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[your-sleeparalysisdem0n]

Vent down below! for anyone who doesn't want to interact, please filter out tag #junent !!

I'm losing more and more motivation to write every day. Between studies and academic performances, life's been hectic. Not only that, I recently sent a piece of my writing to my professor. I'm not a native English speaker you see, and he is. Because of that, I wanted to show him my writing and get some tips on it. He replied that it was 'not bad' and that 'it had my own unique flair to it.'

I was glad. I thought his reply was something to be proud of, but when I told my parents they had the exact opposite reaction. They said to me "Oh, it must've not been that good then." because in THEIR opinion, Americans (more so my professor), tend to give out 'Excellent!' and 'Amazing!' s very easily. So to say that my writing was 'not bad' meant that it was horrendous.

Honestly, I KNOW I'm not as talented as some of the other amazing authors on this platform, but I'm trying to learn. The whole reason why I started writing is because I wanted to get better at what I love doing. I brushed their comments off the first few times, but later my mom came in my room and said "Wow June, your writing must not be as good as you thought it would be. It might be bad."

Normally I would brush it off but woman. I have spent HOURS on that piece and worked so hard on it. Do you know how disheartening it is to pour your heart and soul into one thing only for you to call it 'not good enough'? She said that in such a jeering manner that, although I know she didn't mean it, I was more hurt than she could ever imagine.

I told her to 'go away' and 'get out of my room if you're going to mock me.' which I admit, wasn't the smartest choice in that situation. And she just glared at me while yelling I had 'no respect for her.' and that 'I was so rude.' She yelled at me a lot for 'telling her to fuck off when she didn't even say anything wrong' and left.

I being the pathetically emotional person I am, cried about her yelling. You didn't even read it ma, and you have no right to say such profanities at me when you don't have HALF the English skill I do. My professor, I am ok with getting criticism from, because he's more skilled at writing than me, but you can hardly SPEAK English, mom. Plus what you said to me was NOT criticism. Just blatant mockery. You probably didn't mean it that way but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt.

I have a book that's not related to any hoyoverse fandoms which I'm currently writing, and now I lost all motivation to continue it. To make matters worse, a few days ago my crush called my writing 'mid' and that 'this is the cringiest shit I have ever read in my life.' Seriously, I get it. I'm not nearly as good as I'd like to be, but can you not make me want to die in a pit of embarrassment and shame? If you're going to insult me, can you at least read my works or be more talented at writing in general?

I'm so ashamed. I went around showing that book to my friends and family because I was proud of all the effort I put in there, but now I just want to delete the entire thing out of embarrassment. Hopefully, this doesn't cause me to quit writing forever, but I'm just exhausted of the people whom I love discouraging me and insulting me.

Apologies for making this so long, but I just needed a place to vent to. If you even made it this far then thank you for listening to a sick person ramble about her sorrow.

[darkluminosity]

Happy STS! How do you work through structuring your plot?

Thanks Zac - I hope you're feeling better btw!

Great question, since I'm writing a new (and probably the last) arc for my main WIP. I use Google Docs at the moment and have 3 outlines I use, which might be overkill but for me it works lol:

1. main outline (with details, songs that match the chapter as I find them, along with the date I finished the chapter draft and the date I posted on ao3)

2. simplified outline (1-2 sentences to keep me on track with the main events of the chapter)

3. timeline (the time frame of when things actually happen so it makes sense pace-wise)

I don't do this with all of my WIPs, just Fighting Winter cause it ended up being way more ambitious and slow burn than I intended 😂 for the others, I have one outline that has everything but it's much simpler because there's way less characters...

Can I ask you the same question @did-i-do-this-write? I'm curious what others do as well - tagging my writer friends @chaotic-snowflake @17panicattacksinatrenchcoat and open tag for whoever else wants to participate! (I have more writer moots but some of them have been MIA so no pressure :3)

[hayatoseyepatch]

Sam!!! Congrats on the milestone again, this is so exciting! I hope you’ve been enjoying your time on the blr writing and interacting because you are a joy 💚

So matchups, hm? I’m curious about a match from either wbk OR tokyo rev (just one, and you choose!) just whatever comes to your head first 😅

She/they pronouns, an introvert disguised as an extrovert I think. I can be super outgoing, but it drains me, and my idea of a fun time is definitely sitting at home with my favorite coloring app and Law&Order: SVU. I usually have music playing at any given time, and my top artists are Hozier and Sleep Token. I wear a lot of leggings and hoodies and depending on how cool I wanna look I’m either in my Birks or Docs lol. When I’m not being a homebody, I like bookstores, dungeons and dragons, and concerts. Oh, and I don’t want kids, like, at all. So my partner has to be okay with that.

My favorite tropes are friends to lovers and Coffeeshop AUs (also a big fan of Only One Bed cause who isn’t?)

I like guys taller than me (not hard since I’m 5’2” lol) who have a darker aesthetic. Gotta be smart, usually very serious on the outside with a goofy side that not everyone sees. I admire people with hobbies, something they’re really passionate about.

My favorites from wbk are hiragi (obviously), ume, togame, and arima, and my faves from Tokyo rev are akkun, takemichi, mitsuya, and kisaki.

I don’t really have any characters that I loathe from either fandom, though I can’t see myself ever being with someone who’s, like, super crazy peppy and outgoing all the time.

Again, just pick either fandom! I figured I’d give you options cause I have a lot of love for both series 💚 congrats again!

Melonnn!! ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡♡ Thank you so much for your kind words and for participating! You're literally so sweet and I’m so lucky to be moots with such an angel ♡ On to your matchup my love!

I Match you up with Toma Hiragi from Wind Breaker!

⤜♡→ Come on now I cant be expected not to appreciate the actual best couple in the entire world. Satoru Nii and me are besties we literally just got off the phone and he was like “Yeah ofc RagiMel is canon.” I just think you guys are such a good match for eachother. Your personalities just suit each other so well. I am a firm supporter of things are boring if you are the exact same personality wise and I feel like your differences and similarities attract you to one another.

⤜♡→ Hiragi would much rather sit at home with you, his head perched on your lap as you explain the plot to one of your shows to him. Is he a little worried you’d be able to dispose of his boy too well with the amount of Law and Order episodes you both have binged? Sure. But its always nice to keep them on their toes, yk?

⤜♡→ Hiragi was the first to confess, but he took his sweet time doing it, poor man was so nervous. He was more than ready to take out Umemiya for not so subtly pointing out his (very obvious) crush on you. I feel like he isn’t the best at hiding his feelings. Being openly stern and even aggressive with the others but always kind and gentle when it came to you. His favoritism was just so blatantly obvious.

⤜♡→ This may be a hot take but I feel like Hiragi is more than okay with not having kids. I know a lot of people look at him and are like “ahh, yeah he’s totally a guy who wants a family.” But hear me out here. Hiragi has had his fair share of being an older brother almost fatherly figure to those like Sako, Kaji, and Sakura. He’s done his fair share and he is more than happy to just spend the rest of his life loving you and maybe even getting a pet or two. Your love is more than enough for him. You and Bofurin are his family, and that’s all he could ever ask for.

He pulls over into a clearing putting the car in park, getting out to properly set up the bed of the truck with pillows and blankets, humming to himself. He approaches our door after a moment opening it and offering you his hand, helping you out of the vehicle and walking you to the back. Grinning he allows his large hands to cup your waist, leaning down to slot his lips against yours. It didn’t matter how long you had both been together, every time kissing Hiragi felt like the first time. The all-encompassing love he slipped into every kiss still had you weak in the knees. Pulling away from you, he looks into your eyes, his own soft and lidded with adoration. Pressing his forehead against your own, his breaths fanning your face as he speaks. “I love you darling, more than you could ever possibly know.” With one more love-stricken smile he lifts you, helping you into the bed of the truck. Climbing in after you he settles you both against the blankets, lying down next to you.

He hums in contentment as you lie your head against his chest. He had taken you here many times before, the calm of the area where you could both just enjoy each others presence while looking up at the night sky, gazing at the array of stars. He craved these moments with you, where it was just the two of you, where nothing else mattered but holding you in his arms. He smiles, arms squeezing you tightly to him, smile adorning his features. One hand carding his fingers through your hair. “We haven’t been able to come here in a while, we have so many good memories here.” He hums, pulling you closer to him, recalling the very first time he brought you here. “This is where I told you I loved you for the first time, remember?”

His heart soars when he hears you laugh, recalling the memory, him taking his medicine to qualm his aching stomach from nerves. The way he felt as if his face would melt with the heat from his red cheeks. His words came out nervously, surging in to capture your lips with his own when you reciprocated his confession. His teeth clashing with your own in the kiss, so much so that he had punctured your lip. “How could I forget?” Your voice pulled him from his thoughts, his smile aimed at you once more. As he felt the weight of the velvet box that weighed down his pocket, he just hoped you could make yet another memory in your special place.

[superkooku]

My friend group has decided to call me “the oracle of the group” because whenever they ask for advice and I give them said advice and not to do something because it’s dumb and they don’t take my advice, what I say will happen, happens. So now every lunch they say in their most dramatic voice “my oracle…I need your sight…”

And now I’ve just started playing along bc it’s funny and I bet you will totally know who I am even with anon on

At least you're better off than Cassandra 🤣. Constantly hit by Apollo's dodgeball but people actually trust you.

It's kinda like my mom. Because every time she gives me some advice and I don't listen, it backfires some way or another. So I often ask for her opinion just in case.

And, call me stupid, but I unfortunately don't recognize you and any try I'd make would be an educated guess at best (though I maybe know who you aren't considering you don't show some of my moots' writing voice)

Little trivia about me : I'm terrible at recognizing people, even irl. I'd have to meet someone at least twice for some period of time to memorize their face accurately 😅. Especially if they look like another person nearby.

And I also suck with names.

Now I'm kinda curious to know who you are so I can be like "ooooooh, ok it's you !". So, if you'd like, it would be fun.

[candewlsy]

moots as idol positions with different moots?

Omg omg finally >:)) I can finally appreciate my precious moots <33 cause i love every single of you mwahh mwahh 😍

@eeunoia Oldest/lead dancer. Psyche is giving the oldest member not because she's one of the oldest moots I have but because I feel like Psyche would be the most mature and calm member. She'll put others before herself and she overthinks a lot, something like "Will this be okay? Do I look okay?" It broke my heart when she asked me about her fic and her writing skills :((. Other than that, she'll be taking care of the others like if you forget to bring something important, she'll have it prepared for you instead :D. Psyche is out going and SHE'S GIVING ME DANCER VIBE TRUST ME FRRR

@malarign Leader/lead vocalist. Joo is so leader-coded. Why? Because the other day she gave me advice and I think she'll know how to handle hardships and problems calmly. She'll make sure everything is going well. I think she'll keep her problems to herself because she doesn't want anyone to see her asking for help. Joo is a sweetheart and whenever she sees one of her members/friends having a hard time, she'll come to them to help them out (I love my wifey so much) since she's a Polish, I bet she has a wonderful voice ☝🏻

@slytherinshua and @eternalgyu. Main rapper/mood maker. Isn't it obvious you can't separate these two? They'll definitely slay-rapping together, They'll continue and complete each other's verse and make it amazing. It just gives the vibe okay?! They're so chaotic together. Zanna is hyper-chaotic meanwhile Hannie is calm-chaotic. Zanna will attack her members with LOVE meanwhile Hannie will playfully fight you. They're loveable by the people around them.

@enmayz Main vocalist/visual/happy pill. Mira's voice is so soft and sweet, when she sings it feels like you're in heaven. Her giggles are so 😩 I feel she'll slay so hard as the main vocalist. Hitting those high notes and ugrhhh, I need to her sing more hehe. Mira is so pretty too gosh a whole package. I think she's like those aesthetic idols who post their ootd, makeup and aesthetic pictures. Imagine her having a photo concept damnnn 🤭🤭🤭 Mira is so so so so sweet (I've been saying this a lot but it's true!!) Mira appreciates people around her and makes sure they feel loved :(( she'll sweet talk to you and help you through the day.

@haecien Sunshine of the group. Cien will make your day better easily. Eventho, he's a crackhead but it's just cute. I feel like when someone is having a hard time, he'll cheer you up with the random things he does and he'll always ask for people to come to him when they need someone. And he's giving sunoo Vibes too omg saurr cute.

@starrywonie maknae. Nana is so cute and adorable. I feel like everyone will feel at ease whenever they're with Nana. Nana is a curious girl and it's just giving Maknae :(( she'll cheer everyone up with her adorable energy.

[sdfghjkolpdfoiuhgbcnf]

INTRO POST!!! <33

Hi!!! This blog seems really similar to my main one, except this one works! I'm going to mainly be using this blog instead, so if my moots could follow this one that'd be amazing! thankss <33 Also! My pfp is not my art sadly, it was made by amazing friend :DD Update: my messages and inbox are still not working :((( I swear I'm not ignoring you, staff please fix my accountt

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Name: Honey! But tbh u can call me anything, i LOVE nicknames (the more deranged and random, the better) Pronouns: She/her Age: MINOR (ill prolly block u if u have smut or NSFW)

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Fandoms!!!

- Percy Jackson (Books) - School Bus Graveyard (Webtoon) - Owl House (Show) - Your Turn To Die (Video Game) - Gravity Falls (Show) - Avatar the Last Airbender (Show) - Hunger Games (Books) - Miraculous Ladybug (Show) - Homesick (Webtoon) - Cavetown (Music) - Taylor Swift (Music) - Prolly more but I forgot lol

IF YOU LIKE ANY OF THEM, JUST SAY HI PLEASEE, ID LOVE TO TALK YOU

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More Bout Me! (Last One is Important!)

I'm an ENFP (mbti nerd hehe)

Hufflepuff <33

Can't spell... Good luck figuring out what im saying!

very deranged when prompted

MENTA HEALTH ADVOCATE (abelists, pls DNI)

GIANT ALLY (homophobes/transphobes, pls DNI)

Hyperactive and very random! (lemme know if you're overwhelmed by that sorta stuff, ill try to tone it down :) )

Chatterbox! Love talking, just can't start conversations! DM or send me asks though!

very very curious, love talking to ppl about studies and fun facts

Character my friends associate me with and I relate to the most: Luz Noceda from the Owl House

My vibes are all over the place- (im emo, cutesy, and chaotic)

I MISS TONS OF SOCIAL CUESS!!! I'm trying to work on it but if i ever overstep my boundaries or make you uncomfy, pleasee let me know <33 im just a bit oblivious sometimes

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Trying (and loy-kew failing) to write: ao3 This is a big mess of all my interests hehe Reblog heavyyy I love tag games!!! And asks :DD PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEE spam me Uhhh i think thats it! i love making friends so plss flood my DMs, i love meeting ppl (i will act weird tho, this is a warning) esp to give me recs for books/shows/media in general

MY DMS ARE ALWAYS OPEN IF ANYONE WANTS TO VENT!!! (i may not be the best at comforting but I can listen <33)

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------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Thanks for reading! (its a lot, ik, i blabber, i tried to bold key parts) Boop! Bye <33

[writerblue275]

haii!! can i hear 20 through 23 for tha ask game??? thx love your works btw!!!

Hi hi hi Anonnie! I'm so glad you like my writing! Thank you for requesting these fun questions! 😊💙

20. Your very first fandom?

The kpop fandom. I've been a kpop fan for like over 12 years now, which is wild to think about! I'm definitely not an insane kpop stan, and completely understand it's not for everyone, but I do really enjoy the music. My favorite group is BTS, but SHINee, 4MINUTE, and BIGBANG were the groups that got me into kpop and I still adore them (RIP 4MINUTE and BIGBANG). I'm also a big EXO and Mamamoo fan. I'm also a casual listener to groups like Stray Kidz, TXT, and ATEEZ. Yeah kpop was definitely my very first fandom.

21. A fandom you're not active in anymore but still really like?

Fairy Tail! It was one of the very first anime I ever watched and I really grew to love the characters. (Also Gray Fullbuster wreaked absolute HAVOC on little high school me LMAOOOOO). I was big big big into the fandom back then, but haven't kept up with it as much. But I still hold such a soft spot for the show and I definitely credit it for getting me into anime!

22. The fandom friend you've known the longest?

One of my IRL friends from high school, which means i met her over 10 years ago! (I'll call her Valkyrie since I don't want to put her actual name.) She and I bonded through our love of kpop, anime, and video games and we're still very good friends to this day! I hung out with her like two-weeks ago actually!

23. The fandom you're curious about because of a mutual?

Hahaha I mentioned this on my main blog, but thanks to my lovely moot, Bee (@goodmorningawfulbye), I've now gone down the rabbit hole for the games Genshin Impact and Honkai Star Rail lmaoooo. I had absolutely no idea what they were (although I had heard the name Genshin Impact like once or twice). But I kept seeing these beautiful/handsome characters pop up from her reblogs and I just became SO CURIOUS. LIKE WHO ARE THESE BEAUTIFUL ANIMATED PEOPLE???? And so I fell down the rabbit hole. I'm still a little afraid to play either game because listen, League already tempts my wallet enough as it is, and I don't need gacha games to add to that, but it has still been a lot of fun to learn about the games and the characters and I'm still curious about both games when it comes to the lore.

What's also funny is, because of this, I've also found some other forms of entertainment. One of the English VAs, Alejandro Saab (who voices Cyno in Genshin and Jing Yuan in Honkai) is also a VTuber by the name of CyYu, and he's really entertaining! He plays games with the other VAs for those games quite often (along with other cool people) and sometimes he'll even talk about behind the scenes stuff when it comes to being a VA (no spoilers for the games or anything though). He will also occasionally break out his Jing Yuan voice (which GOD BLESS B/C THAT VOICE IS A+++++) or his Cyno voice (which is also excellent, just in a very different part of his register), or he'll give unique voices to different characters in the games he plays (ex: his recent playthrough of the Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door remake) and it's very easy to see why he's a professional VA! He's extremely talented!

(LMAO I didn't mean for #23 to get so long, but hey my curiosity at Bee's posts led me down this rabbit hole! 😂😂😂)

Ask Game

[ofstormsandfire]

whispers of what’s gone mayhaps? (For the why I wrote it bingo thing). I think that’s the title? The one theorizing abt TotK.

OH LMAO THIS WILL BE A FUN ONE HOLD MY ROOT BEER

because I feel like procrastinating further on actually writing things, I'm going to go more in-depth into each of these options.

this idea won't shut up until I write it: it really didn't. I was thinking about a champion powers in totk au for a while, and then I thought of a really great scene and at that point it was a race against time to write it before totk came out and all my silly theorizing would be moot.

everyone lives and nothing hurts: extremely common in my botw/totk fanfic. all four of the champions are blorbo and I care about them quite a lot. choosing a favorite—revali—is easy enough, but it's really hard to choose a second favorite and I'm not sure I could.

I was joking with my friend and it happened: multiple people on discord witnessed me losing my mind about silly goofy theorizing for this one, and suddenly realizing. ah. fuck. I've got to write this now, don't I?

I woke up at 3 am with an idea: strictly speaking it wasn't exactly 3 am, but it was definitely closer to 2 am than to 1 am and I was actively falling asleep when I had the idea for a really, really great scene (and at that point I really, really had to write it.)

thought of a great scene: revali and urbosa full on not realizing that they're not ghosts anymore until revali, supposedly taking advantage of being unable to be seen by the local monsters, is yelling down info about them to link & co. and then gets shot out of the sky. ouchie.

spite: generally a motivator for just about anything I write in some way. in this particular fic it was probably at least partially spite towards 1) ao3 making the utterly terrible decision to consolidate botw and totk into one fandom tag despite the fact that they are two drastically different games and no other zelda games that are sequels to each other (like oot/mm, for instance) are combined in that way. and 2) people who just could not wait any longer for the game and decided to start leaking it all over the internet. it was incredibly difficult to dodge those! if you're going to be impatient, cool, have fun, but don't ruin the game for everyone else who would like to go in blind and is actually being patient!

but what if they were gay?: my general approach to botw fic, let's be honest here. I've always been partial to rivals to lovers as a trope and revali and link are really so much more similar than either of them ever realized.

thought of a great line: "If you truly are Link, you have ten seconds to prove it."

just to see if I could: motivation for a lot of my more out-there ideas, honestly. I enjoy messing around with my writing, I enjoy testing my limits and trying new things. also, I was curious how much my own thoughts would be connected to actual canon. in the end, it was a surprising amount!

anyway, had to type out the second half of that twice because yay thanks tumblr for being a functioning site, but if you haven't read this fic and you're vaguely interested you can find it here, and if there are any other fics of mine—long, short, anything in between—that you'd like me to fill this out for, my askbox is always open <3

thanks for the ask, anon!

[momiji-bookhouse]

I'll check them out ((:

YES ANGST TO COMFORT IS MY FAVE AHHH okay here we go..

Kazu. And his lover (Fem! Reader) getting into a huge argument on board The Crux. We all know that usually he's very calm, collected, nice etc. But this time, you can choose the reason, he snaps and bursts out at reader, WHO, already feels like they're not good enough for him. I hc that when he gets genuinely angry, he spits out the worst, most ruthless words. Reader has no vision (she went on board for Kazuha and to help out with.. everything except for fight related things ig), isn't the best at words, and compares herself to Lumine, who, to her, has everything and she feels like Kazu is dating her out of pity. She loves the blonde, she really does, but her insecurities eat her up so bad. ("She has saved three nations, and what am I doing?" Things like that.) So, during the argument, he uses those against her. He uses her biggest insecurities against her. Anyway, she runs away, yada yada. /Additional part.. Beidou hears everything, she knows all about the reader since they grew up together, and so she gives the man a huge lecture. But scrape this part if you wanna since you don't want to write it since you don't write for her, but it's part of my brainrot hsjsh./ More angst you say? Sure!!! Abit of reader's backstory: her whole life, she's been looked down on, she's also very brainwashed.. to think that she's never good enough, not good at anything, she's useless, worthless and all that, so for her to join Kazuha on his journey/travels is a huge sacrifice for her (for him?? What is English-) since she's an introvert but she tries her best to come out of her shell; baby steps. ANYWAYYY, you can decide the ending but happy ending please, I can't take pure angst. 😭 Anyway yeah, I've had this brainrot for days and if you don't wanna write it, it's fine.

This is so long omg sorry, I tend to ramble and my attention to details is painfully strong. But yeah it has mentions of Lumine and it also features Beidou, so technically I'm breaking the rules here??? I shall stop here 😶 And why did I just dump myself onto reader lmaooo.

Take care and stay safe!!!

(Oh and also wanna be moots/friends? I'm v shy to ask but you're so nice and jskshs okay bye)

Essence of the Stars

pairing: Kaedehara Kazuha x fem!Reader

genre: Hurt/Comfort, Angst (the comfort part will come in part 2)

words: 2.5k

summary: It only took a few words for his voice to join the chorus in your head.

tw: arguing, insecurities, implied emotional abuse

a/n: This is for you @mako-yaki! I hope you like it! Also, to clarify, when I say I only write for the characters on my rules list, it means I only take requests for those characters. I should clear that up and update my rules. So no worries El, you're not breaking any rules here.

As the assistant to Yinxing, the Crux's surgeon, your main duty whenever the fleet returns to Liyue is to restock the supply of herbs for the concoction of medicine and potions. As such, you're no stranger to the Bubu Pharmacy and its mysterious owner, as well as his enigmatic apprentice who seems to have trouble remembering things.

As an avid botanical ethusiasts and endlessly curious about discovering the new healing properties of plants, you have the added joy of talking to said owner and learning new things from him.

On this particular errand, while collecting the bags of requested herbs from Baizhu, he told you about the appearance of a rare plant that was thought to have gone extinct years ago.

"Duskbloom," Baizhu says and your eyes lit up at the recognition of the name, having briefly seen it in one of your herbal encyclopaedias. "A flower that only blossoms in the light of the setting sun."

"And can only thrive in deep caverns with little exposure to sunlight." You finish.

"Very good, you still remember your studies." He nods in satisfaction. "The flower was thought to have gone extinct during the time of the Archon War, but recently one of my apprentices had discovered it growing in one of the caverns in Lisha."

Your eyes flitted over to the reception table, where the little girl would normally be. Changsheng, noticing this, speaks up. "You best not wait up for that girl, she's out collecting herbs somewhere. Who knows when she'll return with that head of hers."

"Unfortunately, any Duskblooms that Qiqi managed to harvest are being used for research. However, if you're willing to make the trip, exit Liyue Harbor on the south side and go past the stone Yaksha statues. Keep on the road until you see the river. Where it splits you should see a branch of it flowing down into the mouth of a cavern."

That doesn't sound too far off. Maybe you can convince Captain Beidou to let you and Kazuha have a day off, if even that long.

"Thank you, Baizhu-sensei," you say as you receive the bag of herbs from him, your heart filling with excitement. "I'll check it out."

Convincing Kazuha is the easy part. Your lover quickly agrees to your request of accompanying you, a gentle and adoring smile on his face as he listens to you talk about the flower and some of its medicinal properties with a sparkle in your eyes.

"Duskblooms! I thought I would only be able to see them in books. I never thought I would be able to study them in real life." Your face is bright and eager. "Just think about what sickness they can cure." You stop when you finally notice how he's staring at you, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "O-oh, am I boring you with this?"

"Not at all, love." He takes your hand in his, his maroon eyes still gazing at you with affection. "I love hearing you talk with such passion and vigor. And even if it is an ordinary topic, I can never be tired of your voice."

Your heart palpitated at his words as a flush creeps up your cheeks. Even after being in a relationship with him for some time, his words have yet to cease their effects on you, and frankly you doubt there will come a time they will not make your stomach flutter.

Although you have travelled with Kazuha a number of times throughout Liyue, they were mostly at places where both of you made absolutely certain there would be no enemies or danger lurking about. After all, as someone who was not blessed with a Vision, you couldn't wield the elements, and you weren't someone who took up fighting either – instead preferring to use your hands to bandage wounds and pound herbs into paste.

For a trip to a mysterious cavern like this, you both agreed it's best to call on someone with experience from the Adventurer's Guild to go with you.

After a few hours of posting the commission, someone accepted. You sigh in relief when you see that it's the Traveler, knowing that she's more than capable of handling a simple mission such as this. You haven't seen her since the situation at Inazuma ended, electing to stay behind on Watatsumi to help tend to the wounded and rejoining the Crux when the heat of the conflict passed.

You two meet up with her and Paimon at the Guild's reception desk, exchanging greetings before setting out. You catch up with Lumine along the way, and although she answers your questions with a smile, you can't help but notice how she looks as if though she's being weighed down – no doubt still affected by the events in the Land of Thunder.

It doesn't take long for your group to arrive at the location, with the way Lumine expertly guides you around one would think she has been in Liyue even longer than you have.

The sound of the rushing water fills your ear as Kazuha takes your hand and carefully leads you into the cave, your feet hitting the damp ground.

Scanning the place to the best of your abilities with limited lighting, you zero in on some flowers among the grass that's swaying with the breeze. You trot over and squat down, a smile lighting up your face when you see the dark blue and violet purple petals bleeding into a blush pink, the flower currenlty closed due to it only being midday. However, you know that when it blooms, it will reveal rows and rows of petals surrounding a yellow centre, just as described in your books.

"Is that it?" Lumine asks. "It looks really pretty."

"Indeed. Its colors remind me of the sky when the sun is barely below the horizon, but the stars are already in view. Duskbloom," he muses. "What a fitting name."

"Can you eat it?"

You chuckle at the floating fairy's question. "It's been said to also be used in cooking, yes. But I haven't been able to find any recipes with it as an ingredient."

You look around the cave, silently counting the amount of flowers in your head. There isn't a lot of them, below 10 from what you can see, so you decide to take 2 for now. But just as your fingers close in on the stem, an unexpected enemy burst forth from the ground.

You yelp in surprise and fall onto your butt as what you thought were Duskblooms turn out to be Whopperflowers.

"Dove, are you all right?" Kazuha says in a worried tone as he helps you up.

"I'm fine." Your legs shake as you stand.

"Paimon, you and (Y/N) find a place to hide." Lumine summons her sword and squares off against one of the Whopperflowers.

Kazuha kisses your cheek, muttering words of assurance to you before joining the Traveler. You and Paimon nod at each other and quickly find a wall to hide behind while Kazuha and Lumine deal with the Pyro and Cryo Whopperflowers.

The Cryo one is easier to deal with, the fire from its Pyro companion more than enough to neutralize its ice. The Pyro Whopperflower, however, constantly evades the attacks by retreating into the ground and appearing back again in another location.

Your eyes widen when you see the grass catching fire from the Whopperflower's fireballs, the blaze quickly spreading and threatens to engulf the other Duskblooms. Your heart pounds in panic at the thought of the precious flower succumbing to extinction once again, and even before you can harvest them no less.

To this day, you still don't know where you get the courage to propel your legs forward, ignoring Paimon's cry of your name as your mind focuses on nothing but the flowers. You rush forward, dodging the fire and plucks two Duskblooms just as the flames begin to lick at their stems.

You roll on the ground, panting and grasping the flowers to your chest, panicked yells of your name ringing in your ears. You sit up to see the Whopperflower right in front of you.

You scream, but there is barely any time for you to get up and run as it is already charging up to throw a fireball at you. You shut your eyes, teeth clenching as you await for the burning singe.

A burst of wind explode before you, and you open your eyes to see Lumine shielding you with her sword, the Whopperflower blasted away by her Anemo power. For good measure, she unleashes a ray of lightning to incapitate it and Kazuha finish it off with a slash of his sword.

Adrenaline still course through your veins as you watch it turn into dust, and only when you feel Lumine shaking you did you register that she has been calling you. "W-what?"

"Are you all right? Were you hurt anywhere?"

"N-no." You do a quick once over of your body, finding only dirt and grass clinging to your clothes and skin. You can't say the same to Lumine, however. "Oh! Let me patch you up."

You got out the supplies from your bag, applying a salve to her minor burns and cleaning up some of the cuts before bandaging them. You are about to do the same thing to Kazuha when he suddenly steps back from you, an unreadable expression on his face.

You flinch, not expecting for him to react like that, nor are you ready for the storm of emotions clouding his maple-red eyes. He turns away, obscuring his face from you, and simply says in an even tone.

"We should head back."

The journey back is uncharacteristically quiet, enough to make you squirm as you all follow the road back to Liyue Harbor. You keep trying to glance at Kazuha, but he doesn't say a single word to anyone, still retaining that emotionless look on his face that somehow unsettles you more than anything.

You part ways with Lumine and Paimon, and the trip back to the Alcor is not an improvement. You walk behind him, reluctant to speak up when you don't even know what's on his mind. There's something heavy hanging in the air, something you never thought would happen when you're with Kazuha, and the unknown nature of it makes your throat clench unconsciously.

You make it onto the deck and follow him down to the crew's quarters, where thankfully there is only the two of you. You set your bag down and hesitantly approaches him, but he still refuses to meet your eyes.

"Kazu-"

"What were you thinking?" You stop in your tracks at his tone of voice – still steady, but some underlying emotion hidden behind them makes your heart throb in nervousness.

He turns to face you, and you almost gasp at the way his eyes narrow and darken, stormy with anger and ire. Your legs shake, never having seen those things being directed to you by him before.

"I-"

"You were specifically told to hide." He cut through your words and make you snap your mouth shut. "Why would you run out like that? How can you be so reckless?"

You keep your mouth close and he continues. "Do you even know what danger you were in? You are Visionless." You recoil, something about the way he let out that word conjure up unpleasant memories for you. "You don't even know how to fight and you decided to barge into the middle of battle for what?"

"You don't have a Vision. You don't know how to fight. What good are you?"

He grits his teeth and let out a huff of exasperation. "What's worse, not only your safety but you put the Traveler's safety in danger. What if she wasn't there? What if she got injured due to your actions? Did you even think about that?"

"Look at what you've done!"

"Thank Archons for Lumine's capabilities. At least she has a good head on her shoulders," Kazuha mutters, and you feel as if though someone has gotten a hold of your heart and is squeezing it in their palm.

"At least one of your children is blessed."

"How can I trust that you're not going to make the same mistake twice? I can't look after you all the time, (Y/N). Especially not if we're out in the world and encounter some unexpected danger."

"I think it's best if you don't accompany us from now on, (Y/N). It will certainly relieve all of us of stress."

"W-what are you saying?" You manage to croak out, but your voice sounds disembodied. As if though you aren't completely there.

He doesn't answer your question, only staring at you with those eyes. Your heart pounds like drums in your chest as your breathing quickens, and you feel your stomach twisting into knots. You long to say more, to open your mouth and say sorry to him and please, I'll be good, I'll be better next time, just please-

"I need some air."

How much time has passed? A minute? A few seconds? It all feels like eternity to you. Kazuha brush past you, not even looking at you on the way up, the cold breeze he leaves behind making you shiver.

Your legs feel like jelly under you, and you would've fallen into a heap if not for your muscles locking up and putting you in place like a statue. It isn't even a hot day, but you feel like you're burning up from the inside.

"No good. Can't do anything right. Ruined everything. Only weighing all of us down."

"Visionless."

You shake your head vigorously and cover your ears, trying your best to deny that those words came out of your beloved's mouth. But it only makes things worse.

His voice begins to blend in with your parents' and sibling's until it morphs into a twisted choir that endlessly spats out insults at you. You want to scream, want to counter their words and say that you're better than that. But over the years you have come to accept their words, letting them drip into your ears like honey, only revealing their true nature when they poisoned your veins.

You don't know when you curl up into a ball, don't know at what moment the tears begin to escape your eyes, but you flinch all the same when you feel hands on your shoulders. You look with misty eyes to see the outline of your captain, but it did nothing to soften the voices in your head.

"Captain..." You rasp out. "I...can't breathe..."

Your heart feels like it's beating right out of your ribcage as your throat constricts, not even giving you the opportunity to let out the racked sobs that threaten to swallow you whole.

You feel her pulling you closer into an embrace, trying her best to tell you to breathe with her. You'll be fine, (Y/N), just breathe. Breathe with me. 1...2...3...That's it. Breathe. I'm here for you.

The voices don't stop.

[wooahaes]

What about a Mingyu single!parent AU ? 👀

ooo... single dad gyu is. clutches chest. it rly doesnt help i've been having baby fever recently for reasons that it admittedly took me a hot minute to realize what they were. but thats not important lol

i feel like theres a lot i can do with single parent aus since i've talked abt a jeonghan one w my moots (holly and livvie if u see this... mwah <3) once (which i'm also happy to talk abt if anyone's curious). for creativity's sake, i'll go with a different plot for single dad gyu <3

gyu is a single dad who has sole custody of his kid for probably undescribed reasons unless i wanna get into it if i write it. he's happy, tho: he loves his daughter more than anything else and is completely happy just working to support her. he usually hires a sitter or asks his friends to watch her if they aren't working that day (some of them like... adore her to the point where gyu whines if they're Too doting bc thats his baby!!! he should be her number 1 person!!! not uncle wonu!!!). hes got stuff figured out. sometimes ppl ask abt him dating again since he's not exactly happy single, but he kinda just insists that he'll be good for now--he'd rather wait until his daughter is a little older.

and then enter you: a new server at the restaurant he works in. his coworker, junhui, immediately realizes that mingyu's a smidge bit smitten within the first few weeks of you working there bc u do ur job well and you're a kind person?? just something abt the combination makes him a lil flustered when interacting with you. mingyu just kinda chalks it up to you being new, but you're the one who helps him wash and bandage a cut when he wasn't watching his fingers once. you end up giving him ur number to talk more, mingyu is painfully oblivious that ur trying to flirt a lil w him since the two of u get along, and he goes home to spend time with his daughter before he has to put her to bed for the night.

about a month or so of very obvious flirting (to everyone But gyu), his daughter gets sick. hes stuck at work, so are pretty much all of his friends, but you're about to leave for the day when mingyu asks you for a huge favor. he'll call the preschool and get everything arranged for you to pick her up (probs by showing ID and confirming ur the person mingyu gave permission to), plus he'll tell you where the spare key is, he just needs you to take her home and watch her for about an hour until his friend can get there. so you agree to it, and he's relieved.

and then he goes home to see you and wonwoo sitting on the couch, talking. you apologize bc you meant to leave waaay earlier but wonwoo was telling u abt college shenanigans (mingyu is like Oh No) and showing you baby pictures (bc wonu is best uncle for a reason) and the two of u just kinda help talking. mingyu panics for a moment, wondering if this means ur into wonu, but wonu kinda pushes him straight into walking you out and making sure u get a cab home and u kinda just. ask him out for coffee, but not explicitly calling it a date.

idk more plot of u and mingyu p much dating and growing closer before mingyu has to recognize he's falling for you. straight up would have a lil convo with his daughter, whos old enough to understand, abt him bringing someone into their lives (maybe w the 'but if they treat you badly, you can tell me' bc they're a package deal and he's not going to be w someone who treats either of them horribly). happy ending of u and gyu in love <3 maybe w a timeskip of you moving in with him and loving the lil family the three of you have become

[softxsuki]

I have a question for you! Just a simple one really. What's something that you know you do differently than most people? I'm curious because what you answer would be. (Or another question if you don't want to do this one: What are you most grateful for?) - ⚜️

Hmm, interesting questions! I'll answer them both for you!

Something I know I do differently from most people: It's hard to tell what's going on in everyone's mind or their daily life, so idk if these things are actually things that most people don't do lol, but I'll still say them

If I have a plate of food, I eat the parts I like the least first, and save my favorite for last

As for my writing, I think this is pretty different, but I write out a basic draft using bulletpoints first, then I go through and fill in with more details or rearrange some things. I can't write out a full story and post it like that, there's always something I have to change

I daydream everywhere. I used to go to this park when I was younger and at the time I was super obsessed with One Direction (lol) and I'd have very vivid daydreams while swinging on a swing, of a tour bus stopping by the park and the 1D boys coming out and inviting me on tour with them NFJEKAFJN

Even now though, I still daydream at work. I was laughing to myself because I fully pictured this cute scenario with Bakugou and I full on started giggling to myself 💀

Something I do different on tumblr: I'm nice (I hope). I've seen so many blogs who only care about their mutuals. Like they only do certain events for their mutuals and only act friendly towards them and I never understood that. It always discouraged me from even sending them an ask, even though I was on anon, because I felt like I didn't belong. I want to give love to everyone whether they're my moot or not, so I hope everyone feels welcome to speak to me on my blog! Let me know if there's anything I can do to make you feel more comfortable talking to me :D

These are probably all generic I'm sorry. I can't really think of anything more specific FJKEABF

AS FOR WHAT IM THANKFUL FOR;

I'm thankful firstly to God for getting me this far in everything; He's the one that pushed me to start this blog and actually share my writing with people. He brought me the most comfort after my aunt passed away last year, He brought my job opportunity to me at the most perfect moment, and He's helped me out of my most darkest days so definitely very thankful for Him.

I'm of course thankful for my parents who helped raise me (though I am very different from them) but they supported me financially and to this day my dad still helps me out whenever I need it

I'm thankful for my friends, especially my friend Tay who brought me back to my faith. Her and I were destined to meet NFEOAF and I can't wait to meet her in person one day! But also my friend Melissa, who has been with me since 10th grade and stayed by my side when I unfriended my ex-bff who we were mutual friends with. She supports me so much, no questions asked and I know she's someone I can go to for anything and she'll drop everything to help me out

I'm thankful to have a job and a decent income

Thankful to have a car so I don't have to ride a train for 2 hours to get to work

and lastly, IM THANKFUL FOR ALL OF YOU; this past year has been incredible because of you guys (especially this past week). I love how understanding you all are even though I'm sure it's frustrating that I have over 100 requests, but I keep doing events and other things in between, but I'm thankful you're all still around. I've been extra happy this week though because more of you are reaching out to me through my asks just to talk or to ask me questions like this and it makes me feel like we're all really close friends (even though I do already consider you all my friends. OR EVEN FAMILY, this blog is our own little family)

There we go. Thank you again for the questions, I love stuff like this <3

[astrxlis-archive]

Hello Fox!! I just wanna drop by to say that: rest well, ok? :D 💞 It must have been a long and stressful day for you- given that you've also tried to write the new albedo drabble 👀 (which i really liked!) Very impressed too about your gut instinct, all i could do is to wish for you to be able to face everyday's obstacles successfully 😤🙏 you really did well and just by simply getting through the day is commendable 🥰😚

I recently checked Dan's mutuals page and- you're there !!! 🤩🤩🤩 So now, officially you're moots 💞💞💞 I'm so happy and still proud for you for reaching out to Dan <333 i don't know if this makes sense but, i have to thank you as well for making me very glad ?!?! It made me feel so happy when i saw you trying your lil' steps in reaching out 🙈🤭

— i hope you're resting well at the moment, 🍰.

hello 🍰!!!

i’ll be answering all the asks you sent in one, if that’s ok? just let me know in the next one if not!

about the prayer position - i don’t know why my brain associated churches with that position regardless of religion? but like, i was gonna share a fun tidbit of medicine related to that, that’s why i asked LMAO i’m so sorry 🥲 what makes it funny (to me) is that i myself am a christian so it’s just- i’m aware??? catholics and christians don’t do that??? but my monkey brain is like “oh prayer position? BEND” 😂😂😂 so uh. yeah.

are you sure about not taking the meds in the meantime? i’m not judging, just slightly worried; i know firsthand how troublesome they can be 🥲

about my classes, most of them are early mornings and late nights, which is exhausting. i’ve resorted to taking naps between classes this week 🤷🤷 were you guys seated from shorter to tallest?? also rip your self control bc i would’ve laughed ☠️ weren’t they laughing??

dude, tell me if you feel the same, but like– there’s something abt texting and writing that’s easier?? than actually talking?? are you able to open up to your friends when you need to, tho? 🥺🥺

alright!! i’ll be waiting for you to get in touch whenever then uwub also, i mean,,,,,,,, they did wish me a happy birthday later???? 😂😂😂 let me know how your friend reacts, ok? i’m genuinely curious!!

about voting… not in my country – we turn 18, we have to get our license because it’s our duty as citizens to show up and vote when elections come around, otherwise we have to pay a fee. even if we choose to vote blank or nullify our vote. seems like your voting system is different than my own??

i’m so glad to hear you think i help you in some way 🙈🙈 and that you have friends who also support you!! i’m it relieves me a lot to know you’re ok emotionally, for real. it’s helps navigating through life easier 😮‍💨 and true – it literally just happens.

thank you for your well wishes!! i wasn’t able to be on tumblr this week, so i was a bit shocked to learn the amount of likes/reblogs my works have gotten? like????,?,,,,? i’m so flattered, my gosh 🙈 and it makes me so happy you liked it!! i wonder if the person who requested it liked it too. but be honest – is there any way you think i could improve?

i’m used to having to rely on my instincts to stop myself from getting overwhelmed, so maybe that’s why my gut feeling is strong 🥲😅 but thank you; the comment about getting through the day kinda made me a little prouder of myself because true, simply getting through the day is more than enough sometimes. remember that too, okay??

I JUST SAW IT!!! I AM!!! it’s such a weird feeling but i’m so happy?? like, being mutuals with people i admire, and not just as an anon?? unthinkable until a few weeks ago 🙈🙈🙈💕💕

but tell me– how was your week? are you feeling ok? are you trying your luck on 2.6 banners?

hope this reaches you well!! see you soon! 💖