#most of which i havent even worn yet for pics or cons or anything and not all of them are terribly complicated/involved

[mariska]

i'd been kinda crossing my fingers hoping i'd have some physical + mental energy to throw even a simple closet costume type thing together for halloween today but man. i think this is literally going to be the first halloween in my life where i've never even slightly dressed up even to take a pic or two, feeling very bummed out about it 😔 maybe i'll get a small burst of energy later that would be nice but my physical chronic illnesses/pain/symptoms have like tripled in severity this year alone and i literally cannot move my arms and legs and hands enough to try and put on makeup or put a wig on let alone set up my lil ring light phone tripod thing and then have to come up with poses that make it look like i am not actively rotting from the inside out