#misadvertence

[goodmorninginspectorlyf]

More Mechs mythology references that might not be totally obvious:

The Dolorous Guard was a castle that Lancelot captured (and un-cursed it, I believe?) made his home, renaming it the Joyous Guard (as it is referenced in 'The Lovers').

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"And as the weary hound, once more at its master’s feet after so long, lays down with the sunlight warning its fur, breathing its last – even so did the eyes of Ulysses close forever." = Argos the hound in Book 17 of the Odyssey, dying once he sees his master returned safely.

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Galahad's "siege seat" = the Siege Perilous

In the background of 'The Hierophant' and Hellfire, TS's mad whisper chanting is (much more audible in the debut live recording than the album) a stanza from Alfred Lord Tennyson's "Idylls of the King":

'Then came a year of miracle: O brother,

In our great hall there stood a vacant chair,

Fashioned by Merlin ere he past away,

And carven with strange figures; and in and out

The figures, like a serpent, ran a scroll

Of letters in a tongue no man could read.

And Merlin called it "The Siege perilous,"

Perilous for good and ill; "for there," he said,

"No man could sit but he should lose himself:"

And once by misadvertence Merlin sat

In his own chair, and so was lost; but he,

Galahad, when he heard of Merlin's doom,

Cried, "If I lose myself, I save myself!"

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Inspector 2nd class Lyfrassir Edda takes their last name from the Prose Edda and the Poetic Edda, the two collections from which we get a lot of modern Norse mythology. First name? No idea, someone let me know if you know.

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Capt Joseph Robert Mathea > Joseph R Mathea > Joseph of Arimathea, who in medieval Arthurian legend originally brought the holy grail to Britain.

[wellconstructedsentences]

Then came a year of miracle: O brother,

In our great hall there stood a vacant chair,

Fashioned by Merlin ere he past away,

And carven with strange figures; and in and out

The figures, like a serpent, ran a scroll

Of letters in a tongue no man could read.

And Merlin called it ‘The Siege perilous,’

Perilous for good and ill; ‘for there’" he said,

‘No man could sit but he should lose himself:’

And once by misadvertence Merlin sat

In his own chair, and so was lost; but he,

Galahad, when he heard of Merlin's doom,

Cried, ‘If I lose myself, I save myself!’

The Holy Grail by Alfred Tennyson

[granulesofsand]

We feel a bit of a draw to RAMCOA topics for unknown reasons, but as far as we know, there's been absolutely no RAMCOA in our past. Is it disrespectful for us to learn about RAMCOA topics anyway? Should we be careful?

Outside Looking In

Learning is not disrespectful in itself, but you& do have to mind the gap of learned vs lived experience. I’ll talk more about making your learning safe for yourself and others.

Your& Safety

Reading about RAMCOA is hard. You are required to practice cognitive empathy as you go, regardless of whether this comes easily to you. Starting out floods you with new information, some of which will contradict preexisting worldviews. There will be triggers, confusion, and exhaustion.

Some resources are inclusive towards onlookers, others are intended for survivors or their supports. Oftentimes, both extreme* and regular** abuse will be mentioned. Not every graphic description will be marked, and this can be more pronounced in cases of household abuse. Substance use and violence come up frequently.

(*extreme: Big Bads that are commonly acknowledged as horrific, sometimes even too bad to believe— think trafficking, torture, community involvement)

(**regular: traumas that may or may not be acknowledged, often shoved away as without evidence or as a cultural norm— SA, hitting, religious but not ritual abuse)

Books aimed towards survivors may boost up RAMCOA as so much worse than other abuse. This is usually because RAMCOA is known to be creative, cruel, calculated. Not every RAMCOA survivor has it worse than other survivors, but the assumption is that they do.

Others’ Safety

Resources are often created by either support teams or survivors, and there is a difference in tone and intensity. While professionals are often cold or disbelieving, survivors may not have processed everything before writing. (There are non-book resources, but they’re not as common outside of peer support groups.)

It’s important not to make judgments about survivor stories, even with strange themes. This is because our community is frequently shunned, and calling attention to us will only bring harm. It’s akin to calling the police for psychosis; they don’t know how to help, they don’t want to know, and they will assume the worst of us.

That said, you should be exercising critical thought when you engage with any media. Survivor accounts may feature worldwide cults and conspiracies, among others. Some rumors are spread by high control groups, others by survivors who are brought into other high control groups under the guise of healing.

Common problems with these rumors include racism, ableism, and colonization. Some have seeds of truth, others are wildly far fetched, and it’s not typically clear which is which. A good frame of reference is to remember that healing is different for everyone, and that causing harm is not acceptable without careful consideration.

Sometimes this looks like world domination plots with truth in group organization and control methods. It may be a claim that RA can only be stopped by turning to God, or by causing a genocide to eliminate an “offending” group (socioeconomic or racial/ethnic minority).

If you run into something you disbelieve, try talking to a support friend, a therapist, a survivor you feel comfortable with. Not all resources are safe, and going over it with someone who won’t assume one way or another can be helpful.

Lastly, don’t assume you know more than a survivor. Some folks really have no background besides childhood memories, but others have put in exorbitant amounts of research and effort. Both still have lived experience, and no one besides their chosen professional should be interpreting their own story.

Last Thoughts

It is okay to step away, including forever, if it becomes too much. Survivors here and on other platforms have accumulated information to share if you know where to look. You can have a place with the community so long as you don’t misadvertize. I hope I answered your question, please come back with anything else.

[grimsagegrimmoire]

the ads this site uses is actually a sign of why it's shuttering imo

a) its cheap ads for misadvertized mobile games

b) whenever one shows up it nearly crashes the app lol

[rosykims]

i just had the stupidest most aggravating dream of my life are u kidding.. i dreamt i went to go see the new smile movie bc it looked goofy and scary right. and when i finally sat down in theatres to watch it i discovered that it was actually just the very poorly marketed filmè conclusion of succession ?????? like it wasnt even a horror movie starring caitlin stasey it was just worst timeline succession where kendall ends up having a mental breakdown and logan convinces the rest of the kids hes dead weight and has him institutionalized??????? and the rest of the movie was from kendalls pov in a hospital Forever so u never actually find out what happens bc ig his family members just moved on???????? and then i left the theatre and checked tumblr and quite literally all of u bitches were making mental illness webweaves and girlboss slayqueen gifsets abt it bc u all loved it w zero criticisms and it was super well recieved and and i was the ONLY person who hated the movie and when i ranted abt it my post got 0 notes. then i logged off. and woke up. morning.

[carrion-art]

text under the cut lol

The hierophant:

Then came a year of miracle: O brother, In our great hall there stood a vacant chair, Fashioned by Merlin ere he past away, And carven with strange figures; and in and out The figures, like a serpent, ran a scroll Of letters in a tongue no man could read. And Merlin called it "The Siege perilous," Perilous for good and ill; "for there," he said,

Hellfire: "No man could sit but he should lose himself:" And once by misadvertence Merlin sat In his own chair, and so was lost; but he, Galahad, when he heard of Merlin's doom, Cried, "If I lose myself, I save myself!

[goose-books]

so what’s the deal with valentine van velt?

great question. their parents and teachers ask this also. anyway this post is to explain why i have a project that i never made a fancy intro post for. also to make you look at my art

what is it?

it’s a book! well, a book in progress. by yours truly max gooseboy.

there’s a little blurb over here, but in short: it’s about four days in the life of a very annoying, very unhappy teenager named valentine. (that’s the little bastard you see above.) the story’s told in a mixture of first and second person - it’s narrated by a self-admittedly unreliable patient in an OCD program, talking to a “you” that is valentine themself.

...i will admit in my head i’ve taken to calling it “holden caulfield goes to exposure therapy”

why are you so vague about it all the time?

primarily because the target audience is, and always has been, me.

my other projects are much easier to talk about, because they have fun taglines and they are fundamentally what they claim to be on the tin. plus i do genuinely think other people will like them! i am excited to share them with the world! so VVVID is my weird baby in that it’s rather unorthodox and written for an ideal audience of Me.

i hate to call it slice-of-life, because that term tends to have a peaceful fluffy connotation and this is… definitely not that. but it is a winding and strange little story. the unreliability of the narrator is a plot point. i have held off on making some kind of Flashy Cool Please-Reblog-This Intro Post™ for this project because i don’t want to promise something i am not going to deliver on! i don’t want people thinking i’m going to offer a stunning murder mystery (did valentine even get murdered? god knows) or a tearjerking found family story when what am i really offering is… a twisty little thing about mental health, mostly.

plus there are substantial bits that are… very overtly based off of my experiences with mental health. and i do not want people seeing a post about it and thinking that i have come to write Groundbreaking Ownvoices Fiction About Mental Illness when i am writing about me and my experience specifically, if that makes sense. and like... i dunno man i genuinely don’t know if other people on the planet will enjoy this thing! i don’t know if it is going to be objectively “good”! but i sure am going to create it anyway! it is a gift to myself!

but if you don’t want people to see it, why are you posting about it?

i don’t not want people to see it! i’m not saying, “too bad if you want to see it someday, you can’t, it is locked in a box at the bottom of a trench and only i have the key.” i just don’t want to misadvertize :> but i do like to talk about the things i am working on and i definitely want to be able to open the text post creator and complain about / dunk on valentine for being incredibly annoying and difficult to write. so. here we are

what is your plan for it, if not to lock it in a box and throw it down a trench?

this is a great question! i do not know! i’m in the home stretch here (if i actually sit down and Do It i’ll have it finished in a week, knock on wood) and after i finish the first draft i’m switching focus to nanowrimo prep lmao. and after that... perhaps i will write a second valentine draft. perhaps i will stick it back into the files to come back to in the distant future. perhaps i will polish it up and put it on the internet for the, like, two people who have expressed interest. who’s to say. who’s to say.

“max i would like to hear more about this”

my askbox is open!

“max i think literally all of your other projects sound more interesting never talk about this again”

my askbox is open for you to say this to me also!

“max i want that twink (valentine) obliterated”

[revving my car engine] don’t worry it’s happening