#morning star is my overall fav of the whole series tho i love that book sm

[niktropolis]

Hello! I just wanted to say that I love your drawings! Especially the Red rising ones. I'm currently on Iron Gold and just started Chapter 34.

That's it, just wanted to say I admire your work and I hope you don't stop!

Hi!!! :D Thank you so much!! I freakin love red rising, so I appreciate this! It's been way too long since I've drawn anything RR considering it's one of my all time fav series. I'm actually rereading the first book right now!

Is this your first time reading Iron Gold??! Enjoy!! Lightbringer is my fav of the second series :)

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fic tag game

aaahhh @vishcount thank you for tagging me!!! These are so fun and I adored reading about your fic journey~!  ೖ(⑅σ̑ᴗσ̑)ೖ ❤

OH as a note!! For the ppl I tag at the end I don’t expect you to read all of this bc it’s A Lot!!! but I figured you might want to do this game yourself? haha :)

Name: cross-d-a shortened version of my first ever username. unfortunately stuck with it now haha but i’m fond of it :p wish it was cuter tho!!

Posting the rest of this under the cut so it doesn’t eat up people’s dashes!! 

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Fandoms: 

oKAY YIKES there are....honestly too many too name. I’ve got a short and obsessive attention span so it’s either all or nothing with me usually. When I can stay in a fandom for a long period of time it’s a miracle. I’ll name the bigger ones that I’ve all written fic for! Even if I’ve never posted them haha

Right now I’m very firmly into Daomu Biji (dmbj). It feels like it’s both got a crap ton of content and yet barely anything at all haha. Maybe because the English fandom is so small. But at least there are a bunch of dramas and books!!! I really, really, really adore dmbj so much!! And a large part of that is the fandom!!! It's been a really cool and unique experience! Everyone in it is truly so kind and wonderful, and I’ve made some really incredible friends because of it (looking at you vish!! ❤). I’ve got a bunch of wips, but I’ve only posted two fics for dmbj!

Before this I was very into Guardian and mdzs. MDZS was my first foray into cdramas and Guardian’s Zhu Yilong really suckered me into watching more haha I also have fics for both these fandoms!

My very first fandoms were Fullmetal Alchemist, D. Gray-Man and Naruto. My very old ffnet account has fics for these and I’ve got a bunch of newer wips on my tablet. Then Star Trek, Twilight, BBC Merlin, Sherlock, Death Note, Harry Potter, How to Train Your Dragon, Battlestar Galactica, Avatar the Last Airbender and Marvel were a few of my main ones in high school. Plus a bunch of anime (like Fruits Basket! and Kuroshitsuji and Natsume Yuujinchou). 

Then college hit and I renewed my childhood love of Tolkien (mainly lotr and the Hobbit), and Star Wars. I also found Teen Wolf! Then after college it was Stranger Things. 

I find myself in a cycle of mild fondness and complete obsession with these fandoms haha I go back to Star Wars at least once a year!! Then I’m in the gffa hole for a few months. Marvel also reoccurs, depending on how interested I am in new content! Star Trek I always always always go back to. TOS is my comfort show and it will never fade from my heart ❤

But for now I’m stuck in cdrama hell and I love it

Tropes: 

Time travel, found family, whump+hurt/comfort, fairytale-like elements, resurrective immortality (thanks to a “Nine Lives” Hobbit fic), CROSSOVERS

I’m a slut for all these things so they often worm their way into my plots haha

I also just- love weird premises. I think that’s the anime influencing me haha

Fic I spent most time on: 

My series he leaves sand and stardust in my wake (main fic is hurricane on the edge of oblivion), I have...spent five years on now. I have done so much research for this fic it’s insane. 

The premise is force ghost!Obi-Wan getting shunted back into his tiny 10 year old self. I incorporate a shit ton of legends and I try to stay as canon as possible. I basically want this au to feel like it’s 1000% plausible while still getting all my gay shit. It’s chock full of whump, redemption, found family, minor characters turning into major characters, and I’ve got slavery uprising on the mind, too. It’s just- everything I could ever want to explore in the Star Wars universe basically. 

It’s my first big project. I started doodling and scribbling ideas in the margins of my notebook in my Scottish History class. I adore it so so so much. But, because of my hyperfixation and fleeting intense obsession with things it makes it- really difficult to consistently update. I leave it for months at a time and I am constantly guilt-ridden about it. Because it’s my baby and I have a lot of wonderful readers. I fear I’ll never be able to finish it. Especially since I’ve written so much and I’m still only in the beginning of it. ( ; A ; )

Also, I’ve spent so much time with Xanatos, Feemor and Bruck that they just feel like mine now. I can’t read any fics that involve them, it’s too strange. Which is a damn shame because I love them so much haha OH ALSO!! I think it’s the first really big fic to include those three?? So I’m very proud about that haha (I’ve had so many ppl comment about how they actually Give A Shit about these three and are Invested bc of me haha)

Favorite fic(s) you’ve written: 

hurricane on the edge of oblivion (with nowhere to go) (Star Wars)

My long-term passion project. My love-letter to Star Wars, I suppose. Reading it now I feel like a lot of it is clunky or long-winded, but I think it really shows the foundation of my writing today :) Main characters are Obi-Wan, Xanatos Du Crion, Qui-Gon Jinn, Bruck Chun and Feemor. Eventually we’ll get to Maul, Savage, Feral, Shmi Skywalker, (more!) Ahsoka, Anakin and a shit ton of clones ❤

things we hunger for (Guardian)

My Ye Zun self-indulgent fic. It’s a time travel amnesia Weilanzun! Honestly has some of my fav writing I’ve ever done. It’s so soft and really indulges in the hurt/comfort. It gives Ye Zun the friends and family I think he deserves. Also, he gets to grow into a (mostly!) functional person and I adore him.

the beast that slumbers within your soul (mdzs)

Jiang Cheng centric fic!! I feel like all my favourite fics I’ve written are love letters haha. This is one def my love letter to Jiang Cheng. This fic possessed me for two whole days. I wrote 16k in almost one sitting. I went to sleep at 6 in the morning bc I couldn’t stop writing. And when I drifted off I kept thinking of new ideas so I’d whip out my phone and write down lines and notes. I- have never ever ever felt that way about anything. It was- insane. It felt insane. It was so amazing. I’m still riding the memory of that high.

��Basically Jiang Cheng actually finds Baoshan Sanren and it turns out she’s a fox demon and Jiang Cheng is descended from wolves. It’s- okay I said the fic above this had my favourite writing?? That was a lie. This has my favourite writing I’ve ever done. It’s unfinished bc I am in dmbj hell but I am still excited about the next chapter which features Wei Wuxian’s pov!!

the whispers of spirits (dmbj)

My current passion project. In a way it kinda feels similar to hurricane? Bc multiple povs, incorporating different aspects of canon (we’ll get there!! I promise!), shit ton of research, etc. etc. I really really really love it for so many reasons. I’m basically taking all the things I was unsatisfied with in Reboot and Sha Hai and running with it. Found family and whump galore! It’s also a love letter to the women of dmbj who really deserve so so so much better.

Honourable mention to:

One Day (you’ll have given more of yourself than is meant to be taken) (Marvel)

This fic also kinda possessed me. I just- couldn’t get rid of the idea of a trans!Thor. And I mean a mtf Thor! It’s just? So many people look at Thor and go “that’s a Real Man.” Full stop. They never think there could be anything more, and it really really really bothered me. So I wrote out my feelings. I’m not trans. I don’t have that experience at all. I’ve had issues and confusion about my gender but nothing like this. I just wanted to do justice to this idea of Thor in my head. And I still feel a bit nervous having posted it. But I've gotten so many comments from people who really connected with what I’ve written? So I’m very very thankful I wrote it and it has a very special place in my heart. It’s a very cathartic fic.

Fic I spent least time on: 

Probably we rise (Star Wars) and I think it shows haha. I wrote it in response to Dave Filoni posting a drawing of Ahsoka and Gandalf telling her “People thought I was dead, too, and look how that turned out...” So I incorporated Ahsoka (and Din and Grogu and Ezra!!!) into the ending of Rise of Skywalker, kinda explaining how I think they could all still be alive. :)

Longest fic: 

hurricane is my longest fic (159k) but I’m kinda worried whispers will eclipse that.....

Shortest fic: 

Of my posted ones it’s The Five Moments it Took Tony and Scott to Admit They Were Best Friends (and the first time they ever did), currently clocks at 1.6k. It’s unfinished tho so maybe that doesn’t count.... otherwise it’s we rise which is completed and 2k.

Most hits/kudos/comments/bookmarks: 

hurricane overall has the most of all these. Though I don’t think hits counts as much bc it’s multi-chapter. If you discount multi-chapter stuff, most hits goes to my obikin smutfic Homecoming, bc people are horny af haha

Fic you want to rewrite/expand on: 

If I had energy I’d like to rewrite the beginning of hurricane bc it feels so so wordy. I’d want to expand on One Day bc I really would like to write a whole series with trans!Thor. And like- I’d really like the focus to finish any of my WIPs.

Share a bit of a WIP: I really wanna share my Guardian/dmbj crossover that I started back in August. Bc I adore the idea of wu xie&shen wei&ye zun triplets! Plus time travel!!! I dunno if I’ll ever finish it tho ( ; A ; ) It just feels like a lot to deal with right now.

This scene takes place during the Mountain Awl arc. Guardian crew and desperado fam run across each other at the village! Wu Xie has recently found out that he’s adopted and he’s searching for answers in the area Sanshu originally found amnesiac!toddler!Wu Xie in :) Gonna pull two snippets bc I’m v excited and this might be the only time anyone else sees this fic haha:

“Oh?” Pangzi focuses on Yunlan now, lips twisting. “You think I’ve ‘got the wrong guy,’ huh?” He laughs, but it’s not a nice sound. “That’s rich! Are you that cocky or are you just stupid?”

Bristling, Yunlan drops his hands and scowls. “Excuse me?”

“Sir,” Shen Wei tries. “I think—”

Pangzi’s eyes snap back to Shen Wei, sharp and blazing. “How dare you fucking steal his face!”

What?

Automatically, Zhao Yunlan turns to Shen Wei, but the professor looks just as shell-shocked as Zhao Yunlan feels which- is seriously something. Since everything about Shen Wei is so carefully controlled, kept to the minimum. Except for those delightful little smiles that bloom across his lovely face, or the startled little bursts of laughter that fall from his lips. Or even when anger and frustration spark across his features, cracking his calm veneer open enough that he can see a glimmer of what lies beneath, the fire in those eyes. Zhao Yunlan delights in those moments, makes a game of making Shen Wei’s control slip.

He tells himself it’s nothing more than a game. Nothing more than trying to find out what makes Shen Wei tick.

Zhao Yunlan’s always been very bad at lying to himself. Or very good. Depending on who you’re asking.

“What the hell are you talking about?” Yunlan splutters.

But before anyone can say anything else, a very familiar voice calls:

“Pangzi? What’s wrong?”

Yunlan can feel Shen Wei stiffen, and Yunlan himself is pulled to that voice like a planet in orbit, like the inevitable plummet to the ground.

Another shadow wavers in the doorway before it steps out onto the dirt. Light illuminates shaggy hair, limning it gold, sharply casting everything else in shadow. But as the figure nears, the contrast softens until Yunlan can see the newcomer’s face properly and- and—

“Wu Xie!” Pangzi growls. “We’ve got ourselves an impostor!”

The man wearing Shen Wei’s face steps up to them, brows furrowed and mouth pulled down into a sharp frown. He glances between them, eyes landing on Shen Wei. His scowl deepens. He opens his mouth, but then—

“Wu Xie?” Shen Wei breathes, all trembly and lost and hopeless.

Heart in his throat, Yunlan turns to Shen Wei again. Turns and flinches at that stricken look upon Shen Wei’s pale pinched face.

“A-Xie?” Shen Wei chokes. “Didi?”

and

Pangzi snorts. “Professor?”

“I-it’s true!”

Startled Yunlan swings his attention over to Jiajia who clenches her backpack to her chest, face screwed up in admirable determination. “P-professor Shen took me and Xiao Quan on a field trip to investigate an archeological site around here!”

“Oh?” Wu Xie drawls all slow and amused. “Well, what a coincidence. We’re archeologists, too.”

“With guns?” Yunlan bites out.

Wu Xie raises a brow, grin full of teeth. “Well, you can never be too prepared.”

“Right,” Yunlan drawls right back. “Are you a professor, too, then? You come here with your students?”

Wu Xie outright grins. “You could say that, I suppose.”

Out of the corner of his eye, one of the men rolls his eyes. He’s the one with sharp features, glasses and looped earbuds. Does he think it’s appropriate to listen to music at a time like this? Yunlan admires the man’s gall.

aahhhh vish thanks so much again for tagging me!! This was so fun to relive my fic memories!! I’m gonna tag @alwaysaslutforshakespeare @jockvillagersonly @tehfanglyfish @lichelleme @undyingsunshine @humanlighthouse  @thewindsofsong I’m curious about your guys’ writing and fandom journey!! As always, no pressure to actually complete this!! I just thought it was fun ❤

Wow if you read all of this I am very humbled and impressed, thank you!!

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[palmettoes]

ahhhh I have several song recs, tell me if you think they're andreil enough High Enough - K Flay Sit Next to Me - Foster the People Fear of the Water - SYML I Feel Like Im Drowning - Two Feet Arsonist's Lullaby - Hozier Pipe Dreams - Joel Malka (mostly bc of the song name but the songs still a bop) Neptune - Sleeping at Last Papercut - Zedd Out of the Dark - RBYN Too Good - Troye Sivan

it’s been months um ily ?? sorry jskdjfskj shit happened bUT i’m finally getting through the last of these asks thank u fr everything also this is under the cut bcus it’s long as fuck

playlist

high enough: this !!! is so good !!! like okay i heard the line “you are my citadel, you are my wishing well, my baby blue” and i was SOLD that is a beautiful line both for andreil and just in general !!! and then of course “i used to like liquor to get me inspired / but you look so beautiful / my new supplier” which is just so cleaRLY andrew @ neil and AND my other favourite is “all i see are tomorrows / oh the stars were made for us” just bcus it’s so hoPEFUL and i love that for andreil they deserve infinite tomorrows

sit next to me: yes YES THIS IS EXACTLY IT !!!! “feeling kinda tempted / and i’m pouring out the truth / just fading out these talkers / cause now all i want is you” i meAN that’s basically a summary of andreil throughout the books tbh ajsbsj i also love “just say the word and i’ll part the sea” like ,, they’d literally do anything if the other ask why is this so aCCURATE

fear of the water: u guys really love making me cry hUH this is sad but like ,, soft n sad so it’s okay ksjs the line that really got me was “if you’re not made for me why did we fall in love?” i just ,,,, i Feel that in my soul that is andreil and it HURTS. tho i also love “you smile when you dive in like you’re never coming back” like there’s definitely a v sad interpretation of that but im choosing to look at it as neil smiling as he throws everything he has into andrew bc he knows this is the one thing he can’t come back from (doesn’t want to come back from)

i feel like i’m drowning: i have , mixed feelings abt this one tbh it’s got a good andreil dynamic in parts, like the “my friends think you’re vicious and they say you’re suspicious” is DEFINITELY the upperclassmen talking to neil about andrew and the drowning/dying/killing is exactly the kind of extra™️ metaphor that andreil live by but then i got to the last verse and ksndjdn it made me sad i was like :( that’s kinda mean like i kno they’re Like That but i wanna believe they’re soft ok but jsjsj overall it’s a Huge andreil vibe

arsonist’s lullabye: oh fuc,k this is ,,,, this is neil oh dAMN okay like “my peace has always depended / on all the ashes in my wake” is my favourite line bc like !!! neil travelling all over the country leaving metaphorical (and sometimes literal) fires in his wake just to keep himself alive !!! g od that boy makes me sad ksjdfj also “don’t you ever tame your demons / but always keep em on a leash” damn bitch, ,, u right

pipe dreams: i mean u had me at the name of the song ngl i was already Sold but then, ,, the actual theme of the song ,,, like the whole getting away from here vibe is hmm neil as fuCk and ofc my fave: “if this ain’t nothing but a pipe dream then you should take a hit with me” teLL ME NEIL HASNT BASICALLY SAID THIS EXACT LINE TO ANDREW FJDSKFJ

neptune: biTch okay this song is literally beautiful i listened to it five times in a row and cried through each im fjdshdskj g od like “i’m only honest when it rains / if i time it right the thunder breaks / when i open my mouth” hello yes thats neil and it’s killing me ??? and then i heard the line “i wanna love you but i don’t know how” and my heart physically split in two do u undeRSTAND HOW MUCH THAT HURT they’re both still learning how to be gentle and i just ,,, i ache for them

papercut: shit okay this song SCREAMS broken boys learning how to love when they’ve only ever been taught how to fight like ,,, relationships take Work and compromise, sometimes you have to fold, and neil and andrew are both so chipped already like it will take time for them to figure out how to give up more of themselves so like !!! the idea of hurting one another accidentally but being willing to fix things !!! that’s so them !!!!! i love love love “right now i don’t know why i love you / but by the morning when we wake up / i’ll reach for you” because !! that’s it !!! that’s the give and take of a relationship !!! they’re learning to navigate it and they’re gonna make it work !! i love them !!!!!

out of the dark: oh my godjfdj the entire time i was listening to this i was flipping between andrew @ neil or neil @ andrew and the answer is both are equally as painful to think about !!!!! wow this murdered me in cold blood !!!! i just “your hands are craving for the light / but they can’t find the day / i’m trying to lead you the night / out of your endless hate” like on one hand thats neil being like aNdrEW praCtisE sELf cAre chaLLeNgE throughout the entire series but it’s ALSO andrew turning neil into something real and im so emoTIONAL FUCK U ANON

too good: hehe this is already on the playlist cuz im a slut for troye but ajsdbfsj gOD it’s so good for andreil isnt it ???? like the chorus one huNDRED PERCENT screams them ,, , neither of them think they deserve the other’s love and i just *clenches fist* i am SO SAD but my absolute fav for these two is “that liquid guilt is on my lips / i’m wasted on you” bc they don’t want to want this but they do and they don’t know how to be okay with that just yet (but they will learn. they WILL)

send me andreil song recs and i’ll tell you my favourite line