#me and i literally onpy have my material possessions i have basically no friends except 1 irl friend who for some reason still talks | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

selfinflictedgunshotwound · 2 years ago

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i'm well aware i'm the pathetic one and i need to get over it but i don't know what else to do i honestly have almost nothing in my entire life worth living for i just have my delusions and the people i love and when they're gone i will only be here to imagine that people still love me

#i live in a fucking landfill basically i worry every day about my mother growing old and dying or my dad snapping and killing everyone but #me and i literally onpy have my material possessions i have basically no friends except 1 irl friend who for some reason still talks #to me after a million mile long list of disappointments i've given to her & i can't relate well to other people i hate talking i literally #wish i was a fucking rock or something i wish i didn't have sentience because being normal isn't an option at this point i'm too mentally #fucked and broken to ever be loved by anyone who i'd actually love in return and am i even capable of true love is another question #because apparently all i wanna do is fucking destroy everything or be completely apathetic or have a mental breakdown #and drive everyone away. literally all i'm good at is sitting in my room and being delusional and ik everyone of this website is like that #kinda but i'm telling you right now that that's all i'll ever amount to. ever.

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