#melissa febos

[newsmutproject]

When it comes to sex scenes, the rules say things like: Don't write them at all, and if you do, don't use these words. Don't write them silly, porny, dramatic, tragic, pathological, grim, or ridiculous.

My whole practical thesis around the craft of writing a sex scene is this: it is exactly the same as any other scene. Our isolation of sex from other kinds of scenes is not indicative of sex’s difference, but the difference in our relationship to sex. It is our reluctance to name things, the shame we've been taught, our fraught compulsion to an act a theatre of types. It is indicative of the lack of imagination that centuries of patriarchy and white supremacy has wrought on us. 

To teach sex scenes is to talk about plot, dialogue, pacing, description and characterisation: all those elements that make a captivating scene. A sex scene should advance the story and occur in a chain of causality that springs from your characters’ choices. It should employ sensory detail that concretises and also speaks symbolically to the deeper content of the story. Or if not, it should service your work of art in whatever ways you want from your scenes.

“Mind Fuck: Writing Better Sex” in Body Work by Melissa Febos

[gatheringbones]

[“The problem is that we have exiled sex in our minds. We have isolated it from the larger inclusive narrative and we have limited its definition to that which serves the most privileged class of protagonists.

I think that this is a symptom of that other habit of treating whole classes of human beings as though their stories do not have the stakes, narrative depth, and complexity typically assigned to dominant protagonists. It is a craft quandary indeed to write yet another sex scene in which a white male protagonist exercises his archetypal masculinity on a secondary, two-dimensional character functioning as a prop in his hero’s journey without any narrative awareness of this exhausted trope.

But to write a sex scene in which that marginalized character is treated with some reverence and depth? To write it from their perspective? Or to write a scene in which a white male character experiences, even in an inchoate way, the deep discomfort that occurs when we act out our erotic story on another body without recognizing its humanity? I’ll repeat the unrule: you can use any words you want.

Here is Eileen Myles, from Inferno, in case you thought comparing a pussy to soup, or using the word crotch, was out of bounds or unsexy:

But after kissing her mouth a little chapped which seemed familiar then feeling her breasts not so large, but nice round and beautiful, familiar breasts, ones I already knew in some way I tugged down her pants. She said Oh. Like a soft amount of light, a small gust of wind. And luckily she had some sweatpants on or something, a stretchy waist. Easy getting them down and there were her lemony legs. Not big not strong, but smooth soft hair like peaches everything that way. Pink rose warm. I just dived down. It couldn’t have been too fast. Time was being so slow and warm. And there it was. A pussy, the singular place on a girl, it’s where I’m going. Wiggly thing, like soup, like a bowl. Another mouth. Like lips between her legs and the taste of it. Piss and fruit. I pressed my face against its bone and it moved. She was letting me. All this was happening. I smelled the future right there, a present and a past. All that went through her, known through the soft sweet flesh of her lips and clit. It was like my face felt loved temporarily […] I felt plunged into a tropical movie in which light was bathing my head and her pussy, her cunt, her crotch was a warm smile and for a moment I lived in her sun.

The revelation here is not that these words can be used in a sex scene, but that a pussy, a cunt, a crotch can be transformed by a sex scene. “Language is never innocent,” Roland Barthes once wrote, and I agree. Here, in the sense that the words pussy, cunt, and crotch all carry the connotative luggage of all their previous contexts—the violence, disgust, and pornographic theater of all the scenes and mouths I’ve heard them in and from. Experience, however, is innocent. This narrator’s sexual reality is so powerful a phenomenon that it washes these words of their previous connotations. Now they mean not a wimp or a bitch or the place on a woman that belongs to a man, but something magnificent and weird, pure and exotic, deeply familiar and erotic—a warm smile, a cosmic body. Just as sweatpants become perfect attire for such a scene, smooth soft hair like peaches, and the actual smell of sex a good one. When they enter this revelatory scene, these degraded words are suddenly imbued with the same reverence as their speaker. To use them is an incontrovertible act of (re)creation.”]

melissa febos, from body work: the radical power of personal narrative, 2022

[perfectlyripeclementine]

what are you reading recently!! love your writing would love to see what ur inspo is etc :)

yay thank you what a great ask!!

over the past couple months i’ve been obsessed with june jordan and reading her poetry in the mornings with my coffee! she has definitely impacted my style a lot.

others who i would say have influenced my style include bell hooks, dionne brand, anaïs nin, adrienne maree brown, and robin wall kimmerer.

specifically in terms of queer literature, obviously stone butch blues, but i also loved Last Words from Montmartre by qiu miaojin as well as fieldwork by iliana regan and tomboland by melissa faliveno. i’m always interested in literature that ties queerness to land.

i read a lot of memoirs. another word for love by carvell wallace really influenced the way i think about rhythm in writing. i also loved wounds of passion, bell hooks’ memoir on writing.

i’m very influenced by genres close to what i would loosely call magical realism, though many of these authors use different terminology. this includes the human origins of beatrice porter by soraya palmer, we measure the earth with our bodies by tsering yangsom lama, and she would be king by wayetu moore. these are all books that tie spirituality to land to history to culture (and sometimes in some ways to queerness.) in this same broad genre my next read will be blackheart man by nalo hopkinson.

i also read a lot of craft books. some recent favorites include steering the craft by ursula le guin and body work by melissa febos (which i really really really cannot recommend enough!). i’m also currently reading shapes of native nonfiction, an anthology gathered by elissa washuta that i cannot recommend enough and should be accompanied by ursula le guin’s essay on the Carrier Bag Theory of Fiction.

and my current read is thrust by lidia yuknavitch! it’s very rich and weaves a lot together about water, history, the environment, labor, solidarity and queerness. it’s kind of a maze of a narrative but a lot is staying with me.

i’m gonna stop there for now bc i think it’s a lot!! but broadly i’m interested in personal narratives, be they memoir or fictional (or lightly fictional), magic & spirituality, and speculative fiction. poetry is newer to me and i look for work that really directly ties the personal to the political.

cool. that’s what i have for now. i hope that’s helpful and gives you a good place to start! let me know if you have any further questions :)

[nobeerreviews]

When I first came to the city, it took all my fantasies and set them on fire, turned them into flickering constellations of light.

-- Melissa Febos

(Roma)

[sulasnsleep]

“i was a girl gulping a woman’s grief.”

— Call My Name, Melissa Febos

[reverie-quotes]

I became a writer because I loved writing and I still do. I became a writer because the process helped me survive and it still does.

— Melissa Febos, Body Work

[dreamlogic]

"My ability to predict the ends of my relationships always had less to do with a single flaw that would break us and more with our failure to change before it did. That is the principal difference between my relationship with Donika and my relationship with past loves. Donika and I both know how to change, and we do. Sure, we’ve had about 30 years of therapy between us and a long track record of learning from our mistakes in love, but mostly we enjoy growing—the work and reward of it, the surprise at who we become when we try to become more ourselves. My inability to see our demise isn’t evidence that our relationship has no flaws, only that our ability to change is predictable, which means that the future never is. For the first time, I trust that whatever hardships we encounter, we will be able to grow around them."

[poetsandwriters]

Melissa Febos, author of Body Work: The Radical Power of Personal Narrative (Catapult, 2022), in “The Heart-Work: Writing About Trauma as a Subversive Act.”

[dk-thrive]

...While I sometimes resist the work of writing I resist my own psychic suffering more, and writing has become for me a primary means of digesting and integrating my experiences and thereby reducing the pains of living. Or if not, at least making them useful to myself and to others. There is no pain in my life that has not been given value by the alchemy of creative attention.

— Melissa Febos, Body Work: The Radical Power of Personal Narrative (Catapult, March 15, 2022)

[sammeldeineknochen]

Bevor ich erfuhr, was man unter Schönheit verstand, hatte ich an meinem Körper nichts als Freude.

Melissa Febos: "Girlhood", S.95

[gatheringbones]

[“In the 1980s, social psychologist James W. Pennebaker conducted some now-famous studies on his theory of expressive writing. Pennebaker instructed participants in his experimental group to write about a past trauma, expressing their very deepest thoughts and feelings surrounding it. In contrast, control participants were asked to write as objectively and factually as possible about neutral topics without revealing their emotions or opinions. For both groups, the schedule was fifteen minutes of continuous writing repeated over four consecutive days. Some of the participants in the experimental group found the exercise upsetting. All of them found it valuable and meaningful. Monitoring over the subsequent year revealed that those participants made significantly fewer visits to physicians. Pennebaker’s research has since been replicated numerous times and his results supported: Expressive writing about trauma strengthens the immune system, decreases obsessive thinking, and contributes to the overall health of the writers. And this is after only four days of fifteen-minute sessions.

Pennebaker has since written extensively about how this effect can also be consistent on a much larger scale, in communities who have suffered the atrocities of war and other political events. The articulation of painful memories, including the literature and art that arises out of political upheaval, is integral to the formation, preservation, and integration of collective memory. Let’s face it: if you write about your wounds, it is likely to be therapeutic. Of course, the writing done in those fifteen minutes was surely terrible by artistic standards. But it is a logical fallacy to conclude that any writing with therapeutic effect is terrible. You don’t have to be into therapy to be healed by writing. Being healed does not have to be your goal. But to oppose the very idea of it is nonsensical, unless you consider what such a bias reveals about our values as a culture. Knee-jerk bias backed by flimsy logic and pseudoscience has always been a preferred disguise of our national prejudices. That these topics of the body, the emotional interior, the domestic, the sexual, and the relational are all undervalued in intellectual literary terms, and are all associated with the female spheres of being, is not a coincidence. This bias against personal writing is often a sexist mechanism, founded on the false binary between the emotional (female) and the intellectual (male), and intended to subordinate the former.”]

melissa febos, from body work: the radical power of personal narrative, 2022

[leehallfae]

“over the years, i’ve come to look forward to the point in my own writing at which continuing seems both incomprehensible and loathsome. that resistance, rather than marking the dead end of the day’s words, marks the beginning of the truly interesting part. that resistance is a kind of imaginative prophylactic, a barrier between me and a new idea. it is the end of the ideas that i already had when i came to the page—the exhaustion of narrative threads that were previously sewn into me by sources of varying nefariousness or innocuity. it is on the other side of that threshold that the truly creative awaits me, where i might make something that did not already exist. i just have to punch through that false wall.”

— melissa febos, “mind fuck,” body work

[litandlifequotes]

It has been my experience that the people I judge most harshly are the ones in whom I recognize some part of myself.

Whip Smart by Melissa Febos

[iphisesque]

Thesmophoria, Melissa Febos

[doctornerdington]

Just finished. It was the exact book I needed to read at this exact moment of writing my current project. Love when that happens. (It’s beautifully written, too.)

[newsmutproject]

The problem is not that vagina is an unsexy word… The problem is that we have exiled sex in our minds. We have isolated it from the larger inclusive narrative and we have limited its definition to that which serves the most privileged class of protagonists.

If sex words have been overused, so have grief words. But you don't see folks so readily nixing the use of sad or tears or melancholy, or scenes of staring into the middle distance as you contemplate the terrifying sublimity of your own mortality. Not the way you see folks banning the words pussy, hump, thrust, or, most terrifyingly and supposedly unsexy, vagina.

-Melissa Febos, “Mind Fuck: Writing Better Sex” in Body Work