#more to come...because i'm not done with this guy just yet dslkfjdlj

[pestilight]

things to work out and scream about in future posts:

i like the idea that rau.ru at his core is someone who strongly believes.....in himself, in others, in hy.lia, you name it, whatever. sometimes his faith in himself greatly outweighs his faith in others ( sometimes, vice versa ) but one of the central pivots of who he is lies in this belief

i'm still not entirely sure how the zonai are tragically wiped out, but the severe loss greatly affects rau.ru in any imagining. he's driven by a hypervigilant need to be in the know and in control at all times when he and min.eru permanently descend to hy.rule with their remaining secret stones. eventually tempered by so.nia's warmth and the siblings settling, though only just a bit

( tempted to continue the theme of you are your worst enemy that rau.ru is rife with and have the zonai die out by their own hands...surviving several civil wars would give you a complex wouldn't it )

rau.ru is king consort to queen so.nia, not king regnant because you are not making the princesses and queens of hy.rule critical in so many times of crisis without having it be a matriarchy. come on. also. not his homeland, with the added alienation of being likened to the goddesses — he would not be invested in it the way so.nia is ( so. less of a need for control. plus he trusts his partner so much guys oh my god )!! he comes to love it, sure, but he still holds the skies and what they had to offer before everything went to shit pretty dear in his heart

related, hy.rule is not envisioned as some kingdom with all factions led in unity or whatever the heck by either founding members. starts off as something like a small halidom they actively work to protect, which is what rau.ru would've liked to keep it as because that means (1) less people to care about and lose and (2) easier to supervise because he's very much focused on the losing everything and everyone part. then he starts caring about more people and things on this land anyway — most definitely with so.nia's encouraging influence along their travels. which isn't to say that they're out here calling for annexations or vows of fealty all of a sudden, but it does make rau.ru anxious to have their allies super close so he can better protect them. and ( try to ) spot betrayals before they can form but who's asking

i want. to make the secret stones something like crest stones in fe.3h.....which uh. if you know, you know! if you didn't know, spoilers ahead, they were basically dragon's hearts and i. just love the idea that former zonai, now fallen dragons, shed their hearts as secret stones. like i know, i know, they said they were gifts from the goddesses BUT WHAT IF?? it would certainly explain the need for safeguarding and additionally have rau.ru's desire for control compounding in on itself. dunno if i'm gonna make them literal hearts actually....i am Contemplating their third eyes

the zonai, in their base forms, are not gods or goddesses themselves! highly attuned to their divinities maybe, but rau.ru prays like every other practising hyru.lean. it's part of what keeps him humble, even in the face of "oh you are like a god!" treatment ( which does get to his head occasionally, but then he reaches prayer time and it's like. ah, i am only a zonai ). dragons, on the other hand...