#met my fav person/biggest inspiration ever like i cannot believe it.

[hanemonade]

i met noel (& aleena & cassius!) after the seattle & portland shows!! he even drew me a tattoo after the portland one & had his manager tom get me a new tuot necklace since the one i bought in seattle was broken when i bought it. he is the sweetest person ever, so kind & calming & down to earth when you meet him. he’s so dear to me & i love him so very much. i’m so grateful for him 4ever <3

[breaksfastclub]

i was tagged by @vintersoldier​ to answer these questions, tysm dear!! 

1. on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? a solid 4 i guess

2. describe yourself in a hashtag? #uglycrying

3. if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? idk.. maybe with one of my fav actors from the 80s lmao

4. if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? “just a amount of unfortunate events... and punk music”

5. what’s one thing people don’t know about you? i’m a reserved person and i never have something interesting to talk about me... but, i have a dream of form a band perhaps??

6. what’s your wake up ritual? i look at the ceiling for a while and then check my phone

7. what’s your go to bed ritual? i barely sleep, but recently i’ve been watching 70s and 80s performances of top of the pops on youtube until i fall asleep lmao

8. what’s your favorite time of day? midnight, i feel like everything is calm

9. your go to for having a good laugh? talk with my best friend

10. dream country to visit? japan, uk and italy

11. what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? everytime my online friends send me gifts 

12. heels or flats/sneakers? sneakers

13. vintage or new? vintage

14. who do you want to write your obituary? never stopped to think about it

15. style icon? oh boy.... the new romantics from early 80s 

16. what are three things you cannot live without? music, my records and internet

17. what’s one ingredient you put in everything? garlic powder

18. what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? i could make a list of it aaa

19. what’s your biggest fear in life? lost people i love, never live my life at fullest and never being loved

20. window or aisle seat? window

21. what’s your current tv obsession? i don’t watch much tv

22. favorite app? tumblr

23. secret talent? i don’t have any

24. most adventurous thing you’ve ever done in your life? going to a goth club last year and dance until 4 am

25. how would you define yourself in three words? boring, quiet, sentimental

26. favorite piece of clothing you own? my t shirt with stars on it

27. a must have clothing item that everyone should have? leather jacket

28. a superpower you would want? uhh.. maybe be invisible

29. what’s inspiring you in life right now? music.. again lmao

30. best piece of advice you’ve received? “everything happens for a reason”, idk if it counts but yeah

31. best advice you’d give your teenage self? go to therapy asshole, stop keeping everything to you

32. a book everyone should read? ehhhhhh idk

33. what would you like to be remembered for? maybe for being a person with genuine feelings and for being honest 

34. how do you define beauty? beauty is like something that fills you with wonder and a sense of life or something

35. what do you love most about your body? just my hair, i’m not a big fan of my body

36. best way to take a rest/decompress? listen to your fave songs, watch your fave movie, talk with people who understand you

37. favorite place to view art? a museum

38. if your life was a song, what would the title be? “can’t find my way home”

39. if you could master one instrument, what would it be? bass!!

40. if you had a tattoo, where would it be? something related to one of my fave bands

41. dolphins or koalas? both!!

42. what’s your spirit animal? i think a owl applies to me lmao

43. best gift you’ve ever received? my record player

44. best gift you’ve given? last year in my best friend’s birthday i sent to her some polaroids of when we met each other in person!! she said that was the best gift she ever received and i believe her

45. what’s your favorite board game? don’t have one

46. what’s your favorite color? red

47. least favorite color? brown or pink idk

48. diamond or pearls? pearls

49. drugstore makeup or designer? both

50. blow-dry or air-dry? air dry

51. pilates or yoga? neither 

52. coffee or tea? tea

53. what’s the weirdest word in the english language? bruh all of them 

54. dark chocolate or milk chocolate? milk chocolate

55. stairs or elevators? elevators

56. summer or winter? winter

57. you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? chocolate cake

58. a dessert you don’t like? anything that contains banana

59. a skill you’re working on mastering? graphic design and makeup

60. best thing to happen to you today? i woke up

61. worst thing to happen to you today? i woke up

62. best compliment you’ve ever received? idk i don’t care for it much

63. favorite smell? cake, records, red roses

64. hugs or kisses? hugs 

65. if you made a documentary, would it be about? something about trad goth/punk scene and black people in these subcultures

66. last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? my “inner self” playlist

67. lipstick or lipgloss? lipstick

68. sweet or savory? sweet

69. girl crush? debbie harry, molly ringwald and kate bush

70. how do you know your in love? i think of the certain person all the time, i daydream of our first date and start to say that i hate them ironically lmao

71. a song you can listen to on repeat? blackout by david bowie or digital by joy division

72. if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? with some talented rockstar

73. what are you most excited for about this time in your life? maybe keep studying music and then art 

i won’t tag anyone but thank you again ����.

[dracaesanguinem]

And why should I be calling you dragon eggs, again? I’ll explain: you were all bestowed on me as a VERY VALUABLE gift, something I cherish and love and hold dear in my heart. You’re more precious than rubies, just one could buy ‘a ship to take (me) back to the Free Cities’ and all three would leave (me) a healthy woman for the rest of (my) life; and still I would never give any of you away for the biggest price in the world. You’ve been here with me and Dany on this amazing journey and I cannot believe we’re growing so much with you all at our side.

This is a thank you post. Not because I reached a certain number of followers (which I can barely believe I did no matter how big or small the number of digits), but because I owe you some love in return for the one you’ve given us both.

I am grateful to each and every one of you for various and diverse reasons and love you all equally. But some of you have stood out with open arms, ready to have me and Dany enter into your lives. And to those, I want to give a little bit of individual attention (this is in no particular order):

Fil ( @killthebxy ): You Fil (ALL THE PUNS) my heart with happiness every time we talk or I see you on my dash. It was by pure causality that I came to form a bit of a bond with you, (PORTUGAL CAR*LHO) and embark on a lovely journey. I want to interract more with IC as we do OOC because I absolutely adore your vision of Jon and your understand of him. Also, you were one of the most supporting people here for me and I’ll never forget that. Vou guardar um espacinho no meu coração e no da Dany para ti e para o Jon. E nunca te esqueças, “mata o menino, João das Neves”.

Tati ( @rhaegxr​ + @vaedar​ ): You’re the biggest sweetheart I have met on this platform. There is not one single person that can disagree that you and Rhaegar (or any of your muses to be honest) are simply brilliant. On our little d/iscord verse, I’ve come to learn so much about my muse and how I, personally, want to portray her. And Rhaegar is simply the love of Dany’s life and their bond makes me want to cry each time because of how perfect it is. Thank you so much for putting up with me and writing with me and just being one of the genuinely sweetest, most supporting and loving partner-in-writing I know. Here’s to many more threads and tears to come!

Scarlett ( @cerseilionesslannister ): We’ve not written here, but nonetheless I feel like you deserve a bit of a spot in this post. Although our relationship did not start on solid ground, you’ve been incredibly supportive of me and that has, somewhat, helped me continue this journey with my muse. Also, I cannot go by without saying that your love for Cersei has inspired me to love my smol dragon queen as well. There’s not a lot of people that put the amount of work and dedication into their muse as you do with Cersei and I think we can all see the result of that in your beautiful portrayal. Thank you so much for being here each time I need to talk to you ♥ I’m really glad we met.

Sophie ( @rcseheir ): Thank you so much for allowing me to play in your little group verse. I cannot tell you how much it has helped me to come out of my shell with my muse and my writing ever since I sent that one message. I owe that to you: the people I’ve met, the lovely possibilities of what’s to come out of that story and pushing me to step out to the big unknown and just talk and meet people. It was a hard thing to do before the moment I got into this group, but thanks to you and your brilliant imagination, I was able to take that leap. Also, your Willas is simply… Amazing. Your portrayal and development of his story have breathed LIFE into him. He is YOURS, truly and completely. Your work and your passion reflecting on this amazing character. You earned all the love and praise you could ever possibly get! And, most of all, it inspires me, personally, a LOT.

Hash ( @mybigfatcock + @boaredtodeath​ ): I think that almost 90% of the people who have seen you on their dash before actually talking to you thought you were a p*orn blog ♥ and you have to admit it’s quite funny. In my case, I 100% thought I was too small and too green of a writer to write with you. Your love and passion for Euron is captivating, inspiring and so genuine. You just really LOVE your character and don’t sugarcoat him to appease to anyone’s tastings. And you’ve taught me to feel the same about Dany. You were the first person here to teach me to play Dany’s ‘darkest side’ and enjoy it for what it is. I can map out eons of theories and plot tons of crazy stories where things don’t quite go down the ‘hero’s journey’ theme and it makes SENSE and it WORKS because, ultimately, you have supported me to think outside of the box in that way — and I learn from the way YOU do it. I have not regretted, for one single moment, having met and developed a friendship with you. We are great partners in crime and I love to jokingly call Euron Dany’s “pirate hubby”. They(we)’ll conquer the world with ships and dragons and krakens and a lot of mutual understanding and support for crazy dark sides. ♥ I really like you

Ruth ( @shaenc ): (hey)  I JUST MET YOU (andthisiscrazy) and you’re already one of my favourite people here. You’re the big sister to my small Dany and I just adore Shaena so much already. Also part of the PORTUGAL CAR*LHO and “let’s taunt @killthebxy ‘s Jon” squad. I can’t wait to develop a friendship and write with you on our little Targaryen verse. It’s also so great I get to teach you more about the ASOIAF world while you teach me about Tolkien’s! Such a win/win.

But also, to all of you that I see on my dash every single that and have brought me smiles and reasons to want to come back over and over again (again, in no specific order):

♥ @saltveined : for writing such a heart gripping Theon && @theeldestsun : for your love of Doran and all of Dorne and being #1 in their defense squad && @wolfqueennamedstark : for making me love a character more than their canon version && @kisscdbyfire : for being such a sweetheart and writing the best wildling babes && @crowncdcrow : for being such an amazing writer and portraying such a perfect Jon && @hecantbekilled : for your awesome Robb and for bonding over coffee and berries && @taintedblccd : for putting huge smiles on my face and having such a great BIG heart && @theusurper + @griffinshand : for being best frenemies since the first minute we became mutuals and making me laugh in public and throwing JonCon at me (lords know I need him in Dany’s life) && @jbearmormont : for being the bear to my Dany and the Jorah I always want to run to, for having the most amazing understanding of one of my fav characters ever && @foreignaccent​ : because your love for Shae transpires and shines so beautifully! I love that you are so understanding and supportive and protective of such an amazing character. It’s inspiring and beautiful. && @akingslayerx​ : because your Jaime is amazing and you make him the justice he deserves! And there’s nothing wrong in loving the way you write him as well ♥ more power to you, honey! You DO write him beautifully. @ofblackfyre​: for creating such a sweet and genuinely great OC that I absolutely love. Lyanna is precious and Dany will forever protect her && @queenofkategat : for writing such a beautiful Lagertha and I can’t wait for us to play once you have your GOT verse settled && @keepfcith : for being the most amazing little and fierce bear and breathing life into Lyanna && @halvbjorn : for having one of the most amazing penned OCs in the fandom and being always so passionate about her && @oftarth : literally the first person I followed her and still one of my fav people && @rhacgal : for being the living fire and child to my Dany, the beautiful dragon Rhaegal && @earth-whisperer : for having Carlotta be such of the sweetest and most heartwarming characters I’ve played with as well as a mother-figure for Dany and just being such a sweetheart OOC && @ofgoldenwit : for your flawless and HUMAN portrayal of Tyrion, for breathing such an unique light into him && @neitherknightnorlady : for her wonderful Brienne and, possibly, the future captain of her queen’s guard && @motherofwolvcs​ : for being #1 in the Cat defense squad and writing so beautifully, inspiring us all, and being such a mother figure to all these babies && @thcbull​ : because even if I just met you, I’m always happy to see some love for Gendry and I hope we’ll be able to write some in the future. && EVERYONE ELSE I MAY HAVE FORGOTTEN, BUT LOVE ALL THE SAME!!

If you’re new here, as well, please never be afraid to contact me. I’m more than happy to meet new people, even if I haven’t followed you back, and possibly add you one day to my ‘dragon’s eggs’ baby list. ♥

[tsgcolumbus]

Meet Nicci: Owner of A List Introductions

     We are so thrilled for our new series of Q&A’s with our Volume 3 Scouted business owners. We wanted you to get to know more about what they love, their career, and what advice they have for other entrepreneurs. 

     From the first time we met Nicci, owner of A List Introductions, we instantly gravitated towards her great personality and passion for what she does. She is truly exceptional in her trade and makes the process of finding your significant other stress-free, the way it is meant to be. We asked her some fun questions about dating and why she chose the profession she is in. Enjoy! 

THE PERFECT DATE NIGHT OUT IN COLUMBUS WOULD BE: 

“Personally speaking, a lovely dinner at one of my favorite restaurants and great conversation with my husband is the perfect date night for me! I believe the key to a perfect date night is to find something that you and your date both enjoy, whether it’s a first date, second date or a night out with your spouse. If I were to make a suggestion, a client-fav is The Keep in the LeVeque Tower. The ambiance is unique and the cocktails and food are delicious!”

ADVICE I WOULD GIVE TO THOSE ON A FIRST DAY: 

“There is something to be said for the dating practices and philosophies of years ago, where technology wasn’t a factor and two people were introduced by a mutual connection (family, friend, or neighbor or…executive matchmaker). Times have changed, but many of the first-date do’s & don’ts haven’t.”

THE BIGGEST LESSON I HAVE LEARNED IN MY CAREER: 

“Work/life balance is probably one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned. As an entrepreneur who is passionate about my company and the people I work with, the labor of love I built was rewarding, but was out of balance with the wife and mom part of my life. Finding balance was something I had to prioritize and I found quick relief by disconnecting my work email to my phone, and eventually taking the leap toward not working on the weekends. My job can be demanding and many people do not realize what my average day entails – date scheduling, 2-3 in-person meetings per day, client debriefs, and so much more – it was difficult to find time for myself, let alone for my family. Ultimately, I found the balance to be a lesson in mindfulness that allowed me to be a better mom and wife, as well as friend to my clients.”

THE REASON I CHOSE MY PROFESSION AND WHAT I LOVE MOST ABOUT IT: 

“I have always had an intuitive nature and skill set for connecting people so it only seemed natural to follow my passion and start my business 8 years ago. Ultimately, I truly love connecting, counseling, and inspiring people! There is so much fulfillment to be found when you’ve connected two people, counseled someone through a break up, shared relationship advice, or been the person to offer words of encouragement and hope through an often frustrating journey within the world of dating. My career is literally a labor of love.”

I UNWIND AT THE END OF THE DAY BY: 

“I would love to say I unwind by reading a good book, enjoying a glass of wine or going to the gym, but ridiculous realty television shows – the cheesier the better – actually do the trick for me. I also enjoy documentaries on Netflix, too.”

THE BEST ADVICE I EVER RECEIVED WAS: 

“There are many pieces of advice I’ve been given through the years, both professional and personal. One in particular that I’ve been able to share most and pay forward is, “You cannot rationalize an irrational behavior.”  Relevant to my line of work, many people (myself included), have experienced a ‘broken heart’ and it is our natural instinct to want to make sense of a break-up and understand why someone behaved the way they did. Post-breakup reflection with unanswered questions – especially if you tend to over-analyze things – combined with the inability to make sense of what did or didn’t happen will drive you crazy! This simple piece of advice resonates a little different with everyone, but it is definitely something I’ve shared with many who needed to hear it.”

IF I WERE NOT IN MY CURRENT PROFESSION, I WOULD BE DOING: 

“I would definitely be giving back in the community. Another passion of mine is using my resourcefulness to help others, specifically non-profit work for single parents. Having been a single parent myself, I understand the need for providing a resource for the parents, but also the children. Starting a non-profit focused on single parents is definitely something I would like to do!”

Learn more about Nicci’s business, A List Introductions, here. 

[ranumba]

Walking Down The Memory Lane of 2017

Over than 350 days passed by, and here we are at the end of the year. Where our mind can’t help but try to remember the path we’ve been through in each of the days. For me, if I have to be honest this is a year of self-acceptance. As I step into adult life as 23 years old young woman, this is the stage where mostly people said as a “quarter life crisis”. I have nothing to argue because I admit the validity on this. This is the moment where most of people on my age and I have to decide a step between choices in front of us. The dilemmatic post-graduation phase whether to decide what to do next, working in public or private company, working in high reputation company or moderate one, stick to the idealistic by working in a place that suit our background or deliberately change our direction by crossing another lane. There are more, whether to decide continue to master study or focus to find a new passion, for those who already with significant other maybe they will think about tie the knot first, or pending it, some others might still alone but eager to find one and anticipate a happy marriage as soon as possible. There are too many options to choose, and each of those is not an easy-bitsy choice as a lot of consideration followed. Your future might depend on your decision today. And the decision I’ve made for this year lead me to a lot of learning values of self-acceptance. Where the reality say differently toward my expectations and force me to accept everything with an open hand.

I imagined that by end of this year i would obtain my scholarship for my master program abroad and depart to my dream university at the first month of 2018 and experience my very first winter in my whole life, but what happened is I am here typing my year end post in my comfy bedroom inside my home sweet home and January 2018 I will still here. Dude the reality already spoke different about this expectation. I failed to get a scholarship, this wasn’t thing I imagine, this wasn’t in my plan, this will ruin my future but it won’t. Honestly it broke my heart the day I knew that I couldn’t go for my study in early 2018 as I planned. This is the biggest moment of self-acceptance and self-forgiveness. I tried to accept that it wasn’t my fault, it wasn’t because I am in-capable to receive that scholarship, it because it wasn’t my time, and everything happened for a reason. If I keep point out my failure in 2017, I will stuck in one place and probably I will spoil my precious times for the rest of the months. So I decided to move on and see the Brightside. One door closed, another will always open. I keep moving on and try to attempt my luck in other scholarships, I know it requires more time and patience, but I refuse to give up.

Talking about the Brightside, I looked back to the days I spent this year. One failure cannot replace thousands of precious moment I have created with a lot of amazing people I met and I spent time with in the rest of the year. I wrote this as the way I show my gratefulness despite my disappointment to one thing. It makes me feel that I am way luckier than I thought. At the beginning of this year, I spent my one full month to join an IELTS course and long story short I managed to get a good score for IELTS and got my very first LoA from my dream university in Holland. The most important is how I met my new friends from the class with similar motivation to study abroad, they keep my boost up. i will explain the rest in points form according to timeline (LOL such a lazy writer).

·      ~  I met a new friend from Korea trough my bestie, she asked me to join her and her Korean friend sightseeing around North Bandung area, it was such a good day and always exciting to be a tour guide and make ‘em in love with my neighborhood

·       ~  I had a gathering with fellow 2016 World Congress committees, it was marking that our whole event and cooperation as team has officially finished. I was the oldest in the team I guess, but dedicate myself to the utmost for my organization is never a disappointment, I love it. The fact that it was my last contribution in IAAS, I believe my younger brothers and sisters can do better to take care our beloved IAAS Unpad

·      ~   I applied for one scholarship to Japan which held by one well-known Japanese company in Indonesia. Out of my expectation, lucky I got selected as one of 12 top applicants and had to thru psycho-test and interview in Jakarta for two days, although I didn’t make it for next stage at least I got new friends. Psst…free accommodation and extra fee for applicants. Alhamdulillah

·     ~    It was a splendid day, there was a mini-reunion with my junior high school friends and TEACHERS. I am grateful to be a part of my JHS cause the “ukhuwah” is still well maintain until today, the fact that the teachers whom you left after almost 10 years still remember you and treasure you as one of their best student is so priceless. My best teachers ever.

·       ~  My favorite person is never forget to remind me how important our family are, he always try to convince me that I should spend more time with them while I can, we will never know what future brings for us, as long as we can, we are available, do the simplest act for the sake for our family won’t hurt, in fact it is so much precious. I believe that, and I apply that as best as I could. I asked my cousins to watch a movie in cinema, i didn’t miss the family gathering especially on our big day like Eid where there I initiatively asked them to take a group picture that we missed last year, bought a bouquet of flower for my mom on mother’s day, and other simple quality time with them although it’s only for a lunch outside

·     ~    This year on May when I turned to 23 years old, there wasn’t a big celebration. My birthday is never a time I anticipate to be honest because often times it just passed like other normal day. But I am so grateful that my close friends did their best effort to made my birthday special, I always love the moment when my friends, juniors, family, send me a birthday greeting and wishes me with all the best hopes. It shows how much people care and love me very much, and I am beyond happy for that

·     ~    Another exciting moments in this year that I got to witness my friends graduation even one of my friends had to do the defend seminar while she was 8 months pregnant (what a super woman), be there and cheering them on their special moments is always give me another joy that they way to be happy is not only because of my own success, but for what people around me have achieved also. Again, I am grateful to witness their struggle to pass the tough college years because I know how hard it was when I was in their position, some of my friends still walking on their way for a graduation, they are not late once again, they walk on their timeline. Another “hikmah” that I failed my scholarship that I don’t busy with my own thing, instead I can help people around me more as best as I can to finish their research

·       ~  Chili Padi Academy will always be a memorable event for me, the 2016 experience to be one of the facilitators came again to me this year out of my expectation, in 2017 I managed to join the team again although for “together gather” event only in Malaysia. I got to meet again my fellas from Singapore and Malaysia, Weihan and Xin Run my fav SG couple and Amalina who was about to get married when I met her I August. To be surrounded by inspiring and well-motivated people is always give me a positive energy and I am thankful that the whole team trusted me to involve in the project again. And right now we are looking forward for CPA 3 in 2018

·    ~     My Taiwanese friends were coming to Bandung for a vacation, Robert contacted me few months in advance just to make sure whether I could take them for sightseeing and I said yes. It was a well-spend 3 days with them, I am happy to introduce them to a new culture, delicacy, and a splendid nature of my home town. We had a great time together, big thanks to my lovely bestie and my sister who accompany us and made the trip much more memorable. The more the merrier

·       ~  On early September I receive an honor to deliver a simple sharing and presentation to over than 100 JHS students upon an invitation from my JHS teacher on their camping night, as an alumni although I am not too confident towards my sharing material but I tried as best as I could to motivate them to do better than me in the future, and I am proud how my juniors so much more improve each year compare to my batch. There is a saying that “no matter how far we go, never forget where we came from” and my junior high school is the biggest milestone that gave me much more strength to move forward to the place where I am right now

·     ~    I completed my first level of Korean class, I didn’t really have intention to join this course at first but my bestie asked me to join this with her and it was quite worthwhile. Never stop to learn new thing, and from this experience I manage to improve my Korean language in a proper learning. Thanks to my Korean teacher Ms. Han and my other fellow classmates who made my Saturday in 2017 always meaningful + extra hangout after the class LOL

·     ~    2017 is the year where I received a lot of wedding invitations from my friends more than last year. Stepping into adulthood, wedding is one of top agenda to attend followed by a child-birth. It means a lot of extra effort to put make up and formal outfit for a wedding and quite expenditure to buy a present for my friend’s new-born baby. It is always exciting that I can be a part of their happy moment in their life, the fact that the wedding can be a mini-reunion with my JHS, high school ,or college friends . On top of that, I can learn the A to Z wedding, marriage, to parenthood preparation from friends who face this stage first, so I can be more prepare for my moments in near future hopefully :D

·      ~   Ever since I start my effort to apply for master scholarship abroad, a lot of people around me gradually notice what I’m doing start from family, friends, junior, to my lectures and teachers. I am thankful that they always support me and deliver the humble prayer for me so that my wish can come true. Because of this also, a lot of my friends or even my juniors personally contact me to share the steps to apply the scholarship, dude…I feel like an information bureau lol, but I am happy to do that because sharing is caring, seeing a lot more people around me have the same motivation give me strength that “oh yeah…we can do this together” although in fact that I’m still struggling as well

·      ~   Guys, this point will be more serious and a lil bit thrilling, believe it or not it happened to me. First thing first, be careful when you wrote a yearly resolutions. It becomes your du’a and Allah will direct you according to your hopes. So here is the reveal, I wrote several points as my 2017 resolutions and Alhamdulillah most of the points are granted and meet my expectation, but my main wish to get a scholarship was not a part of it. It turns out that I didn’t write one specific scholarship grant that I wanted to receive, I wrote more than one as options and DANG I failed one of the scholarships I wrote in the options, and it means I might get a chance in other scholarship right? And it just because the other scholarship application open by the end of 2017, doesn’t make me “fail” my wish literally in 2017 right?  When I re-read my resolutions it gave me goose-bumps, I can’t  blame Allah for not granting my wish it is because Allah has done right to lead my path according what I wish and what I wrote on resolution. I just didn’t realize that. And one more thing I skipped is that I had a resolution to do a volunteering this year, and Masha Allah if I got the scholarship this year I might too busy preparing stuff for departure and forget this chance. It means Allah doesn’t want me to miss the opportunity for doing a good deed in this volunteering. So I looked up in a volunteer platform online and I saw one volunteering chance in Bandung by Indonesia Association of Disability Women, I thought this is a brand new thing for me, I never in touch with the world outside agriculture and environment but this might be a good chance for me to involve in social activity. I plunged in and I am in love with this new world, although it is not related with my major at all but hey to do a good thing is only require a willingness and spirit I thought. I chose a role in publication as I consider this is the field I am familiar with since college, but most importantly I got to meet new friends with their different conditions, like deaf, blind, mute, or those with mental-difability.  Being around them give me a huge reflection to myself, how lucky I am blessed with this perfect physical condition and health, I have nothing to whine about, I don’t deserve to complain about my limit, my new friends give me a valuable life lesson that I never had in class. Other volunteering I did was from my favorite NGO called Indonesia Diet Plastic Bag Movement, It was a short work term as I had to survey house to house in small area in Bandung and educate every household about the impact of plastic usage and encourage them to use reusable bag on daily basis. Those experiences gave me motivation to continue my deed as long as I can, it’s never too late to start

So….that’s all pretty much wrap up my not-so-pleasant-but-meaningful 2017, this post can’t compile all the memories I made in every single day, but these are just the representative that always can remind me of so many grateful things whenever I feel down later. My concrete plan for next year I think I will still continue my work as project research assistant with my lecture, continue my volunteer work, and probably a part time in English course as a tutor (well I don’t know, I know this is random but I always want to try this), I will spend more time with my beloved people, and I will still going on with my master study scholarship, hopefully in 2018 my biggest wish to study abroad will come true. And oh…..one more thing, much more delightful love life : I hope to see you soon Bear :)

The year of 2017 as a year of self-reflection, self-acceptance, a good lesson to face adulthood to become a better human being.  This post will be closed with one reminder verse of Quran : “Are they, then, not aware that they are being tested year-in, year-out? And yet, they do not repent and nor do they learn a lesson (from it)”. - (Quran 9:126)

 Have a very joyful and wonderful year ahead people.

Tanjungsari, 31st December 2017