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[moonchildridden]

hey, I hope your day is going well. I’m curious to know your top 5 favorite bl series/movie

Hey love, my day is going fine, and I hope yours as well. So...this question took me a while to get an answer because my top 5 changes a bit after I watch some series and it's difficult for me to get a definitive and solid set of series that I would kill to watch again and again, non stop. But I got it...I guess (this is for series that already finished airing and based on some that are still airing and I really like it, this list can change at any moment)

5. Bad Buddy

Enemies to lovers? Slow burn? Mutual pining? Angst? Pain and suffering? Bad Buddy provided me with that in a good amount and even doubled a bit in some of those aspects for good measure just to make me suffer a bit. Granted, the novel had more of angst than the series, but it got angst nonetheless and I LOVED IT!

Emotionally constipated characters like Pran are a very truthful representation of how I am in real life and how difficult it is for me to navigate in personal relationships without overthinking to the point of freaking out when something actually happens (episode 5, specially the rooftop scene, was one of my favorite episodes of the series, because of the amount of feelings it managed to pour in those two characters. I even wrote something in Pran's POV of the kiss, and it hurts me to read til this day)

Also, the OST was absolute fire and Nanon (one of my bl boy) was in it, so I was sold.

4. Manner of Death

I don't usually talk about my favorite midia but if there is something that I adore in story genre is police investigation, murder and suspense. Give me a good mystery to solve, good places puzzles to put in place, dubious characters and I will follow you into the dark like a character in a horror movie. Even if MaxTul weren't the actors portraying the protagonists of the story, I would've watched because Sammon is a good writer and I really enjoy her stories.

This story also gave me mutual pining (TanBun really wanted to get on each other but we're simply repressing themselves, Bun more than Tan, for obvious reasons), fire chemistry, a spoon of angst (I really love to suffer, I know), swiftly adopted son (Sorawit is TanBun's child and I won't accept contrary opinions on that) and a happy ever after (or a happy for now, because we really want "Transplant", the continuation of MoD, to be adapted as a series and the chances are getting higher by the minute).

3. Vice Versa

Stories with supernatural/fantastical aspects have me by the neck, let's start with that. So, when I heard there was a series with parallel universes involved, my interest got picked immediately and I waited to see what I was going to be served (JittiRain, just like MAME, has a reputation of starting well her stories but midway do something that would ruin one or both characters, or even be sus the entire story), considering that I had liked two series based on her novels (2gether and Theory of Love). PuenTalay became my babies the second they met on that airport bathroom. Literally a soulmate meeting.

Another emotionally constipated character in the form of, well, both of them, in various degrees, and two people with an absurd will to love but not having the chance to explore the way they can really love until they are forced to spend time in a different universe than theirs, searching for a way to go back. It was so beautiful to see Puen have a chance to be himself, even if it was in somebody else's body, explore more his interests, gain friends, a family, learn how to express himself, how to pursue something he really wants and how to fight for what he wants; Talay, my sweet boy, someone who also wanted to love but his life was constantly in a blue color mood, only focusing on work because his love life was empty and no one seemed to get his attention, learned how to let go and just enjoy life for the simple things it can offer.

Both of them had an incredible growth, learned how to deal with their insecurities, how to lean on other people when they have a problem, how good it can be to let other person paint your life in a different color. "And now he paints my life pink forever" line, you'll always be famous.

2. Triage

Another Sammon work being adapted into a series (when I say that woman has me in a chokehold, I'm not joking. And when I say that stories with supernatural/fantastical elements also has me in a chokehold, I'm definitely not kidding. This time, were going time loop.

It took is almost three full years to have this series airing, and while some people had already lost all hope of seeing that happening, I kept waiting for it, because TaeTee really wanted to star in this series. And the wait was reeeeeeeeealy worth it.

Granted, there are a lot of differences between the source material and the series, mainly all the story surrounding the human organ trafficking stuff, that wasn't exactly on the novel. The novel focused on piecing together the reason Tin was involved with Tol, what was their relationship and why he was the only only being tasked with saving that boy from dying, over and over again. Seeing the disastrous attempts from Tin to approach Told and warn him about his death, starting from directly telling him that he was going to die (too straightforward, my friend, are you insane?) to make Tol break up with his girlfriend and fall in love with him, so he could save him (very weird plan, my guy) and how things slowly unfold between them was something that I enjoyed reading and watching, and would love to forget everything so I could experience the feelings I had while watching it for the first time.

1. Love In The Air

At this point, are we even surprised with this?

Seriously, I didn't even wanted to watch this series (MAME and her reputation have the power to push away potential viewers in the speed of light, I'm a living proof of that) and was going to let this one pass but then I decided to watch the first episode and see how things would turn out. Not gonna lie, I'm glad I decided to watch the first episode the day it came out.

Payu grabbed my attention with his long hair in a ponytail and his Daddy vibe. Prapai decided to step in and whistle, and I was sold. Rain was my baby himbo, so innocent and fragile that I wanted to keep him wrapped in bubble plastic and never let him go anywhere. Sky called to me because I, unknowingly, saw myself in him. PayuRain and PrapaiSky are literally two sides of the type of relationship I would like to have: as someone with a fairly long lost of kinks, having someone who not only understands but also encourages the exploration of said kinks and the possible discover of many others, Payu is the type of person I would like to have by my side, someone who's secure and stable in their skin, knows how to live their live and has a heart of gold (also because I can be bratty sometimes, give a brat tamer, I would love to push their buttons, just for the kicks. And as someone who is a trauma holder, Prapai is the embodiment of the idea that I would find someone who would understand my pain, my hesitation and my fears and, instead of forcing me to overcome them while I'm not exactly ready, would be by my side every step of the way, being a safe haven, reminding me that I did not deserve what happened to me and that I'm not a broken person or undesirable.

I love how they are so fundamentally different but manages to win my heart in a way that not many couples did and I continue to love them even more everyday. It doesn't matter if my heart leans more towards PrapaiSky (again, trauma holder here, it was bound to happen), I will always carry my weather boys in my heart until the day I die.

I know you only asked for my top 5 but every time I think about my favorite BL series, there is this one series that even if it's not on the top, will always be the favorite amongst all favorite, not only because it was my first bl but also because the amount of identification aspects I found in one of its characters really hooked me and till this day, I smile every time I think about it. So, a honorable mention:

SOTUS/SOTUS S

Many people have various opinions about this one, about a lot of things, but what makes this particular story stick out to me is the fact that Arthit's self discovery journey felt a lot like my own journey, down to a T (or almost down to a T). How he never really thought about it, used to make jokes about queerness but was really not homophobic, how he was "forced" to deal with it by having Kongpop kick his way into his life, the brief "enemies/haters to lovers" thing going on between them, the pining, the leap of faith, the doubts, them trying this new relationship to both of them (I have a headcanon that Kongpop is demissexual but that's not the point here), and how the support of their friends was really important.

And that's just SOTUS. The second season (one of the few early series that didn't have a cheating plot on the second season or a breakup in the penultimate episode of the first season) tackled the transition from the University life, a controlled environment, to the working world, where your life and what you do in it affect more than it is supposed to, how we need to constantly come out to other people, the development of their relationship, how being outed affects your life, your head, the way you react to the situation, how society becomes more judgemental the older you get, how they managed to overcome that; the side stories where one of my favorite things in SOTUS S, and gave us a more in-depth look into their private life, how they were managing that new stage in their lives, how their love continued to grow.

Don't get me started on their episode in Our Skyy, because I cried like a bitch when I watched the first time (without subtitles, because it was a LINE TV production, that primarily only distributed that in Thailand), and then with subtitles because it was so good. Being a couple that has to maintain their relationship at distance is not something I would like to see anyone go through (been there, done that) and when Arthit cried while talking with Kongpop about it...it broke my heart. Fortunately, everything got ok in the end, and my heart was healed.

Well, there you have it. It was really difficult to get to this definitive top 5, when I could rant about so many series, but these are the ones that really managed to grab my heart, tie it into a chair and don't let go. It got longer than I intended but what to expect from someone who got known here by making analysis and theories posts, right?

Ask my top 5 anything

[chocolatecakeandbl]

AO3 Stats Year Review 2022

I got subtly tagged by @nooowestayandgetcaught THANK YOU BABE! <3333

(How to find your stats: go to your Dashboard, click on “Statistics,” then click on the year you’re answering for!)

Funny lil' thing? I started this specific AO3 Acc only at Feb 9th, 2022. So, not even a full year. Even funnier thing? The first fic I posted on this Acc (instead of the Acc I was using before) went through the roof. I've been like "nah, I not gonna write NSFW, what will my Soulmate think? Bc yes, I am weird like that. So I posted it on another Acc I meant to keep secret, bc no one's gonna read it anyway, right? The contrary happened. I suddenly got many hits and many kudos, and many comments and... long story short: I kept on writing NSFW :3

User Subscriptions: 221 Kudos: 16,269 Comment Threads: 1,095 Bookmarks: 4,339 Subscriptions: 3,510 Word Count: 269,921 Hits: 208,373

Links and Titles to 2020 Works: Instead of linking every single thing, HERE is the Acc in question. It WAS MDZS/CQL only, until LITA ran me over. If you only wanna see CQL Fics, then it's "Lanwangjisnights", if you only wanna see LITA Fics, it's "LoveAndAir"

I gonna tag @ibovaryyou @moonchildridden @bird-inacage @akitbeast @heerotheshiro @butterwaterjin @wedielike @halliescomut (and all others Tumblr won't lemme tag *kicks it*)

[moonchildridden]

5 things you want to do but never got a chance to do so. Love you 😘🫰

You really got me here, holy shit 😂😅. I was here thinking about what the hell would I want to do but never got a chance and my brain got a 404 error. But after thinking a bit, I think I found, at least, 5 things:

1. Sing in front of a good number of people: the first and last time I did that was in a school event when I was in 7th grade, but it was for a very small number of people and 99% of those people were people I knew. What I would like to do is sing for strangers, a good number of strangers, and get an honest opinion about my singing. A bar would be a good start, at least for me.

2. Travel: I may have fears of heights and be traumatized by the Final Destination franchise to the point of imagining the most absurd accidents involving me and any mean of transportation, but there are a few places I would like to go and visit before I died. Like the Big Ben in England, Siam Square in Thailand, Tokyo Tower in Japan and Han River in South Korea. It doesn't mean to be all of those places but if I could go to one of them, I would be really happy.

3. Publish an original story: my journey as a writer started almost 12 years ago and before I ventured myself in the realm of fanfiction, I wrote a fair share of OG stories, as a way of seeing if I really liked writing or was just curious to see how it was. I almost had a chance to publish the first story I wrote but that never went forward (thank God, the story was trash and totally plagiarized from another story I've read. I started my career by plagiarizing another author. I'm a failure in society lol), and I've resorted myself in writing and posting in online platforms. However, those stories I wrote (except the first one) I have plans to rewrite them and, if I have the chance, publish them.

4. Adopt a pet: I love animals and, because of that, I always wanted to have a pet but my mom was allergic to animal fur and I don't have my own house or a stable source of income to actually take care of a pet. But if I could have the chance to have one, I would adopt a cat, they are my favorite animal; however, I could be convinced to adopt a dog also.

5. Have a plantation of sunflowers: I know this may sound weird but sunflowers are my favorite flowers and I would really love to be surrounded by them in a daily basis, because they make me happy and happiness is one thing that I really need but don't quite have.

I love how you put "love you" at the end of the ask and made me work my brain out trying to find an answer 😂. Love you too ❤️

Ask me 5 anything

[moonchildridden]

Re: PrapaiSky prompt

I’ve been dying to read more fics about Sky meeting Pai’s family. Did he meet them on the morning during breakfast while everyone acted as if he has always been a part of the family and not someone who randomly appeared at their house one night? Or did Sky try to sneak out because he was worried he would leave a bad impression on Pai’s family if he met them now and worked himself into a panic? What else was going on at the Pai household around the time of the end credit scene where Sky sees the family portrait and recognizes the uncle? How did his day to day look like once he moved in with Pai’s family and had to adjust to being pampered 24/7? Did Pai go to meet Sky’s dad at some point after the last episode to ask if Sky could stay with his family and to essentially introduce himself as his future son in law?

I need to domestic PrapaiSky like I need air 😭

PROMPT ALERT!!!

We all want and need a domestic! PrapaiSky in our lives because we barely had any and it is not fair. People, please, help this poor soul and take them out of their misery.

[moonchildridden]

Thanks for sharing that context on the difference between book GramBlack and show GramBlack. I'm going to take that as an excuse to ply you with more questions. 😁

Are there any other major or interesting changes that you recall? And would you say that the book is more or less political or anti-authoritarian than the show? Or about the same level, or differ in another way? Thank you!

No problem, this is why we are all here, to share knowledge, so you can ask away and if I can answer, I will :)

Ok, changes are too many so I will display them through "novel - series" explanation:

1 - Both in the novel and the series, Black and White were separated after their parents divorced and each stayed with one parent, Black with their mom and White with their dad. However, the reason why Black and their mom do not get along is not because of different political views or anything but (if I recall correctly) because his mom used to make debts with other people and Black was the one responsible to pay them back.

2 - In the series, Black gets into a coma after being beat up and only wakes up weeks later. In the novel, Black is fairly fine, fine enough to flirt with the nurses taking care of him and even move around his hospital room. He was kept there for observation but his medical state was not as serious as it is in the series.

3 - The novel is your typical wattpad story, in terms of storytelling, character development, progression, transitions, stuff like that (I am a wattpad writer, but I'm using "typical wattpad story" here to talk about the type of stories that gave wattpad its infamous reputation) and even how it navigates certain subjects. There are a few non-con/dub-con" sex scenes in there and SeanWhite's first time happens while they are both drunk (or one of them is drunk, I don't remember very well), but in the end, your typical wattpad story.

4 - Tawi, the trama involving Sean's dad (which includes Dan), Dan himself and his relationship with Yok, Eugene, Nuch, Gumpa, the sour relationship between Black and Todd, basically everything political or authoritarian related are exclusive to the series. Anucha basically only took the name of the novel, the names of the characters, the central plot (that was White getting into the gang in place of Black) and created a whole different story with it.

5 - The story about GramBlack is a bit more complicated that them just being canon in the novel. Gram and Black met first before Black met the rest of the gang and even then Gram was in love with Black and Black had some “lingering” feelings for Gram but just decided to shrug it off. That’s actually one of the reasons both of them are the closest in the gang.

6 - In the novel Sean knew Black had a twin brother and they had already met before but White forgot about that because he was involved in a car accident and the trauma made him forget a few things related to the accident or something like that (the novel was a mess in terms of explanations). And that same accident is the main reason Black hates Sean (in the series, the hate is mutual but in the novel is one-sided).

7 - The reason Black hates Sean because of the accident is related to the fact that he is schizophrenic and when he saw the accident, he thought that Sean had pushed White to the road. The problem with this fact is that it was only revealed in the last chapter of the novel or something like that, and nothing during the novel made it seem like Black had a mental illness; it was just Black hates Sean -> Black hates Sean because he saw Sean push White to the road and that caused White to be involved in an accident -> Black hates Sean but he was wrong about Sean because it was in fact Gram that pushed White and Gram was joking with White -> Black has schizophrenia and that’s why he made up that confusion, and things ended up going like that.

Like I said, a mess.

8 - The reason Black got beat up was because of one of his mom’s debt, not because of Todd.

9 - This is just TMI but the author made SeanWhite have sex in Sean’s room, while GramBlack were having sex in the living room and then made Gram watch SeanWhite be lovey dovey and guess why “Black” was acting like nothing had happened between them and why was Sean was going around saying that he was the one that had sex with “Black”. Black basically went there, had sex with Gram and then dipped like the jerk he was.

10 - Sean knew all along that White was not Black and decided not to tell anyone about that, for whatever reason.

I think those are the major differences between the novel and the show and, having read the novel, I guarantee you that Anucha did a much better job with the plot and the potential the plot had than the novel author. Seriously, when I saw Not Me’s mock trailer, I got super excited with the story and went after the novel, just to be met with an almost sloppy story that could’ve been so much more than it was. Basically, the series is better than the novel.

I hope I managed to answer your question because I just got into a tangent in my brain remembering all these differences and my frustration with the waste of potential the novel presented me with and how Anucha managed to turn the novel into the masterpiece that it was the series, so sorry for the rambling lol

[moonchildridden]

Are we dreaming????. I MEAN THE WAY FORT IS LOOKING AT PEAT 😭😭😭🤌JUST KILL ME NOW 😭😭😭

Listen, listen, listen. Every picture that comes out of this event feels like a dream because witnessing FortPeat dealing with each other today was a test of resistance that I was NOT ready to have.

Now...THE FIRST PICTURE???? THAT INTENSE STARE??? IF HE LOOKED AT ME LIKE THAT I WOULD'VE FREEZE IN THE SPOT AND JUST FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM RIGHT THERE BECAUSE I HAVE NO CONTROL WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT, I JUST DON'T. AND TO WATCH FORT SMILE, WHILE STILL LOOKING AT PEAT, WHY DON'T THEY JUST TOSS ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD AND WATCH A CAR PASS OVER ME, INSTEAD OF HURTING ME LIKE THIS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I love them so much, for real

[moonchildridden]

sooooo about LITA .... preview for next episode looked nice, too nice and fluffy . Do you think this is deliberate, to 'surprise' people with the shit that clearly will come down eventually? I wonder if it will be in ext episode or the one after, which would be the last regular one... What are your thoughts on this?

Yeah...about that...it was definitely deliberate. I was expecting to see some mention of a slight drama, a scene view from a distant perspective, to show that things were about to go down and, instead, I got sweetness, fluffiness, cuteness and knowing the amount of emotional baggage we still need to go through, it makes me think that they are doing this just to lure us into a false sense of security.

I'm expecting the drama to start on episode 12 and being resolved in the first part of episode 13, because it would be a disservice to put everything in the last episode, specially considering how heavy Sky trauma is.

[moonchildridden]

Hello lovely friend, can you advise where to find lita special episode?

Hello lovely anon. The primary source would be on Vimeo (https://vimeo.com/ondemand/liaspecialep/729050451), where is available to buy. However, and you didn't hear this from me, probably the dramacool website or the kissasian website will upload it, I just don't know when.

[moonchildridden]

Hello! Where is the name of the song at the end of their love scene, please?

Hello! The song is called "Eight Candles" by Candelion

[moonchildridden]

How do you feel about the ending of NottPun's arc? In the end, it was the perfect ending. I didn't though it was possible, but it happened. I am glad that now Pun is happy. He deserves it. And he looked more relaxed. He started his journey of healing, good for him. Even though I like the ending, idk it feels a little anticlimactic for me. Something bugs and I can't point it out. I was ready for the a heart-wrenching ending and when it didn't happen, I felt empty but relieved. Which is more important.

Sidenote: Now I can hope for ToruFirst happy ending. And I get the feeling that all of the couples will have a happy ending. Which I don't mind. Show all the dirt of industry and let the characters have their happiness. We win because we learn what really is going behind the cameras and the characters win because they can smile at the end.

I just finished watching the episode and I'm full of adrenaline running through my body, so I think this answer will be a bit long ;)

Well, more than anything, I am happy that NottPun got their happy ending, because it was not what I was expecting, at least not in the way that it was presented to us. I was expecting, in the best chance possible, a hint that would indicate that they could end up together in the future, considering the NottFang stuff that happened, Nott still being signed to TTV, Pun needing to heal and stuff like that, and how everything that had happened almost drove Pun to the brink of ending his life.

Those feelings are not something that go away easily. I know that.

We can all agree that Pun, first and foremost, needs to give himself space to heal, to leave the mentality that he's not worthy of love, that he needs to be angry all the time and that he needs to keep his walls up until the day he dies. And the journey to healing takes time, it reopens wounds that we think we're already healed, makes us face our deepest fears and the worst thoughts our minds can create. And a SA survivor would have even more onto their plate to deal with, into starting to believe that whatever happened to them was not their fault and that they are not tainted, that they can be vulnerable again to someone they really care about and that our boundaries should always be respected.

And the finale gave him exactly that. Gave him space to face his demons, understand that he was abused by his former manager, that his trust was manipulated to other's personal gains and that he had the right to seek compensation (in this case, seeing the person, or one of the people, that put him through that, being exposed for their crimes, instead of continuing to do to others what was done to him) and could use his experience to avoid others of falling into the same rabbit hole, at the same time that he could put to rest a part of him that was screaming to be heard, to be free. It also gave him the power to decide how he was going to deal with the things that had happened to him, and the option to move on without being forced to be "the bigger person" and forgive his abusers; we can heal and at the same time not give our abusers a rest bed that a forgiveness would give them.

As long as we forgive ourselves, the rest is a matter of perspective. Pun got to that conclusion and that was the starting point of his healing journey, the one that was right for him.

I'm pretty sure the ending felt anticlimactic for mainly two reasons:

1. It was a bit rushed, because it tried to tie a lot of loose ends at the same time and made things look a bit cartoon-ish. We had like the revelation that Koon was going out of her way doing couch castings to literal teenagers in exchange for an opportunity to be put inside the industry, that Pharaoh was her little helper, that all the money Pun was supposed to have received from all the dinners he was forced to attend because Koon said it would be good to him stayed with Koon and Pun didn't even see a dime of it, that Song was not as innocent as he seemed to be, that Candy was seeking informations about NottPun to news outlet, and also that Tai helped Pun get the revenge he needed. It was a LOT of information being dumped at us in under 50 minutes and the way it was segmented made it seem rushed.

2. We did not see how NottPun fixed all the issues that aroused after their reunion in episode 4. How did Pun got past the fact that Nott slept with Fang, one time or not? After they finished filming Mafia Baby's s2, how was their relationship? Did they kept contact with one another? Was Nott keeping an eye on Pun from the distance? Was Pun keeping an eye on Nott from the distance? Did Nott told Pun what his manager had done? All we got was NottPun fighting in the beginning, the three month time skip, them not talking with each other, even if Nott was showed sending him messages, Pun acting again and then the news that NottPun were in fact together; a lot of information were lost between those moments and it makes the story, that had been neatly tight feel sloppy and lazily written.

It's like the screenwriting team did not had the time or inspiration to fill in between the gaps and just tossed that task to us, believing that we would be able to do it. Because, seriously, Pun kneed Nott in the dick after finding out that he had slept with Fang and you guys are not going to show us how they resolved that?!

Their story needed more gut-wrenched moments between NottPun, because they needed to purge everything that was bad between them, tear down the bridge that was connecting them and built another one in its place, a more solid one, and have a very painful but sincere conversation about everything that had happened and what was their plans moving forward. Maybe they used NueaToh's ending in Mafia Baby as a way of giving NottPun a sense of closing of a painful chapter and to lay the ground to a possible beginning of another one but that could've been more laid more obviously, instead of having to be inferred; I mean, when Toh said "why does it had to be you? Why do you have to be mean to me?" and Nuea simply said "I'm sorry", we could view that as a parallel to all the times Nott said that he would never be mean to Pun, something that he actually did, even if unintentionally, because there are things that Nott did that Pun could've interpreted as Nott being mean to him,betraying his trust and his love.

Maybe that's why they decided to give NueaToh a sad ending and NottPun a happy one, to show the contrast between them. Because, even if Nott did something mean to Pun, there was more space for Pun to see past that and see a future with Nott, something that could not be the case with NueaToh (this is me trying to see something in here, because without having an information about Mafia Baby's plot is very difficult to actually assert something about that series).

I also think that all the other couples will have a happy ending, although the plot of the series revolving around realistic and sometimes heavy themes. As a writer myself, it took me sometime to understand that being realistic is not automatically a closed door in the face of a happy ending, because we all know that we should take all the wins when we get them, no matter how small. Realistic endings can also be happy endings, provided well explained and justified, otherwise it will just look like the writer did not took the time to actually think the story through and slapped a happy ending just to make people satisfied.

That being said, even if I'm satisfied with NottPun's happy ending, a very deserved happy ending nonetheless, I wished the path to it had been more explored, so we could have accompanied that journey the same way we had been accompanying their journey into being lovers.

[moonchildridden]

Good morning @moonchildridden

It's 5:30 in the morning at the area I am from and instead of sleeping, I decided to send you an ask.

I just watched the latest WOY episode. I liked the episode, it was definitely better for me than the previous ones. I wasn't really surprised because I could kind of feel that Bew was planning something. His expressions at times show his guilt. I like this twist, because i like it when innocent characters take revenge on those who hurt them and they don't just forgive them and swipe everything under the rug like nothing ever happened. I hate it when characters do this.

So it's time to ask for predictions. How many chances do GusBew have of a happy ending?

Me, I am kind of conflicted. But mostly I am in favour to the happy side. Because if both Gus and Bew sit down and talk. (Unlike what happened to NottPun) And be completely transparent and say we both took advantage and hurt each. The start of the relationship was toxic but they have the potential for a happy relationship.

But also I would like it if ended sad. But it would be more like a punishment for the actions of the other, depending on who leaves. And I don't want them to be sad. Especially Bew. I don't want to see him being sad and published with a sad ending just because he decided to take revenge on the people who betrayed him. I want it to be a learning process for him. To judge his own actions and learn from them and do better and mature more.

To be honest, I am surprised that his revenge on Gus wasn't more hurtful. I was constantly anticipating the moment he abandons Gus and throws him under the bus. Also, I wonder was Bew who called the cops or was it an coincidence. Was Bew planning to do more but changed his mind. Is he just staying with Gus to be a ship because with a ship is the only way he can sell, per Toon's words. Can he tell that Gus loves him and has he forgiven him. I want to know which is the exact moment which made Bew forgive Gus, if he forgave him, and say I still want a relationship with this person and still believe in an us. Though I wonder if his revenge on Gus isn't other yet and he is planning something for the next episode. Maybe after getting the award his plan was/is to dump him with a phrase of "I don't need you anymore". This is what I would want to do in his place.

Even though, I am perplexed with a lot of things, I still want the happy ending.

PS. The managers got what they deserved. But I feel sorry and worry for Peak and Kla who are the next couple to air if I am correct.

PSS. Probably the reason we didn't see the internal turmoil of Bew regarding of the leaked sex video is because he was the one who leaked it himself. He prepared himself emotionally for what's to come and was busy caring out his rest of his plan.

Sorry, for the long long ask. I hope I make sense.✌️

Hello! To be honest, I was kinda waiting for you to ask me this and I don't know if I should feel flattered that you decided to do it instead of sleeping lol.

Anyways, episode 9. Not gonna lie, this episode, the whole episode, gave a weird vibe from beginning to finish and I started to have some suspicions that Bew was up for something since his "panic attack" (I put it air quotes because it felt very convenient for him to have one when he was being accused of being the one responsible for the leaked video and how forced it felt. I will expand on this on my analysis post so let me stop here before I go even further) and how he became so "wicked" so suddenly, to the point of being the one to suggest for him and Gus to leave the managers, for him to get the evidences that Toon was "responsible", for him to give Gus the idea of them pretending to be apart to increase expectations around them having a couple work, for him to be the one that apparently found them a new manager. But even if I was feeling something was weird, the revelation struck me like a brick in the middle of my face and it left me in a bad mood for hours.

However, because you are here for my predictions and not my feelings (I need to save some for my post), let's lay them out: being completely honest, like really really honest, I don't want them to be together. And this is not me giving you the same answer I gave when you asked about NottPun, that I don't want them to be together right now, this time I don't want them to be together, period. This can be my betrayed heart talking (yes, I felt that revelation as a betrayal to the support I gave Bew, don't ask me because I don't even understand myself) but they have a lot of things to work around (not as much as NottPun had, because we were dealing with a person with a very heavy trauma that needed to be worked with) and the amount of manipulation that surrounds them (Gus getting Bew drunk to have sex with him - something that I still need a reasoning because I refuse to believe that he only did that because Pla told him to - and Bew leaking the video, putting Gus in a situation where he would get in trouble by using someone that was supposed to be Gus' friend, using a fan to do the dirty work for him) kinda pushes aside any sort of good feelings that may exist between them; yes, I believe that GusBew love each other (even if it pains me to admit that) and yes, I believe that in other circumstances things could've been different without all the plans and lies and manipulations but those things happened and those things have weight in how their relationship can be in the future.

So, for me, I would give 35% of chances of them having a happy ending (knowing Cheewin and what he did with NottPun, I know that the possibilities of happiness are almost 100% and we may never get a proper conversation between them and the episode will just slap us in the face with the news that GusBew are still together or together again) and a 65% chance of an open ending. A very small part of me is still rooting for a happy ending, but for me to really accept it, Cheewin would have to give GusBew what he didn't give NottPun, an on-screen conversation and resolution, the ugliness of their actions being laid out in front of them, being discussed, being level up, being put aside or not, them making a decision and owning up for their decisions. I let it slide with NottPun because I really wanted them together and was more inclined in accepting that fate for them but with GusBew, a happy ending would left a sour taste in my mouth.

Kla and Peak having PlaToon as their managers was the biggest heartbreak thing I saw in this episode, because they definitely do not deserve to be put in the hands of people that view queerness as a tool for fame (because if both of them weren't being already shipped by other people, I guarantee you that none of them would even spare a glance in their direction and would let KlaPeak be) or being manipulated the same way GusBew were but, as that saying goes, old habits die hard. I just their arc (that is the next one and I'm super excited for it) does not have any problems related to PlaToon because I just cannot stand those two anymore. Seriously, I'm tired of them.

"PSS. Probably the reason we didn't see the internal turmoil of Bew regarding of the leaked sex video is because he was the one who leaked it himself. He prepared himself emotionally for what's to come and was busy caring out his rest of his plan." - this is one of the things that I really want to see in the last episode. The moment he decided on the plan, his mental preparation, how he managed to carry out the plan even having to expose something so intimate of himself and until where he was willing to take that plan forward. I really need to see the orchestration, is more than necessary.

Well, I don't know if my answer satisfied you or anything, or if I gave you an answer at all because this things tend to make me rant and I just lose track of what I am supposed to do but, at the end of the day, my feelings are all here. Just don't hold me accountable for the things I said here if you see me "celebrating" them having a happy ending because I may change my mind, depending on how Cheewin decides to end their story arc.

[moonchildridden]

In a few days, the last episode of Nottpan's story will air. Do you have any predictions? Will it be a happy or a sad ending? Even though how much happy or sad is ambiguous. I believe it will be a mix of both or completely sad. A true happy ending isn't on the table, for me. I can't imagine both of Nott and Pan or Pun continue be actors at tv channels, be in a relationship and keep it hidden. Someone is stalking them or Pan specifically, which I believe Atichon is involved in it. I am certain they have evidence of their relationship. For a happy ending, a sacrifice or at least a compromise has to be made. Most likely, one of the two has to give up their career. If it's Nott, I don't think he will have a problem. (But his manager is a variable. There is a lot of his story and background which we don't know. I hope in the next of episode we get to see more of Nott's world.) And if it's Pan, maybe he will be fine at first, or pretend to be fine, but at some point there will be tension in the relationship which I believe will lead to a break up down the road. Because although they both love each other, the way they see the world is different and what they need and want from it are vastly different.

Also, let's be honest, I need some of the couples to end sad in order to hope for torufirst (achimost I think are their names in the series) happy ending. The last story screams sad ending which I ignore on purpose. I would love for all of the couples to have the happy ending that they want, but sadly is unrealistic. Still, I would love to see them happy and smiling at the end, because they deserve it. Especially Pan. And I think what he needs is to disconnect from the world and spend some alone time, away from other people, other adults, and try to love himself.

I was going to talk about this in my post about episode 4 actually but let me talk about it here instead.

Well, considering everything that we've been given in this 4 episodes so far, I am leaning more towards an ambiguous ending. Mainly because, as you said, there isn't exactly space for a true happy ending, not with the amount of bullshit that has happened until now. Pun has a lot of trauma to process, a lot of learning and unlearning to do, and until he actually gives himself time to do that, he can't truly be happy. As a trauma holder myself, I know that trauma processing takes a lot of time to happen, it can literally take your whole life actually and we should try the healing path slowly but that healing path only works when you actually stay away from the things that hurt you in the first place and for Pun that would be the acting industry as a whole.

Pun knows that his acting career is finished or, at least, won't ever be the same as has been up to that point, because his image is being smeared left and right and, honestly, I doubt that he would want to go back to acting anyway (there is a possibility that he might but is kinda small). His relationship with Nott is very entangled with the acting industry and for them to truly have their happy ending, as you said, compromises need to be made. Nott is willing to give up on his contract with the TTV station, something that shows that he can also be willing to just stop being a actor (Pun said that Nott never wanted to be an actor, contrary to him, so the possibility of that happening is really high) if that means a chance to be with Pun (don't forget that he only signed the contract because he thought that the other actor was Pun). However, seeing someone throw away their chances in something that is your particular dream could potentially be the beginning of a bigger problem down the road.

(About Atichon being involved in what is happening to Pun, I bet that he really is and that Dew knows about it, just because of the way he reacted with the news. I've always thought of their dynamic in a way that Atichon is the one that actually puts himself at the front of things and Dew only steps in when necessary, preferring to just stay quiet and watch things happen in front of him).

Now, being completely honest, I don't think I want a happy ending for NottPun and by "happy ending" here I mean them together as a couple. There is a lot that they need to sort out to actually begin to think about being in a relationship, even with them having feeling for each other, the moment is just not right for something like that to happen and Pun can have Nott on his side but not as a lover, after all they are also friends and that can work for a while, at least until Pun feel like he can let go of the things that could get in the way of them being together and give Nott, and himself, a chance.

I think that a most realistic ending (and also a bit satisfying one) would be an ambiguous ending but hinting that there is a possibility that one day Nott and Pun can actually have a relationship as lovers and actually be happy like that. This is not me jinxing them, because I do want them to be together, but I cannot ignore that a relationship now would be a disaster to both of them.

A side note, about the AchiMost story arc, I'm torn because I also want them to be together but a part of me also wants for the three of them to end up together, so I just pretend that "Wife" does not exist and will continue to do so until I'm forced to deal with them.

[moonchildridden]

Hii just found your blog and I'm loving it! Where did you read the novel from love in the air!?

Hello anon!

I never really thought my rambling self would be attractive enough to make people like my blog but I'm happy to know that there are people who do, like you. Thanks for that :)

So, I read the Love Sky novel on wattpad, while it was being translated but the translation was taken down and I don't know if the person responsible for it will put it back up. If you have twitter, try ask around for another translations (be specific of the language you wanna read, because I was reading the portuguese translation) and I'm sure you'll find someone kind enough to send you a link.

[moonchildridden]

I live in my own wee world, so I didn't know there was drama happening with Only Friends; were 'fans' being dicks? Because I though the trailer looked amazing!

Basically, P'Jo quoted a tweet that said that BLs these days were more worried about selling sex than a story, and that tweet was quoting another tweet that was showing a few seconds of the trailer.

While I agree that there are some series that are really more concerned with selling sex than a proper plot, is was the fact that the person judged the story based on the few "sex scenes" showed on screen to put OF in the same category, specially considered the fact that P'Jo is well known for writing more mature plots (FriendZone and 3 Will Be Free are primer examples of that) and put real gay/queer experiences in them.

To make matters worse, some people are insinuating that OF could "give the gays a bad image" and that situations like that would make difficult for the Thai parliament to pass the marriage equality law there.

So, yeah, some 'fans' are being major dicks about that.

[moonchildridden]

Do you watch Love in the air? Mame's new work. I think it's more in the bdsm side, than I thought at first. I would love to hear your opinion on it. If you don't watch it, no problem.

Also, I really love 180 Degree Longitude Passes Through Us. The first 2 episodes have really interesting dynamics between the characters. If you have time, check it out.

About Love In The Air, at first I didn't wanted to watch because it's MAME's work and the woman has a history of being problematic, and also because I head that the novel had a lot of non-con stuff so I was ready to pass it but then I remembered that I gave TharnType a try, so why not this one?

But I decided to watch and I see why you think that the series lean in a more bdsm way, specially because of the way Payu's character is portrayed, how Rain just has that vibe of a stereotypical "sub bratty behavior" (and also because of the spanking. Holy shit, that spanking scene took me off guard in a way that felt kinda misplaced (?) but I digress) and the stereotypical dominance actions Payu has on Rain. It is very possible that both have those characteristics but don't partake in the bdsm life style (Payu seems to just be dominant and reliable, to the point that everyone clearly idolizes him and have heart eyes just by thinking of him) and also do thinks that people in the lifestyle would do but not because they view those actions as such but just because it feels right to them.

It feels kinda "dangerous" to pinpoint them into those roles because if we look at Payu as the dominant one in the relationship (and I'm not exactly talking sexual roles here) because his non-con behaviour would be a huge red flag in relation to Rain, considering that he clearly didn't step back when Rain told him to ("stop playing hard to get") and he can be kinda bad in reading bodily clues when needed. And with a behaviour like that, linked with a person like Rain could, in the worst case scenario, end up really bad. But you can be dominant without being part of the bdsm community, so I prefer to think that Payu just have a dominant personality and Rain has a fairly submissive personality without thinking in those aspects.

About 180 Degree, I've seen people talk about it and it sparked my interest, so I'm thinking about watching it. Thanks for the recommendation.

[moonchildridden]

Hey Luna here, thank you for the reply. And tbh it's that level of crazy I absolutely love 🤭😂 coz I feel I am the same. I haven't been able to see the episode coz it's hasn't been released in my country yet so I am just vicariously living through your reactions and fandom gifs until it's out and I can watch it and I know in my heart that I WILL BE COMPLETELY UNHINGED MORE THAN EVER AFTER THAT. As just looking at the gifs itself I have been SCREAMING and SHAKING and CRYING ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥.

Glad to know that my reactions are helping you on your waiting journey. And prepare yourself because the gifs and reactions don't make justice to the unhingedness that this episode was.