#me when im MENTALLY EEL

[sophisticatedaiphos]

i feel like i've been pretty good at restraining myself in this blog, but that being said..

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ONE CHANCE JUST ONE CHANCE PLEASE HES SO FINE OMG KICKING AND SCREAMING AND CRYING HE LOOKS SO GOOD IM GONNA THROW UP LORD HAVE MERCY PLEASEEE HIS HAIR???!?!?!?!?PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ONE CHANCE IM BEGGING ON MY HANDS AND KNEESSSSS

[blues824]

im surprised this hasn't been requested yet,, but could you please do malleus, jade, floyd, silver and trey with a reader who is like alice kingsleigh? im talking about the live-action alice, not the animated one (im unsure if they act the same, its been a while since i watched the animated one).

The LA and the animated versions are quite different. Gender-neutral reader.

Trey Clover

You were as brave as you were adventurous, and he appreciated that about you. However, your sense of adventure often ended up with you in trouble with Riddle, and this baker had to bail you out with a Get-Out-of-Jail-Free card (a strawberry tart) more times than he can count. You loved standing up for what you believed was right, and you didn’t think the Queen’s rules were just at all.

Trey loved hearing about your own world. The different cultures and how you were seen as crazy always amused him. However, whenever you got to the parts where you were either going to have a spouse chosen for you or you were going to be thrown into a mental asylum because you had the ability to travel through mirrors and get from Twisted Wonderland back to your world… or so you claimed, according to your world, he was in disbelief. Your land seemed even more twisted than anything Twisted Wonderland has to offer.

All that aside, you do have to admit that the treats your beloved baker makes are better than the Eat Me! pastry that you had consumed however many months ago. It did increase your size by a very significant amount… you almost destroyed Heartslabyul. However, you just drank the Drink Me! potion and you shrank down to the size of a pencil. Trey took it upon himself to make sure that you weren’t squashed, and you sat on his shoulder.

The Vice Housewarden knows of your distaste for the patriarchy, but this man was written by a woman (literally and figuratively). When he threaded his fingers through yours and brought the back of your hand to his lips for a gentle kiss, you could tell that it was genuine love that he felt for you. He had no intention to ‘tame’ you. No, he wanted to be the person you returned home to, and you were grateful for that.

Jade Leech

He was intrigued by you, to say the least. You marched so bravely into Azul’s office that day and you demanded that your friends be freed of their contract. Considering you were a sea captain and knew much more about shady deals with pirates than Azul knows about making shady deals, you were able to find loopholes within the loopholes created. You took your time and read through the fine print and pointed out errors, and seeing the cecaelia so riled up in anger made the eel’s heart beat quickly.

That is how you both became friends, actually, and romantic partners. Your sense of adventure aligned with his, and you both swam and hiked with each other. You lived an active lifestyle, something that doesn’t quite fit within the societal standards of your world, so keeping up with Jade was no challenge for you. Every single time you make it up a mountain, you always ask about the different mushrooms and their properties, and this eel is more than happy to tell you.

Your Unique Magic was definitely strange, as you had the ability to travel between entire worlds. For any holiday break, you were able to go back home. However, you rushed back into Twisted Wonderland in what seemed to be a tattered straitjacket. Your eyes were a bit sunken in, and you seemed a bit woozy. That’s when you told him, with slurred speech, that you had been sent to a mental asylum and injected with a bit of medicine to make you go to sleep before you pulled the syringe out and stabbed it into the doctor.

Jade took you to his room where he helped you take off the straitjacket, offering you one of his own shirts and hoodies. Then, he tucked you into bed so that you could sleep off the medicine’s effects. Oh, he definitely wanted the doctor who did this to you to pay, but for some reason, he was not able to go to your world like you were able to. But your tired ramblings of forced marriage and societal standards made him want to find a way so he could make those humans pay for touching his beloved.

Floyd Leech

He, too, was intrigued by you when you marched into Azul’s office and demanded to read your friends’ contracts. He did get bored when you sat down and read the fine print, but when you pointed out a loophole that managed to get your friends out, Floyd was genuinely surprised. No one has ever managed to do that before, which made his hyperfixation on you even more apparent and present.

But, that ‘hyperfixation’ wasn’t a ‘hyperfixation’... it was a crush. Your adventurous personality both aligned with and contradicted his. You never made him bored. You liked playing basketball with him so that he could get extra practice. You loved sneaking him away during his 15 minute break at the Mostro Lounge just so that you could hang out with him a bit more. Also, when he was in a bad mood, you were not afraid of being squeezed because you faced an entire jabberwocky before. A grumpy eel was nothing to you.

During that break where you were originally going to go home, he did not want you to leave. Well, just a few days into the break, you jumped back through the mirror in a straitjacket and you were stumbling about. You ran as fast as you could to Octavinelle and into the [closed] Lounge. Floyd rushed to see what was wrong, and you went on and on about how you were thrown into a mental asylum and injected with medicine that would put you to sleep. He picked you up and over his shoulder and took you to his room where you slept off the medicine’s effects. He cuddled close to you, and you would never know how angry he was.

Even though it doesn’t seem like he pays attention, he knows that nothing matters to you more than continuing your father’s legacy as a sea captain. However, he never wanted you to go back to your world if it would kill you. After all, he can’t function without his shrimpy. Anyways, you could be a sea captain in Twisted Wonderland, and he would even go with you. He could swim as much as he wanted, he could sail as much as he wanted, and he would get to be with you.

Malleus Draconia

He knew you were different based on the way you walked up to him and just introduced yourself. You held no fear of him, but you didn’t know who he was. When he told you to call him what you will, this intrigued you even more. You both found yourselves excited to meet up each night, as you got to know more about this mysterious new friend that you had made yourself acquainted with.

When you inevitably discovered who he truly was, you understood where he was coming from. Nothing really changed, but you often teased him about keeping more secrets from you. Eventually, a flower of romantic interest bloomed between the two of you, and every single time he brought you back to Ramshackle, he would wish you farewell by placing a polite and loving kiss on the back of your hand. When he looks back up at you, you can feel your heart flutter a bit because of the amount of love he looks at you with.

Malleus had no intention of ‘taming’ you either. If you were to rule beside him, you would do wonderfully as-is. Your world did not share the same view, and one night you had told him about your winter break when he came back. You were taken in by Octavinelle when you ran back through the mirror from your world in a straitjacket and you had some medicine injected into you at that point. The dragon prince was absolutely angry, and a storm was starting to form as you went on and on about the happenings.

If you think you are ever going back to your world, you are sadly mistaken. He is not letting you go back just so you can be tossed back into an insane asylum. He knows about your desire to carry out your father’s legacy, but you can do that here. Actually, he still hates the idea of you being away from him, but it will do because at least you would be in Twisted Wonderland. Plus, there is no chance that you are going to fall for someone else, so he has nothing to worry about.

Silver

He reminded you of the dormouse that you had met. He always fell asleep, which was unfortunate when one was as adventurous as you were. But you were not going to let him lie in the middle of the hallway just to be trampled. It was with a tad bit of difficulty that you pulled him onto a chair and off of the floor. However, he miraculously woke up because of all the extra movement, just to see you really close to his face. To say he was startled [and flustered] would be an understatement.

This was a start to a rather interesting relationship. Since he was a knight, you compared him to the card knights in Underland, but found there to be no comparison at all. After all, he was not rushing to paint the roses red. He was very serious compared to your first year friends (excusing Jack and Sebek), but that was what you liked about him. He, too, was the constant in your life, even if you had only known him for a short period of time.

Silver appreciates peace, but he appreciates you even more. So, when he comes back from Briar Valley, and he hears whispers about you being thrown into a mental asylum back home, he is running around trying to find you. He found you at Ramshackle, staring at a straitjacket with a look of absolute betrayal on your face. That was when he realized that all the whispers were correct. He pulled you into his arms, grateful that you were okay. 

From that point on, he kind of treats you differently. He doesn’t want you going back to your world if that is how they are going to treat you. No, he will keep you safe because he doesn’t want you to get hurt. He supports your dream of being a sea captain, and he will help you learn the different lands from a multitude of different maps so that you could be confident in the geography of Twisted Wonderland.

[ghostieyanyan]

I’m the anon who requested the Yandere overblot Jamil. Other than him, I think Floyd has the most potential to be a yandere. The guy’s just unhinged. Maybe a bit too insane. So I thought what if he was too dangerous and insane that Floyd was locked away at a mental facility but managed to escape and kidnaps MC. Or maybe Floyd would be more unhinged as a yandere when he overblots. Either one is a great idea. Floyd would just destroy anyone who touches his Shrimpy

thank you for requesting again ^^ <3

this reminds me of @merakiui serial killer floyd (im one of her biggest fans) she wrote something about floyd in a prison on death row and mc/yuu is an journalist that interview him so that's what it reminds me of and i might be a little inspired by her work but i do want to try to have my original put on it too. so i hope that's okay.

~Crazy for you~

Patient!Floyd x caretaker!mc

Warnings: yandere, stalking, kidnapping,

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Floyd

yes. the boy is crazy. like off the hinges crazy, but he's actually really smart too. Sly, slimy, cold hearted eel. even when he got caught, he didn't even seem remorseful. But with his family that has connection everywhere, he was put into a mental facility for his "troubles."

you weren't anything special in that the facility, you just help with medication records, paper works, and if there was low staffs, you'll help give out the medication. but that rarely happened.

but this was a rare scenario, Floyd with his mood swings and violent behavioral issues made him a ticking time bomb for some people or like an eel waiting quietly in the cracks of the coral waiting for them to put their guard down.

it was a really busy day and a lot of the workers had to take care of other patients who has going through sever side affects with their medication. So this was going to be the first time you'll meet the famous Floyd Leech.

Since Floyd was so problematic, his has to be placed in a different room from the rest and when he takes medicate, you have to have a guard with you.

When you walked into the room, the room was a mess, even with the limited things that he had. Floyd was looking at you with his blanket over his head.

you had to lore him out like a kid... or better described, a monster..

it took a few minutes to get him out but when he did, a smile grew on his face. He gave you the nickname Shrimpy, because how small you are to him. He took his medicate and was really enjoying the "conversation" you two were having. more like he asked question and you just answered. i mean, they were simple questions, "what's your favorite color?", "your favorite food?" , "do you like the ocean?" , "if you can go anywhere you wanna go, where?"

after you finish, you were about to leave when Floyd sudden lunges at you. holding you against him.

"nooo... don't leave shrimpyy"

more guards has to come in and hold him down to get you out. you take a last look at him when you left. his eye were locked onto you...

The next few days, Floyd would act hostie with another workers, demanding that he wanted to see you. Its gotten so bad that the facility just gave you the role to take care of him until something changes in him.

you didn't know why or how you've won this eel man's heart but i guess you did. lucky you.

Your presents helped his mood so much that the facility thought that he was sane to leave. Frankly you think they just want to get rid of him, for good.

The day Floyd left, he didn't whine, he didn't scream or lunged at anyone. he was tamed as a house pet.

For his finally request, he asked to see his Shrimpy, when you approached, he gave you one tight hug and said something that sent a shiver down your spine.

He lets you go, sent a big smile and waved everyone good bye.

You vanish the next day, people thought that you tired of the crazy, like Floyd.

Or you could have been drugged in your home and dragged out to who knows where.

But when you do wake up you'll see the unsettling smiling face of an eel...

"welcome home shrimpy~"

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sorry for misspellings qwq

[boopshoops]

hiya!! for the ask thing can I ask for Food and Name for Jocia and Yuu Shi? tysm!!!

(also baby goats baby goats baby goats-)

Name: What does your twst OC's name mean? Why does Rook/Floyd call them [insert nickname]?

OH i have- lots of lil lore tidbits for this

Jocia, according to my research waaaay back when I finally looked into her name (I deadass thought I just made it up at first), is typically associated with "joy!" Though Im sure that was obvious from the almost constant glare on her face /sar. It is also a different form of the name Jocelyn, a German name. I always pronounced it Jo-sha til I learned it was supposed to be- well, exactly as its spelled, Jo-see-ah.

Floyd calls her Barracuda! Initially I was going to have that be what he called Yuu, but the "catfish" pun was too good for me to pass on. So- what else could I do but hand over the title to Jo? Plus I think it fits her better :P Primarily due to how the barracuda is more known for how they hunt and fight.

They are known to be ferocious, attacking quickly and using ambush techniques (similar to a certain pair of tweels). They are also known to just straight up take fish from other species, even human divers- besides that, they don't really attack humans unprovoked. Barracudas also compete with moray eels for food/prey.

I feel like this relates back to how Jocia "handles" her anger- or- howshetakesitout on people around her who wrong her/those she cares about. She is ruthless and fearsome at times, but for the most part she prefers to just... chill. She doesn't purposefully go seeking out trouble when she's in the right place mentally.

Rook calls her "Reine des épices" (pls excuse any mistakes, blame the translator), which translates to "Queen of Spice!" This is honestly more of a personal reference. Me and my partner always used to joke that Jocia was kinda like a pepper- and would often use 🌶️ when joking about her. It's mostly due to her fiery, hot-tempered nature.

Yuu- is- well, yuu. I didnt come up with that, i just snatched it JFNDJDJ. HOWEVER. "Shi" can have many different meanings! I tried my best to go for something vague. I like the thought of having something that leaves you guessing what applies and what doesnt. However! It can actually also mean "you." Yuushi as a whole can translate to "hero!" (Another ironic take, I know)

Floyd calls her catfish bc. It's funny. I think it's funny and I'd bet $20 that he'd think it's funny. So it's catfish KFNDJDK

Besides the obvious- (pretending to be someone she isnt), catfish can live in almost any aquatic climate, making them rather adaptable. They have a large range of size and behavior, and are most well known for their stinging "whiskers." (Glances at shi's taser) They ALSO compete with eels for prey- as long as they arent a small enough species, then theyd become the prey.

Rook calls her "Reine du Rock", which means "Queen of Rock"- this one is just simple. She loves rock music. She plays it all the time, and it is what she most enjoys performing. Again i am not a good translator trust me i tried to learn another languagemybrainjustcant

Another fact, the twin's parents switched them around at birth on accident, and forgot who they named what initially. It's entirely possible that Yuu was supposed to be named Jocia, but they don't know :P they fight over who is older bc of this too.

Food: What is your twst OC's favorite and least favorite food? Why (optional)? Is there anyone they can share their favorite food? Is there anyone they can count on to take over the food they dislike?

I went into this a lil bit with Yuu in the past during different ask games! Here and here. And a lil bit for Jo here. (Their fav and why<)

Yuu Shi is partial to suggesting treats to Trey- whether he actually makes Bungeoppang or just uses Doodle Suit, it is currently her easiest means of getting it when she only had it a few times prior. So, sure, she'll share... sometimes.

Jocia- given she is partial to a barbequed dish, she could share it with Leona given his love for meat... but WOULD she? No.

Yuu Shi would never subject anyone else to caffeine even if they really enjoyed it, unless that someone is the sink drain.

As for Jocia... really, she didnt have too much against olives. They were bad, yeah, but not horrible. She hated the way they made her tongue itch, though... and then she figured out that they weren't supposed to do that. She's allergic. Yuu Shi used to take them for her, but there isn't really anyone who enthusiastically WANTS them either.

[cali]

HOW do you have the patience to make these details... how do you decide where each line goes when there are so many? Is it channeling something? Or do you have to think and reason, okay, this line goes here, and then the next line goes here...

when i was younger i used to think spending more time on art made it better and i would kind of try to prove my mettle in art by use of heavy detailing instead of via technical skill. also i generally care moreso about the details in things rather than bigger picture so im more inclined to have my drawings reflect that... now i dont think that time makes it better anymore but thru years of working like this ive just developed a general affinity for extensive detail. i am trying to be more content with making simpler stuff too but i have to consciously learn that though, keeping it simple and staying confident about it.

do i channel something:

mmmm...maybe? sometimes a picture makes me a little crazy and i feel like i have to represent some type of perfect divinity in a "correct" manner.

heres 3 pics where that happened. the first two are trying to be more representational of concepts whereas the latter is more general level ornamental. like how a church would be decorated.

im a little more lax now on dedicating pictures to spirituality, but a lot of my pictures still have some type of divinity meets earth topic and in those i always think of the divine as something that in its truest form couldnt be understood but because the creature has divine power it can present itself or modify the world in any way it wanted to. and so it would choose ways that are easily understood as beautiful and good. why angels are pretty...

thats whats happening in these. the comet makes its body be beautiful while the seal eel serpent is showing its power thru perfect control of the water and making a really pretty splash

to ur question of how i decide on each line: its a mix between keeping every line imbued with intent but also not concentrating on the picture so hard that i have to enact force on it. i still redo most of my lines multiple times but i also dont feel fully conscious for the detail part of these bigger pictures. i have to be in a good mental state and those happen rarely. my workflow isnt ideal. a lot of days i do nothing and then on one day of the week i dont do anything but draw on one picture for 14+ hrs. i did that a couple days ago again and its euphoric in the moment, but the day after i feel drained dry as fuck. theres also an aspect to it where i draw virtue from patience and dedication to a task. i try to steel my patience a lot and drawing like this is part of that. i look up to nuns and eunuchs or that spaniard who built a church solo. id like to have that type of mindset with a Will that strong. but i dont want to do it via god based faith but instead my own thing. sorry for babble- thank you for the ask.

[merakiui]

👀 i literally have u on notifications but im afraid of liking first bc omg!

⏰ i love all your work and your little mumblings they’re all so yummy — honestly i can’t imagine how much you write for these little idiot boys, i have a tumblr with the sole purpose of writing twst fluff that i semi-abandoned bc writing is so draining for me

💌 see above ^^

💖 literally self explanatory since i stalk your page day in day out — i literally stayed up all night to finish one of your longer fics (until 7am!) this summer

🥵 quite literally ur work makes me horny lol >w< i have a hyper specific favorite scene you wrote

🍓when you write fluff in your mumbles, its literally the most perfect thing in the world— PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE write more fluff

🎀 omg riddy in fairy-tale felicity was so sweet i loved him so much

🌺 they’re all so evil i love them so much

💡i can’t even imagine how many ideas you have in your smart noggin of yours i wanna kiss your forehead bc they’re all great

💎 your mind,,, omg you write everyone so perfectly. literally we connect via brainwaves on what the tweels act like

🧛‍♀️ THE NEWEST ROLLO FIC MAKES ME WANNA READ MORE OMFG he’s my prophet <333

(ask game)

AAAAA THANK YOU OMG!!!!! 💖 this is so sweet,,, and it means so much to me....

The twst fixation is too strong...... since it's a dream of mine to make a career out of writing one day, a lot of it is practice (and feeding the worms in my brain)!!! :D but also,,, writing is a very big part of who I am and so I can't imagine myself without writing!!! Whether it's for fandoms or ocs,,, I am always typing away at my laptop hehe.

But omg!!!! I must know because I am terribly curious,,,,,, (if you're willing to share ofc and if not that is perfectly okay!!!) which specific favorite scene might that be?? 👀 I always hope my smut work is good enough to instill just a sliver of horny in readers, so I'm happy I'm doing it correctly mwahaha!! >:D

( ˶°ㅁ°) !! I actually really love writing fluffy things. >w< cute and silly shoujo-esque romances are very fun to read and write....... I'm having the most fun adding in all of the fluffy moments in Floyb rom-com. The first sex scene is meant to be just pure horny, but I wrote it way too lovingly. ;;;;;; soft, sappy Floyb whose love feels sticky-sweet and syrupy........ yeah. („ᵕᴗᵕ„) fairy-tale felicity is one of my favorite Riddle works!! I loved writing soft yan. orz Dr. Rido is too cute...... he deserves a horsegirl. She would be very good for his mental health methinks.

🤝 us when our minds align for tweel thoughts!!!! I love those stinky, silly eels with all of my heart. orz an impossible amount of ideas for them stored in my head at all times... AND THANK YOU FOR READING THE NEWEST ROLLO FIC!!!!!! 🫶 he can make me his angel anytime. <3

[minarcana]

playing more 6.0 (im sorry im so slow its the mental eels that decide i can only grind) and livingway saying the loporrits are excited to protect Etheirys instead of simply pushing to evacuate because Urianger specifically brought them there and made them love it

[punches the dirt] urianger augurelt loves the world he loves the people in it he loves everything so much that his joy of teaching loporrits about it and bringing them to see eitheryis and experience it got his love for the planet to rub off on them. he cares so much. he's so depressed so often in msq and so haunted by his failures a lot of time but any time hes pressed or gets the chance urianger expresses true and sincere love for the world and those around him. even when shit gets dark or even when he feels like he is decidedly Alone he cares about everything so much. all the way back in hvw patch when he was claiming to work with elidibus he tells you he was never swayed by the ascians because, specifically, he loves the scions. he cares about everyone

[me crying and smacking the roof of my urianger] you can fit so much love in this elf!!! you can fit so much love in him other people cant help but have a little bit of it rub off on them sometimes because he!! cares so much!!!

[likeadog]

i love analyzing how deck builds play into characters personalities like yugi using a silent archetype deck that focuses on monsters that combine or summon each other represents how he draws strength from his friends plus of course the silent magician/swordsman which gain atk over time (at least in the anime lol) representing how he’s grown to be strong enough to be on his own without atem helping him. plus side note about the silent magician archetype is that while they’re all depicted as women they all use masculine terms and language which is yet more proof for my yugi muto transgender agenda… then you have atem’s dark magician deck which is heavy on effect monsters and spell cards that allow him to get his most powerful cards out as quickly as possible in contrast to yugis strategy of allowing his cards to gain power over time. atem also notably uses a combined dark magician and dark magician girl attack on yugi in their final duel that yugi counters with the strength of silent magician, countering the idea that atem (as dark magician) and him (as dark magician girl) are stronger together than they are apart, since dark magician girl is dark magicians pupil and yugi feels that atem has taught him everything he can teach and his continued presence would stifle both of them… i love yugioh

NO LITERALLY.....kazuki takahashi said that the duels represent "conversations between hearts" and when you look at it that way they have so much more meaning.... again im always on that ishizu shit but the way you can glean what sort of future she saw from her dialogue

and then

which entirely recontextualizes her deck. i think the fact she spends so much time during it talking about her vision and how its tailored to kaibas deck makes it easy to overlook but i think the fact in later things like duel links "exchange of spirit" is her ace card really hammers it home.

the two biggest cards in that duel from her were "exchange of the spirit" which she describes as "the living will die and the dead will rise", as well as "blast held by a tribute", which sacrifices a tributed monster in order to destroy the monster being tribute summoned. with this in mind the outline of a plan that involved taking yami marik out along with herself becomes clearer-- which again, calls to how shes meant to parallel kaiba in a way. her perfect composure is that of a soldier grimly going to war

and dont even get me started on rishid v joey. the mental eelness.

[mihai-florescu]

I think i have a very average intelligence and general skillset unless i think something is gonna be funny, when braincells i didnt even know i had activate. I famously got a scholarship with an admission rate allegedly lower than harvard just to spite my mom. Didnt want it, i was listening to these kids saying they applied 3 years straight and id feel so bad cuz that was not my experience at alll i treated it like a side quest. I roleplayed as an eel in the interview at some point. Actually nvm i dont think any new braincells were involved, it was just the universe setting things up for me trying to see how far id take it. Same as the time i was in the choir that sang for the president when i cant...really sing well imo... i just thought itd be funny if i applied cuz i was in my glee era... anyway i need new silly things to get involved in, i think the reason im doing bad mentally now is because i dont have enough side quests to keep me busy. But they gotta be ridiculous and inconvenient, a *recording freezes* "yup, thats me, youre probably wondering how i got there" moment. Maybe the problem is that shit like this only happens when youre in highschool? I dont know

[beelzemon]

Tagged by @luvtxt (thank u bestie 😳)

Are you named after anyone?

Erm. No . Not my birth name. But Rain originated from a Warrior cats oc i had when i was 10 ish hahaha

When was the last time you cried?

In the shower but i wuz just being dramatic / needed to get it out of my system

Do you have kids?

I have a bird with the mentality of a four-year-old, does that count?

What sports do you play/have played?

played soccer & softball was i was really young. Not by choice. My parents just wanted me to do something (i didnt like it)

What’s the first thing you notice about someone?

i mean. Their appearance if it’s in-person. Online, i tend to look at how their profile is decorated Lol

Eye color?

Any talents?

being alive in 2024

Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies or bust 👻

Where were you born?

Cali-freaking-fornia

Hobbies?

Drawing, sculpting, sewing, plush-making, doll-making, tufting, etc… Currently i enjoy doll-making, which is a mix of sculpting & sewing (i make art dolls!)

Any pets?

Two springer spaniels, 1 tabby cat, and 1 birb (cockatoo— my son)

Height?

we don’t talk about it

Favorite school subject?

uhrm . None. teehee (i hate deadlines)

Dream job?

I do not dream of working . That’s capitalism talking, babey! But. Im currently getting my degree in Nursing (RN) with a minor in Radiology. I like to craft though and wish i could do it professionally. I have menthol eelness (undiagnosed adhd)

erm. I tag uh . @bowserinthesky @g-thrice that’s it lol

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—— PLEASE DO NOT ENGAGE IN EXCESSIVE FORMATTING WHEN WRITING WITH ME. Small text ( and a low amount of double-small text ) + bold or italics is fine, but if you typically write using multiple fonts, double-small text, 25x25 icons and hard-to-read colors all in the same reply I will probably softblock you or not follow you at all. It’s hard for me to read on my computer and not usually accessible on mobile.

—— I DON’T SEND IN PASSWORDS. I promise I read everyone’s rule pages and abouts before I follow them. It’s very important to me that I understand every roleplayer’s boundaries and triggers so I can tag things accordingly, but passwords give me extreme anxiety.

PLEASE TAG FOR ME:

Spiders

Eels

Mold / Fungus

Trypophobia ( especially patterns on skin )

Jump Scares

Disordered Eating

ALL DRAMA/DISCOURSE/VENT POSTS

**Callout posts

My OOC faceclaim is Canti from FLCL

** Seeing a flood of callout posts on my dash can set off my social anxiety and a depressive spiral to the point of potentially driving me to self-harm. I believe posts containing evidence and corroborating stories between victims about abusers in the rpc ARE important ( and I do my best to read each callout that comes across my dash ) but I need time to prepare myself emotionally and mentally before reading.

[actualbird]

mental eelness musings. not depressing (i think) just. i figured out a thing.

taking care of yourself becomes very very difficult when youre afflicted with self loathing. like, thats obvious. on my very bad days, i'll think "everything sucks and i hate myself but i havent eaten in a while i should get on that to make things suck less" but the immediate internal counter-attack is "WHY would i wanna feed The Me. we hate that guy!" rinse repeat for every other possible Thing That Needs Doing That Would Make Stuff Suck A Bit Less. self loathing. i hate that guy that needs to be taken care of by me, i hate the me thats not taking care of that guy we hate taking care of. it's an endless ouroborous of hatred and continuing misery. and ive seen others who have found the method of imagining a younger version of yourself to be helpful, that self kindness becomes easier when they picture themselves as a child who yearns for that kindness their present self can give to themselves, via this method. thats really great and im glad that works for people, but it doesnt work for me, because i also hate that kid. that kid thats me. i think hes an idiot, i wouldnt be nice to him or care for him because i hate him, and he hates me too because im not nice to him nor care for him, and so we're back at square one. because my self loathing still recognizes the Child as Me, and anything thats me is to hated by me

what ended up being more helpful to me in taking care of myself, in my experience, was not thinking of myself at all.

which sounds bad but like.....so most of the people on this blog know that ive got luke plushie (and other plushies too) and i love that silly little boy with all my heart. there is of course the glaring obviousness that i relate to luke as a character and project onto him, i love him despite the fact there are parts of himself that i see in him. yeah thats deffo a factor, that i managed to trick my brain into loving a thing thats ostensibly certain parts of me, but by proxy. though thats not the thing i wanna talk about,

im talking about luke plushie specifically because hes a tangible object. so like, i take care of him. i like taking care of him. he brings me joy even if hes just a plushie and this sounds very childish but i like to do things that will make him happy; i'll keep my desk clean and orderly so his spot on it is kept tidy, i'll take a break from working to have coffee with him placed by close cuz it's like hes taking a break too, i'll go out sometimes not because i particularly want to but because i think it'd be fun to bring him out and that he'll have a nice time and i can take pictures to chronicle the day.

voila, i managed to do Things That Make Stuff Suck A Bit Less. i dont let my desk become an overwhelming mess that becomes a detriment to my mood, i get an ingestible substance in my system every once in a while due to the coffee with plushie routine, and i avoid holing up and isolating myself at home because i want luke plushie to have a nice lunch out.

theres my cat too, gato, whos actually a better example because hes an actual living creature. he likes to cuddle up to me whenever im outside in the garden, and that means he gets me to see the sun even on days i dont want to move. he likes the cuddles and i like giving the cuddles because i like him. me getting up from what couldve been the start of a depressive episode was halted in the process of that, because gato wants his cuddles. and i like giving that to him.

another thing is im usually outside with gato whenever i take a smoke break, and there are days i'll chain smoke an entire pack in one sitting because i hate myself and destroying the health of the person i hate is thing that i want to do because i hate myself. but i cant do that very much now. because gato wants his cuddles so hes close to me outside, and when theres too smoke around him, his face scrunches up in dismay. i dont want to make him uncomfortable or give him secondhand smoke. because i like him. if me hurting the person i hate comes with the caveat of also hurting the cat i love, then the hate takes a backseat. i love my cat more. i love my silly little plushie more.

my point is that my self loathing is a horridly self obsessed creature. which is why thinking of different "versions" of myself doesnt help me very much, because it stays within the internal realm of me, the thing i hate. whats helped is external things that are not me, and loving those things more than hating myself. for this to work, i cant feed into the self loathing's internality. it cant be me. it has to be someone else.

this is deffo not like, a cure all or whatever (if it was then i shld be much uhhhhhhhhhh better SDFVKSDHFKSDJH). but it helps, especially with the more mundane self care things. like, this gets me feeding myself, that bastard i hate so much, because shut up we're putting that on hold because it's been too long since ive shared a snack with luke plush, so we're having a goddamn snack with him because itll make him happy.

[thirstyforred]

For the meme: otp: speedrunning evolution and durgetash

Alvin x Hubert - bingo bongo, they give me mental eels, like it's not canon, i know, i literally came up with it as a tiny joke for myself, like lol evil scientists should kiss about the medical atrocities, and now we're here, and like i don't actually want to be hired by CDPR but hey, hey secret agent reading my blog, just pass the note to lore keepers that this is now canon and they should add something to TW1 Remake, i will be so normal i swear

Durgetash - trying to answear this one with general game-y Durge, not Nithral specificly, bc Nithral would come in as a combo with Nam, but akjsdhajksdhjka this is such a good thing to randomly, seemingly, drop into the game, Larian when off with it, and it tells us so much about how batshit Gortash is, im in love with the whole concept

[snowscaled]

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About. Headcanons. Stats. ( links WIP )

Rules below cut.

Dogma. 26, They/Them.

I am just a little mouse who does art full time. I do freelance illustration, typist work and write the webcomic The Illustrious Dragons Guild. I have major depression, ADHD, and an anxiety disorder so please be patient with me when talking OOC and responding to rps. Any art used on this blog that is not mine will credit the artist directly with a link. If you are the artist and would like your art removed, please DM me and I will do so promptly.

RULES

—— STANDARD RP ETTIQUETTE APPLIES. God-modding, extreme subjects such as rape, pedophilia or incest, and muse-killing are all completely off the table. You may be warned once, but you will not be warned twice. I will hardblock anyone who pushes or repeatedly breaks these rules, and I choose not to follow blogs that write this content.

—— NO NSFW WITH MINORS! I am extremely selective when following underaged muns AND muses. Please know that any NSFW content, including but not limited to sexual or graphic violent content, will not be written with minors in any capacity.

——PLEASE SOFT OR HARDBLOCK THIS BLOG IF YOU UNFOLLOW. For whatever reason you might have I ask that, especially if we are mutuals, you softblock this blog so I do not accidentally bother you in the future. Please do not be afraid to block at any point for your comfort, for any reason. I encourage you to curate a space that makes you feel at ease.

—— I MAY UNFOLLOW BLOGS THAT HAVE BEEN INACTIVE FOR PERIODS LONGER THAN 5 WEEKS WITHOUT NOTICE. I will periodically clean out inactive/hiatus’d blogs from my follow list but will follow you again if you resume activity and you and I still wish to interact.

—— I AM HEAVILY SELECTIVE ABOUT WHO I FOLLOW in order to keep my dash clean and avoid clutter. My starter calls/inbox calls are always mutuals-only unless specified. If you would like to RP with me and I do not follow you, shoot me an ask or an IM. THIS BLOG FOLLOWS BACK FROM @LUNARSCALED, MY MAIN OC BLOG

—— PLEASE DO NOT ENGAGE IN EXCESSIVE FORMATTING WHEN WRITING WITH ME. Small text ( and a low amount of double-small text ) + bold or italics is fine, but if you typically write using multiple fonts, double-small text, 25x25 icons and hard-to-read colors all in the same reply I will probably softblock you or not follow you at all. It’s hard for me to read on my computer and not usually accessible on mobile.

—— I DON’T SEND IN PASSWORDS. I promise I read everyone’s rule pages and abouts before I follow them. It’s very important to me that I understand every roleplayer’s boundaries and triggers so I can tag things accordingly, but passwords give me extreme anxiety.

PLEASE TAG FOR ME:

Spiders

Eels

Mold / Fungus

Trypophobia ( especially patterns on skin )

Jump Scares

Disordered Eating

ALL DRAMA/DISCOURSE/VENT POSTS

**Callout posts

My OOC faceclaim is Canti from FLCL

** Seeing a flood of callout posts on my dash can set off my social anxiety and a depressive spiral to the point of potentially driving me to self-harm. I believe posts containing evidence and corroborating stories between victims about abusers in the rpc ARE important ( and I do my best to read each callout that comes across my dash ) but I need time to prepare myself emotionally and mentally before reading.

[cali]

how do you know when a piece like your groudon is finally “done”, or done Enough?

i dont have an answer for this but maybe when i just type a lot i will find one.

for the groudon pic specifically i had a mental image in my head of what scene i wanted. when i started rendering the lava, i did it really detailed and decided i couldnt leave the rest of it simpler and then when the lava was all like that i had to crank everything else in the picture up too. and that made everything take so long that it was far beyond the boundaries of it being "not enough" . it was pleny enough!! so from hour 30-52 i was pretty eager to get it over with. just everything up to the point where its uniform in rendering. sometimes thats a bad sentiment to work on a pic with, but this time it was ok. i kind of like arduous menial tasks. it makes me more patient. so for that one it was done once everything was on par with my detail standard i set for myself halfway thru.

i think i used to have more trouble with this, deciding when its done... my pice now always either end when they reach what i had planned or when theyre the type of pic without a plan then when i get bored / lose the flow of it. actually prior to the groudon pic even some planned ones stopped at a flowloss point.

these two picy both have immaculate rendering on parts but then i lost it and finishdd the rest of the pic with less vigor. in tve green comet one its all the surroundings. i had other versions for that and kept reworking and reworking but i was so ouf of power i just used a slightly polisjed up sketch, kind of works for the pic though. the eel one i also lost power at the backhground, beyond the water. the mountains and clouds i think i coulda put more effort in. but its ok cuz its like 0% the focus of the picture, just sometjing that bothers me alone. hey both of these pics are about a serpent type thing coiling down to earth gently from the sky oops. back to the question um ya im looking at my images and all of them either end when they reach what i had in my head or when i loose flow. when i used to do lsd more my process was that the picture ends when i go to bed. i want to do that again soon it was fun. i drew for like 6 hours while kind of crazy then for the next 12 hours in warm afterglow i just clean and render everything so sweetly and then with a body as hard as a hundred bodies i sink into my bed and click post on it which codifies it as completed. also towards tve end of the picture is usually when im stressing about tiny details and i will message like 1-2 consistent people and 1-2 random people from my discord friendslist to ask about opinions about which tiny detail looks better for the whole pic. when im at that point i cant think straight no more so well no more so i kind of know its time to stop soon. but those final feedbacks always help. ok i guess thats an answer lol i made it very long i will put a readmore. hope u dont mind reading but i think if i sent someone an anon the longer the reply the happier i would be. probably. im in bed but im gonna get up again in a sec and play some balatroooo, 2 people bought a groudon print so far and i spent that money on balatro eep hihi thank u for the ask which i twisted into my babbleplateau

[hirudou]

@mirrorfates asked: do jade, azul and floyd rn

JADE/LEECH

How I feel about this character

dunno if it's obvious- but i absolutely adore jade. he's quickly become my favorite character in twst. and my favorite muse i've written in a very long time. there is something i really love about characters like him. he's complex, two faced and manipulative. but still has a charm that makes him deceptively wholesome, friendly and inviting. best of all, people assume a lot about him, and he rarely goes out of his way to correct them. if other's assumptions are wrong( and they often times are )it's not his problem. they get to deal with the consequences. and don't even get me started on the more terrifying aspects of his character. if given the opportunity i really could talk about this eel for HOURS...

All the people I ship romantically with this character

mmmm...i don't have a lot for him tbh. he's a romantic character, but he isn't really the best for a healthy relationship. that said, jade/azul is my #1 hands down, the two of them absolutely manipulate each other, but usually to the others benefit. there's also the fact that...they've known one another since grade school( the equivalent anyway ). i have a lot of thoughts and ideas on these two actually. the kind of thing that deserves it's own post. which........i've sworn to write in the past ik ik.

a few though that i've been introduced to and enjoy-- are jade/riddle, jade/idia, and jade/yuu. each have very unique dynamics, and ofc with jade being jade...well.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

rook and jade are actually...no joke, one of my favorites here. they're both really really weird, and as i've discussed before...have really opposite mentalities. and these can clash in...surprisingly positive ways. it may seem like a stretch, but rook being a hunter, i feel they could easily connect over the outdoors. they really could be besties guys-- and they'd stay besties well past NRC.

sebek and jade too-- a bit more antagonistic, but their interactions during harveston made me so happy. they'd easily bond over food, i just know it.

honestly...the list here is pretty long. jade might be suspicious, but he has a lot of people who might consider him a friend...

My unpopular opinion about this character

IDK if it's unpopular really, but i have voiced my opinion about the fandom's general interpretation of his character. and the idea he could ever be considered yan/dere makes me laugh rlly hard. like no, of any character you could pick to fall into that trope jade ought to be the last.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

let jade drown someone. i wanna see it happen.

AZUL/ASHENGROTTO

How I feel about this character

azul is, just like the twins, very precious to me. funny enough, growing up the little mermaid was my absolute favorite movie. and ursula was my favorite character. so when i saw azul i was like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then i saw the twins and i was so excited! as soon as i finished chapter three my fate was SEALED! he also has a very relatable story for me: i was bullied a lot too growing up. granted, i don't have magic to curse people with....and im not an octopus( bummer ik ). but still, his character rlly resonates with me as sb who grew up dealing with hurtful classmates. All the people I ship romantically with this character as i said in the prev one jade/azul is my favorite!!

and i doooo....like some of the others i've seen. but i haven't really looked into dynamics there. as i...don't write the muses LOL. My non-romantic OTP for this character

i mean azul and the tweels in general.......pretty obvious. like i could give you a LOT of reasons why the friendship they have is...actually very good.

others i like are jamil, malleus, vil, and of course-- yuu. My unpopular opinion about this character

he's actually one of the character i haven't really disagreed with people on. i like him as is. i have thoughts, headcanons, opinions-- but nothing unpopular... One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

i want to see azul grow one his octopus legs back ...

FLOYD/LEECH

How I feel about this character i love him just as much as i love jade tbh. he's super fun, unpredictable, and very complimentary to his brother's more subdued personality. despite his capricious nature, and unsettling demeanor...floyd is very easy going. he can be lighthearted without being overly goofy. it's so hard to nail down characters like that-- but i feel like they did a good job here. All the people I ship romantically with this character

floyd/yuu is my favorite LOL, it's just cute!! that's all! silly little shrimpy, goes to see his bball games, and goes swimming w/ him. i think despite a rocky start, and with his general demeanor and behavior-- floyd can be a surprisingly good motivator for yuu to take it easy. yanno, to not sweat the small things.

another i've seen that i haven't really dove into? floyd/riddle. i can see the appeal there, but im weird ig. and don't really dive deep into ships for characters i don't write-- or plan on writing hgfjdhgjhf. My non-romantic OTP for this character

dawg, if floyd tried he could probably be friends with most people. he's just not as inclined to be fake...the way his brother is. capricious as he is, im sure maintaining long standing friendships is a challenge-- but well worth it.

i LOOOOOOOOOVE the basket ball club trio. they're seriously so silly, but it's clear they support and care about one another. i would kill for them fr. My unpopular opinion about this character

i do not think floyd is stupid. i just think he doesn't care, he wouldn't be in octa if he wasn't intelligent, or clever. is that unpopular??? i don't think so. i think most people feel the same way tbh. One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

idk actually, my wishes and dreams for floyd's character have been fulfilled...i just wanted him to score a slam dunk and i got that.

GIVE ME A CHARACTER...