#meets the great spontini with “exes that are actually right for eachother” storyline

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Rambling post abt why i love writing for Things Bloom Up There so much. Split cause it might get long and also it's sad lol

I find myself fascinated with it because it let's me explore a really unique type of story that was like. Feather-dusted in Good Night, Dear Heart: the grief for someone you never knew.

The whole episode hes obsessed with this dead girl and her death, desperately trying to prove that they didn't just lose her, someone TOOK her, not resting despite having no prior knowledge of her, no memory of her, and the person he leapt into not even being her bestie or anything.

"Grief is love's souvenir" what if you never got to have the love in the first place? You feel all a mother's loss and love but no kid

What if there was someone you didn't know at all, but felt like you DID? Not like a parasocial relationship or something, i mean like. Idk if you got a concussion with some retrograde amnesia on top. And then they die and you're left with a hole, but you didn't even have a space for them in your heart before, so it's 10× worse cause you didn't lose a piece saved for them, you lost a piece you didn't even have in your possession to lose. So instead of going from +1 to 0 you go from 0 to -1.

Like from this doc I wrote of random thoughts to weave into the story

I'm also a big fan of 8 1/2 months and Another Mother, where it went beyond just "i need to leap" and he actually feels the pain and worry for Kevin when he was kidnapped, beyond the worry for his fellow human, into genuine maternal worry, plus how besotted he was with tereasa [al moreso but still], and then ofc him bonding with the unborn child and crying over wanting to keep it, just these little snapshots of the affection he's capable of feeling for these children

I just think it's a really interesting struggle. Mourning someone and you don't even know what they sound like. The first time you met them was on a mortuary slab but you can't live without them. Inject the grief of a bereaved mother into an uninvolved bystander. It is a fascinating concept.

I will say I think I need to give Sam a silly one next. If QL becomes like Ace Attorney and MASH, once the strongest parts of the hyperfixation are over, instead of discarding it, my brain will put it on the shelf and admire it at random intervals, which means I have the real chance to just. Give the boy some silly, nice, resting episodes. Cause I like writing this "lost episode" sorta thing. I find joy in writing things that could realistically be on TV [language, adult content, etc] so I think he needs a happy one.

Anyway. Fascinating.