#me screaming in to my pillow rn not clickbait

[faeriedst]

u got the cutest acc!! 🦦

says you!! ugh, kissing u thru the screen as we speak <3!

[cdbabymp3]

yap sesh w jules time !!

tldr ; 5th grade crush follows me on ig 10 yrs later (real not clickbait)

okay making these is so silly bc literally no one gives a fuck 😭 but i have a very strong urge to yap rn bc smth really good just happened and i have no life whatever okay BASICALLY

i had this crush in 5th grade and i was IN LOVE WITH THIS MF like on my fucking soullll y'all. we sat next to each other the whole year and were really good friends. we had the same sense of humor and he always had me giggling (humor is the way to my heart). i talked abt him all the time to my family at dinner always yapping abt what joke he told me that day just running my mouth it was so cute and they'd always smile and nod (nothings changed🎀) he wasn't even super attractive in a conventional sense but we were also like 10 so i wasn't concerned with looks back then. he was dorky but idk he just got me so well and i would make our moms talk after school and they got close. i was scheming fr like ready to plan our wedding and everything lmao anyway he ended up going to a diff middle school and i never saw him again which broke my middle school heart as you can imagine. i moved on and liked other ppl but tbh i never really moved on yk? so fast forward 10 years later today i'm talking abt him with my brother and he looks him up on insta. ALSO WHY DIDN'T I JUST DO THAT SOONER?? i'm an idiot wbk anyway HE GOT HOT ???? he plays guitar in a punk band and has a lip piercing ....... and his hair is shoulder length and majestic asf .... 🐺 so i'm freaking out naturally and MY BROTHER TAKES MY PHONE AND FOLLOWS HIM bc i'm too pussy to do that on my own and y'all he fucking requested to follow me back ...... i'm not kidding i screamed into my pillow...i'm terrified praying that he remembers me IDK i just don't wanna spring a convo out of nowhere on him bc i've never even talked to a guy like that before i'm so shy and bad abt initiating shit but THE OPPORTUNITY IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME LIKE ???? i'm just imagining how cute we'd look together now bc he's super ragged alt skater boy and i'm girly princess cunt core .... sigh. i can't get my hopes up like this guys lord this whole post is a mess but yeah i just had to share sorry

if anyone reads this whole thing and has advice on what to do lmk gang 🙏