, and i wish soooo badly to put out chapters faster, but yea easier said than done haha. but all of my readers who continue to engage with lil olâ me even despite all of that really means a lot to me, more than i can say :â) i still face self doubts so often w my writing, iâm halfway convinced iâll never be satisfied w my craft, but the little interactions i have w everyone really make my day and push me forward to write even when itâs hard and i realized i havenât really said a proper thank u to u guys for that as of late. plus i know jjk manga has ended and also i took a hiatus n also tumblr has lowkey been fuckin me over on the algorithm too lol etc etc i definitely have noticed iâve lost some readers n engagement along the way, which i understand is natural n just a part of being a long fic author however daunting that may be, but i just really wanted to say a thank you to those who continue to be here irrespective of all of that. i appreciate everyone who sees value in my works enough to read them, follow up w them, interact w them, share them, like them etc. especially w ihm bc sometimes i feel so bad for the slow burn and the yap haha iâm sure some of you may be privy to the fact by now that this story will be very long and also so much more than just the romance. butâŚi find confidence from you all to follow my vision and iâm really grateful for that. very likely that the next chapter is in ihm gojoâs pov :0 very exciting and makes me a lil nervous. for some reason i find his pov somewhat intimidating to write for loool. but hopefully iâll pull it off.
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Summary: After recently joining the team, you and Spencer could never get along. What started off as you two ignoring each other turned into bickering at work. What happens when a stressful moment for you turns into an opportunity to get to know this fascinating coworker of yours?
tags: enemies to lovers, fluff, brief mentions of crime/murder at the beginning (talking about cases/kidnapping), reader is shy and anxious, reader looks young for her age. (reader might be female but i donât think i specified)
A/N: I havenât written anything in years and Iâve been on a criminal minds kick for a while. I had this idea loosely based off a prompt I saw on cai by (ApolloTheBoykisser) so thanks babes ;) also for once I had a fic of mine beta read lol my bestie beta read this for me. This is also posted on my AO3 page.
You had been working at the BAU for the last few weeks. You tried to get to know most of your coworkers and it seemed like you were making great progress. You had heard a lot about the team before you joined and were pretty intimidated by them at first. Okay- you were still pretty intimidated by them. But you pushed through your quiet exterior little by little and slowly but surely tried to get to know them.Â
All except for Spencer Reid. It seemed like he was trying to avoid you. He was always very quiet and would barely talk to you. Being a shy person yourself, you thought maybe he was just shy or a quiet guy. However, he continued to ignore you except for when he had to acknowledge you for work.Â
His coldness towards you was increasingly annoying as time went on, and your perception of him had slowly warped. The things about him you once found endearing, you now forced yourself to hate about him. If he rambled for too long, it could potentially make your blood boil. However, you could never stop paying attention to when he rambled on about facts or statistics. You didnât want to admit it, but you found him fascinating.
It didnât take that long for him to start acknowledging you, but this soon turned into the two of you bickering like children. When you were discussing cases or profiles, you both would argue over motives, victimology, crime scenes- literally anything about the case- you two could turn it into an opportunity to contradict the other. You both still kept a level of professionalism to not let your rivalry affect your job.Â
But there was always this tension between the two of you when you were in close quarters for too long.Â
And at some point you both reached your boiling point.Â
Last week, while the team was on a case, you and Spencer had gotten into a little spat once again. This time it went beyond the slight bickering or contraction. In the middle of the local precinct, you two were at each other's throats.Â
âWhat was that?â You asked after you and Spencer left the interview room that held a victims family.Â
âI was working off of the profile . . .âÂ
âYou mean the profile we havenât finished?â You interrupted. âThe one we are still currently working on and have yet to disclose?âÂ
âThat doesnât mean we canât work off of the information we already have,â he objected.Â
âYou told her information we are still unsure about. We donât know for a fact how long he keeps them alive,â you accused while placing your hands on your hips, trying to conceal your frustration but failing.
âGuys.â Someone tried to tone things down. Neither of you heard who and you werenât backing down.
âIf I remember correctly, I heard you discussing this very subject and inputting your thoughts . . .âÂ
âYou still shouldnât have told her! Especially when you donât know for sure if her daughter could be alive,â you seethed stepping closer.
âWould you rather me hide everything from the mother whoâs suffering from the disappearance of her daughter?â He asked, matching your tone and taking a step forward.Â
âI didnât say that!âÂ
âIt sure sounded like it.âÂ
âReid. Y/N.â The two of you turned your heads to your boss like two deer caught in headlights.Â
âWith me, now.â Hotch demanded and led you to an empty interview room.Â
You could tell how angry he was- despite the fact that his stoic face represented almost every emotion in the book. But by the tone of his voice, you knew you and Spencer had messed up.Â
âYou two do not only represent this team, you represent the bureau. These cops are already not pleased with the idea of their boss calling us in and I do not need you arguing in front of them and giving them a reason to take us off this case. You must learn to respect and cooperate with one another or I will take you both off this case. Do I make myself clear?â He lectured.Â
You both replied with a monotone âyes.â
âGoodâÂ
Ever since your argument, you both had been relatively quiet towards one another. Like it had been in the beginning when you were ignoring each other. But that didnât stop you from letting him invade your mind at every waking minute. It almost saddened you in a way there was no more bickering or quick remarks with him. With how much it annoyed you, you never thought you would miss it.Â
The team had just finished a case and before everyone packed up and went home, Rossi announced that tomorrow everyone should come over for a little âget our minds off workâ get together. Your coworkers all thought it was a great idea to relax after the last few very stressful cases.Â
As excited as you were to finally go to one of Rossiâs house parties, you were also scared shitless. Parties with relatively new people in your life were hard. You were so quiet around new people and were scared to approach others; you often waited to be approached. To you, being a profiler was easier than having a social life.Â
But, maybe this time would be different. Thereâs not that many people on the team and youâd already started to familiarize yourself with them.Â
The next day, you were pulling up to Rossiâs house. If there was anything else to be intimidated by with this man- besides his years of experience in the BAU- it was this giant house. You were greeted by the man himself at his front door.Â
âY/N, glad you could make it.â He opened the door and welcomed you in.Â
He led you inside to where everyone else was gathered. Everyone was cheery at your arrival. Penelope with her clicky heels ran up to you and greeted you with a hug. It was refreshing to be around people who were so welcoming. It made it a little bit easier to really let your walls down.Â
Well, almost everyone. Spencer gave you a small wave from where he stood.Â
The night continued on and you would occasionally engage in conversation with the team. At this point, you were off to the side- standing in the kitchen and occasionally sipping some wine that Rossi had been bragging about and was just so excited for everyone to try. You were a bit too overwhelmed to go back to talking. The music was getting a bit loud and the lights seemed to be too bright. You opted for sitting on the barstool next to the counter and observing everyone around. Â
They were all off in small groups or pairs around the house. All except for you and Spencer. He was another outlier and standing away from all the commotion. You looked over in his direction and he caught your eye. You both glared at each other and you quickly averted your gaze away from him. Your thoughts started to race and you began playing with your hair.Â
After a moment, he glanced over in your direction again when you werenât looking. He was unintentionally profiling you and noticed you getting overstimulated. Your eyes laser focused like you zoned out, your foot tapping against the chair, and your hand anxiously playing with your hair.Â
While he wasnât exactly your friend, he did understand what it felt like when social gatherings got overwhelming. He made his way over to you, careful not to make you more nervous or uncomfortable.Â
âYou okay?â He asked you. You were pulled away from spacing out. His voice sounded a bit concerned- which took you by surprise. You were partially relieved someone approached you to help bring you back down to earth. That someone noticed something was off. What confused you was the fact that person was Spencer.Â
âIâm fine.â
He was well aware of what it meant when someone was âfineâ and you were clearly not fine. He felt bad that you were so quick to shut down his attempt to check on you. After all, it was his fault and he knew that.Â
âDo you wanna step outside?â He asked.Â
You were conflicted. You didnât want to be outside alone with him, but at the same time, you needed some time away from everything. Maybe it would help calm your nerves.Â
âMaybe for a bit.âÂ
You followed him outside onto the back patio. You took note of the fresh air and the muffled sounds from inside. It all felt like a weight lifted off your shoulders. Pretty soon though, you realized how awkward it was to be outside alone with him.Â
Spencer cleared his throat and spoke to break the silence, âSometimes these parties can be . . . a lot.â
âA little bit. I was doing fine for a while but I think my social battery is running low.â You confessed to explain your discomfort.Â
âYeahâ he replied. He appreciated the fact that you felt comfortable enough to express this with him. He tried to relate to you. âItâs the same with me. Sometimes I just need a moment to collect myself.âÂ
âExactly.â You were relieved to hear that he felt the same way. âPlus it doesnât help that I'm so new to the team.â You crossed your arms and slightly closed yourself off.
âI was the same way when I first joined.â He told her to try and ease your concerns. You were just like him at some point. The new guy and just trying to figure out how you fit in.Â
âItâs difficult at first, but you settle down after a bit. Once you get to know everyone.âÂ
âYeah itâs just the whole getting to know them part is a bit . . .â You abruptly stopped, hesitating to reveal too much to him. Â
âA bit what?âÂ
âIntimidating,â you confessed, avoiding his eyes.
He obviously noticed your hesitance and avoided his usual behavior with you. You were always so strong and quick to banter with him. But now you seemed vulnerable, and he didnât want to take advantage of that.Â
âItâs not just you, I promise.â He was being honest. This was the calmest and most genuine conversation the two of you had ever had. âI find them all pretty intimidating.âÂ
Your eyebrows raised at his confession. How could he possibly be intimidated by these people?
âReally? But youâve known them for so long. You all are so close.âÂ
âClose doesnât mean you canât be a little intimidated,â he replied. It might not make much sense, but it was the truth.Â
âI mean Hotch is always stonewall and silent, no matter what you say to him. And donât even get me started on Morgan.â He joked, knowing you would understand.Â
You lightly chuckled at his joke. âI get what you mean.â You were starting to understand him more. You thought it was ironic that one of the team members you were first intimidated by was also intimidated by the team. Now he was starting to seem less intimidating or annoying and more approachable. You kinda liked seeing this new side of Spencer.Â
âI guess Iâve always been like that. Worried to get to know people or open up.â You werenât entirely sure why you were telling him this, but you knew he would understand.Â
"I think when you're afraid of being hurt or judged or misunderstood by people, you try to keep your guard up." He told you, speaking from experience. From a young age until now, he's always felt misunderstood.Â
"And I think...maybe that's why you're on edge with me? You're not sure what to expect from me."
âAre you profiling me?â You asked jokingly. Spencer however thought you were serious and you noticed him tense up.Â
âIâm kidding.â Your expression softened to let him know you werenât actually accusing him of profiling you. âIâm gonna be completely honest, Iâve been on edge with you cause I thought you didnât like me.âÂ
He was a bit taken off guard by your statement. But at the same time, he couldn't deny it. He didn't dislike you now, but at first, he wasn't exactly fond of you. And now he was ashamed of that.
"I didn't like you." He admitted. "I thought you were pretentious, too eager to be accepted. I think I saw you as competition."Â
Spencerâs comment did sting. It was never sunshine and rainbows to hear someone doesn't like you. However, you did take note of his language. He said âdidnât,â âthoughtâ and âsaw,â all past tense. Does this mean he doesnât dislike you now? What you did appreciate was his reciprocated honesty. You both were making some progress in your relationship and you wanted to continue it.Â
âI was eager to be accepted. I wanted to feel like I belonged.âÂ
âI know how you feel.â He expressed his sympathy. âI regret not giving you a chance. Youâre not like I thought you were.â He also appreciated seeing this different side of you.
âYouâre not like I thought you were.â You admitted.Â
A little smirk tugs at his lips, âSo Iâm not as pretentious and selfish as you thought?âÂ
You lightly chucked, âI never thought you were selfish, but I did think you were a âknow-it-allâ and trying to show off.âÂ
Spencer really didnât want you to think he was a show off. Sure- he had a vast amount of knowledge, but he never wanted you to think he was bragging or that he knew better than you. âI do know a lot but I promise Iâm not trying to show off. I just have all this information in my head and I want to share it with people or Iâm really passionate about something and want to talk about it.âÂ
You understood that feeling all too well. There were so many times you wanted to ramble on about things you cared about or had knowledge on, but for the most part just stayed quiet. Meanwhile, he didn't keep quiet. He would go on and on. And while almost everyone else was either rolling their eyes or trying to shut him up, you were listening intently. You didnât want to admit it back then, but now you were feeling up to it.Â
âI will admit, while I did think of you as a know it all, I found a lot of your tangents interesting.â You admitted.Â
His eyebrows raised in surprise. He was so used to people dismissing him. It was nice to hear you often would listen. âReally? You didn't mind me babbling on?" He asked, relieved with your response.Â
"I mean, it is something I have trouble with. I tend to talk too much.âÂ
âOh Dr. Reid I am very familiar with rambling and being worried about talking too much.â You paused for a moment- considering how much more you wanted to share with him. âI know it may not seem like it because Iâm always quiet around the team but.. once I get comfortable around people, I actually get very ramblyâ
"You do?" He asked, sounding surprised. âAbout what?â Â
âReally anything. Mostly things Iâm passionate about like you. Iâll also tend to go on tangents about memories or just things happening in my life.âÂ
You made your way to a bench on the patio as you spoke. Spencer followed and sat down on a chair adjacent to you. You brought your attention back to him and noticed his focused gaze on you and he quickly licked his lips, a habit you noticed he did all the time.
"You really are a lot like me. You're just quieter at first." He added, teasing you a little. While he was not one for social cues, he had the sudden urge to be bold and make a joke. "Maybe next time I see you rambling, I won't immediately contradict you."Â
You dramatically dropped your jaw and placed your hand over your heart. âWow, you really know how to give a compliment,â you said, pretending to be offended.Â
He laughed with a bright grin. "I'm sorry. Let me rephrase. The fact that you're so silent and reserved makes it that much more thrilling when I find out how much of a chatterbox you actually are." He joked, being playful as before.
Your cheeky smile slightly falters for a moment. You hoped he wouldnât notice but he did. âI think you wonât be so thrilled once I actually turn into a chatterbox around you.â
"Actually I think I would find it intriguing." He told you, looking directly into your eyes. "The quiet ones tend to be the most interesting and complex when they do end up talking."
âIâm not that interesting.â
âI beg to differ. Youâre very interesting. Probably the most interesting person on the team.âÂ
Did he really say that? Did he mean it? Or was he just being nice? You tried not to profile him, but couldnât help it. His body language expressed he was being honest. Uncrossed legs and arms, open palms, eye contact. The only thing you didnât notice when studying his body language was his dilated pupils.Â
âThank you,â you smiled at his compliment, âI doubt Iâm the most interesting though. You maybe, Mr. Three PHDs and can read 20,000 words per minute.âÂ
He smiled back at you, âJust because I'm well educated doesnât mean you canât be as interesting as me, if not more.âÂ
You couldnât believe he was saying such nice things to you. This was the first time you guys were actually making some kind of connection.. and it felt wonderful.Â
âI still canât believe weâve known each other for this long but are just now talking. And by talking, I mean not getting into a spat after speaking for more than 3 minutes.â You confessed with a hint of playfulness in your voice at your joke.Â
âYeah, I feel like I barely know you.âÂ
âWhat would you like to know?â You asked.Â
He thought for a moment trying to think of a question to ask. You noticed once again that he licked his lips, trying to concentrate.Â
âLetâs start with something simple. Whatâs your favorite color?â He asked.Â
âWow, I think thatâs a bit too personal.â You said, voice laced with sarcasm. You tried your hardest to contain your amusement but started to smile. He smiled back at you. At first, he was always confused with sarcasm and social cues. To be honest, he still was. But he could just tell with you. He knew when you were joking and when you were being serious. He found your sense of humor amusing.Â
âYellow.â You answered. âWhatâs yours?âÂ
âPurple.â He replied.Â
You intended to leave it inside your head- but a quiet âhuhâ made it past your lips as an idea came into focus.Â
âWhat? Is it my choice for my favorite color?â He tried to joke with you but was also a little bit serious.Â
âOh no, it's just I thought it was interesting because those are complementary colors. You know how they are opposite on the color wheel?â You asked even though you figured he knew.Â
He nodded his head, âYes! Because they are on opposite ends of the color wheel, when theyâre used together it creates a vibrant contrast and enhances visual appeal. The two colors almost balance each other out and support each other's intensity. Complimentary colors are a key component to color theory.â He suddenly noticed how long he was talking and his posture stiffened. He pressed his lips into a thin line and avoided eye contact. âTold you I talk too much.â
âAnd I told you that I find your rambling interesting.âÂ
His head perked back up at you. You genuinely wanted to listen to him. It was refreshing to talk to someone that didnât cut him off or zone out.Â
âThatâs kinda like us though, donât you think?âÂ
âWhatâs like us?â He asked confused, still thinking about the fact that you actually enjoy listening to what he has to say.Â
âHow our favorite colors are complimentary colors. Like you said, they support each other's intensity. When you first see them theyâre opposites, but the more you look the more they compliment each other.âÂ
He softly smiles. âThat does sound like us. The more we learn about each other, the more we find we have in common.âÂ
There was a short pause where you both considered his statement. You did want to know more about him. You wanted to know all of him.Â
âCan I ask you a question this time?âÂ
âOf course.âÂ
âSo, you're always reading. Like everywhere you go, you carry a book with you. I wanna know: whatâs a book you could read over and over again and never get tired of?â You wanted to know beyond his favorite color. You wanted to get to the various building blocks that made him the way he was.Â
Spencer considered your question for a moment. Trying to go through the near infinite list of books heâs read in his life. You could tell he was concentrating on his answer because licked his lips. âOliver Twist by Charles Dickens.âÂ
âIs he one of your favorite authors?âÂ
âYes.â He said almost immediately, confident in his answer.Â
âHow come you like that book so much?â You asked.
You could see this sort of spark enter his eyes the more you asked about it. Giving him the chance to share his passions. âOliver Twist was one of the first books that used satire to deliver social commentary. Particularly in this book the social commentary was aimed at poverty in 19th century England. The book also quickly gained attention after its publication due to the scandalous subject matter in which crimes, such as murder, were depicted in detail.âÂ
Spencer finally stopped rambling and almost looked as if he caught his breath from the endless talking. But what he was met with was your undivided attention.
âThat sounds really interesting, maybe one day I should give it a read.â You say with a soft smile.
âYou should,â he matched your smile, but it seemed a bit more sheepish due to his brief tangent. âHave you ever read Charles Dickens before?â
You shook your head in response. âIâve never read anything by him. I actually donât read much. But I used to in high school.â You revealed.Â
âWhat have you read?â He asked. He leaned slightly forward and unconsciously mirrored your body language and placed his right hand on his leg like you did yours.
âPretty much the same books everyone else had to read for school.â You paused and tapped your fingers trying to refresh your memory.
âTo Kill A Mockingbird, The Great Gatsby, 1984, um.. a few Shakespeare books.â You answered with the few books you could remember.Â
âWhich one did you like the most?âÂ
âIâm not sureâ, you sighed and thought about his question, wanting to give him a genuine answer. âMaybe.. Macbeth. I remember finding the story interesting and I did a group project on Macbeth and Lady Macbeth's descent into madness. Like the scene where sheâs hallucinating the blood on her hands.âÂ
Your voice started to pick up speed and volume ever so slightly. He could tell you were getting more passionate the more you spoke. Subtly displaying how you could ramble once you opened up to someone. He smiled as you continued, happy to see that you felt comfortable enough around him to let a hidden part of yourself out into the open.Â
âI guess that kinda explains why I wanted to be a profiler and learn about psychology and forensics. I was interested in how Lady Macbeth's guilt manifested and caused her delusions. I wanted to understand why people did the things they did.â
âI can tell, you have this curiosity. You want to understand. Know the âwhyâ. He mentally recalled the times you would express your curiosity during work.Â
âYeah, pretty much.âÂ
He pressed his lips in a line. âIs it- is it my turn to ask you something now?â He stuttered slightly.Â
âI mean you donât have to. Itâs nobodyâs âturnâ but you can if you want.âÂ
âI do.â He replied immediately. The corners of your mouth perked up into a small smile. He mirrored you.
âI may be stealing your previous question. Like you said you donât read much. But I have noticed you listen to music a lot. I want to know a song you could listen to over and over again.âÂ
He was right, you often listen to music. Mostly on your way into work or on the jet, you would be wearing your signature headphones and have some playlist on. It was your own way of coping with the stress of your job. You looked down at the ground as you recalled the songs in your favorite playlist.Â
âDreams by The Cranberries.â You brought your eyes back up to face him. But what you saw was confusion in Spencerâs eyes. He tried to hide it but you knew better. âHave you heard that song?â
He did that little sideways pout you often saw him doing when he was in awkward situations.
âIâm not sure,â he replied. Spencer broke eye contact, embarrassed he didnât know something from pop culture.Â
âItâs okay. Remind me next time I have my headphones and Iâll show you.â You spoke calmly to reassure him there was nothing to be embarrassed about.Â
He brought his attention back to you. Relieved to hear your gesture instead of a quip about his lack of pop culture knowledge like he was used to.Â
âI will.âÂ
âAlright my turn.â You shifted your weight and brought your legs up to your side so your whole body could face him. âUm, it's kind of a personal question though. Iâm curious about something.âÂ
âGo ahead. What is it?â He asked, giving you his whole undivided attention.Â
âDoes it ever bother you when people question your age when you say how educated you are?âÂ
He was somewhat thrown off by your question, but something told him you've wanted to ask him this for a while.
He furrowed his eyebrows, âI wouldnât say it bothers me. Considering I have had such an extensive education so early in my life, itâs completely understandable that someone would question how I did it at a young age.âÂ
âHmm,â you hummed in response. He knew that wasnât the answer you were looking for.Â
âCan I ask you something personal?â He asked before asking his real question. He appreciated your concerns about potentially pushing a boundary and he reciprocated it. He didnât want to break this newfound friendship- if he could call it that- by making you uncomfortable.Â
You nodded your head, silently telling him it was okay.
He slightly fidgeted with his hands. âDid you ask me that because people question your age?âÂ
âYes,â you answered hesitantly. âIâve never looked my age.âÂ
He thought about his next question before asking. âI hope you donât take this the wrong way, Iâm just trying to understand. Why does that bother you?âÂ
âIt bothers me when people donât take me seriously. I mean Iâm in my late 20s and some people still think I look fresh out of college. It hasnât happened as often since I joined the BAU but so many people in law enforcement donât take me seriously. People tend to think Iâm too innocent to have a job like this.â You confessed to him as you avoided looking him in the eyes.
"I wouldn't say you're innocent.â His comment brought your eyes back to him.Â
âBut you do have a soft demeanor. It makes you approachable. If anything, those qualities are an incredible asset to this job whether it be when you're speaking to victims or their family members.âÂ
Even though he would often throw snarky retorts to you in the past and try to get under your skin, he always admired how good you were at your job. Of course, you were an amazing profiler and had no trouble standing against dangerous unsubs. But the way you handled incredibly sensitive situations with such calmness and comfort with others was admirable. During cases with children, you were able to ease their worries and provide a safe space.
âWhile you are very sweet and shy, I would never call you innocent.â
âThanks,â you smiled at his compliments. You felt understood hearing his affirmation. It also warmed your heart to hear that he thought so highly of you. Especially since the last few weeks, you thought he hated your guts. Although- his comment did make you more curious about how you were perceived. âHalf the time I donât realize how shy I am or how I present myself,â you weakly chuckled.
âThere were actually a lot of ways to deduce that you're shy,â he matched your lighthearted tone but also kept a sense of seriousness to prove he was being genuine.
âWas it the fact that I was sitting by myself and scared to talk to them?â You half joked as you figured thatâs what he was going to imply.
"That was part of it, yes. But besides that, it was the way you often avoid direct eye contact, and the tone of your voice. It's gentle and low, as if you're afraid of coming on too strong.â He was too caught up in his thoughts and observations to realize how much he was divulging. âYou keep your distance and your words are always measured or not overly assertive. Almost like if you do come off assertive you will receive backlash."Â
When he met your eyes again, he noticed how frozen you were. On the outside you didn't reveal much, simply had a stoic expression. He knew you better than that. He knew that he had hit a nerve and started to panic that he went too far. He had finally wrecked this slowly growing friendship like he thought he would, by being himself.Â
âWow, yeah that sounds pretty spot on,â you agreed. You sounded soft spoken and played with your hair again, of course without your knowledge.     Â
âI am so sorry. I didnât mean to make you uncomfortable.â He abruptly spattered in a panic.
âNo itâs okay really,â you interrupted trying to reassure him. âI just didnât expect you to be so ... correct.âÂ
He pressed his lips into a thin line, relieved he didn't mess things up, but still slightly worried he had left you feeling exposed. "I guess I'm just good at noticing things about people,â he shrugged.
âYou forget, we get paid to notice things about people,â you joked with him, trying to make him feel better by lightening the situation. Of course, it worked.Â
"That's true." He chuckled and paused for a moment to consider. Then he continued with his profile of you.Â
"It's just the way your voice softens whenever you become uncomfortable, almost whispering or lowering in tone. Or your nervous habits, like when you play with your hair." It was a gesture he was pretty keen on catching.
You suddenly were very aware of the fact you were playing with your hair. You quickly dropped your hands and crossed your arms.Â
"It's not bad that you do that, you know,â his voice had a slight crack in it. âIt's just something you do subconsciously." He told her, trying to be comforting.
âDo you wanna know something you do subconsciously?â You asked, your voice with a hint of teasing. You decided that if he was going to profile you, you were going to profile him back.Â
He noticed your tone and that you had gained a bit more confidence. "Sure, hit me." He said as he awaited your reply with curiosity and interest.
âYou poke your tongue out a lot or lick your lips. Most of the time when youâre concentrating or lost in thought. Which means you definitely need to start using chapstick. Iâve seen you do it a lot since weâve been out here.â You explained.
"So, are you telling me my lips are dry?" He replied playfully, his grin widening.
âThey probably are,â you lightly laughed at the silliness of his question. He laughed along with you and subconsciously went to lick his lips again, but caught himself.
âI'm gonna be thinking about this so much more now,â he confessed.Â
âConsider it payback for pointing out how much I play with my hair when I'm anxious. I donât know what to do with my hands now,â you remarked as you dramatically waved your hands in the air.                                Â
âSorry,â he awkwardly apologized.
âI already told you itâs alright. You're not the only one who analyzes behavior. Iâve noticed plenty of things you do and why you do it.âÂ
âLike what?â He furrowed his eyebrows, curious what particular things about him you had profiled. He noticed something though. The confidence you once had, had washed away after you collected your thoughts. Â
âI donât want to make you uncomfortable,â you stated.
"You wonât make me uncomfortable,â he responded almost immediately. âI promise. I really want to know.â
You took a deep breath before explaining your observations. âYou desperately want to be heard. You love to share the endless knowledge you have, but when someone walks away or cuts you off your reaction is almost that of deflating. And when someone does show a bit of interest in what you have to say your voice perks up and almost cracks with excitement. Then you talk a lot faster, probably a mixture of excitement and as a way to keep the other person engaged and to not lose their attention.âÂ
Spencer carefully listened to every word you said. Not a single deduction was false. You had read him like a book in the short time you knew him. You noticed something about him that most of the team couldnât pick up on.Â
"You're right about everything,â he said with a soft tone. Almost everyone interrupted him, you never did. This got him thinking. Of course everyone on the team made observations about each other, theyâre profilers of course. However, he wondered why you had made so many about him.Â
"Are you always this observant about everyone? And I mean everyone. Or is it just me that gets the special treatment?" He asked his last question with a hint of a teasing tone.
You scoffed, âyeah right, like you get special treatment.â You thought about your response, not wanting to reveal too much.
âI guess I might have paid attention to you because you were the only one who was so closed off to me. I wanted to know why. I wanted to know who you were even if you werenât going to tell me.âÂ
He was right, you were paying him special attention. The fact that you wanted to know who he was despite his closed off nature revealed enough.Â
âSo you admit it, I get special treatment?" He cheekily asked.Â
âOh shut up,â you retorted.Â
âMake me.â
Your lips pursed, holding back a smile.Â
Spencer noticed you were trying to hold back a smile and found it endearing. He also noticed something else about your reaction. You were blushing. You blushed as a result of his taunting. He got lost in the thought of you blushing from him.Â
âSomething you wanna share with the class?â You teased.Â
He didn't want to admit it, not yet at least. He wanted to make you sweat just a little bit and get a reaction out of you.Â
"I'm curious about something. Could you tell me what would cause someone's cheeks to flush?" He tried to seem genuine but of course he came off with a hint of cheekiness.Â
You furrowed your eyebrows. You were completely oblivious to your red face and were confused by his random inquiry.Â
âAre you questioning my profiling skills?â You lightly scoffed, not knowing what his true intentions were.
"No, not exactly. I just want to know what you think.â
Your expression changed to one of confusion but also amusement. You decided to play along with his little game.
âWell psychologically blushing could mean a multitude of things. Embarrassment, stress, anxiety, attraction.â While your voice stayed consistent, he noticed the change in your breath and how your eyes darted away from him. It was a brief expression, but he caught it. He got the answer he was looking for.
"And which one of those can explain why youâre blushing?" He raised an eyebrow and smirked as he leaned closer to you.
Your stomach dropped and eyes widened. You shifted your weight in your seat and touched your cheeks. âIâm not blushing..â You ignored his question.
"You are.â
You sighed and stood up, âWell if I am itâs probably because you just pointed it out and Iâm embarrassed.âÂ
"Oh, really?" He taunted and followed you. "I think that you might be blushing for a different reason."
You bit your lip out of frustration and crossed your arms. âAre you profiling me Spencer?âÂ
"Maybe I am,â he smirked. "I would say that maybe you've been so interested in me that you've been paying a lot of attention. That's why you took note of so many of my habits and behavior."Â
Your face got redder and you started playing with your hair again. You huffed, âI told you before, the reason I paid attention to you was because I didnât know you.â
"Sure, but you pointed out how you kept noticing I licked my lips. Why were you looking at my lips in the first place?"Â Â
You were caught between a rock and a hard place. âWhy are you so interested in why Iâm blushing or looking at your dumb face anyway? Why do you care so much?â You asked defensively.Â
He couldnât respond, he froze up.Â
âI mean, you question why I pay so much attention to you but here you are doing the same thing to me. Trying to read me like a book,â you accused.Â
He cleared his throat and stuffed his hands in his pockets. "I guess we're both curious about each other."
âI guess we are,â you responded. You saw his cheeks turn pink in reaction to your questioning. âLook whoâs red now.â
If his face could even get redder, it did. For a man that could probably say a thousand words a minute, it seemed like none of them could fall from his lips.Â
It was your turn to smirk. âI canât believe Iâve managed to leave you speechless. Never thought that would happen.â
"Shut up,â he sheepishly scoffed.Â
âMake me.â
Spencer felt his stomach flutter, he smiled bashfully at your mimicking his own teasing. The seconds passed and neither of you spoke, neither of you had words. Both of you in your own heads. In your head, you got a stroke of confidence. You didn't know where it came from, maybe the teasing, maybe the fact that you had him speechless. But you took it and ran with it.
âMaybe the reason you wanted to know why I was blushing so badly, is the same exact reason I was blushing,â you mumbled.Â
The realization hit him in waves. You just admitted to the very thing he was trying to get out of you in the first place. He was speechless once again, but this was different. He stared at you with a stunned look, not knowing what to do.Â
You took his blank expression as a negative reaction, thinking you came off too strong. You slowly backed away from him, regretting putting yourself out there.Â
âSorry. I donât know why I said that. Just forget it.â You turned around to go back inside but felt something on your wrist. You turned around and saw Spencer had grabbed your wrist to stop you. His eyes wide and breath heavy.
"No. Donât,â he begged.Â
"Really?" You whispered softly.Â
He smiled, "yes. Please don't take it back."
You smiled back at him bashfully. Spencerâs reaction make your stomach do backflips, but it made you wonder.Â
"Can I ask, why did you pay such close attention to me?Â
He released his light grasp on your wrist and instead placed your hand in his. "I couldn't stop analyzing every single detail about you. I wanted to know you inside and out. There was something about you that felt intoxicating. After every time I spoke to you, even if it was just us bickering or arguing, I couldnât stop thinking about it.âÂ
He looked down at your joined hands and started to rub his thumb over your hand. You looked up at him and smiled, glancing at his lips. âWell you definitely must be thinking about something now, you licked your lips.â
He couldnât help but feel a little embarrassed. You made him feel like he was on full display, like he was a book that only you could read.Â
He slightly blushed at your comment. âI am. Can you guess what I'm thinking about?"
You grabbed his other hand with yours as a smirk grew on your face, âHow close we are. How itâs probably driving you crazy..â You nearly whispered the last part as you leaned closer to him, âhow Iâm making you crazy..â
"You do.â Spencer wrapped one of his arms around your waist and placed his hand on the small of your back. A shiver ran down your spine as his hand touched your back. Of course, he could tell and was light headed by the effect you had on him. Heâd never felt so intoxicated by someone before. âYouâve made me a mad man ever since I met you.âÂ
Your heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to burst out of your chest.
âWhat about you?â He asked. âDo I make you crazy?âÂ
You glanced between his eyes and his lips.Â
âYes..â
It was like you both were on the exact same wavelength. You both dove in at the same time and slammed your lips together. Both of you just so desperate to get a taste of the other. The kiss was tender and passionate, with no single person in control. You both moved together in synced motions. All of the arguments, all the tension that had been slowly building up could be released.
When you finally parted, Spencer rested his forehead against yours. You felt his airy breath as he tried to come back down to earth. You placed a hand on his face and stroked his cheek with your thumb.Â
âIâve been wanting to do that for weeks,â he breathed.Â
âI can tell,â you chuckled. âwhatâs stopping you from doing it again?â
âDo you want me to?â He asked desperately.Â
You placed your other hand on the back of his neck, âI love hearing you talk.. but shut up and kiss me.
Before today he never liked the idea of you telling him what to do. But now, he was at your mercy. He didnât hesitate and locked your lips with his once again. You both melted together like lovesick teenagers. But moments like these of course donât last forever.Â
The sound of the patio door opening fell deaf on both your ears. It wasnât until you heard Derek Morgan that you both pulled away from each other.Â
âWhatâs going on out here?â Derek questioned with a smirk.Â
You and Spencer couldnât speak, too frozen to react.Â
His grin only grew, âMy man,â he chuckled as he glanced at Spencer.
âDonât kill each other while you're out here.â Derek left the way he came and closed the patio door.Â
You sighed, âHeâs gonna tell someone isnât he?â
âYupâ
~
He made his way back to his coworkers with a cheeky grin plastered on his face. âWhatâs got you all happy?â Emily asked.Â
âLooks like our two angry birds are now two love birds,â he answered.Â
âWhat? What are you talking about?â Penelope sprinted over as fast as she could with her heels.Â
âHow I just caught Reid and Y/N making out.â
The room exploded with chaos at the reactions to his news.
JJ, who was standing off to the side with Hotch, furrowed her eyebrows, âI thought they hated each other?âÂ
Hotch glanced towards the patio door and saw the light shadow of two figures. âNo they don't. Not really.âÂ
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đ˛ ࣪ââĄđ CALL MY NAME, IâM YOURS TO TAME â 18+
larissa weems x fem!reader
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word count: 4.9k
status: completed
summary: You and Larissa Weems have been best friends since your years spent together at Nevermore. You have been meeting for tea every week since your graduation. But when the pharmacy in Jericho runs out of heat suppressants, you have to miss your afternoon tea with her.
And Larissa, being the dutiful best friend, pays you a visit instead.
tags: smvt, fluff, werewolf reader, in heat, kn0tting, decades of mutual pining, established friendship, soft larissa weems, larissa weems with a d1ck, shapeshifting, p in v, nickname mommy, nickname puppy
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âHere is your tea, dear.â
âThanks, Riss,â You take the teacup from Larissaâs pale hands and rub the pad of your thumb over the painted golden rim of the cup before setting it down on a pretty white saucer. âSo, anything else to catch me up on this week?â
Larissa takes a long sip from her own florally adorned teacup and sinks into the armchair across from you. âDo you remember Morticia Frump?â She asks with the smallest hint of bitterness on her tongue. It doesn't come as a surprise to you. Larissa is a sweet woman, but you don't think you've ever heard her speak about Morticia without that resentment in her voice.
âYes. Your roommate from when we attended Nevermore?â You nod and settle back into your own chair, folding one leg over the other. You notice Larissaâs gaze lingering on them for a flash of a moment, but donât bother bringing it up. âYouâve spoken to her recently?â
Larissa gives a grim incline of her head and huffs a soft sigh through her nose. âIndeed. She called last night to request that I meet her child and consider enrolling her in the school.â
âAnd will you?â You ask curiously, lifting your teacup and taking a slow sip. There is just the right amount of sugar and milk mixed in. Larissa always makes the perfect cup of tea.
âI have a duty to look after the children of outcasts. I would not cast a young girl out just because I am not on the best of terms with her mother,â Larissa whispers. âI just wish I did not have to meet Morticia in order to enrol her daughter. Iâm afraid it will be too painful to see her again.â
You send a sympathetic smile in her direction and shift forward in your seat. Leaning across the coffee table, you reach out to squeeze her knee. Her breath hitches at the touch as she watches you like a hawk. âItâll be okay, Riss. Everything happened so long ago. And if she annoys you⌠Just think about all the different ways youâd like to fight her, then tell me all about it next week.â
Larissa giggles at that and places her large hand over your smaller one which rests on her knee, giving it a gentle pat. The touch sends a jolt of electricity through you, which you mentally blame on static. âYou are right. Thereâs no point in being so absorbed in the past.â
âI usually am right,â You tease with a soft laugh. âBe the bigger person.â
Larissa raises a neatly plucked eyebrow at that. An amused smirk dances across her painted lips and she quips, âPun intended?â
You snort around another sip of tea, almost spitting the stuff everywhere. You manage to choke it down and the two of you burst into a fit of giggles. After your laughter trails off, you spend another half an hour catching each other up on everything that has happened in the past week. Just like you have been doing every week for⌠well, years.
Larissa has been your best friend since you both attended Nevermore. Many times you have looked at her and wondered if there could be something more between you, but you donât even know if she would want that. If she even likes women. And youâre terrified to risk your friendship by asking her out⌠No matter how much you adore her.
When the teacups have been drained and the grandfather clock pushed up against the wall starts to chime the hour, you sigh and lean back in your chair. âTime for me to get going.â
Larissa tsks softly, a playful pout poking out her lower lip. âShame. Time always flies by so quickly with you.â
âI know,â You agree with a short nod. âMaybe we should start doing sleepovers instead of tea.â
âMaybe,â She whispers. A soft pink blush dusts across her pale cheeks and she averts her gaze, clearing her throat. She nudges her empty cup of tea out of the way and rises from her chair, towering over you. âCome on. Iâll walk you out.â
Oh, how you'd love to climb her like a tree.
You follow her out of her dimly lit office and walk by her side as she leads you through the school to the large front entrance. You fit in some more idle chatter along the way through the familiar hallways, before coming to a stop on the stone steps outside.
âUntil next week, dear,â Larissa leans down to wrap her arms around you, giving you a tight hug.
âSee you then, Riss,â You stretch up on your tiptoes to hug her back, taking a moment to enjoy the scent of her sweet perfume lingering in your nose.
âIâll be counting the minutes,â She whispers in your ear. There is such conviction in her soft voice that it feels as though she truly means those words.
She gives your waist a gentle squeeze and you reluctantly pull away from her. You can feel your heart hammering in your chest as your brain immediately cries out in protest at the absence of her warmth. With one final goodbye, you turn away from her and make your way down the steps, bracing yourself for the walk home in the bitter afternoon air.
ἍáĄ
You hum a soft tune to yourself as you bustle around your apartment, struggling with the bundle in your arms. You snatch up every pillow and blanket you can find, tossing them onto the bed to be arranged into a nest later. Each of them have been picked out specifically for the purpose of nesting, every one as warm and comfortable as possible. The pile on the bed is almost bigger than you, and you stand and stare at the mess of blankets with a proud smile on your face. Although you have your suppressants, it still feels comforting to bury into your nest during your heat, even if it is just to nap or read a book. Like being wrapped up in a warm hug from Laâ
You startle at the sudden shrill ringing of your phone from where it rests on your nightstand. You place a hand over your thundering heart and puff out a breath to calm yourself. In a few long strides, you cross the room and snatch the phone up to answer it. âHello?â
âHello! This is the Jericho pharmacy calling,â The familiar voice of Mrs Jones, the pharmacist, comes from the other end of the phone. âWe are so terribly sorry for the inconvenience, but we will not be able to refill your prescription for suppressants at the moment. Our supplier has had a stock issue, and we have to wait for more to come from a bigger supplier in the city.â
âWhat?â You swallow hard, your eyes widening. Panic splits through you like branching lightning, your hand curling into a fist around the phone so hard you almost shatter it. âHow long will that take?â
âAround a week and a half,â The pharmacist informs you.
âA week and a half? But⌠My heat starts tomorrow, and I donât have any suppressants,â You whisper. âI havenât gone through a heat in years. You donât even have enough to get me through the week?â
âIâm afraid not. Iâm so sorry. We can fill your next prescription free of charge as an apology for the delay. And if you need scent blockers, we can have them dropped outside your door.â
âAlright⌠Well, thank you for telling me. See you in a week and a half,â You hang up and toss your phone on the bed. Scrubbing your hands irately down your face, you mutter one word.
âShit.â
ἍáĄ
Sleep doesnât come easily to you that night. Even wrapped up in the bundles of pillows and blankets that have been arranged for your nest, you canât stop tossing and turning. Anxiety floods through your veins, making your body feel cold and your chest tight. Itâs been so long since you allowed your body to go through a heat. There will be years of pent up energy in control of your body, and it's terrifying. You turned to the internet, searching through outcast forums to find out whether it will be more intense when it comes. Every werewolf in the world seems to be in agreement.
The longer itâs been, the worse your next heat will be.
By the time morning comes, you havenât slept a wink. You sigh and force yourself out of your bed, shuffling to the kitchen to shove a cup of coffee down your throat. As you stir the sugar cubes into your favourite mug, your gaze happens to drift towards the calendar pinned up on your wall. On the square for that day, there is a large red circle with a little teacup scribbled in the middle.
âShit,â You hiss for what feels like the millionth time in the last twelve hours. You stand there and stare at the doodle of the teacup, pondering whether you should still try to attend or call Larissa up and tell her you canât make it to tea that day.
You know if you venture out of the house and your heat comes on, any alpha nearby will be able to smell you from a mile away. There may not be that many in Jericho, but even one would pose such a great danger to you⌠Never mind the werewolf students at Nevermore.
It would also be incredibly embarrassing to go into heat right in front of your best friend, and have her drive you home as you gush all over the seats of her car and whine in need. You shudder at the thought of what Larissa might think of you after something like that.
Before you can even make a proper decision on what to do, an odd feeling shoots through you. You feel your knees going weak, a sticky liquid clinging to your thighs and soaking your shorts. Another curse slips out as you clutch onto the edge of the counter, gasping at the coiling sensation twisting through your lower stomach. Your whole body shakes and you grab onto the counter for dear life.
Looks like you definitely wonât be seeing Larissa today.
You abandon your coffee, letting it go cold on the counter as you drag yourself back into your bedroom. Itâs a difficult trip. Your legs threaten to give out beneath you the whole way there, your mind screaming at you to lay down with them spread and just hope an alpha happens to come along. Your brain has never felt so fuzzy before. Youâve never felt so stupid.
The moment you make it back to your room, you throw yourself into the nest. Your clothes are off in an instant. Flung carelessly in a heap in the corner. With trembling hands, you reach into your nightstand and grab a small purple bullet vibrator, fumbling around to switch it on. The trusty little toy has been used many times in the past while you thought of Larisâ of⌠stuff. As soon as it makes contact with your aching clit you whine and arch off the bed, your body flooding with relief now that you finally have some friction. You bring yourself to the peak within minutes. And again. And again. And againâŚ
But itâs not enough.
You shove your fingers inside while stimulating yourself with the bullet. Two isnât enough. You add another. Not enough. You sob and writhe, your stupid mutt brain and your body aching for one thing. A quick glance at the alarm clock sitting on your nightstand shows the time Larissa should be waking up for the day. You know you should let her know while your brain still works somewhat.
You lick your dry lips and reach out for your phone. Reluctantly, you switch off the vibrator and set it to the side while you call Larissa. She answers almost immediately.
âHello, darling,â Her sweet, sleepy voice comes through the other end of the phone. âAre you alright?â
Biting back the soft whine that bubbles up from your chest proves almost impossible. The sound of her voice sends another flash of desire through you, your essence coating your shaking thighs. âLarissa,â You whisper hoarsely. âI⌠I canât⌠Make it⌠TodayâŚâ
Concern rings clear through her voice as she hears you panting. âOh? Is everything alright, dear?â
âYeah,â Your fingers gravitate towards your swollen clit, rubbing at it slowly as you listen to her speak. You gasp before you can bite back the sound, and clear your throat. âYeah. Just⌠Donât feel so good. Iâll see you next week?â
âOkay⌠Get better soon, alright? Do call me if you need anything.â
âI will,â The words come out in a breathless mumble before you hang up the phone and chuck it to the side. Just the memory of her voice has you growing wetter by the second, your fingers coated in your juices as you desperately try to satisfy yourself. Flashes of her face shoot through your mind, of her large hands and long fingersâŚ
The vibrator is snatched up again in an instant.
You spend the next hour pleasing yourself without a break. Overstimulation makes your body jolt and twitch, but you canât stop. You canât. It just isnât enough. Your mind is well and truly mush at this point, shown in the way your gaze drifts towards the door and for just a second, you consider opening the door and letting your scent waft out. Waiting for the first alpha to come and claim you.
For a moment, you seriously think about it. It would make your heat more bearable. Yes, said alpha might do horrible things to you, and you donât really want that, butâŚ
Before you can do anything stupid, the doorbell rings.
Sobbing in frustration, you set your vibrator down again. You force yourself up on shaky legs, not bothering to put pants on. You simply tug the oversized t-shirt down over yourself and shuffle to the front door, yanking it open.
Standing there in front of you is Larissa. Clutched in her hands is a wicker basket stuffed full of gifts. Teabags, cough drops, a couple of face masks, some flowers and a small teddy bear. âHello,â Larissa greets you with a bright smile. âSince you arenât well, I thought I would bringââ As soon as she catches sight of you, her words trail off. â...Oh.â
âLarissa,â You gasp. You have to grip onto the door frame to keep yourself upright. Your cheeks are flushed beyond belief, your eyes glazed over and distant. There is a thin layer of sweat on your skin, not to mention the wet patches on the back of your long shirt and your thighs. âIâm in heat.â
Her own cheeks flush when she hears those words. âI⌠I thought you didnât go into heat. I thought you took pills.â
âI do. Pharmacy ran out.â Those are the only words you can manage before another tidal wave of need crashes through you and you whimper, sinking to the ground.
âOh, my darlingâŚâ Larissa coos and invites herself inside. She closes and locks the door behind her, sets the gift basket down on the coffee table, then lifts you gently from the floor. She pulls her coat off and folds it over the back of the couch, then slips her feet out of her high heels. âCome on, my sweet. Letâs get you nice and comfortable, okay?â
You know there is no comfortable for you right now, but you donât dare mention that to her when she is being so sweet. So attentive. You feel yourself getting more wet.
She scoops you up into her arms with ease and carries you to the bedroom. Her chest rumbles a little when she clears her throat upon seeing the vibrator carelessly left on your soaked sheets. Thankfully, she says nothing about it and carefully sets you down.
It kills you to have her so close. You just want to rut against her milky white thigh and have her praise you, you want those long fingers inside you, you want her mouth on you. Youâve loved her for decades, but youâve never felt such intense need for her in all that time.
âLarissa,â You whimper again, but you have nothing to say. You just need her attention.
âPoor thing,â She whispers. She hesitates for half a second before reaching out to brush her fingertips over your slick thigh. âWhat can I do for you, dear?â
That simple touch over your thigh alone makes you jolt and gasp. âDonât⌠ask me that,â You plead. âYou wonât like the answer.â
Larissa leans closer, her larger frame looming over yours as she reaches her free hand out to cup your chin. Her fingers are so gentle as they tilt your head back, as though she is handling something as delicate as a porcelain doll. âWhat can I do for you, dear?â She repeats in a firm whisper.
You melt as youâre forced to stare up into her sapphire eyes. It feels like you could become nothing more than a puddle in a pile of blankets if she continues this. âIâŚâ
âTell me,â She urges. Keeping her gaze fixed on you, she dips her head and presses a sweet little kiss to your jaw. âLet me help you. Tell me how.â
As pathetic as it is, the very little resolve you had left snaps as soon as you feel her lips on your skin. âFuck me,â You pant, raising your hips unabashedly.
âAre you sure?â She asks, her grip on your chin growing slightly firmer. âAre you sure, sweetheart? Iâll do that for you if thatâs what you need, but I donât want you to regret it laterâŚâ
âLarissa!â You groan before breaking out into a pathetic ramble. âI wonât regret it. I have loved you since we were teenagers, youâre the love of my life, there is literally nobody else in this world I would rather have help me with this. You must know that. You must have picked up on how much I love yââ
Before you can even finish that word, her lips are on yours.
Both of her hands move to pin your hips to the bed, forcing you to keep still instead of uselessly writhing around. The sheets beneath you become soaked almost to the point of ruin as she kisses you hard, her tongue brushing against yours desperately. You struggle to keep up with the searing heat of her kiss, but she doesnât seem to mind as she takes complete control. Your hips fight against her hold, and as a result she pins you down harder.
âRiss,â You whine against her lips.
âI know, darling,â She shushes you, one of her hands drifting from your hip to between your legs. You gasp out as her fingers press against you, teasing between your folds. âI know. Give me a minute, okay?â
âCanât,â A soft sob slips past your parted lips as you pant, the pure desire for her making your body shake. âCanât. Need you to knot me.â
âYou need to wait a moment for my powers to work,â As though trying to sate you for the moment, two of Larissaâs long fingers slip inside you while her thumb rubs at your clit. When you gasp and arch into the feeling, she coos softly and begins kissing along the column of your throat. âMy poor puppy. So desperate, arenât you?â
All you can do is whine, unable to decide whether you should arch into her kisses or her fingers. Another orgasm rips through you as she circles your clit, your body squeezing around her fingers as you gasp and squirm.
âThatâs it,â Larissa praises, lightening her hold on your hip. âThatâs it, sweetheart. Ride it out.â
You donât need more convincing than that as your hips move wildly through it, taking everything those digits are giving you.
But you still need more. More sobs leave you and you stare up at her pleadingly. The ability to form words on your lips has left you entirely. All you can do is whimper like the pathetic little thing you are.
âI know, puppy,â She suddenly slips her fingers out of you, making you whine louder. She shushes you firmly and you fall silent in an instant. She straightens up to her full height and begins hitching her skirt up to her thighs, unclipping her stockings and pulling down her panties. Your whole body seizes up at the sight of the penis beneath her skirt, hard and already leaking. She seems to have taken size into account, knowing you will be stretched with the knot. It isnât too long or thick, made perfectly to fit in your tight hole.
Sheâs so damn considerate you canât believe it.
Larissa lays back against the mountain of pillows you have set up, giving herself a tantalising stroke before patting her lap. âCome here, pup.â
You donât hesitate, scrambling across the bed and setting yourself on one of her large thighs. You fight the urge to rut against it, knowing there is a much better reward waiting right there for you if youâre a good girl for her. She rests her hands on your hips and carefully guides you over here. The leaking tip of her cock rubs against your folds, teasing your clit.
âAre you positive you want this?â Larissa questions in a gentle whisper. âI donât want to hurt you.â
âIt wonât hurt,â You assure her and cup her cheek. A little smile twists at your lips as she leans into the touch and sighs. Even if she hadn't created her cock to fit you perfectly, you would be so soaked and opened up by this point she could fit inside easily without hurting you.
âOkay. Relax for me, dear,â She nods. She surges forward to capture your lips with her own again. Her big hands pull you closer, and as she distracts you by kissing you like a woman starved, she slips inside you. Both of you gasp in unison, the sensation unfamiliar to each of you. She groans as your tight pussy clenches around her, taking her time to sink deeper and deeper inside you.
That isnât going to fly with you.
Without warning, you slam your hips down and sheathe her fully inside you. She moans in surprise and chokes out, âDarlingââ
Finally getting what youâve wanted this whole time, you donât stop. You fuck yourself feverishly on top of her, taking her cock deep inside you over and over again. You keen and whimper as your lips trail down to her neck, sucking and biting at every inch of pale skin you can reach. Even as your mind starts to blur, you have to force yourself not to sink your tiny fangs into her throat and claim her.
âDarling, please, slow downââ Despite her pleading words, her hands continue to guide your hips at the brutal pace you have set for yourself. Her head tips back against the headboard, harsh pants leaving her parted lips every second. âGods, you need to slow downââ
The stretch of her cock inside you is like pure heaven. To finally be filled, and have her doing it, is the most exhilarating thing you could ever dream of. Having her hit that spot deep inside you, hearing her moans and knowing you are the cause of them. Youâre sure youâve had this wet dream about a hundred times over the past couple of decades, but fuck none of those dreams could ever compare to the real thing.
âYou want me to slow down?â You pant in her ear, willing to do whatever she wants even that means slowing down when you just want her to fuck your brains out.
âGods, no,â She whispers and pulls you down as she starts meeting you halfway in quick thrusts.
You moan in sheer delight, melting against her chest as she fucks you hard. Like sheâs been holding back these same feelings for just as long as you have, and now she finally gets to let them out. She holds you tight to her chest with one hand while the other squeezes your ass, kneading it appreciatively between her fingers.
âRiss, Iââ You gasp as yet another climax starts to bubble up in the pit of your stomach. You can already feel this one is more intense than the others, and not just because youâre far beyond oversensitive at this point.
âThatâs it,â Larissa coos, âcome for me, darling. Let me feel you coming around me like a good pup.â
That is all the encouragement you need. This orgasm crashes through you like a tsunami as she pumps into you hard enough to fill the room with harsh slapping sounds. Your nails tear into her shoulders, sharpening into claws that rip right through her nice blazer. Clinging onto her for dear life, your whiny moans fill the room. All you can do is keep riding her and taking her with every deep thrust as your body jolts and writhes under her hold, your whole being on fire with the pleasure she gives you.
âYou want mommy to knot you, sweetheart? Want me to fill up that sweet little pussy?â She pants. Your body tightens around her cock at the sound of those words and she giggles, gripping your hips and dragging you down even harder into every snap of her own. âIâll take that as a yes.â
âYes,â You pant, nuzzling your nose into her neck and becoming pliant in her hands, allowing her to do whatever she wants with you. âPlease please please. Please knot me.â
Moments later, she gives you exactly what you want. She moans sweetly into your ear, her thrusts growing sloppy before she buries herself all the way inside you. She gasps and pants as her release pulses through you, the base of her cock swelling and keeping her stuck inside your pussy.
âYouâre mine, now,â She whispers possessively into your ear. Youâve never heard her use that tone with you before, and it makes you shiver with another wave of need. If she wasnât already stuck in you, youâd be riding her all over again just for that. She brushes some hair back from your sweaty face and kisses your temple. âYouâre mine, arenât you?â
âIâm yours,â You repeat in a brainless whisper. âI love you.â
âI love you, too, darling,â Larissa sighs, brushing her nose against your cheek. âI love you so, so much.â
She holds you for a long time, rubbing her hands up and down your back and praising you in a gentle voice. When she can finally pull out of you, she does so slowly, not wanting to hurt your sensitive hole. She curls a finger inside you to feel her own come filling you, and shivers at the feeling of her own stickiness on her fingertip.
âJust beautiful,â She murmurs and casts her blue eyes up to your face. âDo you feel better now, pup?â
âYeah,â You nod, still a panting mess -- but a satisfied panting mess. âThank you, Larissa. You⌠You didnât have to do that.â
âI know. But I wanted to,â She scoops you up and holds you close to her chest, before slipping her long legs over the side of the bed and carrying you bridal style towards the bathroom. âNow, letâs get you cleaned up, hmm?â
âLarissa?â
âYes, dear?â
âDid you really mean it?â You ask nervously as you peer up at her. âWhen you said you loved me?â
âOf course,â Larissa smiles down at you. Her eyes shine with sincerity, and you can tell there isnât a hint of dishonesty in her words. âIâve loved you for⌠a very long time, sweetheart.â
There is a flutter of hope deep in your stomach as you swallow down a lump in your throat. âYou have?â
âYes.â
You canât even bring yourself to say all of the things you want to as she perches you on the edge of the bath and begins running the hot water. As the steam fills the bathroom and she pours scented liquid into the water, all you can do is stare at her. At the red lipstick smudged across her beautiful lips, at her flushed cheeks visible even beneath her pale foundation. Her hair is still neatly pinned into place, she still looks eternally graceful despite the slight dishevelled appearance around her. This woman loves you. This⌠this goddess, standing before you, loves you.
âLarissa?â You clear your throat.
âYes?â She chuckles, clearly amused by your line of questioning.
âAfter my heat ends, would you like to go on a date with me?â You blurt out before you can talk yourself out of it.
Larissa watches you for a long moment, a smile twitching at her painted lips. Eventually she nods, reaching out to caress your face. âI would love that.â
She bathes you with a great deal of care, making sure to be delicate near your swollen clit and cum-filled hole. You soon convince her to join you as another rush of heat goes through you, and she knots you again in the bath. Then she has to wash you all over again. Over the course of the next three days, the two of you canât stop fucking. A couple of decades of pent up desire makes itself known in the course of a few days. During some point in those three days, she creates a set of long canine teeth for herself, sinks them into your throat and marks you as her own. At the end of it, youâre both utterly exhausted, but youâre happy.
So fucking happy.
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AITA for telling my pregnant wife she should start wearing maternity clothes?
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warnings: body insecurities, fluff and pregnancy
So, my (29M) wife (29F) is currently 24 weeks pregnant with our first child. Lately, sheâs been struggling to fit into her regular clothes because, well, her belly is growing. It's pretty obvious that her normal wardrobe isnât cutting it anymore â her shirts barely cover her bump, and her pants are clearly way too tight.
This morning, I was watching her try to button her pants, and it was pretty clear she was uncomfortable. She was tugging at them, trying to get them to fit, and honestly, it looked painful. I casually suggested that maybe itâs time for her to start looking into maternity clothes because, you know, theyâd be more comfortable for her growing body.
She immediately snapped at me, saying she wasnât fat and she could still wear her regular clothes. I wasnât implying she was fat at all â just that sheâs pregnant, and her body is changing, so maybe she should wear something that fits better. I didnât push it after that, but she left for work clearly upset.
AITA?
Tsukishima leaned against the kitchen counter, his arms crossed over his chest, eyes following (Y/N) as she tried, once again, to fasten the button on her favorite pair of trousers. With a smirk, he grabbed his coffee cup and took a sip, waiting for her huffs of frustration. At 24 weeks pregnant, her belly had recently "popped," making it more obvious than ever that her body was changing faster than she could adjust, which made her extremely moody and angry. Still, she wasnât ready to give up on her usual clothes, even though it was becoming painfully clear they were no longer accommodating her growing bump.
(Y/N) huffed in frustration, twisting her body to the side in an attempt to close the button. Tsukishima smiled at the sight of her and his voice broke through the quiet.
âMaybe itâs time to start buying maternity clothes.â
(Y/N) froze, turning to send him a sharp glare, frustration boiling over. âExcuse me?â
Tsukishima couldnât help the smile on his face. The sight of his wife and her cute belly made his heart race, now looking more like a mother whenever she was angry.
âYour bellyâs growing, youâre 24 weeks along⌠those clothes clearly arenât fitting anymore.â
(Y/N) stared at him, completely annoyed. The way he said fueling her frustration. âIâm not fat, Kei. I can still wear my clothes. I donât need any of that maternity stuff.â
Tsukishima raised an eyebrow, smirking. âIf you say so.â
That tone⌠That one that made it sound like he was teasing her only irritated her more. Spitting words under her breath, she tugged at the waistband again, trying to prove him wrong.
âThis fits me perfectly fine,â she muttered, closing the button and zipper with⌠letâs say, some difficulties.
âIâll drive you to work then.â
She nodded, storming out of the house, trying to ignore how tight her clothes were starting to feel.
*****
(Y/N) sat in her office, trying to focus on the set of slides in front of her. She needed to prepare the course material for the professor that was going to cover her during her maternity leave, but the growing discomfort around her hips and belly made it hard to concentrate. The pants were squeezing her waist in ways it was impossible to ignore and sitting in the office was not helping her at all. No matter how she adjusted her posture, nothing could help her, skin feeling raw from the waistband digging into her belly.
She placed a hand on top of it, sending a quick âsorryâ to him: her little baby, when it finally happened. A small, sharp pop.
She froze, looking down at the sight of the waistband finally letting her belly breathe. The button had popped out of her pants and it was now on the floor. Panicking, she tried to reach it and sensing she wouldnât be able to move without her pants possibly ripping, she tried to replace the button with something on her desk but not even clips made it possible.
Swallowing her pride, she grabbed her phone and hesitantly dialed Keiâs phone. He picked up almost instantly, tone casual. âHello.â
(Y/N) felt completely embarrassed and she was nearly in the verge of tears. âThe button popped.â
âWhat?â
âThe button on my pants⌠It popped.â
Silence, then a quiet laugh. âAre you being serious?â
(Y/N) ran a hand through her hair. âLove, I canât close my pants⌠Can you come help me?â
Another chuckle left his mouth. âIâll be there in 10 minutes.â
True to his word, Tsukishima arrived at her office not long after, leaning against the doorframe as she handed (Y/N) a jacket and a pair of his sweatpants. Not even looking at him in the eyes, (Y/N) closed the blinds and changed, leaving the university in silence, Tsukishimaâs hand resting lightly on her back, massaging the lower part of it reassuringly.
Surprisingly, he didnât make any comments during the ride but (Y/N) noticed that he was not taking the route home.
âNo.â
âYes, baby.â Tsukishima replied, keeping his eyes on the road. âYou need new clothes.â
(Y/N) knew he was trying to help but she was embarrassed and insecure about this whole thing. Her belly growing that fast was something she had not expected and even though she was grateful for the little boy that was growing inside of her, she couldnât help but mourn her old her. Her old clothes.
At the maternity store, she felt reluctant as she browse through the loose fabrics designed for people who, like her, had clearly outgrown their pre-pregnancy wardrobe. The clothes were cute and she couldnât say anything wrong about them but she was still unsure about the whole thing.
Tsukishima followed quietly, carrying the items (Y/N) was willing to try on, watching her with a soft smile on his face. If he could tell his old 17-year-old self that he, at 29, was going to be buying maternity clothes for his best-friend-now-turned-wife, he would probably die of a stroke.
âIâm going to try these.â
âIâll wait here.â
As soon as (Y/N) stepped into a changing room and tried on her first pair of maternity pants, the relief was instant. No squeezing or pinching like before. (Y/N) ran her hand over her bump, surprised at how light and comfortable she felt. It was like a weight had been lifted â not just physically, but emotionally too. She shook her head, embarrassed at her silly thoughts about her body and about how she snapped at her husband that same morning. She was growing a whole human, it was perfectly okay to outgrown her clothes and feel her body changing as days go by.
When (Y/N) stepped out of the dressing room, Tsukishima was waiting for her, leaning casually against the wall. His eyes immediately flickered to her stomach, then back up to her face. âHow do they feel?â he asked, his voice calm but curious.
(Y/N) shifted in place, tugging at the stretchy waistband, looking at herself in the mirror. âThey⌠actually feel really good,â she admitted, sounding almost surprised. âI didnât realize how uncomfortable I was until now.â
Tsukishima nodded, his eyes still focused on her belly, expression softening. âThatâs the point. You shouldnât have to fight with your clothes every morning.â
She sighed, leaning against the mirror. âI guess I just didnât want to admit that I needed them. Everythingâs changing so fast, and I wasnât... I'm not ready to let go of my old self. I'm already 24 weeks and this whole thing is speeding up and I'm not keeping up with all the changes..."
Tsukishima stepped closer, his gaze gentle as he reached out to touch her belly, his large hand resting on the curve. âYou donât have to let go of anything,â he said softly. âYouâre still you, Y/N. Belly or no belly, maternity clothes or not. It doesnât change who you are. You don't need to be insecure about this. I love you, doesn't matter what you do or how you feel. I love the Karasuno (Y/N) that had the best grades of all the class, the university (Y/N) who always came back to my apartment after being out with friends, letting me take off her make-up and make her food because she was really drunk, (Y/N) who wrote an amazing book, (Y/N) who makes me the happiest every single day and Iâll love the (Y/N) that takes care of our son and that will cherish him every single moment.â
Her heart swelled at his words and she pouted, hiding her face on his chest.
"How did you know that I was so down about this?"
"We've been together for 12 years. I know everything about you."
Tsukishima held (Y/N)'s hand, his fingers playing with her ring and she softly looked up at him. "I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier," she whispered. "I was being stubborn."
Tsukishima's thumb brushes lightly over her stomach. "I know. This is taking a toll on you and I understand. I was not trying to upset you, I just want the best for you and for him."
(Y/N) smiled, reaching up to cup his face, pullinghim down for a quick kiss. "Thank you. For being patient and for looking out for us. You're going to be the best dad, you know that, right?"
Tsukishima's arms wrapped around her, resting his chin on top of her head as he looked at themselves in the mirror. "They fit you nicely. If you want, we can get you a few more."
"That would be great." (Y/N) sighed. "Now that we are here, maybe we should look at baby clothes."
Tsukishima nodded, his hand still rubbing her stomach as (Y/N) leaned into his embrace, feeling at peace. The changes were undeniable but as she looked up at her husband, she knew that there was no one better to go through his changes than him. (Y/N) Tsukishima, Kei Tsukishima and baby Tsukishima were ready to embrace this next chapter of life together, as they had always have been.
âHey, Kei. Do you think thereâs Sendai Frogs onesies for our baby?â
âShut upâŚâ
*****
Edit:
Hey Reddit, it's been a while, like a year or so. I hadn't actually seen the comments under this post. Work was a lot and taking care of my wife during pregnancy was a big thing but, no complains about it.
I donât usually post here anymore, but I felt like I owed this update to the people who helped me see things from a different perspective. I guess I should start by saying that everything worked out way better than I couldâve imagined.
Our son was born about 4 months after that post, and honestly⌠heâs the greatest thing thatâs ever happened to me. I thought I knew what love was before, but nothing compares to the way I feel when I held him for the first time. Watching him grow, hearing his little laughs, and seeing how much he looks up to my wife â itâs all so overwhelming in the best way. He's got her eyes, and every time I see them, Iâm reminded of how lucky I am.
And her? I canât even begin to describe how incredible sheâs been through everything. The strength and grace sheâs shown during the pregnancy, birth, and even now as we navigate this wild, exhausting, beautiful journey of parenthood⌠I honestly canât imagine doing this with anyone else. Sheâs my best friend, my partner in every sense of the word, and the love of my life. She handled the changes to her body post pregnancy like a champ, and Iâve grown to understand how tough that transition was for her. Sheâs everything to me, and seeing her as a mom has only deepened my love and respect for her.
I'm glad my teenage self could realize his feelings for her because she's just... She's perfect. I don't care how many times we fight, how many small disagreements we have had because she has taught me a lot of tings, the first thing: love.
She helped me love myself and that love she showed me helped me be a better person, enjoy the little things in life and so much more. I fall more in love with her as minutes go by.
Anyway, Iâve also realized how important it is to be patient, gentle, and supportive in the moments where life throws changes at us. This past year of big changeshas taught me that love isnât just about being there for the good moments â itâs about understanding each other through the challenges, too. And trust me, weâve had our fair share of sleepless nights and stressful days. But even when things get tough, I know weâre in this together, and I wouldnât trade that for anything. I hope my 20-year-old self is proud of how much Iâve grown since getting married.
So, I guess this is me saying goodbye to Reddit. Life has become so full, and every spare moment I have, I want to spend it with them â with my little family. Thank you to everyone who gave advice, made me reflect, or just made me laugh with their comments. I also loved spending my nights reading other AITA posts but now, I think I want to spend my nights reading stories to my son or watching my beautiful wife sing to him as his little eyes close, getting ready for a new day full of discovering the world around him.
Iâm logging out for good, but before I go, I just want to say one last thing: if youâre lucky enough to find someone you can weather lifeâs storms with, someone who makes you better and makes your heart feel full⌠hold on to them. Love them through every change, every challenge, because those moments shape you, too. I never thought Iâd say this, but Iâm really, really happy I had to go through an existencial crisis at 17 just to realize how much I loved my best friend. What an amazing life that has brought meâŚ
Take care, everyone. Hope my son doesn't find my posts about being a teenager with mixed feelings when he is older lol (although telling the stories that inspired those posts wouldn't be so bad, right?)
author's note: thank you for reading the aita tsukishima series!! i'm grateful for all your likes, reblogs and comments, they made me so happy! <3 i hope you have enjoyed it :) requests are open and i would love to hear some comments about how to improve for future posts! big love,
boo tsukki
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HIHIHI!!! I've been following you for a while and i recently saw your toph! reader HC and I've been wondering if I could request for a katara! reader who's really good at waterbending and specialises on healing and blood bending? Could the characters be Gon, Killua, Illumi and the phantom troupe? Hope you eat well and stay healthy!!!
HXH W/ a Katara!Reader
Characters: Gon Freecs, Killua Zoldyck, Illumi Zoldyck, The Phantom Troupe Type: Headcanons, Fem!reader, Platonic
tried making this gn but then I ended up using fem labels a lot >.< also when I see "the phantom troupe" in headcannon requests im just going to write them collectively unless otherwise specified
Warnings: None
Gon Freecs
your older sister/eldest daughter syndrome is very evident around him
he probably doesn't pick up on it but everyone else sees how fiercely protective you are over him
you have a soft spot for children and Gon is literally the sweetest ever so you can't help but want to keep him safe
before the hunter exams, the only role models Gon has ever had in his live have been maternal figures (Mito and his grandma)
you end up becoming another one
which may also be part of the reason he is so respectful and kind
he's ok with your motherly nature mainly because he's very used to it and he can understand where you're coming from
he cares for you as if you guys were blood related
when he went cray in chimera ant arc you were the first person Killua and Leorio thought to call
yk because of your healing ability
you healed him the best you could before Alluka showed up
and scolded him immediately after he recovered
Killua Zoldyck
he likes someone with Toph's rebellious personality but you?
you're a total wet blanket...
your such a stickler, always trying to stop him when he's feeling mischievous
you remind him of how things were back at his estate...
you are not his mother stop acting like it
but whenever you protect him from getting seriously hurt or heal him he's reminded you have good intentions
he knows you're not trying to be manipulative and controlling but god pls loosen up
despite how distant he might present himself he can't help but grow a little emotionally attached to you
he's never had a healthy relationship with his mom...
you are the only normal motherly figure in his life
he acts like he can't stand how you fuss over him but in reality he cares for you deeply and kind of likes that you feel the need to be protective over him
Illumi Zoldyck
unlike his brother, he likes you a lot more than if you were to have Toph's personality
because you remind him of his mother
he doesn't mind your protective nature as long as you don't get in the way
your 'blood bending' technique is of great interest to him..
you are able to use it on normal days and don't have to wait for a full moon because this is my fanfic and I said so
it just happens to be at it's strongest on full moons
he probs starts keeping track of the moon cycles just to take you on missions and see you in action
with the blood bending technique you could literally stop any enemy
a very OP ability indeed....
which is why he keeps you around
you're strong and have a pretty normal personality so there's really no reason for him to dislike you
The Phantom Troupe
it's pretty 50/50 with them
and by that I mean some of them don't mind your motherly personality while others think it's annoying...
mainly Phinks and Feitan; they feel you're too bossy
but the entire troupe can agree that your nen is impressive
1) they have a healer now and 2) your blood-bending is some sort of secret weapon
you get along well with Nobunaga, bonding over your shared soft spot for children
Chrollo probs personally recruited you for your abilities seeing as he couldn't really steal them..
Machi likes having you around because now she has to stitch people up less often
when Kalluto joins, he becomes the one you're most protective over
the younger members see you as an older sibling figure
aka Shizuku(18) Kalluto(12) and Kortopi(he has no canon age as far as I know but I like to imagine he is a child rather than a small adult...)
#hxh 2011#hxh x reader#hunter x hunter#hxh#hxh illumi#illumi zoldyck#chrollo lucilfer#hxh chrollo#chrollo hunter x hunter#chrollo x reader#gon x reader#gon hxh#gon freccs#hxh gon#gon freecs#killua hxh#killua zoldyck#killua hunter x hunter#gon freecss#hunter x hunter chrollo#chrollo#feitan#phantom troupe#machi#illumi x reader#illumi hxh#illumi#hxh killua#shizuku murasaki#hxh shizuku
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What Friends Are For ⢠T. Hiragi
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Summary: Hiragi was annoyed when you bailed on the plans you had with him, but when finds you curled up with your heating pad, alone in your apartment he understands what happened, and now he wants to help.
Word Count: 4.4k
Warnings: period sex, female-bodied reader, best friends to lovers, blood (obviously), cramps and other period symptoms, fingering, p in v, mentions of oral but it doesnât happen (maybe next time)
Notes: this has been in my head for months now. Itâs time to get it out. Special shout out to my nexplanon! Thanks for making me bleed for a solid month đâđť
Hiragi is annoyed.
Which isnât uncommon for him, honestly, but itâs pretty rare that heâs annoyed with you.
Youâd had these plans for a couple weeks now, a local band you both enjoy playing at a small venue downtown. You were excited. You had sent Hiragi all your different outfit options, and heâd given his honest opinions until youâd settled on the crop top, shorts, fishnets, and docs. Heâd had to talk you out of the skirt youâd recently gottenâ âI donât wanna have to worry about creeps thinkinâ they can just slip their hands up there.â
âYou donât have to worry about me like that, Ragi,â youâd told him over the phone, âitâs not like Iâm your girlfriend. You donât have to defend my honor.â
A reminder that stings a little every time. Youâre not his girlfriend, and heâs not your boyfriend, despite what everyone thinks and says. Despite everything that he feels.
None of that matters currently, though, because heâs pissed at you. Which is why heâs knocking on your apartment door to see what the fuck is wrong with you. Surely, there has to be something. Itâs not like you to flake.
Thereâs some brief shuffling from inside before the door opens a crack, revealing a sliver of your face that looks⌠different.
âRagi?â He just taps his foot until you open the door and let him in. âWhatâre you doing? I told you I canât go out.â
The first thing he notices is that your eyes are a little puffy. Then, when he glances around your small living room, Hiragi sees that the TV is on, playing one of your favorite medical dramasâthe one thatâs just sex, surgery, and crying. Youâre in a ratty old t-shirt (one of his, heâs pretty sure) and a pair of boy shorts that hug your hips and thighs too well.
âSo what, youâre gonna skip out on this show so you can just sit here and watch TV?â His irritation has spiked again, familiar acid rising in his throat.
âWhat?â You peer at him like youâre confused then look back to the show and the little nest youâve made yourself on your couch.
âItâs not⌠I wanna go. I just donât think Iâd have a good time.â Your face twists, both hands moving to your hips as you bend as if to stretch your back.
Youâre acting weird.
âHow do you know youâre not gonna have a good time?â
âHiragiâŚâ you say his name like a warning, and something new clicks into place.
You donât feel well. The puffy eyes, the comfy clothesâ âare ya sick or somethinâ?â
You grimace, still bending and stretching while digging your thumbs into your lower back.
âNo, I justâ fuck, I need to lay back down.â
He watches as you walk to the couch and pull something out from under the mass of blankets, click a remote a couple times, then settle it against your back.
âI wanna go to the show, Ragi. And Iâm not sick.â He can see the muscles of your jaw flex when you clench your teeth. âMy fucking period is just kicking my ass tonight, okay?â
Oh. Oh. Okay.
âThat⌠makes more sense, I guess,â Hiragi mutters, feeling much less irritated and much more foolish. âCan I get you anything?â
âA hysterectomy?â you joke, though it sounds more like begging.
âIf I was qualified, you know I would.â
He canât find it in himself to look at you. Itâs not like Hiragi isn't familiar with periods. Heâs had girlfriends and friends who are girls and, ya know, a mother.
Heâs justâitâs justâyou never bring it up around him. Youâve never mentioned cramping or bleeding or cravings related to it. He doesnât even think heâs ever seen a tampon in your purse or your bathroom (not that heâs looked, itâs just something heâs noticed).
You must be able to see the confusion written all over his face. Or maybe you just know him too fucking well because with a heavy sigh, you explain, âI switched birth controls a couple months back. I didnât have periods at all on my old one, but this one⌠anyway, Iâm not used to the pain and everything else.â
This is a problem. You have a problem, Hiragi thinks, one that he can fix or, at the very least, help you with. Hiragi is good at fixing things. Heâs good at finding solutions. So if he can just shove all of his awkwardness and discomfort to the side, he can focus on whatâs important: making you feel better.
âYou have pain killers?â
You shake your head.
âMenstrual products?â
You snort. âWhat?â
âPads, tamponsââ
âI know what they are, dummy,â you laugh, âjust sounds weird when you say it like that. Menstrual products,â you imitate, and Hiragi rolls his eyes.
âDo you have any?â
You shrug, ânot enough, but I use a disk anyway.â
Now is not the time for questions.
âAlright. Iâll be right back then,â he tells you before turning around to walk out.
âWait! Where are you⌠nevermind,â he hears you mumble before the door shuts. If you know him as well as he thinks you do, you should have a pretty good idea of where heâs headed.
The little drug store at the corner doesnât exactly offer luxury, but itâs stocked with what Hiragi needs. The girl behind the counter gives him a knowing look as she rings everything up and asks if heâd like to buy one of the mini flower bouquets that are displayed next to the register.
Tempting.
But itâs not like that.
âNah, just this,â he says as he pulls out his wallet, the one you tease him about so much (âwhat is this, 2000? Get rid of the chain, old man!â).
It isnât long before heâs walking back into your apartment like he lives there. Sometimes it feels like he does. Hiragi drops the bags on your coffee table and starts taking things out.
Medicine, the kind with added caffeine to help with headaches and energy. A box of tampons, regular and super. A box of pads just in case. Your favorite chocolates. A pint of ice cream he needs to put in the freezer ASAP, andâŚ
âIs that aââ
âItâs not some dumb little plushie,â Hiragi immediately grabs what definitely looks like a dumb little plushie. âItâs got a rice pack in it, see? So you can heat it up andââ
âCuddle with it?â You grin. âIs there a reason itâs an alligator? I feel like thatâs not very period friendly.â
âIt was an alligator or a crab,â he calls out, walking to the kitchen. âYou want crabs?â
âNo, I do not want crabs,â you shout. âBut, Iâm just sayinâ. Itâs a little suspicious you coming back with a plushieââ
âNot a plushie!â
ââthat sort of resembles you that you want me to cuddle with.â
Hiragi leans to the side so that you can see him. âYou associating me with every animal that has sharp teeth is your problem, not mine.â
The microwave timer goes off, prompting him to take out the rice pack and stick it back in the soft alligator. Thereâs a nice little weight to it, and itâs pleasantly warm by the time he hands it to you, still pouting about your teasing.
He moves your legs so that he can sit on the couch then resituates them on top of his own thighs, getting comfortable and trying not to smile when you press the plushie (yeah, thatâs what it is) to your stomach and sigh.
âThatâs nice.â
âJust lemme know when it needs to be reheated.â
âSo, youâre just gonna sit here all night watching shitty medical dramas and reheating my hiragator?â
âYeah, Iâwait, what?â
âYou heard exactly what I said,â you glare in that playful way you do, squeezing the heated toy tighter to you.
âYou cannot name it Hiragator.â
âAlligatoma?â
âThat sounds like a fuckinâ cancer.â
âSo, Hiragator it is. Now that thatâs settled, you can go to the show.â
Hiragi leans back on the couch and rubs his hands down his face before dropping them back to your calves.
âSânot gonna be fun without you,â he grumbles.
âBullshit. Youâll be able to get into the pit without worrying about me.â
âIâm not eighteen anymore,â he chuckles. âThere ainât a single bone in my body that wants to get into a mosh pit.â
Your pretty smile disappears as your fingers dig into plush green fur, and Hiragi watches in concern as you curl further in on yourself. Trying not to disturb you too much, he reaches for the bottle of medicine and pours 2 out, glad that your water bottle is next to you on the floor.
âHere,â he urges, holding the pills out to you. You prop yourself up on your elbow to take them before collapsing back on the cushions.
âSeriously, you donât have to stay with me. Iâll be fine.â
âNot like I have anything better to do,â he shrugs and changes the subject, âwhat episode are we on?â
âI started over so itâs the one where sheâs dating Derek and the vet at the same time, and sheâs getting stressed out about it.â
âOh, when she has to get her appendix taken out?â
âLook at you remembering the details,â you giggle.
âIâve probably seen it five damn times now, how could I forget?â
For the next hour, Hiragi sits with you, occasionally unwrapping a chocolate and handing it to you, sometimes rubbing your legs when you get that pained expression, trying not to think about how soft you feel and how he could get used to having you curled up next to him.
When he realizes the medicine either hasnât kicked in or isnât doing itâs fucking job, Hiragi finally braves the question, âdid anything help before? Iâm guessinâ you had periods before your old birth control, so whatâd you do back then?â
âI donât remember them being this bad, honestly, but sometimes when Iâd have bad crampsâŚâ you shake your head. âNever mind. Too much information.â
âWhat?â
âNothing. Youâd probably think itâs gross.â
Well, now his interest is definitely piqued.
âJust tell me.â
He gives your calf a tiny pinch that makes you squeal, âfine,â while kicking his thigh. âWhen I was, like, sixteen, one of my friends told me that orgasms helped her when she was in a lot of pain, so I tried it.â
Hiragiâs mouth is suddenly very, very dry, but he still manages to ask, âand did it help?â
âYeah, quite a bit, actually.â
He feels warm, like heâs touching your heating pad. Is he sweating? His face is probably beet red. Thinking about you like that, trying to relieve the tension in your body, fingers between your legsâ
Stop. Stop thinking about it. He can already feel his dick stirring to life, and that is the last thing you should have to put up with right now.
âI told you youâd think it was gross.â
Hiragi sets his jaw and shakes his head.
âYouâve got a natural painkiller. Why not use it?â Itâs a miracle his voice is coming out as smoothly as it is.
âCause itâs⌠itâs weird doing it when youâre not in the mood, I guess. And, like, it can get a little messy.â
Fucking Christ.
âItâs hard to masturbate when you donât feel sexy, and itâs hard to feel sexy when youâre cramping and bloated and weepy.â
âMakes sense,â Hiragi nods to himself, tracing little patterns on your leg, brain completely empty aside from the thought, I could do it for you.
âWhat?â
Ah, shit. Heâs usually so good at thinking through things before saying them out loud, but apparently the pathway from Hiragiâs brain to his mouth chose this one fucking time to malfunction.
No taking that one back.
âI said I could do it for you,â he repeats.
âIâm sorry, just so weâre on the same page, youâre talking aboutâŚâ
âGiving you an orgasm. Making you cum. However you wanna put it.â
He shifts your legs a little further away from the growing bulge in his pants.
Your eyes are wide, mouth hanging open, and he feels the need to defend, âjust cause you said it helped before! If you donât want to, thatâs fine. I just figured Iâd offer.â
âI⌠honestly, I donât know what to say. Itâs been a while since anyone⌠and, I mean, itâd be weird, right? You and me? Plus, the blood, like⌠itâd be weird.â
âWhatever you say,â Hiragi hums. âIâm not scared of a little blood, though, just so weâre clear.â
âI never said you were. I know youâre very familiar with it, tough guy.â
âPretty familiar with the female orgasm too, so you know.â
You make an undignified sound, something between a squawk and a shout that makes him laugh. âTelling me about your conquests isnât gonna encourage me to let you stick your fingers up there!â
âIâm not gonna just stick âem up there, fuck, who have you been with that did that?â
âNo one! Iâm just saying!â
âOkay, Jesus, just watch your show.â
Hiragi makes a show of taking his hands off your legs and folds them behind his head. You somehow nestle deeper into the couch, hugging the alligator closer as you clench your teeth again.
How obvious would it be if he ran to the bathroom to rub one out? Would you be able to tell? He shouldnât even need to. You barely talked about it.
But, the seed has been planted. The image of you on your bed with your knees open, your hand or maybe a toy rubbing over your sex.
Hiragi grabs a pillow and shoves it under your legs and therefore over his lap with the excuse that, âyour heels are digginâ into me.â That should take care of that for now.
About half an episode passes without the two of you saying anything, and when you do finally speak, itâs to quietly ask if heâll reheat Hiragator for you.
âOnly if you stop calling it that,â he says as he takes it from you.
âNever.â
He tosses it back into the microwave, of course, arms braced on the kitchen counter as he waits for the timer to go off. When he gets back, you have your eyes squeezed shut so tightly, it looks painful. There are tears right at the corners, and youâre taking slow, shaky breaths.
âHey, hey, here,â he puts the plushie against your stomach and smooths a hand down your back, all the while wondering how the fuck you and every other uterus-having human puts up with this bullshit every month. It looks like hell.
âRagi?â your voice cracks around his name.
He tilts his head, noticing your falling tears, and reaches over to wipe them away. âHm?â
âYouâre serious about helping me?â
He blinks at you. âYou ever know me to be anything but serious?â
âI have seen very unserious sides of you. Sides that no one else sees.â
âYeah, yeah, whatever. Donât go thinkinâ youâre special or somethinâ.â
âSpecial enough for you to make a very bold offer,â you shoot back with watery eyes and a raised brow.
âYou ready to take me up on that?â He hopes he doesnât sound too excited.
You nod emphatically, biting your lip while clutching that damn alligator like itâs your only lifeline.
âAlright, go get comfortable in bed. Iâll grab a towel.â
He helps you up, laughing through his nose when he hears you mutter something along the lines of, âcanât believe weâre doing this.â
You disappear into your bedroom, leaving Hiragi to wash his hands and grab the towel. He sheds his jacket in your room, hanging it on the doorknob, and even though heâs still fully clothed, he feels naked without the extra layer, not to mention his boots that are next to your front door.
Youâre sitting up by your pillows, knees to your chest, voice too fucking meek for Hiragiâs liking when you ask, âdo you want me to go put a disc in real quick? I donât⌠these are just special underwear to, like, absorb. I donâtâI donât have anything in right now, soâŚâ
Hiragi stares at you while unfolding the towel, laying it out before motioning to it.
âLike I said before, ainât gonna bother me. Now get comfortable and take those off.â
âSo demanding, geez.â
You sound light-hearted, like youâre joking, but Hiragi sees the way your hands are shaking. Youâre nervous. He doesnât like that.
âHey,â he stops you once youâve pulled your underwear down to your thighs, âlook at me.â
âIf you tell me to call you sir or master or some shit, Iâm kicking you out.â
âShut up for just a second, please, Iâm beinâ serious.â
âSo am I! Donât try to get all kinkyââ
He grabs your face, pushing your cheeks together so that youâll stop fucking talking.
âListen to me.â
âI lishânen,â you try, and it actually makes him smile.
âIf you donât wanna do this. If youâre not comfortable or if youâre scared or whatever, we donât have to. I really am just tryinâ to help.â You nod under his hand, and he lets go. âIâm not gonna get grossed out. Iâm not gonna judge you for anything, understand?â
âYes, sir,â you answer with a smirk, and god dammit, it actually makes his cock twitch a little.
âYouâre fuckinâ impossible to deal with, ya know that?â
âAnd yet, here you are doing just that.â
You shimmy out of your underwear and drop them over the side of the bed. It leaves you in nothing but that old T-shirtâHiragiâs old T-shirtâso thin he can see the peaks of your nipples when you lie back.
He sits on the edge of the bed, waiting for you to relax, to let your knees fall open, to bare yourself to him. That's not something heâs ever rushed a woman on, and heâs definitely not gonna rush you. You close your eyes, bite your lip, then slowly spread your legs.
Hiragi has to focus on breathing, in and out, in and out, as his gaze land on your pussy. Puffy lips decorated with sticky blood and slick. Heâs glad your eyes are closed because he licks his lips at the view. Hiragi could stare all day, but thatâs not what heâs here for.
âYou ready?â he asks, voice lower than usual.
âYeah, you can⌠you can touch me.â
He feels his dick throb at those words, growing even harder when he grazes his fingers over your mound. You gasp, body tensing before relaxing again, like you had to remind yourself that youâre safe here with him.
He slides a finger up your slit, through the wetness, glancing down to note the mixture of blood and arousal before he spreads your folds.
There are so many things he could say at the sight of your twitching hole, so many ways he could praise the pretty pink leaking dark red like some kind of sordid Valentineâs candy that Hiragi wants to devour.
His eyes fall on the little bud at the crest of your lips, cute and begging for attention, and when he circles it with a wet finger, you stifle a moan with your fist.
âYou can be loud, itâs your place,â Hiragi tells you, watching your face as he gently rubs over your clit, âplus, Iâll know it feels good if ya keep makinâ noises like that.â
He gives it a little flick that makes your hips buck, and you swear at him.
It doesnât take long for Hiragi to learn what you like and what you donât. You like the circles he rubs on your clit. You like when he just barely dips a finger between your folds.
And, you really like it when he slowly slides his middle finger deep into your pussy.
âOhhmygodâŚâ
Using the thumb on his other hand, Hiragi starts teasing your clit again, pride swelling inside him at the way your eyes roll into the back of your head. Looking down, he watches his finger as it glides in and out of your body, fresh blood coating the digits. A thick string of it stretches from your hole to the towel beneath you, viscous as it mixes with your slick, and Hiragi canât help but watch until it snaps.
âFuck, that feels⌠that feels good.â
âYeah?â He crooks his finger a bit, searching for that extra-swollen bundle, and when you cry out, he knows heâs found it.
The way youâre moaning and shifting your hips has him worked up, his cock straining against the zipper of his pants, and he wants to relieve some of the pressure so fucking bad, but he definitely doesnât wannna give you the wrong idea.
âCan youâcan you add another finger? I just needâmore p-pressure⌠wanna be full.â
Hiragi groans. He canât keep it in. And he knows he sounds wounded because it feels like you just shot him. You wanna be full.
âWhatever you want, sweetheart,â he forces out, lining up his index with his middle finger and pushing them both inside you.
You suck them in greedily, needy as you start to chase your climax. Hiragi wets his thumb again, massaging your clit, eyes flicking from your cunt to your face, all your pretty expressions while he stuffs your pussy.
Youâre making a mess of yourself and the towel. He can smell iron, which is strange because usually when he smells it, he can feel it in a busted lip or bitten tongue. Usually, when he smells it, he can taste it.
He's gonna cum in his pants if he keeps thinking about that, about shoving his face between your legs and feasting. Heâs fantasized about eating you out countless times before, but never like this. Never so desperately. Heâs never felt this fucking deranged over it.
âFuck, please, please, please,â you cry, meeting his fingers on every thrust, trying to take more than he can give with them.
âWhat? What can I do?â
Hiragi raises to his knees, keeping pace with his fingers and planting his other hand by your head so he can lean over you.
So gorgeous like thisâface splotchy, eyelashes wet with unshed tears, lips dark and swollen from the way youâve been biting them. He has to fight not to kiss you, especially when youâre gazing up at him like this. Wanton. Hungry.
âWhat do you want?â he breathes. Heâs too close to you, face just barely hovering over yours, and heâs sure you can see the lusty fog in his eyes, but youâve got it too.
You whisper something, and he can feel the ghost of his own name against his lips, but not as clearly as he feels the words âfuck meâ that fall from your mouth before you kiss him.
Itâs harsh and desperate, teeth and tongues and heavy breathing before he breaks away to unbuckle his belt and free his aching cock.
âDonât have a condom,â he says before reattaching himself to you, sucking on your bottom lip as he rubs himself over your messy pussy.
âBirth control, remember?â you pant. âSâwhy weâre here to begin wiââ
Hiragi pushes inside of you with a deep groan, one smooth thrust until heâs bottomed out and youâre clawing at his shirt. Your eyes are rolled back again, mouth barely moving against his like youâre in a daze.
âFeel full now, baby?â
You nod, and Hiragi gives you one more gentle kiss before he starts an even rhythm, his thick cock gliding in and out of you with ease. When his thumb finds your clit again, you moan his name like a plea, over and over again as your body starts to tighten up.
âRagi, fuck, oh my godâŚâ
Looking down, Hiragi watches your cunt swallow him, coating him in shiny red as a ring of thick white forms at the base of his cock. Youâre a fucking mess, creaming all over him as he pushes blood and squirt out of your pussy.
âYou gonna cum for me?â he grunts, feeling his balls tighten as his own orgasm builds. âCome on, baby, lemme see how good you feel.â
âSo good,â you gasp, âs-soâoh, fuckâŚâ
Your back arches off the bed just before you clamp down around Hiragi. Even if he didnât want to cum, he wouldnât be able to stop it, not with the way you milk it out of himâwalls so soft and wet as they squeeze him, suck him even deeper as he empties his balls and paints your insides with hot cum.
All he wants to do is collapse on top of you, but he has enough sense to pull out first, causing both of you to hiss, then lets himself fall to the side.
Itâs silent for a while, heavy breathing and voices from the TV filtering into your bedroom. Hiragi has the horrifying thought that nothing will ever be the same between the two of you after that.
That was as raw as it fucking gets. That was blood and guts and cum. So much cum.
Then, he feels you grab his hand and squeeze.
âFeel any better?â he asks, voice nothing but gravel.
âI feel a lotta things,â you hum. âBetter is one of them.â
âThatâs good, yeah?â
âYeah⌠but Iâm also sad,â you admit with a pout, and Hiragi rolls onto his side to look at you.
âThereâs nothinâ to be sad about. You know weâre still good, right? Weâre stillââ
âItâs not that,â you sigh.
âThen what is it?â
You roll to face him, eyes still a little hazy from your orgasm but all big and shimmering when you look at him.
âHiragatorâs gonna get so lonely now that I have you to fuck the cramps outta me.â
âOh my fucking god!â
You dissolve into a fit of giggles, hiding your face in your hands as Hiragi throws a leg over you and pulls you into his chest.
You are the worstâthe absolute worst, and he loves everything about you, from the mess between your legs to the curve of your smile against his collarbone. Hiragi loves it all.
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TWISTED WONDERLAND'S HOUSEWARDENS WITH MC, WHO IS MUCH WORSE THAN THEM
(Aka. In their âsignatureâ character trait.)
A/N: Idia was left out, because this author had no idea how to write his part.
Riddle Rosehearts. â¤ď¸
â It is not a secret that Riddle might appear a little bit obsessed, when it comes to rules. He knows all of them, and he merely can't understand how others can be so careless!
â And since no one learned them, excluding him, they trusted with each word he said. Mostly, Riddle said truth, following the codex precisely;
â But, oh, he is still a human. Sometimes, he can make mistakes or confuse things...
â That is why, when a new student of his suddenly stood up to point out at his mistake, Riddle doesn't even know what to do: be happy that there is someone else like him, or get annoyed for a necessity to admit his wrong?
â˘
âHmph, how dare you call yourself a housewarden of Heartslabyul, when you can't follow elemental rules?â
As other students gasp, shocked by this kind of braveness, Riddle feels his cheek heating. Either from anger or from a strict gaze of yours, that reminds him much of his mother.
âYou said that the âonly ever drink tea with slice of lemon on even thursdaysâ rule is under 53 number,â you repeat, with hands on the tips, and with no care to Trey, who tries to stop you.
âThat, I did,â regaining his coldness, Riddle admits.
Truth to be told, he sensed that he made some kind of mistake with this one. But recently he had been more tired than usual, and it is not like someone else know those rules but him, right?
Right?
âWell," you huff. âIt is under number 35.â
Oh.
âI...â Riddle tries to ignore others eyes on him, fingers digging in the fabric of his pants.
He fights an urge to lie about checking other students, instead of admitting his fault. You don't give him time for any of that.
âWell, keep that in mind then,â you say. âI expect my housewarden to respect our dorm rules, after all.â
With that, you merely leave.
Riddle has a very mixed feelings about this encounter...
Leona Kingscholar. đ
â When headmaster Crowley stops him not for yelling at him for missed lessons, but to speak of another troublemaker from Savanaclaw, Leona is caught off guard;
â It appears, a new freshmen, gained a quite awful reputation. You seem to be sleeping all the timeâyou did, in the ceremony; and you do, if you appear on lectures, though, mostly, you don't at allâand the only good thing about you is your surprisingly high grades;
â Truth to be told, Leona is just amused by that. All those warnings some pretty familiar, so, he decides to see you himself;
â Of course, Leona couldn't expect you to be so familiarly annoying!
â˘
âShit,â you yawn, a frown touching your face instantly. âDude, you must have a really good reason to wake me up.â
Leona blinks; his curiosity changing with irritation quickly as he hears you speaking so carelessly, while stretching under the tree, not even standing up to meet him properly.
âOi, brat, pay some respect to your housewarden!â He hisses. âPerhaps, you are forgetting who are you speaking with?â
âLeona-sama,â you sigh tiredly, not impressed by his answer, âI can't pay respect to someone, who thinks that distracting me from my power nap, is fine.â
Leona is speechless. Mostly, because he doesn't know how to argue about thisâhe agrees that sleep is more important than anyone or anything in this school, after all. But the amount of disrespect...
âDo you have an idea of your reputation? Headmaster plans to expel you from the school if you continue like this.
Leona internally cringes from these words.
âSure,â you hum lazily. âGood luck with throwing off the best first-year student, just because they find those lectures boring.â
Leona can't even answer to you properly. You just fall asleep as soon as you stop speaking, with your tail wrapping around your legs peacefully. At least, he understands Ruggie now...
Azul Ashengrotto. đŠľ
â Azul makes a quick background check on all of his students, of course. For safety reasons. More or less;
â So, he is surprised, when one of the freshman, who happens to be you, is too secretive. Azul can't find anything on you at all, even the smallest piece of information, and so, he gets curious;
â His first planâto get twins stalker on youâfails, when you catch them in the action, somehow. Even worse, you somehow make a pact with them, which stops them from trying to dig in your past more...
â Your next step is to send Azul invitation for a little friendly lunch in the Monster Lounge. Sadly, when he agreed, he couldn't know that was expecting him here...
â˘
âI am failing to understand a purpose of our meeting,â Azul locks his hands together, staring at you without even blinking.
You make another sip of the apple juice you ordered, lips stretching in a soft smile.
âI am here to offer you a pact, Azul-sama.â
Azul almost bursts in the laughter. Who do you think you are, making this bold offer, going against him? What an amusement.
âOh? Surprise me, then.â
âAs far as I know, you spent last three weeks, trying to gain a little information about me. But, oh, all for nothing. Just as I tried to find an answer for a few questions considering you and the Monster Lounge, and failed... So, what I am proposing, is to exchange our secrets mutually,â you wink. âWhat do you think?â
How stupid of you to think that he will agree on something like this!
âAnd why would I want to make a pact with you?â
Suddenly, you search for something in the inner pocket of your jacket. And as you find some envelope, you offer it to him.
âBecause you don't want this to get leaked, perhaps?â
It takes a few minutes from him to process what is inside, but when he does, colours leave his face instantly.
âY-youââ
How did you?..
âIt is a deal, then.â You laugh.
Azul hates how there is nothing he can say to you...
Kalim Al-Asim. đ§Ą
â Kalim tries to befriend each student of his house naturally! But, sometimes, others don't want to return his sentiment as he is too loud and too naive for them, so they avoid him or offer a fake sympathy;
â So, when one of the students rushes to befriend him first, smiling widely as they met their old friend, Kalim is very, very happy!
â You match instantly, your undying energy and enthusiasm about everything bringing you close as soon as you start speaking;
â Even better, you take him seriously, too. It is something other do rarely, seeming him stupid and air-headed, but you know that is more than that. It goes in both way, after all.
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âI... I must admit, I am very happy to be your friend,â you muse softly, back pressing to the carpet as both of you taking your short flight around the school. âI think, I annoy a lot of people here... But I am not annoying you, am I?â
Kalim looks surprised with this questionâafter all, you knew him better than anyone!âas he rushes to shake his head in denial.
âNo, no! You would never.â
You hum, turning on your stomach slowly. Head pressed on your crossed hands, you nod at him.
âThat's good. Thank you.... And, Kalim?â
âYes?â He asks, mirroring your pose, your shoulders pressing together.
âI think you are amazing housewarden, too. Don't allow anyone think otherwise.â
Before you manage to understand, Kalim is already tucking you on the back, to hug rightly. Just how you always know what to say to him, or how to make him happy?
Vil Schoenheit. đ
â Everyone knows that despite his tight schedule, Vil always checks on all of his students, so they could fit standards of their dorm;
â He takes more time to deal with new students, though. Most of them are still not aware of Pomefiore rules and expectations, so, he needs to speak with all of them individually;
â So, Vil is slightly taken aback, when someone is already instructing new students before him. He watches as you explain others common rules, while giving them random advice on how to enhance their skin and hair routine, basing on different problems and offering interesting solutions, curiously:
â Of course, Vil can't wait to speak with you personally!
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âY/n Y/s, right?â You pause your speeches, nodding at Vil, who just entered the room. âI had been watching you for a while, and, I must say, you have impressive qualities. And style, too.â
Vil partly expects you to become all shy over his complimentâthat is what happens usually, at leastâbut, instead, you became even more serious than before.
âI appreciate that, but I believe my wish to help other classmates is partly selfish. And selfishness shouldn't be praised.â
It is not what he thought he will hear.
âAnd how so?â He asks with unhidden curiousity.
âI strive for perfection, and perfection can only be achieved by the hard work,â you punctuate firmly, raising your chin higher. âBut I also believe that your surroundings should fit youâand so, my dorm, classmates, and housewarden should meet my expectation for myself, too. Therefore, I need to guide them in perfection alone with myself.â
Ah.
Vil can't help but smirk. What an absolute pleasure to speak with someone, who knows what they are doing, who has right morals!
âWell, well,â he folds arm on his chest. âI can't wait to see more of your hard work, then.â
âI would never disappoint.â
But as the conversation is finished, Vil already knows who is going to be the next housewarden, when he leaves.
Malleus Draconia. đ
â When Lilia tells him that they now have another half-dragon creature in the Diasomnia, Malleus is partly curious. It is a rare thing to have someone of his own kind, after all;
â But, of course, Malleus can't just walk to you and start a conversation. Instead, he tries to see you more often; in school or corridors;
â It doesn't give him much. You seem very cold, and other classmates ignore your presence constantly, though, you don't seem to be interested in them, either;
â He finally has a chance to speak with you personally, when he finds you walking around gargoyles in the evening, though.
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âMalleus-sama,â you bow your head, noticing his presence even earlier than he announces it. âGood evening. How this one can help you?â
âY/n,â he slightly nods, examining you closer. âIf I am not mistaken, there is party for the first-years in the school. Why are you here?â
Malleus can't help but notice hints of confusion, raising in your eyes, before you cover it with the usual stoic expression of yours. With a quiet sigh, you start petting the statute affectionately, much like an animal.
âIs that so? I am afraid, I wasn't invited, then.â
He rewards you with sympathetic look.
âI see,â he adds, awkwardly: âI am sorry to hear that.â
âOh, no time for regrets,â your fangs bare in a smile. âActually... Malleus-sama, I planned to ask you something for a while, but never had a chance to speak with you before. Can I?â
âOf course.â
âHeadmaster told me, that you are leading the club of the researches that are dedicated to gargoyles... And so, I wanted to know what I need to join it. You see...â
As you start rumbling about the importance of gargoyles, Malleus can't help but wonder why he saw you as someone cold before. Was it something others thought of him, judging by short glimpses of his attitude in school?
But it doesn't matter anymore. He thinks, your company is very enjoyable, after all.
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hii omg out of curiosity... could u do a scara with a bratty virgin reader who teases him too much thinking she can get away with it. if that suits ur tastes that is đđ
Of course! I may not fit the entire idea of a brat myself, but I've been told I can act a little cunty now and then so I think I can do this one fairly well.
Scaramouche was just another annoying superior you had to obey. All the harbingers were pretty much the same in the aspect that they viewed YOU as lesser than. Which technically you were by law of Snezhnaya but that wasn't YOUR fault. You were only stuck working as a subordinate for the height deficient harbinger called The Balladeer because your stupid slut mother had gambled away a HUGE loan while she was pregnant with you and instead of taking responsibility, she fled the country and hadn't been seen since you were like 6.
But the fatui weren't just going to forgive a debt that large simply because of a disappearance. No.
A group of fatuus soldiers had knocked on your grandparents door one day, led by Scaramouche. They were given three options.
1: Pay off their daughter's debts.
2: Die.
Or three...
"Give the oldest girl over and have her work it off in her mother's name." Was what the pretty faced yet slick tongued bastard had said.
Your grandparents had recently been put in charge of your half brother too as authorities had taken him from your mother's home due to excessive drug use on her part. He was just a little kid, barely 4. YOU on the other hand were now a young lady. A young adult.
He needed your grandparents.
You had had a wonderful childhood already.
And so you bowed your head and agreed to go back with The Balladeer and his cronies to the fatui headquarters and officially join the ranks.
It wasn't that bad actually. Scaramouche didn't actually seem to care or not if you didn't do your job. But you were clearly the only exception as you often watched him treat others with a cruelty that bordered on ruthlessness.
Not that it was your problem.
You often sauntered into his office late at night to chat with him. Not that he ever stopped you.
"Hey Scara what's up? Ugh you really should get better lighting here. It looks so ominous!" You bitched as you hopped up onto the edge of his rather grand looking desk and looked down at him while he worked.
"Hey let's hang out for a bit! That stuff is just boring work things anyway! I never do mine!"
He grunts.
"I know."
You pouted as you tried to scoot a little closer to him.
"ugh you're so lame today! And here I thought a harbinger as mighty as yourself could multi-task easily! It appears I was mistaken!"
Scaramouche rolled his eyes at your behavior.
"leave. I'm busy right now."
You were feeling agitated now.
"no! I've been waiting all day to hang out and now you're ignoring me!?" You turn completely around so your legs fell over on his side of the desk now. Crossing my arms as I stubbornly stand my ground.
"I'm not moving until you at least look at me you stupid meanie!" You whined.
The pen in Scaramouche's hands suddenly snapped in half. Ink splashing across the tabletop caught your attention.
"I said leave."
"make me!* You stick out your tongue and pout even more at his tone.
"it's not like you're actually gonna punish me for being here like anyone else! Stop being such a big meanie!"
Suddenly his hand was around your throat.
"Is that what you tell yourself bitch? How amusing." He squeezed your neck. Just enough to make you dizzy as you felt Scaramouche rip open the front of your buttoned white blouse.
His eyes quickly looked you over with a predatory hunger.
"you're alright I guess. For a human anyway. You'll do."
You squeak in terror as he tears off your bra next. Gently running his fingertips across your nipples and causing them to harden. as your breath hitches in your throat, you feel an unfamiliar warmth in your panties at the sensation.
He then shoved you back onto the table top.
"h-hey what are you doing? Stop this at once!" You squeak anxiously. Being almost frozen in fear as you feel Scaramouche roughly lift up your shirt and expose your panties to his smug looking gaze.
"what? Not so tough now that you finally realize how insignificant you are?"
He traces the outline of your wet slit through the dampened fabric.
"how pathetic. Acting all bold and yet you're already shaking and getting excited before I've even touched you."
Scaramouche easily tears away the delicate fabric as he spreads your knees wide for him. He kneels down and closely takes in the sight of your exposed sex. Gently pulling your folds open to give him a better look at you.
You feel his cool breath against your inner labia as you begin to tremble.
Finally something clicks for him.
"oh? I see you've never been had yet. It's almost funny Y/N, at your age? Seriously? What?"
He pinched your clit softly
"too shy?" His raspy tone bordered on a seductive growl as you feel him rub little circles on your pleasure nub.
"ugh it's not like I haven't had chances before! I just didn't care for anyone enough to want to do that stuff!"
Your words were met with a jeering cackle as Scaramouche simply sighed and slowly began to ease two fingers into your unbroken entrance.
A strong ache filled your body as you moaned softly and saw blood drip onto his palm as you struggled to raise your head and see what he was doing at first.
Immediately he shoved your head back down and kept a firm grasp on your throat.
"stay still sweetheart. If you don't relax, it's going to be excruciating."
You felt him begin to slowly start thrusting his fingers in and out of your tight pussy. Successfully popping your cherry as you blushed deeply and tried to muffle your cries using your hands.
He leans down and gives your clit a gentle lick next. Teasing you now as you whimper at the new feeling. More warmth filling your lower abdomen as you feel your legs tremble while Scaramouche continued to lap at your untouched bud. Deliberately trying to draw out the strange rising feeling in your tummy. You cry a little as you finally dare speak.
"Please... stop this... I'll pee!" You wail pitifully as his eyes took on a seductive look.
"That's not what's about to happen sweetie ~ don't worry, you're about to feel really good, I promise ~"
He released your upper body and began to focus more on stimulating your tight cunt as he fingered your sensitive walls and continued to gently suck on your clit. Giving it a little bite now and then that made your legs tremble.
Finally you feel your lower abdomen tighten. Your insides pulse as you feel yourself squirt. Scaramouche swallows every drop almost eagerly as he continues to tongue fuck you through your orgasm.
Only when you lay breathless and exhausted upon the table before him, does he finally free his rather large cock from the confines of his shorts, pressing the tip teasingly at your entrance.
"You were all bark just an hour ago bitch. Now you're just a whimpering mess. What happened?"
You felt Scaramouche slide his dick into your pussy then. The thickness stretching you beyond capacity as you wince and feel yourself whine a little.
"Do you realize your place now cunt? Maybe this will teach you to talk with a little more respect towards your superiors."
He began to slowly thrust into you then. Your oversensitive cunt spasming with every thrust as you instinctively wrapped your legs around his waist.
Scaramouche leaned down to steal a kiss too. Shoving his tongue into your mouth as you held onto him. Swallowing up your cute and girlish moans of pleasure and pain as you dug your nails into his back and felt him quicken his pace.
He fucked against your cervix as he continued to press your knees upwards more as he got closer to finishing. Bringing your knees practically beside your head as he got a little rougher then. Forcing you into a sick mating press position as he claimed your virgin womb for himself.
Scaramouche groaned and bit your bottom lip a little as you felt him pour his hot seed into you after what felt like the longest hour of your life. His sadistic smirk widened as he pulled out of your bloody cum filled cunt.
"This will be your new job from now on. Don't bother refusing. You still owe me a debt. " He stuck his fingers in your dripping depths again.
"however, keep being as obedient as you were tonight and this sweet cunt might just pay it off sooner than you think."
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Hi ^^ it's my first time requesting something, if you don't like the idea, feel free to turn down my request. Recently I've been reading your writings, particularly, pregnancy ones.
Then I remembered a kind of belief I saw on TikTok, about, if the father really really wanted to have a baby, he will get the pregnancy symptoms instead of the mother, and I imagined Simon getting the nausea, cravings... instead of reader, being annoyed of seeing her laughing at him.
Thanks <3
hiii<3 so this was an interesting idea thank you so much<333 and i had to do a little bit of research. apparently it's pretty common among men to have pregnancy symptoms when their partner is pregnant and it's called Couvade syndrome (sympathetic pregnancy). it's so cute and endearing imo :')
Simon having pregnancy symptoms during your pregnancy :')))
Youâre both slumped on the couch in each otherâs arms, exhaustion taking over your senses.Â
Simon has been experiencing morning sickness more than you recently and youâve been taking turns in the bathroom for god knows how many hours until now.Â
His head rests on your chest as you caress his nape and run your fingers through his hair soothingly.Â
âYou feeling any better?â you ask him quietly as you notice him dozing off.Â
He only hums and you start giggling, getting louder by the second until you canât control it anymore.Â
âWhat are you laughing about?â he asks, voice muffled by your boobs which have been getting larger and more sensitive, slight irritation evident in his tone as your body vibrates with full-on belly laughter.Â
He whines and squeezes your sides lightly with his burly arms.Â
âSi, you havenât noticed?â you ask, finally able to speak between laughs.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âItâs like youâre the one whoâs pregnant.â you giggle again at your own words.Â
âShut up.â he chuckles.Â
âIâm serious. You were also eating peanut butter and pickles the other day!â you go on listing all his symptoms and giggling.Â
You reach down to rub your hand gently on his tummy as youâve noticed it has been gaining a little bit of pudge over the last few months along with your belly growing.Â
âMaybe I should take some time off work to tend to my pregnant husband.â you mention with a smirk to annoy him a lil bit more :)Â
âI said shut up... fuckinâ hell...â he grumbles as he lifts his head to give you an annoyed look, but you notice the faint smile on his lips.Â
You grab his face and squish his cheeks between your hands, âYouâre so cute, baby!â you mumble and bring him closer for a smooch, pulling away with a loud smack of your lips.Â
âI was just messing with you, love.â you murmur as you lean for a tender, loving kiss.Â
âI love you, Si.â you coo against his lips.Â
âLove you too, dove.â he responds with an adoring smile.Â
â... and Iâm not pregnant.âÂ
âYou so are!â
comments/reblogs are greatly appreciated âĽÂ
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FROM THE RIVER TO THE SEA
pairing: abby anderson x fem!reader
description: abby is one hundred percent, totally, and completely straight. that is, until she meets y/n.
warnings: UNEDITED, swearing, slight hints of nsfw, alcohol consumption, a hint of homophobia? (not really but just in case)
words: 5.9K
date posted: 08/02/24
The years had not been kind to Abby. By the time that she and her friends were celebrating her twenty-first birthday, the woman had suffered many losses; the death of her mother at a young age, her fatherâs murder a few years back, and most recently, her breakup with Owen. She was quick to discover that the universe was not exactly on her side.Â
From her perspective, Owen was not just a boyfriend. Of course, he was hardly even that at most times, but he also represented the time in her life where everything was good; Salt Lake City, spending time in the woods with him and her dad, playing stupid little games to pass the time with him, Manny, and MelâŚhe reminded her of when everything was easier. She sometimes felt guilty for this, considering that she sometimes couldnât tell whether her emotional attachment to him was because of how much she cared for him or for the impossible standards sheâs always held him to.Â
Seattle represented a new beginning for her and her friends. They were able to find a new community, stay together, and live a semi-normal life that even the Fireflies were unable to offer them. Things were good there, people generally liked her, and she was quickly making her way up the ranks as one of the top WLF soldiers, though there were certainly some downsides. At the WLF compound, she began to see things in a new light; She was able to focus on herself for once, do the things that she wanted and branch out more than before. She was no longer limited to the small world of the few Fireflies who actually made it out of Salt Lake City.Â
Itâs for this reason that she holds herself at least somewhat accountable for how things ended with Owen. Of course, she didnât blame herself for his infidelity, nor for him choosing to do so with one of her closest friends, but she knew that it was her distance that caused the rift to form between them. She felt betrayed by them, obviously, but as time passed, it seemed clear to her that she was more hurt by the fact that it was her two closest confidants who had caused the pain, not the fact that Owen and Mel had been sleeping together for months before she and Owen called it quits.Â
Her saving grace during this period of her life came in the form of someone she would later consider her best friend, despite how offended Manny gets each time she calls her that. Her first interaction with Y/n was the moment that she knew she needed to have her in her life, one way or another.Â
She hadnât noticed her right away, but who would? Amidst the thunderous crowd of the cafeteria just before lunch, it would be nearly impossible to notice anyone who she wasnât directly looking for, which in a way, is how Abby noticed her to begin with. Manny was actually the one to sniff her out first, as he so often did with pretty girls, his midnight black hair standing out against the white fluorescent lighting. She beelined for him, an annoyed expression crossing her features as she figured out the reason why heâd been late for patrol.
âManny!â She barked, âHow many times do I have to drag your ass to the gate before you actually show up on tiââ
Her attention was immediately caught by the figure sitting across the table from him, eyes falling on a young woman with a look of shock on her face, clearly concerned by the large woman whoâd nearly pulled Manny out of his seat with only one hand.
âAbby!â He greeted, doing his best to brush it off, âI was just on my way to meet you when I got distracted by this one,â He winked at the girl with a laugh, âDonât blame me, itâs entirely her fault. Cierto, hermosa?â
Every engorged muscle in Abbyâs body had to hold her back from physically gagging at his obnoxious charm, but she was a bit relieved to see that the girl did not seem to be falling for it so easily.Â
âWhatever,â the blonde shook her head, trying to suppress any of the nerves that seemed to have wormed their way into her bloodstream under the girlâs stare, âWeâre late, and Iâm not taking anymore shit from Isaac over you.â
âYeah, yeah,â He shrugged, slinging his backpack over his shoulder as he began to head towards the door, offering a short goodbye to the girl before jogging to catch up with the blonde, whoâd sped off in an attempt to get herself away from the girl.Â
âCute, right?â He asked, a knowing smirk on his lips.
She shrugged, âYeah, your standards seem to be on the rise, finally. What ever happened to the medicâwhat was her name again? Ginger?â
âMe and Y/n? In my dreams, sure,â He stared at her with a raised brow, âIâm not exactlyâŚher type.â
Something clicked in her mind, and made the twisting feeling in her gut worsen. Goosebumps prickled at her skin as she thought back on the roaming stare of the girl in the cafeteriaâY/n, as Manny had called her. Had she been checking Abby out? And why did that idea excite her so much?
âOh,â she hummed.
âYou, however⌠you definitely were. Did you see the way she was looking at you? Like she wanted you toââ
âShut up, would you?â She sneered, âIâm notâthatâs notââ
âI know,â he sighed, though a knowing look crossed his features, âI know.â
A few days had passed before Abby had run into Y/n again, only this time, it was a much more pleasant interaction. Abby had been spending a lot of time in the library, especially since her breakup with Owen and even ended up sleeping there some nights when Manny took the liberty of reserving the room for himself and whatever girl he was dating at the time. She found some peace there, burying her nose into random books from before the outbreak and pretending that, for just a few minutes, she isnât just the top scar killer in the WLF. There was hardly ever anyone else there, which was a definite plus; She still had a long way to go before sheâd be used to all the attention she gets around the arena. This day in particular. though, someone else occupied her usual seat in the furthest corner, by the window.Â
She jumped in surprise at the sight of another person in her place, holding her palm to her chest to hold in any noise that may have emitted from her throat. The girl raised her head to look over the thick spine of the hardcover book she was reading, surprise evident on her own face as well.
âSorry,â Abby choked out, âI just wasnât expectingâŚIâm usually the only one here.â
âOh,â Y/n sat up straighter, laying her book page-down on the table in front of her, âYeah, I usually take the book back to my room, but my roommate is a littleâŚbusy at the moment.â
Abby snorted, âI get what you mean. Mine too.â
There was a beat of silence before Y/n chimed in again, âWhat are you reading?â
Abby glanced down at the book in her hand, eyes scanning over the faded words on the cover. She actually hadnât known what book sheâd taken off the shelf, just slowly making her way through every book in the library, âUh, Jane AirâEyre. First one I grabbed.â
âThatâs a good one,â Y/n nodded, âOne of the classics, I think they used to call them.â
âOh, thatâs good,â Abby mentally kicked herself, of course she would completely blank in front of the girl sheâd been thinking about all week (but she was still, totally not into her). âUh, what about you?â
Y/n smiled, âA Complete History of the Western World. Call me nostalgic, but I like learning about how things were before.â
âMe too,â Abby smiles, âIn a way, itâs kinda comforting to see that this isnât how things always were, you know?â
Y/n grinned, which quickly turned into a frown, âSorry, I didnât evenâŚIâm Y/n.â
Abby smiled tightly, cheeks burning red as she reached forward to accept the hand offered to her, âIâmââ
âAbby,â Y/n smiled bashfully, âI know. Youâre Mannyâs friend, and sort of a big deal around here.â
Abby shrugged, the red of her cheeks now stretching to reach the tips of her ears, âYeah, thatâs what everyone seems to say. Not sure if I really live up to that expectation, though.â
Y/n chuckled before glancing down at her cracked wrist watch, a wrinkle appearing between her eyebrows as she closed her book and stood up from her seat, âSorry, not trying to run away from you or anything, just lost track of time. Talk to you later, Abby.â
The next few weeks passed with several more interactions between the pair, and Abby would actually consider Y/n to be a friend. They could often be found in the library together, or grabbing a bite to eat with one another and sometimes a few others. Manny often grumbled about Abby swooping in and stealing his friends, but he always seemed to be more than happy to see the two of them together. That strange feeling did not disappear, though, like Abby thought it would. In fact, it got considerably worse.
Instead of having a little bit of nerves around her, Abby was struggling to keep herself from constantly pulling her into her lap, or reaching out to hold her hand across the table, or to tell her how deeply in love with her she waâexcept Abby is straight. She likes guys. She dated Owen, and she was deeply hurt by his betrayal, right?
Thatâs what she told herself. Each longing to touch Y/n was just her own loneliness talking, every time she wanted to be held, it was her basic human need for affection, not because she was romantically or sexually interested in another woman. In fact, she had a little bit of a crush on one of the guys she went on patrol with the other day, or so she told Y/n. She made an effort to make it abundantly clear to the girl that there would be no romantic relationship between them, and was relieved when Y/n didnât seem to put off by it. She continued to hang out with her, and to invite her to different social events around the arena.
This one was different, though. Abby went, fully intending to spend the night by Y/nâs side, people watching and making fun of Manny as he struck out time and time again. She had arrived to the party with Nora, a bit of pep in her step as she slid into the common area, face falling as she immediately took notice of Y/n on the couch across the room, a soft smile on her face as she listened intently to whatever the girl next to her was saying, her arm curled loosely around Y/nâs shoulders.
Abby felt sick, almost giving in to the instinct to turn and run, and she is positive that if it hadnât been for Nora being right behind her, she probably would have. She hesitantly stepped further into the room, glancing around awkwardly in hopes of finding someone to hide her from Y/n before she could catch her attention, though it only took a momentâs glance for Y/n to turn her head and shout, waving both Abby and Nora over to where she and the other girl were sitting.Â
The girlâs name was Samyah, and Abby decided on the spot that she hated her. She hated the way that she talked, the way she dressed, they way she smelled, the way that Y/n looked at her, and most of all, she hated the way that she held Y/nâs hand as she led her out of the common room, hooded eyes making it clear what was about to happen. But it didnât really matter, because Abby is straight and this wasnât going to last anymore than one night.
Except it did. Weeks later, Samyah was still very present in Y/nâs life. Abby cringed every time she had to witness them kiss, or touch each other in any way beyond what could be considered platonic. She prayed every night that something would happen, that Samyah would cheat or die out on patrol, anything to have her away from Y/n for more than a few hours at a time, but when it really happened, she couldnât help but fear that she may have willed it into existenceâAbby wasnât a religious person, but this seemed to be a bit too on the nose for it to not have been divine intervention.Â
Y/n and Samyah had been hooking up for a few weeks when Y/n turned up at Abbyâs room, cheeks glossy with tear stains and eyes burning red. Abby was quick to take her into her arms, ignoring the selfish part of her that was singing at the mere contact. She held her tightly, sitting her down on the edge of her bed and stroking the back of her head soothingly, waiting for her to tell her what had happened.Â
âLet me know when youâre ready to talk,â She had whispered into her hair before pressing a firm kiss there.
It was less than a moment later when a sharp sniff could be heard and Y/nâs watery voice began to retell what had taken place earlier that evening.
âSamyah has a boyfriend, apparently,â She wept, âShe told me she isnât gay, she just wanted to see what it was like.â
Abbyâs entire body burned hot with anger, and then with embarrassment. What would Y/n think if she were to tell her that sheâd been wondering the same thing? How would she be able to move forward knowing fully-well that she was no different from Samyah, someone who she had been condemning over the way that she treated Y/n?Â
But was it the same? Was it really? Since she had met Y/n, she hadnât even glanced twice at Owen, let alone any other man. She was all she could think about, day and night, and yet she still couldnât seem to come to terms with the fact her feelings for her might have been more than platonic. It wasnât as if she were too ashamed or was actually against the idea of her dating another woman, she was just confused as to why these feelings hadnât come up before. Sure, there were times where she thought Mel was the prettiest girl sheâd ever seen, but that was back when there werenât many other girls around (and she wasnât screwing her Abbyâs boyfriend), and there was once where sheâd had a rather promiscuous dream about Nora, but nothing had ever evolved further than that.Â
These thoughts started to keep her up at night. She liked Y/n, she really did, but was it worth risking her friendship only for Abby to decide that she wasnât gay at all? What if she was just curious? It was normal for people her age to be interested in exploring these things, only she was sort of stuck in a situation where she was unable to. She couldnât go to Y/n for help with this, that much was blatantly obvious, but what about someone else? She tried to think of other girls she could go to for help, but there was no one who she could immediately think of that she could go to without also risking her friendship with Y/n; sheâd been insistent early on in their friendship that she was not interested in women at all, especially when Y/n made it clear that she most certainly was, and more precisely, in Abby, so what would she think if she found out that Abby had slept with another woman after insisting that she wasnât interested? That might be more dangerous than going to her for help.
It was getting harder to ignore, as well. Y/n was increasingly dependant on Abby for comfort for weeks after she ended things with Samyah, not that Abby minded, but it was growing more difficult not to hold her to her chest as they share a pillow every night, to not reach out and take her hand every time they walk side-by side, to not push her onto the bed every time she undresses in front of her, to pin her down andâ
Then Y/n moved on. She was still quite upset, but she had decided that she wasnât going to spend any more time dwelling on someone who obviously did not care about her, so she met Reagan. Abby didnât hate Reagan the same way that she had with Samyah, she clearly liked Y/n and treated her as well as she could, considering that they were in the middle of the apocalypse. She was funny, and she fit in with the rest of their friends better than Abby would have liked; she wanted to hate her so much, but the only reason she could think of was purely out of selfishness, that being the fact that Y/n spending time with Reagan meant that she was not spending time with Abby, and after a few weeks of near constant contact with one another, Abby was sure she was going through withdrawals.
It all came to a head when Manny demanded that she take some time off of patrol. With Reagan always around, she had taken it upon herself to start accepting extra duties to avoid having to spend time with the group, and more specifically, Y/n. Heâd made some arrangements and assigned someone else to her shift without even telling her, and all but dragged her down the hall and into the rec room. Y/n and Reagan had yet to arrive, but Abby knew that, if she was going to be forced to sit and watch Reagan practically hang off of the girl that she was probably in love with, she was gonna need a drink.
Abby wasnât normally a big drinker. In her early days in the WLF, there had been a few times where sheâd had more than she probably needed, but it also meant that she didnât necessarily have the highest tolerance, especially with Manny being the one mixing her drinks. Heâd been more than excited when Abby went for her second drink, and decided that they needed to go drink for drink with one another. Needless to say, by the time Y/n arrived, Abby was drunk.Â
âAbs!â The voice sounded excited as they curled their arms around Abbyâs neck from behind, leaning over the back of the sofa she was sitting on to hug her warmly, âI feel like I havenât seen you in forever.â
It almost felt like time had stopped the moment her eyes landed on Y/n, admiring the glint of the dim lights on her clean skin. Her hair was still damp, sheâd just showered before coming to the party, and Abby couldnât help but wish sheâd also done so by the pooling of sweat on her forehead and palms. She leaned her head back against her shoulder, turning to glide her nose against her neck in a much more affectionate manner than she would have if she had been sober.
âHi,â She mumbled, âYou smell good.â
âItâs the lotion we found on patrol a few weeks ago,â Y/n laughed, âAnd youâre drunk.â
Abby shrugged, âNo, just a little tipsy.â
Nora scoffed out a laugh as she plopped down on the armchair next to her, âTipsy? Please, sheâs been letting Manny mix her drinks all night.â
Y/n pulled away, leaving Abby to let out a small whine of defeat, âUh oh. Something must be wrong to have you drinking Mannyâs concoctions.â
âHey!â The latino appeared seemingly out of thin air, âYouâve just lost yourself drink privileges.â
She raised her hands in surrender, âNot the threat you think it is, pendejo.â
Y/n threw herself onto the couch next to Abby, settling close enough for their arms to press against one another and sending Abby into what she assumed could only be early heart failure.Â
âSeriously though, whereâve you been?â
The blonde shrugged once more, âBusy, I guess. Lots of patrols needed to be covered.â
âSo you coveredâŚall of them?â
Abby was quiet for a moment, then quickly changed the subject, âWhereâs Reagan? Arenât you two basically attached at the hip or something?â
The smile on Y/nâs face flickered for a beat, and Abby immediately felt a pang of guilt squeeze at her stomach and regret filled her for hurling such a harsh tone at her.
âSomething came up,â Y/n turned her gaze to her interlocked fingers in her lap, âSheâs not gonna make it.â
Abby recognized a familiar sadness in her voice, one that she had hoped to never hear again, so she dropped the topic and instead found herself falling into a conversation similar to one they would have had before Reagan came into the picture. Things felt right again, especially as Y/nâs hand grasped onto her thick bicep everytime she laughed, and she didnât push her hand away when she reached over and rested it on her kneeâthat had to mean something, right?
After Abby finished her fifth drink, things began to get too fuzzy for her to handle, her head dropping back onto the back of the couch with a grunt, her eyes squinting shut in a weak attempt to refocus herself. Y/n glanced up at her, concern painting her features as she reached a hand up to stroke Abbyâs flushed cheek.Â
âYou feeling okay?â
Abby grunted in response, leaning her cheek even further into her hand.
Y/n chuckled at her, pulling herself away to stand up and taking hold of Abbyâs hand. The blondeâs eyes popped open at the contact, staring up at the girl with hooded eyes as she attempted to pull her to her feet. Abby pushed herself up, forcing her entire body weight into Y/nâs figure faster than she could have anticipated, almost knocking them both to the floor.
âWoah, steady girl,â Y/n laughed, slinging one of her arms over her shoulder, âI think itâs time to get you to bed, donât you think?â
Abby nodded sleepily, allowing her to pull her along down the hallway, thankfully not having to climb any stairs to Abbyâs room with the girl who was 95% muscle on her back. She was able to get her into the room and seated on her mattress with very little troubleâAbby was very compliant with every order that came out of her mouth.Â
She sat back, allowing her to wipe a wet cloth over her face gently, her eyes struggling to stay open even though she was eager to see her face up close and personal once more.Â
âCan I ask you something?â She murmured quietly, using every ounce of her strength to keep herself from moaning under Y/nâs touch.Â
âOf course.â
She paused for a moment, almost like she was thinking it over, though she had no control over the words that spilled out of her mouth, âDo you think Iâm pretty?â
Y/n stopped her movements, causing Abbyâs eyes to shoot open and fall on the grinning face before her. She laughed softly, then louder until her laughter filled the room and bounced off of the walls.Â
âSorry, sorry,â she lifted a hand to cover her mouth to contain her giggles, âThatâs just not what I was expecting. But,â Y/n reached around and tugged the elastic out of Abbyâs blonde hair, carefully untwisting the braid until her long hair settled around her shoulders, âI think you are very pretty.â
She smiled, mumbling out a quiet thank you.
âI have another question.â
âI think itâs only fair that I get to ask you one first.â
Abby raised her eyebrows, but was quick to nod in agreement.Â
Y/n leaned back against the footboard of Abbyâs bed, setting the cloth aside, âWhyâve you been ignoring me lately?â
âIâm notââ the blonde argued, pausing to compose herself, âIâm not ignoring you. Iâm talking to you right now, arenât I?â
âAbby.â
The blonde girl winced at her stern tone, wary of meeting her gaze, âLook, itâs not like I donât wanna be around you, itâs justâŚâÂ
Donât say it, her very sober subconscious was pleading with her, please.
Her drunk mouth didnât listen, âReagan.â
âReagan?â Y/n frowned, âWhat about her?â
A small smile appeared on Abbyâs lips, âNuh-uh, itâs my turn.â
Y/n scoffed, rolling her eyes in annoyance, but urging her to ask nonetheless.
âDo you love her?â
âDo IâAbby, why are you asking me this?â
Her bashful eyes fell to her lap, âI think you know why.â
âNo, Abby I donâtââ
Her words were silenced, a hum of shock vibrating through her throat as Abby lurched forward, lips pressing sloppily against her own. Y/n froze, neither pulling away nor reciprocating, just remaining in place until Abby pulled away for air.Â
Abby smiled, resting her forehead against Y/nâs softly. She was drunk, yes, but she had never felt more sober and in-tune with her own feelings as she was then, just after kissing the girl she was so hopelessly in love with for the very first time.Â
The spell she was under broke the moment her eyelids fluttered open, allowing her to spot the hooded stare and tear-stained cheeks of the girl in front of her.
âY/n? Whatâsââ
âYouâre drunk, Abby,â she scowled, pushing herself away, âYou should go to bed.â
âWhat? I justâNo, please donât go.â
Y/n turned to face her sharply, âWhy? So you can use me for your own pleasure and then kick me to the curb?â
âWhat?â
âI meanâJesus, Abby. You were there after Samyah. You were the one who told me she was such a bitch, that I deserved better, but youâre doing the same goddamn thing. Worst of all, you know how I feel about you, but you made it very clear to me that you didnât feel the same, so I backed off.â
âI love you,â She stammered out, âI-Iâm in love with you.â
Y/n laughed bitterly, shaking her head.
âPlease,â Abby, fell to the floor as she tried to push her body off of the bed, âIâm telling you the truth. I-I didnât know before, but I do now.â
Y/n sighed deeply, pinching the bridge of her nose to collect herself, turning to face her once more before fleeing the room, âGo to bed, Abby. Weâll talk tomorrow.â
Except they didnât talk the next day. Or the one after that. Abby basically avoided Y/n like the plague after doing what she did. How could she? Everything that Y/n had said to her was true, sheâd known it for weeks. Hell, it was the exact reason why she hadnât made a move on her sooner.Â
She knew she couldnât escape her forever, though. The WLF stadium was pretty big, but they would both be living there for the rest of their (hopefully long) lives and would be bound to run into each other at some point in that time. She was also already in a fairly deep state of depression because of what had happened between the two of them, but also because of how much she just missed having her around.Â
Which is why she found herself outside Y/nâs bedroom door after returning from a particularly risky patrol that had ended in only four of them returning from a group of seven. Abby was shaky as she made her way back inside the compound, her muscles screaming with every step and her body begging her for a shower and a long sleep, but her feet mindlessly carried her in the opposite direction of her own room. Her fist rapped against the thin wood before she could even process it, but she couldnât run away now, not when sheâd been pinned under a scar only an hour ago with a knife to her throat.Â
Y/n looked a bit dishevelled as she opened the door, and Abby immediately thought the worst; had she really just shown up at her door at night? What if Reagan was in there? What had Y/n been doing in there when she knocked? Had Abby really interrupted her having sex with someone else?
But the lazy yawn that escaped her puffy lips forced Abby to realise that, no, she hadnât interrupted her with someone else, sheâd woken her up, which somehow made her feel worse.
âAbby?â
âSorry, uh, is this a bad time?â She shifted her weight back and forth nervously.Â
âNo, I was justâno, itâs not,â Y/n crossed her arms over her chest, âYouâve been avoiding me. Again.â
âI know,â Abby frowned, âIâm sorry. For everything. You have every right to be mad at meâfuck, you have every right to never wanna talk to me again, but I just have to let you know how sorry I am and how much you mean to me.â
Y/n shifted her gaze to the floor for a moment before nodding, glancing back up at Abby and stepping back to open the door wider, âWanna come in?â
Abby nodded eagerly, stepping inside with caution. She glanced around, taking in the small changes that had been made since sheâd last been here. Y/n bedroom was, well, hardly even a bedroom. It was about the size of a large broom closet, just enough room to jam two twin beds and two small dressers inside, though she and her roommate had taken the initiative to make it somewhat cosy inside. Thankfully, the second bed was empty that night, meaning that she didnât have to hold back.
âWanna sit?â Y/n motioned to the foot of her bed as she took a seat near the headboard.Â
âUh,â Abby glanced down at her dirty attire, âI shouldn't. Sorry, I didnât even change before I came hereâfuck, Iâm so sorry.âÂ
Y/n shook her head, âHey, itâs okay, Abs. We can sit on the floor?â
The blondeâs shoulders loosened at the use of that nickname, almost like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders as she lowered herself to sit directly across from Y/n on the carpeted floor.Â
It was quiet for a beat, both of the girls sitting in silence as they watched, both anxiously waiting to see who would speak first.Â
âDid you mean it?â Y/n was the first to crack.
âDid I meanâŚâ
âYou know what Iâm talking about. You were drunk, but you avoided me like a clicker, Abby, so please donât play dumb and just talk to me.â
Abby cleared her throat, âYes. I meant it.â
Y/n let out a heavy breath, and Abby couldnât tell if she was relieved or even more upset with her answer, âOkay, so you meant it. But why couldnât you just tell me that? You knew how I felt about you when we first met, but you told me you werenât interested so that was that.â
Abby shook her head, âIt wasnât like that. When we first met, I wasâŚstill dealing with how things ended with Owen. I was angry and hurt, and I really thought I would never get over it. But then, after a little while, I started to realise that I wasnât heartbroken over him, I was angry that he and Mel didnât have the decency to talk to me before they started fucking behind my back.â
âOkay,â Y/n nodded, âBut after that? Is it some kind of internalised homophobic shit going on? If it is, you couldâve talked to me about it, I couldâve helped you.â
âItâs not that. It wasnât that I was scared or ashamed of myself, it was that I didnât even really think about it, I guess. Then, when I finally did, you were with Samyah, and then that ended and you were so upset, and that got me thinking thatâŚI donât know, what if I was the same as her? What if I was just wanting to experiment? I didnât wanna talk to you about it because I didnât wanna lose you, and I didnât want you to think that I was the same as her,â Abby could feel her eyes stinging from the sudden onset of tears, âAnd then by the time I realised that that wasnât the case, you were already with Reagan.â
Y/n opened her mouth to speak, but Abby cut her off.
âI know, youâre with her, and if thatâs what you want, then thatâs fine. I want you to be happy. But I canât leave here knowing that I didnât tell you that I am in love with you, so much that I donât even know what to do with myself.â
Y/n didnât answer, not verbally. Instead, she threw herself across the room, clambering into Abbyâs lap and messily pressing her lips against hers. Abby was quick to reciprocate, her lips moving against hers steadily and conforming the once sloppy movements into a more slow and rhythmic embrace. Her arms moved to wrap around her waist, palms sliding up and down her back greedily as Y/n gently took Abbyâs flushed cheeks into her own hands.Â
When they finally pulled away, they both broke into wide grins, leaning in to peck each other once more.Â
âReagan and I arenât together. I guess I was just on the rebound and she was looking for a fling, but itâs over.â Y/n whispered, â I love you too, so much that I do know what to do with myself.â
Abby laughed, eyes trailing down her body and finally settling on the dirt and mud and blood that had transferred from her own dirty clothes to Y/nâs.Â
âShit, sorry, got you kinda dirty.â
Y/n glanced down at herself, then shrugged with a sly glint in her eye, âItâs okay. It just means that weâre both gonna have to go shower before bed, right?â
Abby stared at her in awe for a moment, brain finally catching up to her words as she jumped to her feet, hauling Y/n up into her arms as she began a quick march in the direction of the womenâs showers, the otherwise quiet hallway being disturbed by Y/nâs squeal of surprise and laughter as the tall blonde carried her.Â
Though the laughter was certainly more bearable to the surrounding rooms than the sounds that echoed from the showers over the next hour, though Abby couldnât find a single ounce of concern for the others in the moment, just glad that she was finally able to hold and touch and kiss Y/n, just like real people do.
#reader insert#x reader#imagines#lesbian#abby anderson#abby anderson imagine#abby anderson x reader#abby tlou#abby anderson x you
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Baby Fever and Annoying Brothers||Quinn Hughes x Reader
Pairing: Quinn Hughes x Reader
Request: Could I get Quinn Hughes with baby fever and his brothers there to make fun of it?
Summary: Quinn gets baby fever real bad and his brothers bug him to propose
A/n: Listen I wasnât a Quinn girly before but that has recently changed so thank you for these requests
Word Count: 700+
âQuinn, dude, come on let's go.â Luke complained. The brothers had been trying to start a basketball game for the past 45 minutes. Jack and Luke were ready, but Quinn kept pushing it off with a simple â5 more minutes then i'll be readyâ.
What, you may ask, was keeping Quinn from playing a game with his family? The sight of his girlfriend interacting with the baby of a family friend of theirs. It was quite possibly the most addicting and adorable sight he has ever seen.Â
He couldnât take his eyes off of it, no matter how hard he tried. The whole scene was beautiful. Outside, on the lawn chairs in the backyard, laid his girlfriend of 4 years gently swaying a now sleeping infant in her arms as she quietly spoke to the babyâs mother as well as his own mom.Â
âQuinn this is getting-â Jack was cut off when he saw it. His older brother sitting there, oblivious to the heart eyes he was making. It was hilarious to him. His big brother practically brought to his knees at the sight of his longtime girlfriend holding a baby.Â
As he stood next to Luke, Quinn finally was pulled out of his trance. Embarrassed at his brother's gawking, he finally went to play basketball.Â
But of course the two youngest Hughes couldnât just not bring it up. It was their brotherly duty to chirp Quinn into his place.
âSo when are you gonna actually purpose?â Jack asked. At this, Luke elbowed him in the side, hard.Â
âCome on dude let him liveâ Luke reprimanded.
âThank you, Luke.â Quinn responded.
âNo but seriously, he is right. You spend almost an hour staring at your girlfriend for holding a fucking baby. I know youâve got a bad case of baby fever after that. When are you gonna actually get started on that shit? Unless you donât plan on going the whole marital route before kids. I don'tâ really know how some people would thi-â
âCan you both please just shut the fuck up about it.â
âCome on, Quinn, we are just chirping you. Although we saw the way you were looking at her. You sure that hasnât changed anythingâŚâ Jack teased.Â
He was right of course. While he was staring, he was also envisioning a life with her. A life with his beautiful wife, in a beautiful home, with kids to fill it. Maybe theyâd have one, or maybe a whole hockey team. Whoâs to say? The last thing he wanted though, was to be discussing it with his brothers when they would just tease him.
âNo, nothing has changed. Although things may happen sooner-â âWhat the fuck does that mean?â Luke asked.
âI just- I donât need kids right this second.â Quinn stated.
âBut?â
âBut I do have a ring. Iâve kept it in my hockey bag for the last few months. I just- I just donât know when Iâm gonna propose.â
âQuinn why the fuck didnât you tell us?â Jack practically yelled.
âDoes mom know? She will flip the fuck out if you got it and didnât tell her?â Luke asked.
âYes, she knows. She has been bugging me about it every single day. Trying to give me ideas and such but I just need to find the right time and place.â
âIsnât now the right time and place though? You are with family, in a pretty fucking beautiful place. I mean what's stopping you from taking her on the boat tomorrow and doing it.â Jack joked. But he was right. You had once stated, while intoxicated, that you would have killed Quinn if he proposed in public, as if that was something he would ever do. The secluded boat would be the perfect place.
Quinn smiled to himself as he came to this revelation. He would propose, soon, and get started on the life he had envisioned. He didnât answer either of them or tell them about his plans, but one look at his face and his brothers knew. They both shared a look as their absolutely smitten older brother went to grab the ball.
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I recently found a copy of the graphic novel version of Straight on Til Morning at my local used bookstore and got a great deal so I wanted to share a few of my likes, dislikes, and general observations. Iâd been meaning to write up a proper review of the book for awhile now but have been SUPER behind. Anyway, the graphic novel follows the book pretty closely and Iâll be sharing some images from it, so this WILL CONTAIN SPOILERS for those of you who havenât read it.
First off, the artwork for the graphic novel is beautiful and some scenes are illustrated in a really creative way. For example, I love the depiction of this particular scene where Wendy is writing her stories and Hook sort ofâŚcomes to life off the page.
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I also really love that while (most of) the characters are still recognizably Disneyâs versionâŚthey also look a tad more realistic and have some of the illustratorâs own personal interpretation mixed in.
George Darling is a great example. In the graphic novel he is slimmer than in the film and looks remarkably like J.M. BarrieâŚwhich I have to consider was probably intentional.
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And then thereâs the Lost Boys in their animal costumesâŚTootles, Skipper (excuse me, this is Nibs erasureâyou can add Skipper but donât just eliminate Nibs!), Slightly, Cubby, and the Twins.
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The pirates, however, are a totally different story. Who the heck are these guys???
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Anyway⌠at least they get Hookâs personality right. I love this bit, in particular, where one of the pirates gets a little rough with Wendy and Hook is having none of it. Also, the idea of Hook capturing Wendy to be a mother to the crew is a nice nod to the book.
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One big complaint I do have is that the characters are, on occasion, a little TOO self-aware. Like in this scene where one of the pirates makes a sort of on-the-nose observation about Hookâs feud with Pan.
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But I will admit, I did cackle at Hookâs reaction.
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He said would you please stop trying to psychoanalyze me and look for symbolism and just let the story be about a boy and a pirate? (Hook, how do you even know who Freud is??)
You may have noticed by now that I havenât said anything about Peter⌠Thatâs because Peter barely features in the story at all and honestly when he does show up, heâsâŚkinda useless and clueless. Now, admittedly, Wendy is meant to be older in this (around 16) so of course, itâs reasonable to think she might not quite view him the same way she did at 12âŚbut in having her team up with Tink to do all the heavy-lifting of the plot (because, ya know, girlpower and all that), Peter sort of ends up not really doing anything. Iâd almost rather have an evil Pan, as annoying as that trope is because at least then he actually does something. In this story, it truly feels like Wendy has justâŚoutgrown Peter altogether. And that hurts.
Speaking of whichâŚya know what hurts even more for me as a Hook fan? THIS.
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This poor man is curled up on the deck in the fetal position, terrified of a crocodile who has been long-dead, crying out for a best friend who never even existed except inside his own mind because he was so alone that he made him up.
O W !! Why would you do this to me, Disney?!
It ends for Hook with the crew deciding to drop him off somewhere with enough gold to pay for his keep and hire a caretaker because heâs so mentally unstable they donât trust him to live by himself.
I hate to say it, but honestly, watching him die would be less painful. At least that would be over with fairly quickly. This just hurts.
But everyone else lives happily ever after, so itâs okay, right? Right??? đŤđ (Donât mind me, Iâll just be over here in the corner, crying over my pirate boy.)
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How They Text the Reader Headcanons
âł Characters included are Bruno Brucciarati, Leone Abbacchio, and Guido Mista. Gender Neutral Reader with they/them pronouns.
A/n: Iâve always wanted to try my hand at doing x Reader text messages! This was very fun to make, and I do plan to make more of this kind of headcanon list for the rest of Bucciaratiâs team.
Warning(s): None.
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Bruno Bucciarati
Brunoâs text messages are straight to the point and utilize proper grammar like the mother he truly is deep down.
Not the type of person to send emojiâs⌠ever, really. This is because he views texting as a simple tool to use when he canât just speak to you in person or over a phone call.
However, you prefer the funnier explanation of it actually being because heâs secretly very inept at using technology (this is very much so part of it he just wonât ever say so).
In all honesty, he prefers to call you and hear the sound of your voice more than communicating over text. Heâs the type to call in order to converse about whatever mundane thing is on his mind instead of sending a text.
That said, heâs definitely the type to always tell you good morning or wish you goodnight with a sweet text message.
Also, because of his job, heâs often put into long-term situations where calling isnât exactly ideal. Thatâs when heâll text the most; he just wants to check up on you regularly when he canât be there in person do so! This became especially true after rising to the position of Capo.
His text messages may seem⌠bland to those unfamiliar with him.
But since you know him as well as you do, they always ring as genuine and an extension of his polite kindness.
Admittedly, it is hard to argue against the fact that his straightforward style of text often leads to misunderstandings. This is due to his sometimes unreadable tone:
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Leone Abbacchio
Hardly ever texted you at the beginning.
Since the two of you started going out, heâs gotten a bit better, though. Before, he was very adamant that if he has something to say, heâll wait when heâs face-to-face with you.
But when he eventually let it slip that he often forgets what he even wants to talk to you about, you slowly began getting him to text you more.
Arguably the best method of doing so is to get him to tell you about something he feels strongly about. Whether itâs something positive like asking him about the music heâs been listening to recently, or itâs something more devilish like bringing up subjects that really bother him.
Leone is at least very reliable.
Meaning that, although he doesnât often start a conversation over text himself, he will respond to you reasonably quick.
Tease him by claiming itâs because he has a soft spot for you and he wonât text for an entire day (you know he loves you).
He also prefers to use proper grammar and punctuation in his texts. That said, Leone does use emojis (usually just to express disappointment) and sometimes can seem more expressive in text than he is in actual conversation.
One sweet thing he does over text is that he always sends you a message after he makes it home after a particularly dangerous mission, informing you that heâs safe. He knows you worry, and although he often puts up a front claiming itâs annoying, he truly does take note of that concern.
Abbacchioâs just not completely used to having someone like you in his life who holds a special concern for him. He is adjusting; slow and steady.
And although he forms the habit of texting you more, itâs you and only you he has the energy to do this for (outside of probably Bruno). This leads to otherâs on Bucciaratiâs team to text you when they want to get a hold of him:
Guido Mista
Real talkative over text, especially in the evening after heâs finished with his dinner. Heâs pretty expressive and uses a decent amount of emojis.
Will plop down on his couch with an exaggerated bounce, pull out his phone, only with the purpose of talking to you and doing nothing else on the device.
The two of you actually had to work on how late youâd stay up texting one another.
Hours disappearing in the blink of an eye and leaving you both extra tired the next morning. And on occasions that it was decided to take the conversation into a call⌠itâs easy to see why you both have slept in late more than once.
Although not as frequently as someone like Narancia, Mista will send memes every now and then. Not only that, but he always replies to the ones you send him.
He prefers to send you embarrassing or funny pictures of others in the group over memes, though. Youâve seen photos of Abbacchio and Fugo in particular that Mista could honestly use as blackmail.
This has bitten him in the butt quite a bit, though.
After discovering Mistaâs been doing this, the others now send you every single unfavorable image they own of the gunslinger. Even Brunoâs sent his fair share.
And although Mista often forgets to say good morning to you through text, he always says goodnight to you.
Not only that, but Mista will text right after heâs completed with a mission. Although a bit of a goofball, he always takes work seriously, and will leave you on delivered on hours at a time depending on what heâs up to. But the minute things have calmed, heâs letting you know.
Mista will certainly ask one of his common out-of-pocket questions designed to get a conversation going via a text message.
This isnât a bad thing per se, except for the fact that he has a bad habit of doing so at three in the morning.
Even still, theyâre not the weirdest variation of texts youâve ever received from him:
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cw: another wishful ending to bnha. about shigaraki but mostly from izuku's perspective. hint of a future healed!shigaraki x reader.
Izuku is not sure what he should wear for an occasion like this.Â
Between the grueling, far too hands-on curriculum of becoming a hero, becoming the greatest hero Japan had to offer, and the aftermath of meta war that felt like ages (and probably aged him too), it was all too easy for him to forget that he is, in fact, still a teenager.
And a teenager doesnât exactly always know what to wear when going to decide the fate of another manâs life.
Despite the fact that heâs pretty sure Hawks doesnât actually care what he looks like at this point, Inko is kind enough to iron a suit for him and adjust the now shaggy-when-regrown mop of green curls into something professional once heâs dressed. She pats his face, letting her hand rest on the scarred side of his cheek.
âI think it will go well,â she reassures him, even though she can sense that heâs nervous. âYouâre doing a good thing.â
Izuku is mostly sure, possibly 99% sure, but the 1% of uncertainty dissipates with his motherâs words. He nods.
âRight.â
â
About 5 months have passed since the culmination of the meta war. Owing to the valiant efforts of the people, with Quirks and without them, the guidance of multiple construction companies (including the Urarakas who have made not shy of hundreds of millions during this time), and heavy political support from local and abroad, the city is mostly rebuilt, to the point that it would be hard to believe that so much was destroyed in such a short time ago in recent history.
Izuku finds his way to the new Hero commission and stops at the front desk to present identification but is quickly passed through with a big smile from the security guardâs face. Itâs still hard for him to get used to this treatment, but he remains polite and bows before making his way down to the conference room in the email.
A formal Hero Commission email addressed to around ten people, give or take, and heâs probably the last to arrive of those few, all of them seated at a round table once he arrives. Panicking a bit, he checks the time but before he can look at his phone, Hawks takes a moment to give him a once over and then stifle a laugh at his outfit.
âNow, donât you look dapper?â he jokes.
Hawks is wearing a fitted suit himself, but heâs now president of the Hero Commission so itâs not out of the ordinary. All Might, offering a pleasant but weary smile next to him, is also dressed up, but he has been a fan of fitted suits in the public eye recently anyway so thatâs not strange. Best Jeanist is⌠well, Best Jeanist⌠and perfectly coiffed and styled in⌠denim jeans. Mirio, however, is dressed down in a plaid button down and plain slacks, and bounces up to greet him pulling him to sit by him, Nejire, and Tamaki.
âNice threads, Izuku!â Mirio cheers, while Nejire pulls at the sleeve and asks him if he bought it at the thrift store. Tamaki stares at a wall, having hit capacity for the number of people in the room.
Izuku wasnât the last person here because Mirko and Katsuki squabble loudly as they finally enter the room, with Edgeshot in his diminutive form and difficult to see upfront trailing close behind, possibly annoyed (you couldnât tell from this distance). Mirko is wearing athletic wear and Katsuki is wearing-
A suit.
Katsuki and Izuku lock eyes and the recognition sets in at the same time. His cheeks turn red and then he looks away before shuffling into his seat.
Once everyone has been settled and assistants have brought in coffee and pastries, Hawks finally moves to the first order of business.
A hologram shows in the center of the room with two images - one of Tomura Shigaraki taken as an aerial shot while he was screaming, in the midst of the meta war, and just beside it, an image of Tenko Shimura taken just a few days ago, at a construction site using his Decay quirk for demolition as part of a community service effort, quirk disabling wristlets in full display with the ability to be toggled on and off. The contrasts between these two images are evident - the rage distorting the young manâs features as Shigaraki as he is positioned to destroy and kill, unkempt white hair flowing in the air and a small serenity emanating from the young manâs visage as Tenko as he works to disintegrate rubble and clear land for reconstruction, dark hair cropped short and tousled slightly by fall breeze. If you look closely there is a hint of a smile in the second image, and fear in the eyes of the first.
Two very different men.
âWeâre here to discuss our next steps with Shig-, Tenko Shimura.â
All Might lets out a breath no one knew he was holding. Izuku wonders if itâs by All Mightâs request that Hawks has used his correct name, perhaps to honor his mentor and Tenkoâs grandmother. He makes a mental note to always do the same.Â
Katsuki keeps his lips pressed into a straight line and doesnât say a word; Izuku doesnât blame him, and in another circumstance would have never imagined being willing to sit for this conversation so easily, but he also appreciates that Katsuki is present for this vote at the very least.
âLetâs go through the facts.â
Hawks, pacing around the room, recounts the actions of the man once known as Shigaraki Tomura, as well as delineates what actions are his specifically and what actions were in conjunction with All For One. He shares testimonials from various psychiatrists who have worked with Tenko in this short period of rehabilitation before this discussion and the people who have worked with him on community service. He provides excerpts from social media influencers as well as political and religious opinions.Â
The case is long and drawn out and by the time he is done, Mirko is yawning loudly and Mirio is trying very hard not to fall asleep. Aizawa, however, is asleep in the corner of the room, having shown up dead last, and not interested in a word being said.
A vote is meant to be cast by the end of today. Izuku wonders if Tenko is on the other side of that door, waiting for his fate to be decided.Â
If no one can agree to rehabilitate him, he will most likely go to jail, deprived of the ability to use any Quirks possibly for the rest of his life. His best chance is now, as Izuku does not imagine any turnover in power will allow him as much amnesty as the current group here.
Izuku has spent the last few months pleading to the Hero Commission to consider his proposal, using the very fact that Tenko relinquished his OFA-related Quirks back to him almost immediately as a perfect example.
Tenko did give his inner child a second chance, and Tenko did fight back. He just needed help.
âAll motions to go forth with a continued rehabilitation plan, please say-â
Mirko raises her hand immediately, interrupting.
âAye.â
Placing both her feet on the edge of the table, she defends herself before anyone can ask.
âIf he tries some shit again, I get a rematch,â she says, grinning. All Might gives her a pleased look but says nothing.
Aizawa chimes in from inside his sleeping bag.
âAye.â
While Izukuâs eyes widen, Katsuki finally interjects.
âHave you guys forgotten this man killed me?â
âAnd lifted you up with his toes.â Mirko adds. âBut you lived, didnât you, pipsqueak?â she says, grinning.Â
Best Jeanist, not at all pleased by the joke, raises his hand.
âNay. This is a ridiculous idea.â
âWhatâs ridiculous is your outfits but we donât-â
All Might clears his throat. âAye.â
Endeavor takes a look at All Might, crossing his arms over his chest. His retirement is still hot off the presses, and he chooses to take a step back here too.
âAbstain.â
Izukuâs heart is racing and heâs not exactly sure why. Part of this waiting period involves Izuku keeping an eye on Tenko and in repeated conversations, he has always gotten the sense that Tenko could change but his hope had been tempered. The truth was, as much as he wanted to save Tenko, a small part of him was still a little angry for the harm he did, and he imagined that if he felt that way, it was only a fraction of what the public and his peers must feel.
But today, there seems to be a chance.
âAye!â Mirio and Nejire say in unison and Tamaki quickly follows up.Â
Katsuki rises suddenly and leaves the room and while Izuku wants to follow him, he knows that itâs a waste of time.
Thatâs a problem for days to come.
âAnd why exactly are we forgiving him?â Best Jeanist asks, as he rises himself to go after his student.
âBecause we donât plan to leave anyone behind,â Edgeshot finally admits. Best Jeanist shakes his head.
âIt stays Nay for me but itâs your responsibility.âÂ
He files out of the room, but Hawksâ smile isnât deterred, knowing heâll come around.Â
The majority chooses hope.
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Four and a half years have passed since that vote.
Izuku watches his friend, a girl from the support class a year above him who isnât Hatsume but just as good in her own realm, fiddle with tracking devices and quirk-neutralizing wristlets attached to the first iteration of Entropyâs Hero suit. Entropyâs hero costume doesnât include a mask, but Izuku has an inkling that no one will recognize him prior to his debut as the man who almost laid waste to the entire country. There is something about a personâs soul that can permeate a vessel, itâs a reminder that beauty is only skin deep, but goodness will shine through no matter what one looks like.
Tenko is however somewhat handsome in the way that his Hero grandmother was beautiful and that helps. Wavy, dark hair frames his face to a shoulder length, and his dark eyes are actually warm now that heâs had time to shed off most of the loneliness. Heâs filled out slightly with better food and less angst, which is another thing that is sure to make him more appealing to the masses.Â
Izuku can still sense the trepidation however in the slight tremble of Tenkoâs fingertips as he holds them out for the support engineer to readjust the gloves, and wonders if heâs projecting.
Part of the arrangement for Entropyâs debut is for Deku and Entropy to work as partners for at least a year to satisfy the civilians who still donât trust him (with good reason) as a contingency plan in case Tenko changes his mind about being a productive member of society and needs someone to stop him a second time.
Izuku is pretty sure he wonât fall back into that dark place again by now, even if a select few will never, ever forgive him. Even Katsuki still grumbles, but agrees that Izuku might be right.Â
âI feel like a leashed dog still,â Tenko finally pipes up as the engineer adjusts the literal silver collar on his neck. Itâs meant to be a joke but itâs not exactly false. Izuku offers him a small consoling smile.
âIt makes the commission happy, so bear with it, I guess.â Izuku says. Itâs a lame response, he admits, but itâs all he has to offer.Â
Between the emergency shock collar thatâs stylized to appear as part of the prototype suit, a physical tracker, and internal restraints, there are a lot of things to stop Tenko from becoming Tomura again, but at least the adjustment of all of these in the homey atmosphere of Izukuâs apartment feels less like house arrest.Â
Izukuâs girlfriend peers in from time to time from where sheâs holed up studying for clinical examinations to check on their progress, a steaming mug in her hand. The girls wave at each other before she disappears again and locks the door, loud music with heavy bass playing from her computer speakers.Â
Itâs a miracle sheâs not afraid of Tenko given Tomura almost killed her during the meta war too, but Izuku understands that this is a testament to how much she trusts his judgment.Â
âThank you for doing this,â he says finally to his friend. She practically beams.
âIâm just giving you the âyour future wife is my bestieâ discount.â
Izuku goes red at the ears and Tenko stifles a laugh. She turns and gives him a look and he immediately looks away, somewhat startled by how quickly she gets into his face.
âIt is however a really big favor, I just worry youâll be somewhat accountable if something goes wrong, too.â
Tenko frowns. âIâm right here, you know,â he murmurs. He pauses before he uses her professional name, which turns out to not be so professional at all. â... Sparkles.â
Sparkles doesnât hear him, the jitteriness of three days of no sleep in the setting of piled up audits at her security technologies company getting to her. âJust donât forget to get me the paperwork, Izuku.âÂ
She then turns her attention back to Tenko finally as Izuku searches for a pen in a basket under the coffee table.
Tenko again, possibly too affected by how quickly, she moves, seems to stand up a little straighter as she sizes him up.
âAre you planning on hurting anyone?â
Sparkles hadnât realized Izukuâs girlfriend had left the room again to grab more sugar for her tea.
âIf he says yes, what exactly are you gonna do, babe?â she hollers, disappearing again before waiting for the answer. Izuku chuckles.
âIâd ask him if he meant it,â she yells back. She turns to him again, looking up at him through her eyelashes. âDo you mean it? Are you planning on hurting anyone?â
Tenko tenses up and Izuku tries not to laugh, wondering if he should leave Tenko to Sparklesâ charms or allow him to rest.
Regardless, he has great aspiration for the worldâs former greatest villainâs future, yet.
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