#me in 2022-2024: ๐น
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thinking of honey boy compared to her makes me laff ๐ญ i can't reread honey boy anymore bc at the time i had already proofread it enough to act it out on stage lmao, but sometimes i trace scenes back just to see if i can still enjoy it. which i do!!!
but in terms of my writing, honey boy is like a little toy block while her is this massive play structure ๐ฅน but i think that just comes from the differences in plot. honey boy is not rly supposed to be a super deep narrative, it's more romancey and fun and flirty and sometimes it gets a little messy but it's easy mess. so i think it's more digestable!
but her is not like that. it's just too nuanced. the characters are soo layered in comparison. and it's depressing ๐ญ you rly have to work to reach the payoff/catharsis and to me, that's what hits the nail on the head. like i absolutely need the suffering, the angst, the turmoil, the tension, the horrible fallout, the bitter acceptance, having to live with your choice, and the slow rekindling. and by that point you're so freaking desperate u could cry ๐ those b1tches touched hands! win.
IDK. is this a confession that i like being emotionally edged? ๐ญ ejriwuhfgeurghwg honey boy is my blog's magnum opus and i understand why :3 but it's like.. damn... her is not the same. i think if i were a reader/outsider to my work, honey boy is effortless to revisit. but i would have to be in a certain mood to engage with her just bc of the emotional baggage ๐ค or pushed to the edge of having a breakdown and this story is my safety cushion wuefhwiquf
#me in 2020: ๐๐ปโจ๐๐ฅฐ๐#me in 2022-2024: ๐น#entering adulthood moment#NOT TO MAKE IT SOUND LIKE HER IS JUST STRAIGHT UP 140K WORDS OF MISERY AND DESPAIR#it's not!#although... i do love writing misery and despair...#but i just I NEED THE CHARACTERS TO EXPERIENCE!!#i need them to live lives!!#so idk honey boy and her are just two very different vibes and levels of writing#sometimes i want to stack toy blocks sometimes i want to rot in bed for 32 hours and ponder the larger things in life#anyway#just some rambling for old times sake#i'm entering my cognitive therapy era ๐ค#will i lose my midas touch (angst verison)#results pending
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The first voice lines I heard when playing the game for the first time and were my favorite lines and I was able to memorize and spell them in a short time ๐ฅน
โค๏ธ 28/02/2021 >>> 28/02/2024 โค๏ธ
Ah yes...3 years since playing Ayakashi, still feels like yesterday...and guess what? Still falling head over peaches for this dumb oni ๐น
Just admit it guys, for three years I've been pestering the whole planet 'bout how much I'm in love with Koga, and I bet everyone has grown bored of me ๐ฎโ๐จ...
But I can't help it...I- I've never loved anyone so madly, let alone a fictional character from a dating simulation game!!! ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅ
And despite the ominous event that occurred in September and October 2022, my love for him still hasn't faded...
NOW HAVE SOME DAMN SHIT I MADE WHILE FANTASIZING MY DAMN ETERNAL LOVE FOR THE DUMB ONI KOGA DAMN KITAMIKADO!!!
#ayakashi romance reborn#ayakashi koi meguri#ayakashi koga#ayakoi#koga kitamikado#Ayakashi anniversary#koga thoughts#i miss koga#koga#kitamikado koga
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