#mentioned /I believe/ in a chat with Kirei but not put on the blog

[arcxnumvitae]

One of the only reasons Mhoirbheinn was able to kill his father was because Bhaltair simply didn't expect it. The man is extremely cunning and has survived his fair share of plots against him over the centuries of his life and during his time as advisor for more than one king.

But up until the point of the manor massacre, Mhoirbheinn had been a pretty obedient boy. There were no real signs of rebellion or acting out from him. When he snapped and killed his older brother that night, he essentially got to the rest of the house and to Bhaltair before news of that could even spread within that single moment.

[kxrei-a]

i think it was just on twitter or some other off-blog setting, but you once mentioned that, barring shirou, kirei would probably be the only person to attend kiritsugu's funeral. what do you suppose would motivate him to do something like that?

Kirei had once thought Kiritsugu to be an anomaly like himself. Someone that he could relate to and perhaps even understand. But it was made clear during the war that Kiritsugu was not the man Kirei had originally thought he was. Every similarity Kirei thought they shared shattered the more he learned Kiritsugus true nature. In the end Kirei believed the man to, in fact, be worse that what Kirei was (Especially in the way he played the “i want to save the world” card, when in reality he wanted nothing more than to save himself).

They were nothing alike. It was in that moment Kirei lost all interest in Kiritsugu. In essence Kiritsugu saw himself as the better man. a selfless man who put the world above all else. He was neither, and Kirei realized this. Though I suppose at this point I’m rambling about useless things. Kirei merged with the Grail and thus watched as Kiritsugu made his wish. He watched him kill his wife and daughter. Everything he ever had, he watched Kiritsugu toss aside. And in that moment he had nothing; was nothing.

Kiritsugu was a very selfish man that hid his personal goals behind the guise of a white knight in shining armour. Perhaps he did not realize it himself, but Kirei did. When Kiritusgu died Kirei felt nothing. there was no pity. no remembrance. A man like him deserved nothing.

His biggest motivation was that he was most likely the one that gave the sermon. Though deep down I suppose there could be a underlying reason for him attending it. Perhaps as a way to let him know that Kirei was in fact still alive. And perhaps as a way to have one final chat with him to say, “If you could not even save yourself, then how could you save the world?”. He would never gloat. He would never laugh. There was no use making fun of a dead man. he would simply be there to remind him there is no place in the world for a man so selfish that he could not even help himself.