#milli's monologuing

[millimononym]

i understand WHY people dislike korekiyo shinguji of drv3 however he pretty much saved my appearance and saved me from ridicule for the rest of my teen years because he made me get rid of my dora the explorer bangs that I'd had up until that point. Nothing else could convince me they were horrible. Only wanting to look like korekiyo saved me. Therefore i am of the opinion he is one of the only good things about v3 and will defend him with my life

[millimononym]

I once made (pretty shitty unfortunately) fanart for a hinadam (Danganronpa) fanfic and saw it put on pinterest! I was actually pretty happy about it!! But i cant find it anymore for some reason lol

I HAVE. A QUERY. for artists who have been posting stuff online for several years now....

[millimononym]

Im ngl i understand why people gatekeep i love watching channels that i think most people haven't watched (by that i mean if i brought them up ppl wouldn't know who im talking about)

AthenaP - her content revolves around deepdives into childrens shows (but not the boring type of deepdives), very fun, 215k subs

Oli Ravioli - makes videos on obscure childhood games and horror, 4k subs (watched her kitten cat sim video, found it very good, subbed, watched the saori sato video and holy shit i was captivated.)

Weevildoing - makes vocaloid/utau music, theyre currently making a concept album called The Post Traumatic Manifesto, and i love it. The newest song in the album drops on the 25th. There's currently 7 songs out of 10 and theyre all very good. Each song deals with seperate concepts and traumas, each girl has her own design and each of them even has a profile on their carrd....less than 20k subs

SerumLake - makes videos about Batman The Animated Series ! I really like his character videos, less than 40k subs

Rattle - makes videos talking (or, criticizing) horse games. I find it fun to listen to, even if i dont really play horse games, less than 20k subs

Tamakid - makes videos about toy collecting, art, and vlogs! Love her . Less than 60k subs

WURLD - makes videos talking about random shit idk how she picks her video topics, 104k subs

OneShortEye - makes video essays about classic pc games, their history, and speedrunning them. I had no interest in this topic at all before seeing his videos and i find them really fun. Found him though the robin hood video. Around 60k subs

Melody Nosurname - also makes video essays on random shit. Found her through the 31 minutos video. Less than 90k subs

Baphometkun - makes weirdcore edits. 216 k subs

[evocatiio]

if chibnall was the one writing this season you lot would be talking VERY differently

[stillbreathing-aer]

"You brought him to life.

You brought him to life.

And he was alive because he met the one person

he'd been waiting for his whole life.

And I had to make it realistic, so...

I based it off of..

you.

The woman of his dreams...

she was the same as mine.

So she liked bubblegum ice cream

and swing sets...

And she had this very cute but oddly specific habit...

of always humming this classic Mariah Carey track..

Like, all the time, she would.. repeat."

[millimononym]

I think this opinion is wrong. Dubs aren't hated. ENGLISH dubs are hated. And the reason for that is because they're just bad. I'm sorry but most of them are just bad because they're bad. I think English people already have so much content served to them in their language they don't know how to translate others' in a way that keeps it good. If you grew up watching (GOOD) dubbed anime/cartoons in a language that isn't english, i think you'll get what i mean

[paladin-n-cleric]

sorry sorry can someone explain “i tried to be off book for the monologue” like what. i sure hope so?? 😭

[millimononym]

"I'd rather die standing than live kneeling" -Veggietales twitter

I feel like the only person not tempted to use ChatGPT like it doesn't even occur to me as an option

[dacuslucy]

its dangerous!!!!! my love for the hets!!! its dangerous!!!!!

[millimononym]

This image is mecore

[certifiablyinsanez]

Okay, I’m not coping well with the emotional whirlpool I’m experiencing after Mastermind. And this scene right here:

Is something that is haunting me. Because it’s not difficult to see what troubles lie ahead for them, what consequences await for the events of the trial. What do we already know about Blitz? That he has deeply hated himself for many years. Maybe he felt slightly better after Millie’s monologue in Ghostfuckers, but I think we all know that such a deep seated hatred of oneself doesn’t disappear in a single conversation. This much is clear by the pictures in Blitz’s apartment still being blacked out that we can see in the background in Mastermind. And any relief he may have felt from Millie’s sincere story is going to be completely shattered.

I have no doubt personally that Blitz has always thought he ruined Stolas’ life. He’s not a stupid man; he’s observant. He knows the struggles Stolas has gone through with the advent of their deal and relationship. He’s seen the wedge he put between him and his daughter. He knows the kind of hell the divorce has put him through. But now?

If there was any doubt he ruined his life before, it’s gone now. Because Stolas has now utterly, and completely, lost everything. His titles, his status, his wealth, his home, his power. All that’s gone. But worse? He’s entirely lost his daughter now. Blitz will probably never forgive himself for that. I mean shit, he literally said this:

Stolas is a much more powerful being than Blitz. But Blitz believes he deserves to die rather than put Stolas in harms way. Blitz will probably be wishing that he died rather than live with the fact that he’s brought Stolas low. Stolas’ punishment is far longer than Blitz’s life span. The consequences of saving his life will outlive him. There no chance Blitz will accept this as Stolas’ choice. Not only will he have to deal with the trauma of the trial before Stolas arrived, but also the result of what it’s done to the man he loves more than life itself.

But Stolas? Stolas would do it again. The way he says it, “Always”, is just so raw and softly powerful. Because he’s just had his powers ripped from his body. He’s lost it all, he’s lost his child. But he would do it again. There was no other choice to be made. There was no alternative. He said it himself:

Stolas is a suicidal figure. He prepped his daughter for the day he wouldn’t be around. He doesn’t value himself or his life at all. He’s suffered tremendously. He probably already believes he’s lost his daughter. His daughter has made it clear that she hates him. Outside of Blitz, who is his light in the darkness, his soulmate and true love, what does he have to live for? To Stolas this was a no brainer. He went to that block with dignity. He was so willing to die for his love.

So when Blitz thanks him for saving his life, Stolas, breathless and weak, says “Always”, because he will always love him, need him, cherish him. He will always put him above himself, which is something Blitz wouldn’t understand but is second nature to a gentle spirit like Stolas. Stolas who escaped the torments of his life in his books, who is humble and sweet with a lowly imp because his body and soul needs Blitz like he needs air. A true romantic, a soft demon who gave it all up for love and would do it again.

Always, he says, and means with every syllable.

[millimononym]

Unrelated but The only real person i think I've ever met in a dream was Andrew Hussie. I'm not even kidding. If you count his Homestuck avatar as himself.

i was at a beach in the water diving for gold coins which there were a ton of for some reason, went outside the water onto the sand and BOOM andrew hussie jumpscare. He's sitting in a chair looking smug (you can tell because his avatar has a mouth in the dream for some reason). He slowly looks over at me and without a word, takes all of my gold coins from me while i stand there flabbergasted that Hussie is in my middle of nowhere town, seemingly the only person on the beach aside from me. I'm too shocked to move or speak. Somehow I can feel that he's about to say something important to me. He opens his mouth.

AND THE FUCKING ALARM RINGS FOR ME TO WAKE UP. I have never stopped being upset by this. I know it was just a dream but it felt like a fucking omen of some sort. My dreams are usually boring and the 1 time i see andrew fucking hussie about to give me what felt like was going to be the secrets of the universe itself i get woken up. Absolutely horrible. I hate school for making me miss out on hearing my brains' very important reasoning for jumpscaring me with what felt like an eldritch andrew hussie

had a dream i was telling andrew hussie how much homestuck meant to me and he just went “you disgust me” and broke a glass bottle over my head

[bylertruth3r]

"Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship, and as it goes on you kinda realize that Will does have.. am i allowed to say this?" we already know that Will is in love with Mike, why couldn't he say it? Why is it a spoiler? Because Mike loves him back and he confirmed that Will is still in love with Mike and he's not moving on, reminder that Noah has read the script of the last episode and he knows all the endgames (including Byler)

Mike's monologue made El angry and she knows he was lying to her, does she also know that Mike is gay? She knows Mike doesn't love her in a romantic way even if he tried to in s4

well now that we know that Will is still in love with Mike and that he's not moving on from him.. this leaker basically confirmed that Mike is gonna be Will's boyfriend (they made Will spell "lover" in the words game in the s5 bts pic)

in s5 Mike is gonna go on a journey of self-discovery (accepting that he's gay and in love with Will),and he's not gonna try to be normal anymore Finn said that Mike was trying to be normal in s3 and s4 (he was trying to be straight), "he might be into some new things" (men), dnd is not new for him so the Hellfire Club was not new for him

the word "normal" has only been associated with the queer characters of st

Millie avoided a question about Mike's monologue

I'm also gonna cry during Byler's first kiss also Finn said that the van scene will pay off in the end (the Duffers told him that)

[n3felibata]

Millie's internalized racism and her monologue about Wrathians only exist to be "muscle" puts some more stuff in perspective for me regarding Striker. His first few minutes of screentime was him treating Moxxie like shit for not being physically strong. He is reinforcing the idea that Wrathian imps only exist to be unrealistically tough, which I imagine would only hurt imps rather than actually help anyone

[imustbenuts]

nuts reading in jp 10 - i think vash is stressed + wolfwood's debut

a continuation of a prev post i made about vash switching his pronouns as of chapter 18. personal interpretation and all that.

in that post i highlighted a very surface concept of hierarchy with the pronouns thing.

but to re-summarize what i think im seeing so far: when Vash uses Boku he's keeping a low profile or handing off the flow of the situation to another party, and when he uses Ore he's trying to assert some level of control over the situation. (with more ill get into later)

stranger scenario^

example is the sand steamer arc. there with strangers its Boku. even with kaite during their initial meeting! but once BDN appears and theyre in the face of a dangerous, out of control situation he switches to Ore. for the rest of that arc, it's Ore down all the way.

i couldnt find any instances of him using either Boku or Ore in the geoplant & family legacy arc. assuming the characterization here is centered around the idea of control, and that he uses Boku with strangers, its probably still pre Legato intro behavior.

...yeah about legato.

once Legato appears the narrative quickly goes into Oh Shit mode. theres an ultimate antagonist. antagonist is about to unleash hell on not just Vash, but the already struggling humans on a hostile planet. give them one final nail in the coffin. Vash switches to Ore as we are shown how dangerous and unhinged this yet unrevealed person is in full.

except this part in the flashback/reflection, where we have Vash monologuing in the present time as if he's speaking to Rem:

hes speaking without kanjis, implying hes speaking like a child in his mind. vash uses Boku here to imply that hes lost/unsure/not in control, so that aspect isnt going anywhere. its rather being now hidden under new layers thats being revealed, and building ever up.

that layer, i think, being stress

fast forward and more destruction happens, monev the gale appears, legato does legato things, and the insurance girls pay Vash a visit.

and here i think is something of a budding relationship starting to happen

another aspect of the Ore pronoun is that its more than fine to use within the context of friends. bc theres no real higher or lower standings existing in a friendly context, so to use Ore can be a sign of familiarity or closeness.

and in the context of that scene it is very close to that since the girls are seeing Vash half naked with histories scarred into his flesh. hes open, hes vulnerable, the girls are seeing vash as vash and not The Stampede. (ofc he doesnt tell them straight about his history, the loner's lips are pretty tight on that)

but also again, he's stressed. and then it gets worse when Monev is revealed to be killed anyway after having Vash spare his life.

its probably at this point where the situation is so out of control that he points his gun towards Legato and oop. more Ore. and the lines are so aggressive here, you can tell Vash is out of it.

then chapter 18, or, vol 2 ch 6. vash sits in a bus with the insurance girls and is looking very out of it as noted by milly. the narrative lets us peek into his head and he's thinking about Legato.

and while theres a moment of comedic lightness with him getting freaked out by how freaky legato can be, legato gets more scenes fleshing out how messed up and contradictory he can be. the narrative wants us to know its all serious business going foward.

so my reading of all these: when the situation is so messed up and out of control, Vash uses Ore possibly as 2 things. 1) a stress response, and 2) to wrestle some semblance of control here. bc if hes indeed so pacifistic that he has no true will to bite, he'd probably use Boku a whole lot more. but he isnt doing that.

(it does make me wonder about tristamp vash... nai's dynamic there is different and in this one he says hes actually scared of his brother. the themes of abuse again >_> studio orange can i eat u)

and then wolfwood appears. yay. unfortunately, i dont have a concrete answer of how permanent the Ore is still at this point, since vash actually doesnt use either until a little after meeting wolfwood.

i can only say that these two's meeting in the manga is less cheery than in the 98 anime, bc vash here is reluctant to shake hands with the man with the kansai ben.

possibly bc he doesnt trust him... yet. (vash here seems to be portrayed as a loner, so it probably tracks with that.)

its only after wolfwood giving what little of his money to 2 raggedly looking kids that vash has this moment of connection with wolfwood. so far vash is shown to be good with kids and even likes them. and wolfwood is the same!

this scene below gets talked about a lot from what ive been seeing online. my extra take: interestingly this reads like wolfwood blasted a lot of vash's stress away even for a moment.

wolfwood then expresses that he sees through vash's empty smile, quite brashly climbing over one of the (possibly many) walls vash has.

all of this leads into the first proper connection between the two. vash's first pronoun usage towards wolfwood is a very friendly Ore.

yay. what a scene.

(the boku thing pops up later in the trimax Shoot Me scene between the two of them. their dynamic is so fun and its not even close to over yet. feels like nightow must have been going wheeee when hes drawing all of these...)

[millimononym]

One of the people whos content used to revolve around cringe culture and shaming young artists or art he didn't like or understand because it wasn't up to his "standards" is being weird about the morality of making art??? Who would have guessed!

genuinely one of the most mind bogglingly stupid people on the internet