#mighty nein fictive

[mollymaukerleaf]

Hello there darlings

i'm mollymauk tealeaf, or molly for short. i use any and all pronouns, i am genderfluid, poly and pan.

i'm a fictive from critical role's campaign 2, the mighty nein.

my system is @the-archived, some of our alters are @de-rune, @legend-of-vax, @bloomsoffate, @rr-roth and @archived-pokemon

i enjoy tarot, so if you'd like a reading im happy to give one.

[jesters-thoughts]

HAIIIIIIIIII

This is my space <33333 I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THINGZ ALSO I LOVE MOLLYMAUK AND YEAH!!!! I MISS THE M9!!!!!!!!!! IF ANY OF YALL R OUT THERE LMK!!!!!!

[findthebae]

hi you guys!!!!! my name is jester lavorre, i'm a fictive in a system and i'm really looking for any of the mighty nein!! or anybody else from campaign two of critical role! but especially fjord and beau and caleb. and the traveler if you're out there somewhere. or my mom, i think she might be harder to find but still! but yeah i miss you guys like just so much you have NO idea.

my system is 28 so please nobody who is a minor! if you interact with this post i'll find you! i hope to hear from you guys soon aaaand i miss you okay bye!

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[kincalling]

hi you guys!!!!! my name is jester lavorre, i'm a fictive in a system and i'm really looking for any of the mighty nein!! or anybody else from campaign two of critical role! but especially fjord and beau and caleb. and the traveler if you're out there somewhere. or my mom, i think she might be harder to find but still! but yeah i miss you guys like just so much you have NO idea.

my system is 28 so please nobody who is a minor! if you interact with this post i'll find you! i hope to hear from you guys soon aaaand i miss you okay bye!

🃏

[novaq-collective]

Mollymauk’s Intro

Where the lost get found, and we crown them the Circus King /lyr

**General Info**

Name: Mollymauk Tealeaf

Pronouns: they/he/she

Gender: genderfluid

Sexuality: omnisexual

Age: 26

Nicknames: Molly, Circus Man

Species: tiefling <3

System Info

Role: fictive, social alter

Sign-off : -🪬

Source: Critical Role (the Mighty Nein, primarily the first 25 sessions)

Boundaries

Source talk: yes

Sourcemates: yes!!

DMs: yes

Pet-names: sure

Partners: depends (takes time)

Other

For those familiar with my source: no, I am not Kingsley. Or Lucien. Nor do I have connections to them. Respect this please. Thanks. -Molly (🪬)

[findinyourkin]

hi you guys!!!!! my name is jester lavorre, i'm a fictive in a system and i'm really looking for any of the mighty nein!! or anybody else from campaign two of critical role! but especially fjord and beau and caleb. and the traveler if you're out there somewhere. or my mom, i think she might be harder to find but still! but yeah i miss you guys like just so much you have NO idea.

my system is 28 so please nobody who is a minor! if you interact with this post i'll find you! i hope to hear from you guys soon aaaand i miss you okay bye!

!!!!!!!!

[melodromacy]

System Front Tags [APR 2023]

(This is tags, for posts we make when talking; in other languages it usually translates to a form of 'speaks' or 'talks'.)

The Stravinsky Brothers' Tags: ;; Jori speaks ;; Moraine speaks ;; Ratt speaks ;; Viktor speaks ;; Old Ironside speaks

Punch-Out!! Tags: ;; joeseph parle ;; donato habla en voz alta ;; kurt talks ;; renato parla ;; [THE EMPEROR] labhraíonn | 話す| [bolata he]

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure Tags: ;; lars mówi ;; donovan mluví ;; mark spricht ;; wham talking …

Venture Bros. Tags: ;; pete white of conjectural technologies: ONLINE ;; Dr. Jonas Venture Jr. speaking! ;; Dr. Jonas Venture Sr. speaking. ;; the action man: in service ;; Dr. Phineas Phage speaking.

Metalocalypse Tags: ;; magnus riffs ;; baxter growls ;; seth slithers ;; pickles on mic 1 ;; melmord talks ;; CFO.txt ;; sammy twinskins on air ;; snizzy bullets on air ;; antonio dimarco on air

Fallout Tags: ;; The Mighty Caesar speaking. ;; Ave Profligate. [Vulpes] ;; benny gecko in the tops . ;; So what shall it be? [Richard]

Undertale/Deltarune Tags: ;; [[SPAMTON SPEAKING]] ;; addison.exe

Resident Evil Tags: ;; uroboros virus ;; golgotha virus

The Boys Tags: ;; The Great Wide Wonder speaks! ;; what the fuck do you want [Oswald] ;; The Only Man in The Sky [John] ;; black noir lurks ;; kevin blubs ;; stopcock crows ;; astroglide chirps

Non-Fictive Tags: ;; antony speaks ;; jace talking

Dude's Subsystem [The Dudescape] ;; going postal (Postal Dude) ;; a fucking jungian persona (Alternate Dude) ;; hey mark. did you forget about me? (Zack / Movie Dude) ;; profane doctor corkscrew (Shtopor) ;; ... which seemed intuitive in design docs! (Lil' Dude) ;; lose myself in the mines ... (New Dude) ;; (Mg2(Mg5)(Si 8022(OH02) (Eric / Postal Mobile Dude) ;; I AM THE CELESTIAL GARDENER (Other Dude)

Other Tags: ;; nefarious tropy rambles ;; pain and suffering (Mok) ;; kieran's journal ;; sayonara (Hank) ;; tankman's shit ;; i always come back. (Springtrap, William) ;; ~ Sasha Nein. ;; professor baldimore equates ;; the neighbor's letter (theodore's tag) ;; scaramouche the merciless reports!

THE GLORY GODS' tags: ;; i thank you for playing twisted metal! (Calypso) ;; it's always time for a song (Tony) ;; MICOLASH ROARS ;; Anubis weighs your heart. ;; Morgott shall brook thee no quarter. ;; my guiding moonlight (Ludwig) ;; my dear Ocelotte (Oceiros) ;; destined death (Khanticleres) ;; instigator of the golden war (Gransax) ;; ridley .

[hazyaltcare]

An aesthetic for a Yasha Nydoorin (Critical Role) fictive involving themes of the Mighty Nein, chaos with her friends, arson, terror over what she did under Obann's control, and being head over heels in love with Beau.

Mod Haze (🗨Davie)

[daggersandarrows]

updated my description and about section a bit! since i recently got an influx of new followers, here’s some general notes/housekeeping stuff:

i spoiler tag till monday with #cr spoilers. i do not spoiler tag anything that has been out longer than that, regardless of campaign, so i would recommend blacklisting #vox machina or #the mighty nein if you don’t want to be spoiled for those campaigns.

any negativity will be tagged #cr discourse

i’m in the process of transitioning. all posts about that are tagged #the magician transitions

i work with dogs! and i like to post about them :) occasionally that means there will be some unpleasantry but i always trigger tag for pet death/neglect/abuse/et cetera. my work tag is #dog days are here

i play this life consuming cute little dragon game. i actually have a separate blog for that, @kingparda , but it often migrates over here and will be tagged #flight rising (psst if anyone ever wants to get into that game, MESSAGE ME. holy shit. it is so good. i will absolutely help you get started. my username on there is salamoonder #558798)

most of my ships are polyam and aspec. (and trans.) i don’t experience attraction in a “normal” way and i project that, hard.

my ao3 handle is salamoonder and i’ve written some neat cr stuff over there :)

and then some plural stuff:

i’m the host of a system of five (that we know of). what does this mean? well essentially nothing on here, this is still my blog, although you might occasionally see one of my headmates using it. if we’re friends or even acquaintances, however, i’d love for my headmates to be able to talk to more people--not many people irl know we’re plural.

quick rundown on us:

vax, yes he is a vax fictive. he/him. older than the body (and me). very open to talking to strangers. for some reason. that’s his choice though lol

wulf: eadwulf fictive, he’s asked to only be called by his nickname. he/him. unknown age.

october: one of our littles. he/him. loves people but i’d like to limit his interactions to people we already know well.

luna: another little. you will likely never see her.

if anyone wants to talk plural stuff/discovering you’re a system, please hit me up. this is all super new to me.

[lichbarry]

A host’s perspective on Molly, Lucien, and approaching identity (spoilers for c2e117)

This is NOT going to be as eloquent as I want it to be and I can only speak for myself and my own opinions, but this is for @creativside and anyone else who wants to hear this particular perspective. Again, I’m speaking only for myself, not for every single system, especially not for Molly or Lucien fictives. I’m also referring only to DID systems here but OSDD systems, I see you. 

I don’t really advertise it on this blog (or anywhere), but I’m the host of a DID system. My relationship with the system is not quite the same as other systems we’ve gotten to talk to but nevertheless communication has greatly improved since our diagnosis and I dare say that I feel “valid” enough to try to sludge through how I’m feeling about the whole situation with Molly/Lucien. Put under a cut b/c it’s long 

For anyone who might not understand the connection I’m trying to draw: a situation where there is one body that has been inhabited by two different consciousnesses who are not otherwise aware of each other and who have different personalities, abilities, and ambitions is a situation that directly parallels the textbook DID experience. Having people call you by a different name, talk about things you supposedly did with them but have no recollection of, and having people ask or expect that they will be able to talk to this other person in your body whenever they want are all things that pretty much every system goes through. I’m not saying that Lucien has DID, but there are a lot of identical and/or incredibly similar terms and concepts being thrown around regarding him, so for the sake of this thinkpiece I’m essentially going to be acting like he does.

I’m going to make some bullet points and just try to give my two cents on how everyone is approaching this situation:

Molly was a real person, just as much as Lucien. This was discussed by some of the characters, but I’m just validating it. Lucien called Molly a “fragment” of himself-- fragment is a term systems use to describe a certain “type” of alter. DID fragments are alters who typically aren’t as “developed” as some of the others in the system, meaning that they may only exist to feel a particular emotion, store a certain memory, or carry out one very specific function. In my experience, fragments do have names just like any other system member, but likely don’t have much distinguishing personality beyond that. From what we know about Molly when he first “woke up”, calling him a fragment would be accurate. He was, originally, a consciousness who only knew a singular feeling-- emptiness. That’s all he was. But he was still his own consciousness, his own unique person, and as we all saw, he was able to grow beyond his emptiness and develop into a fully realized creation (to borrow a term). His being a fragment wouldn’t have invalidated him as being his own separate person in the first place, but the Molly we knew was no longer a fragment; he was just... a person! By the time we parted ways with him, he was just as complex and unique of an identity as Lucien is. He is not as simple as Lucien is making him out to be, we know this. 

Lucien implied that Molly integrated into him and is not dormant. What do these terms mean? Dormancy (or becoming dormant) is experienced a little bit differently for each system, but generally an alter becoming dormant means they no longer appear in the headspace/inner world, cannot communicate or interact with any system members, and will not be able to front/switch out (take control of the body). In our system, becoming dormant is equivalent to becoming comatose. Due to the way our inner world is constructed, we do know where the “body” of our dormant alter is, but we cannot interact with her in any way, nor does she interact with us or appear anywhere else in the headspace.  Integration, on the other hand, is better explained in the context of fusion from Steven Universe. A few years ago, I (the current host) integrated with our gatekeeper & primary protector (basically the one who managed the functioning of the system). Where once we were two separate consciousnesses who inhabited the same headspace, we are now joined together into someone who is a little bit of both of us, just like when two gems fuse in SU. I also happen to be the core (the consciousness who was in the body when we were born), so it could be seen as her simply “returning” to me, or fusing back with me after having broken off during her formation. Complete system integration is the end goal of some therapies, but there are some alters who view integration to be the same as dying, since the alter as a singular unique consciousness no longer exists but is instead “merged” into the consciousness of another system member.  Lucien said something along the lines of his soul having been fragmented but now fused back together. He appears to believe that he is the only consciousness currently in his body. This means that Molly is not “trapped” inside somewhere waiting to be set free. It also implies that it would not be possible to “get Molly back” as we remember him without finding a way to fracture Lucien’s soul again. Depending on your view of integration, you can view this two ways: 

Molly is Lucien, and/or Molly is dead. Matt’s slips of the tongue in continuously calling him Mollymauk further supports the idea that Molly is integrated, not dormant, and therefore is Lucien in one way or another. Molly was, after all, a part of Lucien all along, and despite having developed into his own personality in the wild 2 years he was fronting for, all that he was are now part of what Lucien is. That being said, it is clear that Lucien, just like Mollymauk, is his own person with his own goals, quirks, abilities, and personality traits. Aspects of Mollymauk do live in him, but being fused does not mean that we’re going to recognize all parts of who Molly was in who Lucien is now. Lucien (we’re assuming) is the core, the original consciousness of the body, and is thus far more developed than Molly ever had the chance to be. They’re the same person in the sense that Molly is no longer a separate entity, but not the same person in that Lucien has any of Molly’s memories or would suddenly feel compelled to start acting more like him just because they integrated. 

Mollymauk is not back; Lucien is. The Mollymauk we knew is not there anymore, and it’s a good time to mourn him. I don’t know what kind of DND fuckery Matt or the cast might be able to do, but from my perspective of what’s going on, Molly isn’t going to suddenly pop out or break free or anything like that. Mollymauk as an individual died when we saw him die, and I think the Mighty Nein are at least starting to realize that. Lucien even genuinely offered his condolences. Again, it’s DND, there’s always some chance that they might find a way to talk to their friend again, but by this point the idea is making me uncomfortable. Trying to separate Molly from Lucien again at this point feels... unnatural and disrespectful. No one has ever sought to de-integrate the alter that I integrated with, but I would be very disturbed if they did, and the idea of doing that even in this context unsettles me. Find hope in the possibility if you want to, but I’m probably never going to support it. Molly is a part of Lucien now and I think both we and the Nein need to accept that. Lucien may be evil, but he has just as much right to be in control of his own body as Molly did (arguably more, but I’m not getting into that debate). Whether you like Lucien or not, it’s his body, now only his, and no one has any right to take that away from him.  I know it’s not exactly the same and it’s probably not how people mean to come off, but I can’t help imagining me in this position. If someone was very close with the alter I integrated with and did everything in their power to try to make her split off again, even if it meant harming me or making me lose autonomy over my mind & body... you can see how that’s a very uncomfortable thought, at the least. Again, I’m not saying anyone is inherently bad for wanting Molly back or missing him, I’m just saying that the situation we’re being presented with is that it’s only Lucien now and we & the m9 should respect that. If you want to mourn Molly, now’s as good a time as any. You even have Lucien’s blessing. That being said...

Lucien doesn’t want to know about Molly, and that’s fine. As someone pointed out (I think Jester?), Molly didn’t want to know about Lucien either. As is the case with a lot of systems who don’t have well-developed communication, they’re practically strangers to each other. All they knew about each other is what was on their body when they woke up and what other people (also strangers) told them they supposedly did once. Again, parts of Molly exist in Lucien, and I’m sure aspects of Lucien existed in Molly, and even now there are some similarities to draw. But neither Lucien nor Molly have any obligation to feel kinship towards each other. In their eyes, they are two completely different people who have never interacted. Systems only start to feel like families after a long time of having good communication, of developing relationships, of working through trauma or the complications that come with having DID. From what we’ve been told, Molly and Lucien likely never even developed a headspace or been in a situation where they would’ve had the possibility of actually meeting. People are just talking to them about someone they didn’t know and honestly the typical response is to just nod along in the moment and decide if you really want to unpack that later. And not wanting to explore who this stranger who inhabited your body was is a completely valid response! Especially given that Lucien doesn’t explicitly have DID-- he doesn’t have the goal of trauma recovery, nor does he have any reason to find out more about who Molly was given that he’s now supposedly fully integrated.  Again, it’s more a matter of autonomy. Lucien is his own person, and to him Molly might as well have been something he called himself when he spent 2 years blackout drunk (which, let’s be real, is a pretty accurate comparison). Sometimes it’s fun to hear accounts of what other system members got up to when they fronted, but that’s only after years of therapy and working through my own feelings about having DID. Before that, there were times when it felt like a frustrating invasion of privacy, or an unnerving sense of losing control of not only what I did, but what it meant to be me. I don’t really see Lucien struggling with these things, but I’m just saying that there’s only so much he can be expected to care about who Molly was given his circumstances. 

This got super long and I’m never sure how to conclude these things, or if that’s even all my thoughts on the matter. Send me asks if you want to I guess, just please be respectful. I’m not trying to start any arguments, I’m just giving my perspective/how I feel about this situation as a system host. 

tldr; Molly integrated with Lucien and it’s more respectful/probable to assume that he’s not coming back the way people wanted him to. Getting Molly back the way people expected is incredibly unsettling to me because it takes away Lucien’s autonomy and basically says that Molly is more important than Lucien’s control over his own body because we like Molly more.  Their situation does resemble the experience of being part of a system in a lot of ways and I don’t know how to feel about it besides just kind of awkwardly going “ahaha” and looking around to see how singlets are approaching this. 

Again, not saying there’s a right or wrong way to feel about this, nor am I “diagnosing” Lucien with DID. Just talking about connections I’ve made and the things that I relate to/make me uncomfortable. Whether Matt is aware of how much this situation resembles DID or not, I think that he’s handling it incredibly well and have no complaints about Lucien or Molly’s characterizations. 

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

sending this in for Caleb Widogast, Caduceuces Clay (forgive any spelling errors) and Mollymauk Tealeaf fictives in our system, they wish everybody in the Mighty Nein and all of the Mighty Nein's allys happy holidays and best wishes for the new year!! :) ❤💛💚💙💜

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[fictivecanoncalls]

Hello there~ I'm a fictive of Mollymauk from Critical Role and I'm looking for all of the Mighty Nein. Caleb and I definitely flirted and were both mutually interested in each other, but I rejected him so he could ultimately find self-acceptance before we became involved. The whole... thing with Lorenzo happened, but I was resurrected 2 years later, reunited with the Nein, and we all continued on our merry way. I'm an adult, so preferably people over the age of 18. Interact and I'll get in touch

Calling all fictives (not fiction.kin) that match the above criteria!

[jesters-thoughts]

Hello :0

it me ur girl XD ! B got tooooo triggered so L!! Skill Issue i am here! /LH !! I love One molly specifically but i also love all the mollys and beaus and yashas and notts and fjords and kiris and yes!!

ok ok ok okie::

mayyyybe we should not police stuuudents?? and alllllso perhapppps mayybe we (the sys) should get better at driving????

Definitely Unrelated To Things that Happened /s

L O L

[findmykin]

This is a longshot but... Hello, my name is Corvon Pyrose (Core-Von Per-o-zay), im a non canon Tiefling from Critcal Role Campaign 2, a fictive, looking for the Mighty Nein!! I worked with yall for a little bit looking for my sister who'd disappeared. I had a big scar over my cheek/jaw. If this sounds familiar pls reblog this and tag who you are!

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[findthebae]

Hello. My name is Caleb Widogast. My source is Critical Role, campaign 2. I am a fictive. I am looking for any of the Mighty Nein. The body I'm in is 17, if that makes anyone uncomfortable. I can be contacted at @calebbwidogast

@calebbwidogast

[kinscalling]

Hello. My name is Caleb Widogast. My source is Critical Role, campaign 2. I am a fictive. I am looking for any of the Mighty Nein. The body I'm in is 17, if that makes anyone uncomfortable. I can be contacted at @calebbwidogast

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