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[Stan] "...And if you find someone worth holding on to... never, ever, let them go. Follow your own path.
"Think of this letter as a promise."
[Eddie] "A promise I'm asking you to make."
[Mike] "To me."
[Ben] "To each other."
[Bev] "An oath."
[Stanley] "See, the thing about being a Loser is... you don't have anything to lose. So..."
[Young Richie] "Be true."
[Young Eddie] "Be brave."
[Young Mike] "Stand."
[Young Bev] "Believe."
[Young Bill] "And don't ever forget..."
[Young Stan] "We're Losers... and we always will be."
#it 2019#the losers club#the young losers club#i am in no way kidding when i tell you that i typed this through tears#right strap in for some TAGS#firstly i KNOW this is technically more than one line but also it's one letter so i'm giving myself the benefit of the doubt teehee#secondly here we are!#i appreciate you fellas sticking around#i didn't expect this stupid little blog to get as well-recognised as it did#having said that y'all had better stick around!!#i will be answering the asks that have already been sent to me#plus any more that come in!#(leave me anything you want - it related or not - i don't mind!)#and we'll see if i feel up to anything else in the near future (more information to come!) ;)#thank y'all sincerely from the bottom of my little gay heart#- one-line <3
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just a little heads up for future notice, since I get these from time to time - feel free to put your ocs in baau! just please try and refrain from sending them directly in my inbox...
because I don't want to give the impression that I'm someone to talk about ocs with (in the inbox), I don't usually answer them. I do feel bad though because I really like how passionate people are about their characters! But as much as I like seeing that, I would rather see them in their own individual posts. No need for me to validate your ideas whatsoever. hope this makes sense for yall
(if you really want to know if a concept is ok or possible in canon, then that is something you can either dm me about or send in my inbox in broad terms... it makes it easier for me to answer)
edit: I do know some people send stuff to me just for me to read it and not actually post, if that's your intention w/oc asks then that's fine - i would just like to know!
edit 2: I know this might not stop some people which is fine, just setting the precedent that while I read oc submissions/asks in my inbox, i am probably not going to answer them
#cjj sayeth#beast ancients au ask#beast ancients au fanart#beast ancients au fic#sorry if this sounds mean just setting my boundaries ykyk#it might change in the future who knows#the reason why i wanna set the precedent btw is because im someone who can be easily overwhelmed by information#and if ppl i dont know start coming to me talking about ocs then it starts taking a toll on me#theres smth about being sent it in an ask that makes me more uncomfortable than seeing it in a separate post
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transfem loop + siffrin... you agree
i does agree.... i does in fact ... write a 7k word essay on the subject..... if you would like to perhaps click that link and read it if you were not already aware...... kisses u on the forehead......... sorry its that long but i had to cover all of my bases you know how it is with textual analysis when you're trying to draw a distinction between "headcanon" and "reading of the text" because those are different things.... to meeeeeeee.......
#a headcanon is when i say shit like loop has feetie pyjamas.#a reading of the text is when i go jesus christ dude im not sure someone that repressed has a particularly great grasp on their ideal Self#lucabytetalks#isat spoilers#back on the homestuck tangent sometimes i think about how ppl picked up on the trans coding of roxy but were so set in their ways that#they thought it mustve been in the past and not a potential future... and then got real mad about a character being like.#complexly transmasc with a nuianced relationship to gender and not Easily Brushed Off Before The Narrative Begins Binary Trans Woman#one of the few times i think ive seen it be That way around? but i think it comes down to that whole. visible transgenderism happening#during the plot vs Invisible transgenderism that shh its okay you dont have to actually think about you can just say for brownie points#BUT MAYHAPS THAT IS MEAN. mayhaps that is mean. but i know what i saw back in the day.#sighs homestuck tangent over anyway uhhh yeah hold on isat fans ill throw you a new bone instead of getting off topic uhhh#isabeau seems like such a pragmatic planner to me i think theyve got contingency plans for whatever family they want to have in future#logical nerd with his transition timeline planned out and it includes a flowchart with an 'IF partner has X then i need Y to have a kid'#shrodingers op isabeau . guy with a gender spreadsheet and punnet squares. i think it being that methodical is funny#it also speaks to his occasional hesitance but thats too dark of a read i think im not going to stake anything serious on that#i have thoughts on isa but they're more obviously aligned with what he literally says with his words in-game. not really much worth#elaborating on besides poking at how his insecurities and appeasement to others might inform his literal decisions#i have maybe a few bullet points in my head for him. not 7k words
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Bituín Character Lore Stuff
gonna try my best to sum up as much as I can about them under the cut :3
∘₊✧The Hermit✧₊∘
Name: Bituín (Bits)
Pronouns: She/They
Age: 16
Birthday: April 21
Craft: Paper
Weapon: Pointy Umbrella
Armor: Moth Clip
Background:
A shut-in recluse from one of the Houses of Jouvente, on a journey across Vougarde, accompanying their best friend along the way.
Personality:
- Very socially awkward with terrible communication skills,
- Oftentimes stay quiet around people she is unfamiliar with
- Likes poking fun at and making lighthearted jabs towards the people she's comfortable around
- Can be a bit sarcastic at times
- Always two seconds away from a psychotic break/hj
More Lore important Facts:
- Due too bad anxiety, Bits has always had a difficult time interacting with people, leaving her to spend most of her time locked away in her dorm room at the House of change.
- Bits’ father has been missing since she was about 4 or 5. Bits was too young at the time to really understand when they had disappeared, but her mother was wracked with grief over a person she didn’t even know ever existed in the first place.
- the disappearance of her Husband drove bits mom a little coo-coo-bananas, causing a strange relationship to form between her and Bits
- One night when bits is about 10 or 11, her mother tells her is a manic, possibly drunken frenzy that she was going to be leaving, in search of something. She wanted to bring bits with her originally, but inevitably decided it’d be safer to just up and leave bits alone in the House.
- bits would often spend time either cooped up in their lonely dorm, or would be hanging out with her friend and/or his family (probably for like, holidays and diner and stuff)
- while out on this pilgrimage/journey or whatever through Vougarde, Bits is hoping that maybe, just maybe, she might find her mother again. For better or for worse
Miscellaneous Facts:
-Can’t cook for shit
- Has an interest in plants and flora
- The claw clip in their hair is based off of a Luna Moth
- Likes to study craft (because of this, she is also know how to deal weak scissor damage)
- Grew up in one of the Houses of Change in Jouvente due to their mother being a Housemaiden there
- Bits speaks animatedly with their hands
- Favorite foods are Chocolate lava cake, Pineapple bread pudding, and Plain rice
- Bits isn't quite sure of the origins of the necklace she likes to wear, but looking at it makes her head hurt and her heart ache...
- Height is 5’8 (172 cm I think??)
- likes books and reading (specifically stories with found family and and fantasy)
Miscellaneous Art/doodles:
(these next two are technically from the PartySwap au but they're still just a younger version of Bits so)
okokok I think I've compiled most of the important stuff :D!!
Please please please feel free to ask me about my OCs!! I want to talk more about themmmm!!!!!
#isat#in stars and time#isat oc#in stars and time oc#isat oc shenanigans#Bituín#I may come back and edit this post with more refined information in the future#also Im gonna try and be a little more active on here#my art
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Henford Hall -December, 18:39PM
#sims 4#ts4#ts4 build#so im kinda back again#this year has been crazy#i move to Paris in september 2022 to study there two semesters#then i came back to spain and move to a new city#well is not really new since its my hometown but i hadn't live there since 2015 and I missed it so much#and between work uni and RL things I didn't have much time to play sims#so here I am again but you know how inconsisten is this blog so dosen't expect regular posts lol#probably i will not have time to play in the future but who cares#now about sims#i've been trying to make some trees DR with new meshes but they refuse to show the correct textures in autumn winter and spring#I suspect it has to be something related to vertex paint or any information attached to the leaves mesh that i'm not getting in s4s#i'll be posting that later to see if someone can give some advice#also had a problem with a building deco for Hendford wich I converted from Cities Skylines#i'm really frustrated with s4s and me lately#well i think its enough for today#come back for more ted talks
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Lately I've been thinking about the current progression of the story, obviously we are nowhere near the ending, however, what are your thoughts towards how the main story is going to end?
Based on what we know so far how do you think what do you think the climax and the resolution the story is going to be? Because so far it seems like it's going to be something related to the book, but there's so many plot points and characters that we haven't even really touched on yet and I'm wondering if we ever will (for example the order of the clock tower was this just a one and done thing or are we getting more on that Asagiri????)
I am SO sorry. I got sick on the weekend I was thinking of answering this. Then I got completely stuck on what I wanted to say because honestly I have no idea where this series is going besides a few things I know Kafka Asagiri wouldn't leave behind. I have faith in him and I feel like him pulling along Nathaniel Hawthorn for this long into the story and knowing when Fitzgerald would have involvement proves he doesn't forget about his previous storylines.
I see complaints sometimes about how Steinback’s side plot with the Guild is never touched on again and it's like?? Because there's already so much going on already?? I'm personally impressed with how Asagiri handles this bunch of characters and that's why I'm not impressed with complaints about the female characters getting “no” screentime. I think some of you really need to reread the manga because, of course, it would feel that way if you needed to split it between all these characters and have a smaller amount of female characters compared to guys.
It's an ongoing story so treat it like an ongoing story. Some criticisms I see of BSD really feel like they're in bad faith and don't give it any grace. To me, that's really depressing. I don't know what some of you even want from him. I'll move on now to your actual question.
This is a character-driven story with hmm, well I shouldn't say it doesn’t have a clear plotline because the antagonists have a clear goal for The Book, but it's not a story where the protagonist is driven to do anything besides overcome himself. I have ideas on what future plotlines would look like, but not all of them.
There are things that are absolutely going to be followed up on. Like how 55 Minutes’s story was left on a mystery to be explored in a future arc. 55 Minutes was very involved in the Great War and Europe, so I’m guessing some of that will be explored in due time. I’m not very good at guessing so I’m not the best to be asked on theorizing that far into the future.
How about I just speak on the present arc? I think that will be easier and it's good to work with the pieces we have. The ending is much too far into the future for me to come up with anything, really. This series is much too technical with its reference and motivations to say anything other than, “We should expect this stuff in the light novels to play into the story later.”
Since I gave myself some time to think this over, there are some things I am completely sure of having a critical role in the present and future of this story—besides the obvious lasting effects of the Great War and the storm Verlaine mentioned waiting for very much having to do with the Clock Tower’s eventual involvement.
I’ve been thinking about them a lot and I hadn’t realized this was my chance until now! So exciting! I mean these two tend to cross over for me.
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55 Minutes is the 4th light novel in this series. Anyone who has read it loves it because of the focus on world building and getting to follow Atsushi for once in novel form. I went into it thinking that it was going to be a quick, self-contained story that happens a bit after the guild arc, but I was shocked to see that there were so many questions unanswered! On purpose obviously to set up a plot line for the future, but man.
While I am excited for many things from the light novels to be answered in the main story, I want to bring attention to the main antagonist. The living ability of Jules Gabriel Verne AKA Gab. Verne was a part of The Seven Traitors, a group that committed itself to stopping the war by any means necessary. They were what the Armed Detective Agency is to Atsushi for him. His ability (The Mysterious Island) absorbed other users’ abilities, so long as they were on an island he claimed as his domain.
By the time the war had ended, he was alone again and the rest of the members were either dead and disappeared. Verne decided to stay and maintain the Standard Island so his friends had a place to come back to. Fourteen years pass and a deadly weapon called Annihilation and it's maker, H.G. Wells, came onto the island. Annihilation had been stolen from her and Verne agreed to help her get it back from the terrorists under the name “Gab”. The terrorist in question being the colonel, not to be confused with the character of the same title who was an executive to the Port Mafia.
This colonel had actually been the former leader of the group who had called themselves Mimic after being abandoned by their country and had heard his men drifted to Yokohama, only to die there in vain. I wonder if that connects to anything that happened in another light novel, wink wink.
It wasn’t hard for Verne to find where it was hidden, but next he had to come up with a way to get it back without using his ability. He decided to join the thieves that had snuck onto the island by turning himself into a teenager and asking to be the pupil of the boss so he could borrow his ability to go through walls. It had worked as planned, until Wells was hit by a stray bullet and died. He was devastated that he couldn't save this one woman.
His solution to save her was to absorb her ability (Time Machine) to go back 55 minutes in time to reverse what had happened. That worked, but then he thought of another thing: if he absorbed her ability again, couldn't he go further back in time to get a better result? Wells’s ability has the condition that it could only send a person back in time once, but by absorbing it again, he can ignore it as if he were using it for the first time. He regretted how many of the colonel's soldiers had died and he never learned his motivations in the end.
He was right, but creating the perfect future is almost impossible because of how someone always gets hurt in the process. Every time he succeeded, there was only the “what if?” hanging over him that this wasn't enough. The more he used the ability, the further he could go into the past. Even larger ideas had come into his head. What if he could reunite with his friends? What if he could prevent the entire war from happening? He hadn't realized just as Wells's ability evolved, something else would too: Gab, the island and the boy he posed as.
It overtook him and left to reside inside his own flesh as an echo of his own self, at the very corner of his mind. He died and Gab had been birthed from it. Gab is an unstable creation and even so, his humanity still urges him to keep living no matter what. So instead of being motivated to repeat time to save others, he keeps living to save himself so he doesn't fall back into the darkness of an unknown waiting for him.
I could keep going and talk about how he's pretty much the embodiment of the themes present in BSD, his resemblance to Atsushi that the narrative points out so graciously, and the nature of what he is supposed to be in the grand scheme of BSD, but this isn't why I brought him up.
55 Minutes has aspects that have appeared in the main story ever since the Decay of Angels have taken their place in the manga as antagonists. Dazai’s ability to control his heartbeat, time travel, Akutagawa calling Atsushi his “trial” and fighting out at sea, and the Great War being the source of the conflict. Now what if I propose my idea of what had happened to Fukuchi to be similar to what had happened to Verne when he had used Wells’s ability?
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This is Fukuchi’s corpse reanimated, I think we all know it. While it’s possible Fyodor must've put a safeguard to put the condition for this to have happened or that this is a Fukuchi from another universe, I think what had happened altogether, in the end, was the consequence of using Amenogozen so freely to the point he was messing with the state of the timeline and creating paradoxes. The backlash of this divine blade had either created a divine being or let one reside in him.
It's not only 55 Minutes that has parallels/foreshadows what's to come, but Untold Origins as well. I do like noticing how Kafka Asagiri adds things so they fit more snuggly into what's to come later in the season or make the connection more obvious, like Fukuchi having a feature when Fukuzawa is visiting Oda behind bars and Fyodor appearing on the roof when Fukuzawa monologues about “V”.
I think I've been seeing some people notice this too, but I think the play featured is incredibly important. Like really, really important. I mean beyond any resemblance people saw in the visuals used in the anime background that looked like Fyodor being crucified. I feel unprepared to talk about it, so I hope I make some sort of sense.
“The Living World Is a Dream. The Nocturnal Dream is Reality” is a real quote from Ranpo Edogawa and is used as the name for this play. Twelve fallen angels gather in an old theater to earn god’s forgiveness. They had disobeyed god in the past by wanting to coexist with human beings and were shunned after the fact. During this, they are killed off one by one without the killer ever being seen. The killer, as the script follows, is a supposed angel of judgment, but it's hard to tell for the others if it really was an angel imparting their judgment or a serial killer because of how common the methods seemed to be. That is their mystery to be solved.
One of the fallen angels claims that an angel would use a divine blade to purge them and not methods like these, while another begs the question of why a fellow sinner would go after them and that an angel would have a real motive to have them killed. Their reason to going to this old theater is because they were searching for an ability user. In this fictionalized story, ability users are angels who had fallen but were able to atone and given a portion of their power back. Their hope is that when they encounter the ability user, they will gain atonement as well.
Suddenly, Murakami (the lead performer) is stabbed by a blade that came from nowhere. Completing the promised threat of an organization named “V”:
“An angel shall bring death, in the truest sense of the word, to the performer.”
So, what happened?
As he takes his newfound identity as an “ability user” in pride on stage and claims himself to be the savior of all, Ranpo explains that the angel that the play refers to is the audience watching it. A metaphor to how the audience is invisible to the characters on stage and knew almost every that had happened, but Ranpo also says that because the audience couldn't have laid a finger on the them, it means the angel couldn't have been the killer.
The “angel” was more the victim than anything and the so-called judgment imposed was the show of what was originally regarded as another victim. The switching of roles. The same thing has also applied to this murder. While Murakami was regarded the victim, the accused killer the police suspected was a man under a fake name who has randomly disappeared. Tied up behind the currents, the man had been here all along. The true victim of this case.
Which makes Murakami the real culprit of his own “murder”, but he's only a piece of the picture. After getting arrested, he speaks about how he had planned with the playwright about this but has no clue what capturing the older man was for. Not even after saying this, a detective rushes in saying that the playwright had been impaled with no weapon to be found.
Again, after an officer who had worked for the mysterious group “V” and tried to kill Ranpo after refusing to join them had been arrested, he was also killed the same way as the playwright. I feel like I don't even need to say that this “V” group is obviously the Decay of Angels after laying that out. The same motivations as Fyodor (”rid all evil of this world”) and the sword business is Fukuchi silencing people.
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What was the purpose of the play though?
Besides capturing Natsume Soseki (if you haven't read it), it was foreshadowing for what was to come. Let's abandon the idea that skill users are redeemed angels for a second. Just a second, I promise. Have you ever looked up what Kaumi (神威) even means?
While one of the first results you get will refer you to gods themselves, you should be focusing on a more literal translation. That being “God’s Authority” or greater divine power, making Fukuchi function basically as Fyodor’s own angel of judgment. Let's say that ability users are the sinners and Fukuchi (or Fyodor) is the one imposing their judgment, even if they should've been in the same boat.
Just like the play, they swap the victim (Armed Detective Agency) and the killer (The Decay of Angels) for the public‘s unknowing view. This play is filled with Fyodor’s personal bias and I think the irony of their searching for the “ability user” in the play is that to Fyodor, there's no such thing as a redeemed ability user. There is only salvation of death for this great evil and that is exactly what happens to the characters from the play.
Ranpo filps this narrative on its head and forcefully changes the ending of the fallen angel. He wasn't a part of the story, he forcefully shoved through its bullcrap to create something much more ideal. Something much less miserable. It's a little fun that two people he goes out of his way to help out (Yosano & Mushitaro) both have the title of “angel of death/murder” as that's how the angel of the play is also referred to. Save the killer that was actually a victim…
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With that, I really shouldn't abandon how ability users get referred to with titles like angel and demon right? Chuuya had an angelic allusion in Storm Bringer when he activated corruption for the first time, and hell, look at my buddy Gab and his mechanical wings. The further they transcend themselves of their humanity, the more angelic or demonic they become. There really is no true difference between them though.
This should've been about the trajectory of bsd…. Then it became me wanting to talk about DOA crap….
Well, I really don't know much. I connected dots that were there for me, but nothing to say for the future of BSD. I understand what is happening, but not enough to be psychic haha. I mostly went on about that because I didn't want our conversation about what is currently happening to be pushed aside because there's always more to say. Maybe if I read more of the authors involved, maybe I'd know.
If this is disappointing, oh well! It has taken me so long to think of something to say that the new chapter has already come out. Kafka Assgiri always leaves me with more questions than answers.
What even are abilities anyway?
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd meta#bsd analysis#fukuchi ouchi#bsd fukuchi#bsd 55 minutes#bsd untold origins#ranpo edogawa#bsd fyodor#the decay of angels#i should stop narrating the stories of the novels#i was going to say more#but I'm tired#the best I can say is to think of the questions bsd offers you and reread the series at any chance#you'll get more information each time and come up with more ideas for the future of BSD
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#ay. tomorrow might b the day i face the music#which is to say. i tell my advisor how fucked i am. i mean. ill spin it so it doesn't sound so bad#its just that ive told him like 2 weeks in a row that id send him my edited preproposal and i have not bc im too afraid to start reading#papers related to my project. which is frustrating. and like the thing is. and i kno ive said it before and i kno im not a fucking idiot#i can read papers and i can even understand what theyre broadly saying. but thats it.#zero critical thinking. zero insight. i use all my tiny fucking brain space to try to understand the words on the pages#and even then it only forms this broken fucking image of whats being said. like u dont understand. i used to struggle with writing papers bc#i couldnt fucking connect what i was saying from one paragraph to the next when i was the one doing the fucking writing.#what the fuck am i doing here? and again. im not stupid. i can follow the information if its fucking said out loud but thats not how this#works. and it just feels like sometimes there's a limit to what you're capable of and im at that fucking limit. the undergrads in my lab#have more ability to comment on papers than i do. its so fucking frustrating and i just have to live with knowing itll never get any easier#so what the fuck can i do other than drop out? theres no god damn way im gonna pass a comprehensive exam. not unless i buckel down and break#myself in half to try to retain all the information i need to. which requires that i read so many god damn papers that i cant fucking read.#just. why tf did i pick a career path where my suffering is inherent to a huge part of my job? i feel like ive consistently chosen to take#the hard path in life and ive finally stumbled too far from what is possible for me#so well see what comes out of my mouth tomorrow when i have my weekly meeting. i just feel like its my last semester#i feel like this is it. i just need someone to fucking hire me. bc everytime my lab mate mentions something abt#my project down the line or talks abt future conferences i should attend. im just like. its a nice idea but that's not happening. im just#at the end of the line and it sucks#unrelated
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Hi! :3 I’ve participated in sicktember for a few years on my sideblog and it’s been a blast!! Sad to hear it wrapping up but i do understand managing an event like this is a lot of work, just wanted to say thank you for organizing it all this time ^^ 👏🏼👏🏼
Hi! Oh my goodness! Thank you so much! Creating and running this blog has been a journey, for sure! It's had its ups and downs, but ultimately, we have thoroughly enjoyed bringing this event to life and witnessing the creativity it's sparked. And we are definitely going to miss making the prompt lists and interacting with all the awesome creators that participate!
I can not fully express how happy we are to hear you've enjoyed it! We are loving all the content that has come out so far this year, keep it up! It's great!!
This also seems like a good time to announce that we have identified a successor. We feel this person will be a good fit for taking over any and all future Sicktember events. You can expect to see a formal introduction towards the end of this event cycle.
Again, thank you so much for sharing your appreciation. It has 100% made our day.
#we love our followers#event notice#sicktember#sicktember 2024#here's to the future of the sicktember event#more information to come soon
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God I had such a wonderful literature teacher in high school. It pains me to admit that I spent most of his classes either sleeping or daydreaming about death and other equally depressing subjects. I remember thinking even then, I used to like books. Why can't I get myself through this readings why are all of these poems so lifeless to me? And like the rest of my classmates I just googled the Spanish equivalent for SparkNotes for all the readings and got a 10 in every exam. Now I find myself seeking out those same poems and sonnets and books and wishing I could turn back in time to actually listen to this passionate guy who had been all over Europe and knew 5 languages and lived so much and was so specific about which translation to get for every poem and have strong opinions about 10 other translations. I just want to grab my past self and shake them hard and scream "WAKE UP!!!!!! This thing you're ignoring right now will be the only spark of hope and joy you will find in your 20s please it's can save your life NOW if you manage to open your eyes and ears for a little bit"
Now I'm getting a degree in english, and I'm an auxiliary teacher at a primary school and it really feels a bit depressing to know that sometimes not even a great, passionate and talented teacher can make someone with an underlying interest in the subject actually pay attention and enjoy a high school class. Or maybe I was just an idiot and it's a me problem. Or maybe literature is meant to pass you by the first time around and make you go and get it out of your own will at your own time.
I think there's definitely something to be said for finding the right literature at the right time, absolutely--but I also think the fact that you still remember this teacher and the incredible passion and attentiveness he brought to those classes, that you are holding this recognition close to you now, even if you weren't able to give it the attention you wish you had at the time, counts for something, too 💕 in spite of everything something of his teaching still remained with you, even if it's being appreciated after the fact, and I think that, for most teachers, that impact alone means a great deal! Maybe you didn't appreciate the class itself, but you are appreciating the poems and those outlive every classroom and what greater influence is there than that? (And sometimes it's not even the subject itself that remains with you, but the actual teacher. I had an incredible English teacher also, but I know the impact she left on some of my friends had little to do with the poems and plays and everything to do with who she was as a person, and this is, I think, one of the most important things that come from a marvellous teacher)
I don't think you were an idiot at all--I think that whatever you were going through at the time must have been so immense, and as frustrating as it is to look back and wish you could have managed things differently, I think it's so important to allow yourself some grace for the fact that who you are now, looking back, and who you were then, are two different people--some circumstances, I think, are beyond a pupil and a teacher's control but we do the best we can with what we have, and what you have now, and what you had back then, probably look very, very different. Have you ever considered reaching out to your former literature teacher? Writing a letter or an email to let him now what you feel about his classes now, being older, and what this recognition means to you?
I think it's amazing that you are where you are now, with the passion you have now, and also with the awareness, even if you couldn't appreciate it at that time, of what a passionate teacher can bring because it will help make you a more attentive and better teacher as a result. I think teaching is one of those vocations you need to love with your entire being and if you can bring that love and that attentiveness with you to the best of your ability at any given time, then this counts for something, even if not immediately in the classroom itself 💕
#i wish you the best with your teaching and the rest your degree anon!!!#i think also sometimes the impact of certain classes and teachers are things you dont always realise until much later. and i dont think tha#is necessarily a flaw on your part#i think its just the way of things as you get older and gain new perspectives and are able to put your past experiences into a more detaile#framework and understand it more fully. and even if appreciation and gratitude come late they are still things you can use in your life as#you move forward from this point on and allow them to inform your future interactions <3#ask#anonymous
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"I need them to die in eachothers arms and for it to mean something" then proceeded to make a terrible. horrible punch to the gut
#o.#ow?????????#its. coming off the future alt but sona's afflictions go from being chronic to terminal#and because of the mutations to his vampirism the only way to survive is to feed off of gods#which they find out the hard way when he gets *really* sick and nothing's helping so they panic and Stylus kills a god#as a last 'out of options' resort and he feeds off it and it *works*#and they come to that realization and Sona refuses to continue like that because he says hes not going to live off of other people's-#suffering anymore. and so he makes his choice and at some point they go to visit Will who's completely cut ties with them because she#blames god's death on them being cowards who didnt try hard enough to stop her#which she isnt happy to see that and doesnt take the news well at all and states that theyre just throwing god's sacrifice away by#letting him die which makes the situation even more conflicting for sona who muses on how even beyond the grave#god's putting him in shitty situations. of either living selfishly off of others' deaths or seemingly having let her die for nothing#and will storms off and Caraway [who she's living with now] tells them to stay the night so they do#but it doesnt even matter cause Sona gently wakes Stylus up in the middle of the night and tells him hes dying and so#they sit with eachother and just talk softly and reminisce about meeting the other and they both agree they wouldnt trade it for anything#then he dies very peacefully in Stylus' arms#and will wakes up the next morning and comes downstairs and Caraway gently informs her and she runs into the other room#and Stylus is still sitting there in the same spot just. holding whats left of him. unmoved for hours#AND THEN I HAD TO STOP BRUSHING MY TEETH. CAUSE WTF. MAN???#the emotional damage may entirely be dependent on the emotional attachment level to these guys#and nothing otherwise but. if youre me. yknow. [shatters like glass]#MHMMH#cool#character death#I GUESS#sonaverse#delete tag#lore dump#very much a noncanon thing but. mmgnmgmg [wiggly sheet of metal noise]
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#why are men actual children?#I have a friend (genuinely I’m not talking about myself in third person)#who’s been with this guy for years and raised his mf kids#and he decided to inform her that whilst he told her he wanted more kids and saw a future#he doesn’t#and is happy with things the way they are now#so doesn’t want kids and doesn’t want her to move in#and is happy with her practically living in between two houses and in her car#so she’s been miserable for months trying to figure out what to do#and decided that they needed to break up because she can’t keep doing this#and what does this man do?#asks her to tell his kids#YOU WHAT#nah I’m fuuuuming#tell your own damn kids you fucked it up with their second mum by being a man child#honestly#some men need shaking#anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk
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yess hatsune miku would love your sopping wet dog of a man 🥰🥰🥰
bonuses under the cut
also this thing (ft ritchy flt and genbu lite)
#cacterart#brutal orchestra#i am NOT putting this in the miku i'm way too scared.#anyway hi! i:m not dead surprisingly#i just kind of forgot to post stuff here#for your information this is highly self-indulgent. vocaloid and everything vocal synth has been my main special interest#for more than a year now. so yes i'm normal#i constantly think of miku and nowak as besties even though they're the exact opposite#it's so funny#one is a famous all around the worldthe other is barely known by anyone#one sings one paints#one's a teenager the other's a man in his 20's#one is commonly depicted as having come from the future the other lives at the end of ww2#one's blue/cyan/turquoise/literally any shade of blue. the other is yellow
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I thought my new meow meow in Lies of P would be Geppetto and yeah, he is, but it turns out Carlo is taking the crown this time.
#also I think I would be more of a romeo/carlo shipper if there was some serious spice in it#geppetto is the one serving the menu this time#i haven't been rooting for an old man since daud#he is so fucked up. and I love a fucked up guy.#and if he comes with a fucked up son then better.#lies of p#i should warn there're spoilers incoming#i still like the dynamic between carlo and romeo because it (kind of) reminds me of ryujin#but then one dies and the other goes on a revenge journey#perhaps my taste might change in the future if I could learn more about their lore#i think I missed information? because i still wonder if the messenger puppets were under the frenzy influence#which I believe they were but their egos were not??#and also. If Geppetto was the one who puppetified Romeo to protect people what reason did he have when deep down he didn't care for humans#was it all a façade? a revenge for Carlo dying from the illness?#was he trying to pretend he wasn't at fault for carlo dying?? when he had something to do with it???#*rattling my cage as usual*
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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: All Elite Wrestling Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jungle Boy/Kenny Omega Characters: Jungle Boy (Professional Wrestling), Kenny Omega, Small roles:, Judas Devlin | Luchasaurus, Marko Stunt, Christian Cage, The Elite - Character Additional Tags: Porn With Plot, Kenny Omega's ego is way too big, Jungle Boy finds out he has several kinks hes ashamed of, lots of hairpulling and degrading, during Kenny's world champ reign Summary:
Jungle Boy doesn't like Kenny Omega's bullying for reasons he'd rather not admit outloud.
#jungle boy/kenny omega#aew fic#!!!! what!! a fic by your favorite alien that's not about the best friends ?!?!?!#this is shocking information I know guys you'd never expect it#I hope you guys like this tho!#It's been awhile since i've posted a fic focusing mainly on smut so !!!#also it's been so long since i've written + posted something so sorry for that#more fics coming in the future ajdl;fkjds
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can gabe saporta just stop talking please
#literally how does he not get that he's coming from an extremely biased perspective.#how is he just sharing 'unconfirmed' information and okay with it. 'it hasn't been debunked it's just unconfirmed'#then don't fucking share it??? what the fuck is wrong with you#literally how hard is it to want to support and sympathize with both israeli and palestinian civilians#how hard is it to understand there are innocent people on both 'sides' who don't deserve what's happening to them.#demonizing palestine for fighting back after years of oppression is certainly a choice#ngl i unfollowed him and am not particularly interested in any potential future cs content bc of this#people were telling him that he's spreading misinfo in the comments of his post and he essentially cherrypicked ones#that were slightly more aggressive to spotlight on his insta story like#'look at these awful people siding with oppressors and terrorists!! you're all evil'#also bro is acting like this is the oppression olympics#'israel is suffering worse than palestine ever did' he says giving proof that's been almost entirely debunked#i know celebrities are nothing but this is just one of those instances where im like. man. can't even have the comforts of my youth#without the front man ruining it with piss poor political opinions
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when i was 15 and in the months-long pits of my first acute episode everyone i saw refused to diagnose me with schizophrenia because i was "too young," but the same people were perfectly willing to prescribe me antipsychotics that had not been approved for minors. and to this day i do not have a clinical diagnosis
#like. not to sound psychotic or anything but i do not trust any of them anymore#regalia;#psychosis#i use that tag on my blog but... it is a symptom. i am completely certain that i do not fit the criteria of any other psychotic disorder#besides schizophrenia#but the number of bad experiences i have had & the number of dangerous ones i have barely avoided is so high that#i'm not willing to go through more of that just for... what? a line on my sheet that will further endanger me in the future?#extremely strong meds for something i've coped with alone for over 6 years?#even trying to talk to a regular therapist is so overwhelmingly awful that i won't do it anymore#mental health services are so inaccessible and even outright dangerous to people with stigmatized disorders#and if i say i refuse to endanger myself like that it just comes off as a symptom of my disorder instead of informed by actual trauma
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