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vi-visected · 2 years ago

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in my head after the events of camlann merlin returns to camelot and, still riddled with terrible guilt and grief, confesses to leon about everything that had happened and everything he had done, magic and all. and instead of outrage or betrayal or scorn or judgement (or even death, as he had briefly considered) leon shatters him with a deeply apologetic expression and a whispered “my friend… you must have been so afraid, and so tired.” and merlin collapses into heaving sobs against him and doesn’t get back up for a long time.

#bbc merlin #merlin #bbc leon #sir leon #sir leon the long suffering #i know arthur forgave him #in his own way #but i don’t want merlin to be forgiven #i want someone to tell him he had nothing to be sorry for #i want someone to be proud of him #‘you always looked so small then’ leon tells him several centuries later #‘i never could figure out what great burden could weigh you down so much’#‘destiny is one of the heaviest things i’ve ever felt’ merlin says #‘heavier than despair?’ leon asks him ‘heavier than grief?’#‘the only thing heavier’ merlin replies ‘was being left without purpose.’#merlin writers really said merry christmas!! your gift is trauma

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