#me: im going to check my silly ship tags to help me feel better during remission! :D

[melkor-did-nothing-wrong]

The An/gbang tag: *goes a few days without being complete and utter bullshit*

Me: I can see myself enjoying this nice, calm, peacefu-

The An/gbang tag: nope actually never mind we're back to people posting here to tell you why this ship specifically never had a chance/would never ever work BUT THE OTHER SHIP that DOESN'T have that one EVIL in it is BETTER LMAO.

Me: but both of them are evil it's not the fault of one perso- ok nevermind I'm so glad I got a reminder about how inferior my ship is or whatever thank you.

[dokidokiliteraturegirls]

1 day hiatus and some thoughts regarding the last arc.

Man, that was one heck of a ride! Or at least I hope it was, because that was my intention! Before we move on, I want to announce I’ll be taking a day long hiatus, mostly because it would be pretty weird to finish the hyper-dramatic and intense arc I was making and then jump straight back into silly hijinks and shenanigans, so there won’t be an update tomorrow, but there will be one the day after! I’ll also share some thoughts and ideas that went behind the writing of that specific art and ask for some opinions under the cut, so don’t miss it!

I was going to make this post a video but after I heard my recorded voice I was like eeeeeeeeewwwwww. Sorry if I ask you to read too much (I’ll try to keep this text post as concise as possible), but trust me, it’s better than my awful voice and bad attempts at comedy. Trust me.

Anyways, I want to thank all of you!! The last five days have been really intense here in ddlitg with Monika’s Deletion Arc. With the intents and purposes of keeping the events of the story mysterious I purposefully remained mostly silent during this week (mostly because I can’t shut tf up). I know you guys had a lot of questions and it made me kind of sad not being able to answer them to keep up the aura of mystery, but it was also incredibly fun and motivating to see you all coming up with your own theories about how Monika was going to be brought back, how her memories would be installed, etc~ It really made me feel like I succeeded at keeping you guys hooked on the story! As a fanfiction writer, that is a great achievement for me ❤️❤️❤️ On the other hand, some people got really scared. They thought I was going to delete the blog at the end of the time limit, and that Monika would stay dead for good. I’m sorry that I couldn’t elbow you guys and say *pppst! don’t worry. all this tension is temporary. I don’t write tragedies bro. In my stories, even when stuff goes sour, it always ends up ok because I think it gives a good message* because it would spoil all the suspense I was working on so hard to build up.

Secondly, I was also a little scared that I was breaking up the mood that I had set up for the blog. Because of the beautiful messages you marvelous individuals take the time to send little ol’ me, I know many of you see this blog as a palate cleanser for all the f*cked up stuff that happens in DDLC, and I remember people even telling me they recommended the blog to other people who had just finished the game so they could overcome the trauma more easily, as I have set up a fluffy and comfortable atmosphere around my updates. Even when I delve into more serious topics, such as Natsuki’s bullying because of her being trans, I had never written a story arc as tense as this one before (previous multiple-update spanning story arcs were the Natsuri and Sayorika shipping arcs, so....). However, I may not show it because of how fluffy DDLitG is, but I’m a big fan of emotionally intense stories, such as shonen manga, where blood-soaked heroes scream about hope in the eyes of imminent defeat. The kind of stories that keep you glued to the screen with your heart pumping and your blood boiling wondering what is going to happen next, how are our heroes going to overcome the next hurdle (I recommend Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann if you’re into that kind of stuff like I am). However, the stories I write are very different: Doki Doki Literature Girls is about four girls trying to heal from past trauma with the power of mutual support and persistence, ohfuckistaigis is about random stuff happening and out-of-character banter for the sake of whatever joke I can come up with in the 15 minutes I take to make each update, and Literature and Murder is about two seemingly incredibly different characters realizing they’re much more similar than they realized, and growing together as friends while exploring themselves and overcoming their internal struggles ina world that actively works against them (no, really). I really wanted to challenge myself to get out of my comfort zone and write an emotionally intense story arc for DDLitG, as not only it is my story with the biggest and most beautiful audience (I love you guys so much ❤️❤️❤️), but it’s also the one with the biggest potential for those kind of stories. HOWEVER, I’m still scared that I betrayed you guys by writing something different if you put your trust in me to bring you happy fluffy updates every day to help you unwind. Some people were disappointed when the first update in the arc dropped, and that’s understandable, which is receiving your opinion on this is super important for me.

You know, I worked super, SUPER hard on this arc. Like... the hardest I’ve worked on anything ever. I’ve put more woman-hours and effort into making every little thing make sense, fit perfectly with each other, work as a conclusion to a previously established fact, and at the same time be mysterious and interesting in these five updates than the entire rest of the blog. And apparently it paid off!! I received so many wonderful messages, so many theories daily, and so many people saying they cried at the conclusion that it felt like a truly special time in the blog, and an reminder of why I love the power of fiction and being a writer so much ❤️❤️❤️ I want to thank you all again for being with me in this journey, and I hope I can keep bringing you updates that make your hearts go doki doki!!

Now as a fun conclusion I want to share some memes I received that I was too much of a dumbass to remember queueing. I’M SO SORRY I’M REALLY SORRY I WAS SO FOCUSED ON THE UPDATE I FORGOT TO POST THESE I’M SO SORRYYYYYYYYYYY 🙇🙇🙇

Now let’s check them out because they’re the best ❤️

(pleasebringmonikaback@gmail.com holy shit)

@retritale I LOVE THIS SO MUCH OMG!!! I kind of wonder what would happen if I’m on the bus or smth and spot someone with a picture of my blog like this one as a wallpaper. I would probably lose my shit right there and then.

We actually received this one today, but I’m posting it here because 1. it’s hilarious and b. I don’t want people freaking out thinking Monika got deleted again.

And finally, and extremely importantly... remember that thing about removing Monika from the Icon and Banner that was the best idea ever because it was so meta and it paralleled beautifully with how Sayori disappeared from the title screen of DDLC in the 2nd run and was so much fun because more and more people discovered it and I literally received messages about people freaking out because they had just discovered it every day? I want to thank this anon for that! It was entirely their idea:

I read that messages as I was having breakfast and literally stopped eating to make the new pictures because the idea was so genius. I really wanted to IM this person to thank them personally but... you know. Anon. So I’m posting it here! Thanks buddy, you made the whole experience seem all the more real ❤️

Once again, I can’t thank you enough for your wonderful messages, sending your theories, sending me shit because you didn’t agree with my decision, everything, the comments you put on posts, the tags you put on the reblogs, everything. You’re seriously the best fanbase a writer could ask for ❤️❤️❤️