#mostly because i love case fics and recently ive been inspired

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been trying to do some more detailed stuff using only three colors 🧡🖤🤍

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❧ check in tag

tagged by the sweetest angel @propinqxity to do this little tag. this is such a cute list of questions, and some of these i dont think ive been asked before. thank you so much for the tag and the tumblr crush mention lovely. you truly are a bright spot on this website and i mean that sincerely <333

going under a cut because im certain i will ramble ~

1. Why did you choose this url?

its sort of like a pun between yall dont know and the fact that, hopefully, sincerely, chanyeol does not in fact know that i run this blog lmao i changed to this after a long time of being bread-jinie and i wanted to rebrand. i will, however, do my best to never change URLs again because the masterlist switch over was a complete hassle

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them

i have a fic recs blog called @yeoldontknowiread. as to why i have it, i know it hasnt been updated in ages since ive been kind of on hiatus, but i think reading and sharing work on this platform is immensely important. i actually read quite a lot of fanfiction, and i try my best to share the things i read. im very very behind on recs at the moment cause i try my best to write something substantial for every recommendation i make. as a writer, i know exactly the kinds of thoughts and feedback on fics that make my heart soar so i try to put in the same energy to my recs. community is only fostered when there is reciprocation

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

hmmm since april 2017. i actually had my 4 year anniversary this year and i did have plans for things but i got roped into real life things and couldnt celebrate the way i truly wanted to :(

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no but sometimes i think i should. i view tags as a library on top of my knee jerk response to things. most of my tags are just my initial thoughts or feelings at any given moment, so those take precedence over a specific queue tag

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

when i was getting into exo, i was reading fanfiction like crazy. i used to write fanfic quite a lot in other fandoms, but at that time i hadnt written anything in about 2.5 years. exo was the first re-introduction to that feeling of excitement and inspiration. after about 3 weeks of straight reading, i decided i wanted to write again. i wrote the prologue to hero in about two hours and tried logging into AO3 to post it. sadly i forgot all of my log in information because it had been years, and was getting frustrated. i really wanted to put it somewhere out of fear that id lose interest if i didnt do something with it, and everything id read had been on tumblr. so i made a tumblr just to put hero lmao i didnt have any mutuals. it was a blog with straight 0. i hadnt even created an account to interact with writers before that moment, i really thought id be a silent reader forever. but exo woke me back up and for that i am eternally grateful.

6. Why did you choose your icon?

the yours music video is...so stunning? like the colour theory throughout the whole thing is truly so inspiring and gorgeous. and this shot of chanyeol looking at the painting took my breath away, truly. tulips and the color of peach, like do you know how evocative that is? ugh

7. Why did you choose your header

my header was made by @jamaisjoons for my birthday this year because shes literally the most talented person when it comes to graphics. and this was so kind of her to do, i cried a lot

8. What's your post with the most notes?

uhm....either the body through time or truth i cant remember which but i checked recently and its one of those

9. How many mutuals do you have?

honestly at this point im not even sure. i know ive lost a bunch while i was on hiatus because i was basically a dead blog, and some people do dash cleanses. and im certain others have left, too, for their own reasons. still, i have a good core of friends though who are active and that is enough for me

10. How many followers do you have?

more than i probably deserve

11. How many people do you follow?

399

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

uhm i guess? there was a time when nng was not updated and every wednesday id post the days go by music video in sadness and grief but im not a big shitposter. if i make a text post its usually a life update or me crying about chanyeol, theres no inbetween lmao

13. How often do you use Tumblr every day?

tbh i havent used tumblr that often, not since march i think. i used to use it many times a day, checking in on friends and stuff, but once i started focusing on my phd applications i was only here sporadically. i didnt make an announcement either, just let my blog run on queue so i wasnt totally gone. i think i was checking in twice a week or maybe once every two weeks to refill my queue and check mentions etc. but now that my interviews are done im trying to get back on here daily to reconnect

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

ive had my share of disagreements with people and any details about those situations shall remain as they are meant to: private

15. How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

in what context? like, you need to reblog this or your wish wont come true? or like, please reblog this to spread the word/spread awareness, etc? in the case for the former, i scroll right by. in the case of the latter, if im around and see someone raising a go fund me or some major event is occurring and i find a post with good sources or charities i will reblog. mostly though, the full extent my activism isnt really on this blog. its my escape from reality. my activism is usually placed on other platforms.

16. Do you like tag games?

i doooo!!! theyre so fun i love learning about my friends

17. do you like ask games?

i love those too! theyre so cute and usually a nice way to have interaction immediacy with people in the community

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

no one. can we please abandon this notion of fame on tumblr? arent we all here to write about some dick and some smut and some fluff and then hang out together and log off? lmao tumblr isnt reality and followers/fame is so arbitrary on this platform, no one has any control over any of it

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i am in love with so many people here. let me name a few:

@yehet-me-up @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @j-pping @jamaisjoons @inkedtae @kookdiaries @yoonia @dulcetvk @kithtaehyung @imdifferentshadesofpurple @ditzymax @sugaurora @sahmbtsficrecs @junghelioseok @yeojaa @augustbutwinter @joonscore @btssavedmylifeblr @cutechim @sunshinekims @kimtaehyunq @ouvuo @delhyun @exo-stentialism @sooibian @softyoongiionly @jinseunie @zibermuda @bratkook @1kook @luffles424 @xjoonchildx

and so many other people and mutuals that i am certainly forgetting. love is such an expansive feeling, and it encompasses platonic ardor and creative desire. i admire every single person listed for so many different reasons, and cherish and treasure them or what they provide to the community. love is such an important and broad experience. truly, i hope they feel adored every single day x

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✧ learn about me ✧

Hello!!! I was tagged by @strawbxxymilk AND @fortunexkookie (even tho ryns was....a bit ago lmao) idk who has already been tagged but imma tag @honiboyyoon and @personawife and @helpitskpop and anyone else who wants to!! I literally love learning about all of u ur all fantastic ♡♡

✧Name | bette

✧Birthday | oct 6

✧Zodiac | libra sun, pisces moon, gemini rising (year of the pig, too, in case anyone else follows chinese zodiac uwu)

✧Height | 5'8"

✧Hobbies | i flip between being a snorlax and like a buneary or something, i either sleep for a million hours and just binge tv and fic on my couch or im manic writing one of my wips or my novel while re-organizing my craft shit and playing tug of war with my dogs. im also WILDLY into video games, ive been bingeing dragon age lately and mass effect remains one of my all-time favorite series, up there with harvest moon and animal crossing, but breath of the wild is pretty close, and i legitimately ADORE wolf among us and other non-linear games (someone come talk to me about jade empire bc its CRIMINALLY UNDERRATED)

✧Fave colors | b l u e I literally love every shade of blue ever, as well as a lot of purples. most pastels are also gorg and ive also recently rediscovered my love of pink

✧Fave book | oof this is SO difficult i love to read more than anything in the world BUT my absolute fave fiction is a toss up between the Lunar Chronicles series and the Eon/Eona duology, and my fave non-fiction is probs A Chinese Cinderella: A Modern Fairytale bc it literally broke my heart a million times over

✧Last song listened to | to be alone by hozier, and before that was epiphany + seesaw

✧Last film watched | askdkdkd ice age 3 bc i watch cartoons when I sleep but im also currently watching season four of rizzoli & isles so

✧Inspiration or muse | a lot of it comes from the media i consume, like movies and books, but mostly its music. sometimes other fics inspire me to write my own stuff, like how my novel is inspired by peter pan, and monsters and gods is inspired by every single greek thing i read, but sometimes it just strikes, like with chasing butterflies.

✧Dream job | tbh ive wanted to be an author since i was like six and wrote my first story (it was about a princess and her cat lmao) and id really love to be on like...rick riordans level someday, but more and more i keep thinking my novel would work better as a tv show lmao kill me so now im just focused on finishing this bitch so i can edit it and potentially get it published. mostly i just wanna write stories for the next generation so that they know people like them exist and that they aren't alone in the world and in what they feel, because i didnt really have a lot of that when i was growing up and i wish i had bc it would have made things a lot easier

✧Meaning behind url | ddaeng is a bop lmao

I'm literally the most boring person in the world y'all but I hope this was at least slightly interesting!!! also renis didnt have a bias selfie tag but ryns kind of did and i literally had one ready to go bc i just....have it, but this hellsite hates me so uh i guess i’ll post that eventually at another time???

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top 5 and bottom 5 kudos fic

rules: tag the person who tagged you, always post the rules, answer the questions, and add the date! i was tagged by the ever-wonderful @prosciuttoe :)

What are your five most popular works? (in descending order)

1. Small Favors (bellamy/clarke, 24k words, 790 kudos, Dec 2014)

Small favors born out of sheer necessity (part I, part II) forge a unique intimacy (part III, part IV, part V, part VI) that brings forth intense chemistry (part VII, part VIII).

Or, how Bellamy & Clarke take their time falling in love, with some cameos by other favorites in the The 100.

Oh boy, what a flashback. This was my first long fic for Bellarke, which is kinda funny because it mostly started by how annoyed I was that Clarke’s hair was all over the place and thus a short little fic was born (which became Chapter 1). The mural idea / description is probably one of my personal triumphs too.

2. All This Time (bellamy/clarke, 5.4k words, 491 kudos, July 2015)

Four times Bellamy innocently kisses Clarke, + one time he doesn't.

While I wrote this because of a prompt (TSwift songs provide so much writing inspiration, which is #timely given today’s news) but it was inspired by some real-life crush experience that I was going through at the time oooh boi that is a thing that i forgot happened. 

3. Full Circle (bellamy/clarke, 4.7k words, 439 kudos, March 2015)

Clarke goes missing for a few days, and when she returns, she finds that Bellamy has gone to look for her. Fear creeps in, because history seems to be repeating itself, but this time, she doesn't know if she can survive the fallout.

My first prompted fic ever! I was so nervous given the ‘epic kiss’ request, so I’m actually super happy that this is one of my top fic??

4. Sight Unseen (bellamy/clarke, 2.5k words, 415 kudos, May 2015)

Dr. Clarke Griffin is a professional, and professionals do not have crushes on their patients, and they certainly don't act on them. Sergeant Bellamy Blake, however, is proving to be a challenge for her, especially when she overhears some information that lets her know she isn't alone in her feelings.

Kinda surprised this one is so far up? Honestly I had more fun writing the Raven & Bellamy cranky-roommates-who-refuse-to-admit-they’re-friends dynamic than Bellarke here, but I suppose because Raven is The Queen Of My Soul lol.

5. The More Things Change (bellamy/clarke, 8.3k words, 415 kudos, Aug 2015)

First, Clarke comes home, and Bellamy smiles, because home isn't just a place.

Then, Clarke promises she won't leave again, but none of her friends believe her, not even Bellamy, which results in some laughs and something a little bittersweet.

So, Clarke is mystified as to how cheek kisses with Bellamy became a thing, but apparently it is, and, also apparently, it makes her more flustered than she should be about it.

Finally, Clarke is avoiding Bellamy, and he has no idea why. Although he might just be avoiding her too, though he knows the reason for that perfectly well, and, unluckily in his case, so it seems does everybody else.

Or, in which the author received four 'Clarke-comes-home' prompts and decided to make a mini-multichapter fic out of them.

OH man I remember being like ‘I cannot write four of the same fic’ but also felt bad doing a 1-for-4 deal, so molded them into a multichapter! Sometimes I’m an efficient writer (but not most of the time heh). 

What are your five least popular works by kudos? (in ascending order)

1. a drop in the ocean (scott/kira, 807 words, 6 kudos)

It had been a pretty good idea, the way Scott had planned on asking Kira to prom.

This Scira ‘angst w/ happy ending prompt’ was really fun, but I’m not surprised its so low. Basically my non-Bellarke fics don’t tend to have great signal-to-noise ratio.

2. each happy ending is a brand new beginning (scott/allison, 1.7k words, 8 kudos, Aug 2016)

Scott had everything planned out. All of his classes meticulously fit into his four year plan, the plan that would get him into veterinary school. Part of that plan was taking organic chemistry his sophomore year, and the other part was acing it so he could get into a top program.

What his plan did not include, however, was a pretty, brown-haired international transfer student as his lab partner who apparently broke everything she touched.

{ Prompt: Would you consider doing a prince and me AU with Scott as the prince and Allison as paige? }

So I ended up making Allison the royal one here. Cute prompt and easy to write.

3. Six Feet, Three Minds, One Heart (abby & kane & callie, 400 words, 11 kudos, Aug 2016)

Prompt: Abby's friend and Kane's *friend* Cece is found alive in the rubble of the Alpha Station two weeks after the Mt Weather liberation.

Summary: After this rescue, friends do all walk through the gate together.

Ah yes, this prompt came during the time period where there was some type of Bellarke drama going on and I was avoiding the ship so I asked for non-Bellarke The 100 prompts. I don’t often write from the adults POV so this was really refreshing to tackle!!

4. Death Becomes Them (teen wolf pack friendship fic, 3.5k words, 12 kudos, April 2016)

Six friends, six senses, and death.

{A character study of the pack}

Honestly this is the fic is the one I am most disappointed about being on this part of the list. I am super proud of what I wrote here (esp stylistically), but character studies don’t tend to be popular, which I’m aware of, so I can’t really be too put out. 

5. choices & chances (feyre/rhys, 440 words, 13 kudos, Jan 2017)

Prompt: Rhys/Feyre, "I won't make that mistake. I know you should never try to control someone like you." {i.e. superhero au}

This was a flash fic prompt, so it was basically writing practice. Though I did get an ask for a follow-up to this recently, which was a surprise??

Tagging: @ahmren @goldenheadfreckledheart @hawthornewhisperer @notmylady @queenofchildren @rebelprincebell @tryalittlejoytomorrow

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2016 Fic Writing Round-up

I was tagged by @kittyaugust​! I always love doing these, thanks so much for giving me the chance to!

Total 2016 Word Count:  61,508 Total 2016 Hits: (AO3 only) 21,573 Other 2016 AO3 Stats: 

Total 2015 Word Count: 33,490 Total 2015 Hits: (AO3 only) 11,772 Other 2015 AO3 Stats: 

lmao that’s what’s called going from a david fandom (Constantine) to a goliath (Star Wars). But still, Jesus Christ, that differential: I literally more than doubled kudos and hits! 

More detailed stats:

And since I had all those numbers anyway:

 And just for fun:

It always feels like I write WAY too much porn but....the numbers do not actually reflect that. It’s not even a majority of what I posted this year! 

For fun I also did comment rate (how many comments per kudos a fic got), response rate and comment rate by word count (I was curious if my longer fics were better/worse received -- there doesn’t seem to be any correlation though), and then average comment and response rates depending on rating, which actually seems to indicate my gen and teen fics are better received than my porn. 

*Obviously my kudos/hits ratio doesn’t account for repeated readings, which you can’t kudo for -- everything here’s just a rough estimate. But conventional fanfic writer wisdom (that I’ve noticed) is that a 10% response rate is what to aim for -- higher than that is always phenomenal. 

Links and titles to 2016 works

Star Wars -- The Force Awakens/Shattered Empire

save an x-wing, ride an ex-stormtrooper (1745 words) -- Finn/Poe smut to start off the New Year! I started this on January 3 and posted it on January 4. That’s phenomenal for me. Unprecedented, honestly. I think this is the most popular Finn/Poe fic I’ve written, not that I’ve written that many, relatively. Mostly I just wanted to use the title and was afraid someone else was going to scoop it. Response rate (kudos/hits * 100, which is to say, how many people who read it deemed it worth a kudos): 9.7%*

If the Refresher’s a-Rockin'… (2046 words) -- More Finn/Poe porn, just trying to get it out of my system at that point I guess. I do like some of the Finn stuff I snuck in there at the end, about stormtrooper training & what it prepared him for. This one wasn’t as popular (hit wise_ as the other, but it had a higher response rate (11%), so that’s something. Four day turn around time. 

going, going, gone (2700 words) -- Ahhhhh my infamous Poe & Kylo Ren fic. I got a lot of Poe/Kylo shippers reading that which is....the opposite of what I wanted. It was 100% more meant to be about Poe and his ability to forgive and find decency in people than about Kylo Ren actually having any left but uh....people still wanted a sequel. I was very diplomatic about the possibilities of that but real talk: no. Especially not with the current state of TFA fandom. An unsurprisingly high response rate at 13.5%. 

bleed and fight for you (make it right for you) (2938 words) -- Some Shara/Kes stuff, which I was super excited about but wouldn’t have written as quickly (in five days) if not for the fact that someone one the kinkmeme was a brat about the prompter of this asking for Shara & Kes related stuff. My You know what???!!! spite writing was p fast at the beginning of the year -- now I’m just tired. Response rate at 13.1%, which is nice. 

Seisin (2375) -- More Shara/Kes stuff, with my Yavin IV love creeping in. Mostly written because Snow Patrol’s “The Finish Line” came up on shuffle and I was like dang, that’s such a post-war Shara/Kes on Yavin IV song, so then I wrote the image that came into my head. I legit wrote it all in one day and posted it write away, it seems. Response rate: 13%.

not what ships are built for (4401) -- Oooof, my eternal shame, a WIP. Finn/Poe, I felt so confident going in that I had enough of a grasp on it that I could actually finish it according to a timeline, but then it turned out -- I could not. I liked the idea I had for it, alternating POV fics are always fun to work through, an interesting way to keep in practice with both characters and get a good idea of everyone’s personality and everything. Maybe one day I’ll get back to it; it’s another one of those things I should’ve outlined ON (digital) PAPER and not just in my head, because now I’m not sure where I wanted to go with it anymore. If I give it another read through maybe I’ll figure it out? Response rate: 10.2%.

and so it goes (11401) -- Yessssss the Id Fic. Meant to be the fluffiest sweetest first love nonsense imaginable, to counteract a lot of fandom trends and also make up for all the gooey Kylux stuff (which: lbr, I read too). I JUST WANT FINN AND POE TO BE HAPPY. Also featuring Kes Dameron Is A Good Dad, my favorite trope. Anyway I was really surprisingly happy with this fic, which is rare. Response rate: 10.2%

K-I-S-S-I-N-G (2530) -- I saw an Imagine Your OTP type thing about tree climbing trees and it was so cute that it struck me instantly as an Id Fic moment to explore. So there we are. Writing this fic made it kind of a series so now they��re the Teenage Dreams universe.  Response rate: 12.3%.

a strong enough foundation (21274) -- This was informally called the Travelogue Fic for the longest time, because so much of it is about (my conception of) Yavin IV. It’s also a fic that’s incredibly personal to me, at least w/r/t the imagery and the reactions to a lot of the Typical Yavin IV Things. It’s also 21K words of gen, so I get why it’s got the lowest response rate of anything I wrote this year (7%) but I still feel like...it was good for me to write.

(do it on my) twin bed (3514) -- Another Finn/Poe fic originally from the kinkmeme, which I finally brought to my AO3 at the end of 2016 to have something nice and fluffy to end the year on. It’s also got a lot of Yavin IV/Poe’s childhood details going on, because I love that shit. Response rate: 13.8%.

Constantine

culpability (3493 words) -- John/Chas. I have like a million (four. I have four) John/Chas things started that’ve been languishing in Evernote for at least a year, and then I decided, on a whim and for reasons I don’t even recall, to write & finish this from scratch. It took me 23 days (started October 22, published November 14), which is a relatively short turn around for me. It’s also got the highest response rate of anything I wrote this year, at almost 19%. Probably because Constantine fandom and John/Chas shippers in particular don’t have a lot of other options at the moment as to what to read lmao. 

Favorite Fic: a strong enough foundation and culpability are probably tied -- the former because it’s very personal, the latter because I still love John/Chas stuff SO MUCH and I was proud of myself for getting it done. and so it goes is also so soft & lovely though, and the comments I got for it were some of my very favorite. 

Hardest Fic: Finishing a strong enough foundation was a fucking challenge, especially since I knew that a 21k gen fic full of OCs was never going to be a fandom classic & I personally thrive on attention. 

Do You Plan to Take Prompts in 2017? I mean I’m personally always taking prompts, but people should be aware that I am an incredibly slow writer unless I’m in PRECISELY the right mood and even then, it can be tricky. So yeah I could agree to take a prompt but not finish it for a year. Or it could be done the next day. It always varies, with me. 

What was the best thing about 2016? Well, I passed the bar, so that was pretty nice. Fandom wise...I guess I found my own little community to work within, of people who don’t drive me bananas. I mean the rest of it still exists, but. At least I’ve got my own little bubble to vent with sometimes.

What was the worst thing about 2016? The whole of it. I stopped being able to read Finn/Poe fic and I’m not super eager to start it again, which is disappointing, because I do like to keep up with fandom trends, at the very least -- I like to know what there’s already too much of, so I don’t give people more of the same that no one’s going to want to bother with, etc. 

Any last thoughts for 2016? Obviously I could’ve done more, writing wise, but I’m genuinely surprised at how much I actually did do, so here’s hoping I keep up with that trend. Of course, I was unemployed for a majority of 2016, so that probably helped my fic writing productivity somewhat -- hopefully that won’t be the case in 2017.

I’ve been having a bit of a writer’s block recently, but idk if it’s because I’m annoyed with fandom currently, or just worried about my unemployment, or at my parents’ house and always busy, or what. But I’m hoping my inspiration will come back soon, maybe even with the return of Constantine (conditionally. maybe. in a strange format & weird conditions) or the next Star Wars preview or something.

Goals for 2017

I have an informal list of things I jotted down on like the first or the second day of the year, so hopefully I’ll be able to get through at least a few of those

Generally speaking I want to keep to a writing schedule -- in November I tried to do like 30 minutes/500 words a day and 100% didn’t stick to it, but by tracking how many I did manage to write and on what days I wrote, I got the Travelogue done and finished culpability as well. So a substantial amount of work on two fics, both of which got posted eventually, is a good start. Hopefully once I have a job and a routine down, it’ll be easier to set a time and stick to it; the problem then will be both creativity and exhaustion. 

Having confidence in my writing abilities is always a challenge and it’s never come easy for me, plus I’m such a slow writer, so feedback, which is the one thing that really genuinely helps me, is hard to come by. But I do feel more confidence about my strengths and abilities than I have in the past, so I’m hoping to at least be able to hold on to that. 

I want to stop feeling guilty for what I write or what I want to write -- I like to be organized and I like to have an order of things to work on (”you need to finish this thing first before you can work on the other”) but I don’t know if that actually ends up motivating me. So considering some of the other things fandom gets up to, none of the things I’d rather be working on sometimes are like -- horrible.