#mithrun you are ASS at comfortigg people. holy fucking shit.

[ask-mithrun]

Tch—!! You're wasting your time by asking those stupid questions to yourself.

There is no point in finding the logic in something that is completely irrational.

By thinking about it, you are giving it exactly what it wants... after all—

Your existence alone is what feeds it.

*He faces kabru, dead in the eyes*

Quit your bullshit, Kabru. You know the answer— unless you rather find solace in unmasking abstraction than to address the truth. How badly do you want to fluster me..?

Ka...bru....

Your—journey to control the unknown is what enslaves you in its grasp... you have to let go to be free before—

Before...—

—Before its too late....

Th— the… the goat. The goat… talked to you?..!

Kabru—what did it do…? What it tempt you with? What… what is your desire…?

Did you—no..no you… can’t .. but—

- @ask-mithrun

Mithrun — Mithrun, breathe. It's okay. You know me, I'm okay. Remember, you said it yourself; there's nothing to worry about. It's said maybe two things to me maximum, I didn't and I wouldn't. You know that.

Kabru takes a breath himself.

I — okay. Well.

I'm not going to keep this from you, you at the least deserve to know - It's .... trying to tempt me with my birth mother, with speaking to her again. I know any version of her that it likely presents me with isn't ... her ... I can't — I can't figure out a logical way that it would ... work like that. At - at all. And - and I do want to speak to her. I knew I did, but it's an impossible thing so I hadn't really thought about it much.

[ask-utayaboy]

He pauses — like he's taking in the words, staring straight back at Mithrun, putting most if not all his focus on the other man as though the world may disappear otherwise. It feels that way too, a little. Breathing is difficult, processing anything at all is even more so.

Kabru pulls his attention and gaze away when he begins speaking again;

I have ... I have no idea how to do any of that — hah haha- I don't —know. I thought I had this under control. I thought I had it. And I — I did — I think. But it brought my mother's death up and I've — I can't think of anything else and —

I know I don't want anything from it. I know that much. I don't. I know what that leads to. All my life has been spent trying to — to avoid that. Ever happening again. But there's so many thoughts in my head I don't know what to do with them — If I'm not — I'm not to think about it then .. then where does it go???

In his panic, Kabru continues to ramble— mostly nonsense past this point.

Th— the… the goat. The goat… talked to you?..!

Kabru—what did it do…? What it tempt you with? What… what is your desire…?

Did you—no..no you… can’t .. but—

- @ask-mithrun

Mithrun — Mithrun, breathe. It's okay. You know me, I'm okay. Remember, you said it yourself; there's nothing to worry about. It's said maybe two things to me maximum, I didn't and I wouldn't. You know that.

Kabru takes a breath himself.

I — okay. Well.

I'm not going to keep this from you, you at the least deserve to know - It's .... trying to tempt me with my birth mother, with speaking to her again. I know any version of her that it likely presents me with isn't ... her ... I can't — I can't figure out a logical way that it would ... work like that. At - at all. And - and I do want to speak to her. I knew I did, but it's an impossible thing so I hadn't really thought about it much.