#miss my friends and i miss being able to look at Hyperfixation Content whenever i wanted

[mwagneto]

only like 24 hours and then im out of here. i am so fawking ready to sleep for 1000000 hours you guys have no idea

[purplekoop]

I think because of the specific ways I had internet access growing up and what I was dealing with during "traditional fandom baby time", I've felt kind of distant from the standard fandom experience, even for fandoms that I've followed the main official content for while it was ongoing. At most it was a one-way thing, where I could look into the fandom but not really be an active contributor.

I saw 2012 TMNT on the night of the premier and did my best to watch any episodes I could for a good few years after that, but looking up fanart at 2 AM on my phone when my parents couldn't see was the most I really saw people interacting with it further. I saw a Raph x Mona fankid and it blew my mind for... some reason. Look maybe just the image and notion of the tall space lizard lady being affectionate just did something to a young me. I'm not even sure I saw her debut episode before seeing the art so that was. Probably confusing.

There was also Gravity Falls, a show that I was really only able to follow thanks to wiki articles youtubers piecing together the clues that I didn't have the brainpower or ability to pause episodes to figure out myself. Shoot, shoutouts to Valiskibum, a channel I haven't checked on in years but is still a legend for posting about the theory that predicted *Ford.* I don't know if they came up with the theory on their own or if they just made a video sharing it to a wider platform, but in either case they get appreciation from me for making my dumb kid brain aware of it. And even other than that, I watched ANY news about the show LIKE A HAWK while it was still airing. I tried to follow the Cipher hunt but at that point I lost track, and any side media like books and comics that were released after that is news to me whenever it gets brought up now.

But like. Even *then* it feels like there was so much I missed. I've been following Hana Hyperfixates on YouTube lately (their tumblr url is escaping me), and it boggles me that even for a show I stayed caught up with constantly throughout its entire run, fully aware of its deeper mysteries, it still feels like I missed so much of the experience of being a fan of the show because I just. Wasn't in the fandom loop.

And those are just the shows I *did* follow as they were airing, that doesn't even scratch the stuff I wasn't into as it was happening.

I didn't see a full playthrough of *Undertale* until November of *2021* where I played it alongside my partner during thanksgiving break that year. And not making the same mistake twice, I had followed Deltarune soon after its spontaneous reveal, because I didn't have much better to do with my increased internet access. I played Chapter 2 as soon as it came out, so I was lost on everything from the lion waitress to "what's a NEO" until after the fact. Look, I just thought an Undertale was an annoying popular thing my friends with bad taste were into back in middle school. Now here I am, quantum egg on my face, panicking over the fact Papyrus has touched grass.

All this to say that now finally having this here tumblr starting at "only" the age of 20 (which, in the grand scheme of things, isn't as far off from 14 or 16 as people make it out to be, I'm basically just a teenager with more self awareness) is... interesting. In a nice way, I think.

It's this silly little fandom stuff like fics and OCs and RP and AUs that always felt so distant to me, but was basically the later childhood of my partner and many of my current friends. Stuff that they treat so naturally because they basically grew up on it, while I'm basically just now really getting a grasp on it myself.

It's stuff that I'm just now getting the platform for and familiarity with to really let myself indulge in. It's why I'm so happy with the Splatoon OCs, it's me finally getting to have that silly fun with this kind of stuff that it feels like I've been missing out on for a while.

I've had fan OCs before, all the way back in middle school, to the extent they made a full expansive crossover universe combining every series in Smash Bros into a unified cohesive canon (that's where my username comes from in fact, my sona for years was literally just a unique purple-shelled koopa). My friends were in on it and everything. But then after hitting high school, I eventually abandoned that universe, despite the expansive story I made with it. Partly because I felt like it was too convoluted with too many characters at that point, but also because I'd convinced myself it would be stupid to commit to a creative project that I can't make a profit out of. Essentially, I thought it was dumb to put so much energy into something if it wasn't "productive." This was a sentiment it took me way too long to shake.

So! Yeah! This is officially the "living my cringe" era! I'm going to make Splatoon characters with very canon-inaccurate proportions hold hands and give each other a kiss on the cheek! I'm gonna make a Deltarune AU that I know is probably gonna age like milk because the actual story isn't finished yet! I'm going to post my ideas for how I'd turn the TF2 mercs into Overwatch heroes! And NOBODY's gonna stop me!

...

Hey when did 5 AM get here.

[solarsleepless]

i love your puffychu content!! they're so overlooked even though they have so much potential! that's why you're my favorite fanfic writer! anyway, do you have any c!puffy headcannons?

Woah! Tis a high honour...

Well, I hyperfixated on Niki and not Puffy, but I can do my best!

c!Puffy Headcanons:

she's adhd because she has those vibes and because i say so

her captain's coat has a weird compass in the pocket that says Ö - Ä - Ü - Ï. she doesn't understand it

she has rings on her ears and fiddles with it

she can eat grass, and also eats tin cans despite not being able to.

she can vibe to just about any song

has a flower behind her ear. it's a pink carnation.

niki has a similar one behind her own

she's buff. fight me on this. buffy forever.

she helps tubbo and ranboo with moving stuff into their new mansion (she was totally not ogling (buff) niki who was also helping them)

she mainly uses a cutlass, also known as a pirate sword, as a weapon.

her eyes occasionally change from natural green to rainbow, but only for a split second. niki is the only one who has noticed this.

her pupils aren't normal pupils, but instead rectangular like sheep ones. the rest of her eyes are human.

before she came to the SMP, she was victim of speciesism (basically fantasy racism imo) and was once locked in a cage with a bunch of sheep to "Be with her own kind" and almost had a breakdown

which is why she panicked so much when she fell into the sheep pen in the smp

she HATES the idea of sheep domestication, but allows a few exceptions (Friend, jeb_, etc)

someone on the smp once said, jokingly, that along with the pirate rings, she should have a sheep tag on her ear, and she immediately drew her sword at the nearest person. later on, she had a breakdown

she has a necklace from niki which is string with iron emblazened with two roses. she looks at it whenever she misses niki. she looks at it a lot.

that's all i've got, i hope i haven't disappointed you!

[nohysterlcs]

responses to nice shit my friends said mwah love u

@orangedvan​ said: jeff is baby n i love u both

ok you know what straight to the point i love this thank u. i love miss kitt and all you have put into developing her <3

@damsael​ said: hey hi? jeff was my favorite character for the longest time, and i never really pictured anyone being able to do him justice, but what the fuck, kels, you write him so beautifully that it’s hard to not hear his voice in your replies. everything you write feels extremely in character and extremely true to his core. i don’t trust anyone else to write him, you fucking nailed it with this one

ok this compliment did kill me in one shot that means so much!! not catching his voice scared me a bunch and also how badly did i want to impress u? very. just kind of sliding into this v small rpc was a bit intimidating but it’s super comfy now and i just. appreciate u ;__; that’s a kind testimony coming from u and ur powerhouse portrayal of steph and i am still dying i,,, 

@orhabit​ said: so it's absolutely obvious that you've gotten his voice/mannerisms/motivations down exactly on the mark. everything you've written for him in every context feels exactly like something out of a deleted scene or something; from how you're breaking down how particular moments have changed and shaped him, to how he's taken on this role in the cv. it all feels like you've peeked into the lore bible and come out clutching the sheets that say "JEFF CORE CHARACTERISTICS, TOP SECRET" and i also love uuu

BRO! bro....stop this also murdered me point blank i. like i already said it to you in the dms but it means so much to me that you think so bc i big admire you all the time and this would have been a lot scarier if u hadn’t just been super nice about letting (dragging) me into this fandom SGFDGFD but i just. i simply cry this is so kind. just trying to be like even a bit of as godlike are u are with handling characterization.

@historake​ said: Bro... your mind is SO POWERFUL !! I don't know how you do it but you keep dishing out all this quality content, from the writing to the HC's, edits, art... ur really amazing at everything ! Not to mention how much you love Jeff.. just... it's so obvious && amazing to actually feel how much you love the tall baby whenever I read anything you write !!!

NO BRO YOU’RE POWERFUL!!!! this is so nice... i love u...... thank u sm. i know i’m a mess of stanning a character but thank u... i stan ... u.. i stan jessie, but we been knew about that. 

@victoriasterling​ said: i still know next to nothing about jeff but your portrayal convinced me that i would die for him so we are loving your work

this is still just incredibly sexy and legendary of you and i-- bro ilysm

@invokeair​ said: i'm late but! i will follow you on any blog always! i don't know about this fandom bUT you make me want to & i will look into it okay! you're just so talented & all your muses are iconic & so distinct & beautiful! i'm such a big fan pls love you

EDIE this is very sweet i adore u... i’m trying to warn u and protect u against  args while also being hyperfixated so i don’t even know what to tell you but-- ANYWAY this means a lot as always from you a legend a star