#midwinterwings

[terror-punk]

Hey there! Your blog is extremely inspiring and we've been thinking of trying to express ourselves in the external world more. The problem is one of us' expression would be incredibly physically damaging to both the body and outside. I get sudden violent urges and want to tear things down, scream, kick things over, yell at people that I'm not really the person theyve known. This would be a true expression but it dosent feel like the way to go. At the same time, we have tried other ways to express like art, exercise, etc, but the urge is still there. Sometimes it even gets worse. In the past we directed our anger to the body rather than outward so it feels like it's about to burst. Part of why I'm so fucking angry is because I've never fronted before, not like this, I wasn't allowed to but am able to now after a lot of work and everything feels alien and I dont know how to exist here in the external world. I just feel like I want to do what ive been doing back in my own world, but in the external one, which I think is kind of stupid because why would I want to replicate something Im already doing except its not even possible to replicate due to physics... and other stuff. Do you have any thoughts on what to do about this, or just...thoughts about it? I would appreciate any thoughts. Also, thank you for the blog. It means a lot to us. -T and T

Hey, thanks for the ask anon. Your situation is really relatable, honestly. I'm a fictive and persecutor with a LOT of violent urges from my memories--and god they're hard to deal with sometimes. I wouldn't ever harm anyone realistically but it gets hard to mentally manage. I've gotten much better over time and with the right support from friends, but it took a while. I took a bit to get to this ask (sorry), so I hope you're doing a little better with managing it now.

I know you mentioned exercise doesn't work, but have you tried working out, maybe? Not just regular exercise, I mean go to the gym and really go at it. Full force. Beat the hell out of a punching bag, maybe? If you invest in one for your own home, you could even customise it in a way that makes it more relieving to hit, somehow?

Being able to scream via music writing could also help. You don't even have to be good at it, and it could be a better form of artistic expression than traditional art if you haven't tried it before.

Another way might be to, if possible, get friends you may already have to 1. know about you, and 2. know how to react if you do have an outburst. Maybe having people who get it will help you feel less violent, but even if not--maybe you can find people who can handle the yelling as just a part of you? You'd need to thoroughly discuss boundaries and such, but it could work if you're in the right situation.

I'm not sure what else to suggest right this moment, but if anyone else wants to add on, feel free. Good luck with finding a solution, and remember you're not alone in this experience.

[strangepersonthefirst]

THIS ART AS DONE BY THE EXCELLENT @midwinterwings with one minor touch from me. I'm now going to go feral because the edition of my earring has sent me into a frenzy

[godly-rambles]

Hi divinekin tumblr! I recently became an admin for a divinekin discord server, and I love it in there.

It's run by @midwinterwings, who's super nice and fun to talk to. if you want in, ask them! you'll have to answer a few questions before you can join but it isnt super hard.

The server's super small, but there's a few of us who are active and talk all the time. If you wanna join you should totally message Hermes (tagged above!)

the server's intended for 18+, but minors are allowed in as long as you dont request access to the afterdark channels (will get you banned if you're under 18 and ask).

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