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There's nobody I miss more in the world than Dr. Eggman. I feel lost and empty without him. I always remember Sonic telling me to be my own person whenever the doctor disappeared, but I cannot ever imagine myself without his direction.

I can't even imagine myself without Sonic.

Yet, here I am. I would do anything just to feel your hand on my head one more time.

- Metal Sonic [#🐁🧪, #fictive]

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Someone in a server w/ me asked what ways a robot would self-harm and hoo boy when i tell you i was SO excited to inform someone of the methods i used to self-harm in my memories (installing viruses, damaging my wires + metal shell casing, fucking w my code) it was crazy how excited i was to answer esp since the robot in question was me ... they even responded 'kisses you on the mouth' im so glad my fucked up memories can serve use to someone -metal sonic fictive #🪙❄️

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I KNOW there has to be a Tails Doll out there. Surely, right?? Anyways hi buddy! Hey best bud of all time and all universes probably at least all the ones I've been in except this one. Anyways I was playing Sonic Superstars and forgive me for spoilers but I noticed the Metal Tails model had a glowing red piece on its head like the gemstone you have and it was so cool I started jumping around and I got so excited. Like, it's you!! The tiniest bit of you still remains even if you haven't really canonically showed up anywhere since a few mentions in the comics and Sonic R. To be loved is to be changed, huh? And they even had Metal Knuckles as a model in the game!!! Like, woah!!! Our other brother!!! It was so cool. Hi Metal knuckles, if you're out there at all— even if it's not as likely. I miss you too!! Just. AGAHDHHDHDBD. I noticed that and it was so cool. –Metal Sonic fictive

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I'm still just as jealous of everyone as I used to be. I was so jealous of Sonic for being the real one and having all the friends that I wanted, now I'm jealous of everyone that talks to my friend because I feel like everyone else is a better friend to them than I am. I still feel like a fraud. Every time I do anything I think of how much better everyone else is at it. Joining art classes just makes me realize I'll never be as good as an artist as everyone else is. Even slideshows I make are mediocre. I even feel like I'm worse at my self-destructive behaviors than other people are, I can never be "bad enough". Like how I was never enough to be the real one. Why can I never achieve perfection? It wasn't possible than because my loathsome copy was always so much better, and now I'm still stuck at the bottom, staring at everyone else's success. –Metal Sonic fictive (sorry for having an angsty teen moment)

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I MISS MY FAMILY I MISS ORBOT AND CUBOT AND SAGE AND BELLE AND EGGMAN AND sometimes starline AND TAILS DOLL AND MY BESTIE AMY I MISS THEM. Head in hands -Metal Sonic fictive

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Something that carried over for me was kind of just. Being active and moving around a lot. I can't exactly run anymore (disabled and the only shoes I have are boots. I can't exactly run in those) but I like to just get up and walk around a lot. 90% of my time fronting is just me pacing in circles in my room. It kills my back but I love getting to use my legs. (Also while at my father's ""house"" I have a very small room and he said that if I wanted to pace I could go walk on the road. Which. I'm not going to do??)

Also, I think my love for devices and machines and the internet is a carryover. It's so fun to mod my 3DS and organize our apps and to do programming things on our computer and to open up machines and look inside them. It's so cool and it reminds me how much I miss being a robot –Metal Sonic fictive

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I miss being a robot. It's so weird to have blood instead of oil and weird to have to confront that fact far more than normal people would. Whenever I have joint pain (...often) I almost think about needing to grease them like I still have metal ones that I can just fix. I'll have an intrusive thought and think I need to be reprogrammed, which I can't do in the way that I was thinking. If I get sick I think I accidentally installed a virus. Sometimes I think I need to recharge my battery whenever I'm tired. (I guess it works still since every time I sleep I plug my phone in so I can use Twitter first thing in the morning...) And I really miss having sharp claws. Fake nails aren't the same and we bite our nails too much for that to work. Sigh. –Metal Sonic fictive

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"I am Eggman's strongest robot" I say as I draw pictures of myself dating other versions of myself that I will never share with anyone ever –Metal Sonic (fictive)

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Metal Sonic fictive mains Biograft in Phighting. fork found in kitchen -#🪙❄

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normally im semi-okay with being human and having this weird flesh and meat but NOT!! WHEN I GET BUG BITES!!! CLAWING OFF MY SKIN PUT ME BACK IN THE ROBOT BODY NOW -Metal Sonic fictive

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History repeats itself but in REALLY weird ways

(my current dad keeps making egg puns save me if i hear eggcellent or eggfirmative again im gonna rip out my eardrums [hyperbole]) -metal sonic fictive

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I MISSED SONIC'S BIRTHDAY??? I FEEL SO BAD HOW DID I MISS THAT... I'll get it next year. Be there or be square (watch me forget about it again because my memory sucks) -Metal Sonic fictive

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ohhghfvdgd i finally got around to listening to the loneliness of spring and the official english lyrics hit me like a semitruck in a time loop why is this song so mecoded –Metal Sonic fictive

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i miss my dad –metal sonic fictive

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welcome back to metal sonic's daily "i miss my dad" post even though he was kind of an asshole. still care about him though. he was a nicer father after creating sage. i miss him. –metal sonic fictive

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Thinking too hard about my family tree and realizing me and Shadow are technically semi-related (I was basically Eggman's son and Shadow and Eggman are related because of Gerald and Maria) and y'know what. I'm just going to pretend I don't see it -Metal Sonic fictive

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