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[mcl-alloveragain]

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That is EXACTLY how i imagined his feelings when they had this conversation!!!!! You are so talented and amazing and you literally got me crying 😭😭 A story we didn't deserved but got anyways🙏🏻 I love it so much and i love Armin so much and i love you for writing this😭❤️❤️❤️❤️

"Kiss me angrily" - AL ep. 1 Armin's POV

First of all, I want to thank @lycorispoison for giving me this idea and making me write something after a long time🥺🤧 And I have to thank beemoov too for giving me the drama I needed to feel alive again.

Miu gave me this idea when they mentioned how similar Armin's and Candy's story was to this song here: Jão - Me Beija Com Raiva. So I HIGHLY recommend you to read this piece while listening to it on repeat, it's a good song :)

I have to note that I made some small changes to the order of the lyrics so it could fit the plot well. And there are some changes on the dialogues too, but again, nothing much.

It's been a long time, guys!! I hope you like it 😭❤️

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De sonhadores a inimigos

from dreamers to haters

Você tá indo, vai me deixar aqui perdido 

you’re leaving, you'll leave me here lost

"You can be happy, then. That problem is solved." She had a frown on her face and the fire in her eyes would have surprised even Scott Summers, the Cyclops. She had her lips pressed together in a thin line and swallowed before continuing, "You're not a part of my life anymore."

The words came out of her mouth like a whip, breaking any kind of pride he'd been holding on to since he'd seen her, prettier than ever, some hours prior and after three long years apart. She might as well have slapped him right across his face, the effect would've been the same.

And the memories of that day, that damn day, came rushing to him. But he wouldn't show her any more of his vulnerability. 

"Whatever, I get it." He said looking at her one last time before looking away and landing his gaze on one of the products showcased in the store they had just been kicked out. And there was he thinking they were starting to make progress again. Just a few minutes ago, they were playing and bickering as they did in the old times. His left hand still felt the shock of when their hands touched for a second before everything came crumbling.

"Have you seen my brother? I don’t want to leave without saying goodbye."

"I-I am here…" he heard the voice he knew so well coming from somewhere behind him and turned around to see his brother with that face he has when he's blaming himself for something. Watery eyes looked between him and his ex-girlfriend and the muscles in his law moved as if he wanted to say something. 

“We were looking for you and…” The twin interrupted himself. “So… You’re leaving, that’s it?”

“Yeah, I gotta go home now, brother.” Armin walked toward the blue-haired man and gave him a pat on the shoulder before saying,  “I have some work to do. I got a text.” he hadn’t gotten any text. “I’m sorry, I have to go. I’ll see you tomorrow or the day after…”

“Okay,” Alexy said lowly nodding and hugging his twin.

Armin gave his quick goodbyes to Rosa and Candy, barely looking in the direction of the latter, and turned around heading to the escalators with his head down. He just wanted to get back home as soon as possible and play until his eyes begged for some rest. 

Armin walked at a fast pace along the corridors and was just halfway to where he wanted to get when he stopped in front of the game store. It wasn’t like him accepting a defeat so easily; leaving then would just make him a loser, he thought. So just like that, after taking a deep breath, he entered the store and went straight to the cheap side of the establishment where they displayed second-hand items.

Cê já contou pros seus amigos de nós? 

Have you told your friend about us?

No chão do quarto, com nossos vícios 

On the room's floor, with our vices 

Going through the titles of some comics absently, the memories came to him again. He would never understand how things between them changed so fastly when everything was going just perfectly in his eyes. Seeing some of the characters on the cover of the comics reminded him of all the times they would be together on the floor of his “cave” discussing their stories, playing games, watching superhero movies, talking, laughing, kissing... 

He loved seeing her face when she tried holding a laugh like she’d done a few moments ago, her lips curving barely curving upwards, and then giving up to his jokes. He loved to play with her hair, and loved when she played with his. He always complained about the way she played LoL, but he couldn’t be happier seeing her going crazy with the game. They were just so happy when they were together, so how did it end so fast?

É coisa pura, de tanto amar virou loucura  

it's something pure, going mad from loving so bad

De tantas brigas, amargura entre nós 

from all the fights, bitterness between us

He hated even the smallest hint of a fight and avoided it at all costs. So even if he would get jealous when seeing her with other guys, he trusted her, and he was happy for her because she seemed happy. And if he had had enough time, he would have been there for her to see her smile opening right in front of him in person, and not through a screen.

They did have some arguments once in a while because of that, but they weren’t so serious for him. He remembered Candy complaining about his absence, not much about his friend Agnes, but it was all going to be worth it after he managed to make the surprise. She would understand his side and they’d have their happily ever after ending. 

Errei, larguei, não nego, não

I made a mistake, gave up, no, I won't deny

Mas lembra do que eu disse, então

But remember what I said, then

Amar é muito melhor que ter razão

loving is much better than being right

Luta por mim, desiste, não

fight for me, don't give up

The problem is, all his plans never came true. All his dreams faded away as if they had been blipped by that damned phone call. How could she give up so easily on that bond they’ve created between them? How could she give up on their love? Together they were like Peter Parker and Mary Jane, Star-Lord and Gamora, Han Solo and Princess Leia, and now Bonnie and Clyde; they were meant to be together. 

Even after almost four years of being apart, he still strongly believed that. He’d had some casual things here and there, but he knew that none of them would ever be near to what he and Candy once had. Before her, he didn’t believe what people say about their first love, but now it was crystal clear to him; she was his first love, and let’s say that she really sat the bar up high to anyone else.

It started with them against the world until it became them against one another. But Armin wouldn’t give up, there was still a part of him that had faith, that told him to keep fighting for their love, that everything he’d done wasn’t for nothing. 

Call him stupid, but that hope that everything would be alright again was what made him decide to keep the money and add a small number of his payments to it every month; now he had enough to upgrade the surprise, he only had to unlock the next phase. But this one was proving to be the hardest so far, and his willpower was starting to go down. 

“Maybe it really would be better to go back home,” he told himself while turning around in the direction of the exit. 

He was about to leave the store when he came face to face with the one person whom he had been thinking about all this time. Her cheeks were red, and he knew that she was about to yell at him, but right now he was hurt and the last thing he wanted was to spend the rest of his stamina on the fight that surely would come if they decided to talk. Strangely enough, he was the one to open his mouth first.

Joga tua verdade toda na minha cara

spit out all your truth on my face

“Candy? What… What do you want now?” He furrowed. “So you do everything in your power to make me leave and now you're following me?" 

“What? This is a public space, right?” She raised he brows, her voice full of sarcasm.

"Creative, aren't you?" Armin said and started walking out of the store, he didn’t want an argument to start with and much less for everyone else to see it. Candy was fast to match his steps.

"You can't leave just like that! I deserve an explanation!"

"I already got it: I was lame, you were great and I don't deserve you," Armin said. He stopped in front of the elevators and pushed the button angrily before turning back to Candy.

"Can we move on or do you prefer to keep repeating this all day long?" 

"I think I could repeat that all week long without you being able to understand it."

Armin looked at the ceiling and let out a long sigh.

"Look, I'm sorry. Alex didn't tell me you would be here. If I'd known I wouldn't have come." Because I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable, he finished mentally. 

She scoffed with an ironic laugh right when the lift doors opened. They gave space for the people who were inside to leave before entering and letting the doors close behind the two of them.

"You know, talking about your brother…” Armin gave a doubtful look at her, what was she going to say about him?

“We just had a little discussion. Actually, that’s why I followed you.” The man felt the air getting stuffier and tugged at the sleeve of his jacket. 

He cleaned his throat, fiddling with his hat. “Oh, really. And what did he say exactly?”

“He told me everything, how you lied to me this whole time. You weren’t honest with me." She accused.

"Lied to you?" Armin repeated incredulously. He'd never done such a thing. "What are you talking about? And what did Alexy tell you? That’s not how things went." He shook his head and saw the anger growing in her.

"I'm talking about how you ruined our relationship over a stupid surprise. How you preferred hiding everything just to save a trip to fucking Disneyland!" She had her fists tight as if she was holding herself not to point a finger or push him, and her voice got higher and higher after every word.

Okay, Armin thought, so now I also have a traitor of a brother. He decided to push this thought to the darkest place of his brain, where he could easily forget about it at least for the moment.

They got out of the elevator on the floor level and just a minute after they passed through the front doors of the mall and found themselves crossing the parking lot in the direction of the bus stop.

"I'm trying to talk to you! Will you stop walking for a second?" Candy exclaimed.

Armin then stopped and grabbed her by the arm lightly, pulling her toward a spot where they wouldn't be hit by a car.

“Alexy said everything you did, that you did it for me… Right now I’m just asking you for an honest explanation. Do you still know how to do it? ” He was starting to feel his blood boiling inside him too. “Why did you think it wasn’t necessary to tell me? Frankly, I would really like to hear your side of things.”

He looked at her straight in the eye, frowning.

“Yeah, I get it. So what do you want? A confession?”

“I want to know everything.”

So he told her everything. How he had done hours of house cleaning, how he had accepted rotten works ar fast food and even done gardening to save money. He told her how he would spend hours finding collectibles and looking for opportunities to resell them at a higher price so he could put the money he won aside. And how bad he had felt for charging his friend for his help on her cosplay costumes.

“There, I confessed everything, are you happy? Yes, I wanted to surprise you.” He licked his dried lips for talking too much. “Is that a crime?! Should I have told you everything from the start?! Don’t you think that would’ve ruined the surprise? All I wanted was to do something special for you…We were away from each other for only a few months. I didn't think you were going to dump me so soon.” 

There was a pause before he said, his head down, “And I don’t know. I thought it woulf be romantic…”

She opened her eyes wide, outraged, and seemed to hold back a chuckle but not like the way he missed seeing. “Romantic?! So?! Was it worth screwing everything up? We had something beautiful! We had a love story! Didn’t that matter at all to you? Wasn’t it a little more important than bringing me to Disneyland?”

“Hold on!” He felt the urge to interrupt. Hearing her talking like that about his plans was extremely frustrating for him. “Don’t act like it sucked either! Wouldn’t you have liked it? A week around Los Angeles, together?”

“I wish we had just two days together, anywhere.” She said shaking her head. “But that never happened! Excuse me if I got tired of waiting.”

“Again, we had only been apart for a few months. And you were able to come on your end! It allowed me to keep up the pace for Disney.” Armin didn't see where the problem was in all this. All this time, he had been thinking about them.

"Yes, that's the point! I traveled to see you only a few times and I had the impression I was the only one trying!" 

The only one? She must be kidding 

"I was exhausted! I worked my ass off trying to give us something special! But you didn't have the patience to wait! You didn't want to have it, so you just left me."

“But you didn’t even tell me what you were doing! Or why you did it! You left me in the dark and never told me anything!”

"I thought you trusted me! And that our relationship was solid enough! I'm sorry for thinking we had something serious…"

"But in a serious relationship, you talk to one another!"

"But they don't tell the surprises, that's literally the point! We don't talk about them!" 

He noticed the girl getting closer to him, but he didn't move. Proximity was never a problem to him when it came to her.

“I didn’t give a shit about this. I just wanted to see you and spend some time together!” Her voice had a small shift to it as if the walls around her heart were cracking, and the hurt was showing its way out. “And I wanted you to come to see me often too. I wanted us to spend some time together laughing, playing games, making love… And you were worried about making a long-term plan to take us to Los Angeles?! Sacrificing everything else for this?”

His jaw clenched and he leaned forward in her direction.They were so close now, their faces only a few centimeters apart. 

“This was important for me!” He argued. “I wanted to impress you, show that I was good enough!”

“But you were good enough!”

Como fodemos o maior amor do mundo? 

How did we fuck up the greatest love in the world?

 “But I knew nothing about all this, the only thing I knew is that you were never there for me. ”

For a moment, Armin broke their eye contact and looked down, maybe he was starting to understand. But he wasn’t going to drop it, he had a point and he wanted her to understand too.

“It’s only natural that I lost my trust in you, what else did you expect? How do you want a relationship to work if we don’t talk to each other?! Especially in a long-distance relationship? You didn’t give us any chance! When did you think that keeping secrets would bring us any good?” Candy stopped and for a second she just looked at him intensely with her brows furrowed. He didn’t say anything then but returned the look.

“I…” She took a long breath before continuing, “don’t even know what else to say. What you did doesn’t make sense!”

He wasn’t going to drop it.

“No, you have no right to say that!” he said, offended. “Yes, maybe I was awkward. It was my first relationship, we were both eighteen! I thought that a relationship, even if it was long-distance, must be something simple. It should be naturally pleasant for both people. And if it doesn’t work anymore, it doesn’t work anymore, that’s how it is.”

“But a real relationship is meant to be built together! With effort, and communication, above all! That doesn’t happen magically only because we were made for each other! And a romantic surprise doesn’t make up for months of absence!”

It was getting difficult for him to hold her gaze, without thinking he looked away and passed his hand through his hair.

“I am really sorry. I thought… I thought it would’ve been easier.” His voice sounded so low, that just then he realized how loudly they had been talking. It was crazy how no one had come to kick them out again, but this time not from a single store, but from the whole mall.

“That’s the first time I hear you wanting to play on easy mode.” Candy noted sarcastically. Her tone also had lowered.

“Hey! Dating you was no game for me!” How could she even think of that?

“So why did you make less of an effort, then?”

“You are being unfair! I made a lot of effort! A tremendous effort even!” Armin defended himself. “Do you think it was fun for me to accept all those difficult jobs? Buying stuff hoping I could resell it for twice the price. And asking a friend to pay me to help her?! Well, none of that was fun. I promise you!”

“In any case, you didn’t make the efforts I’d have liked you to make! The ones I needed!” She gave one more step closer to him, gasping a little bit. “You should’ve called more often. You should’ve taken more time to see me! And, most of all, you should have talked to me! Honestly, I didn’t think that would’ve been a problem in our relationship… For someone who’s so connected, you have to admit that communicating is not your forte.”

He opened his mouth to speak, but she didn’t let him. “ I just wanted you to be by my side!”

 He took her arm before talking. 

“You didn’t communicate very much yourself, I’ll have you know! That story you mentioned about the outings. I couldn’t have known that you absolutely wanted me to be there if you didn’t tell me.” He complained.

“I would’ve liked you to come on your own, to please me. And without me having to ask you!”

“But how could I have known!? Candy, I love Professor Xavier,” he smiled weakly, “but I don’t have his skills…” The girl shook her head, seeing disappointed about the comment

“You make beautiful speeches about communication, but in the end, you did the exact same.”

“But surely not on the same scale.” She pointed at him, “You were the one to ruin everything with your crummy plans and your ego. And I want you to recognize it.”

He looked around, caught off guard. “What would that change? There’s no one here to witness.”

“But I will know. I want you to say it.” She got even closer. “I want to hear you say clearly that you ruined everything between us.”

Her words were so harsh. He had never imagined having her talking to him in that tone. 

“I would never say such a thing…” Armin shook his head. “ We did have a beautiful story. But I wasn’t the only one to ruin it all. I wanted to make a surprise for you and I chose not to tell you. Maybe it was stupid, okay. But when you called to break up… I didn’t understand.” His voice was so low, and they were so close, close enough to feel each other’s heat and breath.

“But even then, you should’ve said something. You could’ve defended yourself and not let me break up!”

“You didn’t give me time for that! You blocked me everywhere right after you hanging up on me!” Armin reminded her. “I was already in shock, but that broke me. The message was very clear. Plus, it’s much easier to say what I should have done or not.” He felt his heart struggling in the tight space inside of his chest, he wondered if it was just him; that feeling wasn’t usual to him. “Maybe you should have…”

Mas antes de ir embora, eu te impeço, para

but before you go, I stop you, stop

Sei lá se esse é o nosso último segundo 

Who knows if this is our last second 

In a split second, he saw the rage in Candy’s eyes come back. She gave a step further and raised her arms, he braced himself for the push that was coming for him, but it never came. Instead of pushing him, her hands grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled.

Então me beija com raiva, me beija com raiva 

So kiss me angrily, kiss me angrily 

Me beija com raiva, me beija com raiva 

Kiss me angrily, kiss me angrily 

And in a split second, just like a dream, their lips touched. After so long, he felt her warm soft lips pressed against his, her eyes were tightly closed. 

He came to himself, finally reacting. That moment was real, definitely not a dream or an illusion, his heart was still racing in his chest, her heat against him, scorching. So, he too closed his eyes and kissed her back with the same force. His arms wrapped around her waist and pulled her even closer like he’d done so many times years before.

Their tongues met and the kiss deepened. It was fast, messy, and… angry. He didn’t understand his feelings at the moment, and he definitely didn’t want to.

They kissed angrily. Letting out all the hard feelings that had been trapped inside their chests for so long. 

They kissed angrily to make up for the years lost. 

It was like filling your lungs with air after drowning. He grabbed this moment and made the most out of it. So he kissed her back, angrily and deeply. 

They kissed angrily until they were out of breath, and dizzy. But it only took another look into each other’s eyes to make their lips connect one more time. And once again, they kissed angrily, as if the world was theirs and it was about to end. 

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SOOOOOO, what do we think about Armin's ego deflating gradually as the story goes? It's def something for me

AND MY HEADCANON! Yes, I made Armin a sucker and had him save that money after all those years.... Call me romantic, okay? Although after writing it I thought it wouldn't be very nice to go on the vacation that made the relationship come to an end..... or maybe not, who knows.

Don't forget to leave comments!!! They always inspire me to keep writing 🥺💕

That's it for now. Love you guys, and I hope you have a great day!

[mcl-alloveragain]

[ALTERNATE LIFE ARMIN SPOILERS]

Rosalya (to Alexy): What, you thought they would just fall in each other arms and kiss?!?!

Candy and Armin: *Do, in fact, fall in each other arms and kiss*

Rosalya:

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Everything I Love about Armin's Alternate life so far

1. It's realistic??? I mean, let's face it. It was so like Armin to behave like that and focus more on a preparing the big suprise and forget about everything else? He just gets hyped so fast and we have already seen that in a spin off, for example? And Candy always was overreacting instead of talking with boys first (e.g. Priya's arrival). And Armin was, in fact, most immature of them all, and I just knew their problem would be in communication.

2. IT WAS SO FUN! The dialogues got me laughing soooooo much i cried because IT WAS JUST GETTING BETTER AND BETTER. AND THE INSIDE JOKE ABOUT BALDNESS? GOT ME WHEEZING WMAJJSNSBS

I feel like humour was one of the best thing so far, i had such a good time playing this episode akalsoxowjajja

3. Just Armin. Like, the first time I played the episode i was so hyped i was too happy to see him and read him to focus. My mind went like "ARMIN ARMIN ARMIN BARK BARK BARK BARK" and i cried too much and laughed all the time and i had to replay it so to process all the data (lololol)

And i have SO MANY THINGS TO SAY ABOUT MY PRETTY BOY, YOU HAVE NO IDEA

Because the break up from his perspective was just as bad and hurtful, leaving him confused about what have happened and after he worked so hard just so he could suprise her (and he worked even in GARDEN!!?!?! like, OUTSIDE!!!?!!). Yet he behaved way better than Candy, he was quite polite and he really just saw her and instead of getting just as mad as her, he wanted to take his chance to make things better between her, just like Alexy has planned.

I loved when he tried to start a polite conversation (Candy could never. And they both were hurt so it really makes him seem more mature than her WHICH IS JUST AS NEW AS HIS SUDDEN LOVE FOR SHOPPING).

I also felt like he interrupted Rosalya just because he noticed Candy was uncomfortable, because he did it only after looking at her and i honestly loved this moment way too much than i should have.

His teasing seemed more flirty than mean. I think he actually hoped they would start being friendly and forget about the fight, maybe he even planned to ask her out when she'll calm down and stop attacking him? Especially in a mall (I know, i know, the bus scene, but as much as i enjoyed it, i think it was actually more teasing less flirting, at least because of the way he ended it :<). But when Candy goes to get some food and he plays with her hair and whispers to her and proves that he know her by not only remembering her regular order but literally talking about it in so many details, like, he wanted to show her that he cared SO MUCH 🥺🥺🥺🥺 my poor baby 🥺 also the fact that he actually followed her even tho he didn't have to stick with her, he wanted to talk to her, spend time with her, he was desperate to be with her and you cannot change my mind about that.

He offered her his help at the computer store and talked about how great time they had together while gaming in the past and i'm sure he thought it's finally his chance to shine and be a good (boy)friend and wkksjsjdjdjjd he imagine him getting so tired when she starts to yell at him again, no wonder that he lost his patience after all.

And even when he did lost his patience it was actually just him saying how much he cared AND WHEN SHE TOLD HIM THAT NOW HER WHOLE LIFE IS WITHOUT HIM???? I'm so sure i heard the sound of his heart breaking into tiny pieces. When he finally realised that he doesn't, in fact, have a chance to try again with her, she doesn't want to try again. And that's when he finally left, because his hopes were buried.

And when no one really understood why Armin haven't told her about the Disneyland after the breakup or even now when they met again and why he forbade Alexy to talk about it, i might have an idea. I mean, i could be wrong, but i think he just didn't want her to feel guilty about the situation?? Like, in his mind his idea with the suprise was great so he thought that as soon as she will acknowledge it she would be devastated about how she has treated him? I don't say it was his firsty thought, because at first he was probably just angry and confused, but when they met again, now that he's healed, he just didn't want her to feel bad. Idk, it's actually a great wonder to me too, but that's my closest guess. Also, he didn't say it out loud but i think he actually realises HOW MUCH stupid this idea was and what he did wrong because he was so nervous when she confronted him about it? I feel like the emotions and the way she really blamed him for everything while it wasn't entirely his fault and just how mean she was made him not confessing it to her. I mean, he did said it might have been stupid, but he didn't actually apologized or state that it was, not just might have been, u know? If only Candy could behave herself and take a few deep breaths (and maybe realised she wasn't oerfect either) before talking to him, i bet things would have went differently😫

And then the KISS 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

The way he stiffened at first, but then just relaxed and kissed her back like it was the most natural thing to do, like those last three years have never existed, like they weren't just yelling at each other a second ago??? HOW HE WRAPPED HIS HANDS AROUND HER AND PUT HER EVEN CLOSER?!?!!? IF THAT WASN'T HIM SCREAMING HOW MUCH HE MISSED HER, I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE DID?!?!

Also, i love the illustration, how their outfits just match and how they still look angry while kissing, like THE TENSION AGGGRHHH i love images like this, it's officially one of my fav illustration in the whole game (not as nice as Campus Life Nathaniel 16 tho, haha)

And i have so mant thoughts about Armin, but i think i will just shut up for now and let my emotions fall down a bit hahhaa

4. Outfits for AL Armin are the best ones in AL. I love every single one of them, the outfit we buy with real money included. They're totally my style, they're well made, they're just perfect

5. Rosalya and Alexy's redemption after LL. No more comments about it, i'm just glad they're making them, well, them, at least in all of the ALs, cause i refuse to believie they weren't kidnapped and replaced by their fake versions in LL

6. HAVE I MENTIONED THE ILLUSTRATION??? NO???? OH WELL MY BAD, BECAUSE THE ILLUSTRATION 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

(now when i look at this illustration i also notice that Armin looks more upset than angry??? Or am i imagining things?)

[mcl-alloveragain]

Candy got lost in the mall

Rosalya: Oh no, we lost Candy!

Alexy: Don't worry, I know what to do.

Alexy: DISNEYLAND SUCKS

Armin: IT DOESN'T, C'MON! WOULDN'T SHE HAS LIKE IT?! A WEEK AROUND THE LOS ANGELES AREA, TOGETHER?

Candy: I WISH WE HAD JUST TWO DAYS TOGETHER, ANYWHERE!

Alexy: ...it's not how I planned it... But I found them both *🥰*

Rosalya: ...

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[WHAT I THINK WILL HAPPEN IN ARMIN'S ALTERNATE LIFE EP.2??]

So, i think about it a lot (all the time) (even when i'm asleep) (i don't know how i will survive next weeks without knowing it), especially since at the end of the ep.1 Candy asked herself what the hell is she doing, hinting that she's gonna break the kiss, i guess...

And episode 2 in AL Lys and AL Ken was a date episode, where they were talking and getting to know each other again after all this time, so i guess at some point we ARE gonna calm down.

Theoretically it's now Candy's turn to act mature and try to talk to him, but i don't think she's gonna do this... Armin's ego fell somewhere in the middle of the episode, while she was still at it, so i think she need a bit more time...

Scenario no.1

We can start the next episode right when we ended the previous one, in the mall, still kissing. Alexy and Rosalya at this point are probably watching from somewhere around already (Alexy's full of himself because HA! HE WAS RIGHT!!! In your face, Rosa!). We're the one who are breaking the kiss, still angry and also freaking confused, cause why?! Why would we do it?! What's wrong with us?! You don't make the same mistake twice, and dating Armin was a mistake indeed, his behaviour broke our heart and it's even worse now, that we know the reason and we know that all that heartache could be saved if he only confessed earlier, fought for our love. Armin's confused as hell, too, but knowing him, he probably breaks the silence between us with a teasing joke, not especially funny, he's still dizzy. We don't apologize, no, we're doing the first thing our instinct is telling us to do and it's to RUN.

So we run away. We lock ourselves in one of the cabin in the nearest toilet and then process what the hell have happened. We know our feelings for him haven't died (after today it's hard not to know), but it wasn't the reason to kiss him??? What's wrong with us??? Rosalya came in, looking for us, but we don't wanna talk to her. She doesn't give a shit tho, forcing nas to unlock the door and then joining us.

Only while talking to her, we start feeling sadness somewhere under the rage. We quote his "I wanted to show you that i could be good enough" to her cause now it actually makes us feel so bad. How could he think he wasn't good enough for us?? Of course, he kind of was at the point when he barely made any contact with us, but it was way after this stupid idea with Disneyland, just before the break up. What in the first place made him think he has to impress us?

Rosalya is here all the time, listening to us and ready to advice something. She and Alexy heard our most recent fight too, so she has an idea what's going on. She's really the best, we're telling her that. We still don't want to face Armin now tho, we have too much on our mind. We leave the bathroom and luckily, Armin and Alexy are not around, probably talking over the situation somewhere else. Right, Alexy shared his secret with us when he wasn't supposed to. Hope they aren't fighting right now, it was already a tough day, we don't need to make it worse. Rosalya decides to feed us, so we're going to the fast food. We're hungry as hell and hungry doesn't support thinking. Will it be childish if we take something different from our regular order just to prove Armin that he was wrong?? He might even not see us here, so what's the point? We should stop wondering about things this stupid.

Of course Rosalya still has a huge appetite, and she is concerned about the amount of food we want to order and just makes it twice as the mum friend she is would. We sip our strawberry milkshake in silence, lost in the thoughts, while she starts to eat one of four servings of fries. Now she's the one doing talking. She still has our side at most, and she thinks Armin's arguments were stupid, but she agrees with him at one point – we should have told him back them how we felt. Because just as much as we didn't know what was he doing all the time, he didn't know how we felt all the time. We bit our lower lip. But he should at least have an idea about it, shouldn't he?

"But it should be obvious how I felt about it! How would he felt if I suddenly stopped talking to him, visiting, answering calls? What if I had just disappeared as he did, stopped making effort to contact him?" we insist. "He would lost his trust too. He would feel terrible, too."

How come even a strawberry milkshake doesn't make us feel better? We're starting to eat while Rosalya talks again. She does agree with us, but still tries to make us see things from his point of view too. Since when she's so considerate, you ask her butterly, since she was always shitting about Armin too.

"Cause I used to know only your point of view and it is, indeed, making him look bad. Now when I know his side, too... I agree with Alexy. You're both just stupid." Hey! "No, seriously, you guys should talk. You think you can do this?"

Do we? We think about all the nights we spent on crying even while the relationship was still lasting.

"He hurt me" we just say.

"I know. But you hurt him too." Why was she so... So... Ugh, so smart? We don't need smart, it is making it worse. We shake our head.

"I promised myself I won't ever fall for him again" we say quietly. But since we never stopped loving him tho...

"You promised yourself you're going on a diet and look, here we are, eating fast foods" Rosalya jokes. "C'mon girl. I'm not saying you should go and kiss him again and became a couple. But you do have to talk. Clear things up, but this time without yelling at each other. It may be even your last conversation ever, but at least you will be over it".

...last conversation ever? That hit us. Cause we definitely don't want that one conversation to be the last one, even tho it ended with this hot, passionate, amazing kiss... Well, we mean... Uh...

"I guess..." we agreed. C'mon. We're adults, we can talk. We can even kiss again if we wish to do so. It's not a biggie. And we honestly feel bad about the situation now, we should apologize. At least for today, because we have been awful and he was nothing but nice, trying his best not to fight.

"Great!" She suddenly stood up. "Wait here. I know where they are, I'll just send Armin to you!" Without waiting for our answer, she run away, leaving us alone with the table full of food. We wanted to stop her but she gave us no time for this. We didn't want to talk to him NOW!!! No, especially not now! Not after...! Ugh...!!!!

We tried to just clear our mind and not panic, focusing eating out chicken burger and staring at the table and nowhere else, so we won't get nervous when we see him coming. It was the longest few minutes of our live. But then we heard his steps and we felt him stopping near the chair on which Rosalya sat earlier.

"Hi" he said awkwardly. He didn't sound mad. He should, we expected him to. If not mad about the fight, then mad about the kiss, since it was without his consent... Well, if he kissed us back, he theoretically gave us his consent, right? "Can I sit here?"

We nod and he does so. He waits for us to speak up. Is he worried we start to yell tak him again? What exactly did Rosalya tell him?!?!

"Help yourself if you want" we pointed at the food. It was too much for us to eat anyways. He smirked.

"No way. So I do get and invitation to eat with you after all?" He laughs. "Eating together, a kiss... Omg, babe, is that a date?" His playful tone annoyed us a bit, but only because it made us actually feel something warm inside.

"Shut up" we say shortly. "Rosalya paid for all of this anyways, so i'm at least not wasting my money on you"

We bit our tongue too late, it was already said. Shit. We intended to be nice, not mean. Shit shit shit.

"Ouch?" He wanted to tease us again, we know it because we know him, but he stopped himself. Again, what the hell Rosalya must have told him?!

"So..." We took a sip of our cherry cola. "Are you and Alexy alright?" Your question suprised him.

"Why shouldn't we?" He frowned.

"...because he told me about everything?" You reminded him carefully. "He said you might even hate him for this..." Poor Alexy. He meant good. Well, they both meant good, actually. It's just their ideas that sucked.

"Oh, right." That's it? That's the only thing he meant to say? Silence is slowly killing us. We don't look at him, we look at our strawberry milkshake. Maybe we should order a chocolate one instead? We hated its taste, because for us it tasted like sadness in liquid, but maybe that's what we needed right now. "I..." He spoke up again! "Well, I couldn't possibly hated him if it caused you to kiss me, right?" He teased. He teased!

"Sure thing." Two can play this game. "I indeed heard opinions before that my kisses are surely amazing" We just can't blush. Don't blush, Candy, do not blush!!

"How many opinions excatly?" Was he asking about how many guys we have been with since the break up? Damn...

"It doesn't really matter" we were playing with the straw of our drink. "I think... I think we have more important things to talk about"

And we did talked. This conversation was... A lot. As calmly as possible talking about our point of views, fighting the embarrassment when stating out loud the things that hurted us. We tried our best not to cry when we explained that we broke up with him because we thought he didn't love us anymore, because he wasn't showing his love in any way. And we couldn't stop the tears when he said how much the breakup hurt and confused him after all the effort he made to make us the best suprise he thought we deserved, so when he was talking, we just stared down so he wouldn't see our face. We also apologized for today, he forgived us. Even joked about it. But he was also serious, which was new, cause he usually avoided serious talks... Well, he usually avoided serious talks bach then. A lot of things have changed, we guess.

And then it was it. Everything was clear and the silence made things awkward again. And we were out of strawberry milkshake, so nothing could really save us.

"Do you..." We haven't expected Armin to speak up again "Why did you... Why did you kiss me?"

Fuck.

"Why did you kiss me back?" We asked instead. "It takes two to kiss. You could simply push me away"

"I didn't want to push you away"

"Well, you should have"

"Excuse me?" He leaned over the table. "Why should I?"

"Uh, because i'm your ex? And i've been awful to you today? Even said pretty awful things to you just seconds before it have happened?" We argued. "It only makes sense for you to do so"

"So I'm not making a lot of sense then, hm?" He played with a lock of our hair again, just like he did earlier that day. He had this mocking smile of his that i used to love do much... "Since I actually wanted it to happen from the moment I saw you"

He got us speechless for a moment. He can't just be saying things like that like they meant nothing! But we would never let him win.

"Yeah, I know, I got even hotter over the years" I tried to sound confident. "I hear that all the time"

"You're beautiful, indeed." Damnnnnn! Who taught this boy words like that? How would we not blush at this point?!

[they talk a bit, find rosalya and alexy, everybody goes home, time skip to some days later to the date with Armin, for which we agreed to talk about things once again and maybe about last three years and what we were doing too, cute illustration, we're happy. For two illustration choice, two different possible places for a date(like in kentins al)]

Scenario no.2

It's been days.

It's been days and thousands of unanswered calls from Rosalya, twice as much unanswered calls from Alexy. It was annoying, but also understandable, considering the fact that I left the mall without any goodbyes. They must know what have happened. Even if they haven't see the kiss themselves, Alexy found out about it for sure and of course told Rosa as well. We haven't checked any messages from them, we actually cut off from our phone for a while. The fact that university classes started tomorrow wasn't helpful. We were about to see them, after all, and we still didn't know what have happened and what should we tell them. We also started to get hungry, and ordering food to our dormitory was no longer an option since our new roommate, Yeleen, disapproved, and she turned out to be a difficult person overall, and we didn't need to antagonize her. We were going to live with her for a year, so we should try to keep pur relationship at least neutral. And to do so, we were forced to get out. This, or die of hunger. After all, what was the chances to meet any of our friends if we just quickly go to the café and back? Also, we needed to find a job, and they needed a new waitress, so we could already get over it and at least take a look at it. So we went out, a bit stressed out, quickly found our way to the desired place and with relief found no familiar face around. It needed to be done quickly.

We ate some baked goods we ordered and drank one of the best tasting coffee we had in our lives, and then, since there weren't a lot people around, we got up to talk with the only employee that was around, black haired asian boy. He was so nice! We joked with him, he actually explained what are they looking for excatly and how his experiences with this work are, the payments and all of different stuff. We introduced ourselves, his name was Hyun and we actually studied at the same university, just different majors. We started talking about school and people and campus and teachers, and we had such a good time that we actually forgot that we needed to go back as soon as possible. And we regret it soon after, because we see something we definitely haven't expected to see today. All three of them, Rosalya, Alexy and Armin, sitting at cafe terrace. It was a lost case, thay actually noticed us before, staring at us and Hyun through the window while we were talking. We started to sweat. We were afraid to meet just one of them today, and there it is, a combo. We were screwed. Our good mood disappeared and we quickly ordered another coffee to have some excuse to stay inside. We could leave now and they would confront us outside or we could just stay as close to Hyun as possible, praying to God they won't interrupt us. We sat on one of the chairs near the counter and our new friend excused himself for a moment, to take orders from new clients.

"Anyways, about working here, you have to talk to Clemence and she's not at here today." Hyun sighed when he came back. We hoped he hasn't noticed how pale we were.

"It's okay, it's not that urgent for me anyways. I just wanted to ask around first since my last job as a nightmare." We told him. "So you recommend?"

"Yeah, I think it's fine." We could feel the eyes of our friends (and Armin) on our back, but acted like it was nothing.

He started making their orders and we were just watching him, unable to speak. Maybe we should order some cookies. Or maybe, if we asked politely enough, he would let us leave through the back door? Well, all those ideas went to thrash as soon as we heard well known voice behind our back.

"Candy, can we talk?" Armin, really. Couldn't have it be Rosalya, or even Alexy? We would at least know what to tell them. We don't know why we nodded, maybe because it would just look weird if i didn't, so we went to sit at a different table inside.

"What do you want?" We ask quickly and coldly. Don't know if he expected it or not, don't care.

"Could we act like adults, please?" He insisted. "You know that we need to talk."

"We needed to talk three years ago, not now."

"At least one thing we agree on", he snorts. "We would, if you haven't blocked me everywhere!"

"Oh c'mon, if you really wanted to contact me, you would!" We accuse him. "Through someone, or you could even come and talk directly to me, you knew my address!"

"Why would I if you didn't want to see me?!" Armin starts to lose his patience. "Told you already, your message was pretty clear."

"Told you already, you're an asshole."

"Candy..." He runs his fingers through his hair, visibly trying to stay calm.

"No" we don't let him finish his sentence "we already told each other everything!" But we start yelling at him again, repeating the same things as this few days ago. We're even more angry and annoyed now, because confronting him was the last thing we wanted to do today. He listened to it, trying to interrupt a few times but unsuccessfully.

We were just going on and on about how much dumb he was when suddenly, he leaned over the table and kissed us.

We reacted just like him back then, stiffened at first, then kissing back. Mmmm, he tasted like coffee...

Wait, what?! We pushed him back instantly, now sober from his charm.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" We hiss.

"Testing your way to shut people up." He says casually, teasing us again. "You were the one to kiss me first, after all."

Our face goes red from anger. Or... Embarrassment? 'Cause holy shit, he was right. We were the one who started it, we had no right to attack him for that. Realisation got us speechless for a moment.

"Well, now we're even", we mutters after a while. "Can I go home now? My life's quite busy", we lie. In our room, the only thing waiting for us was disney+. Well, actually, after finding out disneyland is to blame for our breakup, we think we might switch to netflix.

"No, not until we talk." We hate him.

"We're talking now."

"You know that's not what I mean." He laughs, his laughs sounds so pretty, I hate it too. "Please, don't be difficult."

Now we just want to yell at him again. We bit our tongue.

"Fine, whatever." We stand up. "Hyun, could you please get me some cookies to go?" We ask, going to the counter and then we see terrified face of our new friend. We start to feel pity for him, having to watch this freaking show. We pay for our takeout. We also notice that Rosalya and Alexy actually disappeared, probably right after they got their orders. At least we don't have to face them too.

"Uh, where are we going?" Armin asks, standing right next to us.

"I don't know, somewhere we won't scare their customers away?" We say sarcastically. "The park will do."

We except him to argue about that, he used to hate any outdoors place, but he actually says nothing our whole way there. We eat our cookies, as we always eat something when we're stressed out. He has his both hands hidden in his pockets.

"I'm sorry" he says suddenly. We frowns. We didn't see that coming.

"What?"

"I said I'm sorry." He swallows his ego. "I really am sorry about... About how things ended between us. You... You were right" And again, something we did not expect to hear. "I should have told you something, I could have told you something without spoiling the suprise. I guess I was too... Hyped for it, for making you happy by it, to think it over". He chose his words carefully and we can't help but think that he must have already talked about it with Rosalya and Alexy. Maybe they were the ones who helped him realise that.

We don't say anything, so he continues.

"I would never, ever hurt you intentionally. I had no idea how you felt. I thought everything was great between us. I was too busy and tired with working to notice." Shame in his voice softens our heart. We still say nothing, lost in our thoughts. He waits.

"I'm... I am sorry, too" we admit. Those are the hardest words to ever leave our mouth. But as we say them, we realize that we do mean it. "For dumping you without even trying to talk to you. And for my behaviour last time we saw each other." We mean the in mall. We pause, but he doesn't speak up, he gives us all the time in the world as we walk along the alleys. "I... I really just thought you didn't love me anymore." We stared at the ground.

"I did love you."

Why past tense hurts us so much? We're long over him. We were just fine those last three years, so why now, why him again.

"I didn't know that" we noticed. "You weren't saying so. You weren't doing anything to prove so. Or at least that's how it looked like form my perspective" we whisper. Our ego begs us to stop this right now cause we just embarras ourselves, but we think he deserves to know. Since he was the one who opened up first.

Our conversation actually starts looking like talking, not just bunch of monologues fromm each side. He speaks up about how he felt after the break up, we do the same (he actually does have some idea, since he heard Rosalya's words about her crying for days about it). We heal.

We part at sunset, but he asks us if we're free on next friday evening, so we can continue. We agree, and we are thankful our next meeting with him is in five days, since we have a lot thinking to do. He probably does, too, and that's why he suggested a date so far away. We don't kiss goodnight (Why would we think we would?? Right, we kissed twice, but only to shut each others up! We're not suddenly together!!!). We don't turn around to look at him as we're going straight home. And while we're there, we text Alexy and Rosalya. We don't tell them what we were talking about with Armin and they do not ask, either, which is suspicious but relieving.

[and that's it i guess, and for 2 illustration choices we could idk, choose between park or staying inside, i don't know, i don't care, i just want 'comfort' since we've already got'hurt']

Scenario no.3

Holy shit, holy shit, h o l y s h i t.

"You kisses me" he states. Well no shit, sherlock, we fucking noticed! "Wha-Why did you kiss me?" He demands an answer.

Why would we kiss him? Why the hell have we done that?!?! We panic internally.

"Why did you kiss me back?!" That's the only one defense we could think of. It takes two to kiss, so he couldn't just blame us for it!

"You started it!"

"Well, you haven't stopped it!" We argued. We were the one to start it, but we were also the one to pull off. And he? He not only kissed us back, he hugged us tighter against him, deepened the kiss, added tongue. He was still, in fact, hugging us. We notice it just now and push him away quickly.

"It doesn't change anything?!"

"IT DOES?!?! I just wanted you to shut up already! And what's your reason?!" We yelled.

"IT'S NOT A REASON!?! There are other ways to make someone silent!"

"Just answer mine question!"

"No, because I asked you first!"

We started to fight again. Yelling without even making any sense, screaming, standing dangerously close each other again. We still feel dizzy after the kiss and at this point, we are not even aware of what are we saying.

"oh god YOU BOTH SHUT UP AND KISS AGAIN ALREADY!" Alexy screamed from somewhere behind us. We want to turn around and yell at him too, but Armin has other plans. He cups our face and actually kisses us again, as furiously as before. And we kiss him back immediately, our lips, our body begging us to get even closer to him. So much emotions, good, bad, but most importantly, so much desire... Damn, we missed kissing him so much... And it feels just as good as all those years before, it's the best feeling in the whole world. It actually reminded us of our very first kiss. Back then, we were angry with him as well. Irritated that he preferred to play a video game when we were standing just a few inches away. We accused him of avoiding us even tho we recently got closer than ever, hinting that we don't think he feel about us the same. We started to yell and then he kissed us, totally ignoring the "game over" sound. How come that our argument is now way more serious, but the emotions are excatly the same?!

We end the kiss.

"I... Whoa..." Were we just quoting him? He did said something like that back then, we think.

"Excatly..." And that was what we said. So he associated the two situations as well... He remembers as well...

How could we think he don't? He remembers even something as small and irrelevant as our regular order. And our first kiss was a big deal. We shouldn't have doubtet it.

"I haven't planned this", we continued this game. We remember him saying something about not having this in his schedule, but changed the words to suit me more. "But it was nice. I guess"

We couldn't care less about ruining everything and quoting ourselves this time.

"You 'guess'...?" His mocking smile, his freaking mocking smile that we hate so much. That we love so much. He pulls us closer against him. "I can do better, if you want."

Yes, please. Actually, no. We are the one to kiss him again, more gently this time. And it feels so, so good, but also so, so bad. We shouldn't be doing this.

"Told ya my idea was great." Alexy is so full of himself while interrupting us. Rosalya seems confused, but happy. We know she's gonna ask us bunch of questions later.

"It really was not" we tease, making both his and his brother's smile to fall. "We still haven't talked. So if you guys could just leave us alone..."

"Sure thing, babe." Rosalya takes Alexy's arm and they disappear soon after. We look at Armin.

"So... Talk, huh?" He caresses our cheek.

"I think...", we whisper, "i think talking can wait".

And we kiss him again.

[and again. aaand again. but they have to talk at some point, they have to think things over because everything happened way too quickly. so just as in other scenarios, they decided to meet some other day, alone, there is a time skip to the date and they do talk seriously and make everything clear before starting a possible relationship again.]

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I'm sorry for any mistakes, english is not my native language and i'm still learning it!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻 i just wanted to write it so badly and i hope you can forgive me hahahha

I need fluff. Like, we already had our "💣💥❤️‍🔥", now i want a "🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️", i need fluffy hurt/comfort, i need them being lovesick again sjoshsokajshsj

Let me know which of those scenarios would you like the most buahahahh

The best thing is, not a thing from this gonna happen. I know i said in the title that it might but, oh well, i lied ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

We probably get something different, hopefully even more cheesy and fluffy because we deserve it kaksksjsjs

(I used plural pronouns because i always talk like that when i'm playing, referring to both my Candy and me. It just came natural, i guess?? I don't know if it makes much sense tho skskkxks i was just speaking in the names of all the Candies in the world lololololol)

[mcl-alloveragain]

Also, Armin's Alternate Life got me streaming "Just Give Me a Reason" by P!nk, since i find it relatable to the storyline from the first episode jsksks

And when I imagine it even more angsty, I have a headcanon that Candy's breakup song that would make her cry instantly is "When I Was Your Man" by Bruno Mars, and she would just listen to it, hearbroken, and think that it could have been Armin singing since those are his mistakes but the difference is, Armin doesn't care💔

And then Armin's breakup song is "Grenade" also by Bruno Mars 😩 Cause he thinks she broke up with him because she didn't care about him anynore and got bored of waiting for him, when he was having so big plans to suprise her 😩😭

please dont talk to me i'm crying

[mcl-alloveragain]

I know this account is all about armin rn but it's just because i'm excited, i'm gonna write about other boys soon i promise snsnns

but also, i wanted to tell you that I LOVE this illustration and i think it's one of the best and i am so thankful for this gamer boi