#me: i am more on the reddit side. also the dry skin which sucks ass but like. i have spent the last WEEK trying to be like | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

reginaofdoctorwho · 2 years

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encouraging and not encouraging that i look up my new meds on reddit and find people having absolute shit times on it. fantastic would love to see that on the multiple papers my pharmacist gave me outlining "every" symptom i could get.

like pharmacist/doctor, you couldn't fucking tell me before i got started??

at least i know it is not just me getting fucked up again

#pharmacist: uh stomach issues. u could get tummy pain babygirl! sunshine is a no go u burn a lil easier with these #u might get dry skin or headaches but otherwise good to go honeybun!!#reddit: yeah so i went on it and within days i was back to being as depressed as i was before therapy a few years ago #i have found and linked several medical sources on how it affects mental health and a few noted suicides on it #it absolutely worked for it's intended purpose but i would never voluntarily go on it again or i think i would die #me: i am more on the reddit side. also the dry skin which sucks ass but like. i have spent the last WEEK trying to be like #''okay well this isn't supposed to be a symptom w the meds. what am I doing wrong that i feel like this again?''#and was like. trying to trace it to my sister's death anniversary or getting hit on or like. the cold and my reynauds and migraines blendin #but i am sure it is the meds #which is fucking GREAT (both sarcastic and not)#because i'm stuck on them for 2 months and can't go off suddenly but ALSO that means it's not my fault :D #i was mentally stable-ish and it is NOT my fault i'm not anymore! i'm doing a good job!#anyway i probably have to try to explain this to my public speaking prof #because i turned in my recorded speech that i was so excited for and was fucking numb. i did a shit job on it #and i know that and at least i can journal it for makeup points #but like i had it scripted i had points and i could barely do it. had to re-record like 5 times still hated it #''anything worth doing is worth doing poorly'' is what i've been repeating the last few days lol

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