#might have enjoyed it more if i didn't have an awful headache because i haven't eaten since noon

[lettuce-gremlin]

The Orlando Live show was soooooo good y'all

[maigetheplatypus57]

So post-dsmp finale cbeeduo get divorced and it’s as messy or as amicable as you want. Whatever, they part ways, figure out a custody agreement for Michael, and go their separate ways.

Anyways, 19-year-old divorcee Ranboo shows up to MCC 33, he competes, has fun with friends, then gets invited to the afterparty at some club or bar on the server (they forgot the name).

They arrive, enjoy the music, dance or catch up with other people they haven't seen in a while, then get completely wasted because hey, it's a Saturday night, they can afford to deal with the hangover in the morning (Tubbo, Tommy, Jack, and Beky are going to have even worse ones than him, he snickers to himself, recalling the Pink Parrots’ drunken antics throughout the competition).

Around an hour before the bar/club/whatever closes Ranboo figures they might as well take a break and try to sober up a little before heading home (server hopping while drunk isn’t exactly dangerous, per say, but it definitely won’t help with the light nausea or headaches that tend to arise from such trips) so they head out the side exit into the alleyway, hoping fresh air and some relative quiet will help them more than the loud music and stuffy, enclosed space would.

And well, Ranboo knew that there was a reason that this MCC was different, special, even, and it had something to do with a certain hermit joining the event for the first and only time. They’ve seen the quiet awe and fangirling from even their fellow competitors as they tried to take pictures or say hello to the famed redstoner in between events.

(And even if Ranboo Didn't know about the Hermit from this MCC or from their overlapping social circles, Tubbo made sure that Ranboo was More than familiar about the man back during their New L’manburg and Showchester days, eyes lit up and rambling enthusiastically about clocks and hoppers and other redstone jargon that Ranboo tried but was never quite able to follow. It was cute, very cute at the time, and definitely one of the many reasons that Ranboo fell for him back then.)

With all of that, however, Ranboo was definitely surprised when they found Etho, leaning against the wall in the same alleyway they had escaped to.

The two of them introduce themselves, and make some small talk to pass the time, albeit a little awkwardly as introverts are known to do.

At some point Ranboo mentions his son, and a curious Etho asks for their age.

“I-I’m 19.” he stammers, hoping that Etho doesn’t judge him for being a teen parent or acts weird about it.

Etho hums for a bit, thinking about it, before taking out a cigarette and lighting it.

“You know... when I first got my keyboard, you were just a baby, isn't that weird?” he says, before taking a drag out of his cigarette.

And it's at that moment, the soft red glow of the cigarette bathing the space between them in warm light, that Ranboo realizes three things:

Redstone cigarettes are apparently a thing, and man that's kinda cool. Weird, but cool.

Etho looks really hot right now, with his piercings reflecting off the red light of the smoke, his jacket shrugged off in the warm August air to reveal his bare shoulders and tank top, and the way his red eye glows brighter with the new intake of redstone in his system, giving him a look that’s almost electrifying-

and 3. Ranboo may, just possibly, have a thing for older men.

But instead of voicing out any of these thoughts, Ranboo, in the terrible combined states of being really flustered and really, really drunk, so drunk he can barely think straight, blurts out instead:

“C-can you put that out on me?”

[galactic-magick]

Hi!!! I absolutely love your work. You're truly talented!! Also, I have a request.

// vomit/emetophobia

I'm not sure if this is something you feel comfortable writing about, but I have a severe phobia of vomit. Is there any way you could write hurt/comfort fluff with 001? Like, him comforting the reader through nausea and being sick?

If not, I totally understand!! Maybe you could just write reader having a fever if you're not comfortable with it :]

Anyways, I look forward to what you write in the future!!

Hey! You're in luck anon cuz I've been on some new antibiotics from my dermatologist for my severe acne and they make me nauseous a lot 🤪 so it is not hard at all for me to imagine needing comfort from feeling sick rn haha.

I decided to make this about being sick in general though and not just nausea, hope that's alright and hope you enjoy!

Peter can almost immediately sense something is wrong

you've been acting off since you woke up, the life sucked from your face and your movements more sluggish

thankfully neither of you had anywhere to be today, but still, you're not usually like this even on days off

he notices you haven't eaten your breakfast, and you usually always do when he makes things for you

"What's wrong, darling?" he asks.

"I just feel really...weird today," you mumble. "Like everything hurts. And I'm super nauseous, and I'm afraid to eat because I might throw up,"

"Oh, hun," he takes your chin between his fingers. "Don't worry, you won't on my watch. I'll take care of you,"

he gets you something to eat that's a little more bland so it won't upset your stomach, and a cup of your favorite tea

he then pulls you to the couch and holds you, covered in the softest blanket you own

"I hate feeling like shit," you groan, a single tear falling down your cheek from what feels like your entire body failing you.

"Where's your pain besides the nausea?"

"I have an awful headache too, and just general aches all over," you reply.

"I could fix that,"

"Peter, no-" you shake your head. You hate when he uses his powers for silly little things like this. Sure, he's powerful and can handle it, but you still try not to ask him for anything.

"Darling, please, let me take away at least some of your pain,"

"Okay," you sigh.

he rests his hand on your forehead, and you feel the tension and pain start to release. you're not really sure exactly what he's doing to make the pain go away, but you don't question it

maybe he's using his psychokinesis to literally block your pain receptors or something, who knows, but you're happy you didn't stop him

"Better?"

your head clears and now all that's left is a bit of the nausea and your body feeling a little weak, but you'll take that over also having a throbbing headache

"Yeah," you smile. "Better,"

he continues taking care of you all day, assuring you it's okay to just relax and let yourself heal

you feel like you have to be doing something, even just house chores or running some errands but he insists he will take care of anything you need

gradually the nausea starts to subside and you're able to eat more, giving you some more energy

he gives you even more cuddles than usual and he doesn't care that being so close to you might make him sick too

if any of your aches come back he doesn't hesitate to take them away, he can't stand seeing you in more pain than you have to be in

if you're still feeling unwell the next day too he'd definitely stay with you again, doesn't matter if he has other things going on, he'll take the day off

[0nlinejournal]

8:35pm

Ah, it's been a couple of days. I've been doing that thing that I keep trying to stop doing where I tell myself I'm going to stay home because I desperately need alone time but end up saying yes to every friend that asks me to hang out.

I was dead set on staying home last night, but ended up at my boyfriend's place again after he texted me from work saying he was missing me. I cleaned the tattoo shop late and headed to his place at around 10:30pm. I was berating myself in my head while cleaning, telling myself I should stay home (I promised myself I would!), but he did agree to watch all of Over the Garden Wall once I was there. I feel pleased with the night.

It's so strange how prior to last year I was a complete recluse and was very capable of telling all my friends no when they asked me to hang out. I didn't even text people back because it made me too anxious to look at my phone and see a text notification. Now, most of my solitude was due to my mother guilt tripping me any time I left the house, accusing me of hating her and never wanting to spend time with her, but after 24 years of solitude I had learned to be very comfortable with myself. I did enjoy it to some degree. And now, I miss my alone time. Unfortunately, I've thrown myself into a never-ending merry-go-round of saying yes to people and have developed a new fear of telling people no.

I did tell my friend no tonight, though. Pats on the back for me please and thank you. I did say yes at first. Hard to say no to a chill night at a friend's house with a small group and some wine, but I really do wish to stay home and spend time with myself (and my dog child).

I am about to have two weeks to myself, though. Dog sitting for my mother starts on the 7th, and I'll be on the outskirts of town so it'll be much easier for me to tell everyone I can't do anything. It's not a far drive, but it is a drive I hate. I took off of both of my jobs since my mother is paying me, and I will be in my own personal hell surrounded by two elder dogs that cannot control their bladders, and two dogs that hate each other, but I'll be alone.

I'm going to try to quit nicotine while I'm out there, too. I've quit before, but I ruined it when I asked to hit a friend's vape one night. After 163 days! I ruined it just like that! I found it easier to quit that first time. This time it's feels nearly impossible. I get these awful headaches, I can't stop eating, and I turn into the most irritable bitch you can imagine. I can't make it past three days. All of my friends have vapes, so even when I didn't have one for months because I was "quitting", I knew that I would be able to hit one of theirs. I broke down a few ago and bought one, I'm now on my second one, but I think it will die tomorrow. Then I have isolation to look forward to, so I can cry and be angry alone without affecting anyone else. That's my plan anyway. I hope it works. I feel disgusting having my mood be so dependent on my access to nicotine. Hopefully keeping up with this journal can help too. I'm anticipating some brain fog, though, so the entries might not be the best.

Tomorrow night I'm going out to the string of bars downtown with my boyfriend, and his ex. I don't think I've mentioned this yet. This will be my first time meeting her. The thought alone makes me wildly nervous. I'm worried she's going to be one of those gals that slyly hits on my boyfriend. And if not that, I'm worried I'm going to get jealous anyway if he appears to be having more fun with her than he does with me. That's not fair, they haven't seen each other in a long time, and I know he doesn't want to be with her (that's what he told me at least, he doesn't like her like that anymore, their relationship didn't work out for a reason), but I'm worried he's just telling himself that and as a result accidentally lying to me. I want to see this through, though. I'm friends with a couple of my exes, good friends with them, and he was able to get comfortable with that pretty quickly. So, I want to trust him and allow him to reconnect with her if he so chooses. They've kept loosely in touch throughout the years they've been separated, but they don't talk when she's dating someone because she apparently dates very jealous men. I say that, but I know that talking to exes is a widely unpopular thing for partners to be comfortable with generally.

The thing that catches me a bit off guard though is that he says she's kind of mean, like, how Sam is mean. And we've been wanting to distance ourselves from Sam, so why even entertain hanging out with this ex? I hang out with my exes because they're genuinely wonderful people. They are kind, and funny, and considerate, it's just that our romantic relationship wasn't it, you know? But I like them enough to want to have them in my lives as friends. I value them as friends and as people, I just don't want to date them. And they are mature enough (thank goodness) to be able to value me as a friend and not trick themselves into desiring anything more. I trust them. Maybe I can trust my boyfriend's ex too, but as of right now having not met her, I am still a bit anxious. To her credit, she did apologize to him recently for her behavior when they were dating. So maybe she's grown as a person and isn't actually that mean anymore.

I don't know I don't know I don't know. I've been so in my head about my relationship recently I'm just worried my brain isn't going to be in the right mood or have the right energy levels to have a good time. That's why I need rest tonight. I need alone time to recharge so I can be excited for tomorrow.

I'm going to clean the tattoo shop tomorrow morning. I don't feel like doing it tonight. I'm going to try to read Frankenstein tonight. Oh! Also, while in isolation I plan on reading my mother's boyfriend's book. I tried once before, but... I don't... like it. He wanted feedback, but if I was to give genuine feedback I think it would hurt him. But I thought I could read it and chapter by chapter break down my thoughts on here. Maybe if I make it like a game I can get through the whole thing.

Okay, off to read! Goodnight!

9:10pm

[luvdsc]

Hey Cat!! I hope you're doing well as always ! 💖 AHHHH huhu I closed the form last Sunday since I've collected enough responses dy! (NOOOOOOOO ToT) I got a total of 221 responses at the end of the week, which is 3x the amount I initially needed! :o I'm beyond grateful and appreciative ToT I've cleaned the data and have proceeded to run some data analysis, but I ran into an issue whereby the scores on the subscales are equal (it has never been reported in past studies! :O) so I'm waiting for my supervisor's feedback on how to proceed. Hopefully it's nothing too serious ToT

Hehe finance is interesting indeed! I just started reading a book on finance for young adults (Rich Dad Poor Dad) and I look forward to learning more from the author's tips! The Coursera introductory course has also made financial terms a lil more familiar, even though it's just the basics and it's really helped w my financial literacy 🥺 I can push myself to study but it's also the numbers and calculations I'm worried of cuz I am rly a nong (idiot) when it comes to numbers * - * it runs in the genes I guess AHAHAHAHA my mom and sister aren't good at numbers either keke

Aww I'm glad yr professor made financial accounting enjoyable and a fruitful experience for you! Some lecturers / professors rly just have that spark in them to inspire ppl and I'm blessed to be surrounded by a bunch of em in the psych department!🥺😭 it truly makes a difference and I'm sure we both are living proofs of that!

After debating for a while, I've decided not to take a minor mainly because I'm so tired HAHAHAHAHAHA and I'll just do my own self-studying and exploration whilst working! Go out and explore the world, live life! Whilst ironically still staying in my room because of the COVID-19 situation in our country (cases are abt 20+k every day :') ) My proposal has been finalized and it's been accepted! It's just that some elements of my proposal is also part of my actual report, so I have some guidance to refer to in terms of structure! :3 and yes don't worry! I got plenty (sometimes a lil too much) rest during the sem break whilst remaining productive! Plus, I got to catch up w some friends and had game nights (maybe too much of game nights hehe) and movie nights w my friends which was truly refreshing! Also cuz I might not see a lot of them again after we graduate so we gotta cherish every moment 🥺😭

I'm a freelance graphic designer for my uni's newsletter! Occasionally, they'd ask us to create both the content and design! I'll place the link to my recent work below if you wanna check it out! UwU I'm trying to incorporate the same practices during sem break in my last sem (current sem) too! cuz yes mental health is so so important and I'm just tired of being academically tired you get me? :(

What makes me most trilled abt learning abt psychology is how to apply it in daily life too! I find it so fascinating and awestruck at how relatable and within reach these things are like wow we can be influenced in such ways?? :o can be both good and bad but imma stick w seeing it as the development and evolution of us humans UwU

Also, the vaccine has fixed my sleep schedule HEHE (another perk of getting vaccination :3) I got some rly good rest and managed to reset my usual sleeping time, thank you science ToT oooo I see I see, we've had cases of nurses injecting empty syringes hence the recording :( but GHIOGHWEOGIOHW I could never do that, I can feel the liquid entering me as it is so that's good enough ToT (* plays Love Talk * I can feel it coming)

OMG YOUR ART PIECES ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, ADORABLE AND ELEGANT! 💖🥺🥰 it must've required a lot of hard-work and effort AHHH thankiew for showing me yr work!! it's truly unique in its own manner despite it's simplicity UwU is there a reason or backstory to yr chosen theme and objects? :3

I just Googled Somi Somi and omg that's such an UwU ice cream AHHHH 💖🥺😭 ice cream is my fav food of all time and it looks like an ice cream haven omg imagine eating it after a loooong hard day's of work ToT and OMG THE SATISFACTION OF EATING THAI MILK TEA ICE CREAM ON A HOT DAY YASSS 😋🤤 hehe if you get the chance to try milk & biscoff, do try it! It's amazing !😍 and ooo i haven't tried alcoholic ice cream before but I will one day!! :3 my alcohol tolerance is rly low though, will I get tipsy over alcoholic ice cream? We shall see UwU (i can only drink half a bottle of apple cider before my face gets red and I start getting a lil tipsy + headache)

and lovie....knowing yr school schedule now...OURS IS DEFINTELY BRUTAL OMG a 3 month long sem break huhu that's only the total amount of sem breaks we get in a year ToT i thought uni was hard but not that hard ToT

Always glad and honored to have you onboard! and AHAHAHAH the contractions about to start soon 👀 I enjoy talking to you huhu you're such a sweet and supportive person 💖🥺🥰😙 huhu for my period cramps, I've been having them since I was 12 ToT my doctor prescribed me some panadols but sometimes I can't even swallow them cuz I'd puke them out ToT I've settled w heatpacks to reduce my reliance on medicine, but I finally got some upgraded and safe to eat medicine from my gynae! She said it's fine to take it every month to keep my womb healthy and apparently my ms. lil uterus is suffering from inflammation, hence the super crazy bedridden cramps :( the upgraded medicine worked for a while, but after time it kinda didn't help either :/ but I realised that exercise rly does wonders to reduce the cramp too (gynae also recommended exercising) so i take walks and do my back stretches more frequently now! my period in the previous months (2 months ago) have been almost painless and bearable, it's so weird not seeing my bedridden ._. when I was in high school, there would always be a day in every month in which I don't attend classes, and that's solely because of my cramps. It just isn't worth suffering in school, plus we don't have a sick room :/ I hope the pain continues to subside! ToT

And ayy internship is also working experience, yr advice would be of great help to me regardless! 🥺 oh yes, I always remind myself that interviews are similar to the speaking test I took for my Cambridge English exams! That kinda help calm my nerves down a lil, but w nerves comes bigger smiles, so I guess it takes on a rather practical form of coping mechanism (sublimation) AHAHAHAHA

WAAAA WHAT A QUEEN you got an offer from every interview?? I aspire to be like you! 💖🥺🥰 huhu skill wise I believe I have lots to prepare esp in terms of case studies, and I perform rly poorly on certain assessments (*ehem * esp those concerning numbers) so I took the chance to study a lil during sem break too ToT but noted on that! I will work on that too and try to maintain that me element in interviews and overall just be myself keke

That's all from me for now! Imma wait for my supervisor's feedback and journey on w my last semester. Bon voyage! Link to my recent work: https://www.instagram.com/p/CTBqGzjr6sN/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link Other works: https://www.instagram.com/p/CPpv-IyM7Gi/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link https://www.instagram.com/p/CL55EG-MbL2/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

hi hello honey bee !!! 💓 omg i'm so sorry for the belated response, i finally got on my laptop 😭 i'm gonna put my response under the cut since it got a little long 🤧

omg 221 responses !!!!! that's so many 🙀 congratulations aaaaa it's amazing that you were able to get 3x the data you needed !!! was it difficult to run data analysis? were you able to solve the issue with the equal scores on the subscales? i hope it didn't create too much additional work for you ):

omg yes finance is really interesting! i enjoyed the classes i took for it :') how is rich dad poor dad? did you learn a lot from it? i know it was a book my prof recommended, but i never got around to reading it 😶 did you learn any helpful tips? and ooo i'll have to look into coursera! yeah, there's quite a lot of terms for finance, and it can be a little intimidating paired with all the math formulas and such, but it's pretty useful imo! how are your financial studies going so far? 💕 omg nong is such a cute word?? i would never think it meant idiot asdkfhlkajsdf omg my whole family is good at numbers and really like math, but i didn't like it 😭 my mom made me study it a lot everyday though rip are the financial calculations getting easier for you as you practice more hopefully?

yessss omg i absolutely agree with this!!!! like you can just feel when a professor loves to teach and is genuinely so excited to talk about their subject, and it just makes the most boring horrible subject into something you learn to enjoy and hate less :') and i'm really happy to hear you have tons of professors like that in the psych department 🥺💗

that's great to hear!!!! 🌷🌷 i'm glad that you're prioritizing yourself and your health, which is so much more important than taking on a minor. what fun subjects have you decided to explore and self study so far? 💞 oh my gosh, the rising cases are so high?? i hope it's gotten better there for you ): are you able to go outside yet?

big congratulations on your proposal being finalized and accepted, lovebug !!!! 🥳🥳 i'm very proud of you and hoping one day i can read your published studies in a scientific journal :') aaaa i'm so glad to hear that you got to rest and enjoy your time with your friends!! i definitely feel that omg i regret all the times i skipped out on movie nights or game nights with my friends because now we're all scattered across the country and the only way we can have them again is over zoom calls 🤧

I SAW YOUR DESIGNS AND THEY'RE GORGEOUS OMG I LOVE THEM SO MUCH !!!! 💖 I'M IN AWE AAAA IF PSYCH DOESN'T WORK OUT, I HOPE YOU BECOME A GRAPHIC DESIGNER 🤩🤩💖 and yes i totally get it ): i really felt the academic burn out when i was in college and it was really difficult at times 🤧 but i hope it's going better for you nowadays, sweetpea 💝💝

omg yeah i absolutely agree !!!! whenever i read about psychology, i keep it in the back of my mind and then when i see something irl that relates to it, i'm like :O amazing. it's so cool to learn about different psych tricks too and see how it works when you test them out yourself and whatnot. and it's really crazy to see how the human brain is so easily influenced at times ??? it truly is an amazing subject !!!

ah what a great side benefit of the vaccine - a better sleep schedule 🤩 i'm happy to hear that your schedule has been fixed 💘 and omg what ??? they're injecting empty syringes wth ????? 😭 that's absolutely horrible, are they getting sued?? lmaooooo that love talk reference askdfhlaksjd

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR KIND COMPLIMENTS 😭😭💗💗 there were many late hours spent in the art studio to finish them, but i'm really happy with the end products :') i thought light bulbs are an interesting subject to do, and my prof said that cutting out circular objects or sculpting them is the most difficult since they're made up curves and not straight lines and i was like ok bet i'm gonna do it aND I'M SO GLAD I DID BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE THEM 🥺 and i love honey bees !!! that's why i decided to paint them and we were supposed to paint them in a combined style of two artists so i tried monet's impressionist style with the short brush strokes and pop art triptych style like marjorie strider 💕

somi somi is sooo good and i just had it again a couple weeks ago :') omg ice cream is your favorite food? :o and YES ice cream is so satisfying after a long day of hard work, like it's such a nice reward to look forward to at the end of day ✨ aaaaa i have to try thai milk tea ice cream one day now !!!!! it sounds amazing 🤩 and YES i must look for places that sell milk & biscoff ice cream !! i have milk ice cream from somi somi, but i need to try to combined flavors 💘 i don't think you'll get tipsy over it !!! it's a really faint taste of alcohol, like i didn't even notice it at first, and i don't think they put very much of it in there! aksljdfhals omg you're a lightweight :o at least that means you save money on alcohol LOL i need like nine shots to get drunk 🤧

your school is too hard 😭 you need more than just 3 months of break !!! 😡 we get a week off for thanksgiving in fall semester and a week off for spring break in spring semester too and then the month long winter break and three month summer break. and we have the one day holidays off too like labor day, memorial day, etc. i can't believe they give you so little time off after working so hard???

asdfhlkajshdlksja loool are the contractions over yet? has it been born? what's the current status, doctor? 👀 i really enjoy talking to you too !!! i'm very sorry for the late responses, work is really taking over all of my time, and i never have enough time to get on my laptop to reply to my asks 😭 and thank you for saying such kind things about me 🥺🥺💝 oh my gosh, i'm so sorry to hear that you have such terrible cramps 😭 i can't even imagine going through that - mine are nowhere near as horrible 😖 do the heatpads help a lot? i'm relieved to hear that you were prescribed better medication though! but yeah, your body does eventually get used to the medication and you have to continue taking stronger meds for it to work, but that's not a very healthy solution /: but i'm really glad to hear that exercise has been helping out a lot!! 💖 hurray for almost painless and bearable periods 🥳 i'm sorry to hear that you had to go through that in high school ): that sounds absolutely horrible 😭 periods are just awful, but it's like i'm grateful that i have my period because that means i'm not pregnant, but also please go away aslkhdfaklsj

omg what was the speaking test for the cambridge english exams like? :o it sounds so formal and a lil intimidating askdjfhalsd do you know of any psych tricks that can possibly help calm your nerves? :')

aaaa yes i did !! i was really surprised that i got an offer from them all because at the time, i was not in the right major and i think i was one of the most underqualified applicants 🤧 one person who interviewed me asked why i withdrew from my engr physics class and i explained it in a kinda funny way but in my head, i was like "oof i'm not gonna get this offer anymore" but then he laughed at my response and told me about how his prof told him he should drop a guitar class he was taking because he was doing very poorly and we bonded over that aklsjdhfkals omg how do interviews for psych jobs go? do you have to discuss a lot of case studies? do they give you a list of possible case studies they'll ask about? :o what sort of assessments do you have to do? good luck on all of your interviews, honey bee 💛 i'm rooting for you, you're gonna do amazing !!!! 💘

omg what did your supervisor say about your case study? and how is your last semester going? are you almost done now? 🌸 (also how have you been? what have you been up to? thank you for taking the time to leave such detailed messages for me, i'm really excited to see all the fun updates in your life, lovebug 🌷🌷)